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Posted 15 years agoSo I think I've come up with a project that may just make my fingers bleed. I'm going to do an embroidery blanket involving all the pokemanz... I'm going to embroider each and every single one of these fuckers by hand... I have a decent sprite Sheet, I just need to translate Computer color to embroidery Floss. I'm definitely going to sell this :D I might it up on FurBay Auction and see what I can get for it. Hooray!
So, hey. I'm alive...Some more. What's up?
Posted 15 years agoSo Yeah, like the title says, I'm still alive. (Maybe to your dismay?) Yeah well, I've been real crafty like lately. By crafty, I of course mean making crafts and such.
I'll be buying a sewing machine and practicing with that! I intend to make an Edgar Change Purse, etc. I will post my Wares and if so inclined, I hope you will commission me for like... Blankets, bags, change-pursies, umm... Dish cloths, W/E... As soon as I figure out how the hell PayPal Works, I'll be ready for business...
What kind of things will I make for you? You may ask...
Well, I figure I'm up for just about anything, I figure if it's disturbing enough, and I have the extra cash, I can always pay for therapy (lulz) So the sky is the limit.
I will of course have to come up with a cost sheet, like Tame blankets are $?? and Pron blankets are $?? Specialty Pron blankets are $?? etc.
I'm even thinking of like... Winter hats and such. I'm super excited for this!
Anyhow, I'm excited to be buying a Sewing machine, this is going to be AMAZERING
I'll post up some samples after I've bought the Sewing machine, and let you guys know when I'm ready to take orders <3
WISH ME LUCK, GUYS!
I'll be buying a sewing machine and practicing with that! I intend to make an Edgar Change Purse, etc. I will post my Wares and if so inclined, I hope you will commission me for like... Blankets, bags, change-pursies, umm... Dish cloths, W/E... As soon as I figure out how the hell PayPal Works, I'll be ready for business...
What kind of things will I make for you? You may ask...
Well, I figure I'm up for just about anything, I figure if it's disturbing enough, and I have the extra cash, I can always pay for therapy (lulz) So the sky is the limit.
I will of course have to come up with a cost sheet, like Tame blankets are $?? and Pron blankets are $?? Specialty Pron blankets are $?? etc.
I'm even thinking of like... Winter hats and such. I'm super excited for this!
Anyhow, I'm excited to be buying a Sewing machine, this is going to be AMAZERING
I'll post up some samples after I've bought the Sewing machine, and let you guys know when I'm ready to take orders <3
WISH ME LUCK, GUYS!
Back in the day!
Posted 18 years agoBefore the MySpace frenzy.
Before the Internet & text messaging.
Before Sidekicks & iPods.
Before U liekd Mudkips.
Before PlayStation3 or Wii.
Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night.
WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOL
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans and boomboxes.
When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.
When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.
Way back.
Tag.
"Get Over Here!!!!" means something to you besides come here.
Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.
Cops and Robbers.
Red Light, Green Light.
Heads Up 7 Up.
Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Hopskotch.
Slip-n-Slides.
Tree Houses.
Hula Hoops.
Recess.
Monkey bars.
Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.
The annoying Nano/Giga Pets & Furbies.
Running through the sprinklers.
Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King-in theaters.
Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.
Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"
Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter.
Hey Arnold.
Rugrats.
The original Power Rangers
The Secret Life of Alex Mac.
Ren & Stimpy.
Double Dare.
Rocko's Modern Life.
AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.
Wild & Crazy Kids.
Clarissa Explains it All.
Salute Your Shorts(CAMP ANAWANA)
Are You Afraid of the Dark?
The original cast of All That (Lori Beth Denburg with vital information for your everyday life)
Kenan & Kel.
Doug.
Magic School Bus.
Flash Forward.
Pete and Pete.
Legends of the Hidden Temple.
You Cant Do That On Television
Hey Dude.
Dinosaurs.
Pinky and the Brain.
Blossom.
Hangin with mr.copper.
Wishbone.
Bill-Nye the Science Guy.
Kablamm.
Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.
Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.
or nick jr. with Face
gulah gulah island
little bear
under the unbrella tree
the busy world of richard scary
the adventures of winnie the pooh
Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.
Class field trips.
POGS
When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.
When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.
When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.
When Toys R Us overuled the mall.
Go back to the time when
Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'
'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.
It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
Being old referred to anyone over 20.
A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.
Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.
When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.
When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.
When Lisa Frank was the raddest thing ever.
When a candy bar at the grocery store was the highlight of your day.
When coupons collected all year could get you a prize in your class auction.
When the only thing you cried over was your mom being late to pick you up.
When stress was addition and subtraction.
When friendships were as complicated as who's house to sleep over and who's to TP
When shaving cream was just meant for play.
When a first kiss only lead to cooties.
When valentines day meant cards for all.
When birthdays were a class event.
When a friend moving away was the saddest day of your life. (Yeah, that's still no good)
Who would have thought you'd miss the 90's so much?
Post this in your Journal ONLY if you remember these days.
Before the Internet & text messaging.
Before Sidekicks & iPods.
Before U liekd Mudkips.
Before PlayStation3 or Wii.
Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night.
WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOL
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans and boomboxes.
When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.
When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.
Way back.
Tag.
"Get Over Here!!!!" means something to you besides come here.
Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.
Cops and Robbers.
Red Light, Green Light.
Heads Up 7 Up.
Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Hopskotch.
Slip-n-Slides.
Tree Houses.
Hula Hoops.
Recess.
Monkey bars.
Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.
The annoying Nano/Giga Pets & Furbies.
Running through the sprinklers.
Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King-in theaters.
Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.
Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"
Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter.
Hey Arnold.
Rugrats.
The original Power Rangers
The Secret Life of Alex Mac.
Ren & Stimpy.
Double Dare.
Rocko's Modern Life.
AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.
Wild & Crazy Kids.
Clarissa Explains it All.
Salute Your Shorts(CAMP ANAWANA)
Are You Afraid of the Dark?
The original cast of All That (Lori Beth Denburg with vital information for your everyday life)
Kenan & Kel.
Doug.
Magic School Bus.
Flash Forward.
Pete and Pete.
Legends of the Hidden Temple.
You Cant Do That On Television
Hey Dude.
Dinosaurs.
Pinky and the Brain.
Blossom.
Hangin with mr.copper.
Wishbone.
Bill-Nye the Science Guy.
Kablamm.
Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.
Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.
or nick jr. with Face
gulah gulah island
little bear
under the unbrella tree
the busy world of richard scary
the adventures of winnie the pooh
Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.
Class field trips.
POGS
When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.
When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.
When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.
When Toys R Us overuled the mall.
Go back to the time when
Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'
'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.
It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
Being old referred to anyone over 20.
A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.
Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.
When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.
When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.
When Lisa Frank was the raddest thing ever.
When a candy bar at the grocery store was the highlight of your day.
When coupons collected all year could get you a prize in your class auction.
When the only thing you cried over was your mom being late to pick you up.
When stress was addition and subtraction.
When friendships were as complicated as who's house to sleep over and who's to TP
When shaving cream was just meant for play.
When a first kiss only lead to cooties.
When valentines day meant cards for all.
When birthdays were a class event.
When a friend moving away was the saddest day of your life. (Yeah, that's still no good)
Who would have thought you'd miss the 90's so much?
Post this in your Journal ONLY if you remember these days.
Omigosh!! A post?
Posted 18 years agoYeah, I'll be postin a sketched out version of a dragon I drew recently, turned out pretty damned good, at least, compared to the stuff Idrew before, so expect that later today, and a final draft in like, less than a week, I've got alot to ink, so...
I hope you all like it, and of course, and tips you'd like to add in, are muchly appreciated
I'll be placing the picture into scraps once I've finished it
I hope you all like it, and of course, and tips you'd like to add in, are muchly appreciated
I'll be placing the picture into scraps once I've finished it
OH DAMN, It's me, back from the grave!!!
Posted 18 years agoSo yeah, things at the house have been brutal, almost got kicked out, and now they're trying to torture me out, makin' things miserable for me so I'll beg to leave...NOT GONNA HAPPEN, I'ma get me a damn job, empty out my savings, take that first of the month SSI check, and bounce bitches!!
Gonna find me a cheap place to get myself grounded, hopefully a 2 bed, so I can has one -o- mah peoples stay with me, if they so choose, or who knows, maybe just to visit whenever the fuck they want, an' I can make them breakfast, 'cause I'm just kinda nice person god dammit!!!
So long as they bring some killer company, some awesome conversation, and perhaps some energy drinks, (gotta have mah life fuel) It's all gewd!!!
Ahh yeah, I got me a boyfriend, he's pretty cool, bit crazy, but you know what, hell, that's how I like them, a bit on the homicidal side, so long as I get to join in on their spree should they loose it XD
I'm totally gonna start crackin' down on my creative shit, Been makin ideas for clothing, bags, and soon some more art, 'cause ya know, I'm pretty sure I had some sort of Art trade with one of you guys...
Sorry if it seems like I'm totally like forget'n, it's just that, I'm kinda a bit unstable, lol, who's not, am I right?
So yeah, if any'y'all wanna chat'r whatever, I got this AIM account, TerriNorington, I'm not the best IM'r, so be lenient, 'cause sometimes I just don't feel like talkin' to anyone...
Oh, an' I'm not usually all like I'm on questionable substances an' all, today, I'm just in the grammar kill'n mood, ya know?
Now, if you'll excuse me, I apparently missed 8 submissions, 9 Journals, 1 Fave, and a watch, HELL YEAH!!!
-KEITH
Gonna find me a cheap place to get myself grounded, hopefully a 2 bed, so I can has one -o- mah peoples stay with me, if they so choose, or who knows, maybe just to visit whenever the fuck they want, an' I can make them breakfast, 'cause I'm just kinda nice person god dammit!!!
So long as they bring some killer company, some awesome conversation, and perhaps some energy drinks, (gotta have mah life fuel) It's all gewd!!!
Ahh yeah, I got me a boyfriend, he's pretty cool, bit crazy, but you know what, hell, that's how I like them, a bit on the homicidal side, so long as I get to join in on their spree should they loose it XD
I'm totally gonna start crackin' down on my creative shit, Been makin ideas for clothing, bags, and soon some more art, 'cause ya know, I'm pretty sure I had some sort of Art trade with one of you guys...
Sorry if it seems like I'm totally like forget'n, it's just that, I'm kinda a bit unstable, lol, who's not, am I right?
So yeah, if any'y'all wanna chat'r whatever, I got this AIM account, TerriNorington, I'm not the best IM'r, so be lenient, 'cause sometimes I just don't feel like talkin' to anyone...
Oh, an' I'm not usually all like I'm on questionable substances an' all, today, I'm just in the grammar kill'n mood, ya know?
Now, if you'll excuse me, I apparently missed 8 submissions, 9 Journals, 1 Fave, and a watch, HELL YEAH!!!
-KEITH
Hai, I'm still alive and stoof!
Posted 18 years agoSo yeah, I've been away (mentally) for a while, still am partially, but am back for the most part ^-^
I should be posting some CRAZY doodles later on, once I get my Scanner back up b ^-^ d
I'll finally be working on an that Art trade I started liek forEVER ago, and hopefully will pull off something awesome (=
Woo!!
Just gotta reinstall good ole' photochop and get to work!!!
I FOUND MY MONEY!!!
Yeah, it was in my other wallet, lol, oops...so all that time fussing over finding my one wallet was for naught...
Oh yeah, and I might have been cut off of SSI which totally sucks...I have hardly seen any of that money, and now before I might be getting my own place, I may never see the full check EVER )=
So everyone wish me luck on my appeal to make sure I can get me some monies ^-^
Oh, for anyone who know ProjektMeg, please go to this link: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/130205/ Thank you (=
So yeah, I've been working on my style, it's working out alright, but still needs some major fine tuning... (=
Anyhow, I'm sorry this is SO random, it's basically my thought process right now, I'd be surprised if all the spelling was correct >.<;;; So yeah, I think I should get going...I'll update later, Bai!!
-Kianna
I should be posting some CRAZY doodles later on, once I get my Scanner back up b ^-^ d
I'll finally be working on an that Art trade I started liek forEVER ago, and hopefully will pull off something awesome (=
Woo!!
Just gotta reinstall good ole' photochop and get to work!!!
I FOUND MY MONEY!!!
Yeah, it was in my other wallet, lol, oops...so all that time fussing over finding my one wallet was for naught...
Oh yeah, and I might have been cut off of SSI which totally sucks...I have hardly seen any of that money, and now before I might be getting my own place, I may never see the full check EVER )=
So everyone wish me luck on my appeal to make sure I can get me some monies ^-^
Oh, for anyone who know ProjektMeg, please go to this link: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/130205/ Thank you (=
So yeah, I've been working on my style, it's working out alright, but still needs some major fine tuning... (=
Anyhow, I'm sorry this is SO random, it's basically my thought process right now, I'd be surprised if all the spelling was correct >.<;;; So yeah, I think I should get going...I'll update later, Bai!!
-Kianna
I HATE living here T-Tx10
Posted 18 years agoI hate it SOOO hard...
+cry+
I was having an AWESOME DAY today!!!!
I gotsded to hang with teh Megster, and I got to wear a leash, which I think I should wear EVERY TIME!!! +nods happily...well as happy as I can manage right now...+
Putting the leash on right now, prolly would help, not angry, simply a bit saddened and filled with anxiety, and paranoia...fun...
ANYWHOO...
>.>
<.<
^-^ eheheh...
I come home, FIRST, to see my grandmonster (male) standing in the front yard (CRAP!!!!) he saw me get out of the car with Meg T-T
THEN he asks....
"Who was that girl with the green hair"
So Meg, Just so you know, you're now Jessi, that girl I knew from school, who now goes to OCC, and I'm supposed to "Ask zeta, if she knows you" >.<;;;;;
I wish...I wish it were ANY bit simpler living here, that I was actually ALLOWED to go hang with you, that, when I DO hang with you, I didn't have to keep it a secret, and if something like someone seeing me with you, not knowing who you are, having to make up a name and relation...It saddens me and fills me with grief...you shouldn't HAVE to hide behind a tree when I need to drop off food...you shouldn't HAVE to drop me off at a street corner, and I shouldn't HAVE to come up with a code name for you...
Goddess, I'm such an mess...
I simply cannot stress how much I cannot wait until I move the FUCK out of this house...Dye my hair, get it cut, and get an ENTIRELY new set of clothing, plus fur suiting FTW, I won't have to hide my paws and tail in my bag every time I go to chill...PLUS I will no longer have to call them my Parental Guardians, because I will DISOWN THEM!!!!!!!! And NEVER see them AGAIN, I'll just have to visit the school if I...never mind, I won't see my brother, he'd tell them what I look like unfortunately, and I cannot have that...So yeah, I'm gonna try working on my characters and designs, I still have most of my smoothie, so hopefully, I will relax a bit, drink it, and become Zen again ...hopefully ...Hmm... thinking of something my wonderful FRIEND would SAY...
Oh Yeah..."YOU CAN DO IT!!!!"
Ok, Ima go now, bai
+cry+
I was having an AWESOME DAY today!!!!
I gotsded to hang with teh Megster, and I got to wear a leash, which I think I should wear EVERY TIME!!! +nods happily...well as happy as I can manage right now...+
Putting the leash on right now, prolly would help, not angry, simply a bit saddened and filled with anxiety, and paranoia...fun...
ANYWHOO...
>.>
<.<
^-^ eheheh...
I come home, FIRST, to see my grandmonster (male) standing in the front yard (CRAP!!!!) he saw me get out of the car with Meg T-T
THEN he asks....
"Who was that girl with the green hair"
So Meg, Just so you know, you're now Jessi, that girl I knew from school, who now goes to OCC, and I'm supposed to "Ask zeta, if she knows you" >.<;;;;;
I wish...I wish it were ANY bit simpler living here, that I was actually ALLOWED to go hang with you, that, when I DO hang with you, I didn't have to keep it a secret, and if something like someone seeing me with you, not knowing who you are, having to make up a name and relation...It saddens me and fills me with grief...you shouldn't HAVE to hide behind a tree when I need to drop off food...you shouldn't HAVE to drop me off at a street corner, and I shouldn't HAVE to come up with a code name for you...
Goddess, I'm such an mess...
I simply cannot stress how much I cannot wait until I move the FUCK out of this house...Dye my hair, get it cut, and get an ENTIRELY new set of clothing, plus fur suiting FTW, I won't have to hide my paws and tail in my bag every time I go to chill...PLUS I will no longer have to call them my Parental Guardians, because I will DISOWN THEM!!!!!!!! And NEVER see them AGAIN, I'll just have to visit the school if I...never mind, I won't see my brother, he'd tell them what I look like unfortunately, and I cannot have that...So yeah, I'm gonna try working on my characters and designs, I still have most of my smoothie, so hopefully, I will relax a bit, drink it, and become Zen again ...hopefully ...Hmm... thinking of something my wonderful FRIEND would SAY...
Oh Yeah..."YOU CAN DO IT!!!!"
Ok, Ima go now, bai
*sigh* Back, but not happy...
Posted 18 years agoYeah, it's me...
Crawling back with my tails between me legs...
Whatever...
So yeah, I'm back...not in my best spirits....
I guess I'll live though...
Meh, I've got some art I've been working on,
Some doodles and Art trade stuff too...
So...
.......
......
.....
....
..
.
..Expect something from me...erm...
Eventually...Yeah...
I can't really put up with anyone right now...
since I can't really put up with myself right now...
So expect some OC vore,
Character death (weeding, whatever),
and OC talking FOR me...
like good ole' dependable Spencer...
Unless HE dies, then...it'll be someone else...
Bye
Crawling back with my tails between me legs...
Whatever...
So yeah, I'm back...not in my best spirits....
I guess I'll live though...
Meh, I've got some art I've been working on,
Some doodles and Art trade stuff too...
So...
.......
......
.....
....
..
.
..Expect something from me...erm...
Eventually...Yeah...
I can't really put up with anyone right now...
since I can't really put up with myself right now...
So expect some OC vore,
Character death (weeding, whatever),
and OC talking FOR me...
like good ole' dependable Spencer...
Unless HE dies, then...it'll be someone else...
Bye
Seriousness. I'm going into Medi-Mode
Posted 18 years agoDamn it!!!!
I'm Serious!!@!$#@
I'm going into Mega Over Time on this one.
I'll Be meditating for like A Day or two Trying to figure this all out...
I need to find out about everything,
or I WILL NOT POST AGAIN!!#@!@#!#$!!!@$$
Hopefully I'll come out of this alright, if not, Meh...
Ummm...Yeah, sorry, being vauge...
Oh well, You'll all find out what I'm talking about in a few days...or not if it doesn't work...(If it doesn't work, I'll make sure to contact someone so they can tell you all whatever...like anyone actually reads these journals, if the title isn't "LESBIAN EROTIC THROWDOWN" That get your attention... Idiots
I'm Serious!!@!$#@
I'm going into Mega Over Time on this one.
I'll Be meditating for like A Day or two Trying to figure this all out...
I need to find out about everything,
or I WILL NOT POST AGAIN!!#@!@#!#$!!!@$$
Hopefully I'll come out of this alright, if not, Meh...
Ummm...Yeah, sorry, being vauge...
Oh well, You'll all find out what I'm talking about in a few days...or not if it doesn't work...(If it doesn't work, I'll make sure to contact someone so they can tell you all whatever...like anyone actually reads these journals, if the title isn't "LESBIAN EROTIC THROWDOWN" That get your attention... Idiots
Delta had a kid
Posted 18 years agoYes it's true, and although it's a bit late, by like a a few weeks, well, I'm telling you now...
It's a boy, and finally, a kid who looks like her.
That's right, 4 tails+male naughty bits (if you feel like calling THAT a tail...), wings, dreadlocks, and ears.
His name is Tristan and his birthday is
13-Feb-07...
I'll get around to drawing the two together...eventually...
I wonder how the boobs will handle this one, they're used to eating babies, not feeding them, this can't end well...
It's a boy, and finally, a kid who looks like her.
That's right, 4 tails+male naughty bits (if you feel like calling THAT a tail...), wings, dreadlocks, and ears.
His name is Tristan and his birthday is
13-Feb-07...
I'll get around to drawing the two together...eventually...
I wonder how the boobs will handle this one, they're used to eating babies, not feeding them, this can't end well...
Year of the pig? My Chinese Horoscope!
Posted 18 years agoAfter the difficult Dog year, you feel like spring is back.
Excitement and adventure will be the main themes in your professional life.
This is the time to be inventive and connect with new projects.
Your career will bring you great success, and you will attain a position of brilliance and authority.
All of your efforts will bring forth prosperity, and the income you always dreamt of is at your fingertips.
The catch?
You'll need to travel if you want to make it happen.
Just don't let your newly-acquired freedom and inspiration get to your head.
Stay humble and never arrogant in your connections with others. Enjoy your social life to the fullest.
In the spring or summer, a great romance can appear in your life, even if you aren't looking for it.
Spread your Dragon wings and feel the warm wind carry you to the next level of your existence.
Excitement and adventure will be the main themes in your professional life.
This is the time to be inventive and connect with new projects.
Your career will bring you great success, and you will attain a position of brilliance and authority.
All of your efforts will bring forth prosperity, and the income you always dreamt of is at your fingertips.
The catch?
You'll need to travel if you want to make it happen.
Just don't let your newly-acquired freedom and inspiration get to your head.
Stay humble and never arrogant in your connections with others. Enjoy your social life to the fullest.
In the spring or summer, a great romance can appear in your life, even if you aren't looking for it.
Spread your Dragon wings and feel the warm wind carry you to the next level of your existence.
*Fetal Pose*
Posted 19 years ago*Soft relaxing music is heard in the background*
*rocks back and forth*
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!!
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!!!
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!!!!
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!!!!!
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!!!!!!
Please?
*shiver*
Everyone with a calender can tell you that Saturday is the 27th of January, but what they can't tell you is that this paticular Saturday also happens to mark the one year anniversary of me having lost my mind in Boston. The day I hallucinated somebody jumping off a building and splatting (oh, how elequently put) on the sidewalk.
Please, whatever runs the endless nameless void, please, I'd rather not lose my mind like that again, especially not here in this DAMN HOUSE, especially not with THE E around....
*begins to rock back and forth*
I will NOT go insane on Saturday...
I will NOT go insane on Saturday......
So, umm... Yeah... I might post something, most likely in scraps, if possible... I actually drew a decent cat, so...yeah... If I post it, I hope whoever sees it, likes it... Umm... Yeah
G'night...
*Cuddles with a soft blanket and SkeleKitty stuffed animal and tries to sleep*
*rocks back and forth*
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!!
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!!!
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!!!!
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!!!!!
I will NOT go insane on Saturday!!!!!!
Please?
*shiver*
Everyone with a calender can tell you that Saturday is the 27th of January, but what they can't tell you is that this paticular Saturday also happens to mark the one year anniversary of me having lost my mind in Boston. The day I hallucinated somebody jumping off a building and splatting (oh, how elequently put) on the sidewalk.
Please, whatever runs the endless nameless void, please, I'd rather not lose my mind like that again, especially not here in this DAMN HOUSE, especially not with THE E around....
*begins to rock back and forth*
I will NOT go insane on Saturday...
I will NOT go insane on Saturday......
So, umm... Yeah... I might post something, most likely in scraps, if possible... I actually drew a decent cat, so...yeah... If I post it, I hope whoever sees it, likes it... Umm... Yeah
G'night...
*Cuddles with a soft blanket and SkeleKitty stuffed animal and tries to sleep*
A song that will help me deal with things
Posted 19 years ago14 years 30 minutes 15 seconds I've held this grudge
11 songs 4 full journals, thoughts of punishment I've expended
not in contact not a letter such communication telepathic
you've been vilified, used as fodder, you deserve a piece of every record
but who's it hurting now?
Who's the one that's stuck?
Who's it torturing now, with an antique knot in her stomach
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old
All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released
I want to forgive for the both of us
Like an abandoned house dusty-covered furniture still intact
If I visit it now, do I simply re-live it somehow gratuitous
But who's still aching now?
Who's tired of her own voice?
Who's it weighing down with no gift from time of said healing
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old
All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released
I want to forgive for the both of us
Maybe as i cut the cord veils will lift from my eyes
Maybe as i lay this to rest dead weight off my shoulders will rise
Here i sit, much determined ever ill-equipped to draw this curtain
How this has entertained, validated and has served me greatly ever the victim
But who's done whining now?
Who's ready to put down
This load I've carried longer than I had cared to remember
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old
For the life of me I've not known how to rest this bygone
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released
I want to forgive for the both of us
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This song is Copyright © Alanis Morissette
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I feel that this song speaks to me, as I am known to hold grudges for a EXTREMELY long time. I've been looking back and find that Elementary School students and middleschoolers who have hurt me and shunned me, from a time that has long since past, still manage a grip on me. I hope to soon be able to reconsile and let go of these unwanted emotions based on the way I was treated, by people who have probably forgotten I had even existed. Lately, I've been trying to cast aside my fear of rejection, which is one of the hardiest things I've done so far, besides trying to stop feeling so inferior when I talk to someone close, or a stranger.
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I know this may seem so utterly Emo, but when I act the way I act, be over-react or not... it is simply based on how I feel. I'm tring extremely hard not to take things that are said out of context, based on what my thoughts are at the time. If ever I am too quick to jump to conclusions before you are finished speaking, please tell me calmly to chill out and to let you finish, as I may have heavy thoughts on my mind and will try to push them aside.
---
There may be more to be said, but I think I will wait for another time
11 songs 4 full journals, thoughts of punishment I've expended
not in contact not a letter such communication telepathic
you've been vilified, used as fodder, you deserve a piece of every record
but who's it hurting now?
Who's the one that's stuck?
Who's it torturing now, with an antique knot in her stomach
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old
All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released
I want to forgive for the both of us
Like an abandoned house dusty-covered furniture still intact
If I visit it now, do I simply re-live it somehow gratuitous
But who's still aching now?
Who's tired of her own voice?
Who's it weighing down with no gift from time of said healing
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old
All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released
I want to forgive for the both of us
Maybe as i cut the cord veils will lift from my eyes
Maybe as i lay this to rest dead weight off my shoulders will rise
Here i sit, much determined ever ill-equipped to draw this curtain
How this has entertained, validated and has served me greatly ever the victim
But who's done whining now?
Who's ready to put down
This load I've carried longer than I had cared to remember
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old
For the life of me I've not known how to rest this bygone
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released
I want to forgive for the both of us
=========================
This song is Copyright © Alanis Morissette
==========================
I feel that this song speaks to me, as I am known to hold grudges for a EXTREMELY long time. I've been looking back and find that Elementary School students and middleschoolers who have hurt me and shunned me, from a time that has long since past, still manage a grip on me. I hope to soon be able to reconsile and let go of these unwanted emotions based on the way I was treated, by people who have probably forgotten I had even existed. Lately, I've been trying to cast aside my fear of rejection, which is one of the hardiest things I've done so far, besides trying to stop feeling so inferior when I talk to someone close, or a stranger.
---
I know this may seem so utterly Emo, but when I act the way I act, be over-react or not... it is simply based on how I feel. I'm tring extremely hard not to take things that are said out of context, based on what my thoughts are at the time. If ever I am too quick to jump to conclusions before you are finished speaking, please tell me calmly to chill out and to let you finish, as I may have heavy thoughts on my mind and will try to push them aside.
---
There may be more to be said, but I think I will wait for another time
'Sup Y'all!
Posted 19 years agoI figure I should put some life into this journal, it looked so very sad.
So...
Umm... Sup?
My name is Delta Z, age 18, and umm...
I should be posting more... eventually... I lack the interweb capabilities, so I steal it from my brother occasionally... He's cool liek that...
...
Ooh!
Tonight I will be posting some Edgar Pics!
Yesh!
...
I've got nothing more to say to you people... Go Away!
So...
Umm... Sup?
My name is Delta Z, age 18, and umm...
I should be posting more... eventually... I lack the interweb capabilities, so I steal it from my brother occasionally... He's cool liek that...
...
Ooh!
Tonight I will be posting some Edgar Pics!
Yesh!
...
I've got nothing more to say to you people... Go Away!
