Hey folks,

Now that I'm feeling in a slightly more sound state-of-mind. I thought I'd just create a quick post to explain what happened to me last week.
Put simply, I dug up trauma from my past I didn't know I had. It started on.. the 8th - 10th March when something upset me a lot but I just put it down to my already unsound mental state. So I gave it a few days to allow myself to mend before trying it again (because a part from the thing that upset me, I did quite enjoy the rest of it. I won't go into details) but it happened again. I had a therapy session afterwards to vent a bit and I tried to focus in on specific things. Didn't really get anywhere, then one day I was feeling actually pretty good then one very specific thing happened and *BAM* that was that. No talking, no posting, no being online anywhere, no sleeping, no eating, INCREDIBLY tense all the time, snapped at several close friends.
I'm going to be working through it again with my therapist but for now I'm feelin' good, on the mend which is why I started posting again. But, I am going to gradually ramp up back to where I was so all going well I should be back to my old posting habits come April :)

Thank you for your kind support for those who did try to help, and sorry if I hurt anyone when I was gone, I didn't mean to :(
Love you all, stay safe <3
Robyn

I've been posting updates on Twitter and Bluesky but not everyone follows me on there so I thought I'd post a journal on here.
I've been going through a rough patch lately and my motivation has been lacking, might be burnout, might be something more. I'll get better and back to my chipper self at some point. Idk.

I do have ideas on the go for when I do have motivation again but for now, just taking a break.
Love y'all, <3
Robyn-

Hi everyone, I need some honest opinions.
How much would you pay for my stuff? What ways could I improve the service that I offer?
Constructive criticism is welcome <3

Comment below :3 thank you

Yup, got a pretty serious infection beneath the gum line, had to a take a couple courses of antibiotics and have been off my rocker on painkillers. But, it appears to have passed now! So I should be able to start getting back in the rhythm of things again :)

Hope you all had a nice Christmas!

If you are reading this and would like regular updates on stuff, head over to:

https://bsky.app/profile/robyn2827.bsky.social

I don't post updates on other places really, everything's on Bluesky!

At 3am yesterday I woke up in an extraordinary amount of pain. Everything from the pelvis down was swollen, itchy, inflamed, red raw, and covered in welts. I took and emergency shower (which hurt like a bitch) to douse the skin which helped a little. However, I was not able to get back to sleep, at all.. until at some point yesterday I collapsed from exhaustion or something and then woke up just now. And I remember basically nothing that happened yesterday other then the early morning stuff. My mind is soup. I'm a little bit on edge rn, probably won't be doing art today for obvious reasons.

Just thought I'd let y'all know.

500 uploads. wow

Das a lot of views! Thanks you everyone for stopping by! :D

Is there anybody out there? This page has been very dead for a while. Haven't seen much of anything on my notifications for a long time.

I hope people are ok.

Just gonna take a couple days to myself. Am suffering badly with my allergies and so I don't really have any energy lately.

Robyn- <3

Someone posing as a potential "client" just attempted a phishing and refund scam over "PayPal"! Directed at me!
However, because I am scam aware I saw it and caught it before any information changed hands.

They posed as a client and sent me a "payment" followed by a fake email posing as PayPal from an gmail.com domain asking me to return the money that they had never sent. Caught it at the email.
There was also a login with PayPal button on this email that I did NOT click.
They have been reported to Telegram, PayPal, my bank and Deviantart (where they first reached out).

BE SCAM AWARE!

August was far.. FAR too busy for me, but I think I'm going to have more time in September to do some art.
I hope you've all been well :)

<3

Nearly finished, these last two weeks have been manic. Just have to keep going until Sunday and then I can have a rest!

Hi everyone,

I had planned to do a lot more drawing this week however I've been rushed off my feet so I have decided to take the week off, and come back on Monday. I may do some stuff on Friday however I won't make any promises.

This week has just been non-stop for me.
See you on Monday :)

Hi everyone,

I've taken the decision to close the request threads. Reasons being I would like to encourage commissions of my work rather then it all being done for free. I'm sure you'll understand that I can't pay any bills with free art.

There are currently 2 outstanding requests, and they will be done in due course.

I am open to trades and commissions. My prices starts at $7.50 US (exchange fees incl) and go up depending on number of characters and complexity.

Thank you for your understanding. <3

Hi folks,

It's the weekend! So I'm going to take a couple days off, will probably be back on Sunday with more art. If not, then Monday.

See you all then, enjoy your weekend :D <3

Robyn-

I'm open to requests!

I will be opening initially to 5 slots, because of what happened last time and I don't want to let people down or burn myself out.
Share this if you would like but it's first-come-fist-served

Please note: this is 5 slots per gallery and the same person cannot claim multiple slots. Even if with different OCs
Nothing copyrighted, nothing illegal, you can suggest kink art but it's at my discretion.

Send me a ref and an idea and I'll see what I can do!

Hi everyone,

Just posting a quick update. I'm going to be slowing down over the next couple days temporarily.
I need to give myself a short break. If I feel like drawing something I will, but for now don't expect much until Monday.

When Monday comes there should be more art from yours truly :D
Love y'all

So in an attempt to generate more traffic, I'm machinegunning my art to all corners of the cyberspace.

Here is the full link list as of: 13/6/24
FA: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/dergenthedragon
Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/dergenthedragon
DA: https://www.deviantart.com/robyn2827
Itaku: https://itaku.ee/profile/dergenthedragon
Ko-Fi: https://ko-fi.com/robyn2827
Discord: https://discord.gg/DHhEJ7V4ER
Telegram: https://t.me/robynsartgallery
InkBunny: https://inkbunny.net/robyn2827

:)

It's complicated.. This is probably going to be a long read.

Around January 2023 the blue deer known as Winterglades left me after two years of a relationship. This, understandably, took a huge toll on my motivation for doing.. anything really. The only thing that was stopping me from spiralling was work, it was allowing me to keep my mind occupied.

Around the same time, the last of my nans on my dads side passed on of.. I seem to recall either liver failure or liver cancer, either way it was bad and terminal. I, as usual, attempted to bottle-up and suppress my feelings and it came to head in a catastrophic way one day at work. Which resulted in a very long and extremely stressful goss-misconduct hearing. I should note, most of the charges were nonsense anyway so they were dropped (yes, there were multiple.)

Around March/April of that year a transfer opportunity came up to one of our North West depots, which I jumped on the opportunity. It took quite a few months to finally get the two depots to talk to each other and agree my transfer but it was finally approved and I moved out on June 30th 2023.

During all of this I had been advised by my mother that I was very likely to be an un-diagnosed Autistic person, and the more I reflect on my behaviours as a child that I can personally remember, and from what my mother has told me and how I act now, I am inclined to agree. And at time of writing (May 2024) there is no doubt left in my mind that I am in fact Autistic/Neurodivergent. I am going to see a specialist later this week to start the long and arduous process of getting a formal diagnosis.

July/August/September I started attending my first ever prides (I'm Ace). Growing up in a tiny village in the deep country I never had the opportunity to easily get to any. During these prides I was able to let loose and really experiment with my identity free from judging eyes. I started wearing skirts and makeup just as a laugh really, but it REALLY grew on me. To the point that, I now wear nothing but skirts and I've come out as trans. I'm way happier with myself now, then I was as a "man". I started HRT within a couple months which was a great move by me because within weeks of me starting, the UK gov started to really crack down on DIY HRT suppliers in this country (and I'm not waiting until I'm 30 to get it via the NHS, can't afford private.) For those interested, I take injectables.

Christmas time I had a huge falling out with someone whom I thought was a friend, turns out nah, my feelings are irrelevant. I'm not going to drop anyone in it, but they took a horrible disliking when I said I was a furry (They were one of the types that think we all eat out of dog bowls. Which by the way, if that's what you want to do, go for it, I'm not knockin' it, free country 'n all.) They would hurt me and when I tried to defend myself by simply pushing them away they'd get all defensive and play a victim. So I'm just done with them.

March/April time I was introduced to the wild world of tulpamancery! I found it absolutely fascinating and thought it might benefit me, so I tried it out. I have a extremely active and fluid imagination so I was able to 'get it' pretty quickly. I turned Derg into a tulpa and he kinda just lives in my head, he's semi-autonomous but getting there slowly. At the same time I thought I'd make another dragon, who later named herself Alice, to reflect my newer more feminine side. She again, is semi-autonomous. And then I made myself into a character in this world who is called Robyn (which is my irl name now as well). So if you get confused by why I will sign certain works with potentially 3 different names, it depends on who was at the forefront of my mind at the time.

And that brings us to now, where I had a confirmed sensory overload/meltdown while at work, a customer got triggered because I lost control during this meltdown, they complained and the company sacked/fired me. I just went to my final appeal hearing 2 days ago (at time of writing): denied. So I'm back to square one really. Looking for work and just getting by on the bare minimum.
I've opened up commissions again now that I've started posting again, anything would be really helpful if you would commission me.

Thank you for reading, I'm taking a break today as I have some stuff irl that I need to do that's going to take most of the day and drain most of my energy.

Talk soon <3 -Robyn

I'm baaaaaaaaaaack :3

Wh. What on earth is going on. The entire world appears to have lost its collective minds over this policy update. I made an itaku as many of my friends are jumping ship from FA over this.

https://itaku.ee/profile/dergenthedragon

Still dunno about posting, kinda stressed as late, going away on vaca tomorrow. Hopefully will clear my head
Have a great day :3

Hey everyone,

So.. some of you may have noticed I disappear for months at a time (sometimes years in some cases).
I feel like those of you who have decided to stick around deserve an explanation, and tbh I don't really have one myself. My brain works in strange ways. Everything I do will sorta be done on a seasonal basis, so I may be really active and doing something everyday for months at a time then one day, with no warning: silence. This happens with everything, and I'm not really sure why.
Normally it goes that I'll find another little project on the side, I will do two side-by-side for a bit, until one completely consumes my life, at which the other just goes dark. With no warning or explanation from myself. I'm not sure WHY my brain operates in this way but it does, and there's not much I can do about it.
Thanks for sticking by and putting up with my periodic activity. Hope you all have a great day <3

Derg

Idk what more I can say. Im in a rut, I hate when this happens, I can't sleep properly because of it which just makes me fall deeper. I have no want to drink or eat anything unless I'm literally about to expire.. everything is just such a chore 90% of the time I don't want to get out of bed during the day.. I can tell I'm down because my thoughts and YouTube viewing is now nothing but darkness and death. I've lost count how many times I've said "The sweet release of death" or something along those lines in the past weeks

Why can't I just be happy for an extended period of time. I wanna talk to people.. I wanna do art.. like I REALLY wanna do art but I can't find the internal drive to actually pick up the pen. Which is making me so angry it's really upsetting...
Idk what to do with this