wow this day is sooooo..... usual... m sister is asking for help, im bored here at home looking for employment, and im alone without my mate until she comes home... i may go outside pee on a few trees and then kick a ball around.

Alyssa squirrel. This is only for you and if others take offence then they are free to unfollow me. You are a fake name, profile, person in general, you have lied to me on many messages, and are an obsessive psycho cunt that Won't leave me or my family alone, even after I asked you nicely and you messaged zena and hurt her as well... Why don't you do us all a favor and remove yourself from the existence of mankind by just simply killing yourself... Then no one can see you as you get dropped in an unmarked grave with no record of you ever existing. You are a sick demented cunt that needs to be exterminated like the foul vermin you are in fursona form... No wonder you chose to be a squirrel; YOUR FUCKING NUTS!!!

hey everyone how is everything going?good i hope, so in the pursuit of this post i just have to say that i have changed my outlook on life and that was for the better. i have become agoraphobic by isolating myself from the people that mattered most to me and that isn't OK in any sense. this update is to say that i am going to attempt to be the man i used to be and just love life once more. but i ask that you guys try and help me come back out into the light and will be patient with me while i readjust to my new found conviction and determination. again i know i'm probably not the most liked individual out there and that's fine. just keep your words to yourself and don't bring me down. i mean isn't that what we learned in preschool and kindergarten? to treat everyone with respect and if you don't like something then to just stay quiet or go play somewhere else? i mean there is no excuse for being mean and nasty or trying to entice someone to become upset with you... that's not nice.

i guess what i am trying to say is, for any reason you may disagree or object to anything im doing in my own life please keep it to yourself. i'm trying to build myself back up and that cant be done with stress in my life. with that being said anyone that stands in my way will be left behind. im done being held back and its time others found out how real i am.


for those that dont speak english: woof woof woof, grr. sniff sniff sneeze. woof woof woof woof wof whuf woof grr. *sits*

so it has been a while since i have been here and i know im probably not the most loved one out there either... i hope zena is doing ok and that she is smiling everynight before she goes to bed i hope her days are filled with love and not hurt. i have said this once and i will say it again... every woman better recognise that this single wolf is not looking for another mate... he is happy where he is and hope his equal will come home soon... and if you get in my way then you will be forgotten... i have deleted and forgotten good friends from my past just to prove that i am not joking... heed my words people or it may be you next....

Now, i know that this is old news to some but not to most... me and  zenaduma are no longer dating... me and her have understood this and i do miss her yes i do very much... but i need to get myself back together and then see what i can do with family later... i love buggie like he was my own son... no matter age or blood, i would never have a favorite child cuz i would help all of them the most i could. im not a player... i would never use a woman just for sex even if her name was fuck me im a slut.... sorry for the rant im just trying to get my mind out and right.... getting my car fixed and then to try and get a driving job... from there to mature this pup into a respectible wolf that can defend his den and his family inside.... i just want to feel ok inside and stop feeling like i was forgotten on the dens doorstep... feel free to coment and judge me...

i know whats going on now and i want them to change... i dont want to life in fear of losing you to another. i love you... im hurting inside but working hard for the ultimate goal of us being reunited as a family once and for all with no one getting in the way i will always love you and be in love with you... your puppy...

so this friday i will be evicted from my apartment and the landlord is not 100% clear on the reasons why.... he said he had a few reasons but upon asking he said he would rather keep the opinions to himself and i think that is bull but i don't have anything i can say about it... looking to find a place to rest my head and stay safe from the elements.... my life is not feeling like my life anymore... i feel like i am losing everything all at once all due to a mental breakdown... i need to get some help... on a plus note me and kate are together and doing well.... we do not live together but we are ok in our relationship and im happy to say that NOTHING OR NO ONE will get in between that as long as im alive and well

so me and zena are ok... im thanking the lord right now that we are working through the issues we have and that we are seeing eye to eye... im loving life again and knowing that we will forever be together. on another happy note her father and i are attempting to work things out and establish another relationship based on trust and understanding. i understand that is is going to be a long road and it involves alot of hard work and maybe a sacrifice on my end but in the end if it all works out then it is going to be for the better and i shouldn't complain... zena came to my moms den the other day to pick up her belongings that she needed and we actually held each other and told each other that we loved each other and that i understand that our cub needs to come first... i understand and acknowledged that point to the fullest extent i could have... i want to have my family back and this is one of the sacrifices i mentioned earlier... i love you zena, & i love you buggie... and i hope that near the end of the year we will be able to be a family once again and enjoy the lives we once had <3 i will always love my family no matter what happens and will stand by them.... even if that means i have to be in another area and watch from the sidelines.... that means i will be building the life and home you could have always asked for so when you do come home you wont feel like you where ever away <3


AND IF ANYONE SAYS OTHERWISE OR TRIES TO BREAK US UP YOU WILL HAVE NO PART IN MY LIFE!!!

I WILL SHUT YOU OUT AND NEVER SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN

if you read the above title and want to know more about me and  zenaduma then continue to read because this is my confession to the whole world.....

i love her to the ends of the earth... this dog will never lay with another person in lust weather it be a furry or not i hope to be back in her arms by Christmas but that sounds like a long shot. i miss her and want her to be happy without the fear of me straying....

i admit i did have my arms around another female... but it wasn't sexual or flirty. nevertheless it is still inappropriate for a married man to have his arms around another woman even if they are friends unless it is a quick hug or an embrace for comfort.... i understand that i was doing neither and have told zena that i was in the wrong and that i was sorry i also did other things that i wont talk about here but we are working on being a family and if 4.5 hours on the phone doesn't say that we wanted to talk things over and let each other know what was going on then life is one cruel bitch.....


so i will close this journal with this... Zena Duma you are my light, my sky, and my rain; with out you i will never grow and be the one i know i can be. please remain true and know that this pup is doing the same even if it is against my rules i know that this one rule was always meant to be broken. and i want to be a part of buggies life too... not just to say im a father but because that little one has stolen my heart and made me who i am today. i cant imagine losing you forever because we both know we will forever remain alone and loning for each others love. i love you zena duma and i always will...

DEMON DESIGNS IS HOLDING A LOGO CONTEST!!!!!!THE PERSON THAT CAN CREATE THE BEST LOGO FOR THE COMPANY WILL RECEIVE A:
FREE T-SHIRT WITH THE WINNING LOGO
WRIST BAND
AND WATER BOTTLE WITH YOUR OWN FURSONA
OVER $100 IN PRIZES FOR FREE!!!!!!
THIS IS GOING ON FROM 4/2/2013-5/31/2013 JUST IN TIME FOR ANTHROCON!!!!!!!!


SUBMIT AND SPREAD THE WORD!!!!!


please submit your designs to this email address:

demondesigns802[at]yahoo.com with anything relevant that you think i will need to declair you the winner
please only one submition per person i want to give everyone a chance here...

for any reason that i cannot get ahold of you within 7 days after the contest, a new winner will be delaired and contacted......



http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4495900/

WELL I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THIS IS HAPPENING SO HERE IT IS..... my mate and Akasha have been fighting this is the reply i have for both of them...... I haven't gotten into many of these "quarrels" because i think they are childish and minute.... i don't have the time nor energy to get involved with these petty arguments.... so i will "vent" and get it over with my way and if you have a problem with what i say im not sorry and you can go be butt hurt somewhere else.... Akasha... you reuse your shapes and it has not gone unnoticed.... everyone is nice to you about it but you recycle your art and it doesn't look like you care... are you even a real furry? or are you just trying to "fit in" because it is a place where others accept you.... just asking.... oh and by the way zenna has never stolen art. she uses others art for inspiration and has always asked for permission to use a base that wasn't hers, so before you go running you gums about a REAL artist and her work why not start making some originals and stop recycling? sounds like you have to work hard and copy zennas ideas yourself.... the nurse pic being the most recent then there was the fund raiser for mariah the kitty...... did you even bother to ask rally if it was ok or even bring it to her attention? if you did that is great im not saying it isn't.... and zenna, your my mate yes but you need to start standing up for yourself and proving WITH THE WIP'S that they are not stolen or show proof that you are allowed to use a base.... this also has to be settled.... Akasha the $20 you gave us was not for commission it was to help with food when we where in barre...... zenna kindly made you a Kandy Korn ref page FOR FREE and you say it was stolen???? how ungrateful are you??????? this is where i stop before the real asshole comes out of me because i have yet to write anything that isn't true and i hope EVERYONE sees the truth not a bunch of whorish lies...... im done with this drama bullshit!!!!!! be an adult or get back in your diapers but don't do both......

Want to be in a comic? Come join up!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4324834/

Well it is official i am not selling anything but in spirit of the "grand opening" i have a deal for all of you furs.....


if you order from me and your total comes over $60.00 you will recieve a free furry pride wristband with your order, and on top of that if you order by valentines day your shipping will be free!!!!!!!!!! i think that is a good deal. send me a note with your requests and i will be taking orders i am open right now

hey friends is demon, i have started a bussiness and it has gone no where so to launch bussiness i am having a 5-10% off sale TO THE FIRST FIVE CUSTOMERS THAT WANT SOMETHING MADE!!!!!!!! one slot is already filled and there are four left who wants in????

i have started my company Demon designs and custom printing has a name and logo.... but no customers yet i am wanting to start it off with a order over 60 dollars and i need help setting up my paypal i have one i have been trying to link to my bank account but i dont understand it at all so is there any advice you guys can give me?

if you want a furry pride t-shirt but dont have the money just send me your ideas, i will create a 3d rendering and then from there we can set something up i want these shirts to be special and mean something to not just you but to the group of furries that you call a family. every shirt in the 802 furs means something to us and you know it please give me your ideas!!!!!!!!! note me and i will work hard to please everyone......

i have a library of over 5,000 shapes and art pieces
change the color of your shirt
change size s-3x
single & multi-color art
add as much art as you want!!!!! (locations vary)
center your art
Upload Your Own Image
i accept multiple formats (jpg, png, & gif)
huge file size limit (10 Megs)
add multiple images
center your pic
change color
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enter name, number, and size on shirt (not required)
Distress Your Design
Add Your Own Text
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so i have been playing around with a website for clothes and a lightbulb went off in my head. would anyone want a fursonna shirt, pantie/bra set, bikini, hat, sweatshirt, or pant? if you would messege me and i think we could work something out i want to give this a try

i have a job!!!! that is the good news. the bad news is that i will more than likely work saturdays when the meets are going to happen and i miss all of my friends. the furry community i was adopted into has no only been friends youve all been a family to this blossoming puppy and now i have to tuck my tail between my legs and look from afar as everyone is playing and im digging the dirt for money :( i wish they told me go lplay and be here tommorow for work i would be happy with that but i cant i need the money too bad... so idk what the furrys want to do. Maybe come to my store buy a single item costing less than 2 bucks and walk through my isle? Make me feel whole? lol that would be awesome.... I MISS YOU APO, ZANNER, LUCKY, ROB, SHADOW, MILEA, JOHN, AND EVERYONE ELSE IN THE 802 FURS... WOOF!!!!!!

Come join us!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4115299/

borrowed from zenna duma



1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!

Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? - Yes
Been arrested? - yes
Kissed someone you didn't like? - Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? - yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? - Yes
Ran a red light? - yes
Been suspended from school? - yes
Experienced love at first sight? - yes
Totaled your car in an accident? - yes
Been fired from a job? - Yes
Fired somebody? no
Pointed a gun at someone? - yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? - yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? - Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? - Yes
Kissed in the rain? - yes
Had a close brush with death (your own)? - Yes
Seen someone die? - no
Played spin-the-bottle? - no
Sang in the shower? - Yes
Smoked a cigar? - Yes
Sat on a rooftop? - Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? - Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? - no
Skipped school? - no
Eaten a bug? - no
Sleepwalked? -no
Walked a moonlit beach? - no
Ridden a motorcycle? - Yes
Dumped someone? - yes
Forgotten your anniversary? - NO!
Lied to avoid a ticket? - no
Ridden on a helicopter? - No
Shaved your head? - yes
Blacked out from drinking? - no
Played a prank on someone? - Yes
Hit a home run? - YES
Felt like killing someone? - YES!
Cross-dressed? - no
Been falling-down drunk? - Yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? - Yes
Eaten snake? - yes
Marched/Protested? - no
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? - yes
Puked on an amusement ride? - no
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? - Yes
Been in a band? - No
Knitted? - no
Been on TV? - yes
Shot a gun? - Yes
Skinny-dipped? - Yes
Caused someone to need stitches? - No
Ridden a surfboard? - yes
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? - Yes
Had surgery? - No
Streaked? - no
Taken by ambulance to hospital? - Yes
Passed out when not drinking? - Yes
Peed on a bush? - Yes
Donated Blood? - yes! :)
Grabbed electric fence? - yes
Eaten alligator meat? - yes
Eaten cheesecake? - Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? - Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? - Yes
Peed your pants in public? - Yes
Written graffiti? - yes
Still love someone you shouldn't? - no
Think about the future? - Yes
Been in handcuffs? - yes
Believe in love? - yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? - Yes

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 Tigress is giving out free art rule do apply so please read the jounal carefully

here is the link: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3940253/

so here i am at the local library and i am lapping up some Delicious golden egg nog from hood and eating a carnivore grinder with baked lays (hey... this puppy needs to watch his figure) lol i hope that my family is OK and that my outer fam (all the furries) are OK too today is so far so good and cant complain