...You know, like that song by Staind. Anyway it's been 14 years since my last journal entry, and I'm very sad to say that I haven't changed at all. If you can't handle me at my Durst you can't handle me at my Fredst!

Man, it's been a helluva month. I was sick with a recurring cold the whole time, I turned 29 years old, I had to work ten hour days (luckily just for a week), went to my friend's wedding (as well as the bachelor party three weeks beforehand), my grandmother went to hospice and recovered a week later, and I'm trying to help out a newcomer to Austin, Texas, where I live. All this while trying to find time to play Mass Effect 2 and Final Fantasy XIII, both of which I find awesome. And I still feel sad that there's a bunch of folks who hate the newly passed health care bill. Le sigh.

1.Are you single or taken?
Single

2. Chocolate or flowers?
I love chocolate, but flowers are so much more thoughtful.

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
No.

4.Do you like anyone?
I like lots of people. Sexually no, not at the moment.

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
No.

6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
Me and another dude ordering the most expensive things on the menu.

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
Never.

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
No. Maybe? Hell if I know.

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
I would. And I'd totally make it a big deal.

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
What is this I don't even

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
Never have.

12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
What, no.

13. Do you like candy hearts?
Conversation hearts and Necco wafers almost make me believe in God. So yes.

14. Flowers or chocolate?
Anal sex.

15. Is Valentines day depressing?
Very. Why love especially on one day a year?

16. How do you feel about PDA?
Let people fuck in public. See if I care.

17. How is your love life?
What love life?

18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Nope.

19. How many roses would you want?
Lilacs smell the best; fuck roses.

20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next year?
Nope, and probably never. So there.

This is clearly a lip-sync, but I post it anyway because the source material is quite possibly my favorite rendition of a holiday song ever (really, no joke). Happy holidays, y'all!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jav41yyKf10

Have you ever thought God might just be a director who gets humans to be awful to each other so he can show his god peers how horrible and stupid it is to be assholes about silly things like race or sexual preference? Neither have I. Now onto the good stuff.

Okay, so I had a few days to recuperate from AC, so I figured I'd make a journal about it so 1) the two people watching me would know that I went and 2) to show people I'm not a total recluse.

+ I was part of the "Furs In the Videogame Industry" panel along with  mooglyguy and  kaelarkaemis (and that one dude behind Furcadia who wears a bitchin' purple cape), which I thought went pretty well. I was surprised the crowd responded to 1) my mention of Pac-Man for the Atari 2600 being a shitty game and 2) the blog from an employee at NCSoft that elucidated some of the shit that threw down there.
+ Played two games of Settlers of Catan. I fuckin' love that game.
+ Met my ex (we're on amicable terms) from years back and talked for a while. I had NO idea he was going to be there nor did he know I was going.
+ Stayed with some awesome roommates (one of which I believe is  joshiah , dunno what the others' FA accounts may be if they exist) who kept things sane and clean and were fun to talk to.
+ Spent a ton of money in the dealers' den on fun shit.
+ Found out the Doubletree has a nice bar that was open even when other places weren't.
+ The lamb wrap at Ephesus. Also their triple pepperoni pizza. Their pizza still can't hold a candle to the godliness that is Saccone's in Austin, but hell.
+ Hung out with people more than I usually do and in general had a lot of fun.
+ The weather was so much better than the 108 degree days I had been getting in Texas.

- United Airlines, especially in Charlotte. It's not my fault you oversold your tickets. Dickweeds. Also the seats are uncomfortable as shit. And the guitar I took with me was totally destroyed by the crew there. I got so pissed off I went out to have a word with them and demanded that I talk to the person in charge, but the guys there wouldn't have any of it so one of them took a swing at me. I got in one little fight and my mom got scared and said, "You're movin' with your auntie and uncle in Bel Air." Ahem, sorry, had to do it. Stole the idea from Reddit too.
- Walking so much (I was in the Doubletree) and sleeping weirdly fucked up my back and left leg a bit.
- People playing "music" in the zoo as well as the singers in the Westin lobby. Come on, folks, get some serious practice in before you play in a place that people go to to kinda get away from things. And, for fuck's sake, PLAY FROM YOUR FUCKING HEART! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xRkA6zugNMQ

That is all. Thank you.

Someone in a group with which I'm affiliated did something horrible today! OMG! Now everyone will start oppressing me because of that thing that other person did and won't judge me on the content of my own deeds, goals, and ideals! I am simply a victim of the circumstance, and the media will only focus on that one thing and imply that everyone like me is capable of doing these horrible things! They will drag our poor, defenseless selves through the mud on this! How could I live with myself then! Oh, if only we had decided to not let in those yearning to carry their freak flags, maybe we wouldn't have attracted these psychos who don't care how they bad they make us look when they do these things. I wish I had more of a spine to defend the oddities that defined me as a person, fight for my rights no matter how controversial, and grant me the authority to inform others that what I do is far different from what the sensationalists who write the news tickers might say. But I'm too scared and it's too hard for me to be an individual!

Of course, I'm referring to the incident of an abortion doctor who was shot and killed in his house of worship yesterday. See here: http://www.kansas.com/news/breaking.....ry/833730.html Why, what did you think I was talking about?

My point about the recent furry pederasty thing in Pennsylvania is that folks here should simply roll with the punches and show some self-respect. Making yourself the victim in this thing is just plain idiotic and solipsistic, and blaming one sect of the fandom makes you no better than the folks who look down on all of us all the time.

I set the table just right
The room is dark except for candlelight
I spent hours making the sauce
Bought the wine, didn't care what it cost
It's gonna be a special date
A day to celebrate
But I think I'd have more fun
If I was cooking for more than one

I guess Cupid's got bad aim
'Cos every year's the same
Another day to feel forgotten
Another occasion to make you feel rotten

The day's a riot of pink and red
But I'm alone in my double bed
I deserve a consolation award
Another Valentine's Day with no reward

Shiny heart-shaped balloons
Are sentimental, tacky, and crude
Don't want flowers anyway
I just wanna a guy who'll stay
The world rubs it in your face
When you're a failure at the chase
No prize for the second runner-up
I want to drink champagne from the winner's cup

This journal was brought to you by the song "Valentine's Day" by Pansy Division.

Honestly though, going to a strip club with friends is a great remedy for any doldrums one might have regarding this holiday.

I was feeling especially crappy today and decided to expend my energy composing a long rant about how I dislike Sarah Palin and the politics she stands for, delineating the reasons why.

A taste: "By my standards [Palin] clearly lost [the debate], and Biden clearly won. (Some critics said Biden was boring; I humbly request those critics go fuck themselves.) Palin did what she had to do, though, and in my opinion it wasn't half bad; she clearly made Pat Buchanan happy, and really, that's all that was expected from her. Of course, many people said the debate was a tie. I'm assuming either those people didn't watch the debate, or were pleasantly surprised Palin didn't bust out crying. The soft bigotry of low expectations indeed."

http://deviox.livejournal.com/10616.html

I need to listen to some Joey Ramone now.

Man, I really wanted to make an AC report like... a month and a half ago, but this site went dead and I was left restless for the entire time. Only now does the idea come to me and yet I have not the time nor mental set to properly describe what happened. I recently watched a bunch of folk I came in contact with during AC besides the awesome  Nek0gami,  LilGlennDoggy, and  MooglyGuy who I already have been watching, so there's where you should start. Special note: Those three are so awesome that when I -- at AC -- went shopping at Best Buy and the supermarket with them it was exactly as if I were shopping with my friends in Austin. Ponder on that, will ya!

Everyone's gotta have a journal about AC it seems. I have a reason for it though, kinda. Namely I'll be part of the "Furs In the Videogame Industry Q&A" panel. You should be there; not only will it be informative and fun, but I hear there'll be hookers and blackjack.

I also plan on meeting with some fans of teh punk rock. Check the Anthrocon forums for that.

Oughtta be interesting, as always.

#GameDevFurs on furnet.org... Are you interested in game development? Are you a game developer yourself? Then you may want to check out this little slice of heaven on this channel.  mooglyguy is the man in charge and I try to hang out there as often as I can. Don't be shy! You may learn something.

40 years ago yesterday Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. was shot and killed. Exactly one year before that he gave one of the best speeches ever given. It was a speech that turned the media against him, but spoke to anyone who had a heart. It called for an end to war because civil rights required the end of war. For folks who haven't heard or read it, this is required. Please take notes while listening and send me your papers after class. NO EXCUSES.

http://www.americanrhetoric.com/spe.....eaksilence.htm

Ganked from  mooglyguy, though I saw other folks do it first, so... whatever.

There's a meme that has been going around regarding music, and since I'm bored and tired I decided to do it for kicks. This time the results were not only surprisingly entertaining, but the music selected seems to represent my actual listening habits more than usual (I rip asstons of CDs and often do not listen to the full album more than once).

Anyways, you take your music player, put it on shuffle, and record the first 15 songs it spits out. Here's what I got.

Street Dogs - Stagger (in my pants)
Hot Water Music - Keep It Together (in my pants)
The Aquabats - Playdough Revisited (in my pants)
Snuff - Keep the Beat (in my pants)
Public Enemy - Brothers Gonna Work It Out (in my pants)
Mr. Bungle - The Air-Conditioned Nightmare (in my pants)
Rob Zombie - Living Dead Girl (in my pants)
Pearl Jam - Glorified G (in my pants)
Jello Biafra & Melvins - Kali-Fornia Uber Alles 21st Century (in my pants)
Weezer - Love Explosion (in my pants)
The Aquabats - Playdough (in my pants)
Julian Cope - World Shut Your Mouth (in my pants)
Guttermouth - Contribution (in my pants)
Audio Karate - Ms. Foreign Friendly (in my pants)
They Might Be Giants - Meet James Ensor (in my pants)

Not bad, Public Enemy and Weezer titles FTW! Odd that it got both versions of Playdough in my 4500+ track listing. The next 15 are even better though:

Tilt - Bad Place (in my pants)
Stiff Little Fingers - Suspect Device (in my pants)
Pansy Division - Boyfriend Wanted (in my pants)
Jimmy Eat World - A Praise Chorus (in my pants)
Penetration - Don't Dictate (in my pants)
Garbage - Why Do You Love Me (in my pants)
Rocket From The Crypt - U.S. AIM (in my pants)
The Ramones - Suzy Is a Headbanger (in my pants)
The Casualties - Unknown Soldier (in my pants)
The Offspring - Denial, Revisited (in my pants)
The Clash - Stay Free (in my pants)
Madcap - Under Suspicion (in my pants)
The Mighty Mighty Bosstones - Providence Is... (in my pants)
The Briggs - Common & Unknown (in my pants)
Pennywise - Every Single Day (in my pants)

Perfect time for "Suspect Device" to pop up. Also, "Providence Is... (in my pants)" is far too funny to me.

Just for kicks I thought I'd throw out #40. Doesn't really make sense, but the song is awesome and the title sounds fucked up.

Rocket From The Crypt - Dick on a Dog (in my pants)

This is part 2 in a (hopefully) continuing series of a film noir style story. Anyone who has a vague grasp on English literature or at least can maintain a semblance of decorum may continue this,

Part 1: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/272668/

I took a snort of whiskey that I kept hidden in my coat pocket for just such an occasion. The vixen I was stroking was not amused. “You’re not comfortable with me, so you’re loosening up with that shit. Am I right?”

“No,” I said, “I just drink alcohol to make me feel like I give a shit about you.”

By now the vixen had pulled away from me and run off sobbing. I noted that she must’ve been new to the scene, and I should check back when her dreams had been fully shattered by this shithouse of a town. For now, though, I was without a partner, so I headed to the local bar which had always been like a second home to me. Not that I’d enjoyed the company of the folks there, but I always felt I could drink there ‘til I fell unconscious and could get a sympathy ride home.

“Hello, everyone!” I called to the air as no-one listened. I didn’t expect any reply, though it was considered polite to pretend to care that you did. This place was as dingy and sick as a bar could be. It was a place where the whiskey was the color of your money, and the bartender didn’t care if you’d sneak out to the restrooms to do some blow. My kinda place.

Soon after I settled into my usual bar stool, this monument of a man came up to me and asked if we could speak in private. He stood well over seven feet tall and breathed heavily, exhaling menthol vapors due to his constant sucking on eucalyptus mouth drops. The first thought to enter my mind was that I should slap the shit out of him for ruining my peace, but the fact that he could easily beat the shit out of me and his concerned look made me look into his soft, dewey eyes and ask what business he wanted with me.

Ganked from  greatwuff

Normally these music memes turn out to suck, but this one apparently means my music player hates me. Some of these are so horrifying and entertaining I just had to post.

Put your music player on shuffle
Press forward for each answer
Use the song title as the answer to the question
NO CHEATING
Repost this as what your music says about you
---

What does next year have in store for me?
Useless ID - State of Fear (An anti-war song, good start)

What's my love life like?
The Clash - Lover's Rock (Interesting...)

What do I say when life gets hard?
Transplants - American Guns (I do love to shout the lyrics for this one)

What do I think when I get up in the morning?
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Hollywood (Africa)

What song will I dance to at my wedding?
The Aquabats - Attacked By Snakes (Interesting wedding...)

What do I want as a career?
Panzer Dragoon Orta Soundtrack - Eternal Glacies (Highly appropriate, considering I'm a game programmer!)

My favorite saying?
Pansy Division - Jack U Off (Of all the times for a Pansy Division song to show up...)

My pet's name?
Unseen - Don't Look Back (Confusing!)

Describe your sexlife:
Bauhaus - Bela Lugosi's Dead (So wrong, but so right)

What do I think of my parents?
They Might Be Giants - She Thinks She's Edith Head

What's my Pornstar name?
The Matches - My Soft and Deep (!!!)

Where would I go on a first date?
"Weird Al" Yankovic - UHF

Drug of choice?
Collective Soul - Untitled (This so should have been one of many songs about alcohol I have)

Describe yourself:
Nerf Herder - Lamer Than Lame (!!!)

What is the thing I like doing the most?
What I Got - Sublime

What song best describes my school principal?
Dance Hall Crashers - State of Mind

What is my state of mind at the moment?
Nerf Herder - Life on Mars

How will I die?
The Ramones - You Didn't Mean Anything to Me (Ouch. Apparently I'll be bitter)

How does the world see me?
Presidents of the United States of America - Dune Buggy

What is some good advice for me?
Pansy Division - Ring of Joy (Yes, that's a song celebrating the anus)

What is my day going to be like?
Butthole Surfers - The Weird Revolution (Very oddly appropriate)

I dunno if anyone will actually read this, but I decided to do this meme because it sounded fun and I want to give the air that I'm not a totally passive FA observer, so here goes...

1. Can you cook?
I got grand champion in Foods for 4-H... so yeah, I can cook.

2. What was your dream growing up?
To be a video game programmer... no, really! And now I am one.

3. What talent do you wish you had?
I dunno, I have a lot of talents but none that I have really honed properly. I suppose out of everything I'll always wish to be a better musician. Also I wish I were better at Supreme Commander so I wouldn't get trounced by my coworkers.

4. Favorite place?
Austin's been great to me so far, but I haven't found a favorite place there yet.

5. Favorite vegetable/s?
I have a disturbing affinity for zucchini.

6. What was the last book you read?
Conservatives Without Conscience by John Dean. Yes, I like to read about politics.

7. What zodiac sign are you?
Pisces. And a metal cock.

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
Nope, though I occasionally entertain the thought of getting my cock pierced.

9. Worst Habit?
Constant nailbiting due to an oral fixation.

10. What was the last thing you touched besides the keyboard?
A shot glass with bourbon in it.

11. What is your favorite sport?
Bowling. I enjoy both playing it and watching it. Hey, I took a class in college, okay?!

12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
Disturbingly optimistic with occasional bouts of disturbing negativism.

13. Can you eat 50 hot wings?
Wings ain't my thing. I usually have one just out of curiousity.

14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
Lost my driver's license after moving to another state.

15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
I once had a convicted murderer with me in my car.

16. Do you have any pets?
Nope.

17. What’s the weirdest pet you’ve owned?
I once had a black cat that lived to the age of nineteen... she succumbed to feline diabetes if I remember rightly... She was smart enough to figure out how to open some doors.

18. Where are you?
Sitting in front of my notebook computer.

19. What is the dumbest thing you’ve done while intoxicated?
Shit myself. Though honestly the reason why I did was because-- while sober-- I decided to make a mixed drink with a laxative.

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
I'd weigh as much as I did while in marching band.

21. Weapon of choice?
Any sort of breath weapon that causes complete emasculation to its victims.

22. What color eyes do you have in real life?
Greyish blue.

23. Ever been arrested?
Not yet.

24. Bottle or Draft?
Draft if possible.

25. If you found a $100 bill on the ground, what would you do?
If I saw who dropped it I'd return it. If not I may just pocket it depending on the circumstances.

26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
I prefer not to chew gum of any kind but... cinnamon.

27. Where’s your favorite place to hang out?
I don't often just hang out, but I like malls or any place that sells alcohol.

28. Do you like your room cold or hot?
Cool-ish. Otherwise I find it hard to get to sleep.

29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
Playing video games.

30. Do you swear a lot?
By myself I will swear a ton. In social situations I tend to keep it to a minimum unless I find the atmosphere is right for it.

31. Biggest pet peeve?
Bad drivers.

32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
I was asked this in an interview for my current job, and I'll say now what I did then... Paradoxical.

33. What’s your shoe size?
Eleven wide.

34. Do you have the same features (eye color, body size) as your furry character?
Grey eyes and fatass, so yeah. In some other ways he's a tad different though.

35. What is your favorite outfit?
Printed shirt and slacks. I dislike jeans and love khakis.

36. Favorite image in all of the internet?
Ronald Reagan hitting himself in the head.

37. How many windows/tabs do you have open?
Six windows, nine total tabs.

38. What's your desktop image?
Robert Freeman from the Boondocks. My desktop computer has Huey. :)

39. What shampoo do you use?
Garnier Fructis, normal. And yes, partly because their commercials use the song "Diamonds and Guns" by the Transplants.

40. What cologne do you use?
Depending on the circumstances I'll go for Axe Effect, Axe Phoenix, or Canoe.

http://abcnews.go.com/Technology/wireStory?id=2740786&CMP=OTC-RSSFeeds0312

Best. Headline. Ever.

I heard about this long ago but it recently resurfaced so I figured I'd mention it, plus it talks about gator dicks:

http://lfpress.ca/newsstand/Cityand.....56379-sun.html

So if you're anti-pesticide does this mean you are also pro-penis? Curious...