I have open commissions right now. $45 for a full scene, 20% off for multiple pictures

Needing money for food right now, so dont send anything to my paypal as it's overdrawn from a chargeback.

The paypal i am using right now is Jake's it is RJ5811347[at]gmail.com

Jake gave me his old computer, which is way better than the one I was using before. Im reformatting it right now so I can start from new.


Im pretty excited!

I still owe paypal $50 for whatever came out of my account months ago (it may have been a charge back) but once I get that $50 caught up in can actually start making a little money!

I have 2 commission spots open, both full scenes, I can help you sort ideas for pose, background, ect. Or if you want to give me artistic freedom that works too!

Each spot is $45 if you buy multiple commissions from me at the same time I knock 20% off the total.

Shoot me a note if you are interested

Something came off my paypal months ago and over drew it by like $90

Ugh.

I was hoping to do 1 or mare commissions in return of you paying off my balance.

I owe just under $50 at this time!

Would really like to get my balance cleared so I can start making money

Hey guys, it's been a while. I was working a lot and just spending my off time vegetating.

Well because of disability related reasons I quit my job, I'm looking for a new one but until then, I am opening up commissions.

We have 1 working computer and my drawing tablet, so I'm ready to do this!

If anyone would like a commission right now I'm offering 20% off your total if you order multiple pieces!

So besides quitting my job things have been ok, mental health has been rough, but besides that we are doing alright.

I need to help as much as I can with bills so I need to try to make some money lol

But our rent is paid, our animals are fed, and we have a little food even!

Hey guys, it's been a while.

I have been working a lot, so has Jake. We are just trying to climb out of this financial hole we are in.

So my back pain has come back, dr at the ER told me it looks like arthritis in my back. I also have leg pain on both sides but mostly my left side. My left leg is also super weak and numb from the middle of my shin down to my foot.

The dr gave me 5 days worth of a muscle relaxer, and told me not to drive or work while I'm on it.

Jake is really upset and won't let me give my work the dr note, so I told him I just need tuesday off (i work Tuesday, Thursday, friday) but he is mad about that too.

The dr told me part of the reason I ended up in a wheelchair before is because I just kept pushing through and not taking breaks.

Jake wants me to work because we need the money so basically if I need to take the day off I need to find a way to get the $200 that I would be getting for working that day

Anyone wanna help out? Maybe? No?

Well my paypal is mentzernova[at]gmail.com

Im so lost. I don't wanna end up in a wheelchair again, and I do feel like i need the day off, but dang. I dunno how to get $200 extra. I would sell commissions but it would be done on my tablet and I'm not as confident with the tablet, your commission might be questionable

Maybe a artistic freedom commission on my tablet for $100 each?

So i could sell 2 and make enough money for a break

I dunno

Let me know if you want one i guess

Besides that I. Doing good. Found out last week that I had a few infections and that's why I was always feeling sick. After some antibiotics I'm feeling a lot better thoiugh

If anyone wants to get me anything I put together a wishlist.

I would especially like a walking pad as I am going to be getting weight loss surgery soon and that would help me a lot!

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share

Would love anything though!

Just recently got a vertical labret piercing, could use new jewelry for that, also gauged my ears, need jewelry for them 😀

We need food

Payday isn't until Friday

Just hoping for a little to get us by until we get paid

Paypal: mentzernova[at]gmail.com

The dogs and cats are super low on food and payday isn't until Friday.

I can do headshots on my new tablet for $15 each.

Need to Make about $40 to get all of then the food they need.

If you want a headshot send me a note

Paypal: mentzernova[at]gmail.com

Im typing here because no one i know is on this site and I don't know where else to get my thoughts out.

I am not well.

All I can think about is losing weight. Calories. Fasting. Not binging.

My eating disorder is back in full force and I'm realizing that when I "recovered" from it when I turned 18-ish I didn't actually recover, it just turned from anarexia/ restricting and fasting into massive binge eating disorder.

I started eating my feelings instead of starving them.

I started stuffing myself for control instead of starving myself for control.

No one believes me. No one cares.

Everyone sees what I'm doing. I'm open about my fasting and restricting with everyone and they are cheering me on because I am obese.

I am disgusting.

I am doing everything I can to try to get clothes that make me feel better about myself, a walking pad, anything to make me feel better but I don't have money.

It's convenient really, I fast for 48 hours no problem, and we don't have food. So whatever is there, Jake can have.

Im just so over it all.

I am not doing well.

But at the same time fasting makes me feel so good. My body craves it. My brain craves it. It makes me happy, makes me feel good.

I dunno where I'm going with this.

Just needed to get my feelings out

Jake is letting me use his tablet, I found a free drawing program that has pretty much all I need in it, I wanna practice

I could really use the money as well as we are... well in the hole pretty far

If anyone wants a commission shoot me a note, I'm thinking headshots for $15?

It's been 48 hours since I ate something and I'm really hungry

I don't get paid till Friday

Paypal: deannamentzer[at]gmail.com

Like seriously?

I have a budget put together that I follow very closely, and even with that we are left with nothing for food, i was able to buy food a couple of days ago thanks to you guys, but here I am again, I actually started a timer to see how long I will have gone without food

I'm at 32 hours now with no food, we don't have anything for Christmas dinner nothing.

I get paid on Friday but it all goes to rent so I won't even get to buy food.

I'm just so close to giving up and ending it guys

This struggle is horrible.

Selling 1 $30 artistic freedom commission.

You may get anything from a bust to a half body, you will get a background with it.

I will be doing this on my phone as practice.

Send me a note if you would like to claim this

I could really use the money

I am starving.

I haven't eaten since yesterday and I have a negative balance in my bank account.

Does anyone have like $20 to spare?

Paypal: mentzernova[at]gmail.com

I downloaded a drawing app on my phone 😆

If anyone wants a phone doodle you are looking at $10 for a headshot

I also have my sketchbook with me, if you want me to sketch something up for you it would be $20

I will get the colors as close as possible in the sketch book. I have a lot of color pencils but not unlimited lol

I am using this money to save up for a pair of smart glasses.

If you wanna help out send me a note!

Paypal: mentzernova[at]gmail.com

Guys. In my pursuit to find something to help alleviate my symptoms that I deal with more often, I came across smart glasses, where you can take videos at any time just by a quick touch of a button. As a lot of you know I have schizophrenia, this would come in handy when I am seeing or Hearing things that aren't really there, I can take a quick video, look at it, and see that they aren't on the video, I know this works because I have done it with my phone. Often enough I am too nervous or don't have my phone on me when I need it. These glasses would be a huge game changer

The ones I am looking at around around $200. And I would need to get them in my prescription.

I want these so bad though, not only for the practical use of alleviating symptoms but also because I'm a tech nerd lol

Anyone use these before?

Hey guys, I'm still alive, still kicking.

I was gunna post a christmas amazon wishlist but I feel lowzy asking for anything.

Right now I'm just working, saving up for a tablet so I can get back to drawing, and working on losing weight.

I hurt my foot at work last week, so I'm at a new (easier) house this week until my foot is better

I don't mind it.

I really wish I could draw though.

I miss it so dang bad.

Anyways I hope you all are doing well!

Merry Christmas to those who celebrate!

Trying to pick up some food for us that will last today and tomorrow.

Really need like $15.....

We are super hungry and don't get paid till friday

I put it on an Amazon Wishlist.

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share

I want it SO.BAD.

These are not only supposed to help train your waist but relieve back pain, which is something I struggle with a lot.

Im just waiting on my laptop to be fixed so I can get back to the art stuff for you guys.

I really wanted to get a tablet to use instead but that is just out of my price range

If someone wants to fund a tablet for a BUNCH of art hit me up 😆

Anyways life has been alright, just working a lot, I really like my new job, and the company I work for is awesome

The house I'm in is a lot more dangerous than the last one I worked at, but there is more staff here so it doesn't bother me.

We are making enough to survive, we won't be able to celebrate christmas this year obviously because we don't have money for it, but maybe next year or something, I dunno

Besides that, yea, just waiting on a paycheck with enough extra money to repair my laptop so I can get back to doing art again, I miss it.

I started my new job on Wednesday, tonight is my last night at this job. The individuals that I was supporting here were crying before bed knowing I was leaving after tonight.

But it's for the best for my well being and my mental health

I am also dieting a bit, trying to get healthier. I want to do meal planning but I can afford to even get containers to put meals in, which is annoying really.

Jake got a big turkey from his work and he was gunna cook it up and we were gunna slice it into small helpings for my meals with a little rice and veggies... but then we couldn't afford the rice and veggies lol. So annoying

But I get turkey none the less, I'm hoping to lose weight, I am exercising again and doing things to improve myself.

Makes me feel good

Some lovely people sent me some money to help me out and I sent it to my bank account so I could use it, only to find out that my bank account was overdrawn so it sucked up all of the money 🙄

That figures.

I'm kinda looking around at tablets right now for the purpose of being able to draw again, especially while at work, as my laptop is broken and I need portability.

I really want to be able to continue using SAI as that is the program I am most comfortable with, bit from what I'm reading SAI can only be used if the tablet's OS is windows

I don't have the time or patience to spend a bunch of time unlocking features, ect, and from what I am seeing on a few of the tablets like the surface pro and fusion, you can only use apps off of the MS app store 🥴

I am not able fan of apple, I have no apple products and I don't know how to use them.

I am looking for something affordable that I can use paint tool SAI on, with a pen, a decent amount of storage, or the possibility of a micro SD at least.

Anyone have any ideas?

I honestly don't have the money for one right now but I would kinda like to see how much I need to save up

I have been working with this current place for 3 months now and I have seen them doing a lot of things that I just don't agree with.

The way they "care" for the individuals that we support, and even their staff, I just couldn't get behind it.

So although I care DEEPLY for the individual that I support, I went on looking at other job opportunities in the same field.

One place reached out to me a month ago, I was casually looking at the time, not really sure that I wanted to leave my current situation, they wanted to set up an interview and I ended up telling them that I thought it was better for me to stay with my current company as I would miss the individuals I support too much.

After a month of changes within my current company, them hiring a EXTREMELY rude assistant manager, discontinuing a needed medication for one of the individuals, and showing no support for me as staff when I was being beat up on by an individual (yes this is part of the job, but at the same time it was preventable if they just cared about her a little bit) I decided it was in my best interest to finally take the plunge and seriously consider other job options.

I texted the lady back, letting her know that my situation had changed and if they were still interested in interviewing me as a prospective employee I would be interested.

They contacted me yesterday. I set up a interview for next week, then they contacted me again today saying they had an opening for a interview today if I was interested.

Of course I was 😆

I was in the interview for all of like... 10 minutes and they were like "yea we would like to hire you" 😆

I make $20 an hour at my current job, the new place was offering me $16 an hour, I told them this pay cut unfortunately wouldn't work for me. I ended up talking them up to $18 and hour, it's still a heafty pay cut but it's better than the latter.

I put in my 2 weeks notice at my current job, the individuals that I support there are really attached to me so I worry about how they will take the news of me leaving, although I'm going to give them both my phone number and tell them that they are welcome to text me as much as they want.

I will be sad to leave them, and this new job does sound like it will be more difficult, but I need to be with a company that I can fully support, and will support me and the people we care for.

That is what is really important to me.

So right now, I'm sitting with a -$52 balance in my paypal (someone forced a refund on a finished NSFW commission a week or 2 ago and I still haven't been able to pay up the balance) my bank account is at $0 and my credit card is maxed out.

I get paid in a few days, but it's a small paycheck due to my boss screwing me out of some hours, and pretty much my whole check is going to bills.

I know it will only get worse with the pay cut, but I'm also working shorter days and they allow overtime so I might try to pick up extra hours where I can so I can get these bills paid off and start ACTUALLY living my life.

Being an adult is stressful I swear.

The good news however, is that my therapist is helping me go back to school! I did a lot of thinking about what I want to do with the rest of my life, and I landed on either being a licensed therapist, or really going for it and becoming a psychiatrist. Both jobs would bring me a lot of satisfaction, both are needed, and both pay pretty well.

We will be looking at me going back to school either this spring or next fall if all goes according to plan.

I also had a dr appointment today, I am trying to quit smoking right now, and I am also looking into weight loss surgery, which is something I have been wanting for a few years now, so that is really exciting.

I have a appointment with my psychiatrist and my therapist tomorrow.

Besides some depression my mental health has been doing pretty good, I really like my new therapist, so hopefully this one will be around for a while (everytime I get comfortable with a therapist they quit their job 🥴 it seems to happen about every 6 months)

Also my laptop is broken right now, not turning on, screen is black, ect. So until I am able to make some decent money I have to put art on hold. It could be up to a month and I might have to pay one of those super expensive places and do one of those monthly payments for something just so I can work on commissions.

Otherwise I need something around $800 to get just a cheap laptop to work on, although tbh i would rather just get a tablet at this point. Something with windows so I can continue to use SAI.

I dunno, I don't have money for either one at this point and bills come first

Ugh, again, so freaking stressful, and art was like my #1 stress reliever so I don't know what to do at this point.

Again, depression, that is my go-to when everything seems against me I guess.

Oh well!

Anyways if you made it this far I am quite impressed. This was a long journal 😆

Because apparently doing a charge back when I am already dealing with no pay from my job is a good way to kick me while I'm down.

Anyways.

Willing to do a 1 character, full background, in my most expensive style.

Only need to sell one as the charge back was less than $55