I know it has been a while outside of the my Christmas journal. But certain events have happened for well over a year now that has heavily damaged mine and my girlfriends relationship and I am taking steps to fix our relationship

This journal will be a long one so please bare with me since there is a lot to go over.

Last year as some of you may remember I had been speaking to certain people on here, on discord, twitter and a few other places who honestly I shouldn't have been speaking to, mainly about my relationship with my girlfriend and how I painted her out to be a bad person when she isn't. Far from it in fact.

I began to vent to certain "friends" of mine who from time to time would tell me to talk things out with her, but in the end just trashed talked her as much as I did.

I slandered her name greatly and I am very ashamed of that. I didn't tell the truth about what was really going on in our relationship, I brought people in when I should have just talked to my girlfriend and had tried to work things out as my girlfriend had tried again and again to have me do but I pushed her away every time and had ran to these people I called "friends" instead.

Why? Because they were yes men. They told me what I wanted to hear instead of encouraging me to work things out with her and to really work out our differences and understand each other better.

Admittingly I was and am rather selfish. I wanted things to be my way rather then listening to her and actually working out our problems as she had asked me to time and again. I pushed her away and had slandered her name to other's because of my selfishness.

These so called "friends" tried to break us up and at the time I thought they were more important then her. After my last online girlfriend I wanted more then anything to have a good woman by my side, who wanted to be there for me, who wanted to spend time with me, who wanted to love me and encourage me to be a better man over all and I got that with my girlfriend but I had verbally slapped her in the face time and again because of my selfish behavior and mindset.

I wanted her to bend the knee to me, and my so called " friends " talked trash about her which only fueled my desire to be right.

After the big blow out last year, my girlfriend thought this would be all over and we could work on our relationship. But I had lied to her yet again. I was "missing" my so called " friends " and had went behind her back and started talking to these people again.

I lied to her for half a year until she saw an image that one person who I thought was my "friend" had stolen and had traced from her gallery. My girlfriend was upset to say the least and understandably so.

At the time I didn't see it like that. I thought I was doing the right thing, but I wasn't. What made it worse was that I had told my girlfriend something that shook her to her core and nearly broke her.

I am ashamed to admit all of this, but I feel it is only right to tell the truth and why I have disappeared in a sense.

I had told my girlfriend I would stop talking to these 2, but I lied yet again as I did not stop talking to either of them. I once again was being selfish and wanted everyone to get along even thou now I realize that can not happen as this was all caused by me and two bad former "friends" who I now realize weren't at all my friends.

Real friends encourage you to work things out with your partner even during the worse times and beyond them saying it in passing once or twice they never really wanted me to work things out with her.

I nearly broke the woman I love, Who still loves me even after all of this. I broke her trust in me, her faith in me and her love in me. I am truly ashamed that I did all of this because of my selfish demeanor and my it's my way attitude towards her.

And yes, as some of you noticed I have deleted my discord, twitters, and a few other places and your wondering why and am I alright.

Yes, I am alright, I am not hurt, or anything of that nature. But the reason why I had deleted these places is because it was discord and twitter where I had been hiding all of this from her since we are not apart of the same groups on discord and she doesn't have a twitter as she doesn't like twitter.

I needed to make a change, this woman who stood by me even through all the terrible shit I have done to her is still by my side today working things out and wanting us to be a stronger, healthier, better and more loving couple.

I was foolish to say the least to treat such an amazing woman like trash. To slander her name because she didn't like what I like, because my so called "friends' treated her a certain way that she didn't like and I was forcing her to accept their behavior so I could keep them as "friends."

I need to earn back her trust, faith and love in me. So I had made the choice to delete my discord and my twitters to show her that I won't be making these mistakes ever again.

I need to fix this, not her. She's been trying for years to get me to open up and to know my feelings are just as important as everyone else's and I too have a voice that should be heard as well.

So, yes, I don't have discord any longer nor any of my twitter accounts. And no I won't be making new one's until I have won back her trust, faith and love in me and she trusts me enough to where she feels comfortable with me having those things again.

And yes, to some of you who I also had on my Skype yes, when I deleted my discord I took nearly everyone off my Skype as well as these two so called "friends" were on there as well so I just did a massive wipe of my Skype as well.

Please know, beyond these two people and one other, no one else is the issue nor to blame for this problem that I had brought onto myself.

Please, do not blame my girlfriend and start deleting her from places like discord, Skype, FA or anywhere else.

She didn't cause this, I did and I need to make things right with her again first and foremost as she is my world and I don't want to let her go ever again.

If you wish to know anything extra your more then free to msg me here on FA at any time but please be aware I am in the UK so time difference and all that.

I may or may not answer certain questions so please understand this if you do msg me through notes here on FA.

I hope this has cleared up the where did I go all of a sudden and why I had deleted certain places I use to be on.

Please, be kind to her, don't blame her for my mistakes. These are my fuck ups and I need to fix them.

Also, just to make one thing perfectly clear, I am NO longer "friends" with any of these people and will never be there "friends" ever again.

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Edit: 08/05/2021 all slots have been paid for and the event is now closed.

The 2021 Summer of Busty event is now OPEN guys and girls.

Same as the 2020 set I will open 4 slots for others to come and take part in the event and up to an additional 3 slots for a total of 7 if all 4 slots are taken and people are still interested.

The artist who will be drawing these will be my girlfriend  Lacussky Since she has been doing the Busty Inn sets since the beginning and makes my ladies look amazing and beautiful.

The prices will be set at either a half body with full shading and background which will cost $50 USD while a full body with full shading and background will be $55 USD I will link two examples below to show them to everyone

Half body example https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40607998/

Full body example https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40607403/

The event is open to female characters, Herms, shemales (if unsure then note my girlfriend  Lacussky for more info)

And my girlfriends terms and service are linked here below
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5534693/

The slots are first come, first serve and must be paid upfront and in full through Paypal

Please fill out this form in your comment when you wish to claim a slot(s). Please DO NOT hide your comment when you claim a slot.

User name:
Character ref sheet:
Half or full body slot:
How many slots:
Swim suit/outfit:
Props to be used:
Personality of character:
Any details you want the artist to make sure she add's when it comes to your character ( within reason, one or two details as an example. ) :

Slot-1  fightingfate Paid

Slot-2  Summer Paid

Slot-3  Mordecai165 Paid

Slot-4  midkantakina Paid

Slot-5  Zagrawolf13 Paid

Slot-6  Cougarbait731 Paid

Slot-7  kidcrash Paid

Slot-8  Demon87 Paid

These slots will be open until the 31st of May 2021 Once slots are filled the journal will be officially closed

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I am dealing with the stupidest guests today at my job they are not listening to what I am instructing them to do and I have to repeat myself while yelling through a mask. God f**king sake there are rules for a reason

I had a nice relaxing day yesterday on my Birthday. I got some new paints to try out for my Warhammer40K armies and a model take.

The game Burnout Paradise and a carry case for my Switch and games

And some other bits and bobs and I spent the rest of the evening with my girlfriend  Lacussky

So all in all it was a nice and peaceful day and thank to all the birthday wishes I received

Edit: I closed the last two slots and put two of my own OCs in to the list.

The 2020 Summer of Busty event is now open guys and girls.

I decided that this year I will be opening 4 slots for others to come and take part in the event as well.

The artist who will be drawing these will be my girlfriend  Lacussky Since she has done the the Busty Inn sets before and makes my ladies look amazing and beautiful.

The prices will be set at either a half body with full shading and background will cost $50 USD while a full body with full shading and background $55 USD I link two examples below to show them to everyone

Half body example https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32587836/

Full body example https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32539371/

The event is open to female characters, Herms, shemales (if unsure then note my girlfriend  Lacussky for more info)

And my girlfriends terms and service are linked here below
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5534693/

The slots are first come, first serve and must be paid upfront and full through Paypal

Please fill out this form in your comment when you wish to claim a slot (s):

User name:
Character ref sheet:
Half or full body slot:
How many slots:
Swim suit:
Props to be used:
Personality of character:
Any details you want the artist to make sure she add's when it comes to your character ( within reason, one or two details as an example. ) :

Slot-1  Sergeantbuck

Slot-2  Atung231

Slot-3 Closed

Slot-4 Closed

This journal this will stay up until all slots have been taken and paid for.

Going to open up the Summer of Busty 2020 event and I am still planning to open slots for people who would like to take part in the event to take part in the event with 2-4 and if these slots are filled then another journal will be made explaining what information will be needed and how much each slot will cost.

Please comment here if you are interested.

Got a phone call from my work asking if I am up for coming back to work since they are reopening places here in the UK so yup I will be heading back to work on the 4th of July. So I will be waiting a call over the next few days for info on when to go in early to go through refresher training.

In case anyone was wondering about Summer of Busty 2020 sadly due to the Covid-19 pandemic my work place was closed down since being a theme park social gatherings was a no go so I had to put off commissioning for the artwork for Summer of Busty this year since I am just saving up the money I am earning still. In case anyone is wondering yes I am alright and still ok. Juts with not being at work I just either gaming or working on my Warhammer model kits is all and I can upload some pics just to show what I have been working on to


But I have uploaded the group picture of the 2019 Summer of Busty which you can see here.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36929437/

Still selling some old unused adoptables that I have no room for and need a new home.

You can find them all here in a folder in my gallery link below here

https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....ables-for-sale

Prices are how I paid for them while others came with art of them as well


Also I will be uploading this years summer of Busty series as per usual there will be a set 8 images of my females and later on will be a single image of the 4 most fave images of last years set of 8 but that will be later on down the road

You can see the Summer of Busty sets here https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....sty-Inn-resort

Happy New year everyone

Here is to a good 2019 for everyone

May all you plans go smoothly this year



Picked up my copy of Pokémon Let's go Eevee today. Looking forward to getting my hands on a Pokémon game once more and nice that's back at the start of it all in Kanto

Hey guys sorry I didn't post this sooner I had some things to do offline and completely forgot about announcing the winners of the main 4 ladies of my summer of busty set fro last year.

So here are the 4 voted for this group image

Number 5 Essa

Number 4 Kiyoko

Number 7 Jessica

Number 6 Snowy

With that being said, I do have to explain one thing about the voting which I did not take into account and is my fault for not doing so to begin with.

When I added up the totals from the voting and saw Missy my dinosaur girl had won I started to think about something dealing with her and her size, more spefically her height. I forgot that Missy is 13 ft. tall, far taller then the other ladies who also won.

When I had done a height comparison and saw that the other ladies would be at Missy's lower hip I started to realize that this may be a problem. Either you would only be able to barely see half of her body no matter how she was positioned or the other 3 ladies would have to be rather small so Missy could be completely in the image and by that time there would have been no point in the other ladies being in the image.

With that being said I made a decision and had decided to take Missy out of the running and went with the next lady in the voting who had the most votes next to Missy which turns out to be Essa.

I hope you all can understand my decision is taking Missy out of the line up, it was completely my fault since I had jumped into this voting poll without thinking about the details of the commission I have ordered already. Next time I decide to hold a voting poll I will take this into account before I post the journal again.

I want to thank you all for taking part in this beach babe voting poll and may do another either later this year or early next year, we'll see.

UPDATE: The votes are clsoed now thank you all for taking part

Hey guys I want to do a voting for my summer of busty images I did last year. I want to know what everyone's favorite 4 of the 8 ladies are and I will get a group image of them done standing together at the beach. So you guys come in and tell me the 4 you like and the ones with the most votes will be them

The voting will end Monday night England timezone

Here are the list

1) Myra http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25509493/

2) Charity http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25509535/

3) Lunamaria http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25509564/

4) Kiyoko http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25509589/

5) Essa http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25509619/

6) Snowy http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25509649/

7) Jessica http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25509689/

8) Missy http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25509771/

Leave your votes in the comments and and I will be working on another set for 2018 XD