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Making Two New YouTube Channels
General | Posted 10 years agoSo I don't know how many people know this, but I deleted my main YouTube channel, JenniferTheStrange. I just didn't like that name anymore and to be honest, the channel wasn't that great. Sure I had 277 subscribers, but I know I can get them again with new content and separate channels.
I'm making one channel for vlogging, and one channel for Art videos I will post a link to both channels once I have created them
I'm making one channel for vlogging, and one channel for Art videos I will post a link to both channels once I have created them
Cringe Videos
General | Posted 10 years agoI've become obsessed with them >_< I don't know why I'm watching them o_O
Maybe because it shows us how truly weird and insane humans can really be lol. Recently I watched a lot of cringe videos about Otherkin. I kind of understand Otherkin, because its almost kind of like being a furry only without the full costumes and what not. But I think some otherkin even get costumes too. I kinda want more furry cringe videos too...and goth/emo cringe videos...I love them XD not in a mean way I just like watching these people be so comfortable with themselves that they just don't care what others think lol. Sure they may be weird or strange but they simply don't give a fuck xD kinda wish I had that confidence about wearing my new tails...Yes I have two fox tails....real ones...
Maybe because it shows us how truly weird and insane humans can really be lol. Recently I watched a lot of cringe videos about Otherkin. I kind of understand Otherkin, because its almost kind of like being a furry only without the full costumes and what not. But I think some otherkin even get costumes too. I kinda want more furry cringe videos too...and goth/emo cringe videos...I love them XD not in a mean way I just like watching these people be so comfortable with themselves that they just don't care what others think lol. Sure they may be weird or strange but they simply don't give a fuck xD kinda wish I had that confidence about wearing my new tails...Yes I have two fox tails....real ones...
Addicted To The Internet
General | Posted 10 years agoI know I've probably said this before, but I realize that I am heavily addicted to the internet. It's bad. There are days where I'd spend almost ALL day and even ALL NIGHT online or on my computer. My excuse? I have nothing else better to do. Seriously. I don't have friends, I do have a dog now, but honestly it doesn't take much to take care of her since she's already an adult. 9 years old in fact. If she were a puppy, it'd be a different story. Puppies are a lot more work than fully grown dogs lol.
But yeah...I'm trying to get myself to not be online so much. Like today for example. I didn't get on the computer until about 2 hours now. And honestly, I'm not feeling the escapism/joy from it. If anything I'm just even more bored. My inspiration to draw is kind of next to nothing right now, and I'm not sure why. I spent most of today in bed actually because I didn't feel like doing anything.
My internet addiction is really bad and I need to fix it. I think a lot of us have some form of internet addiction, some may just be worse than others. My case, is pretty bad. I do get annoyed when I can't get online and I REALLY want to. I do sometimes think about rather being online while I'm at work (because I fucking hate my job and it's so simple a trained monkey could do it) I may actually start doing more traditional sketches and work on drawing wolves more. So I will try to at least post the good sketches when I can. I may also be writing more (traditionally meaning in notebooks and such) and that will help me not be on the computer as much. I'm not completely disappearing like I feel like I want to, since there are some things I can only do online that I'm comfortable with. Like paying all my bills. All that is done online these days. Along with applying for jobs online (since everyone constantly tells me "you can apply online" when I ask for an application >_> I fucking hate it. Next time I'll try and lie and say "I don't have internet what now?")
But...yeah...this internet addiction is starting to bring me down. Maybe that's part of my depression...or the addiction is my way of dealing with my depression. Sure I've had my moment of "Fuck I'm getting over this depression RIGHT NOW" ...buuut its a little harder to do than I thought. Some 'friend' over on DeviantArt has recently dropped me because she didn't care for my 'negative attitude'....I was just being real. I'm not gonna fake feeling sorry for something/someone when I actually don't. It's not that I'm selfish, because I'm not, its just...why act like a certain feeling when that feeling wasn't there to begin with? It's like faking being happy. Very hard to do. (So my boss can screw off when he tells us to 'smile' more...no. we hate this job and we don't get paid to fucking smile. we get paid to work)
But ...yeah I'm repeating myself now but I'm going to try and not be online as much anymore. Maybe once I get a job I actually like, I wont be so...blah all the time. Retail has really messed up my way of thinking...so seriously guys. DO NOT EVER WORK RETAIL. IT DESTROYS YOUR SOUL
But yeah...I'm trying to get myself to not be online so much. Like today for example. I didn't get on the computer until about 2 hours now. And honestly, I'm not feeling the escapism/joy from it. If anything I'm just even more bored. My inspiration to draw is kind of next to nothing right now, and I'm not sure why. I spent most of today in bed actually because I didn't feel like doing anything.
My internet addiction is really bad and I need to fix it. I think a lot of us have some form of internet addiction, some may just be worse than others. My case, is pretty bad. I do get annoyed when I can't get online and I REALLY want to. I do sometimes think about rather being online while I'm at work (because I fucking hate my job and it's so simple a trained monkey could do it) I may actually start doing more traditional sketches and work on drawing wolves more. So I will try to at least post the good sketches when I can. I may also be writing more (traditionally meaning in notebooks and such) and that will help me not be on the computer as much. I'm not completely disappearing like I feel like I want to, since there are some things I can only do online that I'm comfortable with. Like paying all my bills. All that is done online these days. Along with applying for jobs online (since everyone constantly tells me "you can apply online" when I ask for an application >_> I fucking hate it. Next time I'll try and lie and say "I don't have internet what now?")
But...yeah...this internet addiction is starting to bring me down. Maybe that's part of my depression...or the addiction is my way of dealing with my depression. Sure I've had my moment of "Fuck I'm getting over this depression RIGHT NOW" ...buuut its a little harder to do than I thought. Some 'friend' over on DeviantArt has recently dropped me because she didn't care for my 'negative attitude'....I was just being real. I'm not gonna fake feeling sorry for something/someone when I actually don't. It's not that I'm selfish, because I'm not, its just...why act like a certain feeling when that feeling wasn't there to begin with? It's like faking being happy. Very hard to do. (So my boss can screw off when he tells us to 'smile' more...no. we hate this job and we don't get paid to fucking smile. we get paid to work)
But ...yeah I'm repeating myself now but I'm going to try and not be online as much anymore. Maybe once I get a job I actually like, I wont be so...blah all the time. Retail has really messed up my way of thinking...so seriously guys. DO NOT EVER WORK RETAIL. IT DESTROYS YOUR SOUL
