yeah i am a bit late to play almost every game out there tbh, but whatever. also i feel like throwing out my thoughts on some things sometimes, so... either bear with it or unwatch, if you do the latter - remember to tell me to go fuck myself below, it'll make me happier.


but yeah, uhh... because I just kinda don't want to go on for too long over mere first impressions... I'll be very crude and vague
Visuals: 10/10
Sound: 9/10
Gameplay: 8/10
Story thus far: OFF THE CHARTS

yeah. including nsfw fee increase to encourage more sfw commisions as opposed to nsfw ones. also i'll try to compile a price sheet maybe.

baguette

i'm a bit too depressed to structure and elaborate this stuff in any sort of way beyond very basic points, ehh. but just, i feel like i gotta be honest with you guys, like, maybe 5 people who actually care or something, idk. just remember that i don't feel too well a lot of times, but... yeah... but...
since my deviantart days, the first account there... very bad times... since i abandoned it i felt the need to hide some of my emotions and feelings from people who follow me. i felt like all it did was bringing me more and more hate for... well... who i am. just, agh. i was and i still am reluctant to write all of this stuff down like here now, but... eh. i just feel like i have to. i hope i'm not going to lose 90% of my watchers all of a sudden from it...
few years ago i made this decision to just, try and draw some stuff. try to get good at art. make it a thing that i am good at, gamble, by ignoring my education and focusing on art. did it pay off... i still can't tell, and i'm at the stage of my life where i have to make a choice, either all in on education, or all in on art. i feel very fucking insecure about my future and present, i constantly feel stressed that if i make a little mistake it will all come crashing down and i'll fuck myself up beyond repair. i fear failure. because of that fear i draw a lot less, i fear to waste my time on something that won't contribute to anything positive in the end... and that creates a lot more problems... because of that, it's either practice art or do stuff for recognition. at some point, when one of my arts was very, very successful on here, got a lot of faves, i started to chase the numbers, try to get as much faves as possible on a single art. and i succeeded only twice after that one time. one of those times i didn't even like the end result, i still don't. i have very bad memories associated with that one picture, won't tell you which one. i just sort of started trying to please everybody around, treated art like a fucking business and business only rather than something i enjoyed. instead of trying to improve and do something different, try to outdo myself... i just looked at what others were doing. they weren't doing much better job than me, but they were getting a lot better stats than me. so i just followed suite and started doing similar stuff, without too much effort put into it... without any good results. let's just say that it ruined me on the personality side, didn't contribute to my art getting better, in fact, it has gotten worse over all that time. above all, it never satisfied me, ever. yet, i just wanted the numbers... because numbers mean more potential commisioners... and that means more money... and boy, do i still want money. i just, use money as means to fix the gaping hole in my happiness. i just buy myself happiness, pretty much. and drawing... drawing doesn't feel too fun anymore, often i lack motivation to get to drawing commisions that i have stockpiled. i just don't feel like i'm good enough. as an obsessive perfectionist i feel the need to give every single drawing my best, give it all. either do it well or go home. i can't rest well being aware that i've half assed something below any sort of quality standards. and that... that leads to me drawing a lot slower, being a lot more reluctant to upload some things and almost never finish or come back to images that are more than week old, to maybe improve them or something. about uploads... i am very hesitant to upload anything. i fear to be judged for being different, at the same time, i fear to be the same as others, or even repeat myself too much. i just have this need not to repeat myself, to try and outdo myself somehow... i just feel like otherwise my arts would get boring pretty quickly... if it's not the style that makes you all bored, it's the theme or repetitiveness. every time. applies to everything, ever. either change stuff up or it becomes stale. i am just caught up in those completely opposing ideologies related to art... unsure which one to choose. i am just, i have no clue what i'm doing. i have no clue what i'm writing either. i just have no clue at all. i literally have no clue how i've structured this whole piece of shit journal and if i'm not repeating myself like a 100 times or something. i don't know, my dudes. i have no fucking clue what to do from here. or what to do in general. i just feel fucking lost and trapped in my anxiety. i don't like myself. i fucking hate myself as i am right now. i'm simply trapped in anxiety, i have no clue how to escape it. i distrust psychologists entirely, people irl too... i have no irl friends either. i distrust family too. everybody irl, in short. just, agh, fuck. i'm so fucked, but it's all because of myself. i'm my own fucking doom. and i fear that i'm just dooming myself further and further. i'm just an insecure piece of shit artist that's also kind of an attention whore. nothing more than that. i fucking suck. idfk why the fuck would you even bother looking up my profile, ever. just, fucking hell. i wish i could just, be myself. i can't. i don't know how. i fear to be myself. just that. i guess. i'm not really sure though. i have no clue anymore. ehh. fuck.


edit: shortly after this journal i've fucked up at least one friendship with one sentence containing a word too much in a wrong place. tell me again, how the fuck am i not a bad person

Yeah... In about 2 weeks time I'll change the prices for the last time, push them up a little bit and also reactivate traditional commisions and finally make a proper price sheet. So, if you want a commision at the current prices - go ahead, commision now! Ignore the slots for now, I can take in almost all commisions you'd throw at me. Sure, it would block any new commisions from coming in, but not for long! Unless I die of heatstroke, that is.

Basically... a few polls asking you what you'd want to see? In order: Growth drives, adopts, YCHes, uploads and custom species... I know you'd want me streaming how I draw, but for now it's not possible, technical issues and all.


Growth drive poll:
https://www.strawpoll.me/15918001

Adopts:
https://www.strawpoll.me/15918003

YCHes:
https://www.strawpoll.me/15918007

Uploads:
https://www.strawpoll.me/15918012

And custom species:
https://www.strawpoll.me/15918015

yes, i know i was slow and all

i'm getting to commisions again very fucking soon, ok
i'll get it done sooner or later
ok

if you have any questions about them feel free to note me
i'll answer





also i still have those adopts up for grabs, but now i lower the price to 5€ so...
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8763037/

Getting rid of old, unused designs. 5€ each, flat price, if you want a whole new ref made for them - you'll have to commision it separately



Eligible:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23646553/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/22677727/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21856473/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21620184/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21613121/


Note me if you're interested, I'll delete the link for bought ones

I DECLARE WAR ON  THALVERSCHOLEN
REASON: INSULTED
WAR TYPE: ART WAR
LASTS: idfk how long idc
WARGOAL: OBLITERATE THE OPPONENT

Yay or nay? Since, well... I kinda wanted to stream for quite a while now, but it never worked out too well in the end, barely anybody came on, technical difficulties etc.
Should I bother with it again then?

https://www.strawpoll.me/15733565
https://www.strawpoll.me/15733565
https://www.strawpoll.me/15733565
https://www.strawpoll.me/15733565

https://www.weasyl.com/~devv
yep.

Yup, reopening orders for commisions already. I'll start working on them around or after 14th, but ya, you can take a slot already, aye!

check 'em out lol
Also unofficially reopening commisions on 11th, that's the day when you can make orders again

yep... I'll be closing them down again soon due to upcoming finals. That's the last moment you can get a commision from me. There might be a slight delay because I have to use a different software than I'm used to, but it will be done, sooner or later.

Well, yeah... well... I might score a significant delay on delivering anything other than some random, personal sketches once in a while, finals are coming. So, well, raffle winners, sooner or later I'll get your stuff drawn and such, just that it'll take an extra while

cuz i gotta spread far and wide for money and attention i guess

The SFW one https://devvvo.tumblr.com/
The NSFW one https://nsfwdevvvo.tumblr.com/

cuz not every winner redeemed their stuff

#21 | #4

EXCEPT, raffle winners are on the very bottom while the update will be on the top, because plot twist!

So yeah, well... Today Wacom Intuos Pro arrived, gotta say, it's fucking amazing and all, but... uhhh... how to say... Drivers are absolute fucking garbage, as expected. And because this is the new Intuos Pro, well... Old drivers might not pick it up, tbh? The previous ones that I've installed actually didn't, so I might have to figure out a workaround or say goodbye to SAI. Whatever it will be, your digital sketches might be a bit shoddy and any commisions from now on - delayed (sorry Bread!). Besides, I'm finally rocking HOTAS, so fuck yeah I'll flight sim a lot now, especially that finals are coming up and I gotta relax somehow.


Anyway, so, RAFFLE WINNERS... Who are they? How many? Well, decided to have 3 winners due to how many people entered (21). Numbers were drafted with random numbers generator. To claim your reward - note me here on FA with details of what you want! If you won't claim the reward within 48 hours - I'll get somebody else drafted instead!

And the winning numbers are... #20 | #12 | #14! Congratulations!

First off, if you still want to enter - you have time till Friday 13th, Noon UTC time! Irony how "unlucky day" might become your lucky day, hah!



And now, more details!

What will you draw?
Fullbody sketches for the winners, either traditional or digital.

What can I ask for as a reward?
If digital - NSFW of all kinds, as long as it's not on my 'no-no list' in commisions (if you're not sure if I'd draw something - feel free to ask in the comments!). If traditional - SFW only, sorry guys. Kinda not in the mood for traditional nsfw arts.

How long will we have to wait for the drawings?
If traditional, I can get to them right away. If digital... Well... Not so quickly. I want to make a switch to Photoshop and then also I'll be learning the new tablet on those sketches for you, so... It will take a bit longer (as the tablet will arrive next week and not this upcoming one), but it will come, sooner or later!

If you have any more questions - ask in the comments! I'll put them in this journal for others to access a lot easier!

 thalverscholen
go spam him with a lot of love, he's the kindest person i know

So yeah, well... Simple rules. Comment on this journal with a link to a journal of your own promoting this raffle and you've entered. You're gonna get a number for the raffle and, well, that's pretty much it.

How many winners? Dunno, will see how many people will enter!
How long? Also dunno, we'll see! A week or two is more than enough, right?
What's to win? You can choose between digital sketch and a traditional one, ya!

so, just do it dudes, yo.

Alright, from now on any update will bear a number. So yeah, expect me to communicate a bit more, finally. Dev is back, I guess. And he's gonna experiment with formats of update journals, so... bear with me here, heh!


First off, nearing 250 watchers... cool, i guess. Not gonna stop at that though, hopefully!

Second, birthday comin' real damn soon, 4th of April... goddamn how time flies. And this time, finally things are on the brighter side for me personally!

And about that... That includes business. You might've noticed that I'm now going a lot stronger towards making my art a business, earning money. Let's be honest, it's just because I want money, cuz I'm just a damn greedy cunt as of late who wants to earn something and spend that something to satisfy his luxry needs. And as you probably know, commisions are open, first YCH is out, but you don't really know about one more thing yet... Patreon.

My Patreon page is still being set up and sorted out, I'll announce it in here as soon as it's ready, sit tight! By supporting me over there you'll gain early access to some of my submissions, a lot of WIPs and also a 5% Patreon discount on commisions! Once I have enough of a following I can also open a Discord server of my own and all Patreons would gain Patreon-exclusive voice and text chat channel, I guess! Stay tuned for that!

Dk what else to write here, so I guess... Bye? xd

Yup, interest is back up, so it's open again, check out the new prices!

hello

as the title says... would that interest any of you? because i feel like being a whore for money and commisions being apparently not interesting enough... well. yeah.