Where I've been - A New Profession

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I'll do my best to keep this to the point. As we're all aware, past few years have been a struggle and a lot of people have changed over that time, myself included.

During this period, I unfortunately lost interest in writing. During that lockdown, the stress of everything was unbearable and my drive to create waned dramatically. In 2021 however, I started to find interest in another profession; Voice Acting.

Currently, I am a NSFW voice actor. I do voiceover work, dub animations/comics, and personal ASMR. It's proven to be something I have a lot of passion for and drive to do. I'm now more active on my AfterDark/Voice Acting Twitter account and I'm currently building up my new FA as well.

What does this mean going forward? Well this account isn't going anywhere. I see it as my personal furry account. Tried to keep it from have any connection to my AD stuff but shit happens lol. I apologize to those that were looking forward to more of my writing in the past but as of now, my heart isn't set on that, which again I too see as unfortunate. Maybe someday that drive will come back but as of now, my passion is voice acting. If you have any interest in following me into my new profession, I very much hope you enjoy what I've done :3

TLDR: Not dead, doing lewd voice acting work here: and I hope you all have an interest in seeing where I go next! I'll still be active here, lurking, favoriting art and keeping in touch but my creative work is elsewhere. I hope you all have been doing better lately :3 Take care <3

Okay let's do this one more time...

All 4 slots have been filled for this first cycle of commissions. The next cycle will be announced once this one is complete. You can check out my Trello to see progress on your commission :3

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Hey everyone. I know this page has been pretty inactive for a majority of last year. It was a really rough time for me and I was under immense stress, especially when elections in the USA came around. But with that hellish year finally over, its time to try and find some hope so I can get back into the groove of things.

First thing to address is the queue. The first commission slot has to be redone from scratch. It was a dual commission and one person had to drop out (no hard feelings) so I'm doing a story for the other person to make up for it. Once that's done, the rest of the queue will go as planned. I apologize for the wait and hope you all in the queue still have an interest in getting a story done. You will not have to pay a cent until it is your turn. However if you don't have an interest in keeping your slot, its totally understandable and okay~

Its time for me to get this year right! Thank you all for your patience and sticking around :3

Check it out! https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9720770/

Another year closer to being in my mid-twenties :p I'm still here. Just as you all may know, things have been..really shit in the world lately and its not good for anyone's mental health. Still, I will try to get back on the ball with my commissions and be transparent about what's going on. I hope you all are holding on as best as you can. Still got another half of this hellish year left. Let's all hope to pull through. Stay safe out there people :3

All 4 slots have been filled for this first cycle of commissions. The next cycle will be announced once this one is complete. You can check out my Trello to see progress on your commission :3

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Just as a reminder, I'm currently open for short story commissions, now with 2 slots left! My TOS can be found here and if you have any questions or are interested in a slot, you can message me here or on Telegram or Discord :3

I also made a SoFurry account where I'll be posting content from my main gallery onto there!

TOS and Commission Info

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Terms of Service

Contacting me

1. Noting me on FA for a commission is fine but for instant replies and smoother conversation, Telegram or Discord are best.
(-Telegram: Dev49
(-Discord: Dev-Furry Jesus#0247

2. I always make sure to respond to my messages. If for whatever reason I take a while to get back to you, you may ping me but please don't go overboard and spam it.

Payment

1. All payment is done through Paypal in USD.

2. Payment is due before I start working on it, once I agree to take your commission.
(-If you don't have the money at that moment, I understand. However, if someone else wants a commission from me and pays before you do, I will work on their story before I get to yours.

Refunds

1. If you decide before work has begun on the story that you would like a refund, it will be given to you in full.

2. If you would like a refund halfway through the story's development, half of your payment will be given back to you.

3. Refunds will not be given when the story is practically finished, as I will give you many WIP's and drafts during the writing process for which you can ask for things to be changed and/or tweaked. Its your responsibility to be honest with me as to what it is you want.

4. Refunds will not be given if you treat me with disrespect.

5. If you charge back your payment after the story is done, you will be blacklisted and the story will no longer be yours.

When Commissioning Me...

1. Manners are essential! I'll treat you with respect if you treat me with respect. Rudeness will get you nowhere with me and could cause me to cancel your commission without refund. Please do not be flirtatious or pull any rp stuff with me if we don't know each other well enough. We can communicate without making things awkward and weird :3

2. I am human. Sometimes things come up in life that are just out of my control and it may cause delays when it comes to working on your commission. I will promptly let you know if there's a chance I'll run behind schedule. Outside of that, please don't rush me. I'm a perfectionist and if something you commission from me really strikes my fancy, I'll want to try my best to make it damn near perfect for you.

3. Please come prepared with your commission idea. This includes characters, setting, premise, and whatever else is necessary for me to get a good grasp on what it is you'd like. It'll make things easier for both of us :3
(-If I'm not feeling the idea, I will politely turn it down. Please do not take it personally.

4. Possible reasons I would turn your idea down would be:
(-It falls under my "Will Not Write" list
(-There's not much to work with as far as plot is concerned
(-Rudeness towards me
(-You're blacklisted

5. Major changes to a story late in its development will result in an additional fee.

6. I work on commissions one at a time. I'd rather not multitask different stories of different themes, characters, etc. That just gets confusing.

7. You MUST be 18 years or older to commission a NSFW story from me.

Copyright

1. I retain copyright of the stories as my work. Commissioners can repost content I made for them, with credit and a link back to me.

2. You may not resell content I make for you.

3. Edits to the story post publication can only be made with my permission.

What I Will Not Write

(-Scat
(-Vore
(-Rape (as a kink)
(-Babyfur/Cub
(-Snuff/Gore
(-Diapers
(-Inflation leading to snuff
(-Licensed Characters: I enjoy writing with original characters. Licensed characters can be tricky because if you miss even one detail about them, you risk making them OOC. Plus, I've already had my time with fanfiction stories years ago. I want to make original content. The only licensed characters you could possibly get away with asking for are Lion King characters from the movies. I know, I'm playing into the "Every cat has a thing for Lion King" stereotype :p

If there is something I missed and its brought up in our discussion and I'm not crazy about it, we can negotiate other things or I'll politely decline the commission.

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Prices

Short Stories: 15 USD
(-1000-2000 words average
(-Can be SFW or NSFW

SFW-Example
NSFW-Example

Art-Based Stories: 10 USD
(-Varied length
(-Permission from original artist required
(-Can be SFW or NSFW

NSFW-Example

If you have any questions, feel free to PM me :3

I've been looking forward to going to a furry con for the longest and now I'm finally able to! I don't have a picture of my badge at the moment but look for a badge of my main sona Dev and feel free to say hi to me :3

Special thanks to for inviting me to room with him this year!

My sis is open for commissions and could use the extra money for personal reasons. She does very great artwork and it would be appreciated to consider commissioning her or sharing her work to those who might be interested :3 Thank you for your time~

Her journal on the matter

I said 2018 would be great and goddamn was I wrong. Here's hoping I'm right when I say this: "Here's to a great 2019!" :3

The privacy I've been needing for the longest is now back. No, I don't have a place of my own...even though that would be great. I got a laptop! For almost 4 years, i was stuck with a Windows XP in the family room which means using the computer was only when it was free for use or at the right time of day or when I was alone, which wasn't often. I normally like writing in the comfort of my own room and being without that was truly a struggle on top of other things.Killed any motivation I had to do much because I could never feel like writing in a crappy chair and a room I'm not comfortable in.

Now, that's a thing of the past. Expect more writing to come soon from this channel. I know I've said that a lot. Work still makes time away from my hobbies but with this laptop, its gonna be a lot easier to deal with than before~

Eat cookies, open presents, all the holiday stuff!

I'm thankful to all my friends that have given me nothing but support and love throughout this year and the last. Whether it was in a big way or a small way, you know who you are and I appreciated all the same :3

Hope you all have a safe and happy holiday...and for fuck's sake don't go out and do Black Friday shopping. Keep your ass inside >;p

So last journal I had was about me taking a hiatus. This one is about me getting out of it.

I'm trying to find my footing, getting back into what it is I love doing and developing new skills along the way. If you keep up with my FA page, I'll be making changes to it, such as information, deleting things from my gallery, adding things to my gallery, etc. A sort of fresh start. Once all is in order, I'll write another journal on what it is I'll be planning to do from that point onward.

I'll also be focusing on this account for the most part. I'm not really sure if Weasyl, Furrific or Furry Network are getting much activity nowadays. If they are, I'll redo those pages too. Feel free to let me how those sites are doing in the comments.

As always my contact information will still be unchanged so feel to chat with me on either of those (Skype won't be much of an option anymore since you know...Discord)

Thanks for taking the time to read this and I hope to come back soon :3

Huzzah! Now to have cake and chicken later on today :p

Wrote this on the forums I'm on. This whole thing is pretty personal so in a way, I guess its just like a journal entry.

So, you're in a good place. Things are looking up, hope is an ever present feeling, and overall, you're just in a pleasant mood.

Now, its quiet. You're chilling by yourself, alone with your thoughts. Then, something comes up. A trigger that sets off a domino effect in your head, playing a marathon of memories from your past that you thought you forgot. That you thought you buried. You find yourself proven wrong on both accounts and the memories come back to remind you just how low you were before you rose up.

All that time, a terrible and worrisome thought prods at you: "Will history repeat itself?". You feel like you've learned from your mistakes and that from learning from them, you've becone a better person. You look back at your old self and see an entirely different person, thinking "How could that have been me? I never could have been in that deep of a hole. That wasn't the real me."

The reality is, it was you. A flawed, fucked up version of you and while you may feel new and improved now, those marathon of memories remind you just how easily you fell...and how you could fall again.

About a year ago, I was in a bad place. Don't want to go into specifics because the people involved may or may not be connected to people on this site in some way, shape, or form. I guess in the end though, the people who know, know and the people who don't, don't. Either way, word gets around I suppose.

Point is, I did something that went against my morals. It was nothing illegal but it was a very personal matter and the ramifications of my actions fucked me up in ways I couldn't have imagined. For so long I wore a mask, acting happy, hopeful and full of life when I was truly descending in the opposite direction, somedays wishing I could meet my end.

It took the support of close friends of mine, one of whom who's now my bf, to help me cope. They helped me move past my guilt over what happened and look back on things in a different light so I can focus on the now.

In a way, I'm thankful for the memories. They help me see how far I've come to be how I am now and give me certain revelations about the events that transpired. On the other hand though, I hate my memories cause they also bring back the guilt and make me feel vunerable to failing again. Memories do a good job at making you but also breaking you.

I questioned the reason for this love/hate relationship with my memories. My bf told me it was my desire for closure. The closure I never recieved. The closure you get from books and movies after a certain conflict so you can feel you got a "proper ending".

But life doesn't work that way unfortunately. I don't want my memories to be the driving force of my actions forever. I realize I can be a good person on my own, without good or bad memories to act as a reminder on how I should be. I learned my lesson, now I just want to bury the past in the past and live my life...but the memories that flooded in just an hour ago, that spawned the creation of this topic prove thats not happening anytime soon.

For now, I've created a system for dealing when these things happen. I take deep breaths and I think: I think about the friends I have by my side, the man I love who I'll get to talk to once he wakes up, and the future I plan for myself and the people I care about. I'll gladly do this as many times as needed till the past is buried and just seen as a nightmare.

This is...the most open I've been without going past my comfort zone. I guess I just reached a point where I am happy with how I am now and wish to open up about certain things as a way to move past troubling things. Who knows, maybe these are the steps to closure, maybe not. I guess I'm also curious how you all deal with memories, good or bad.

(Note: I typed this on mobile. Checked as best I can but if there are any typos still, I apologize)