I'd like to thank the staff at FCN for making the con a real treat : )

This was my first fur con, so I was a bit shy at first. My first day, I barely spoke to anyone except for the people I stayed with, and my friends from chicago and wisconsin. The second day was a bit nicer though : ) I got to hang out with some friends, and it made my integration into the con much easier, thanks guys : 3

I still didn't talk to a whole lot of people though, which i kinda regret, but I was feeling sort of shy i guess.. I mean - there were probably more people at that con than live in my town. Seriously. So... we'll see what happens at AC when I go in June. Watch out for nicky chunks afer I asplode I think!

Seems like I am making zero progress of my projects : /

Meh at art block!

My back hurts too -_- I feel bitchy today. : 3

Not much of a journal entry?

Well - I went to a mini furmeet on february 19th and met a few of my fellow  neofurs. They're a really neat bunch of people : 3 I introduced myself to some of them, enjoyed a nice reuben sandwich and other than the fact that it'd been kind of a crappy month, weather and life wise I turned 26 on February 6th. Hehe - but of course that was the same day that we got about 18 inches of snow, and was snowed in for about a week. I seem to be working backwards : 3 Ah well - that's how my mind works I guess, most recent memory first and all. I'm really no good at making these journals.

I need to relax my poor aching back a while... See ya!

Taken from  drake-lord

The Rules: This is fun to do. Just read the 'offense' and if you've done it, you owe that fine.

You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine. ( I chose to)

NOTE: fines to be added once, not for how ever many times you have done it. And be honest.

[ ]Smoked weed -- $10
[ ]Did acid or pills -- $5
[ ]Ever had sex at church -- $25
[ ]Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40
[ ]Had sex with someone on MySpace/Facebook/Bebo/FA? etc -- $25
[ ]Had sex for money -- $100
[ ]Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican -- $20
[ ]Vandalized something -- $20
[X]Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
[X]Beat up someone -- $20

Sub-total so far $30.00

[ ]Been jumped -- $10
[ ]Cross dressed -- $10
[ ]Given money to stripper -- $25
[ ]Been in love with a stripper -- $20
[ ]Kissed someone who's name you didn't know -- $0.10
[ ]Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15
[ ]Ever drive and drank -- $20
[ ]Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
[ ]Used toys while having sex -- $30
[ ]Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20

Sub-total so far $30.00

[X]Went skinny dipping -- $5
[ ]Had sex in a pool -- $20
[ ]Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
[ ]Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
[ ]Cheated on your significant other -- $10
[X]Masturbated -- $10
[ ]Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- $20
[ ]Done oral -- $5
[X]Got oral -- $5
[ ]Done / got oral in a vehicle while it was moving -- $25

Sub-total so far $50.00

[X]Stole something -- $10
[ ]Had sex with someone in jail -- $25
[X]Made a nasty home video or took pictures -- $15
[ ]Had a threesome -- $50
[ ]Had sex in public -- $20
[ ]Been in the same room while someone was having sex --$25
[ ]Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars-- $20
[ ]Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
[ ]Had sex with someone under the age accepted by rule of thumb (half your age plus 7) -- $25
[X]Been in love with two people or more at the same time-- $50

Sub-total so far $125.00

[ ]Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
[ ]Went streaking -- $5
[ ]Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
[ ]Been arrested -- $5
[ ]Spent time in jail -- $15
[X]Pissed in the pool -- $0.50
[ ]Played spin the bottle -- $5
[X]Done something you regret -- $20
[ ]Had sex with your best friend -- $20
[ ]Had sex with someone you work with at work -- $25

Sub-total so far $145.50

[ ]Had anal sex -- $80
[ ]Lied to your mate -- $5
[ ]Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25

TOTAL: $145.50 Out of a possible $1110.60 Maximum.

Tally it up and put it on your status as: "My Fine Is..." (nothing else) then repost.

I'm gonna use the fuck out of those Prismacolor Markers : 3

Ohjes!

Yes, I know it's January third! : 3

But for those of you who do not know, I went on a micro-vacation to Chicago for the weekend, to visit a friend and to enjoy a Furry New Year party! They were all rather charming and affectionate people. I kind of felt like a stick in the mud though, so I apologize for that if any of the L.A.F.F. members on FA subscribed to my page and are reading this. I just had some stuff on my mind that I wasn't about to discuss openly in public. Luckily I was able to talk with my friend about it the next morning, and it made me feel better! : )

I really did enjoy it, and If Shale or any of the others decide to organize one for 2011, I'd be sure to make the trip to Chicago, or Wisconsin or wherever they decide to host it! I'll have to sign up for LAFF List so I can get the e-mail notifications for when there are more meets. Unfortunately, I can't make it to ALL of them, but I'd love to go and see all you folks again soon!

I had a mass exodus of artwork to the scraps section. Old stuff, all of it. Cleaned up the gallery quite a bit, so if you're wondering where your sketch went... check the scraps.

Lets see if I can get better, now. :3

Taken from  Ibuuyk and  drake-lord and all those other people who've already been reeled into this scheme.

Reply to this journal and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours. (I'm changing the rules, so sue me)

Have you ever moved to another state before, on your own?

I've lived in a town with a very small 4-digit population for the majority of my life. This place isn't all that tolerant of people who are 'different' and I'm finding that I hate it here more and more every day. About a month before I joined the fandom I found myself with some extra time on my hands, due to the loss of my primary job. I could still support myself on my part-time job, by cutting out all non essential expenses... but, I wonder how one finds a job in another state. It's not like I can just drive there for an interview if it's too far away. It'd be quite an undertaking.

I currently live in Ohio, but I've always liked the idea of living in one of the southern mid-western states like Texas and New Mexico. I guess I just want to get out of this state so I can start over fresh somewhere. New Mexico and Texas are really quite far away, and I feel like I'd miss my family too much. Shoot, my brother was blessed with a baby boy just about over a week ago, I'd hate to miss out on seeing him grow up, and seeing his brother and sister, my little niece and nephew, advance through school. I've gotten spoiled being able to see them so much.

I dunno... I guess I'm torn between two choices. Leaving and starting fresh, or staying and being able to see anyone in my immediate family any time I feel like it. I suppose living farther away would make my/their visits something to be cherished, as they wouldn't happen so often and would be less routine.

Gah... I can't decide. I really wish I could have the best of both worlds but that's never gonna happen - I'm not that lucky!

I love this time of year, and I hate it!

Every year around this time I have trouble with my sinuses, and I am feeling its effects right now. Sore throat, sniffling and sneezing... Augh - Just shoot me now! My arms feel like they're going to fall off, so I think I'll take a short break from drawing until I feel a little better. I think one or two days of rest should do me good.

So in other news, I went to some RPG/Gamer/Anime/Art Convention called Con on the Cob in Hudson, Ohio. I joined a friend of mine from Pennsylvania and her friend from Akron. I thought it was really fun, but turns out shortly afterward my friend and her 'boyfriend' I guess had some falling out, and he left her and blocked her on twitter and pretty much cut her out of his life. All this was based on the fact that he thought she invited me on some sort of 'date'. Hello, jealousy... She and I hugged a few times, but that's because we're friends! You know, the things -friends- do when they meet and they part, or when someone's feeling sad or to celebrate something. I'm kind of feeling that it's my fault somehow. I feel I should have been more straightforward with the guy about... me - I guess. Maybe if he knew a little more about me, he might have understood my friendship with her a bit more. After all, I'm actually all 'gah gah' over someone else currently, and she knows this. However it's a difficult thing for me to admit to people I haven't gotten to know - if you know what I mean.

Meh, I might take some medicine in a bit after I talk with one of my friends on MSN for the night.

Well, I have to say I haven't drawn this much in a long while.

I'm happy with my progress - I think I'm getting the anatomy just about down, and I'm free-handing more often. It's liberating not having to rely on drawing blobs and ellipses with wire stick figure skeletons and then having to erase them later.

I've been drawing a lot of Pinups and some of my friend's fursonas. I'm experimenting with different styles due to some inspiration from one friend in particular who I've grown accustomed to chatting with on MSN frequently at night, when I do most of my drawing. His advice has been invaluable, and I think I like drawing the more Human-like faces rather than the more "feral" looking ones I've drawn before.

Once I master my own particular style, I'd like to see about expanding my skills to other styles as well.

Wow, I feel like such a boring person. It's been work, internet, work, internet, day off, internet. Occasionally I'd go to the store and pick up a few things... Ever have one of those weeks where you are just bored, Bored, BORED? I've been busy drawing and doodling, that's about it. Still, I find it fun to draw - but I wanna go hang out with my friends. Maybe I'll arrange something this weekend.

*Yawn*

I wanna go back to school and get a better paying job afterward. I wonder how hard it will be to get back into the swing of things. Maybe I'll take a beginner's course in art, and maybe psychology. It all seems like hard work, but I bet it'll be a blast! I think I'll call someone after work and ask some questions.

Today was a lazy day. The only thing I did today was do the little bit of dishes after supper. Everything else can be put off till tomorrow - I'm using this opportunity to relax my bones.

I submitted a drawing of my dog Bocephus earlier, I think it turned out okay, but the eye on the (picture left) of his face looks a little mis-shaped. The little scamp is under the desk right now serving as my foot warmer. I've had multiple dogs before this little guy, but he's probably the smartest one I've had the joy of adopting. I won't get all blubbery and give a bunch of details why I feel so, but here's one reason, when I go for my walks he stays right next to me. No need for a leash, no need for too many commands. I still get uptight whenever a car comes by the road we're walking along and command his attention and for him to sit and wait. I couldn't bear the thought of losing that little guy like that.

Okay ONE more but that's it. This dog is truly empathetic, and can tell what I am feeling and seems to know exactly what to do when I'm feeling glum or angry or excited. I love that dog with all my heart, and I keep asking myself what will I do say 13 or 14 years from now when his life expectancy starts to approach it's peak. Sure I'll be almost 40 years old by then, and maybe I'll even have a wife and possibly children. It still bothers me though.

Oh, My arms are so incredibly sore.

I decided before I'd shower and go to sleep last night I would exercise a bit by curling my 25 lb dumbbell. I put a Movie in the DvD player and as I watched the movie, I kept my pace by doing 25-30 pumps in 30 seconds, resting for 30 seconds and then alternating to the other arm. I did this for 30 minutes, which calculates to approximately 900 pumps, 450 per arm. My biceps are so sore today, I think I'll just take it easy. I don't know why I decided to do that for so long, I suppose to see if I could. While it feels good to feel the burn I think I'll stick to a more rounded routine. Ow!

I'm being purposefully ambiguous in this entry to protect their identity.

I have added someone from the forums to my contacts today, this person is interesting, but I worry about them. They had a bad day today but due to circumstances beyond either of our control it's draining their energy and thought process to what I can only assume is tortorous. I conveyed that the problems that plagued them were just in their head and they should shut them out and focus on getting better instead of adding to their own misery. Or at least I hope I did.

This is a person I'd like to call a friend, or at least be a friend to when their problems arise again. It's no fun being in pain and it is my hope that through me they may disperse some of that pain in a way that will not doubly harm them. I offered my hand in friendship, lets see if they grasp the opportunity.

This is my first time in my 25 years of living that I've ever registered to a wesite that some may find naughty. The prospect of fantasy animal alter-egos is facinating to me, but I wouldn't go so far as to dress up or even go to a convention. Too Cowardly, I suppose... Don't think less of me as I am quite a conservative person. I decided to join this website primarily because while searching for user-created romance and fiction novels and short stories I came across The Roommates comic by Spelunkersal and Dreamous.

While it's not my usual cup of tea, I found the relationship between the fictional characters Giancarlo and Jr to be very touching and provocative. While I don't consider myself to be Gay, but perhaps Bicurious? I've never had a sexual relation with another man, or even pursued a relationship, as such I created this Ad Hoc profile on furaffinity.net for the purpose of keeping up tabs on the evolving relationship between the two. I also can't help but feel that the situations depicted in all its glorious art were inspired by real life events experienced by the couple who wrote and drew the series. It warms my heart to see any relationship as caring as theirs. (on the surface)

I must confess, I feel a mild jealousy towards their relationship, (both the athors and the characters) to which I have failed to achieve on several occasions. If I were ever to find a woman (or man?) as gentle and demure as Giancarlo (a fantasy mostly) it would bring me great happiness to my life. My last "love" found it necessary to constantly play mind-games which stressed me out, as I craved and cherished her companionship and mutual affection. However once her affection had deformed to indifference it was time to part ways.

It is my pleasure to become part of this intriguing community. Cheers!