Hey guys! I'm glad to see my stories have gotten a few favourites over the few months they've been up. I'm really happy about that and very proud! Unfortunately, I'm afraid my level of output has completely dwindled, to the point where the only thing I've uploaded or even written in the last few months has been a tiny one-off piece about a ticklish and pleasure scene.

I guess I underestimated how much university would kick my ass. I've been concentrating hard on my work over the last couple years and my assignments take first priority. I've been working hard on that and it's taken over my life now. My thesis is due in just over a week so things are really kicking into high gear for me now and it's terrifying. However, university is going to be over soon, and with that comes some more spare time to start sparking my imagination and write some nice scenes again.

Please be patient as I go through this hard period of my life!

Thanks,

S

So, I've decided I'm changing my focus on writing. Rather than writing full-on stories, I'm going to write more, quick and dirty one shot sessions of characters (with a different girl as the focus each time), with the sessions continuing into multiple parts if needed. Making my writings more porn-focused and hopefully I will see more success with 'getting to the point'.

However, some sessions will be longer than others. Some will just be a page long, others will be multiple pages and chapters.

There's a story I'm working on right now, titled 'Rachel'. It is going to be a large, multi-part story of an introductory session between a sub and her new master. But with obvious creative liberties taken in its portrayal of BDSM, as in making the play a little harder.

I've got high hopes for this story, as I've already got five pages written. I've spent the better part of two weeks writing it and I'm actually pretty proud of how I'm going. But again, it suffers from the age-old problem of mine of 'getting to the porn'.

I guess that's just something to do with style. Others write full porn, I write a lot of padding and characters before I actually get into the acts. But neither style is worse than another mind, it's just different ways of doing it. Needless to say I'm going to work harder on getting right into the sex in my stories. After all, people don't read an erotica expecting Shakespeare.

Sorry I've been off so long from uploading stories, guys.

I have been having a harsh, stressful time with work and whatnot and I've just not been able to find the motivation to write a good story as I had before. I felt literally exhausted this last month, and too stressed to even think about writing properly. But I do intend to keep going!

My goals for the next few weeks:

-A good few updates for The Intruder.
I intend to continue writing this story as I really enjoy the situations I can put the poor sub into. I'm going to try to focus more on the smut and bondage now as I'm at that point in the story.

-Work on my 'Tickling and Bondage X-Factor' idea.
Unlike The Intruder this story will be pure smut from the start. It involves a character (I'm actually thinking of using a human character for this one) entering a 'Ticklish Talent Show' competition, that has become internationally the most watched TV show. She signs up, believing she's a dead cert for first prize (A large cash sum), as she is not ticklish.

However, she soon finds to her horror that the show has ways of making her ticklish enough to lose. The penalty for losing is that she consents to be a slave for life, imprisoned in the Tickle Show's 'slave vault' (a sprawling underground dungeon) along with the hundreds of other women who have failed to win the show, to suffer for the pleasure of sadistic men who hold shares in the Company's 'assets'. I'm really excited about this idea and really hope to develop it into a sexy universe. I really think it has potential.

I turn away from facebook and internet updates for a few moments to finish some writing and this is all over my feeds when I return:

Pokemon Omega Ruby and Alpha Sapphire Announced!

Needless to say my head is almost exploding with excitement. These were the last in the Pokemon series games I enjoyed before X and Y and the announcement of a remake fills my head with possibilities. I can't wait to make one of those secret bases again but in a shiny new updated world! I'm about as excited as I can be, and I'm definitely going to be buying Omega Ruby when it ships.

Funny how busy life can be, and funny how you can lose a lot of passion easily.

Over the last few months I've been really grappling with depression issues and beating them back. I'm at the point where I feel it is no longer a disability affecting a major part of my life. I'm running a half marathon on October the fifth for Cancer Research and Alzheimer Scotland. The training for it has been a very significant part of beating this illness, as well as the months of therapy.

As such I've been too busy and unmotivated to be able to write as much as I'd like to.

However, I'm coming back slowly but surely and I do have a story to write and a couple fantasies I'd like to indulge through them. Mostly foot-fetish and bondage stories, of course. Hoping they turn out well.

Bandwagons are fun, right? And since I have been suffering from terrible writer's block (at least, when it comes to my porn writing), I decided to have a go at the 'ole BDSM quiz style thing. The following is how I scored, some surprising results:

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Submissive
100%
Experimental
100%
Bondage
96%
Degradation
89%
Masochist
86%
Sadist
86%
Exhibitionist / Voyeur
57%
Switch
57%
Dominant
29%
Vanilla
14%

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I seem to be very strongly into bondage, degradation, sadism/masochism and mostly experimentation. I'm apparently 100% submissive, which I guess is true in a way for me; I am inclined that way, despite my occasionally 'dommy' tendencies. For me, I LOVE the idea of being a sub and I'm obsessed with it. I'm actually in talks with a wonderful woman who has decided to be my Mistress and Owner, and we're considering going 24/7 at some point (the main difficulty being with money).

But I don't know about how some of the questions were. There was a couple about how I feel pleasure is important; is it more important that the partner get gratification than for me? Well, I feel very strongly about that; I will always ALWAYS think that my partner's sexual enjoyment is more important than my own. Even in a dominant situation. I think it's always about fulfilling the other person's needs. But that's just me. The quiz is what I expected with a bit of surprise so that's always interesting. :)

So, it's been a while since I was last on! Man, university can really get in the way of life sometimes, can't it? ^_^; sorry folks!

Anyway, hope that everyone's lives are doing well. Personally, mine is pretty good. I'm beating my depression back quite well and I've even managed to get my mental state so well sorted I've applied for a bunch of part time jobs! Obviously, it would knacker my free time a lot more but the fact that I can actually get a nice job is a big positive on the part of my mental state. I've applied to one of my dream jobs actually. Decided to go out and give life a big try.

I've applied to be a club assistant at an after school club in the local community centre. It's always been my dream job to be a teacher and give something to children, give them a better experience and start in life than I ever got. After all my bullying through primary and secondary school, and some in college, I want to do my bit to stop that from ever happening to another child. This job will hopefully be my foot on the ladder, get some more formal experience working with children on the way to getting to be a teacher.

As for my 'other' side of life, well that's going swimmingly. I still am in good discussions with the subbie and hopefully the meet is going to occur in the next month or so. Things between us are good and we've worked out a lot of things about what we like and dislike in each other.

In university life, I'm doing well enough I guess. Aside from somehow managing to scrape Algorithmic problem solving, I'm doing very well in my programming languages and my psychology is as easy for me as ever. Human Computer Interaction I'm finding to be a very...odd...course, but not bad.

All in all things are on the up.

As for stories, more to come of course. I've recently been inspired by some of the other more erotic stories I've read. My next one may turn out to be a departure from the realistically 'nice' scenes and I will delve into some darker things. I've come to realise that some things are okay in the context of fantasy, as long as when practicing activities in real life you always take the appropriate constraints. So I'm going to try to write something a bit more naughty in my next update.

Over the last couple weeks or so I have been chatting to a wonderful sub from another website. She is an absolutely wonderful person and a pleasure to talk to. I really am happy to have had the luck to experience talking and roleplaying with such a good person. If this sub, who I call 'Paws'-she knows who she is-is the future of BDSM and kitten play-then BDSM and kitten play has a very bright future to look forward to indeed!

I have learnt much from our interactions but I think the real, take-home message I took from our experience and my own thoughts is this:

Submission is a thing to be cherished. It is a gift of no small significance that is given at will by the submissive half. Dominants and submissives, to me, are equals who fulfill roles. One is not inherently 'lower' than the other. A submissive is not a piece of meat to be abused, but developed into a better sub, and given the life she can enjoy by a Dominant who s/he can trust. Submission, and the trust that comes with it, is something that a Dominant has to earn. Nobody gets submission by right.

The key thing is, I really have come to cherish and value our interactions, and I'm beginning to wrap my head around this crazy D/s world. I think I will continue to pursue relations with Paws. We're currently arranging a meet at the cinema. Getting the nerves thinking about it.

I think with Domination, my main thing is to be a friend as much as a Dom. I want my sub to talk to me, to communicate, which is something I think is very important. I also feel it is the Dom's responsibility to look after the sub. I found when I was roleplaying with Paws, things got a bit intense and she once got a bit upset. I noticed this right away and called 'Yellow' and gave her a good talk about the purpose of punishment and why she was getting it at that point. We kind of semi-roleplay, where I give orders and she obeys them partly in roleplay, partly in her actual real life if practical, so I try my best to help. Ultimately, I want my kitten, my pet to be the happiest she can be with me. So, I do find it is important to look after, and observe the sub during play. Keep an eye out for anything and always be ready to call on a safeword if something is amiss and most importantly, talk!

In other news, I've discovered I LOVE to give a good caning. xD

If anyone wants to chat with me further then I will be happy to. ^_^ I'm always happy to talk about kink. It's increasingly becoming a passion.