I'm seriously losing my mind. I feel sick all the time, right down to my stomach, every time I start to think. I worry myself over nothing until I nearly throw up. I know I don't need to worry, but I cant stop, and instead of managing to explain it, I just pissed off the person I was worried about to the point of her no longer using 'pet names' with me. I don't know what to do or say, all I know is that I cry in bed most nights before falling asleep as my worries feel like they're making my insides twist into knots. I haven't felt like this in years, and I don't know what I feel this way now, but it hurts, and I'm scared, and I don't have anybody to turn to anymore... and for the last few days, that's scared me the most. I'm afraid that, without somebody to turn too, with nobody to help me, I might just slip into depression. I wish I could just silence myself for a few days... let it all wash away in some sort of beautiful tide, but I can't, because nobody is here to anchor me now...

For the first time in a long time... I'm truly afraid, a chill right down to my bones from fear, and I don't even know what it is that I'm scared of anymore

Help me?

... ok then. So I just read an article posted by Christians and, wow... They disproved evolution using a robot by saying 'evolution is impossible because this robot didn't "evolve" or anything, humans made it. If it had evolved, then we'd see robots in fossil records that you claim prove life existed before god!' and all I could think is: Are they just that stupid? I know many aren't this foolish, but thinking they can disprove it by making a robot is like saying cake is impossible because pizza is on the counter. Robots have 'evolved' since we started making them. First there were little remote control devices, then came bigger and more complex ones, and now we have robots that don't even need us in order to do their jobs. Religious people, hear me out

These people make you look bad
These people make you look stupid
These people make you look like bigots

Stop allowing these crazed religious people to speak as the voice of your entire faith to the public. If you guys can manage that, I will respect you. If I open the internet and see 'Atheism is proven to cause gayness says Christian paper' I'm going to scream. Thank you for listening to my rant, enjoy your day

Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Enjoy Kwanzaa, and all you other religions have fun with your special days =D I'm not religious but enjoy xmas myself because, well, it brings my family together (not even gifts this year except for the tiny babies) So enjoy yourself ^_^ Cya around!!!

So my dear wife made a Tumbler page for her monster art where you can go and ask her things or make suggestions for her to draw, etc. All of her monster art will be posted on there including possible specials that only appear there. Go check it out, link below =D

http://monsterliciousbabes.tumblr.com/

Hey, check this out!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5139187/

Pokemon X and Y being raffled away! I'm entering on Pokemon Y! Hehehe

Hey there peoples XD um... I know its bad of me and all that BS, but... anybody got any hacked Borderlands 2 gear they'd be willing to part with/copy for me? In reality, I'd settle for either an uber-hacked shield (One of those 'invincible' ones) or an uber-hacked gun (insta-kill is always a fun option) If anybody has one, send me a message XD I've beaten normal, and I'm about 2/3 the way through True Vault Hunter but I'm getting tired of how long it all takes. Any hacked stuff would be appreciated, thanks =D

Hello peoples! As you may or may not know (not sure how many of you read Jaus journals) me and her got married on Saturday, May 12th! I'm now a married man! WOOT~! This obviously brought about some changes, but I know that I couldn't be happier. I now have a beautiful wife who loves me, she's pregnant with our child, and we have so many people helping us prepare for our future. Well, I'm gonna go boink my wife and then get a kitten XD so peace out my friends!

I just finished watching the last episode of the season, and... I must admit... I think I just came rainbows...

Now that I can your attention XD my dear wife-to-be is doing commissions! If you'd like her to do a commission for you, just take the following link

http://caryin.deviantart.com/journal/42219059/

I personally love her work and I'm sure you will to. Happy hunting!!!

Need some line art cleaned of all those half-faded smudges? Wanting a picture colored but don't want to do it yourself? Maybe you want both done and just haven't gotten around to it? Well then I have a deal for you! In exchange for one sketch-work art piece, I'll clean your line art and/or give it some coloring! That's right people, for just one sketch*, you can have me clean up a piece of art AND get some color splashed on it too! If you're interested, send me a note with a link to the line-art and I'll get to work on it! After its done, I'll note you back, post it online in my scraps section for you to retrieve, and then you can do my sketch piece! I'll be checking my note page!!!

*Sketch details may vary depending on artist and usual art style, one-to-two chars in sketch at most. When complete, note me so I can see it, thank you.

ok, so I'm sitting here watching TV... and this Fischer Price commercial comes on for there cameras and stuff... they built stuff that can be dropped, kicked, hit, and still work... why the hell can't I have a camera that does that!? I see new cameras and all sorts of stuff that breaks from accidently tapping it! A kids toy company made a fully working digital camera that can be booted over a fence and I cant find one digital camera in futureshop that won't EXPLODE INTO BITS FROM A 2 FOOT DROP! My parents have gone through 6 cameras because they got dropped! I've gone through two phones! I saw an iPad litterally bump gently on a rounded corner and split in half! This is why I don't get technology... a kids toy is cheap, good quality, and durable... same kind of product for adults costs you your arm, leg, soul, and first born, the quality is only great on one setting, and breaks from squeezing it to hard... I say again, I don't get technology

I basically just alienated my mate >.> tried to be passionet, romantic, and sexual... ended up annoying her, being a pest, and getting in the way of what she was doing... well, at least when I screw up, I screw up big XD thats a talent, right? Also, redoing a quiz from a while ago X3

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]

HAVE YOU...

[] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn
[x] tried drugs

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

[x] taken painkillers
[] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[x] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[x] seen someone die

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[] received a ticket
[] been to rehab
[] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar

TOTAL SO FAR: 25

[x] been to a wild party
[] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything
[] wore black nail polish
[] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL SO FAR: 30

[x] dressed gothic
[] dressed girly
[x] dressed punk
[x] dressed grunge
[x] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[x] blacked out
[] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL SO FAR: 37

[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[] installed speakers in a car
[x] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[x] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL SO FAR: 44

[] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[x] gone to court
[] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[x] lied about your age

TOTAL SO FAR: 51

[x] owned/rented an apartment/house
[] broke the law in the police's presence
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[x] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[] hugged a stranger
[] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed

TOTAL SO FAR: 58

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[] drank and drove
[] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[x] cheated on a test

65 WOAH!

I was sitting here earlier, watching the lightning... and suddenly lyrics flashed through my head... I don't know what caused it exactly, but I just sat down and started writing, and... this is what came out. I read it after I finished, and... well, I gotta say... I think it rings true in me somewhere... guess I'll just have to wait until I see what the future holds

"We use to laugh
We use to cry
We promised each other
There'd never be good bye

We tried to hold on
We tried to keep it
I said I love you...
You said I don't buy it

But I realized then
On that very day
Sometimes to get ahead
First you gotta run away...

Sometimes you gotta run before you walk
Maybe you scream before you talk
I don't know what's in between
Even with all the things I've seen
I don't know what's going to be...
Or whats been happening with me

It's been a year now...
So much has gone and changed
We don't talk anymore
Because our lives got re-arranged

I've moved on since then
Got a loving wife under my arm
And even with all the things we said...
I've never wished you harm

I know whats right and wrong
So I put it in this song
You don't always have to fight
Just look for the loves thats in sight

And then you run before you walk
You scream before you talk
You never give up through strife
As you keep going through your life
I don't know where this will end...
But you always have me as your friend

I know that I've been bad
And that this stories been had
But as I look on back
I realized... it wasn't always black

We talked before we screamed
And though its not all it seemed
I know that we can always be
Friends... because you are one to me...

So don't change...
And don't hide...
Get back up on your horse...
And girl... get back to the ride"

I've been trying not to rant, trying to let this all just blow over, trying to just ignore this, but I'm tired, I'm pissed, and I nearly got run over AGAIN. My ex's BF keeps being a dick, swerving his car at me while I walk home, and just claimed I owe him and his GF $200... the real reason? Oh, found that out too... he still owes money to a drug dealer. I'm trying to stay calm while I write this, but my hands are shaking, and honestly, its out of rage. If he pulls one more stunt like this, I'm either gonna:
A) Have his ass arrested
B) Tell the drug dealer where he lives
To put it simply and end this rant, I'm pissed and tired of taking a crack-heads crap

PS: If you-know-who is reading this, bite me. We agreed we were even, we promised to stay out of each others lives, but this has gone on long enough. Control your pet or I'll muzzle him, GOT IT!?

Hey all, I've been playing FF13, and... well, I'm stuck... again. I'm now into disc 3, and honestly, I cant seem to beat Vanille's edolin thing... any tips? Tricks? Advice of any kind? ... please?

Hello again everybody! So here I sit, thinking of playing a game... Whats new? Well, for me, I got a new 360, so I have a working one again! I also got a new game... Borderlands. Its awesome. If you like shooters and enjoy RPG's, this is a good blend you'll like and want to play. My 3 months at work is almost up *holds up hand for high-fives* which means that soon, I'll be making more money =D which is always a good thing! I'm also still wondering if anybody knows a good, free video editing program so that I can make little video's on my webcam and blend them together... anyways, I'm gonna go play a game before work, cya later ^_^

QotD: What people/groups on Youtube do you frequent the most?

I always watch SXEPhil, RoosterTeeth, and DefendTheHouse

Ok, this is weird... I have 2 comics done and waiting to be submitted, they've actually been done for days now, but I can't upload them... and by can't, I mean the website won't let me! Every time I hit "Upload" it goes to "Error 500" and I can't get past it... I've tried switching computers, changing the file type, even re-submitting older work... same error every time. Does anybody know whats wrong or how to fix it? Could my new router be causing a problem with FA? Any ideas? Feedback is much appreciated, thank you

Hey all, who wants to be in my Halloween special? =D Just message me with details of how to sprite your char and the costume you want to be in! Submit fast! I want this to be ready for the 31st, so you have until midnight on the 30th at the most!

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]

HAVE YOU...

[] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[] bought porn
[x] tried drugs

TOTAL SO FAR: 8

[] taken painkillers
[] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[x] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[x] seen someone die

TOTAL SO FAR: 16

[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[] received a ticket
[] been to rehab
[] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar

TOTAL SO FAR: 23

[x] been to a wild party
[] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything
[] wore black nail polish
[] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL SO FAR: 28

[x] dressed gothic
[] dressed girly
[x] dressed punk
[x] dressed grunge
[x] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[x] blacked out
[] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL SO FAR: 35

[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[] been called a slut
[] called someone a slut
[] installed speakers in a car
[x] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL SO FAR: 40

[] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[x] gone to court
[] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[x] lied about your age

TOTAL SO FAR: 47

[] owned/rented an apartment/house
[] broke the law in the police's presence
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[x] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[] hugged a stranger
[] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed

TOTAL SO FAR: 53

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[] drank and drove
[] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[] cheated on a test

59... holy crap

*Are you a furry?
Yes ^_^

*If you have a Spouse/SO - Is he/she a furry too?
Yes =D Shes a skunkette  Jaus

*How long have you been in the community?
Since 2006

*How did you find furry?
A friend of mine  Wula

*What's your reason for furry (what interested you to get into the community)?
I've always viewed myself as an animal at heart ^_^

*What's Furry to you?
A person with an animal side

*If someone found out you're a furry and asked you about it how would you respond?
I'd probably put on cat ears and just meow

*What are your favorite aspects of our community?
The chance to view art and make friends ^_^

*Do you use any furry terms? (i.e. yiff, paws, murr?)
Yup *purrs and paws at random readers* =3

*What do you wish furry was NOT associated with?
-.- the whole "Furries are just a bunch of sickos that like to yiff and kill things" belief... I wanna smack those people >.<

*How strongly do you feel about someone bashing the community as a whole?
I hate it! If you dislike one person for something between you two, fine, but don't have an entire group just because you're to anal to try and understand it!

*How strongly do you feel about anyone bashing you yourself for your interest based on the media's aspect of what furry is?
Meh, I don't care what people think really... I'm happy, and if they're depressed, that's their problem

*We all know furries have alot of sexual aspects in this fandom, What's your opinion on it?
I love it. I love the fact we can all do our own art and meet people into the same things! After all =P who's to say what's right or wrong for somebody else?

Personal

*What is/are your fursona(s)?
'Demonic' Bolt Templar

*Do you have any fetishes that pertain to the fandom?
>.>; maaaybe...

*If you could magically morph into your fursona would you?
Hell yeah =D

*Do you believe you have a spirit animal?
Yup, met her... she's a pervert XD

*What other fanbases/groups are you a part of?
um... does DeviantArt count? I'm trying to get onto Furry.ca

*Anthro/Feral, Therian or Kemonomimi (Not a furry, just a human with animal ears and a tail)?
That's actually my normal form ^_^

*Are you a fursuiter? If yes, how many do you own? If No, do you ever plan on being a suiter?
Nope

*How many of your friends are furry?
Not many >.> maybe 2 or 3

*How many pets do you own, if any?
5 Cats

*Aside from furry what other interests do you have?
Just ask XD

*Are you confident enough in yourself to say that you're a fur, no matter what the media says?
Yes ^_^ Forget the media and what people think, appreciate who you are!

Meetups

*Do you attend any cons? If no, would you attend any cons? If yes, which cons have you been to?
Not yet, but I wanna go to the local BC, Canada ones when I can =D

*Do you go to local meetups(bowling, public outings...etc)?
None around that I know of

*Have you ever attended a furry party? If no, would you attend one?
Not yet, but I would

Online

*Have you ever met up with a fur you talked to online?
Not yet...

*What furry websites do you attend?
FurAffinity and Furry.ca

*What non furry websites do you frequent?
Facebook, DeviantArt, RedVSBlue and plenty more minor ones

*Has the fandom done anything for you that you're thankful for? Has it taught you anything or brought you anything you treasure greatly?
I've learned a lot, seen a lot, and found my dear sweet Ariel on here  Jaus <- and here she is! <3

Hello there everybody! The date today is October 3rd, and I have a challenge for everybody that knows what Yu-gi-oh is... go through your real cards or your friends real cards, or anybodies cards for that matter, pick one monster card, and draw yourself as that monster! For example, I'd be Dark Magician! So if you're up to the challenge and have a monster in mind, draw away and post the link in this journal!

QotD: Ha, bet you were thinking I had forgotten... well here it goes... What is your favorite hand-held gaming system and what game is your favorite to play on it?

My answer: Between my Sony PSP and my Nintendo DS, the DS wins. As for the game, I really enjoy both Chrono Trigger and Advanced Wars: Dual Strike

- Name: Logan T
- Single or taken: Taken
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: June 7th
- Sign: Gemini
- Hair color: Black
- Eye color: Green
- Height: 5'11"-6' (in between cause back is out of place)
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight
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• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •
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- Favorite place to shop for clothes?: Um... Walmart? lol
- Favorite designer?: Walmart? XD
- What is your sexiest outfit?: my b-day suit
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: shorts and t-shirt
- What do you usually wear?: jeans and t-shirt
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• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Whatevers there
- What are you listening to right now?: TV
- Who is the last person that called you?: My friend Matt
- How many buddies are online right now?: 13
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• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •
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- Food: Pizza
- Girls' names: Katie and Brenda
- Boys' names: Jordan and Lee
- Subjects in school: Art
- Animals: Any kind of cat
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• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Given anyone a bath?: Just myself
- Smoked?: Not a cigarette...
- Bungee jumped?: Not yet
- Made yourself throw up?: No
- Skinny dipped?: Yes
- Ever been in love?: Yes, I am now
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: >.> not since I was 6
- Pictured your crush naked?: Yes
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Yes
- Cried when someone died?: Yes
- Lied: Well DUH
- Fallen for your best friend?: No XD I'm straight
- Used someone?: Yes, and I regret it a lot
- Done something you regret?: See above
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• × • C U R R E N T • × •
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- Clothes: Jeans and t-shirt
- Desktop picture: Random windows one
- CD in player: No idea
- DVD in player: No idea

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• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •
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- You touched: My mom... sicko! XD Not like that
- Hugged: My mom
- You kissed: My ex-GF... I'm not a kissy-person XD
- You IMed: My buddies ex-gf
- Talk to online: My GF
- You sexed it up with: My ex-gf...

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• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
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- Understanding?: Fairly
- Open-minded?: Yes
- Arrogant?: Sometimes
- Insecure?: Yes
- Random?: TACO!
- Hungry?: See above XD
- Smart?: IQ is 147
- Moody?: Sometimes >.>;
- Organized?: Nope
- Shy?: Yes...
- Difficult?: Not usually
- Bored easily?: Sometimes
- Obsessed?: Depends
- Angry?: Not right now
- Happy?: Yes
- Hyper?: YESYESYESYESYES
- Trusting?: For the most part ^_^;

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• × • R A N D O M • × •
___________________________________________________________________________

- In the morning I: Do stuff XD
- Love is: Important
- I dream about: My GF
- Sexual preference: Women
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: >.>; Face... then boobs...

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• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • ×
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- Coke or Pepsi: Coke
- Flowers or candy: Candy
- Tall or short: Tall
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• × • W H O • × •
___________________________________________________________________________

- Makes you laugh the most: My GF
- Makes you smile: My GF
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: My GF ^_^

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• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
___________________________________________________________________________

- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Yes
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Not really, although... I have been told I'd make a good woman XD
- Wish you were younger?: Yes, but just a few years
- Cry because someone said something to you?: Nope... its really hard for me to tear up

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• × • N U M B E R • × •
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Twice
- Of guys I've kissed: One... ask and die
- Of girls I've kissed: 7 or 8
- Of Cd's I own: LOTS
Music: None
Computer info/programs: None
Video Games: XD all my CD's
- Of scars on my body: 2

Well hello there everybody! I'll be posting a picture on this next, but, here's the journal version... How would you like to be sprited? ^_^ I'll sprite you and throw you into an Artist-Awareness shot! I'll do this for the first 10 people that post in this journal! Good luck getting a spot!!!

PS: Closes on Sunday, post quick =D

QotD: You are presented with the same choice Neo had in 'The Matrix', which pill do you choose?

My answer: Hmmmm... red pill, definitely red pill... I hate being lied too XD

Lets start with the personals shall we?
Alright

Honestly, if you wanted to get laid right now, could you?
No

Have you kissed someone with braces?
Nope

You see your ex and he/she tells you they miss you & you say?
"That ship sailed I'm afraid... and it's been lost at sea"

You find out your ex is having a kid with someone you don't like you say?
"I'm sorry, but... we're just friends"

You find out your pregnant?
I'm a guy, so... confused, very very confused

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Black, completely black >=3

Have you ever had a surprise birthday party?
Nope

Who was the last person that made you laugh?
My mom

Do you sing in the car?
Not when others are in it...

Could you last in a relationship for over a year?
Already have, so yes

Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong?
Sometimes

Do you have any tattoos?
No, but I'm gonna get one ASAP and I designed it myself ^_^

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
Morning

When is the last time you had pizza?
Um... a month?

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
Yes, but whether its positive or negative depends on the person

Is there anybody you wish would just fall off the planet?
Yes... a few people actually

Were you single on your last birthday?
No

Are you wearing a sports shirt?
No, currently topless actually

Do you wear shoes in your house or take them off?
Off, don't wanna track mud through the house

When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?
Depends on the movie

Last picture comment was from?
Um... can't remember o.o;

How was your day overall?
Meh, pretty boring

Has anyone ever called cops on you?
Yeah, but for something I didn't do

Do you think relationships are hard?
Sometimes, but if you try, you can work through almost anything

Are you good at giving directions?
Depends where you're going XD

Do you swallow gum when your finished?
No

How long does it take to have a shower & wash your hair?
15-20 minutes

Ever tackled someone to the ground?
No... except in rugby back when I was in school

Ever sleep on a couch with the opposite sex?
Yeah

Have any piercings?
No!

Do you think you'll make a good husband/wife?
Yes, some day

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
Probably not...

Is good grammar attractive?
Depends what they're saying, but really, I don't care if you say "lol" to me when you're talking, as long as you're honest

Do you crack your knuckles?
sometimes

You just cracked your knuckles didn't you?
no

Are you currently looking forward to anything?
not really...

Have you ever kissed anyone starting with T, J, M, or S?
no

Have you ever kissed anyone within an hour of meeting them?
no

Do you care too much/not at all/just enough?
Depends on what/who

Whats going on with you and the person you last kissed?
we've broken up, she moved on, I'm still trying day by day...

Your phone is ringing. Its an ex. What do you say?
"Hello"? What else would I say on the phone, lol

Are you anyone's first love?
I... don't know

Did anything brighten up your day today?
Yes... but then it hurt a lot after

How are you feeling at this exact moment?
Mostly ok, but... a little depressed I'm afraid

Well... I've figured some stuff out... and I'm gonna try and change myself for the better before the end of the month. I don't know if it will help... honestly, I doubt it will actually, but I'm hopeful none-the-less. I've screwed up a lot in the past... more so than most people maybe. I know I've done a lot of things wrong... but I'm trying to make up for it all. I know that no matter what, I'm going to love her... and that hurts more than anything. I know that deep down, she loves me back... but I've buried that feeling within her by what I've done. I've also relied on her hope to keep our relationship going... I was wrong to do that... I should have been helping more, thanking her more, and honestly, I know I have been a lot lately, but it wasn't enough. So, now, here I am at the end of my wits, knowing that either I'll learn from my past or go crazy trying... either way, I can't stand the thought of losing her again... and either way, I'm going to try and bring the hope to her this time... maybe if I do, then there's a chance... or, at the very least... maybe if I can bring her a little hope... she'll be happy.

QotD: What is love? Describe it as best you can

My answer: Love is knowing who each other are at their core. It's not about supporting each other... it's about being there for each other. It's not about who's paying for what, or who's doing what... it's about making the other person feel the love you have for them, and showing them you care. I may not always know how to show my love, but I believe in my heart that this is what love is... I just hope I can show it better when the time comes...