So there are scam links going around, beware!
It's not only that but a virus, once you click the link it will take control of your account and send a spam message containing the link to all your friends and then unfriend them! The spam message will be labelled as a free Discord Nitro link. It will say Discord(dot)one instead of Discord(dot)com so watch out! Always read a URL before clicking it. This is apparently a common trick but to those who never heard of it (like me), you're welcome.

So, I think at this point in time it is no secret to anyone who has kept up with my account that I suffer from depression. The main trigger for it has been a lot of emotional stress in recent months which has now luckily settled but not the depression, according to my psychologist. You may have seen me announcing to suspend uploads until yesterday, the reason for that being tons of work clogging up my day. Now that it is done, especially school work I can finally breathe again! I was at the point where for a while it looked like I wouldn't be able to graduate into 13th grade. Now I confirmed am a 13th grader.

TL;DR I will upload again but may still go into long stretches of inactivity

I swear, at some point I'm going to send the developer (who are still in business) a mail asking if they still got the game's files somewhere. Or if an employee got a copy they don't want anymore. Talking about Emergency: Police; a spin-off to Emergency - Fighters for Life. This game wasn't known nor sold very well and as a result the game almost doesn't exist. Amazon has a single offer for the game but it is most likely never in stock again, judging by the only review being from 2000! Other Google results yield nothing, hell, you can't even pirate the game!

Since Emergency was really popular in Poland I am sure I'm most likely to find a copy on the Polish internet or on Polish piracy websites. I just really want to get my hands on this obscure game, especially since I will take my time to go through the entire Emergency series on my YT channel. Though I doubt anyone would notice since most people seem to be unaware of the game's existence.

But I found it.

Edit: Indeed I found it, obviously right after writing this journal. Found it for about 10€ on a used eletronics website with one copy in stock for like, forever.

Since it's late at night and I feel like venting I'll talk some about my future plans with the account and some other things in the future. Right now I'm sure a lot of you know I'm stuck in a difficult and stressful phase of my life due to a variety of reasons, namely having missed tons of lessons and being behind on a ton of exams thanks to lockdown. This paired with the pressure of having to "satisfy" you by uploading and other, more private developments, have turned me from a "smile it away" kind of guy into a panicky, anxious mess at times.

Right now I'm coping well. I've sorted out the private issues and the exams I took, which I was behind on, didn't look too bad. I was on the verge of not meeting grade-point average btw which is not the case anymore. I need this graduation to be able to study at a university so it would be a shame to waste it. The grades I have seen so far are promising and in cooperation with my teachers and two psychologists I managed to get back on track... for the most part. There is still a subject I dread due to the teacher but I'll manage.

With that out of the way; What are my future plans?

Well, once I'm fully engaged in Summer Break I will return to this account and try to maintain a stable upload schedule. I have tons of ideas, the only thing keeping me from putting them down was late night studying (like today) and anxiety, which I already had before about my stories not being good enough and me somehow fucking up everything possible.

While one-off short stories will be my focus you did get a glimpse at some bigger stuff I have in my mind, which is mostly how I want to build my "community" with. A series is always better to watch for than getting random short stories you may or may not like. Once I establish a good enough schedule I also planned to expand a bit. I already have a Ko-Fi if people feel like throwing change at me, or accept money directly via FA's donation system, but I already have a Patreon reserved for when I can get a steady stream of words coming. A Discord server is also already in existence but I'll not make it public for now, a few friends are already on it though. Even if this sounds like I will monetize the heck out of my stories, maybe even hide some behind a paywall, don't worry, I won't. Writing is a hobby first and foremost for me but earnings on the side are always appreciated.

Scrolling to the bottom of my profile description also may have revealed the little word "Youtube."

I did have a YT channel and somewhat of a "career" from 2018 (shortly after my 16th birthday) to 2020. I plan to return on a reserved, English channel and obviously get a community on there built too, though this time moreso for monetary gains. Don't worry, not through means of clickbait but a little way to abuse the Youtube algorithm I figured out... in theory at least. Doesn't mean I won't have fun doing it.

Also, for obvious reasons I will keep YT separated from FA and make no mention of what hobbies I have besides YT casually.

This is pretty much it. What I've thought out for the future, all under the assumption that next school year will be less stressful because I'm in it from the beginning until the bitter end and that Summer Break will offer lots of respite. For those wondering, Summer Break is 4 weeks away. I can't wait. I may upload a little bit earlier, notice my profile description again, since stress should stop in two weeks when all grades need to be done to calculate if we made it.

Thanks for coming to my TED Talk

I decided to not upload for two weeks minimum so I can get all the stress weighing me down off my back. The latest I will start uploading again is summer break. Which is still like, four or five weeks away but school should be a non-issue anymore in two. So I'll most likely return then.

Repair cost is covered. Stress relief engaged.

Before anyone claims that I again haven't uploaded a story in a month again, you just wait. I am holding back stories from now on so I can post them at a fitting time so they get the most exposure possible, that and double uploads won't be a thing because why wouldn't you spread them out? One person seeing two stories is cool, two people seeing one story is better.

Once again I need your help deciding on which of these to tackle first. Last time the kobold kidnapping story came out on top. Wonder what it'll be in this case.

Idea 1

Once again in the world of XCOM, an ADVENT VIP has the luxury of being guarded by a plethora of vipers who rotate daily. Every chapter will be a day from his life, focusing on his relationship with his bodyguards, who all have a distinct personality.

Idea 2

For a while now I have been entertaining the idea of a story with a protagonist taking the role of a Team Rocket grunt, working his way to the top. Not set in a child-friendly Pokémon universe though, a more mature one, I will still keep it somewhat friendly-ish though because I want the protagonist to appear as extreme in-universe. Guns are a thing but heavily regulated and abolished, even by criminal, mafia-like organisations and here he is just waving one around casually. Pokémon-on-human violence? Frowned upon yet here he does it. Poképhilia? Check. The idea has been stuck in my head for a good while now. Damn sympathetic villain syndrome...

Idea 3

A challenge between three friends; Who goes longest without being captured? They are all rich and bored so they set a high bounty on their heads to be delivered to a fourth person, alive. They construct plans, safety measures, code words, rules. With each of them isolated and huddled away following their own little plan they're oblivious to who picked up the bounty... and who else took interest.

Once stress dissipates and I find moments of freedom what would you say about a public Discord server? Nothing fancy, just a few text and voice channels to hang out. I have a few writing ideas and I'd say once those are done I will paste the link for it onto my profile to the other contact info.

Just a heads up; A few days ago my gaming laptop fell on one of my bed posts from a considerable height. In the process I ripped out my A button and it crashed hard. Since then the A button isn't working anymore and super loose to the point of no longer being able to be clicked into position. The plastic protector of my display also broke and now the screen is way less stable. The fans often go full speed even when I'm not doing anything plus my PC crashes when playing games, leading me to believe either my CPU or GPU is broken. They were not cheap.

I am about to drop by at a store to get it repaired, however, I fear the cost. Currently I am anything else than green on my bank account and even though I called my mother she isn't having much money herself too. In a best case scenario I am able to afford the repair myself and nothing's broken in a major way. Worst case scenario is having to replace parts of which I, not even with my mother, am able to afford.

The guarantee also expired in February.

Say I wanted to stream myself while, I dunno, writing something lewd, where could I do something like that? Yes, I am planning to stream my writing. To be honest, writing without company is pretty boring and I get sidetracked easily because I feel the urge to talk to people.

So, when I started on this site I started off with something I wanted to become a bigger series. A story with multiple chapters to it. Make Love not War surely rings a bell for some people. If not you can find the three chapters I did write in my scraps. I ended it since I didn't feel confident enough with how I wrote and because I frankly found it cringe. However, even though my writing still is nothing special, I've recently wanted to do a bigger, multi-chaptered series besides my usual short stories. Series that aren't inherently lewd but instead focus on the narrative so I can improve my writing.

Here's where you come in. I will lay down the ideas I had and you tell me which of them you like most. I still need some assistance deciding. I like them all, unsurprisingly. Some plot details may or may not change, they're just a "first draft"

Idea 1

First idea I had is pretty much back to the roots. I created this account with the desire to focus on XCOM. So it shouldn't be surprising that most of my ideas are XCOM related. This one in particular will follow a politican during the events of the 2015 alien invasion of XCOM Enemy Unknown. He's an alien sympathizer, advocating cooperation with the aliens while at the same time spending a lot of time thinking about philosophy and the alien's morals and ethics, as well as how a system ruled by aliens and humanity's integration would work. On a way to a meeting with like minded people his convoy is attacked by EXALT and he is drafted into their organisation, now openly fighting and trying to stop XCOM. The story will follow his struggles, explore how EXALT as an organisation and antagonist works and what happened to them during the unification and events of XCOM 2.

Idea 2

Second idea is kind of comedic? The plot revolves around the capture of a kobold. The protagonist got attacked on his way home by a bunch of greehorn kobolds led by a general, though managed to scare them away and catch one in the process. The general orders the remaining 9 kobolds to find their friend and break him out. However, the protagonist doesn't have anything malicious planned but instead tries to befriend the kobold despite being its captor and having it snatched away from its normal life. I will explore Stockholm Syndrome somewhat, since it is indeed possible to capture someone and turn them to your side even without violence. Always found that interesting. Plus kobolds are cute little cowards so they are perfect.

Idea 3

Back to XCOM. Now it gets way more illogical for plot details but space-time research in a secret, underground lab in Switzerland manages to open a portal to alternate dimensions, sometimes eerily similar to video games and novels. All this is done in research of a mysterious alien artifact acquired by the company in charge of the research. It is quickly found out that a part is missing which, thanks to their space time manipulation, ended up in City 31. A team is quickly established to make the trip and do everything necessary to find and recover the piece. However, the appereance of a mysterious object didn't go unnoticed, as well as the sudden increase in human population. The protagonists are quickly wanted by not only 31PD and Reclamation but also the various criminal organisations throughout the city.

Idea 4

Our protagonist is researcher for the resistance in XCOM 2, his genius and skills in handling aliens quickly get him on the Avenger and a position next to Dr. Tygan. When ADVENT starts experimenting with semi-conscious alien leaders he pleads to Bradford to use the old arc throwers and go for live captures. After a heated debate Bradford agrees but he has to do the dirty work himself. Our protagonist gets inserted with an op team of XCOM to swiftly strike and acquire a subject for interrogation and research. He's no Vahlen though and refrains from using inhumane methods. Though through his steady work it comes to light that an arc thrower pulse may be able to disable an alien's chip, though only if they're of this new, special "breed." How they function could mean mass-freeing of many alien species, meaning ADVENT's efforts must not be stopped. At the same time a strong enough pulse could be a kill switch for many. Torn between the Reapers, the Skirmishers and Bradford he comes to make a drastic decision.

What do y'all think of those?

I reached 100 000 karma on reddit, yee haw

Congratulations to  The_user_with_no_name for winning the giveaway!

I said I'd be uploading a video showing me pulling numbers but since they were the only one who entered I don't think that's necessary. Better luck next time to all the others. Or rather more interest (?). Anyway, they just won themselves the XCOM Complete Collection!

It includes

-XCOM Enemy Unknown
-XCOM Enemy Within
-Slingshot DLC
-Elite Soldier Pack

Here's me hoping you enjoy your prize!

Fucking hell, I searched for a nice quote from my newest story and found a typo. Not going to fix this but I should really start reading my stories after finishing.

Yada yada 100 watchers blah blah

As I said, once I upload a story again I'll do the giveaway so if anyone wants to leave, now's the time!

Only came here to say I'm writing right now and I honestly don't get my own psyche. Like, no joke, something must be wrong with me. Or I just suffer from an inferiority complex which, looking at the stuff I'm into, is pretty likely I'd say. Anyway, came here to make a shitty joke:

Me: procrastinates writing because I think I suck
Also me, after writing a single sentence: "Yo! That shit's AMAZING!"

Blah blah subscribe yada yada hoi hoi hoi etc.

devs decide to invade people's privacy and read their stories to crack down against "pedophiles" while banning words like fuck, horse, dog, riding etc. Just visit the subreddit r/AIDungeon. AI Dungeon is dead and I will die on this hill. Even if the SJW's think I'm only defending the pedos because I am one. Spoiler, am not.

A friend of  SpartanBlast very recently lost their home alongside their cat in a house fire and are now left on their own. They would really appreciate it if you at least could help them somewhat in their current predicament:

https://gofund.me/b549e309

I dunno, felt like uploading roguelike videos lol

Arrgh! I have a 100 watcher special planned but I kinda only intended for it going down once I uploaded again^^"

Seriously? I tell you that using copy and paste to answer multiple people is rude and you block me?

Well, based on the fact that your FA description is literally your YT description pasted in, even if it makes no sense in FA's context and despite you being from the UK your grammar isn't the greatest I'm going to draw the conclusion that you yourself are not 18. Please unwatch me, this is an account for adult content and based on your behavior I am certain that you are not legal age.

I'm keeping your name out of this but a few artists you watch who seen your profile inevitably will know who you are. And you yourself too.

After a long time procrastinating I can announce that tomorrow/Saturday, based on where you live, I will finally upload a story again.

Without going into too much detail what kept me from writing was me doubting my abilities. Me thinking I'm not good enough and my stories are shit.

Just wanted to warn you; The account from now on will focus much more heavily on:

-Gore
-Snuff
-Execution
-Rape
-Vore
-Bondage

I will still write normal stories but just be warned. Content will get really extreme and sick.

If you don't want to hear about what I dreamed last night you can skip this journal. Else read on.

So, I finally managed to dream about a Viper. I legit waited for my first Viper dream since the age of like, 15 or 16 and now it finally happened. And what a dream it was!

It started with me and the Viper being naked and sniffing each other in various areas. Sniffing up and down our naked bodies. I remember liking her smell. She coiled by up jokingly and pressed my face into her bossom. Licked my face and took my whole head into her mouth. I got hard and she giggled, telling me she noticed I did sniff around her cunt a lot. She moved it to my face and I noticed she was wet. After taking in some more of her vaginal scent I offered to "help" her calm.

A second, wet Viper entered and my Viper uncoiled me.

Both Vipers kissed themselves intensely and starting rubbing their pussies wildy on eachother's. My Viper let off for a second to tell me that she's lesbian but I was free to watch and enjoy the view (and smell).

Even in my dreams I'm not safe from characters suddenly turning out to be lesbian. Fml.

Does anyone know some good artists who do animated pixel art?

Say I would be writing a story about a dude buying a snek on the slave market to free her, she frees herself and tries to kill him and I'd like to go through with that; Should I just upload the crushing story or also a more lighthearted version for those who don't like gore/snuff? Like, where he gets to explain himself and she believes him, ending in wholesome sex.

My mind is pretty fucked and it would allow me to go through with more... brutal endings while still appeasing people who aren't into extreme stuff.

Whaddaya all think?