litol update
Posted 7 months agohowdy everyone i havent been active in a long time i know.
i've been struggling a lot, i'll be honest - but i'm trying my best!
I'm gong to be updating my username on everything from Deviltown13 to WolfyTheShadow. FA will take a while to update since I'm pretty sure I need to pay for FA+ to change my username, and I don't have any money right now.
EDIT: Just learned you can't change your usernam at all on FA - whoops. Guess I'll just be stuck here.
I'll also hopefully be posting more often again. I have some commissions to get to and it's been taking me a lot longer than usual to get to them due to my health being shitty lately.
Thats all, hope you all have a good day <3
i've been struggling a lot, i'll be honest - but i'm trying my best!
I'm gong to be updating my username on everything from Deviltown13 to WolfyTheShadow. FA will take a while to update since I'm pretty sure I need to pay for FA+ to change my username, and I don't have any money right now.
EDIT: Just learned you can't change your usernam at all on FA - whoops. Guess I'll just be stuck here.
I'll also hopefully be posting more often again. I have some commissions to get to and it's been taking me a lot longer than usual to get to them due to my health being shitty lately.
Thats all, hope you all have a good day <3
Emergency Commissions
Posted 10 months agoHey there everyone, me and my boyfriends birthday is soon, I was supposed to have 30 dollars for it but because of some shit I only have 8.
So I'm lowering all my commission prices to just pay-what-you-want. I really need the money because I want to be able to pay for my boyfriend for once since he always pays for me.
My turn around time will be ASAP - usually my turnaround time can be between 30 minutes to 2 hours, but either way I'll do my best to be quick.
Alternatively you can buy an adopt on my kofi - https://ko-fi.com/deviltown13/shop
My paypal is starredshiro[at]gmail.com if anyone wants to do that.
Thank you so much for reading.
So I'm lowering all my commission prices to just pay-what-you-want. I really need the money because I want to be able to pay for my boyfriend for once since he always pays for me.
My turn around time will be ASAP - usually my turnaround time can be between 30 minutes to 2 hours, but either way I'll do my best to be quick.
Alternatively you can buy an adopt on my kofi - https://ko-fi.com/deviltown13/shop
My paypal is starredshiro[at]gmail.com if anyone wants to do that.
Thank you so much for reading.
bluesky :D
Posted 10 months agohowdy ho stars!
i have a bluesky - https://bsky.app/profile/devilltown13.bsky.social
i'm a tad more active there so :)
i have a bluesky - https://bsky.app/profile/devilltown13.bsky.social
i'm a tad more active there so :)
BUY AN ADOPT + GET FREE ART
Posted 11 months agoHowdy folks!
I desperately need money to pay my phone bill and cover other expenses this month so I'm doing a sale!
Anyone who buys ANY of my adopts ( https://ko-fi.com/deviltown13/shop/adopt ) will get a bonus headshot of whatever oc they want!
Please consider if you want any adopts! I also do commissions as well!! I'm looking for a job irl right now but due to disability and living in a rural area my options are extremely limited.
I desperately need money to pay my phone bill and cover other expenses this month so I'm doing a sale!
Anyone who buys ANY of my adopts ( https://ko-fi.com/deviltown13/shop/adopt ) will get a bonus headshot of whatever oc they want!
Please consider if you want any adopts! I also do commissions as well!! I'm looking for a job irl right now but due to disability and living in a rural area my options are extremely limited.
im using twt again :)
Posted 11 months agoFull Commission Rules
Posted a year agoTypes of commissions - https://www.furaffinity.net/commiss.....ns/deviltown13
- I have the right to deny any commission
- I accept NSFW commissions (though, I reiterate that I may deny any commission I am uncomfortable with.)
- Off the bat, I will not do feral, cub, or diapers.
- I will accept paypal and cashapp!
- I usually post my commissions, but you're welcome to ask me to keep them private. You may also post them with credit if you'd like!
- Certain fetishes I may want to remain anonymous, as I don't want to be known as a fetish/nsfw focused artist.
- You'll get an update at the sketch, lineart, and coloring stage! You get up to 3 edits, so I'll send those updates too if you use them! If you want more edits, its an additional 2$!
- I sometimes get a bit too excited and forget to send updates - in those cases if you aren't happy with something I'll gladly make it up to you if something isn't to your liking!
- I expect at minimum half payment before I start work, but if you can't for whatever reason I'm flexible and understand, but I won't go past the sketch phase without at least some payment.
If you have any questions, you can comment here or send me a note! If you're interested in a commission, send me a note or reach out on discord! (.deviltown)
- I have the right to deny any commission
- I accept NSFW commissions (though, I reiterate that I may deny any commission I am uncomfortable with.)
- Off the bat, I will not do feral, cub, or diapers.
- I will accept paypal and cashapp!
- I usually post my commissions, but you're welcome to ask me to keep them private. You may also post them with credit if you'd like!
- Certain fetishes I may want to remain anonymous, as I don't want to be known as a fetish/nsfw focused artist.
- You'll get an update at the sketch, lineart, and coloring stage! You get up to 3 edits, so I'll send those updates too if you use them! If you want more edits, its an additional 2$!
- I sometimes get a bit too excited and forget to send updates - in those cases if you aren't happy with something I'll gladly make it up to you if something isn't to your liking!
- I expect at minimum half payment before I start work, but if you can't for whatever reason I'm flexible and understand, but I won't go past the sketch phase without at least some payment.
If you have any questions, you can comment here or send me a note! If you're interested in a commission, send me a note or reach out on discord! (.deviltown)
I tried to work again :(
Posted a year agoI got a new job a bit ago - it's a family business that my dad didn't want me to have to get involved in (its a restaurant, if you dont know, restaurants are hell) but i've been really wanting a job/money and they're low on people - so through some convincing and talking got me a job there in the kitchen.
i was alright the first day, second day was iffy but i made it, and the third day was the first without my dad. and i had... like three anxiety attacks? possibly anxiety attacks? honestly, dont know what to call them. i almost went to the hospital but couldnt (long story)
my heart rate was over 120 for about three hours i think - i got severely disoriented and confused and i was in a lot of pains. my symptoms were flared so bad, i really couldnt manage it. i took 1600 mgs of ibuprofen (which is, not ideal, but when you live with an undiagnosed pain condition yknow, you do what you can)
my dad understands, and he's already talked it out and we both agreed this wasn't good for me. but now i'm back to having no job. honestly i feel sick with myself - i know i'm disabled, but all i was doing was dishes! and my body felt like it was shutting down. i cant describe the level of brain fog and pain i was in. honestly, its a blurry memory.
i really dont know what i should do at this point. drawing and art is just about all i have that i can make money from - which i adore art and the furry community! but it's also not consistent. and, it doesn't help my boyfriends mom doesn't like that i don't have a job. which, i understand because i live in a very conservative place and those type of people put a lot of emphasis on being working and 'able'. but still, it hurts.
it hurts that i cant work a job as simple as a dishwasher - it hurts that i'm judged for that - and it hurts that i cant get medical attention fast enough to qualify for disability to at least have something. Being disabled in america feels like a death sentence.
so, i'm sorry ahead of time if my posts are slow - for obvious reason, i may be a little demotivated and depressed from all this irl stress. i'll try to keep posting art or adopts or anything of course! just, may be slow. hopefully i can find a job and can possibly have some consistent income so i dont have to feel like im drowning for a while. but until then, i just hope you can enjoy my art! <3
i was alright the first day, second day was iffy but i made it, and the third day was the first without my dad. and i had... like three anxiety attacks? possibly anxiety attacks? honestly, dont know what to call them. i almost went to the hospital but couldnt (long story)
my heart rate was over 120 for about three hours i think - i got severely disoriented and confused and i was in a lot of pains. my symptoms were flared so bad, i really couldnt manage it. i took 1600 mgs of ibuprofen (which is, not ideal, but when you live with an undiagnosed pain condition yknow, you do what you can)
my dad understands, and he's already talked it out and we both agreed this wasn't good for me. but now i'm back to having no job. honestly i feel sick with myself - i know i'm disabled, but all i was doing was dishes! and my body felt like it was shutting down. i cant describe the level of brain fog and pain i was in. honestly, its a blurry memory.
i really dont know what i should do at this point. drawing and art is just about all i have that i can make money from - which i adore art and the furry community! but it's also not consistent. and, it doesn't help my boyfriends mom doesn't like that i don't have a job. which, i understand because i live in a very conservative place and those type of people put a lot of emphasis on being working and 'able'. but still, it hurts.
it hurts that i cant work a job as simple as a dishwasher - it hurts that i'm judged for that - and it hurts that i cant get medical attention fast enough to qualify for disability to at least have something. Being disabled in america feels like a death sentence.
so, i'm sorry ahead of time if my posts are slow - for obvious reason, i may be a little demotivated and depressed from all this irl stress. i'll try to keep posting art or adopts or anything of course! just, may be slow. hopefully i can find a job and can possibly have some consistent income so i dont have to feel like im drowning for a while. but until then, i just hope you can enjoy my art! <3
update - website!!
Posted a year agoI created a website for all my original species I make!!
They'll have varying amount of images/lore but I plan on making a few! All of them will be completely open species!!!
Here's the link! - https://sites.google.com/view/devil.....n-species/home
They'll have varying amount of images/lore but I plan on making a few! All of them will be completely open species!!!
Here's the link! - https://sites.google.com/view/devil.....n-species/home
update - bluesky, pateron/kofi
Posted a year agoHowdy ho!! We are sooo fucking back.
Firstly, I want to say good on FA for being able to get the site back up!
Second of all, in light of that I realized I have no other way to communicate - since I only really use FA now as I haven't liked instagram, tiktok, or twitter.
so i made a bluesky! Its all set up now so if you use bluesky feel free to follow me there!! - https://bsky.app/profile/devilltown13.bsky.social
thirdly, i've decided to get rid of my pateron and go into kofi, so that everything is in one more convenient place for selling adopts and such. I'll be posting any nsfw art left over from pateron on here!
kofi will hold some exclusive art for anyone who supports me - the minimum for you to be able to see any content is 1 dollar! Right now its mostly work from the visual novel i'm working on - but they'll be more in the future!
great to provide this little update for you all! have a wonderful day!! <3
Firstly, I want to say good on FA for being able to get the site back up!
Second of all, in light of that I realized I have no other way to communicate - since I only really use FA now as I haven't liked instagram, tiktok, or twitter.
so i made a bluesky! Its all set up now so if you use bluesky feel free to follow me there!! - https://bsky.app/profile/devilltown13.bsky.social
thirdly, i've decided to get rid of my pateron and go into kofi, so that everything is in one more convenient place for selling adopts and such. I'll be posting any nsfw art left over from pateron on here!
kofi will hold some exclusive art for anyone who supports me - the minimum for you to be able to see any content is 1 dollar! Right now its mostly work from the visual novel i'm working on - but they'll be more in the future!
great to provide this little update for you all! have a wonderful day!! <3
New Open Species: Cervaidamon!!
Posted a year agoI made a new species!!! :D!!!
They're called Cervaidamon!!! They're basically deer-demons!!!
I have some lore to start with! I have it on their website linked here - https://sites.google.com/view/devil.....es/cervaidamon
I also have an adopt I'm about to post if anyone wants to get their hands on one now!! She's listed on ko-fi!! link - https://ko-fi.com/s/b0f42ce30d
But I'll copy and paste it here for anyone who doesn't want/doesn't have time/energy to go to the website!
Cervaidamon have a culture that aligns with common assumptions about demons - however, they are incredibly respectful to each other and don't see things like succubi or incubi as "low" or "sinful", instead it's seen as a respectful career path. Same with cervai who make drugs for medical or recreational purposes, even lawyers!
That's not to mean everything's okay - murder is still seen as a high crime, even though it is one of the biggest problems in their culture.
Their home dimension is a plane of Hell that was locked off from the rest of it, which they named The Gellows. They're able to travel to other places via magic, which is taught in their schools, usually from ages 16-18.
(Writing down everything from those images in a font for any screen readers, anyone on mobile or anyone who can't read my handwriting! Plus to add extra details)
First page is a bunch of doodles of different Cervaidamon's with a white brush.
Second page talks about their horns. It says they can have any size, color, or patterns on their horns. But they're always in even numbers! 2, 4, 6, etc.
Third page talks about biological sex. There's three biological sexes, male, female, and azale. Azale cervai have the ability to change between sexes via magic. Only azale's can access this type of magic, and don't know they're azale usually until the age of 16-18, when magic is taught. They make up 1/3rd of the population, and are highly regarded.
Fourth page details about tails. Tails come in all shapes and sizes, anywhere from 6 inches and below, to even as long as 6 feet in some cases! There's a myth that the shape of their tails tells what your career will be. Anyone with a pointed tail with no shape at the end is supposed to be a bartender, anyone with a diamond shape at the end of the tail is supposed to be a lawyer, and heart shapes with the point pointing away from the cervai is supposed to be a succubus/incubus. Hearts with the point pointing at the cervai are supposed to be CEOs/business owners.
They're called Cervaidamon!!! They're basically deer-demons!!!
I have some lore to start with! I have it on their website linked here - https://sites.google.com/view/devil.....es/cervaidamon
I also have an adopt I'm about to post if anyone wants to get their hands on one now!! She's listed on ko-fi!! link - https://ko-fi.com/s/b0f42ce30d
But I'll copy and paste it here for anyone who doesn't want/doesn't have time/energy to go to the website!
Cervaidamon have a culture that aligns with common assumptions about demons - however, they are incredibly respectful to each other and don't see things like succubi or incubi as "low" or "sinful", instead it's seen as a respectful career path. Same with cervai who make drugs for medical or recreational purposes, even lawyers!
That's not to mean everything's okay - murder is still seen as a high crime, even though it is one of the biggest problems in their culture.
Their home dimension is a plane of Hell that was locked off from the rest of it, which they named The Gellows. They're able to travel to other places via magic, which is taught in their schools, usually from ages 16-18.
(Writing down everything from those images in a font for any screen readers, anyone on mobile or anyone who can't read my handwriting! Plus to add extra details)
First page is a bunch of doodles of different Cervaidamon's with a white brush.
Second page talks about their horns. It says they can have any size, color, or patterns on their horns. But they're always in even numbers! 2, 4, 6, etc.
Third page talks about biological sex. There's three biological sexes, male, female, and azale. Azale cervai have the ability to change between sexes via magic. Only azale's can access this type of magic, and don't know they're azale usually until the age of 16-18, when magic is taught. They make up 1/3rd of the population, and are highly regarded.
Fourth page details about tails. Tails come in all shapes and sizes, anywhere from 6 inches and below, to even as long as 6 feet in some cases! There's a myth that the shape of their tails tells what your career will be. Anyone with a pointed tail with no shape at the end is supposed to be a bartender, anyone with a diamond shape at the end of the tail is supposed to be a lawyer, and heart shapes with the point pointing away from the cervai is supposed to be a succubus/incubus. Hearts with the point pointing at the cervai are supposed to be CEOs/business owners.
my personal autism tips for myself (that you can steal)
Posted a year agothese are things i do to help myself as a disabled person! (physically disabled and i have autism! this focuses on the autism though)
1. keeping track of energy levels - this can be done mentally and by remembering what tasks i've already done today!
2. recognizing behaviors - this is soothing for me, and partially why i'm making this post
3. making lists and budgets! its soothing to have everything i could need where i need it!
4. stimming whenever i need to unless i genuinely can't - places where i can't mean in front of people i dont trust excluding in public! in public, i dont care, and usually if i'm in public i'm with people who can help me - who would defend me if someone said something. people i dont trust means family who i dont feel comfortable around! instead i will stim in more 'acceptable' ways, like bouncing your leg or something! sometimes i rock back and forth without realizing - but i think thats more accepted in my family at least. if i really need it, i leave to go to the bathroom.
5. headphones and my phone are essential items! optionally my cane if i'm going out somewhere when i need it. headphones are important to block out outside noise and control my enviroment sound wise.
6. making sure i have safe foods near me! along with always making sure i have a drink of some kind - usually mtn. dew, which is my number 1 safe drink, but any pop is good for me!
7. making sure i've taken care of my needs - this means eating, drinking, going to the bathroom, and being clean! sometimes it slips my mind, especially if i'm deep DEEP in a hyperfixation where i don't move for 10+ hours
8. i try to talk to at least one person outside of my family every day, which is easy because i have my loving boyfriend who checks on me - but it can be hard espiecally during hyperfixations!
9. engage in special interests - right now, yugioh has been a comfort and i make sure to give myself time to partake in it to help myself regulate!
10. plan, plan, plan. I need a plan - i love plan! it can make thing a lot easier for most autistic people to plan! but not everyone is good at making plans, and thats okay! its something you can work on! i love working on it! i learn more everytime i do it!
11. having consistent background noise can help, because silence can make it easy to spiral for me! game grumps is a comfort for me, but true crime is also good for me as true crime is another special interest! another thing i'd recommend is the youtube channel SciShow, they make educational content that can be comforting for other autistics1
12. learning limits, and learning limits can change! some days are easier than others for most disabled people. shit changes daily! understand yourself and advocate for what you need!
13. internal dialogue can be nice. its where i make most of my lists, which comforts me insanely well.
14. rest when you can - every time you can! rest is so important. it doesnt mean sleeping, it just means lying there and chilling out for a bit! be gentle on yourself when you can! as long as you can get the essentials done, you're good!
thats all i can think of for now, this was more of a self soothing thing for myself but i hope its comforting for anyone else!! <333
1. keeping track of energy levels - this can be done mentally and by remembering what tasks i've already done today!
2. recognizing behaviors - this is soothing for me, and partially why i'm making this post
3. making lists and budgets! its soothing to have everything i could need where i need it!
4. stimming whenever i need to unless i genuinely can't - places where i can't mean in front of people i dont trust excluding in public! in public, i dont care, and usually if i'm in public i'm with people who can help me - who would defend me if someone said something. people i dont trust means family who i dont feel comfortable around! instead i will stim in more 'acceptable' ways, like bouncing your leg or something! sometimes i rock back and forth without realizing - but i think thats more accepted in my family at least. if i really need it, i leave to go to the bathroom.
5. headphones and my phone are essential items! optionally my cane if i'm going out somewhere when i need it. headphones are important to block out outside noise and control my enviroment sound wise.
6. making sure i have safe foods near me! along with always making sure i have a drink of some kind - usually mtn. dew, which is my number 1 safe drink, but any pop is good for me!
7. making sure i've taken care of my needs - this means eating, drinking, going to the bathroom, and being clean! sometimes it slips my mind, especially if i'm deep DEEP in a hyperfixation where i don't move for 10+ hours
8. i try to talk to at least one person outside of my family every day, which is easy because i have my loving boyfriend who checks on me - but it can be hard espiecally during hyperfixations!
9. engage in special interests - right now, yugioh has been a comfort and i make sure to give myself time to partake in it to help myself regulate!
10. plan, plan, plan. I need a plan - i love plan! it can make thing a lot easier for most autistic people to plan! but not everyone is good at making plans, and thats okay! its something you can work on! i love working on it! i learn more everytime i do it!
11. having consistent background noise can help, because silence can make it easy to spiral for me! game grumps is a comfort for me, but true crime is also good for me as true crime is another special interest! another thing i'd recommend is the youtube channel SciShow, they make educational content that can be comforting for other autistics1
12. learning limits, and learning limits can change! some days are easier than others for most disabled people. shit changes daily! understand yourself and advocate for what you need!
13. internal dialogue can be nice. its where i make most of my lists, which comforts me insanely well.
14. rest when you can - every time you can! rest is so important. it doesnt mean sleeping, it just means lying there and chilling out for a bit! be gentle on yourself when you can! as long as you can get the essentials done, you're good!
thats all i can think of for now, this was more of a self soothing thing for myself but i hope its comforting for anyone else!! <333
update
Posted a year agoi just wanted to make a quick update, i feel bad for my lack of posting art which isn't normal for me. my depression has acted up extremely bad and i've barely been able to leave my bed. i'm trying to find a job so i can make an income but it's incredibly difficult being a disabled person without the ability to drive and in a very small town. drawing has been the only way i can make money and thats become difficult for me due to this episode. i'll hopefully be back to posting more soon, i just felt bad not being able to say anything. thank you <3
I SOLD MY FIRST ADOPTAAAAAA
Posted a year agoMY RUBIX CUBE BUNNY ADOPT SOLD!!!!
THIS IS MY FIRST ADOPT WHO SOLD
AHHERAHRHA IM SO MUCH CLOSER TO BEING ABLE TO AFFORD MY PHONE BILL NEXT MONTH FIRST OF ALL
AND SECOND OF ALL I SOLD AN ADOPT
I AM
SO FUCKING HAPPY
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
THIS IS MY FIRST ADOPT WHO SOLD
AHHERAHRHA IM SO MUCH CLOSER TO BEING ABLE TO AFFORD MY PHONE BILL NEXT MONTH FIRST OF ALL
AND SECOND OF ALL I SOLD AN ADOPT
I AM
SO FUCKING HAPPY
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
I'm back from Gen Con!
Posted a year agoGen Con is the best 4 days in gaming! Its a board game convention and it has a bunch of really fun stuff!!
This is my first convention and time really using my cane outside since I've bought it and I was completely impressed by how kind and accepting everyone was! I didn't receive a single negative comment, everyone who saw me opened doors for me, and overall it was incredibly accepting!
Now that I'm back, I still don't have my KANVAS 13 since that's at my 'home' home, and I'm still at a friends, but I still have my phone so I may post little sketches and doodles and such but nothing officially, yknow, 'good' HAHAHAH
But I am happy to be back and more active once again! :)
This is my first convention and time really using my cane outside since I've bought it and I was completely impressed by how kind and accepting everyone was! I didn't receive a single negative comment, everyone who saw me opened doors for me, and overall it was incredibly accepting!
Now that I'm back, I still don't have my KANVAS 13 since that's at my 'home' home, and I'm still at a friends, but I still have my phone so I may post little sketches and doodles and such but nothing officially, yknow, 'good' HAHAHAH
But I am happy to be back and more active once again! :)
Auto Adopt Info!!
Posted a year agoI just figured I'd make a journal to put info about the auto adopts!!
So, I struggle with social interaction and I'm sure plenty of others who also feel awkward about talking to people!
So via kofi I'm selling my adopts without any social interaction, just through kofi!
I have the rules for the adopts up on the kofi page itself, but its nothing crazy!! :)
The prices are 5-15 dollars, most of them are 10$ though!
Any sales help support me as a disabled artist!!
I also do custom commissions and other commissions on my profile here if anyones interested!!
KOFI SHOP LINK - https://ko-fi.com/deviltown13/shop
So, I struggle with social interaction and I'm sure plenty of others who also feel awkward about talking to people!
So via kofi I'm selling my adopts without any social interaction, just through kofi!
I have the rules for the adopts up on the kofi page itself, but its nothing crazy!! :)
The prices are 5-15 dollars, most of them are 10$ though!
Any sales help support me as a disabled artist!!
I also do custom commissions and other commissions on my profile here if anyones interested!!
KOFI SHOP LINK - https://ko-fi.com/deviltown13/shop
Adopt Update - Slightly raising prices :3c
Posted a year agoHey I know this kind of sucks and I'm sorry but I've decided to raise the prices of certain adopts!!
I've decided to change all the 5$ adopts to 10$.
I'm also going through the process of uploading all the adopts onto Ko-Fi to make the sale easier and require less social interaction!
I haven't sold any adopts yet but I'd figured I'd update in case anyone noticed and was curious!
The reason for the price change is that due to some thinking and hearing from friends, I realized 5 dollars is absurdly low and 10$ is at least minimum wage-ish in my state!
Check my kofi for any adopts if you're interested!!
I've decided to change all the 5$ adopts to 10$.
I'm also going through the process of uploading all the adopts onto Ko-Fi to make the sale easier and require less social interaction!
I haven't sold any adopts yet but I'd figured I'd update in case anyone noticed and was curious!
The reason for the price change is that due to some thinking and hearing from friends, I realized 5 dollars is absurdly low and 10$ is at least minimum wage-ish in my state!
Check my kofi for any adopts if you're interested!!
Excited to be going to GenCon this year!
Posted a year agoThis is gonna be my fourth year (I think?) going to GenCon! So excited to be at the greatest game convention of the year!!
I'll be volunteering to help set up and run a couple of LARPs for Call of Cthulhu, but other than that I'll be mostly playing Werewolf!
GenCon is the one convention I go to every year now, so I'm so excited to be back this year! It was iffy this year due to money issues, and my health concerns, but luckily the people I go with includes a registered nurse so I'll be fine!!
Looking forward to it all!!
I'll be volunteering to help set up and run a couple of LARPs for Call of Cthulhu, but other than that I'll be mostly playing Werewolf!
GenCon is the one convention I go to every year now, so I'm so excited to be back this year! It was iffy this year due to money issues, and my health concerns, but luckily the people I go with includes a registered nurse so I'll be fine!!
Looking forward to it all!!
(another vent)
Posted a year agoi've been having such a bad flare up the last few days of my symptoms. my hips feel like theyre popping in and out of place and its just so much pure pain. getting up and down and up and down constantly to help my mom and brother has been hellish, i have so little energy. just about the only thing i can have the energy to do is play the outer worlds and draw...
it just hurts so much. i woke up this morning and both my arms were painful, sharp numbness. my brains been more blurry too and i've been forgetting stuff a lot more than my usual ADHD stuff. im taking all my meds right, i just wish it was better...
and i really need to get a job, but theres no where i can work, and i cant get on disability since my condition isn't diagnosed and my family isn't really supportive of the idea of me being on disability... even though they witness first hand how bad i'm getting. its hell trying to hide it and be okay from my friends too, i really dont want to worry them. i have a convention coming up and i just hope it'll be okay...
i'll just keep drawing and posting stuff on patreon and ko-fi. i havent made anything from it yet, but i dont really care, at least it feels like i can do something...
its getting harder and harder to see the end of the horizon, being disabled and accepting it is really difficult sometimes. sleeping has been hell too... and the damn neurologist hasn't called back yet, so i have to get that sorted too.
i had a really strong and weird heart palpatation today, it honestly felt worrying. i just hope it isnt a new normal, it straight up took my breath away.
it just hurts so much. i woke up this morning and both my arms were painful, sharp numbness. my brains been more blurry too and i've been forgetting stuff a lot more than my usual ADHD stuff. im taking all my meds right, i just wish it was better...
and i really need to get a job, but theres no where i can work, and i cant get on disability since my condition isn't diagnosed and my family isn't really supportive of the idea of me being on disability... even though they witness first hand how bad i'm getting. its hell trying to hide it and be okay from my friends too, i really dont want to worry them. i have a convention coming up and i just hope it'll be okay...
i'll just keep drawing and posting stuff on patreon and ko-fi. i havent made anything from it yet, but i dont really care, at least it feels like i can do something...
its getting harder and harder to see the end of the horizon, being disabled and accepting it is really difficult sometimes. sleeping has been hell too... and the damn neurologist hasn't called back yet, so i have to get that sorted too.
i had a really strong and weird heart palpatation today, it honestly felt worrying. i just hope it isnt a new normal, it straight up took my breath away.
i published a horror short story :D
Posted a year agohowdy ho!! I haven't posted any of my writing here before but I am a writer and i finally (self) published something :D
its a short story, and is a HORROR story so if you arent a fan of horror yknow, you should probably pass on it HAHAHA
It's a first person, journal style story from the point of view of a mentally ill man who believes he's doing God's bidding. It details murder, kidnapping, religious themes, etc etc. Also features a lot of repetition so be careful if that's triggering to you!!
its not a furry story, but i'll be making those in the future too, this is just my first little experimenting into publishing :D
There is an ebook version and a paperback physical version :D
LINK - https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0D9G39VK1
its a short story, and is a HORROR story so if you arent a fan of horror yknow, you should probably pass on it HAHAHA
It's a first person, journal style story from the point of view of a mentally ill man who believes he's doing God's bidding. It details murder, kidnapping, religious themes, etc etc. Also features a lot of repetition so be careful if that's triggering to you!!
its not a furry story, but i'll be making those in the future too, this is just my first little experimenting into publishing :D
There is an ebook version and a paperback physical version :D
LINK - https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0D9G39VK1
Coloring Book 2 Update! :D
Posted a year agoHowdy ho friends!!
I'm ready to make a second coloring book, and I'd love it if any followers wanted to give input!
I want to make it a fully furry themed coloring book this time, the amount of furry coloring books that are just stolen art is straight up unfair!
So if you have any species you want to see, other ideas, just comment them and I'll add them to the list! If I don't do them this time around, I'll do them next time!!
I will say this is fully out of love for the idea of making a coloring book! My last coloring book hasn't sold any copies at the time of posting so money is more of a possible side effect in my mind. I just want to create for the sake of it! It seriously distresses me how many coloring books are just stolen art! I wanna fix that, at least a little bit!
I'm ready to make a second coloring book, and I'd love it if any followers wanted to give input!
I want to make it a fully furry themed coloring book this time, the amount of furry coloring books that are just stolen art is straight up unfair!
So if you have any species you want to see, other ideas, just comment them and I'll add them to the list! If I don't do them this time around, I'll do them next time!!
I will say this is fully out of love for the idea of making a coloring book! My last coloring book hasn't sold any copies at the time of posting so money is more of a possible side effect in my mind. I just want to create for the sake of it! It seriously distresses me how many coloring books are just stolen art! I wanna fix that, at least a little bit!
slight medical update
Posted a year agohowdy ho friends!
slight medical update, after talking to a close family friend who's a nurse who's known about my symptoms for years, she's suggested my symptoms line up with MS and I should get an MRI asap.
If you don't know, MS is a chronic disease of the central nervous system, it's well studied but not much as been found. But, it's thought to be an auto immune disease where the body attacks itself.
Obviously, it's not great!
So far my other possible illnesses are POTS and fibromyalgia. Only issue is, my insurance is being shitty about getting said MRI, so it's going to be an uphill battle.
In the mean time, I'll continue posting here and hopefully I'll eventually have [i][any kind/i] of diagnosis and get more help.
Posting here has been a great stress reliever for me, it makes me feel like I'm at least doing something. It's a bit hard to feel great about yourself when your body feels like it's shutting down every day, and you're only 20. (literally, the past 4 days I've barely been able to stay awake more than 6 hours. I'm at a record right now where I've been awake for about 13 hours now, but that was after my body crashed and slept for 18 hours straight. My friend tried to wake me up multiple times...)
slight medical update, after talking to a close family friend who's a nurse who's known about my symptoms for years, she's suggested my symptoms line up with MS and I should get an MRI asap.
If you don't know, MS is a chronic disease of the central nervous system, it's well studied but not much as been found. But, it's thought to be an auto immune disease where the body attacks itself.
Obviously, it's not great!
So far my other possible illnesses are POTS and fibromyalgia. Only issue is, my insurance is being shitty about getting said MRI, so it's going to be an uphill battle.
In the mean time, I'll continue posting here and hopefully I'll eventually have [i][any kind/i] of diagnosis and get more help.
Posting here has been a great stress reliever for me, it makes me feel like I'm at least doing something. It's a bit hard to feel great about yourself when your body feels like it's shutting down every day, and you're only 20. (literally, the past 4 days I've barely been able to stay awake more than 6 hours. I'm at a record right now where I've been awake for about 13 hours now, but that was after my body crashed and slept for 18 hours straight. My friend tried to wake me up multiple times...)
i kind of want to make another coloring book?
Posted a year agoIf you don't know, I made a coloring book a couple months ago!
I was really saddened/tired of all the coloring books that were made with stolen art, so I wanted to make my own! I haven't sold any of the first one but that's okay.
I wanna make a full furry themed coloring book! But it's a large undertaking for (admittedly) little reward yknow? And with me having limited energy due to disability shit, I'm debating.
On one hand fun, on the other hand, agony.
But oh well! I'm thinking I might bite the bullet and go for it for the sake of art :P
I'll post any updates here for sure! Maybe a few preview pages too!
I was really saddened/tired of all the coloring books that were made with stolen art, so I wanted to make my own! I haven't sold any of the first one but that's okay.
I wanna make a full furry themed coloring book! But it's a large undertaking for (admittedly) little reward yknow? And with me having limited energy due to disability shit, I'm debating.
On one hand fun, on the other hand, agony.
But oh well! I'm thinking I might bite the bullet and go for it for the sake of art :P
I'll post any updates here for sure! Maybe a few preview pages too!
Anyone else wonder how people self regulate?
Posted a year agoMaybe it's just cause I'm autistic, but I can never just find a healthy middle ground. I usually end up working myself to the point of exhaustion and end up crashing for a couple days so it's like I'm constantly either super productive or unable to get out of bed HAHAHA
Hopefully one day I'll find the middle ground but for now I guess I'm just on that artist rollercoaster-
Hopefully one day I'll find the middle ground but for now I guess I'm just on that artist rollercoaster-
I've made a patreon :D
Posted a year agoI already have a ko-fi, but I know patreon is more widely used so I figured I'd set it up!!
There I'll post some special art I wouldn't post else where, may be NSFW, may just be cute, we'll see :D
LINK - https://patreon.com/Deviltown365?ut.....ntent=copyLink
There I'll post some special art I wouldn't post else where, may be NSFW, may just be cute, we'll see :D
LINK - https://patreon.com/Deviltown365?ut.....ntent=copyLink
I made a coloring book!! :D
Posted a year agoSo! You know all those furry "coloring books" that are just stolen art?
While it's not only furry art, I did make a coloring book! No stolen art, just original creations!!
Its 5.45, so not too expensive and like my commissions and redbubble, all money is used to try to build my life and get out of an abusive/unhealthy home!!! :)
LINK - https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CX76B7RK
While it's not only furry art, I did make a coloring book! No stolen art, just original creations!!
Its 5.45, so not too expensive and like my commissions and redbubble, all money is used to try to build my life and get out of an abusive/unhealthy home!!! :)
LINK - https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CX76B7RK