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I've finished my new account! If you still want to catch up with me, you can watch me again here. http://www.furaffinity.net/user/archnegisis/

I've made a new account due to technical difficulties. Though, I've made the most of the difficulties and my new account is going to be a more "furry" me! Once you get to my account, you can read up on the first journal for the news, if you're interested. Some people have more important things to do, like dominate the world.

24 hours from now I'm going to be deleting this account! The only thing I'm leaving behind is my scraps, I don't want to repost them. Besides, I'm trying to be more furry and my scraps are NOT furry things. I'm keeping my main posts.

I'm having UNBELIEVABLE technical issues! It has to do with my emails. Somehow my professional gmail got itself a hotmail! It doesn't have any settings or anything and is screwing up my Zune Software terms of service. I've tried to fix the problem from every angle, and somehow my moms email is mixed into the ordeal as being the parent account of my magically created new hotmail. Yet, my original hotmail, deceasedbubble, is supposed to be the parent account. Still, Zune says my yahoo account, which I NEVER used, is the parent account, but I can't log into that one for some **** reason. My original hotmail is DeceasedBubble@hotmail.com, but now I have 2, the next one is tbotruff@gmail.com. Somehow, this gmail.com is a HOTMAIL! I'm gonna bust the screen...

Well, that's just 30% of the problem of my emails. I've always wanted to do this and now I have a very good reason to do it. I'm making a new account on FA. I will also delete my deceasedbubble hotmail and FA account after I have my new, formal and complete, Archnegisis accounts done. New hotmail will be Archnegisis@hotmail.com. New FA account will be, obviously, Archnegisis.

Don't look for me. I'll still have my old account before I finish and will use it to watch all you guys again + re-post and re-edit all of my belongings. Once I do this I'll be much more organized, email-wise.

Oh, I'll re-favorite everyone's posts that I've favorite-ed too! Though, if you'd not like that, because it'd be a double favorite from one person, let me know and I won't do it.

A week ago in college writing class I failed the argument essay. I tried my hardest, but felt like I was at a disadvantage of some type. In fact, I almost could not process my argument in my head. I ended up spending hours of each day, before the essay was due, getting immensely frustrated and gaining large head aches. I never let an assignment fly by, but this one was an assignment I COULDN'T do. I almost felt like vomiting when it was all I could think about, even during work at my job. On the due date I only turned in a folder with the research and my thesis. Thinking about that assignment now makes me angry at myself. (INFO: My argument was on Terrorist Negotiation)

I had the same feeling attempting to do the essay as when I try to comprehend poetry. Have you ever left your hands exposed to extreme cold long enough that they became weak, then you tried to tear open a plastic bag, but simply couldn't no matter how hard you tried? A certain part of my psyche is those cold hands, but I don't know how to heat it up to start working. I can't find out what's wrong with me and it's starting to effect my future. I WILL NOT proceed in the way I want to unless I start understanding. At first I thought it was a late adolescence, but that was a couple years ago.

What is poetry? Where does a person create it from? I don't know where such poetic words come from, therefore, cannot translate their meaning.

Computer just needed a constant flow of electricity. Going to get a surge strip though.

On the other hand, I was backing up at about 2mph and ran the cat's (Between kitten and adult in age) arm and left side of it's face. My sister screamed at me, but I called it stupid since I was going that slow and it walked right into the tire. In only a day, its perky and energetic personality changed to that of content and depressed.

Power went out then back on.. My FX computer won't turn back on though! If what I think happened has happened, my sanity will be lost.

(typed from zune HD)

Is it better to practice anatomy in art through trial and error, using your own imagination, or to constantly use reference and copy the realistic picture? I'll try drawing body parts, and I'll have to CONSTANTLY look at my foot, leg, etc, to MAKE SURE I draw it as perfect as possible. Then whenever I draw without reference, I'm not doing as well as I want to. Does a person grow in art better without reference, and just figuring the anatomy out themselves? I feel like if I did that, I'd have the anatomical understanding implanted into my head better, as it would take longer using constant reference.

For those who already have been drawing for quite some time, advice please? I know I've been bent on art for only a couple of days and that it takes years to improve, but I can't stand thinking I'm not using the best learning method out there.

- Not producing anything worthy of being posted
- Working
- Practicing Immensely

I've already paced myself with art. The instructor in my 3D graphics class says that to be a 3D designer/modeler, it's essential to have writing, 3D, and DRAWING skills. And here I am, already been practicing these 3 without even knowing the two besides 3D were going to be needed. XD

Art is my weakest point. I've been spending an hour each day practicing realism, since after study, I've discovered that the best practice to pencil art is to draw that which is around you and study anatomy. It's frustrating, but I'm pushing myself, taking notes on my very sketches and marking what I did wrong; basically critiquing myself. I know that one day I'll be a very good artist, 3D modeler, and writer. Not because I have a big ego, but because I'm persistent.

That's what's happening on my side. I hope everyone else is still practicing towards their goals too! I especially wish the best for those that have been working on their own unique projects for a long time, years that is!

Don't mind me being rarely active on here. I'm just going to keep working. One day, I'll randomly show up with a multitude of submissions.

That means I'm going to be on here less than I already have been.

Plus the days since August 15th, the day I joined last year.

Lets see how much I've changed since August 15th, 2009.

State of 2009:

-Cocky
-Perverted
-Little knowledge in the art of literature
-Exploring skills
-Lazy
-No Job
-Unsure on my priorities
-Computer Hacker
...

I've lost all of these. Most of the reason is due to FA. I guess it depends on how you take the influence.

Thank you everyone on FA for being such amiable people!

Writing again, persistently I should say, only because I read a few pieces and stories from my favorite artists. Sometimes I just get frustrated because my imagination is built from other creations and examples. Writing comes unnaturally for me, so I have to "Refill" at times.

I'm failing at writing. I started low and progressed. Reached my peak with my latest chapter and was about to do better, but I'm losing my spunk. I feel I can't reach that writing state of mind when writing anymore and it frustrates me. Even when I approach Microsoft Word relaxed and with undivided attention my writing doesn't seem the way it should be. As writing is an unnatural skill for me that I have forced on myself, I'm going to let go of it until the end of college writing. College writing should heat and get me going with literature and after then, I'm sure I'll be ready to continue.

Until then, now I won't always be distracted by the thoughts of writing my pieces and will be able to practice more digital art and read others pieces.

One day I wish to be able to speed paint beautiful pieces.

FA seems so decent when you block the mature content, especially since most of it is anti-heterosexual. (No offense to those that are)

I just can't think the way I used to whenever I'm trying to do personal projects. I'm taking a few days off of any personal work to prioritize, and induce self discipline and planning to give myself a renewed sleep schedule, better work ethic, and more creative and critical thinking. I really need it, as I can't bring myself to calmly do my personal work without being frustrated because of lost train of thought. Right now, sleep is my main problem. Been getting to sleep at 3 AM and getting up at 8 AM. It's been effecting me in every part of my day, including work at Mcdonalds! D: Be back later.

I think there's a lot of people on FA that need to do this too. XD

Got my new computer a couple days ago. Yet, I was inactive until now since transferring loads of files from my laptop and preparing my FX computer. (Picture of new desk being uploaded tomorrow.)

Now going to continue writing, and will begin 3D again. Thank God.

I got half of my order, but the other half only just shipped! Gotta wait another few days! D: I'm so impatient, and it's effecting my ability to write significantly. I'm probably not going to be able to until I get what I paid for.

Until then, I've renamed all my writings to their appropriate titles (Rough Drafts). While I've been waiting for my renewal of writing motivation and desire, I've finally decided and thought out my next story. PA is still just a teaser to the main thing. My next novel after finishing this one will be "The Wizards Biography". It goes back to the time before history was recorded, or perhaps the time where the history was eradicated by the wizards, which is why it wasn't recorded. It is the prequel to Pursuing Arcane and takes place from Ricardo's perspective before he gave himself an infinite lifespan. Ricardo (The unexplained figure he is in the current novel) will be explained in full, along with the flammies and the war that went on, since they still aren't hardly explained in PA. Most of the story takes place around Ricardo and Serenity, and how they become good friends (Not in the way like with her and Lex though, of course. Just good ol' friends.) and tragedy strikes when Kane brings war. There's much more to it, but that will wait until I put it into writing. I plan on starting this early next year. Of course, PA will be entirely finished by then.

I had saved my editing progress of Loved By A Dragon, put in in a flash drive, and am now using it from my flash drive. Now though, after I had already gotten 10 pages of pure editing done, 8 pages of it are gone, all the way back to where I was when I had 2 pages. I seem to be getting one problem after another it seems. I couldn't find my new belt I only got yesterday because that too is lost. *Starts downloading program to retrieve permanently deleted files*

Was raw, un-distracted work I did to get those hard pages done. This story was very, very hard to remodel and get a better beginning and personality for the main character. After a few days if thinking, I nailed it, but just lost all that. D:

Drove 40 miles to the Sand Dunes at Silver Lake here in Michigan. After that we went to best buy to get my new elite desk top. I was amazed at it. It had all the best specs and the tower had glowing red lights. I had high hopes and then the BB employee said they didn't have the monitor... He looked up to see if the closest best buy had the complete package for the desktop, and he said that the other best buy had 2 monitors ready to go with the package and that we should go there. Since it was closer to home, my parents agreed so we drove 20 miles to get there. They had the same red glowing desktop on display. The lady checks up the package and says they don't have the tower...but they have the monitors... And they don't have the tower coming, as it's not in transit. She tells us we should reserve the tower at the previous Best Buy and get it the next day, but I have to work tomorrow, and we'd be driving for a long time if to go back again. -_- We just went home... I didn't show anger, I tamed that a year ago, but inside, I wanted to kill best buy.

I must file a complaint, this is ridiculous. I had such high hopes...not once, but twice. Crushed and tattered. I'm so angry. This is about one of the hardest desktop packages to get too.

Technical supremacy is finally within my grasp! Hopefully only a week from now I'm getting an elite computer package at best buy. All the top specs. When I get it will depend when my laptop sells. I'm putting my laptop on Craigslist today and informing my friends that I'm selling it. When I get the new computer I will be doing much more work, and starting 3D again.

I started the rough draft of chapter 9 (After doing a 7 page plot), but I have to re-do my "Loved By A Dragon" story before I move on. The story is more popular on DA and people who like it are constantly tugging at me because I say I'm going to remove it and edit it later, while some people are obsessed with it, but I'm just going to redo the thing already. Will be kind of like how I'm going to redo my novel after finishing it (big changes), except I'm doing this with my earlier story. One thing for sure is that I will be increasing the length of it, since that's been one of the biggest complaints.

Should only take a few days, maybe more. Re-editing is one of my quick-effective strengths in writing.

 helixthefallen has done an astounding job with creativity.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3909138

11 years he has spent and has made a mysterious universe with 7 races, each with their own interesting morals and ways of life, not to mention how eccentric they are. Reflecting on his 37 page piece of in depth description of races, you would be greatly helping him. I think that if he is supported enough, he will end up having a massive plot line to an amazing story, or more than one... Don't let something like this pass by, ever.

(If Helix has been supporting you, would it not be respectful to support him?)

I've just realized...I only have 2 months to finish up everything I'm doing. Once I start my senior year, I'm doing college, keeping a guaranteed GPA of 4.0, permanently going into 3D + Becoming fluent with it, and will be personally studying business life, as I need to become familiar with how all that economical stuff works that every hates and has to deal with, especially since the area I'm going in involves a lot of corporate business. Once I start Senior year, I will have no free time and will have a complete dedication and mind set towards my peak education and prime of my life. Senior year will be the most important year of my life, as it's what will determine how successful I will be and where I'm going to be taking myself for the rest of my existence.

This September, I will be stopping any personal projects. I will no longer write, practice digital art, or randomly browse the internet or do anybody gift favors. I've gotta use all the confidence I have to make Senior year absolutely PERFECT and show my maximum capabilities.
If I don't finish my novel in 2 months...Oh man it's gonna be a drag.

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On the contrary, I will be getting a $1000-$1,300 Desktop Package/Combo in approximately one month. 23 inch monitor and a Quad Core Processing computer with 1 Terra byte (TB) of memory. Soon after, depending on how quickly I make the money, I will be BUYING (Legitimately) Adobe Photoshop CS4. If I get the chance, I'll throw in 3D Studio Max, since that's the program I will be trained to use in Senior year for 3D. I plan on getting multiple tasks done much faster than usual and bringing my works to the next step with the desktop of amazing performance.

About my deadline, I'm not starting any more projects. I WAS going to start a detailed and realistic digital painting, but now it's something I'll probably do during Senior year IF I suppose to have any spare time by chance. For now, I'm going to spend more time on my novel. My chapters just got more complex and longer. I had a 2 page plot for my 8th chapter (Corruption) and now the plot to my CURRENT chapter (9: Destruction) has 6 pages of plot. I think it'll be my longest chapter, so I'll have to spend additional time on it.

I still owe a couple favors to a couple people. *The following writing is very abbreviated, so that only the people I'm talking to will understand it* Hint: Read 37 pages. I'll get to that task on Saturday, since I'm entirely booked with work this week, sorry. Hint: That Ranma art. It'll be done on Sunday, sorry.

In conclusion, I won't be writing after these 2 months pass, but I plan on being finished with my novel. Over Senior year, I'll spread the word of my novel and maybe...*Cringes* publish it... I don't plan on writing any more stories after this novel, but depending on it's popularity after being finished, REMODELED and professionalized (Cover Art, perfect Grammar)...I'll do another novel.

I thought about it, and I'll continue the story and do the big edits (Similar to the big change you saw in ch 8) after finishing it. Can't wait to finish and fix all that greasy junk though.

On the contrary, I've already begun adding to the cover art Blaze has done for me, and it shouldn't take long to do, as I'd hate to wait another three months before venting a chapter again. I'm sure I'll be beginning it in 3 days, less if I finish the cover art earlier. In fact, I've made 3 days the deadline for me, otherwise I'll do both the chapter and the cover art.

By the way, I revised Ch. 8 again, along with posting it again, and made minor changes, fixing any grammatical errors I didn't notice earlier, and improving in wording in a few parts where I thought necessary. Probably not worth re-reading I guess.

...As a last. I've had a change in mind set...again, for like the uncountable time. I've almost come to the point where I'm literally separated from my family. I didn't even know my sister was getting married on the day she was until the day was over. I got my wish with having no relationship with my parents, it's almost entirely severed and it's like we're strangers to each other. Not that I hate them. I told them that I'm unwilling to let them know of my feelings and real personality, and so deceive them with my constantly false personality I always use around the family to throw everyone off guard with who I really am. I'd be embarrassed to show myself. I don't know how, but being such a stranger to my own family has somehow brought me to be moodless lately and lose any air I had in the head... The only thing I'm doing in my life now is pursuing my goals...nothing else. Feels sort of isolated I guess. I'm invisible.

I'm inspired for the next chapter (Just needed acknowledgment of the one I just did) and am going to put all my effort into the next one and try to bring it up another step this time! The way I did chapter 8 was the first time for me to write like that, so there's still plenty of room for improvement!

I plan on beginning the next chapter sooner this time rather than waiting a couple months. Yet, I'm going to finish that cover art first and make myself my very own hand made (computer made) gif avatar to renew my program skills I haven't been using in too long. I hope to keep getting better at writing!

Well, I'd like to make sure I'm getting this right while I continue my story (Pursuing Arcane), since I've reached the point where I'm fixing the personalities of the characters, which also effects the writing style. I'll admit that I didn't even think through the personality's of anyone while I was doing this story until now. I just wung it and didn't even realize I forgot to create prepared personalities. It seems I got Ricardo's personality right, but that was coincidence.

Lex's Current Personality: A CEO in his early 20s who thinks like an 18 year old. Tries to think logical at times and is determined. Shy to affection and unsure of himself a lot. Inexpressive of emotion and personality both outwardly and while narrating the story.

Lex's New Personality: A CEO in his early 20s who thinks up to his age. Contains a logical way of thinking always, based on his status of being a CEO. Determined to find his goal in life and slowly coming to the conclusion. Feels free to express himself around Serenity and is slightly shy of her affection. Has a more serious way of narrating the story and uses less exclamation marks (XD) to show his personality, while instead effectively using the correct word choice to give the reader a feel of who the main character is and where he stands.

Well, maybe I could have done a lot better at explaining that, but I expectt big improvements. As for Serenity, all I can say is that she's kind of mindless. She's going to have more reasoning and meaning and have a more empowering impact on things and take some more stance in the story, seeming more like a person.

As for Ricardo, I guess he's good, but I'll still see how much better I can make him. Kane, just needs simple, but big changes, as I've got the wrong message of who he really is.

As for the new character...that's a secret and I haven't made him yet, so it isn't possible for anything to have gone wrong. This time, I'll MAKE SURE to think the personality out before just sticking the character in there! So that means that so far, Lex and Serenity are a screw up! Just thought I'd get that out of the way. As a last, I'm 2 or 3 pages from finishing ch. 8.