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Update | Hiatus Continuing | Without Internet
Posted 7 months ago Writing a new Journal for a bit of an update, my Hiatus continues especially now that I have no internet. I'm not sure how long I will be without internet but it will be some time. I am hoping to have it back within next month or sooner. I am still working through the process that I lost my mom. There's a lot around behind that. And it still bothers me to this day that my mom actually passed away the same day that my dad did back in 2011, almost the same age. I believe it was fated at the same time though. I'm more of a reclusive person than I ever was before, and I feel that I reverted back to a lot of who I once was. A lot has changed in my life and in me within the last few years, and I've had a lot to reflect on.
Once I return with internet, I'm going to be doing a mass amount of going through my characters and selling them. I have already sold a character of mine that everybody loved so dearly; but only his old design and markings. His name will however remain the same. I have been working on his new design in the background whenever I get The Muse to do artwork. A lot has stopped me from doing artwork in the past, a lot of crap happened that destroyed my muse and inspiration for artwork.. the same goes for my desire to role play as well.
Once I come back with internet I hope to be more inclined and inspired to do artwork again. Maybe even open for commissions, but a few at a time as I work 40 plus hours a week.
But once I go through all my characters and get rid of a boatload of them, then I may take on commissions or selling adoptables, Etc; we'll see how I feel and what inspires me.
I am eventually going to be working on moving out of where I currently live, even if it's not in the state of Florida. I really don't have anything holding me back anymore; I mainly only stayed for the sake of my mom because she needed me. I have nothing left really here in Florida for me. But we'll see how that goes in time. My main priority now besides saving up is to get my car fixed and on the road again.
But for now I'm going to continue working on feeling better as I caught something and have been sicker than a dog for the last few days, whatever I've caught has hit me pretty hard, and it's been a hot minute since I felt like crap. I'm still currently waiting to receive my Mom's ashes for her urn which came before her ashes did.
I'm never going to forget having four police officers at my door right and early to tell me that she passed away that morning, only a few hours before they told me. But they didn't care to tell me at her Rehabilitation Center that she was sick for two days before she passed. So I'm still sitting on that one too. For now I'm still processing her passing in general. My grieving is different than most people, I don't grieve in what people would say is the normality. I don't physically show grievance as much as I do internally. I guess that's what happens when you learn over the years how to hide your pain and put a facade on. I guess I'm still working on how to utilize what emotions are? I mean I never fully was able to fully grieve over my father passing and that was in 2011. I found myself cry a few times here and there over my mom passing, but eventually it'll probably hit me hard that she's gone. It'll eventually catch up to me.
Anyways that's my update for now, I know I don't have many people that really follow me or read my stuff or anything, but there you have it. Hiatus continues/ Dealing with a loss.
Posted 7 months agoMy Hiatus from the art world will continue until further notice. As My last journal stated that I was going through some things; and working on trying to find a new place to live.
However, today between 5:30 a.m. and 6:00 a.m. my mother who has been in the hospitals and Rehabilitation Centers for the last few months, has finally passed on today. I had four police officers deliver the news to me this morning outside my house; so I will be working on trying to process this news; as well as figuring out other things. She went and passed on the same day that my father had passed on back in 2011.
So it will be sometime before I start posting artwork, but to those that watch me actively, thank you for your support; and hopefully I'll get back to posting art again sometime.
However, today between 5:30 a.m. and 6:00 a.m. my mother who has been in the hospitals and Rehabilitation Centers for the last few months, has finally passed on today. I had four police officers deliver the news to me this morning outside my house; so I will be working on trying to process this news; as well as figuring out other things. She went and passed on the same day that my father had passed on back in 2011.
So it will be sometime before I start posting artwork, but to those that watch me actively, thank you for your support; and hopefully I'll get back to posting art again sometime.
On Hiatus until further notice..
Posted 9 months agoTo all those who watch me,
I will be going back on a Hiatus for some time. I am going through a really bad life change currently.
Last year, the months of August and September my mother had a stroke, and had to be hospitalized for a couple of weeks. Hospitalized and then placed in a rehabilitation center for physical therapies and more.
At the beginning of last month, November; my mother went in for a secondary stroke, which attacked the same side of her brain that attacked last time.. however, this time she has not been home still, and we have been finding out some bad news. She has kidney failure, and has to be on oxygen 24/7 because she cannot breathe without it. Just recently as of yesterday she was rushed to the ER again due to her oxygen levels decreasing rapidly. She has been unable to breathe, even with a oxygen mask on. Everything is decreasing, and getting worse; and I am distraught about it but I've been doing my best to keep my composure and keep myself stable.
I've been MIA from the art world for some time because I have not really had much of a muse to do any artwork, especially with a lot of stuff going on in my life; and now this? I will be on a Hiatus until further notice.
I will be going back on a Hiatus for some time. I am going through a really bad life change currently.
Last year, the months of August and September my mother had a stroke, and had to be hospitalized for a couple of weeks. Hospitalized and then placed in a rehabilitation center for physical therapies and more.
At the beginning of last month, November; my mother went in for a secondary stroke, which attacked the same side of her brain that attacked last time.. however, this time she has not been home still, and we have been finding out some bad news. She has kidney failure, and has to be on oxygen 24/7 because she cannot breathe without it. Just recently as of yesterday she was rushed to the ER again due to her oxygen levels decreasing rapidly. She has been unable to breathe, even with a oxygen mask on. Everything is decreasing, and getting worse; and I am distraught about it but I've been doing my best to keep my composure and keep myself stable.
I've been MIA from the art world for some time because I have not really had much of a muse to do any artwork, especially with a lot of stuff going on in my life; and now this? I will be on a Hiatus until further notice.
Potentially Moving.
Posted a year agoHey all,
So there has been a decrease in my artwork production, since I just have been lacking the muse to do it, along with other things.
However, in the on coming days and months, I may or may not spit out some more art or adopts for a myriad of reasons.
Alot has happened within the last few months, and how it has come down to the option and potential to move.. It's stressful as much as it is exciting; but the fact is; by the end of this year, beginning next year; I may be moving many states away from where I currently live; Florida.
I'm not going to go into much details, but just simply leave it as alot has happened, things changed; and now there's a decision in the air for moving; potentially.
Where to, is not being disclosed until after the move happens; if it does. It's not set in stone, as it's still under discussion, and more research given into the places we are looking.
However, this will also require me to end up finding a new job, when and if it happens. Seeing as my job I currently am at; has no stores where we are looking, so that means I will have to get a new job asap; which will increase the intensity of this move.
That's my update for now,
Have a nice day.Hey All.
Posted a year agoI been on a Hiatus for some time; basically considered on deleting everything for good. My Social Medias, my Art pages, ect. Wanted to completely cut myself off from the Internet world.
This is because I no longer feel that attached to the Internet world, which had been my escape for a long time.
However; that desire had run out for a long time.
My passion and love for art; was destroyed. When it had come to be; where I felt like I HAD to produce art, or felt forced to do art? I lost interest; especially when I felt like it wasn't appreciated. I have alot of unfinished pieces that I have been working on for months/years; that never got finished.
I will get bursts for the muse to do artwork, then it dies; or something comes up.
My passion is just dead for it.
Same goes for Roleplays, or writing.
Now it's effected my desire for even gaming, despite the fact that my younger sister bought me a new Xbox for my birthday for next month (April 6th.)
I've lost alot of passion for everything that I was so passionate about.
But it is what it is.
Here in the next few months, I will be hopefully starting a second job, and then working between my current job, and the new one; so I won't have much time for anything anymore.
I've been in the works for months now, on trying to find somewhere to move; and somewhere that would be just right, and I do have a few places saved to choose between.
I've been taking care of my mother since I was 13 years of age, and still am; even more now that she had a stroke a few months ago.. However, her health over all has been declining. She's not recovered from the stroke at all, and I feel she may end up suffering another at anytime.
These last few years.. have been very trying for me. Alot has happened within the last few years. Things that have made me question alot. But I came to terms with so much at the same time. I'm not one to go into details about stuff like that. No one really needs to know my personal business. I'm not the type to throw it out to the world either; like some people do.
However; that being said, I am actually planning on attempting to get back into art. I seem to still have some support for my artwork; and apparently people missing seeing my work. So I will be reposting some of my art in time. I only get one day off; Usually - two if I am lucky. Thankfully; I no longer work over nights anymore; so I do have the rest of the day for home.
Just keep an eye out, and we will see in time; all the old and new of my art.
I bid you all, Adieu for now.~
This is because I no longer feel that attached to the Internet world, which had been my escape for a long time.
However; that desire had run out for a long time.
My passion and love for art; was destroyed. When it had come to be; where I felt like I HAD to produce art, or felt forced to do art? I lost interest; especially when I felt like it wasn't appreciated. I have alot of unfinished pieces that I have been working on for months/years; that never got finished.
I will get bursts for the muse to do artwork, then it dies; or something comes up.
My passion is just dead for it.
Same goes for Roleplays, or writing.
Now it's effected my desire for even gaming, despite the fact that my younger sister bought me a new Xbox for my birthday for next month (April 6th.)
I've lost alot of passion for everything that I was so passionate about.
But it is what it is.
Here in the next few months, I will be hopefully starting a second job, and then working between my current job, and the new one; so I won't have much time for anything anymore.
I've been in the works for months now, on trying to find somewhere to move; and somewhere that would be just right, and I do have a few places saved to choose between.
I've been taking care of my mother since I was 13 years of age, and still am; even more now that she had a stroke a few months ago.. However, her health over all has been declining. She's not recovered from the stroke at all, and I feel she may end up suffering another at anytime.
These last few years.. have been very trying for me. Alot has happened within the last few years. Things that have made me question alot. But I came to terms with so much at the same time. I'm not one to go into details about stuff like that. No one really needs to know my personal business. I'm not the type to throw it out to the world either; like some people do.
However; that being said, I am actually planning on attempting to get back into art. I seem to still have some support for my artwork; and apparently people missing seeing my work. So I will be reposting some of my art in time. I only get one day off; Usually - two if I am lucky. Thankfully; I no longer work over nights anymore; so I do have the rest of the day for home.
Just keep an eye out, and we will see in time; all the old and new of my art.
I bid you all, Adieu for now.~
Selling Characters
Posted 2 years agoStill on an Indefinite Hiatus; however, I am going to be posting some characters to sell that I am no longer attached to, nor do I have the desire to keep them anymore.
Hopefully they go to new homes where they will be cherished.
Hopefully they go to new homes where they will be cherished.
Indefinite Hiatus.
Posted 2 years agoSalutations Everyone,
It is unfortunate to say, but after thinking on this long and hard, especially for a couple of months; I've decided.
I will be taking an Indefinite Hiatus.
I am unsure for when I shall return, but as of right now, It will be quite some time before I do.
Lately, I have not had the time, or motivation to put into my artwork, or even being active on the internet world, let alone even opening my laptop.
There has been many life changes that have occurred, and some situations that have taken most of my time, so I no longer have the time to devote to Artwork, Gaming, or Social Medias.
I'm not going to go into details or explain the things that have happened, as there is a lot, and many that are personal in my life; not that it matters anyways.
But as of today, I will be removing myself from the internet world,
and my association to it; until things settle down and become more stable again.
Until my return; I wish everyone the best in their endeavors.~