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Posted 12 years agoIt was fun!
I need to clean my room!
Posted 12 years agoBut it's going to take such a long time!
I think I forget how stressed out I get about things in general, and I also forget that I forget my stress and then when I get overly emotional or short-tempered I blame it on the wrong things. It's definitely not that the things going on in my life are bad at all, I've just accepted that I'm a high-stress, obsessively thinking person and I need to keep that in mind when making decisions. I should also start writing out what I need/want to do instead of keeping it in my head because I definitely don't have an organized mind.
I think excessive amounts of work are bothering me. Not working in general, I honestly really like working but when I have to put off picking up my medicine for two days because I'm exhausted ehhhhhhh. It's mainly just Six Flags, I think this year will be it for that. They're so demanding physically and mentally, and at the end of the day it doesn't feel rewarding. Besides making kids' days or weeks I don't feel like I'm accumulating a whole lot in return. When I work with animals I feel a lot more satisfied emotionally and like my potentially long hours were for something. I also feel like I only see my family when I come home and go to bed, and I talk to my mom over text more than I do in person which was never the case before. Not really a fan of that! For someone that's always been really close with their mom, that kind of change is unfavorable. Especially when you're trading it for a dramatic work environment and unnecessary physical strain for minimum wage. I have I think three more weeks before I'll be done so I'm just reflecting really and it's not worth changing my schedule in that short of a time span.
I'm really enjoying where my life is going, though! Even though an earwig either pinched or bite my fracking arm really hard this morning. I could have done without that.
I think I forget how stressed out I get about things in general, and I also forget that I forget my stress and then when I get overly emotional or short-tempered I blame it on the wrong things. It's definitely not that the things going on in my life are bad at all, I've just accepted that I'm a high-stress, obsessively thinking person and I need to keep that in mind when making decisions. I should also start writing out what I need/want to do instead of keeping it in my head because I definitely don't have an organized mind.
I think excessive amounts of work are bothering me. Not working in general, I honestly really like working but when I have to put off picking up my medicine for two days because I'm exhausted ehhhhhhh. It's mainly just Six Flags, I think this year will be it for that. They're so demanding physically and mentally, and at the end of the day it doesn't feel rewarding. Besides making kids' days or weeks I don't feel like I'm accumulating a whole lot in return. When I work with animals I feel a lot more satisfied emotionally and like my potentially long hours were for something. I also feel like I only see my family when I come home and go to bed, and I talk to my mom over text more than I do in person which was never the case before. Not really a fan of that! For someone that's always been really close with their mom, that kind of change is unfavorable. Especially when you're trading it for a dramatic work environment and unnecessary physical strain for minimum wage. I have I think three more weeks before I'll be done so I'm just reflecting really and it's not worth changing my schedule in that short of a time span.
I'm really enjoying where my life is going, though! Even though an earwig either pinched or bite my fracking arm really hard this morning. I could have done without that.
Jellybeans!
Posted 12 years agoI realized today, whilst browsing the internet, that animals are a huge barrier between myself and whatever negativity I'm dealing with. And I think that's not only innate in a lot of people but it's been a concept in my life since I was little because I obviously had a draw to animals at a young age. I think most kids do but kind of grow out of it. I just get super emotional sometimes when I interact with animal that it makes me self-concious and I really wish that wasn't the case, but I think I'm getting away from that because I'm pretty damn glad I can get so much enjoyment out of animals versus other things, like material objects. My boas make me so much happier than many other things I own, and they don't even give a shit.
I think this is also why a career with animals was always so prominent throughout my lifetime. I had momentary hobbies that were distracting, but it always, always came back to something with animals. I think because I NEED it. It's not just something I enjoy doing, it's something I need to stay centered. And I'm really glad that I came to that conclusion when I was younger because I know quite a few people that aren't sure what to do even when they've graduated with a degree they think they want, or when they've solidified a position in a career path they thought they'd enjoy. There's nothing wrong with that, I'm just glad it's one less thing I have to worry about considering I worry about everything.
And it's never been like "people are stupid, animals get me!" it's more like a genuine admiration for things that have developed in specific habitats that project incredibly diverse adaptations and behaviors. I think people either ignore or are totally unaware of any admiration they have for animals. It's more of a pure feeling than a thought. Plus animals are just fucking cool and spending my life doing anything else would be nowhere near as satisfying.
I was really going somewhere with this post but a reptile group on Facebook distracted me and now I just want to look at snakes.
I think this is also why a career with animals was always so prominent throughout my lifetime. I had momentary hobbies that were distracting, but it always, always came back to something with animals. I think because I NEED it. It's not just something I enjoy doing, it's something I need to stay centered. And I'm really glad that I came to that conclusion when I was younger because I know quite a few people that aren't sure what to do even when they've graduated with a degree they think they want, or when they've solidified a position in a career path they thought they'd enjoy. There's nothing wrong with that, I'm just glad it's one less thing I have to worry about considering I worry about everything.
And it's never been like "people are stupid, animals get me!" it's more like a genuine admiration for things that have developed in specific habitats that project incredibly diverse adaptations and behaviors. I think people either ignore or are totally unaware of any admiration they have for animals. It's more of a pure feeling than a thought. Plus animals are just fucking cool and spending my life doing anything else would be nowhere near as satisfying.
I was really going somewhere with this post but a reptile group on Facebook distracted me and now I just want to look at snakes.
Maggie says things about stuff, mostly unorganized.
Posted 12 years agoI keep forgetting to be proud of how far I've come in coping with my anxiety. All I focus on is when I slip up and think I'm not getting anywhere, but then I remember that a year ago I couldn't even think of certain scenarios without really terrified feelings.
I've come particularly far with recognizing rational versus irrational thoughts and then deciding what to do about them. I used to heavily react against my irrational thoughts which led to intense panic attacks because I was just continuously intensifying a passing thought. This also fucked up friendships I had at the time because if I thought something might be happening (irrational) I would confront the person about the nonexistent problem and basically just caused confusion and concern for my feelings which made everything worse. Over time I've gotten pretty good at narrowing down irrationality to its source and determining if there is any evidence to legitimately support it. There rarely is. Thanks, anxiety!
So instead of praising myself for this I ignore what I do well and just get mad when I momentarily relapse into previous (really unsuccessful) coping methods, like panicking. They last barely any time at all, especially compared to episodes in high school that lasted weeks, and I forget this. I forget that I have probably 80% more control over my anxiety than I did only a couple of years ago. That's incredible. Sometimes I wish I could remember how that period in my life felt to remind myself that what I feel now is waaaay more bearable. I mean come on, I've overcome basically a life-long source of major anxiety this year. That's a huge achievement. I couldn't have done it without how amazing Mike is. I actually owe him a ton for being so supportive all the time.
It'll really only get better considering I can only learn more about how to control aspects of my fears and emotions. Being afraid of irrational things is such a waste of time, and channeling that into excitement has helped a lot. Being irrationally excited is more fun!
ANYWHO-
My dad apparently talked to a birdwatching friend who works for the INDR that seems interested in having me help him with re-releasing alligator snapping turtles into Northern Illinois and doing some sort of herp survey during the summer. I emailed him today so hopefully that works out. Pretty great! Thanks, dad.
I've come particularly far with recognizing rational versus irrational thoughts and then deciding what to do about them. I used to heavily react against my irrational thoughts which led to intense panic attacks because I was just continuously intensifying a passing thought. This also fucked up friendships I had at the time because if I thought something might be happening (irrational) I would confront the person about the nonexistent problem and basically just caused confusion and concern for my feelings which made everything worse. Over time I've gotten pretty good at narrowing down irrationality to its source and determining if there is any evidence to legitimately support it. There rarely is. Thanks, anxiety!
So instead of praising myself for this I ignore what I do well and just get mad when I momentarily relapse into previous (really unsuccessful) coping methods, like panicking. They last barely any time at all, especially compared to episodes in high school that lasted weeks, and I forget this. I forget that I have probably 80% more control over my anxiety than I did only a couple of years ago. That's incredible. Sometimes I wish I could remember how that period in my life felt to remind myself that what I feel now is waaaay more bearable. I mean come on, I've overcome basically a life-long source of major anxiety this year. That's a huge achievement. I couldn't have done it without how amazing Mike is. I actually owe him a ton for being so supportive all the time.
It'll really only get better considering I can only learn more about how to control aspects of my fears and emotions. Being afraid of irrational things is such a waste of time, and channeling that into excitement has helped a lot. Being irrationally excited is more fun!
ANYWHO-
My dad apparently talked to a birdwatching friend who works for the INDR that seems interested in having me help him with re-releasing alligator snapping turtles into Northern Illinois and doing some sort of herp survey during the summer. I emailed him today so hopefully that works out. Pretty great! Thanks, dad.
Most time underwater, and most time without breathing!
Posted 12 years agoYou can't blame me for doing something like this after studying way too much this week. Plus they're always way too personal and grade-school-ly. Fuuuun!
1. Had sex? Peut-etre, qui le demande?
2. Bought Condoms? Niet!
3. Gotten somebody Pregnant? Nope! Thank God.
4. Failed A Class? Unfortunately! But I definitely learned that shit the second time.
5. Kissed A Boy? Mhmmmmm <3
6. Kissed A Girl? Perhaps.
7. Used A Little Paper Bag for Lunch? Little paper sack?
8. Had A Job? I thought that said hand a job. I've worked since I was old enough to!
9. Slipped On Ice? Of course, I'm already BORED OF THIS.
10. Missed The School Bus? I have had countless nightmares through my school career of missing the bus because my parents got so mad.
11. Fucked a girl? WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOA WHOA WHOA.
12. Bullied Someone On The Internet? I'm sure I have. The internet makes it too easy. I don't make it a goal, though.
13. Sexted? Bien sur.
14. Sex In Public? Niet.
15. Played On A Sports Team? Dance team! Fucking miss that.
16. Smoked Weed? No sir.
17. Smoked Cigarettes? No sir.
18. Smoked A Cigar? Yes!
19. Drank Alcohol? Yessir.
20. Watched porn? I wouldn't be a girl if I hadn't!
21. Skipped class? Mhm! Thankfully recently it has only been for more important projects.
22. Gotten Arrested? Who do you think I am?!
23. Done meth? JESUS
24. Been To A Wedding? Yes!
25. Fell in love with a best friend? Who I'm in love with is also my best friend.
26. Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight? Yes, especially this semester. Toooooo much work.
27. Watched TV For 5 Hours Straight? NETFLIX.
28. Been Late For Work? Of course.
29. Been Late For School? Of course.
30. Kissed In The Rain? I don't know!
31. Showered With Someone Else? Not... yet!
32. Failed My Drivers Test? I KNOW HOW TO DRIVE!
33. Cheated on a ex? Niet.
34. Been Outside My Home Country? CANADA! I miss it.
35. Been On A Road Trip Longer Than 5 Hours? Mhmmm! Those are the best.
36. Had Lice? No!!
37. Gotten My Heart Broken? Not that dramatic, but I've been hurt bad enough!
38. Had A Credit Card? Nope!
39. Been To A Professional Sports Game? Nope! Sports are eh!
40. Broken A Bone? Nope! NO!
41. Am I BI/Gay/Lesbian? Nothing! I like who I like.
42. Won A Trophy? No :{
43. Cut Myself Unintentionally? Absolutely. Especially at work.
44. Had An STD.? HERPES.
45. Got Engaged? I have not!
46. Done ecstasy? I haven't, but I've watched people on it and that is fun.
47. Tried Out To Be On A TV Show? Nope!
48. Rode In A Taxi? Only like two times!
49. Been To Prom? I never went to prom.
50. Played A Drinking Game? Yes!
51. Stayed Up For 24 Hours Or More? NOT GOOD AT ALL.
52. Been To A Concert? Tons! The best!
53. Had A Three-Some? Nope.
54. Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex? Mhm.
55. Been In A Car Accident? No!
56. Had Braces? Yes! Can't you tell? Shit.
57. Learned Another Language? Lots of french, a little spanish.
58. Killed An Animal? That's a long story.
59. Been At A Yard Sale? THE BEST!
60. Been To A Japanese Steakhouse? Yes! Someone great took me.
61. Wore Make Up? Every day, to an extent.
62. Talked To Someone Via Webcam? Yessir!
63. Lost My Virginity Before I Was 16? Nope!
64. Had My Wisdom Teeth Taken Out? Fucking suuuuucked. I cried.
65. Kissed Someone A Different Race Than Myself? I'm sure.
66. Snuck Out Of The House? I don't think so actually.
67. Bought Porn? Nope! Free4life.
68. Had A Virus On My Computer? Yes.
69. Had Oral Sex? Mmmmmmm.
70. Dyed My Hair? Yes.
71. Gone Skinny Dipping? Nope!
72. Graduated From College? A little! Not enough.
73. Wore Someone Else’s Clothes? This is a dumb question.
74. Voted In A Presidential Election? Uh huh!
75. Rode In An Ambulance? Nope!
76. Rode In A Helicopter? No.
77. Caught The Stove On Fire? Nope!
78. Got In A Verbal Fight? THESE QUESTIONS ARE JUST GETTING WORSE.
79. Met Someone Famous? Sure!
80. Been On Vacation? Yes.
82. Been On A Boat? Yes. PILOT SHARKS!
81. Been On An Airplane? Yes.
83. Broken Something Expensive? Yes.
84. Had Surgery? Oral, when I was younger.
85. Beat A Video Game? NO!
86. Found Something Valuable On The Ground? Yes!
87. Made A Survey? Yes when I was in high school.
88. Stalked Someone On A Social Network? Naaaah.
89. Prank Called Someone? Yes!
90. Been To A Library Outside Of School? Yep!
91. Spent Over $100 Shopping In One Day? Yes.
92. Cut My Hair And Hated It? Allllllllllllllllllllllllllll the time.
93. Peed Outside? Yes!
94. Went Fishing? Yes.
95. Helped With Charity? Yes.
96. Taken A Pregnancy Test? Nope!
97. Been Rejected By A Crush? Yep!
98. Been Suspended From School? WHAT DO I LOOK LIKE
99. Broken a mirror? With my face?
100. Thrown up on someone? Not yet.
101. Lied to your parents? WHO HASN'T for some reason or another.
1. Had sex? Peut-etre, qui le demande?
2. Bought Condoms? Niet!
3. Gotten somebody Pregnant? Nope! Thank God.
4. Failed A Class? Unfortunately! But I definitely learned that shit the second time.
5. Kissed A Boy? Mhmmmmm <3
6. Kissed A Girl? Perhaps.
7. Used A Little Paper Bag for Lunch? Little paper sack?
8. Had A Job? I thought that said hand a job. I've worked since I was old enough to!
9. Slipped On Ice? Of course, I'm already BORED OF THIS.
10. Missed The School Bus? I have had countless nightmares through my school career of missing the bus because my parents got so mad.
11. Fucked a girl? WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOA WHOA WHOA.
12. Bullied Someone On The Internet? I'm sure I have. The internet makes it too easy. I don't make it a goal, though.
13. Sexted? Bien sur.
14. Sex In Public? Niet.
15. Played On A Sports Team? Dance team! Fucking miss that.
16. Smoked Weed? No sir.
17. Smoked Cigarettes? No sir.
18. Smoked A Cigar? Yes!
19. Drank Alcohol? Yessir.
20. Watched porn? I wouldn't be a girl if I hadn't!
21. Skipped class? Mhm! Thankfully recently it has only been for more important projects.
22. Gotten Arrested? Who do you think I am?!
23. Done meth? JESUS
24. Been To A Wedding? Yes!
25. Fell in love with a best friend? Who I'm in love with is also my best friend.
26. Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight? Yes, especially this semester. Toooooo much work.
27. Watched TV For 5 Hours Straight? NETFLIX.
28. Been Late For Work? Of course.
29. Been Late For School? Of course.
30. Kissed In The Rain? I don't know!
31. Showered With Someone Else? Not... yet!
32. Failed My Drivers Test? I KNOW HOW TO DRIVE!
33. Cheated on a ex? Niet.
34. Been Outside My Home Country? CANADA! I miss it.
35. Been On A Road Trip Longer Than 5 Hours? Mhmmm! Those are the best.
36. Had Lice? No!!
37. Gotten My Heart Broken? Not that dramatic, but I've been hurt bad enough!
38. Had A Credit Card? Nope!
39. Been To A Professional Sports Game? Nope! Sports are eh!
40. Broken A Bone? Nope! NO!
41. Am I BI/Gay/Lesbian? Nothing! I like who I like.
42. Won A Trophy? No :{
43. Cut Myself Unintentionally? Absolutely. Especially at work.
44. Had An STD.? HERPES.
45. Got Engaged? I have not!
46. Done ecstasy? I haven't, but I've watched people on it and that is fun.
47. Tried Out To Be On A TV Show? Nope!
48. Rode In A Taxi? Only like two times!
49. Been To Prom? I never went to prom.
50. Played A Drinking Game? Yes!
51. Stayed Up For 24 Hours Or More? NOT GOOD AT ALL.
52. Been To A Concert? Tons! The best!
53. Had A Three-Some? Nope.
54. Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex? Mhm.
55. Been In A Car Accident? No!
56. Had Braces? Yes! Can't you tell? Shit.
57. Learned Another Language? Lots of french, a little spanish.
58. Killed An Animal? That's a long story.
59. Been At A Yard Sale? THE BEST!
60. Been To A Japanese Steakhouse? Yes! Someone great took me.
61. Wore Make Up? Every day, to an extent.
62. Talked To Someone Via Webcam? Yessir!
63. Lost My Virginity Before I Was 16? Nope!
64. Had My Wisdom Teeth Taken Out? Fucking suuuuucked. I cried.
65. Kissed Someone A Different Race Than Myself? I'm sure.
66. Snuck Out Of The House? I don't think so actually.
67. Bought Porn? Nope! Free4life.
68. Had A Virus On My Computer? Yes.
69. Had Oral Sex? Mmmmmmm.
70. Dyed My Hair? Yes.
71. Gone Skinny Dipping? Nope!
72. Graduated From College? A little! Not enough.
73. Wore Someone Else’s Clothes? This is a dumb question.
74. Voted In A Presidential Election? Uh huh!
75. Rode In An Ambulance? Nope!
76. Rode In A Helicopter? No.
77. Caught The Stove On Fire? Nope!
78. Got In A Verbal Fight? THESE QUESTIONS ARE JUST GETTING WORSE.
79. Met Someone Famous? Sure!
80. Been On Vacation? Yes.
82. Been On A Boat? Yes. PILOT SHARKS!
81. Been On An Airplane? Yes.
83. Broken Something Expensive? Yes.
84. Had Surgery? Oral, when I was younger.
85. Beat A Video Game? NO!
86. Found Something Valuable On The Ground? Yes!
87. Made A Survey? Yes when I was in high school.
88. Stalked Someone On A Social Network? Naaaah.
89. Prank Called Someone? Yes!
90. Been To A Library Outside Of School? Yep!
91. Spent Over $100 Shopping In One Day? Yes.
92. Cut My Hair And Hated It? Allllllllllllllllllllllllllll the time.
93. Peed Outside? Yes!
94. Went Fishing? Yes.
95. Helped With Charity? Yes.
96. Taken A Pregnancy Test? Nope!
97. Been Rejected By A Crush? Yep!
98. Been Suspended From School? WHAT DO I LOOK LIKE
99. Broken a mirror? With my face?
100. Thrown up on someone? Not yet.
101. Lied to your parents? WHO HASN'T for some reason or another.
Cook your own dog?!
Posted 12 years agoI've been studying for this ridiculous biology test for almost 8 hours now and after finally taking a break I realized something.
FIRST OF ALL, I get to go back to teaching kids about reptiles this weekend which I never realized made me so happy. I get to run a specific station that tries to alleviate fear and hatred towards rattlesnakes and promote an appreciation for venomous animals and what we've been able to produce using different proteins. I get to use extracted (VENOM-LESS) fangs, Gila monster skulls, and shed rattles to educate specific aspects of the animals. Childrens' comments are ridiculous. Kids in grades 3-5 might be the only individuals more imaginative than I am.
Plus this job makes me feel like I'm really doing something in my field. I spend all of my time communicating information to people that either don't have access to reptiles or never thought to seek it out. Having a huge amount of access to a variety of animals makes me incredibly happy also, as nonreciprocating with emotions as lizards and snakes are, I definitely care for the animals there that I used to care for. I missed that goddamn Siamese crocodile even though he did absolutely nothing for me, besides a puncture wound. His crying vocalizations when we packed him for programs used to put me in awe and feel like shit at the same time. Getting kids to imitate my baby crocodilian sounds is also so rewarding. I can be professional with adults but you just can't teach kids if you're standing above them. I love getting complimented for being able to communicate on their level, which also means I'm immature.
Also, my boyfriend is amazing. Going to LAFF bowling last night and realizing we went together and we both enjoyed it and we like the community and I don't have to explain anything about why I like furries and fursuits is such a great feeling. FCN last weekend was a blast and discussing fursuit studios and what aspects of what styles we like makes me so happy. I know you'll read this so I don't have to say much more, but as much as we have in common this has struck me as the coolest thing. I'm not ashamed of it at all. I'm also SUPER tired and I feel like I won't proof-read this. I'm so freaking lucky to have you.
I guess something I want to strive for this year in particular is being more communicative with other furries that I don't know. I am so much more social than I was even in high school and as many people as I've met so far, talking to new people sometimes terrifies me. And instead of hiding behind that I just get frustrated with myself since I don't see why I couldn't make more friends. Especially fursuiters, instead of just saying how great they look or how cute they are because that's not something they haven't heard before. It's just one of those things! Hell, I'm afraid of fucking caves and spooky looking things and geese but I have no reason to be. Fear is probably my biggest motivator at this point and it never, ever used to be like that. Fear used to just create more fear and that just sucked. Then it kind of hit me that fear is basically a challenge and that if it was easy I wouldn't be afraid of everything! JESUS I'M TIRED.
I finally chose a tree kangaroo as my fursona and I'm excited about it! It's cute and fluffy and unique and I owe that guy at FCN for picking it first because he did something I wanted to do. My run-ons are excessive tonight. I type like I talk.
I want to go look for snakes.
FIRST OF ALL, I get to go back to teaching kids about reptiles this weekend which I never realized made me so happy. I get to run a specific station that tries to alleviate fear and hatred towards rattlesnakes and promote an appreciation for venomous animals and what we've been able to produce using different proteins. I get to use extracted (VENOM-LESS) fangs, Gila monster skulls, and shed rattles to educate specific aspects of the animals. Childrens' comments are ridiculous. Kids in grades 3-5 might be the only individuals more imaginative than I am.
Plus this job makes me feel like I'm really doing something in my field. I spend all of my time communicating information to people that either don't have access to reptiles or never thought to seek it out. Having a huge amount of access to a variety of animals makes me incredibly happy also, as nonreciprocating with emotions as lizards and snakes are, I definitely care for the animals there that I used to care for. I missed that goddamn Siamese crocodile even though he did absolutely nothing for me, besides a puncture wound. His crying vocalizations when we packed him for programs used to put me in awe and feel like shit at the same time. Getting kids to imitate my baby crocodilian sounds is also so rewarding. I can be professional with adults but you just can't teach kids if you're standing above them. I love getting complimented for being able to communicate on their level, which also means I'm immature.
Also, my boyfriend is amazing. Going to LAFF bowling last night and realizing we went together and we both enjoyed it and we like the community and I don't have to explain anything about why I like furries and fursuits is such a great feeling. FCN last weekend was a blast and discussing fursuit studios and what aspects of what styles we like makes me so happy. I know you'll read this so I don't have to say much more, but as much as we have in common this has struck me as the coolest thing. I'm not ashamed of it at all. I'm also SUPER tired and I feel like I won't proof-read this. I'm so freaking lucky to have you.
I guess something I want to strive for this year in particular is being more communicative with other furries that I don't know. I am so much more social than I was even in high school and as many people as I've met so far, talking to new people sometimes terrifies me. And instead of hiding behind that I just get frustrated with myself since I don't see why I couldn't make more friends. Especially fursuiters, instead of just saying how great they look or how cute they are because that's not something they haven't heard before. It's just one of those things! Hell, I'm afraid of fucking caves and spooky looking things and geese but I have no reason to be. Fear is probably my biggest motivator at this point and it never, ever used to be like that. Fear used to just create more fear and that just sucked. Then it kind of hit me that fear is basically a challenge and that if it was easy I wouldn't be afraid of everything! JESUS I'M TIRED.
I finally chose a tree kangaroo as my fursona and I'm excited about it! It's cute and fluffy and unique and I owe that guy at FCN for picking it first because he did something I wanted to do. My run-ons are excessive tonight. I type like I talk.
I want to go look for snakes.
French toast!
Posted 12 years agoI can't decide on a new fursona! I have so many ideas, I think I just like waaaaay too many animals.
Tree kangaroos are so cute, and bats and lemurs and possums.
Too many choices.
Tree kangaroos are so cute, and bats and lemurs and possums.
Too many choices.
5 questions for my butt
Posted 13 years ago75 of the most random questions ever! I BEG TO DIFFER
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My mops.
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Bluuuuuue! Or black. They're all so ffffff comfy.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Mhhhhm! Tout le temps.
4. Do you plan outfits?
I don't. Every day I walk into my room with my towel on and go through all of my clothes for the same 6 or 7 t-shirts out of 9 million. Planning ahead would definitely... make my life boring and more efficient so I could leave the house on time but SINCE WHEN IS THAT MY GOAL IN LIFE.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Like I need to constantly pee.
6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red?
A stroller for some reason. It's on display in the library. FOR REAL. I'M NOWHERE NEAR KIDS.
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
Baim, actually.
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I BARELY remember mine from last night but I can't even identify the people in it or the plot, so describing it would be about as comprehensive as this summary.
9. Did you meet anybody new today?
Technically I met a classroom full of people and my new teacher, but I don't remember anything about them.
10. What are you craving right now?
Urinating.
11. Do you floss?
Pretty much every day. It's one of those things - a ritual? It could be worse.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
GROSS.
13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
Probably over a year ago.
14. Are you emotional?
I sure hope so! Emotions are the only things separating us from robots. And rocks.
15. Would you dance to the taco song?
No.
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
I think the better question is can I count at all.
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Biting ice cream is a HORRIBLE idea. Unless your teeth are made of wood you're going to pay for that shit.
18. Do you like your hair?
Suuuuure! I liked it better when it was longer, but we all make mistakes.
19. Do you like yourself?
Yes! It's taken a long ass time but it's been worth it. Friends definitely help the process along. So does cognitive behavioral therapy. And toning the shit out of your thighs with stilts.
20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
I'm sure!
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
22. What are you listening to right now?
The silence of this godforsaken library.
23. How many countries have you visited?
CANADA. I went to Quebec and Montreal in my junior year of high school and goddamn if I don't miss it constantly.
24. Are your parents strict?
They can barely control their youngest kid so the answer is no.
25. Would you go sky diving?
Yup! Only if I broke my neck as a result.
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
I thought this asked if I would eat out George W. Bush.
27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
I wouldn't appreciate that.
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
No, this is a library, not Justice.
29. Have you ever been in a castle?
Yes!
30. Do you rent movies often?
I used to, before Blockbuster ate their own dick and now there's only one and they're overpriced and stupid.
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
I'm not in math this semesterrrrrrr.
32. Have you made a prank phone call?
The only one that I remember was really fantastic but I think I was like 12.
33. Do you own a gun?
I don't!
34. Can you count backwards from 74?
I've never tried, and since the results is uncertain I think I'm going to pass.
35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
One very special white man.
36. Brown or white eggs?
Man I forgot that brown eggs existed. We used to have them from the chickens at my grandparents' farm. I don't remember them tasting better but they're still special somehow.
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Sure! Unfortunately some of their t-shirts are awesome. A lot of my earrings are from there.
38. Ever been on a train?
Yeah, I get motion sickness on them when I try to read though. So that banishes them from my transportation resources.
39. Ever been in love?
I am now; it's pretty great! <- What he said!
40. Do you have a cell-phone?
Vibrator, cell phone - it's all the same.
41. Are you too forgiving?
According to who? Myself? I don't think so, anymore. I forgive people where I feel like it's acceptable and safe but I really have re-thought how I let people treat me.
42. Do you use chap stick?
BEES.
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
I have a couple. But I doubt they'll be having as much as fun as I will in BIOLOGY LECTURE AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW YEAH.
44. Can you use chop sticks?
I can use them for many things except eating.
45. Ever have cream puffs?
YUCK.
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
No.
47. What was the last question you asked?
"Are you going to finish that ass or what?"
48. What was the last CD you bought?
Oh Christ. Probably Skrill. It's been months now.
49. Boys or girls?
Would I rather have a boy or girl as a child? Or sexually? Or emotionally? Is all three an option? Let's skip this one.
50. What is your bus number for school?
I rode bus 11 for most of my life.
51. Is your hair curly?
I think so!
52. Last time you cried?
THIS MORNING. It was accompanied by yelling also. Which is the best kind of crying. And then 20 minutes later it concluded with relieved/frustrated crying over an empty cereal bowl, holding an unopened box of cereal while my mom watched.
53. Ever walked into a wall?
I'm a pro at walking into corners and door frames.
54. Do looks matter?
Facial expressions? Absolutely. It's all in the eyes, 'want this D?'
55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
I used to! When I thought it was cool.
56. Have you ever slapped someone?
YES. The last time I slapped someone seriously was at my old friend's house in high school and they were like fucking around with this bayonet blade (for some reason) and it hurt me and I slapped him HARD.
57. Favorite time of the year?
SUMMER, SNAKES.
58. Favorite color?
Blue.
59. Are you sarcastic?
How do I sarcasm
60. Do you have any tattoos?
I don't! I go back and forth on things that I want. I have some concepts people have already drawn out for me and I'm waiting for an extended period of time where I don't go back on the idea. Which could be never. Sometimes I want some and then I see someone trying to dress classy and the ink just ruins it. Plus skin is just so goddamn pretty clean.
61. The last person you held hands with?
Boooooooooooooooooyfriend!
62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
I DO. It drives everyone nuts, especially Jackie. BUT IT'S MY LIFE.
63. Where was your default picture taken at?
My ass.
64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I don't hate anyone, but I definitely dislike people. And rarely for anything serious or long-term. If I see someone being a shit to someone else I can't say that I don't dislike them at that moment. Whether I care after that depends. There are some people that I've known for years that I just can't truly trust or forgive for things I've seen them do. But I still care for them as people.
65. Do you like your life right now?
Absolutely.
66. How often do you talk on the phone?
NEVER. Talking on the phone annoys the fuck out of me. It bugs my ear.
67. What is your favorite animal?
Alligators!
68. What was the most recent thing you bought?
A sandwich! TYPICAL.
69. Do you have good vision?
Last year I drove to a con without my glasses or contacts and we didn't die! But I can't say that it was particularly safe.
70. Can you hula hoop?
Yes! I had a friend at my last job who was a total hippy and she taught me a bunch of kick ass looking things.
71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Blah.
72. Do you have a job?
I do!
73. Can you handle the truth?
Much better than I used to. Over time I realized that even though shit sucks sometimes, not being able to get the truth out of someone sucks WAY worse. It ruins communication.
74. What are you wearing?
I wish I was wearing adult diapers so I could just pee constantly.
75. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes! This made me think back to when my brother and I shared a room that I now live in, and we practiced climbing out of the windows in case of a fire. I was pretty young and we weren't supposed to do it of course. So I would climb out the window and come around to the front door and my parents caught on and were pretty irritated. WORTH IT, FIRE SKILLS ACQUIRED.
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My mops.
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Bluuuuuue! Or black. They're all so ffffff comfy.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Mhhhhm! Tout le temps.
4. Do you plan outfits?
I don't. Every day I walk into my room with my towel on and go through all of my clothes for the same 6 or 7 t-shirts out of 9 million. Planning ahead would definitely... make my life boring and more efficient so I could leave the house on time but SINCE WHEN IS THAT MY GOAL IN LIFE.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Like I need to constantly pee.
6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red?
A stroller for some reason. It's on display in the library. FOR REAL. I'M NOWHERE NEAR KIDS.
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
Baim, actually.
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I BARELY remember mine from last night but I can't even identify the people in it or the plot, so describing it would be about as comprehensive as this summary.
9. Did you meet anybody new today?
Technically I met a classroom full of people and my new teacher, but I don't remember anything about them.
10. What are you craving right now?
Urinating.
11. Do you floss?
Pretty much every day. It's one of those things - a ritual? It could be worse.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
GROSS.
13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
Probably over a year ago.
14. Are you emotional?
I sure hope so! Emotions are the only things separating us from robots. And rocks.
15. Would you dance to the taco song?
No.
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
I think the better question is can I count at all.
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Biting ice cream is a HORRIBLE idea. Unless your teeth are made of wood you're going to pay for that shit.
18. Do you like your hair?
Suuuuure! I liked it better when it was longer, but we all make mistakes.
19. Do you like yourself?
Yes! It's taken a long ass time but it's been worth it. Friends definitely help the process along. So does cognitive behavioral therapy. And toning the shit out of your thighs with stilts.
20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
I'm sure!
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
22. What are you listening to right now?
The silence of this godforsaken library.
23. How many countries have you visited?
CANADA. I went to Quebec and Montreal in my junior year of high school and goddamn if I don't miss it constantly.
24. Are your parents strict?
They can barely control their youngest kid so the answer is no.
25. Would you go sky diving?
Yup! Only if I broke my neck as a result.
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
I thought this asked if I would eat out George W. Bush.
27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
I wouldn't appreciate that.
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
No, this is a library, not Justice.
29. Have you ever been in a castle?
Yes!
30. Do you rent movies often?
I used to, before Blockbuster ate their own dick and now there's only one and they're overpriced and stupid.
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
I'm not in math this semesterrrrrrr.
32. Have you made a prank phone call?
The only one that I remember was really fantastic but I think I was like 12.
33. Do you own a gun?
I don't!
34. Can you count backwards from 74?
I've never tried, and since the results is uncertain I think I'm going to pass.
35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
One very special white man.
36. Brown or white eggs?
Man I forgot that brown eggs existed. We used to have them from the chickens at my grandparents' farm. I don't remember them tasting better but they're still special somehow.
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Sure! Unfortunately some of their t-shirts are awesome. A lot of my earrings are from there.
38. Ever been on a train?
Yeah, I get motion sickness on them when I try to read though. So that banishes them from my transportation resources.
39. Ever been in love?
I am now; it's pretty great! <- What he said!
40. Do you have a cell-phone?
Vibrator, cell phone - it's all the same.
41. Are you too forgiving?
According to who? Myself? I don't think so, anymore. I forgive people where I feel like it's acceptable and safe but I really have re-thought how I let people treat me.
42. Do you use chap stick?
BEES.
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
I have a couple. But I doubt they'll be having as much as fun as I will in BIOLOGY LECTURE AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW YEAH.
44. Can you use chop sticks?
I can use them for many things except eating.
45. Ever have cream puffs?
YUCK.
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
No.
47. What was the last question you asked?
"Are you going to finish that ass or what?"
48. What was the last CD you bought?
Oh Christ. Probably Skrill. It's been months now.
49. Boys or girls?
Would I rather have a boy or girl as a child? Or sexually? Or emotionally? Is all three an option? Let's skip this one.
50. What is your bus number for school?
I rode bus 11 for most of my life.
51. Is your hair curly?
I think so!
52. Last time you cried?
THIS MORNING. It was accompanied by yelling also. Which is the best kind of crying. And then 20 minutes later it concluded with relieved/frustrated crying over an empty cereal bowl, holding an unopened box of cereal while my mom watched.
53. Ever walked into a wall?
I'm a pro at walking into corners and door frames.
54. Do looks matter?
Facial expressions? Absolutely. It's all in the eyes, 'want this D?'
55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
I used to! When I thought it was cool.
56. Have you ever slapped someone?
YES. The last time I slapped someone seriously was at my old friend's house in high school and they were like fucking around with this bayonet blade (for some reason) and it hurt me and I slapped him HARD.
57. Favorite time of the year?
SUMMER, SNAKES.
58. Favorite color?
Blue.
59. Are you sarcastic?
How do I sarcasm
60. Do you have any tattoos?
I don't! I go back and forth on things that I want. I have some concepts people have already drawn out for me and I'm waiting for an extended period of time where I don't go back on the idea. Which could be never. Sometimes I want some and then I see someone trying to dress classy and the ink just ruins it. Plus skin is just so goddamn pretty clean.
61. The last person you held hands with?
Boooooooooooooooooyfriend!
62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
I DO. It drives everyone nuts, especially Jackie. BUT IT'S MY LIFE.
63. Where was your default picture taken at?
My ass.
64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I don't hate anyone, but I definitely dislike people. And rarely for anything serious or long-term. If I see someone being a shit to someone else I can't say that I don't dislike them at that moment. Whether I care after that depends. There are some people that I've known for years that I just can't truly trust or forgive for things I've seen them do. But I still care for them as people.
65. Do you like your life right now?
Absolutely.
66. How often do you talk on the phone?
NEVER. Talking on the phone annoys the fuck out of me. It bugs my ear.
67. What is your favorite animal?
Alligators!
68. What was the most recent thing you bought?
A sandwich! TYPICAL.
69. Do you have good vision?
Last year I drove to a con without my glasses or contacts and we didn't die! But I can't say that it was particularly safe.
70. Can you hula hoop?
Yes! I had a friend at my last job who was a total hippy and she taught me a bunch of kick ass looking things.
71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Blah.
72. Do you have a job?
I do!
73. Can you handle the truth?
Much better than I used to. Over time I realized that even though shit sucks sometimes, not being able to get the truth out of someone sucks WAY worse. It ruins communication.
74. What are you wearing?
I wish I was wearing adult diapers so I could just pee constantly.
75. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes! This made me think back to when my brother and I shared a room that I now live in, and we practiced climbing out of the windows in case of a fire. I was pretty young and we weren't supposed to do it of course. So I would climb out the window and come around to the front door and my parents caught on and were pretty irritated. WORTH IT, FIRE SKILLS ACQUIRED.
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And she said "ARE YOU SURE BECAUSE IT'S EXPENSIVE"
And I said "MA COME ON"
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