FA+
Shop
to people who talk to me like they know me
General | Posted 16 years agosaying i don't know anything about suicide? yeah, it's not like i've been clinically depressed and suicidal for five years. it's not like i've attempted suicide. it's not like i've been in a psychiatric hospital because of it. it's not like i take five pills a day to make me happy (which doesn't even work). it's not like i think about it EVERY, FUCKING, DAY. you're not the only person in the world that's had a tough life. you're not special. you're just a retarded kid that thinks they're the only person in the world that's considered suicide. get over yourself you fucking prick.
i've been thinking about your idiotic thoughts about me for months. it's pathetic that i even acknowledge you. i guess i just have too much time to think.
i've been thinking about your idiotic thoughts about me for months. it's pathetic that i even acknowledge you. i guess i just have too much time to think.
moved accounts
General | Posted 16 years agoyeah i moved because i'm sick of all these bastards pestering me and i just want a new clean start, you know? anyway, if you want to find out my new account just send me a note or something..
No Subject
General | Posted 16 years agook, i hate you all, fuck off etc. (obviously i'm not meaning you guys. you know who you are). i just honestly hate all the mid 20's people acting like six year olds. it's pathetic, seriously. i know i shouldn't take them so seriously but i'm hypersensitive. it's hard for me to avoid things like that. i hope they're happy. i might have to go back to the hospital for this. fuck you. also shit, i got blood on my fucking pjs.
edit: i love how random people start to jump in.
edit: i love how random people start to jump in.
that's it
General | Posted 16 years agoi'm starving myself.
No Subject
General | Posted 16 years agostolen from clayton
Kissed any one of your FurAffinity friends? — unfortunately no.
Been arrested? — almost. i enjoyed breaking into that house.
Kissed someone you didn't like? — always. i have never kissed anyone i liked..apart from bryce.
Slept in until 5 PM? — yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? — yeah. school.. when i was like, six or seven.
Held a snake? — yeah, i love them.
Ran a red light? — i don't drive yet
Been suspended from school? — almost. lol..i pushed the dept. head over onto a blue board in the front hall.
Experienced love at first sight? — no. lust.
Totaled your car in an accident? — i don't have a car yet.
Been fired from a job? — no
Fired somebody? — no
Sung karaoke? — no
Pointed a gun at someone? — i think so. my dad had a gun.
Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — yeah. shared spit with the most annoying guy on earth.
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — no
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — yes
Kissed in the rain? — no
Had a close brush with death (your own)? — yeah. attempted suicide.
Saw someone die? — i think so.
Played Spin-the-Bottle? — yeah
Smoked a cigar? — no
Sat on a rooftop? — no, but i jumped off one many times. almost broke my ankles but i kept on doing it. i was like..twelve or thirteen.
Smuggled something into another country? — no
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? — no
Broken a bone? — yes
Skipped school? — many many times. i remember me and my friends were getting chased by the dept. head once. it was so funny.
Eaten a bug? — not on purpose
Sleepwalked? — no
Walked on a moonlit beach? — many times
Ridden a motorcycle? — no
Dumped someone? — no. never had a bf or gf
Forgotten your anniversary? — ...
Lied to avoid a ticket? — no
Ridden in a helicopter? — no
Shaved your head? — no
Blacked out from drinking? — i remember sleeping in a bathtub..
Played a prank on someone? — yes
Hit a home run? — i don't play baseball
Felt like killing someone? — every day. i have a mental list of people to kill.
Cross-dressed? — ..yes. it was my sisters idea.
Been falling-down drunk? — yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — ...
Eaten snake? — no
Marched/Protested? — no
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — wtf
Puked on an amusement ride? — no
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — i..don't know
Knitted? — yeah
Been on TV? — once. for a sign language thing.
Shot a gun? — no
Skinny-dipped? — no
Given someone stitches? — no
Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — no
Ridden a surfboard? — no
Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — yes
Had surgery? — no
Streaked? — no
Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — no
Tripped on mushrooms? — no
Passed out when NOT drinking? — almost. low blood pressure = fainting, feeling dizzy.
Peed on a bush? — yes
Donated Blood? — no. i want to though
Grabbed electric fence? — yes
Eaten alligator meat? — no
Eaten cheesecake? — yes. i don't like it though
Killed an animal when not hunting? — yes
Peed your pants in public? — no
Snuck into a movie without paying? — no
Written graffiti? — no
Still love someone you shouldn't? — yes
Think about the future? — i have no future
Been in handcuffs? — no
Believe in love? — yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? — sort of.
Kissed any one of your FurAffinity friends? — unfortunately no.
Been arrested? — almost. i enjoyed breaking into that house.
Kissed someone you didn't like? — always. i have never kissed anyone i liked..apart from bryce.
Slept in until 5 PM? — yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? — yeah. school.. when i was like, six or seven.
Held a snake? — yeah, i love them.
Ran a red light? — i don't drive yet
Been suspended from school? — almost. lol..i pushed the dept. head over onto a blue board in the front hall.
Experienced love at first sight? — no. lust.
Totaled your car in an accident? — i don't have a car yet.
Been fired from a job? — no
Fired somebody? — no
Sung karaoke? — no
Pointed a gun at someone? — i think so. my dad had a gun.
Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — yeah. shared spit with the most annoying guy on earth.
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — no
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — yes
Kissed in the rain? — no
Had a close brush with death (your own)? — yeah. attempted suicide.
Saw someone die? — i think so.
Played Spin-the-Bottle? — yeah
Smoked a cigar? — no
Sat on a rooftop? — no, but i jumped off one many times. almost broke my ankles but i kept on doing it. i was like..twelve or thirteen.
Smuggled something into another country? — no
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? — no
Broken a bone? — yes
Skipped school? — many many times. i remember me and my friends were getting chased by the dept. head once. it was so funny.
Eaten a bug? — not on purpose
Sleepwalked? — no
Walked on a moonlit beach? — many times
Ridden a motorcycle? — no
Dumped someone? — no. never had a bf or gf
Forgotten your anniversary? — ...
Lied to avoid a ticket? — no
Ridden in a helicopter? — no
Shaved your head? — no
Blacked out from drinking? — i remember sleeping in a bathtub..
Played a prank on someone? — yes
Hit a home run? — i don't play baseball
Felt like killing someone? — every day. i have a mental list of people to kill.
Cross-dressed? — ..yes. it was my sisters idea.
Been falling-down drunk? — yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — ...
Eaten snake? — no
Marched/Protested? — no
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — wtf
Puked on an amusement ride? — no
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — i..don't know
Knitted? — yeah
Been on TV? — once. for a sign language thing.
Shot a gun? — no
Skinny-dipped? — no
Given someone stitches? — no
Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — no
Ridden a surfboard? — no
Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — yes
Had surgery? — no
Streaked? — no
Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — no
Tripped on mushrooms? — no
Passed out when NOT drinking? — almost. low blood pressure = fainting, feeling dizzy.
Peed on a bush? — yes
Donated Blood? — no. i want to though
Grabbed electric fence? — yes
Eaten alligator meat? — no
Eaten cheesecake? — yes. i don't like it though
Killed an animal when not hunting? — yes
Peed your pants in public? — no
Snuck into a movie without paying? — no
Written graffiti? — no
Still love someone you shouldn't? — yes
Think about the future? — i have no future
Been in handcuffs? — no
Believe in love? — yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? — sort of.
i wish you loved me
General | Posted 16 years agoi need to get away from places where she is. does she want to be my friend? no. does she even like me? no. did she ever love me? no. i'm sick of this so much and i'm sure she is too. i should just get out of her life (and everybody elses) and just fucking kill myself already. jealousy and envy are wasted emotions but they will always be there. i feel so petty right now since i'm basing everything on FA and dA pages, but whatever.
balls, balls and more balls
General | Posted 16 years agostolen from tooth cause i'm bored shitless
Pick a word that starts with the third letter of your first name:
loser
The past 72 hours have you been under the influence?
no
What were you doing at ten last night?
sleeping since i was up for two days
What was the last thing you drank?
iced latte
Who was the last person you hugged?
my mum...i think
Did you have a dream last night?
i don't know
How many piercings do you have?
1 - my left eyebrow
If you could have something right now, what would it be?
brandon
Have you ever had a panic attack?
yep, loads
Have your parents ever smoked pot?
i smoke it with my mum sometimes
Last time you cried really really hard?
yesterday. i cry a lot. it's pretty stupid.
What's your favorite color?
green
Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
never really had a boyfriend (or girlfriend)
and i'm seventeen. god.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
probably. they all are.
Who texted you last?
myself. i text myself to remind myself to do certain things
myself x 3. i need to shut up.
Who was the last person you talked to in person?
my mum
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
i really don't know
Have you lost friends in the past 3 years?
i lost all my friends
Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
i've never really had a good day. fucking pessimistic twat.
Do you listen to music every day?
practically yeah.
Are you listening to it right now?
no. my rats chewed on my earphones and now they don't work
Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
no
Do you own more than one cell phone?
i used to have old ones lying around but i never used them
Whose phone number did you get last?
chris'
Have you ever been asked out?
a couple of times, yeah. all by guys. mostly at parties, and the odd guy would ask, "wanna fuck?"
Your current relationship status?
single as always
If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
i guess
Ever had a near death experience?
does hanging myself count?
What is something you do a lot?
cry, worry, shout, paint
If you could have one super power, what would it be?
i don't know
What do you usually order from Starbucks?
starbucks is for scene kids
Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
i've actually watched a few kiddy movies these past few weeks
like my all time favorite, the land before time.
What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
i was chewing gum. now i'm thirsty. gonna get some irn bru
Do you speak any other language?
some spanish, german and french.
What is your favorite smell?
new shoes
When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
yesterday i think
Ever been kissed in the rain?
no
What should you be doing?
fixing my door. i put my fist through it about an hour ago
Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
my sister
If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
uhh i don't know
Do you act differently around the person you like?
i try to be nice
What is your natural hair color?
dark brown
How many keys are on your key chain?
two
If you were given a canvas and watercolors, what would you paint?
whatever i want to
also i prefer acrylics
Whose mind, besides your own, would you like to control?
brandon's. fuck yeah.
What is the first thing you do when you get out of bed?
fix my junk
What are you thankful you are not doing right now?
i don't know
What is your favorite kind of candy?
flying saucers. mmm
What is your favorite thing about the beach?
dead crabs and hot people
If you were invisible, where would you go?
ohoho
What is one object in your home that you are embarrassed to own?
uhmm. probably my stuffed dog, prince.
Who is one person you wish you would have never met?
kallium. i can't believe i shared spit with him.
What is your favorite fruit?
apples or bananas. though i'm allergic to both.
What is your favorite kind of cookie?
i don't really like cookies
What do you need to get right now at the drug store?
more quetiapine
What was the happiest age of your life?
not sure
What color looks best on you?
all based on opinion
What is your favorite thing about being sick?
i feel awesome afterwards. like i'm clean on the inside.
What commercial do you find most annoying?
all of them. i hardly watch tv though.
What was your favorite meal growing up?
mashed potatos, butter sandwiches and..loads more i guess.
What body part aches you the most right now?
i fucked up my ankle a couple of weeks ago, still hurts like hell. thank god i'm getting it x-rayed. also i get like, five headaches a day. i think i'm starting to get one right now.
What is the longest you have ever gone without a shower?
whoa, about two months. seriously.
What was your 1st alcoholic beverage?
uhmm, my dad gave me budweiser when i was seven
Are you getting along with your parents?
more now than i used to << this
Whats on your feet right now?
nothing.
What do you think of your last ex?
never had a bf/gf
Are you a good speller?
quite
Is your hair curly or straight?
curly/wavy
Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
it was myself
Where is your phone?
on my bed
Last time you felt bad about something?
today
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
fuck no. unless they want to murder me.
Do you mind sleeping on the floor ?
i don't mind.
Honestly, do you hate the last girl you were talking to in person?
no
Spell your name without an E?
lliot
Pick a word that starts with the third letter of your first name:
loser
The past 72 hours have you been under the influence?
no
What were you doing at ten last night?
sleeping since i was up for two days
What was the last thing you drank?
iced latte
Who was the last person you hugged?
my mum...i think
Did you have a dream last night?
i don't know
How many piercings do you have?
1 - my left eyebrow
If you could have something right now, what would it be?
brandon
Have you ever had a panic attack?
yep, loads
Have your parents ever smoked pot?
i smoke it with my mum sometimes
Last time you cried really really hard?
yesterday. i cry a lot. it's pretty stupid.
What's your favorite color?
green
Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
never really had a boyfriend (or girlfriend)
and i'm seventeen. god.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
probably. they all are.
Who texted you last?
myself. i text myself to remind myself to do certain things
myself x 3. i need to shut up.
Who was the last person you talked to in person?
my mum
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
i really don't know
Have you lost friends in the past 3 years?
i lost all my friends
Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
i've never really had a good day. fucking pessimistic twat.
Do you listen to music every day?
practically yeah.
Are you listening to it right now?
no. my rats chewed on my earphones and now they don't work
Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
no
Do you own more than one cell phone?
i used to have old ones lying around but i never used them
Whose phone number did you get last?
chris'
Have you ever been asked out?
a couple of times, yeah. all by guys. mostly at parties, and the odd guy would ask, "wanna fuck?"
Your current relationship status?
single as always
If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
i guess
Ever had a near death experience?
does hanging myself count?
What is something you do a lot?
cry, worry, shout, paint
If you could have one super power, what would it be?
i don't know
What do you usually order from Starbucks?
starbucks is for scene kids
Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
i've actually watched a few kiddy movies these past few weeks
like my all time favorite, the land before time.
What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
i was chewing gum. now i'm thirsty. gonna get some irn bru
Do you speak any other language?
some spanish, german and french.
What is your favorite smell?
new shoes
When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
yesterday i think
Ever been kissed in the rain?
no
What should you be doing?
fixing my door. i put my fist through it about an hour ago
Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
my sister
If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
uhh i don't know
Do you act differently around the person you like?
i try to be nice
What is your natural hair color?
dark brown
How many keys are on your key chain?
two
If you were given a canvas and watercolors, what would you paint?
whatever i want to
also i prefer acrylics
Whose mind, besides your own, would you like to control?
brandon's. fuck yeah.
What is the first thing you do when you get out of bed?
fix my junk
What are you thankful you are not doing right now?
i don't know
What is your favorite kind of candy?
flying saucers. mmm
What is your favorite thing about the beach?
dead crabs and hot people
If you were invisible, where would you go?
ohoho
What is one object in your home that you are embarrassed to own?
uhmm. probably my stuffed dog, prince.
Who is one person you wish you would have never met?
kallium. i can't believe i shared spit with him.
What is your favorite fruit?
apples or bananas. though i'm allergic to both.
What is your favorite kind of cookie?
i don't really like cookies
What do you need to get right now at the drug store?
more quetiapine
What was the happiest age of your life?
not sure
What color looks best on you?
all based on opinion
What is your favorite thing about being sick?
i feel awesome afterwards. like i'm clean on the inside.
What commercial do you find most annoying?
all of them. i hardly watch tv though.
What was your favorite meal growing up?
mashed potatos, butter sandwiches and..loads more i guess.
What body part aches you the most right now?
i fucked up my ankle a couple of weeks ago, still hurts like hell. thank god i'm getting it x-rayed. also i get like, five headaches a day. i think i'm starting to get one right now.
What is the longest you have ever gone without a shower?
whoa, about two months. seriously.
What was your 1st alcoholic beverage?
uhmm, my dad gave me budweiser when i was seven
Are you getting along with your parents?
more now than i used to << this
Whats on your feet right now?
nothing.
What do you think of your last ex?
never had a bf/gf
Are you a good speller?
quite
Is your hair curly or straight?
curly/wavy
Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
it was myself
Where is your phone?
on my bed
Last time you felt bad about something?
today
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
fuck no. unless they want to murder me.
Do you mind sleeping on the floor ?
i don't mind.
Honestly, do you hate the last girl you were talking to in person?
no
Spell your name without an E?
lliot
