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General | Posted 3 months agoHello, everyone! <3 I missed you! Long time no see.
I’m sorry for the ominous last tweets of mine. I’m not dead, and I’m definitely not sick anymore. I should have kept you all in the loop about what was happening, and I didn’t mean to make anybody worry. 😖
I’ve been struggling with my mental health and anxiety. The constant fight-or-flight has left me feeling pretty disconnected from everything in my life. I’m going to keep it brief because it hasn’t been exactly easy to talk about this, but I’ll try to keep going and get out of this rut. I want things to get better.
I can’t believe it’s been over 9 months since I’ve posted something. It all feels like a blur. If you’re still there, i appreciate it. I’ll try to be more active and deeply hope to reconnect with you all again. Thank you for your patience with me, and thank you for understanding.
I’m sorry for the ominous last tweets of mine. I’m not dead, and I’m definitely not sick anymore. I should have kept you all in the loop about what was happening, and I didn’t mean to make anybody worry. 😖
I’ve been struggling with my mental health and anxiety. The constant fight-or-flight has left me feeling pretty disconnected from everything in my life. I’m going to keep it brief because it hasn’t been exactly easy to talk about this, but I’ll try to keep going and get out of this rut. I want things to get better.
I can’t believe it’s been over 9 months since I’ve posted something. It all feels like a blur. If you’re still there, i appreciate it. I’ll try to be more active and deeply hope to reconnect with you all again. Thank you for your patience with me, and thank you for understanding.
I made a TELEGRAM channel!!
General | Posted a year agoHELL YEAH COME ON IN!! NO NERDS ALLOWED
https://t.me/+7yG5CUuKzB9mZmMx
also 18 plus please, obviously
https://t.me/+7yG5CUuKzB9mZmMx
also 18 plus please, obviously
Should I make a Patreon/Substar?
General | Posted a year agoI'm gonna try to bump this as much as possile so I made a journal too! sorry if it's annoying!
Okay so money is tight, and starting a paywall for those who want to support me more directly and get benefits has always been something i've put off due to high anxiety surrounding the idea. Thoughts like "what if my art isn't good enough?', "What if people don't care?", "What if I mess up?" , and other fun inner demons have showed up to stall me. But I think I should be ready to launch one very soon.
That said, to those potentially interested in supporting, what would you like to see from me? Early access? More sketches/wips? Exclusive content? Any and all suggestions are very much appreciated!
Okay so money is tight, and starting a paywall for those who want to support me more directly and get benefits has always been something i've put off due to high anxiety surrounding the idea. Thoughts like "what if my art isn't good enough?', "What if people don't care?", "What if I mess up?" , and other fun inner demons have showed up to stall me. But I think I should be ready to launch one very soon.
That said, to those potentially interested in supporting, what would you like to see from me? Early access? More sketches/wips? Exclusive content? Any and all suggestions are very much appreciated!
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General | Posted 2 years agojust finished uploading most of my works to here straight from my twitter! Some of them i skipped over due to not feeling proud of them.
my head hurts -.-, that was the most tedious shittt
itaku is also updated. i’ll try my best to keep all of my sites updated for those who (understandably) avoid twitter at all costs.
-Thanks!
my head hurts -.-, that was the most tedious shittt
itaku is also updated. i’ll try my best to keep all of my sites updated for those who (understandably) avoid twitter at all costs.
-Thanks!
I'm tired rant + a question!
General | Posted 2 years agoThe sob story ranty part.
I've been heavily struggling against the clock lately. Due to the full-time job that I work (and hate) alongside other things going on in my life, I can barely squeeze any time to the side to draw or do anything else. Anyone who has tried to reach out to me, make friends, etc will probably know that I rarely respond consistently. It's always "I'm sorry.", "I'm busy" or something in between hours apart each message. My job takes a lot of time from me, and has left me to feel on the verge of burnout pretty often with me staying up late at night to get things done, leading me to repeat a toxic cycle of staying up late and showing up to my job exhausted, just to get off a tiring shift and force myself to draw again for hours, getting the bare minimum of sleep, food, self care, socializing, etc required to barely function during the day which causes me to get even more tired, and more uninspired to do pretty much anything. My mental health suffers, my creativity dies, and I become bitter. The cycle repeats. This admittedly has made me feel hopeless for the situation to get better more than once, and I'm making this journal with some of the hope I have left.
Why am I doing this to myself? Basically, I feel stuck. I don't want to keep having to work this lifeless job that my family has forced me in, always feeling like I could be doing more fulfilling things with my time. My frustrations with my circumstances are what motivates me to improve my art, so I can make..something out of it. Because right now it's just something I do for fun. I absolutely love it, but if I'm not even rested enough to do what I want and am always forcing myself to work a lifeless job on the side, I really can't do anything. I'm sure a lot of you can relate with how abhorrent working a full time job can be.
The Question:
Because of this, I've been thinking of making a patreon/subscribestar, or some kind of thing for side income if those two are too difficult for me to manage. That way I can draw more while also keeping my income steady with plans on quitting my full time job, leaving more time to provide my art to you all and set up a schedule that allows me to rest sufficiently for more high quality art!
What do you all think? Would you be interested in that kind of a thing? I'm not even sure how to really...do patreon and all that stuff really, but I am open to suggestions. Thanks to whoever cares enough to read this, and double thanks to those who respond!
I've been heavily struggling against the clock lately. Due to the full-time job that I work (and hate) alongside other things going on in my life, I can barely squeeze any time to the side to draw or do anything else. Anyone who has tried to reach out to me, make friends, etc will probably know that I rarely respond consistently. It's always "I'm sorry.", "I'm busy" or something in between hours apart each message. My job takes a lot of time from me, and has left me to feel on the verge of burnout pretty often with me staying up late at night to get things done, leading me to repeat a toxic cycle of staying up late and showing up to my job exhausted, just to get off a tiring shift and force myself to draw again for hours, getting the bare minimum of sleep, food, self care, socializing, etc required to barely function during the day which causes me to get even more tired, and more uninspired to do pretty much anything. My mental health suffers, my creativity dies, and I become bitter. The cycle repeats. This admittedly has made me feel hopeless for the situation to get better more than once, and I'm making this journal with some of the hope I have left.
Why am I doing this to myself? Basically, I feel stuck. I don't want to keep having to work this lifeless job that my family has forced me in, always feeling like I could be doing more fulfilling things with my time. My frustrations with my circumstances are what motivates me to improve my art, so I can make..something out of it. Because right now it's just something I do for fun. I absolutely love it, but if I'm not even rested enough to do what I want and am always forcing myself to work a lifeless job on the side, I really can't do anything. I'm sure a lot of you can relate with how abhorrent working a full time job can be.
The Question:
Because of this, I've been thinking of making a patreon/subscribestar, or some kind of thing for side income if those two are too difficult for me to manage. That way I can draw more while also keeping my income steady with plans on quitting my full time job, leaving more time to provide my art to you all and set up a schedule that allows me to rest sufficiently for more high quality art!
What do you all think? Would you be interested in that kind of a thing? I'm not even sure how to really...do patreon and all that stuff really, but I am open to suggestions. Thanks to whoever cares enough to read this, and double thanks to those who respond!
I made an Itaku!!
General | Posted 2 years agoBecause twitter and FA have been acting sus lately, I've decided to make an Itaku. Plus I do want to experiment with more themes in my art that i'm unsure if these two platforms allow.
Gimme a follow if you're interested in seeing the drawing i'm working on once it's complete!
https://itaku.ee/profile/debuatnight
Gimme a follow if you're interested in seeing the drawing i'm working on once it's complete!
https://itaku.ee/profile/debuatnight
yeesh sorry about that,
General | Posted 3 years agosorry about that art spam. I’ve been way behind on my posts on FA. i’m done now, and I’ll try to do better when it comes to posting here. For those curious, I’m a lot more active on Twitter. That’s where primarily post my art.
