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Update May/8/2024
Posted a year ago...A little too long since the last one of these >>;; Sorry about that
Life's been busy but doing okay. Energy levels are... Fine, but just being divided a lot more, so writing has taken a bit more of a back seat lately. I'm still doing it nearly every day, but often enough I'm getting pulled away or pushed to do something else during my writing time. Now that we're nearly out of the "birthday zone" of the year (where I tend to write several gives for friends) I can finally start focusing more on my own projects. Including:
-The Thread Of Dawn Act 4
Still in the works but at least half done. I even got in contact with Tissthalliss again and he said he would help by writing a scene for me once again for this series. I still don't know if it is going to be in act 4, I've got a couple of ideas but it may feel a bit shoehorned in. Thoughts? Since the last act didn't have any spicy content, would you like one for act 4 or would you rather wait until 5?
-D.I.E
Still being planned, just got busy with everything else. But there seemed to be enough interest for this one and I still want to do it... And odds are that it will be spicy >>;;;
-Afterlife Act 6
Not this year. I've got an idea for it next year, but it may be a bit short like last "halloween's" bit.
-Drunken Lullabies?
Nothing specifically planned at the moment. My energy is often so spent lately that I don't get a lot of time for writing silly stuff. 'Too many projects = not enough time for random jazz' type of thing. Not asking for ideas either
-New Story?
...I may have gotten interested in something from playing Stranger of Paradise [Final Fantasy Origins... The "CHAOS!" game], and it maaaaaay have resparked something I've been wanting to write about for a while... Again >>;;; Over 30 pages in atm, and I admit that this one kinda took a priority atm. Long but a little spicy, involving some size difference. This'll be one of those stories that you gotta let it 'cook' in order to get to the good stuff (and hopefully the wait will be worth it <<;;)
-Halloween Story?
A bit early for this and nothing specifically started, just thought of. However, it is a SFW idea and those seem to like NEVER do well here. Psychopath, Life Of My Own, anything Afterlife related, I'm definitely seeing a trend. So I may bail on this idea and just go with something more sexual/fetish based instead.
If you were interested what the idea was though, this is the song that inspired it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I68cvWmfT48
And so far that's everything that I'm cooking. There's a few I'd personally like to get back to, including Resound. I also updated Anthem Of The Lonely recently after getting some good feedback, so that should also be better if you're looking for something more refined [though, that is SFW as well... Sorta. Mostly.]
Be patient while I chip away at things here, and take care of yourselves this summer <3
Your furball,
~Bartan
Life's been busy but doing okay. Energy levels are... Fine, but just being divided a lot more, so writing has taken a bit more of a back seat lately. I'm still doing it nearly every day, but often enough I'm getting pulled away or pushed to do something else during my writing time. Now that we're nearly out of the "birthday zone" of the year (where I tend to write several gives for friends) I can finally start focusing more on my own projects. Including:
-The Thread Of Dawn Act 4
Still in the works but at least half done. I even got in contact with Tissthalliss again and he said he would help by writing a scene for me once again for this series. I still don't know if it is going to be in act 4, I've got a couple of ideas but it may feel a bit shoehorned in. Thoughts? Since the last act didn't have any spicy content, would you like one for act 4 or would you rather wait until 5?
-D.I.E
Still being planned, just got busy with everything else. But there seemed to be enough interest for this one and I still want to do it... And odds are that it will be spicy >>;;;
-Afterlife Act 6
Not this year. I've got an idea for it next year, but it may be a bit short like last "halloween's" bit.
-Drunken Lullabies?
Nothing specifically planned at the moment. My energy is often so spent lately that I don't get a lot of time for writing silly stuff. 'Too many projects = not enough time for random jazz' type of thing. Not asking for ideas either
-New Story?
...I may have gotten interested in something from playing Stranger of Paradise [Final Fantasy Origins... The "CHAOS!" game], and it maaaaaay have resparked something I've been wanting to write about for a while... Again >>;;; Over 30 pages in atm, and I admit that this one kinda took a priority atm. Long but a little spicy, involving some size difference. This'll be one of those stories that you gotta let it 'cook' in order to get to the good stuff (and hopefully the wait will be worth it <<;;)
-Halloween Story?
A bit early for this and nothing specifically started, just thought of. However, it is a SFW idea and those seem to like NEVER do well here. Psychopath, Life Of My Own, anything Afterlife related, I'm definitely seeing a trend. So I may bail on this idea and just go with something more sexual/fetish based instead.
If you were interested what the idea was though, this is the song that inspired it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I68cvWmfT48
And so far that's everything that I'm cooking. There's a few I'd personally like to get back to, including Resound. I also updated Anthem Of The Lonely recently after getting some good feedback, so that should also be better if you're looking for something more refined [though, that is SFW as well... Sorta. Mostly.]
Be patient while I chip away at things here, and take care of yourselves this summer <3
Your furball,
~Bartan
Update 2/22/2023
Posted 2 years agoWell, it's been a while since I did one of these. Pretty much all winter, really.
I've been more tired than expected lately, fatigue caught up with me after the 'holiday spam' of content I made: Psychopath, Drunken Halloween Lullaby, the Winter Meta... Okay, on paper it really doesn't sound like a lot, but one of those were a freaking novel! It's uh... It's been a lot.
Either way, I kinda burned myself out a little. Squeezing out some content here and there; WTMM4 (3 was already done last year, just wasn't posted), and the two Valentine sessions. I did have half a DL done featuring a guest appearance but that's been on hold for a while. However, I have been working on something else- though don't get too excited. Its more akin to the longer novels I did when I started writing, and those did take quite a few months to write- Per Act.
Though, while we're at it: I am not doing an April Fools 'contest' or anything of the sort this year. I just currently don't have the energy in me to pull one off. I still might write something for it, I donno. But don't expect anything.
What have I been working on then? Party Monster and a little bit of Afterlife Act 5, one I was hoping to get done by this year but I'm honestly not entirely sure where I'm going with it just yet. But 'Party Monster' (currently named something else, this is just what I called it two years ago) act 1 is getting relatively close to done. So that's something I might decide to post in March if I feel its ready. There won't be any adult content in it Yet, but there is a couple of scenes planned for it. Doubt they'll be worth the actual wait, but.
Aside from that, I'm just trying to recover. I was kind of fine in January, but Feb just really knocked the wind (energy) out of me. Often requiring a nap to get through the day, sometimes two. So I'm currently taking it easy, working on stuff in the mornings when I have my coffee, where I have most of my energy.
Times like this, I'm so glad I don't have anything like Patreon, because I don't think I could keep up with what is owed to supporters x.x;
But yeah, update complete. Aside from that, I'm trying to get a little bit more comfortable with this; this old furball's birthday is on the 16th of March. If you want to do something for it, that's fine. That's gladly appreciated. But don't feel like you have to <3
Your Bear
~Bartan
I've been more tired than expected lately, fatigue caught up with me after the 'holiday spam' of content I made: Psychopath, Drunken Halloween Lullaby, the Winter Meta... Okay, on paper it really doesn't sound like a lot, but one of those were a freaking novel! It's uh... It's been a lot.
Either way, I kinda burned myself out a little. Squeezing out some content here and there; WTMM4 (3 was already done last year, just wasn't posted), and the two Valentine sessions. I did have half a DL done featuring a guest appearance but that's been on hold for a while. However, I have been working on something else- though don't get too excited. Its more akin to the longer novels I did when I started writing, and those did take quite a few months to write- Per Act.
Though, while we're at it: I am not doing an April Fools 'contest' or anything of the sort this year. I just currently don't have the energy in me to pull one off. I still might write something for it, I donno. But don't expect anything.
What have I been working on then? Party Monster and a little bit of Afterlife Act 5, one I was hoping to get done by this year but I'm honestly not entirely sure where I'm going with it just yet. But 'Party Monster' (currently named something else, this is just what I called it two years ago) act 1 is getting relatively close to done. So that's something I might decide to post in March if I feel its ready. There won't be any adult content in it Yet, but there is a couple of scenes planned for it. Doubt they'll be worth the actual wait, but.
Aside from that, I'm just trying to recover. I was kind of fine in January, but Feb just really knocked the wind (energy) out of me. Often requiring a nap to get through the day, sometimes two. So I'm currently taking it easy, working on stuff in the mornings when I have my coffee, where I have most of my energy.
Times like this, I'm so glad I don't have anything like Patreon, because I don't think I could keep up with what is owed to supporters x.x;
But yeah, update complete. Aside from that, I'm trying to get a little bit more comfortable with this; this old furball's birthday is on the 16th of March. If you want to do something for it, that's fine. That's gladly appreciated. But don't feel like you have to <3
Your Bear
~Bartan
Invitation to the Winter Meta (2022)
Posted 3 years agoHey everyone,
I'm thinking of trying something just a tad different this year with my Winter Meta. For those of you who don't know; the WM is a yearly story I work on through November and release early December. Its one where it usually follows some characters (one usually Bartan) and talk about things that happened through the year, IRL. Usually effecting my own world/perspective, but with a primary focus on my stories. How I feel about them, I talk with some of the characters, etc.
Anyway, this year's (like many others) is going to be an Xmas party of sorts, and I was thinking about adding just a little bit more... 'Audience Participation' if you decide to. All I'm looking for is a character of yours (two max) and an action/interaction that they would be doing in the background. So for example:
-Selena the yellow fox playing billiards with Zarrel [Rex Overboard], checking him out as the large rex lines up a shot.
or
-SirMeowsALot the Charr relaxing in the large hot tub.
Little things like that. It's nothing spectacular, but I thought it could be fun/entertaining for people to think of fun things to add if they wanted to be part of the yearly instalment. Though, keep in mind that if someone is going to be a public disturbance, the Trouble-Makers (Rev & Lexar. If you've followed these things before, you know who this little wolf-bear-thing and brass wyrmling are) will be on Security duty :3
Regardless, if you think of something, go for it. I'll be trying to squeeze in as many as I can but try to only have a max of two entries (one for each character).
In other news, I did get the Halloween story written, but doing a read-through and making a few edits before posting. Expect that soon! Then maybe something small and spicy for Halloween as well, if I feel up for it x.x;;
Regardless, enjoy your Holiday everyone~
This journal will remain open until probably the 20th of NOVEMBER. So you've got time to think of something~
I'm thinking of trying something just a tad different this year with my Winter Meta. For those of you who don't know; the WM is a yearly story I work on through November and release early December. Its one where it usually follows some characters (one usually Bartan) and talk about things that happened through the year, IRL. Usually effecting my own world/perspective, but with a primary focus on my stories. How I feel about them, I talk with some of the characters, etc.
Anyway, this year's (like many others) is going to be an Xmas party of sorts, and I was thinking about adding just a little bit more... 'Audience Participation' if you decide to. All I'm looking for is a character of yours (two max) and an action/interaction that they would be doing in the background. So for example:
-Selena the yellow fox playing billiards with Zarrel [Rex Overboard], checking him out as the large rex lines up a shot.
or
-SirMeowsALot the Charr relaxing in the large hot tub.
Little things like that. It's nothing spectacular, but I thought it could be fun/entertaining for people to think of fun things to add if they wanted to be part of the yearly instalment. Though, keep in mind that if someone is going to be a public disturbance, the Trouble-Makers (Rev & Lexar. If you've followed these things before, you know who this little wolf-bear-thing and brass wyrmling are) will be on Security duty :3
Regardless, if you think of something, go for it. I'll be trying to squeeze in as many as I can but try to only have a max of two entries (one for each character).
In other news, I did get the Halloween story written, but doing a read-through and making a few edits before posting. Expect that soon! Then maybe something small and spicy for Halloween as well, if I feel up for it x.x;;
Regardless, enjoy your Holiday everyone~
This journal will remain open until probably the 20th of NOVEMBER. So you've got time to think of something~
Very Late Update [July 2022]
Posted 3 years agoIt's been a while since one of these update journals, the last one being for... Technically October 2020, which was kind of a bittersweet announcement >>;;
Anyway, things have been getting better since. There was a lot of work for the move and getting things set up in the new house. It feels much better to be back 'home' where I was born, to the point where it's almost perfect for me here. Summers are just a little warm, but nothing like the humid swamp of the last house I was living in (not including the apartment).
I mention this, because... The house is big, and that means there's a lot of work to be done in terms of maintenance. Mostly cleaning, lawn mowing/shovelling snow and such. So that's why my writing has taken a little bit more of a back seat; I'm the one pushing myself to do these things, usually solo. Mix that with doing my aunt's lawn (though being paid to do so), exercise/self improvement, and people wanting to talk, it makes for quite the tired bear.
But I wanted to reduce the amount I spent towards writing for years now, because... Well, it's been nearly 9 years since I started, and I can't say it has been 'successful' judging by the numbers. My luck for getting seen/noticed has never been that good, so this is a pretty typical result.
It doesn't seem like I've written a lot in this past year, but it's more that I didn't post a lot and have a few projects in the works. I've done a few gifts for friends and one-shots, but never really got the 'go ahead' to post them (though I didn't ask either). I guess to me it doesn't feel like a lot, but I've been wanting to promote my older works for a while now. Hence the Novel Cards you've been seeing lately.
I've been wanting to try more 'community/watcher' based content for my fans. Requests don't really turn out well enough, imo, mostly due to the amount of time it takes to get to know a character. Be it an OC or one from a show; which I will feel like I need to watch the entire thing to really get the full understanding of said character. And if you know me IRL is that I don't do tv/movies well.
That's where the tag related 'contests' came in; it was something people could kind of work on together and it did play with my strengths. But I feel like people are getting sick of them, so maybe I should stop trying those. The participation turnout has been kinda bad.
To be honest, I'm not really sure what else to do. I've got a few ideas/stories in the works (which I'll make a list in a bit) but I'm not really confident that people are going to find them interesting. Drunken Lullabies work well for FA, but nowhere else, and well... They're just silly little scenes- I can't even call them stories, honestly.
Oh, and don't suggest "write for yourself". Doing the Novel Cards proves to me that I do have Enough for myself to enjoy for probably the next ten years or so.
For now, here's some suggestions of things in the works:
Afterlife Act 5 - Technically not started, but plans are for it to be done by the end of next year. Hopefully complete for my 10 year anniversary... I can't say it'll be worth the hype >>;
Come With Me To The Otherside Act 2 - A novel that's kinda gone the way of Memory's Fragment: no interest from anyone basically means "you're wasting your time, bear" to me. I did start this, but... I feel like I'm wasting my time.
Party Monster - Remember that copper dragon from the Hung Up/Unreal series? Yeah, it is her backstory and how she became ruler of her lands. This is supposed to be a longer one, my guess is possibly 3 acts long. I'm hoping to get the first act done by the end of this year, but no promises.
Side Story One-Shots - Drunken Lullabies? All For You (Second Person View)? Anyone interested in things like these? If so, what kinks? There's a decent list I won't touch, but the worst that will happen is that I'll kindly decline.
Is there anything else people are interested in seeing/reading? Or is writing a dead media at this point, and I should be focusing on something else like 3D modelling and maybe 2D animations? I can't say I'm very confident in my ability to do them, but I am curious about your thoughts.
Your four-eared fluffy,
~Bartan
Anyway, things have been getting better since. There was a lot of work for the move and getting things set up in the new house. It feels much better to be back 'home' where I was born, to the point where it's almost perfect for me here. Summers are just a little warm, but nothing like the humid swamp of the last house I was living in (not including the apartment).
I mention this, because... The house is big, and that means there's a lot of work to be done in terms of maintenance. Mostly cleaning, lawn mowing/shovelling snow and such. So that's why my writing has taken a little bit more of a back seat; I'm the one pushing myself to do these things, usually solo. Mix that with doing my aunt's lawn (though being paid to do so), exercise/self improvement, and people wanting to talk, it makes for quite the tired bear.
But I wanted to reduce the amount I spent towards writing for years now, because... Well, it's been nearly 9 years since I started, and I can't say it has been 'successful' judging by the numbers. My luck for getting seen/noticed has never been that good, so this is a pretty typical result.
It doesn't seem like I've written a lot in this past year, but it's more that I didn't post a lot and have a few projects in the works. I've done a few gifts for friends and one-shots, but never really got the 'go ahead' to post them (though I didn't ask either). I guess to me it doesn't feel like a lot, but I've been wanting to promote my older works for a while now. Hence the Novel Cards you've been seeing lately.
I've been wanting to try more 'community/watcher' based content for my fans. Requests don't really turn out well enough, imo, mostly due to the amount of time it takes to get to know a character. Be it an OC or one from a show; which I will feel like I need to watch the entire thing to really get the full understanding of said character. And if you know me IRL is that I don't do tv/movies well.
That's where the tag related 'contests' came in; it was something people could kind of work on together and it did play with my strengths. But I feel like people are getting sick of them, so maybe I should stop trying those. The participation turnout has been kinda bad.
To be honest, I'm not really sure what else to do. I've got a few ideas/stories in the works (which I'll make a list in a bit) but I'm not really confident that people are going to find them interesting. Drunken Lullabies work well for FA, but nowhere else, and well... They're just silly little scenes- I can't even call them stories, honestly.
Oh, and don't suggest "write for yourself". Doing the Novel Cards proves to me that I do have Enough for myself to enjoy for probably the next ten years or so.
For now, here's some suggestions of things in the works:
Afterlife Act 5 - Technically not started, but plans are for it to be done by the end of next year. Hopefully complete for my 10 year anniversary... I can't say it'll be worth the hype >>;
Come With Me To The Otherside Act 2 - A novel that's kinda gone the way of Memory's Fragment: no interest from anyone basically means "you're wasting your time, bear" to me. I did start this, but... I feel like I'm wasting my time.
Party Monster - Remember that copper dragon from the Hung Up/Unreal series? Yeah, it is her backstory and how she became ruler of her lands. This is supposed to be a longer one, my guess is possibly 3 acts long. I'm hoping to get the first act done by the end of this year, but no promises.
Side Story One-Shots - Drunken Lullabies? All For You (Second Person View)? Anyone interested in things like these? If so, what kinks? There's a decent list I won't touch, but the worst that will happen is that I'll kindly decline.
Is there anything else people are interested in seeing/reading? Or is writing a dead media at this point, and I should be focusing on something else like 3D modelling and maybe 2D animations? I can't say I'm very confident in my ability to do them, but I am curious about your thoughts.
Your four-eared fluffy,
~Bartan
April Fools Cram-Tag-Stic 2022! [Success! Closed!]
Posted 4 years agoEdit 3/16/2022
-Closing the contest. Thanks for all who entered, and I'll post the result on April 1st!
"What's it going to be called?"
No idea. Just look for the thing I post on that day. I hope you like the results >>;;
Edit 2/22/...2022 >>;
-Successfully Completed the Requirements!
-The journals will remain opened for any entries until March 16th! Get them in while you can!
-Thank You! <3
...I can't believe I called it that either >>; Craptastic is more like it
Going to try this one last time, hopefully it'll be a success unlike the one for last October. If you're new to these, I just take up most of the tags people suggest/leave in the comments, and I attempt to cram them into a story. Usually a single story, but sometimes they're just to divided to throw them all into one.
Da Rules:
-Comment on this journal, or one from a different site of mine, and suggest up to 5 keywords you would like to see (fetishes, genders, activities, positions, maybe locations). The more creative, the more it'll probably spark something for me. An Example: Straight, Bondage, Gambling, Beach, Doggy Style/Mounting. They don't have to completely make sense (that's kinda my job >>;)
-Try to refrain from suggesting actual Characters (Spyro, Renamon, "Your OC"), because I'm probably not going to use them.
*-I'll try to use all the tags suggested in a single story, but there are just some I either don't wish to do, or just don't enjoy. For example, I'm not into Vore, but I'll give it a shot like before. However, I detest Diaper, so that is a no-go. Same with Human- I really Really find Humans boring. Overall, I will have final say on what makes it into the story, but I'm going to try to throw in as much as I possibly can.
-I'm half leaning on making this one a continuation of April 2021's story (Look At What You Made Me Do), but we'll see the results. It may end up just becoming its own thing.
-Just like the last one, you are able to suggest more on other journal posts (or even the same ones, if you really want to get them noticed). I'm not going to suggest "Watching me" or "Favorite this journal" for bonus points/requirements, so don't worry. You can find the sites I'm on here:
FurAffinity: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10134655/
SoFurry/YiffStar: https://www.sofurry.com/view/1820686
InkBunny: https://inkbunny.net/j/445975-Barta.....tag-stic-2022-
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/journal/1688.....-tag-stic-2022
The contest will close on my Birthday (16th of March), giving me about two weeks to work something out. No promises, because fish can happen during those times (like PC problems or internet crapping out) but I'll do my best. However, I'm going to need YOUR help with it as well! Show me that you care about these things and it'll be a yearly (maybe even Bi-yearly) thing. If I do not get 5 entries across ALL sites [Just a total of 5, not 20], the contest and likely all future ones will be canceled.
That's about it. You've got a month to think of something, don't let me down guys
~Bartan
-Closing the contest. Thanks for all who entered, and I'll post the result on April 1st!
"What's it going to be called?"
No idea. Just look for the thing I post on that day. I hope you like the results >>;;
Edit 2/22/...2022 >>;
-Successfully Completed the Requirements!
-The journals will remain opened for any entries until March 16th! Get them in while you can!
-Thank You! <3
...I can't believe I called it that either >>; Craptastic is more like it
Going to try this one last time, hopefully it'll be a success unlike the one for last October. If you're new to these, I just take up most of the tags people suggest/leave in the comments, and I attempt to cram them into a story. Usually a single story, but sometimes they're just to divided to throw them all into one.
Da Rules:
-Comment on this journal, or one from a different site of mine, and suggest up to 5 keywords you would like to see (fetishes, genders, activities, positions, maybe locations). The more creative, the more it'll probably spark something for me. An Example: Straight, Bondage, Gambling, Beach, Doggy Style/Mounting. They don't have to completely make sense (that's kinda my job >>;)
-Try to refrain from suggesting actual Characters (Spyro, Renamon, "Your OC"), because I'm probably not going to use them.
*-I'll try to use all the tags suggested in a single story, but there are just some I either don't wish to do, or just don't enjoy. For example, I'm not into Vore, but I'll give it a shot like before. However, I detest Diaper, so that is a no-go. Same with Human- I really Really find Humans boring. Overall, I will have final say on what makes it into the story, but I'm going to try to throw in as much as I possibly can.
-I'm half leaning on making this one a continuation of April 2021's story (Look At What You Made Me Do), but we'll see the results. It may end up just becoming its own thing.
-Just like the last one, you are able to suggest more on other journal posts (or even the same ones, if you really want to get them noticed). I'm not going to suggest "Watching me" or "Favorite this journal" for bonus points/requirements, so don't worry. You can find the sites I'm on here:
FurAffinity: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10134655/
SoFurry/YiffStar: https://www.sofurry.com/view/1820686
InkBunny: https://inkbunny.net/j/445975-Barta.....tag-stic-2022-
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/journal/1688.....-tag-stic-2022
The contest will close on my Birthday (16th of March), giving me about two weeks to work something out. No promises, because fish can happen during those times (like PC problems or internet crapping out) but I'll do my best. However, I'm going to need YOUR help with it as well! Show me that you care about these things and it'll be a yearly (maybe even Bi-yearly) thing. If I do not get 5 entries across ALL sites [Just a total of 5, not 20], the contest and likely all future ones will be canceled.
That's about it. You've got a month to think of something, don't let me down guys
~Bartan
Update+Reminder: October/"Halloween" Story Contest + Movi...
Posted 4 years agoHere's your reminder for that contest. You can find the journals and all the rules here:
FurAffinity - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9950260/
SoFurry - https://www.sofurry.com/view/1749011
Weasyl - https://www.weasyl.com/journal/1670.....contest-moving
Inkbunny - https://inkbunny.net/j/430327-Barta.....contest-moving
With that out of the way, moving is... Taking longer and more effort than I expected. So writing has slowed down- but hasn't stopped. I currently have two things on the go, might even squeeze in a third before tackling that Contest piece. We'll see. But regardless, I just wanted to mention that I'm still alive and doing well. The new place is great, but having some difficulties wrapping everything up.
I'll be fine though. If you haven't already, feel free to look into that contest and throw some tags my way. There's only a handful at the moment and I'd like to see more to work with.
Stay safe and well 🧡
~Bartan
FurAffinity - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9950260/
SoFurry - https://www.sofurry.com/view/1749011
Weasyl - https://www.weasyl.com/journal/1670.....contest-moving
Inkbunny - https://inkbunny.net/j/430327-Barta.....contest-moving
With that out of the way, moving is... Taking longer and more effort than I expected. So writing has slowed down- but hasn't stopped. I currently have two things on the go, might even squeeze in a third before tackling that Contest piece. We'll see. But regardless, I just wanted to mention that I'm still alive and doing well. The new place is great, but having some difficulties wrapping everything up.
I'll be fine though. If you haven't already, feel free to look into that contest and throw some tags my way. There's only a handful at the moment and I'd like to see more to work with.
Stay safe and well 🧡
~Bartan
[Closed] October/"Halloween" Story Contest + Moving
Posted 4 years agoEdit, Oct 2nd:
Closing the contest. I left it up for another day, but still didn't quite get the 5 posts I was hoping for.
I'll still strongly consider making it regardless, but odds are... That's going to be a steady requirement for future events like this.
I'm not really sure what happened. There was plenty of time for posts (two months in advance), but...
Anyway, thanks to those 3 who ended up filling something out. I'll see what I can come up with.
Yeah, that's why things have been a little bit quiet from my side. Summer has gotten to me and am now making arrangements to move in a couple of weeks. The move is good news, I was doing fine here in the city, but I miss the countryside. The place that was offered is honestly perfect and peaceful, so I'm looking forwards to it ^^ Things might still be a little bit quiet from my side (still working on two different stories, no idea when they'll be done) but I am still trying to get things done.
Which brings us to the second bit of this journal: The Halloween Contest. Much like the April Fools one of 2021: I'm going to try to write a story using keywords that you people suggest. However, instead of just choosing 5 of the most popular ones, I'm going to try to cram almost all of the ones you suggest*
The rules are:
-Comment on this journal, or one from a different site of mine, and suggest up to 5 keywords you would like to see (fetishes, genders, activities, positions, maybe locations). The more creative, the more it'll probably spark something for me. An Example: Straight, Bondage, Gambling, Beach, Doggy Style/Mounting. They don't have to completely make sense (that's kinda my job >>;)
-Try to refrain from suggesting actual Characters (Spyro, Renamon, "Your OC"), because I'm probably not going to use them.
*-I'll try to use all the tags suggested in a single story, but there are just some I either don't wish to do, or just don't enjoy. For example, I'm not into Vore, but I'll give it a shot like before. However, I detest Diaper, so that is a no-go. Same with Human- UNLESS it's mixed with Transformation. Then... I'll TRY to accept "Human" for that one thing. But I really really find Humans boring. Overall, I will have final say on what makes it into the story, but I'm going to try to throw in as much as I possibly can.
-At the beginning of October, I'll probably close this contest and see if I can get something done for Halloween. It doesn't have to be "Halloween/Scary/Spooky" themed, it's just something I'm going to throw out there because people enjoyed April's so much. That'll give me a full month to attempt to put together a story of whatever you suggest. It's likely that it will be it's own little thing/not a continuation of April's story (Look At What You Made Me Do), but it is possible. I'll try my best to make something entertaining, regardless.
-Just like the last one, you are able to suggest more on other journal posts (or even the same ones, if you really want to get them noticed). I'm not going to suggest "Watching me" or "Favorite this journal" for bonus points/requirements, so don't worry. You can find the sites I'm on here:
FurAffinity: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/dexdor/
SoFurry/YiffStar: https://bartan.sofurry.com/
InkBunny: https://inkbunny.net/Bartan
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/~Bartan
That's just about it. You've got close to 2 full months to think of stuff to suggest ideas you would like to see. And me plenty of time to get settled into the new home situation. If there's any questions, ask away and I will place them below here (while answering them, of course). Until then, good luck out there <3~
Closing the contest. I left it up for another day, but still didn't quite get the 5 posts I was hoping for.
I'll still strongly consider making it regardless, but odds are... That's going to be a steady requirement for future events like this.
I'm not really sure what happened. There was plenty of time for posts (two months in advance), but...
Anyway, thanks to those 3 who ended up filling something out. I'll see what I can come up with.
Yeah, that's why things have been a little bit quiet from my side. Summer has gotten to me and am now making arrangements to move in a couple of weeks. The move is good news, I was doing fine here in the city, but I miss the countryside. The place that was offered is honestly perfect and peaceful, so I'm looking forwards to it ^^ Things might still be a little bit quiet from my side (still working on two different stories, no idea when they'll be done) but I am still trying to get things done.
Which brings us to the second bit of this journal: The Halloween Contest. Much like the April Fools one of 2021: I'm going to try to write a story using keywords that you people suggest. However, instead of just choosing 5 of the most popular ones, I'm going to try to cram almost all of the ones you suggest*
The rules are:
-Comment on this journal, or one from a different site of mine, and suggest up to 5 keywords you would like to see (fetishes, genders, activities, positions, maybe locations). The more creative, the more it'll probably spark something for me. An Example: Straight, Bondage, Gambling, Beach, Doggy Style/Mounting. They don't have to completely make sense (that's kinda my job >>;)
-Try to refrain from suggesting actual Characters (Spyro, Renamon, "Your OC"), because I'm probably not going to use them.
*-I'll try to use all the tags suggested in a single story, but there are just some I either don't wish to do, or just don't enjoy. For example, I'm not into Vore, but I'll give it a shot like before. However, I detest Diaper, so that is a no-go. Same with Human- UNLESS it's mixed with Transformation. Then... I'll TRY to accept "Human" for that one thing. But I really really find Humans boring. Overall, I will have final say on what makes it into the story, but I'm going to try to throw in as much as I possibly can.
-At the beginning of October, I'll probably close this contest and see if I can get something done for Halloween. It doesn't have to be "Halloween/Scary/Spooky" themed, it's just something I'm going to throw out there because people enjoyed April's so much. That'll give me a full month to attempt to put together a story of whatever you suggest. It's likely that it will be it's own little thing/not a continuation of April's story (Look At What You Made Me Do), but it is possible. I'll try my best to make something entertaining, regardless.
-Just like the last one, you are able to suggest more on other journal posts (or even the same ones, if you really want to get them noticed). I'm not going to suggest "Watching me" or "Favorite this journal" for bonus points/requirements, so don't worry. You can find the sites I'm on here:
FurAffinity: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/dexdor/
SoFurry/YiffStar: https://bartan.sofurry.com/
InkBunny: https://inkbunny.net/Bartan
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/~Bartan
That's just about it. You've got close to 2 full months to think of stuff to suggest ideas you would like to see. And me plenty of time to get settled into the new home situation. If there's any questions, ask away and I will place them below here (while answering them, of course). Until then, good luck out there <3~
Signal Boosting (Blender issues + contest reminder)
Posted 4 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9807162/
A dear friend of mine is having issues with Blender, specifically with the "fur/hair" method featured in it. The two of us have at least narrowed it down to 'it not being his machine', but we're kinda stumped otherwise. If you're familiar with Blender, feel free to look at Jinx's journal or even talk with him, because it's something that has plagued his progress for quite some time.
Aside from that, here's a reminder for my April Fools Contest Thingy. I've only gotten 6 out of the 7 Required suggestions from others or on different sites so far, and you've got one week until that "expires." If no one else speaks up, I'll cancel it.
Read more about it, including it's terms, here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9784118/
Don't let me down guys,
~Bartan
A dear friend of mine is having issues with Blender, specifically with the "fur/hair" method featured in it. The two of us have at least narrowed it down to 'it not being his machine', but we're kinda stumped otherwise. If you're familiar with Blender, feel free to look at Jinx's journal or even talk with him, because it's something that has plagued his progress for quite some time.
Aside from that, here's a reminder for my April Fools Contest Thingy. I've only gotten 6 out of the 7 Required suggestions from others or on different sites so far, and you've got one week until that "expires." If no one else speaks up, I'll cancel it.
Read more about it, including it's terms, here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9784118/
Don't let me down guys,
~Bartan
April Fools Contest Thingy (Successful, Complete!)
Posted 4 years agoEdit (April 1st): It's posted! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/41281650/
Edit (Mar 16th): Alright, closing it now. Thank you for the suggestions, I'll start working on it tomorrow.
Edit (Mar 11th): I've gotten enough entries, but feel free to add some in before the 16th of March.
...Creative title, I know. But I'm not really sure what else to call it and I'm not that good of a show-bear/ringmaster >>; And no, I'm not dressing up for the part
Real quick before we get to the contest thingy, just a little reminder that it is my birthday on the 16th of March. I still don't like it, but I'm trying to be 'better' about it to perhaps turn those feelings around. If you were planning on something or just want to wish me a happy one, there's your reminder.
Now onto the "Contest". For the past couple of years I tried to do something different for April Fools; that is something not "Dickish". The first (Somethere Out Where - Death To You Love) was just a joke about how I tend to replace words that make me cringe and taking that concept too far. That story barely got noticed at all.
The next was Gotta Be Somebody, my first and only Vore story to this day. And that one did surprisingly well. It's not my fetish in the slightest, but I'm glad people liked it.
The third (last year's) was... Clouds Over California?
*checks*
Yeah, Clouds Over California. Basically a Kaiju, Macro, Building Destruction and Sexing piece that nobody asked for. It didn't do well either >>; (I can't imagine why)
Anyway, this year I'm going to kinda do something perhaps fun if I can get enough participation: I'm going to ask people for... Less "ideas" and more just "Keywords" for me to cram together into a story. (The more I'm typing this out, the more I'm regretting it) I'll try my best to make it 'not a joke story' but I'm only mortal >>;
Now, I'm not going to ask you to "watch me" or "Favorite This Journal" or some other crap like that. But I am going to have to ask you for a comment on this journal, whereas I'd like you to leave up to five keywords in a comment here. Like so:
-Vore
-Male
-Size Difference
-Male/Herm
-Minor Inflation
Just 5 things (mostly fetishes, try not to include actual characters like Spyro or Renamon) that you'd like to see, and by the time of my Birthday- If I remember >>; -I'll choose the five most suggested. Now, I'll only count one comment per journal, but also per Site as well. Meaning this will be posted on 4 different ones, so you can have up to four entries:
FurAffinity: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/dexdor/
SoFurry/YiffStar: https://bartan.sofurry.com/
InkBunny: https://inkbunny.net/Bartan
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/~Bartan
However, this really depends on people actually participating. And if I get less than 7 comments across ALL sites by the 16th, then I'm just going to cancel it. That's less than two people putting in the effort to provide suggestions. Work together (or don't) and you can meet this comically low bar.
Aside from that, I will have final say about which tags go into the story. For example, I'm not into Vore, but I'll give it a shot like before. However, I detest Diaper, so that is a no-go. Same with Human- UNLESS it's mixed with Transformation. Then... I'll accept "Human" for that one thing.
I thought this would be fun/interesting, don't let me down guys.
...Also >>; Please don't make me regret this too badly.
~Bartan
Edit (Mar 16th): Alright, closing it now. Thank you for the suggestions, I'll start working on it tomorrow.
Edit (Mar 11th): I've gotten enough entries, but feel free to add some in before the 16th of March.
...Creative title, I know. But I'm not really sure what else to call it and I'm not that good of a show-bear/ringmaster >>; And no, I'm not dressing up for the part
Real quick before we get to the contest thingy, just a little reminder that it is my birthday on the 16th of March. I still don't like it, but I'm trying to be 'better' about it to perhaps turn those feelings around. If you were planning on something or just want to wish me a happy one, there's your reminder.
Now onto the "Contest". For the past couple of years I tried to do something different for April Fools; that is something not "Dickish". The first (Somethere Out Where - Death To You Love) was just a joke about how I tend to replace words that make me cringe and taking that concept too far. That story barely got noticed at all.
The next was Gotta Be Somebody, my first and only Vore story to this day. And that one did surprisingly well. It's not my fetish in the slightest, but I'm glad people liked it.
The third (last year's) was... Clouds Over California?
*checks*
Yeah, Clouds Over California. Basically a Kaiju, Macro, Building Destruction and Sexing piece that nobody asked for. It didn't do well either >>; (I can't imagine why)
Anyway, this year I'm going to kinda do something perhaps fun if I can get enough participation: I'm going to ask people for... Less "ideas" and more just "Keywords" for me to cram together into a story. (The more I'm typing this out, the more I'm regretting it) I'll try my best to make it 'not a joke story' but I'm only mortal >>;
Now, I'm not going to ask you to "watch me" or "Favorite This Journal" or some other crap like that. But I am going to have to ask you for a comment on this journal, whereas I'd like you to leave up to five keywords in a comment here. Like so:
-Vore
-Male
-Size Difference
-Male/Herm
-Minor Inflation
Just 5 things (mostly fetishes, try not to include actual characters like Spyro or Renamon) that you'd like to see, and by the time of my Birthday- If I remember >>; -I'll choose the five most suggested. Now, I'll only count one comment per journal, but also per Site as well. Meaning this will be posted on 4 different ones, so you can have up to four entries:
FurAffinity: https://www.furaffinity.net/user/dexdor/
SoFurry/YiffStar: https://bartan.sofurry.com/
InkBunny: https://inkbunny.net/Bartan
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/~Bartan
However, this really depends on people actually participating. And if I get less than 7 comments across ALL sites by the 16th, then I'm just going to cancel it. That's less than two people putting in the effort to provide suggestions. Work together (or don't) and you can meet this comically low bar.
Aside from that, I will have final say about which tags go into the story. For example, I'm not into Vore, but I'll give it a shot like before. However, I detest Diaper, so that is a no-go. Same with Human- UNLESS it's mixed with Transformation. Then... I'll accept "Human" for that one thing.
I thought this would be fun/interesting, don't let me down guys.
...Also >>; Please don't make me regret this too badly.
~Bartan
Changes
Posted 5 years agoTLDR: It's time for some changes. I'm going to drastically cut back on my writing from here on out. I doubt I'll completely stop, but it's going to be reduced to likely a few pieces a year instead of "one per month".
Long Version + Excuses:
...I'm tired. Holy fuck, I'm so tired. This year has been heavy for a lot of people, I know. But it has taken a significant toll on me lately. Most of you may know of my fatigue condition, and well... It's been getting worse over the years. It seems everytime there's a tragedy in my life, it gets cranked up a few knotches. As you can imagine that me losing my mother, home for the past decade, the last birthday present I got her (pet bird), and having to leave a lot of things behind... On top of the pandemic and just... freaking "2020"...
I just don't have the energy to keep doing this. I don't have the will to write at minimum of 30 pages every month. I've been writing for seven years, and I... Can't find a reason to continue doing so, not one that appeals. And yes, I've gone through the basics:
-Write For Your Fans: You have no idea how hard this is, specifically when time and time again these submissions are left comment-less. Giving the impression that no one reads these things- and I don't mean "no comments 10 seconds after it's been posted". It's often years before people even see these things or even decide to say something about it. And by then... It's almost too late, because it felt like someone else got the credit for it, not "current you."
-Write For Your Mental Health: This is a double edged sword. Sure, sometimes I do feel good writing certain pieces, usually the ones that actually don't have any sex in them. But the disappointment when they flop... It's just not worth it. It makes me feel so much worse, and on top of that; I just wasted sometimes months of writing on something no one even glances at.
-Write For Yourself: This... Doesn't work. Mostly because I have ENOUGH. And I've honestly haven't been able to read back through a lot of the recent two year's worth due to feeling like "I should be using this time to write new content." Once in a while? Yeah, it can work for a little while. But it runs into the same issues as the two above, and I question whether or not it's been worth the time & effort spent doing it in the first place.
...Maybe it's just a phase, but right now... I'm just tired. Tired of the circles, tired of the gambles that never work in my favor. Tired of spending hours upon hours of my time attempting to keep a dead media alive with my mediocre writing.
But I won't be "Quitting" specifically. Just reducing it from being a "way of work" back down to a "Hobby without limitations/deadlines". However, I don't know how much of it will be... 'Story Material'. Odds are it'll just be small sessions here and there, because apparently that's what 95% of people care about. Not saying that the others out there don't exist, especially when it comes to the Waiting For Tonight series, but... This was only a matter of time regardless.
Sorry for making your 2020 worse
~Bartan
Long Version + Excuses:
...I'm tired. Holy fuck, I'm so tired. This year has been heavy for a lot of people, I know. But it has taken a significant toll on me lately. Most of you may know of my fatigue condition, and well... It's been getting worse over the years. It seems everytime there's a tragedy in my life, it gets cranked up a few knotches. As you can imagine that me losing my mother, home for the past decade, the last birthday present I got her (pet bird), and having to leave a lot of things behind... On top of the pandemic and just... freaking "2020"...
I just don't have the energy to keep doing this. I don't have the will to write at minimum of 30 pages every month. I've been writing for seven years, and I... Can't find a reason to continue doing so, not one that appeals. And yes, I've gone through the basics:
-Write For Your Fans: You have no idea how hard this is, specifically when time and time again these submissions are left comment-less. Giving the impression that no one reads these things- and I don't mean "no comments 10 seconds after it's been posted". It's often years before people even see these things or even decide to say something about it. And by then... It's almost too late, because it felt like someone else got the credit for it, not "current you."
-Write For Your Mental Health: This is a double edged sword. Sure, sometimes I do feel good writing certain pieces, usually the ones that actually don't have any sex in them. But the disappointment when they flop... It's just not worth it. It makes me feel so much worse, and on top of that; I just wasted sometimes months of writing on something no one even glances at.
-Write For Yourself: This... Doesn't work. Mostly because I have ENOUGH. And I've honestly haven't been able to read back through a lot of the recent two year's worth due to feeling like "I should be using this time to write new content." Once in a while? Yeah, it can work for a little while. But it runs into the same issues as the two above, and I question whether or not it's been worth the time & effort spent doing it in the first place.
...Maybe it's just a phase, but right now... I'm just tired. Tired of the circles, tired of the gambles that never work in my favor. Tired of spending hours upon hours of my time attempting to keep a dead media alive with my mediocre writing.
But I won't be "Quitting" specifically. Just reducing it from being a "way of work" back down to a "Hobby without limitations/deadlines". However, I don't know how much of it will be... 'Story Material'. Odds are it'll just be small sessions here and there, because apparently that's what 95% of people care about. Not saying that the others out there don't exist, especially when it comes to the Waiting For Tonight series, but... This was only a matter of time regardless.
Sorry for making your 2020 worse
~Bartan
Moving On
Posted 5 years agoJust a small update: after the death of my mother, I ended up moving in with a close friend. Unable to upkeep the house with my low income, even with any inheritance (something that would just be drained quickly). I needed to get out of there anyway, too many memories that were just... Haunting me.
The move itself wasn't terrible, but the previous roommate left behind one Hell of a mess. I honestly don't blame her (current roommate) for unable to clean such a thing, let alone after getting the same damn illness me and my mother were plagued with. So after I moved on the 22nd, I spent the past week cleaning with her. We're still not done, due to the garbage truck not coming on the previous Friday to empty the dumpster (and our living room was freaking PACKED with garbage bags).
We didn't have a lot of room to work with, including some place to set up my computer with all the stains on the floor. I barely had a place to sleep, needing to use the tarp that was used to move my bed underneath the mattress so it wouldn't get that horribly stained. I think I worked more this week than I ever had, especially in the cleaning department. We're not done yet, but... Something 'Good' might come out of this.
Regardless, that's why I disappeared for several days: packing, cleaning, unpacking, and getting organized. I don't have the best setup currently, but it's enough to start writing again. Little by little, things will start to feel normal, and though I am having some rough times (like when one of my birds died last Thursday), rough memories... I'm doing alright. Considering.
Your bear will be back to work soon <3
~Bartan
The move itself wasn't terrible, but the previous roommate left behind one Hell of a mess. I honestly don't blame her (current roommate) for unable to clean such a thing, let alone after getting the same damn illness me and my mother were plagued with. So after I moved on the 22nd, I spent the past week cleaning with her. We're still not done, due to the garbage truck not coming on the previous Friday to empty the dumpster (and our living room was freaking PACKED with garbage bags).
We didn't have a lot of room to work with, including some place to set up my computer with all the stains on the floor. I barely had a place to sleep, needing to use the tarp that was used to move my bed underneath the mattress so it wouldn't get that horribly stained. I think I worked more this week than I ever had, especially in the cleaning department. We're not done yet, but... Something 'Good' might come out of this.
Regardless, that's why I disappeared for several days: packing, cleaning, unpacking, and getting organized. I don't have the best setup currently, but it's enough to start writing again. Little by little, things will start to feel normal, and though I am having some rough times (like when one of my birds died last Thursday), rough memories... I'm doing alright. Considering.
Your bear will be back to work soon <3
~Bartan
I'll Be Fine (thank you~)
Posted 6 years agoAs expected, things are still a little on the busy side for me. There's a lot to sort out and it can get overwhelming from time to time. But I mostly wanted to make this journal to say thank you to everyone who gave me support from the last entry. I mean it when I say that for the previous 3 deaths I had to deal with over/near a decade ago had maybe 10% of the support you guys gave me this week.
So really, thank you from the bottom of this bear's heart for that <3
It really did mean the world to me to see just how many people responded~
I'll Be Fine. It'll take time, but I'll Be Just Fine <3
Your Bear,
~Bartan
So really, thank you from the bottom of this bear's heart for that <3
It really did mean the world to me to see just how many people responded~
I'll Be Fine. It'll take time, but I'll Be Just Fine <3
Your Bear,
~Bartan
Buried In These Walls
Posted 6 years agoFeb 8th, 8:30am
...This is hard. Holy fuck this is hard for me to make.
I don't share too much of my personal life online. There's a few things I am okay with others knowing because it helps explain my behavior. And there's several things that I would never release because of many personal issues with them, one being my real name. But my "At-Home" situation I've been on and off about. Not because I'm ashamed, specifically, but more that it took... A lot of explaining and understanding of what I've been through, which takes even more and even more, etc.
This is why I've usually kept in the down-low about me living with my parents. Well, 'Parent', whereas me and my mother were taking care of my father until he passed in 2012. A couple years before I started writing or doing anything on this site. And for a long time it was me and my mother dealing with whatever was on our plates year after year. Sometimes it was nearby sinkholes, other times it was personal stuff. But we were always together.
I'm skipping a lot of jazz to not waste your time, but we've been through a lot together. While everyone else left (kind of how children are supposed to), I stayed behind to make sure my mother was alright. And when my Fatigue started to become a much larger problem, we helped each other out through the harder times. Though I may have relied on her a little too much in my life.
You can see where this is going; we both got sick a week ago. Terribly sick. I was able to barely get up and down the stairs, lightheaded and weak. While she was bedridden. I did what I could, but when she started to get very bad stomach pains, we called an ambulance. That was on Thursday morning, and later that afternoon she had a rupture in her bowel.
She passed away Saturday morning, due to many different things. Mostly from the fact that some of her organs were becoming Necrotic or starting to decay. I'm not a doctor/nurse/medical student, so I won't butcher any explanations here. It's hardly important.
Why am I writing this then?
Because I lost someone beyond important to me, and I am going to have to take some time to figure things out. Where I'm going to live, what I'm going to do about this house that I clearly cannot take care of by myself. I've got a few ideas, but I don't think I'll be doing any writing for a while. Sorry, I know there's been some of you that are waiting for the next act in a series or two. But this is far more devastating than I ever expected it to be. While losing two of my sisters within 2 years, and my father were little shakes in my life; losing my mother was like a meteor impact that leveled everything.
But I'll... I'll try my best here to stay alive. As much as I just want to abandon all hope of ever feeling safe again and just follow her, I owe her that much to at least Try. But I'll need time.
Farewell Charlotte: another superhero that this world lost.
Your bear will be fine~
...Even if he just set the shop vacuum on fire today attempting to clean the pellet stove.
Birthday
Posted 6 years ago ...Yeah, we'll get to that. But first, I need to explain a few things. So bear with me, because this is... This is going to be quite the ride.
I have been trying the past year or two to change things in my life. To attempt it make it better, more comfortable to live in. Whether it's opening up to other people about interests or admitting that I admire who they are, what they do, etc. Even more physical/real life changes like exercises, finally getting disability so I can support and treat my sciatica. I've been trying. It's not easy, but I have been trying.
This is just another thing I've attempted, because I don't see birthdays in the same light as you likely do. We'll get to that more in a few minutes, but I need you to see it the way I do before we go further. And in order to do that, you need to know some truths about me, ones that were hidden in other pieces of writing that were almost never read.
I'll start with an obvious one; I didn't grow up wealthy. This isn't uncommon among people, I know, but it is a large factor when it comes to these 'Holidays' of yours. While other families were getting 10+ presents at Christmas or something, we were lucky enough to get 2. To put things in more perspective; in a family of six (2 over-worked parents, and 4 children) I came last. And I don't mean in terms of presents or whatever, I mean that when it came time to afford things that you might consider to be a STANDARD of living: A vehicle of their own, Driver's Ed/Permit/License, Having their Wisdom Teeth Removed before they caused problems. Medication, Your own Cellphone/Smartphone, A Collage/University Savings Plan... I Came Last.
To say those budgets ran dry is an understatement. So when it came time to learn how to drive, we couldn't afford it. When it came time for me to move on out of the house, I wouldn't have any support. When it came time to have my first job, there was little to no work. And that was before this Chronic Fatigue fish [Fish = replacement curseword] set in. Knowing I wasn't going to have a damn chance out there, I decided to give it all up. Sacrifice my health, my education, my future just so my family could SURVIVE.
You might be able to see where this is going; within that list is Holidays as well. Including Birthdays. At the age of 11 or 12, I honestly can't remember anymore at this point it's been too long, I had my last Birthday. Basically my last Easter, Halloween, Christmas that you might even consider mandatory right now. It wasn't even a thing I was asked to do, people just couldn't afford to do it or just forgot about it. Rather than just be disappointed again and again, I just told everyone to act like it no longer existed.
I hid it from the world the best I could, from my friends, peers, and pretty much identity. Unless it was required to be put down, I would just avoid the topic. It came to the point where it felt like I didn't DESERVE such a thing, and that anyone going out of their way to do anything for it just made me drastically uncomfortable. Like standing in a bonfire. To be in the presence of someone's birthday just hurt, for it to be my own... I would often just act so angry or pissed off that people would just leave me alone during the day.
It came common knowledge after a while: "Don't bother Bartan during the middle of March. Don't get him anything, he won't like it. Don't try anything nice, he might see it as an attack." And people, though not quite understanding (who could blame them?), at least respected enough to leave it well enough alone.
There's more to it than this, but I'm attempting to keep this short. And we still have two more points to go through.
...March is a horrible month for me. The birthday thing doesn't help, but March is the month that enjoys tattooing a target sign on my furballs and proceed to test how well it's aim has kept up over the years. Some of the worst things in my life happen in or around March, and these are not easy to swallow when you're trying to keep a positive outlook on life. To keep looking on the bright side when one of your sisters commits suicide days before that Fishing day. When you get an abscess in your cheek and have to deal with some of the worst pain imaginable, because you can't afford to get it checked out. When your hometown completely floods and is nearly destroyed. When your bastard of a father dies, one that you've taken care of for the past fourteen years. And those last three? All In One FISHING MONTH.
Yeah. To say that I Hate March is an understatement. I... 'Mega-Loathe' it, and you can't expect me to be happy or contentful during the worst month of the year. When my beloved winter ends and I'm left with 18 months of summer... But I'm TRYING. Trying to change for the better. Last year wasn't so bad, but it just came later as a break-up.
...Point three. Some of you already know this, but about two years ago I was diagnosed with SPD: Schizoid Personality Disorder. Not to be confused with Schizophrenia, which is more paranoia. The best way I could describe SPD is; I'm not human. Biologically, yes, but mentally... I might as well be from Mars/off-world. Human society and their habits are so over my head that I just don't understand them.
Again, you might see where this is going. I have a hard time 'acting' human. Sure, I can be a decent person to you, that's just being respectful. But to socialize with another person is 10x harder for me to do, to read them is difficult without some sort of help (again; those who know me know who I'm talking about). Actually, a decent way of saying SPD is "Extreme Introversion", or the "Loner Disorder".
It's no surprise that when I see other people get excited about such events or holidays that I just... Can't understand them. I see people going out of their way to do something for someone else and seem... HAPPY about it. Get that Happy reaction, and it's actually Genuine. It's such an alien reaction to me that I can't even fathom it, and it's a prime example of where this disorder hits so damn hard. All I can think is "HOW!?!? How do you...!?" This isn't because the gifts are bad, or that these people don't deserve them- NOTHING like that. Trust me. I just see... These 'Holidays' different. Negative. Hurtful, rather than joyful.
Mix this damn way of thinking with a custom I still don't understand (Birthdays) and the worst month of the year for me, you get one hell of a cocktail. A period of ultra self-loathing, distancing myself away from others, and turtling up without knowing how to "ask for help". It's a swarm of negative emotions from the past that constantly resurface, self bashing, and debating on just removing everyone from my friends list on all platforms. Erase every damn story I wrote because they're nothing more than a waste of people's seconds. Go on an entire media blackout and delete every fishing account I ever had, because "Bartan" doesn't deserve them. He doesn't deserve a birthday, an annual holiday to celebrate what BS he's put up with over the 1 billion seconds he's been alive. He doesn't deserve to be happy.
BUT I AM TRYING TO CHANGE. It's Not Easy For Me, But I've Been TRYING! A few days ago, there was a journal released on FA that publicly announced that damned anniversary of mine, something I didn't post (believe such or not). So I might as well add another change on that list... I've already had the worst Fish-storms in my life behind me, there's not much else March can take away.
However, if you're going to do anything to turn this recurring natural disaster around, please keep in mind a few things:
#1 - No surprises. I don't find them grand or magical, and one of the Worst things you can do to me in this 31 day window is just ASSUME what I'm going to like. I will surprise you. That doesn't mean that you can't save it's progress until the day of Reckoning, just consult me about it first. What you see as likely a tradition, I see as disrespectful.
#2 - Expect a Struggle. You need to understand that I'm programed to feel like I don't deserve anything for this day, and would much rather have it forgotten than even mentioned. I will get uncomfortable, I will sometimes even try to change the subject. However, if this happens, I want you to say: "Bartan. Take your chocolate and go back to Australia." I will at least know that you've read this god damn mess and at least somewhat understand.
#3 - Dates/Traditions Don't Mean Anything to Me. You want to send it a day earlier, whatever. Three weeks late? Whatever. I'm not picky about this jazz, take as long as you want. Because if you're losing sleep/wasting your time over this, then I'm just going to feel even worse about myself. Then cue more self-castigation.
*Deep Breaths* I'm a crappy human being, I know that. At least now I have a reason why I've always felt more attuned to those non-human, let alone grew up to be a misanthrope. I know I haven't gotten a lot of progress done on my writings lately, but I can't promise you that I'll get something during this hell. If I disappear for a while, am not seen for quite some time, or don't respond to you/your messages... It just means the month got the better of me (again) and I'm just attempting to cope. But I'm Trying To Change...
March 16th. Do Your Fucking Worst, You Fucking Month. Every Scar Will Build My Throne.
Your Bear,
~Bartan
I have been trying the past year or two to change things in my life. To attempt it make it better, more comfortable to live in. Whether it's opening up to other people about interests or admitting that I admire who they are, what they do, etc. Even more physical/real life changes like exercises, finally getting disability so I can support and treat my sciatica. I've been trying. It's not easy, but I have been trying.
This is just another thing I've attempted, because I don't see birthdays in the same light as you likely do. We'll get to that more in a few minutes, but I need you to see it the way I do before we go further. And in order to do that, you need to know some truths about me, ones that were hidden in other pieces of writing that were almost never read.
I'll start with an obvious one; I didn't grow up wealthy. This isn't uncommon among people, I know, but it is a large factor when it comes to these 'Holidays' of yours. While other families were getting 10+ presents at Christmas or something, we were lucky enough to get 2. To put things in more perspective; in a family of six (2 over-worked parents, and 4 children) I came last. And I don't mean in terms of presents or whatever, I mean that when it came time to afford things that you might consider to be a STANDARD of living: A vehicle of their own, Driver's Ed/Permit/License, Having their Wisdom Teeth Removed before they caused problems. Medication, Your own Cellphone/Smartphone, A Collage/University Savings Plan... I Came Last.
To say those budgets ran dry is an understatement. So when it came time to learn how to drive, we couldn't afford it. When it came time for me to move on out of the house, I wouldn't have any support. When it came time to have my first job, there was little to no work. And that was before this Chronic Fatigue fish [Fish = replacement curseword] set in. Knowing I wasn't going to have a damn chance out there, I decided to give it all up. Sacrifice my health, my education, my future just so my family could SURVIVE.
You might be able to see where this is going; within that list is Holidays as well. Including Birthdays. At the age of 11 or 12, I honestly can't remember anymore at this point it's been too long, I had my last Birthday. Basically my last Easter, Halloween, Christmas that you might even consider mandatory right now. It wasn't even a thing I was asked to do, people just couldn't afford to do it or just forgot about it. Rather than just be disappointed again and again, I just told everyone to act like it no longer existed.
I hid it from the world the best I could, from my friends, peers, and pretty much identity. Unless it was required to be put down, I would just avoid the topic. It came to the point where it felt like I didn't DESERVE such a thing, and that anyone going out of their way to do anything for it just made me drastically uncomfortable. Like standing in a bonfire. To be in the presence of someone's birthday just hurt, for it to be my own... I would often just act so angry or pissed off that people would just leave me alone during the day.
It came common knowledge after a while: "Don't bother Bartan during the middle of March. Don't get him anything, he won't like it. Don't try anything nice, he might see it as an attack." And people, though not quite understanding (who could blame them?), at least respected enough to leave it well enough alone.
There's more to it than this, but I'm attempting to keep this short. And we still have two more points to go through.
...March is a horrible month for me. The birthday thing doesn't help, but March is the month that enjoys tattooing a target sign on my furballs and proceed to test how well it's aim has kept up over the years. Some of the worst things in my life happen in or around March, and these are not easy to swallow when you're trying to keep a positive outlook on life. To keep looking on the bright side when one of your sisters commits suicide days before that Fishing day. When you get an abscess in your cheek and have to deal with some of the worst pain imaginable, because you can't afford to get it checked out. When your hometown completely floods and is nearly destroyed. When your bastard of a father dies, one that you've taken care of for the past fourteen years. And those last three? All In One FISHING MONTH.
Yeah. To say that I Hate March is an understatement. I... 'Mega-Loathe' it, and you can't expect me to be happy or contentful during the worst month of the year. When my beloved winter ends and I'm left with 18 months of summer... But I'm TRYING. Trying to change for the better. Last year wasn't so bad, but it just came later as a break-up.
...Point three. Some of you already know this, but about two years ago I was diagnosed with SPD: Schizoid Personality Disorder. Not to be confused with Schizophrenia, which is more paranoia. The best way I could describe SPD is; I'm not human. Biologically, yes, but mentally... I might as well be from Mars/off-world. Human society and their habits are so over my head that I just don't understand them.
Again, you might see where this is going. I have a hard time 'acting' human. Sure, I can be a decent person to you, that's just being respectful. But to socialize with another person is 10x harder for me to do, to read them is difficult without some sort of help (again; those who know me know who I'm talking about). Actually, a decent way of saying SPD is "Extreme Introversion", or the "Loner Disorder".
It's no surprise that when I see other people get excited about such events or holidays that I just... Can't understand them. I see people going out of their way to do something for someone else and seem... HAPPY about it. Get that Happy reaction, and it's actually Genuine. It's such an alien reaction to me that I can't even fathom it, and it's a prime example of where this disorder hits so damn hard. All I can think is "HOW!?!? How do you...!?" This isn't because the gifts are bad, or that these people don't deserve them- NOTHING like that. Trust me. I just see... These 'Holidays' different. Negative. Hurtful, rather than joyful.
Mix this damn way of thinking with a custom I still don't understand (Birthdays) and the worst month of the year for me, you get one hell of a cocktail. A period of ultra self-loathing, distancing myself away from others, and turtling up without knowing how to "ask for help". It's a swarm of negative emotions from the past that constantly resurface, self bashing, and debating on just removing everyone from my friends list on all platforms. Erase every damn story I wrote because they're nothing more than a waste of people's seconds. Go on an entire media blackout and delete every fishing account I ever had, because "Bartan" doesn't deserve them. He doesn't deserve a birthday, an annual holiday to celebrate what BS he's put up with over the 1 billion seconds he's been alive. He doesn't deserve to be happy.
BUT I AM TRYING TO CHANGE. It's Not Easy For Me, But I've Been TRYING! A few days ago, there was a journal released on FA that publicly announced that damned anniversary of mine, something I didn't post (believe such or not). So I might as well add another change on that list... I've already had the worst Fish-storms in my life behind me, there's not much else March can take away.
However, if you're going to do anything to turn this recurring natural disaster around, please keep in mind a few things:
#1 - No surprises. I don't find them grand or magical, and one of the Worst things you can do to me in this 31 day window is just ASSUME what I'm going to like. I will surprise you. That doesn't mean that you can't save it's progress until the day of Reckoning, just consult me about it first. What you see as likely a tradition, I see as disrespectful.
#2 - Expect a Struggle. You need to understand that I'm programed to feel like I don't deserve anything for this day, and would much rather have it forgotten than even mentioned. I will get uncomfortable, I will sometimes even try to change the subject. However, if this happens, I want you to say: "Bartan. Take your chocolate and go back to Australia." I will at least know that you've read this god damn mess and at least somewhat understand.
#3 - Dates/Traditions Don't Mean Anything to Me. You want to send it a day earlier, whatever. Three weeks late? Whatever. I'm not picky about this jazz, take as long as you want. Because if you're losing sleep/wasting your time over this, then I'm just going to feel even worse about myself. Then cue more self-castigation.
*Deep Breaths* I'm a crappy human being, I know that. At least now I have a reason why I've always felt more attuned to those non-human, let alone grew up to be a misanthrope. I know I haven't gotten a lot of progress done on my writings lately, but I can't promise you that I'll get something during this hell. If I disappear for a while, am not seen for quite some time, or don't respond to you/your messages... It just means the month got the better of me (again) and I'm just attempting to cope. But I'm Trying To Change...
March 16th. Do Your Fucking Worst, You Fucking Month. Every Scar Will Build My Throne.
Your Bear,
~Bartan
Prayer
Posted 7 years agoHello there,
You were likely directed to this journal by me to save me from needing to repeat myself towards every person I ever meet, likely after asking about some sort of social interaction. Be it adding me to discord, or some type of social media, etc. This isn't an automatic message to say "No" by any means, this is just me explaining a few things while saying "Maybe."
So! You know how some people are Introverts; meaning that they lose energy with social interaction and such? I have a condition that is an extreme version of that. My energy rapidly drains when I'm seeing someone in person, talking to them over the phone/chat, or even chatting with them via text. To explain how this happened is a long story, and I will not proceed to bore you with the details.
However, if you're given this link, I just want you to understand that when I give you something like my Discord address, do keep in mind that I only have so much energy. The more you drain it, the less I will have for other people, for work like my writings, to even just existing. I have been pushed into a near coma because of this before. It is a real issue that I've, my doctors, my counsellors, or my psychiatrist have yet to find a name for, and it has gotten to the point where I can no longer work. Meaning, I'm currently living off of disability due to this... "Chronic Fatigue".
This also means that travel is absolutely out of the question as well. Visiting people, or even having people visit Me is not healthy. Because after a couple of hours, my batteries are completely drained and I will likely have to spend the next few days [Literal: Days] attempting to rest it off. And full on relationships are sadly out of the question. If I don't talk for several days, sometimes even months (Literal: Months), it has nothing to do with you. I don't get mad/angry with people very often, and if there is really something wrong, I will talk to you about it (civilly as well, like a mature adult would). However, my 'social list' is already getting to the point where I can't really handle more. So if you can deal without, maybe that is for the best.
So, like with anything else, use me responsibly (that didn't come out right...) Because, as you probably know, you're not the only one who wants to talk/hang out/etc with me. There will be times when I say things like "Sorry, I'm just too tired to talk/play/stroke you off." And these are not because I'm lazy or that I do not want to see you, it's because of this damn condition that is getting worse.
Thank you for understanding. If you really want that "Origin Story" about this, feel free to ask.
Your bear,
~Bartan
Prayer © Disturbed
You were likely directed to this journal by me to save me from needing to repeat myself towards every person I ever meet, likely after asking about some sort of social interaction. Be it adding me to discord, or some type of social media, etc. This isn't an automatic message to say "No" by any means, this is just me explaining a few things while saying "Maybe."
So! You know how some people are Introverts; meaning that they lose energy with social interaction and such? I have a condition that is an extreme version of that. My energy rapidly drains when I'm seeing someone in person, talking to them over the phone/chat, or even chatting with them via text. To explain how this happened is a long story, and I will not proceed to bore you with the details.
However, if you're given this link, I just want you to understand that when I give you something like my Discord address, do keep in mind that I only have so much energy. The more you drain it, the less I will have for other people, for work like my writings, to even just existing. I have been pushed into a near coma because of this before. It is a real issue that I've, my doctors, my counsellors, or my psychiatrist have yet to find a name for, and it has gotten to the point where I can no longer work. Meaning, I'm currently living off of disability due to this... "Chronic Fatigue".
This also means that travel is absolutely out of the question as well. Visiting people, or even having people visit Me is not healthy. Because after a couple of hours, my batteries are completely drained and I will likely have to spend the next few days [Literal: Days] attempting to rest it off. And full on relationships are sadly out of the question. If I don't talk for several days, sometimes even months (Literal: Months), it has nothing to do with you. I don't get mad/angry with people very often, and if there is really something wrong, I will talk to you about it (civilly as well, like a mature adult would). However, my 'social list' is already getting to the point where I can't really handle more. So if you can deal without, maybe that is for the best.
So, like with anything else, use me responsibly (that didn't come out right...) Because, as you probably know, you're not the only one who wants to talk/hang out/etc with me. There will be times when I say things like "Sorry, I'm just too tired to talk/play/stroke you off." And these are not because I'm lazy or that I do not want to see you, it's because of this damn condition that is getting worse.
Thank you for understanding. If you really want that "Origin Story" about this, feel free to ask.
Your bear,
~Bartan
Prayer © Disturbed
Ask Me Anything (re-upload)
Posted 7 years agoSince I didn't get any questions so far, I was honestly just going to leave it at that and not do the AMA on this year's meta. But I understand people are busy and they have lives and such, let alone some new watchers come from time to time, so I'm uploading this again.
Any and all questions will be answered during it (along with the names of those who asked, if they wish. Just speak up/note me if you don't want your name to be mentioned). There's no limit to the amount of questions that can be asked, same with subject matter. Though do note that I don't usually hold back here, so if you're going to ask something about politics, for example, prepare to hurt. But the more light-hearted/silly questions are more fun.
Alright, back to work. Deadline for such a thing will likely be around November 25th (Does sound like quite a ways away, but that's the Sunday after this coming one!). Get them out!
Any and all questions will be answered during it (along with the names of those who asked, if they wish. Just speak up/note me if you don't want your name to be mentioned). There's no limit to the amount of questions that can be asked, same with subject matter. Though do note that I don't usually hold back here, so if you're going to ask something about politics, for example, prepare to hurt. But the more light-hearted/silly questions are more fun.
Alright, back to work. Deadline for such a thing will likely be around November 25th (Does sound like quite a ways away, but that's the Sunday after this coming one!). Get them out!
Ask Me Anything (100 Watchers!)
Posted 7 years ago...Huh.
I recently hit 100 watchers here on FA, which is significantly higher than any other site I'm on (second place is 41, then 31).
So, yeah... Thanks? I'm terrible when it comes to giving a reaction to things. But the attention is appreciated... Even if it took about 5 years and nearly 200 submissions >>;
I was thinking about doing something special for it, but I'm honestly A: a bit swamped, and B: kinda out of ideas for something Celebration focused. I do know that
JinxMontalgo ended up being my 100th, so I might do something special for him later.
Regardless! I think it's about time I put this year's Ask Me Anything for the upcoming Winter Meta. Any and all questions will be answered during it (along with the names of those who asked, if they wish. Just speak up/note me if you don't want your name to be mentioned). There's no limit to the amount of questions that can be asked, same with subject matter. Though do note that I don't usually hold back here, so if you're going to ask something about politics, for example, prepare to hurt. But the more light-hearted/silly questions are more fun.
Alright, back to work. Deadline for such a thing will likely be around November 25th. Get them out!
I recently hit 100 watchers here on FA, which is significantly higher than any other site I'm on (second place is 41, then 31).
So, yeah... Thanks? I'm terrible when it comes to giving a reaction to things. But the attention is appreciated... Even if it took about 5 years and nearly 200 submissions >>;
I was thinking about doing something special for it, but I'm honestly A: a bit swamped, and B: kinda out of ideas for something Celebration focused. I do know that
JinxMontalgo ended up being my 100th, so I might do something special for him later.Regardless! I think it's about time I put this year's Ask Me Anything for the upcoming Winter Meta. Any and all questions will be answered during it (along with the names of those who asked, if they wish. Just speak up/note me if you don't want your name to be mentioned). There's no limit to the amount of questions that can be asked, same with subject matter. Though do note that I don't usually hold back here, so if you're going to ask something about politics, for example, prepare to hurt. But the more light-hearted/silly questions are more fun.
Alright, back to work. Deadline for such a thing will likely be around November 25th. Get them out!
An Artist In Search Of A Partner
Posted 7 years agoJust spreading the word for a friend, 
avezola recently went Freelancing, and is searching for "Someone creative to share an office with." If you're in the Düsseldorf, Duisburg, Krefeld, Mönchengladbach etc. area(s) and are interested, look into her journal:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8776396/
Thank you, and good luck
~Bartan
avezola recently went Freelancing, and is searching for "Someone creative to share an office with." If you're in the Düsseldorf, Duisburg, Krefeld, Mönchengladbach etc. area(s) and are interested, look into her journal:https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8776396/
Thank you, and good luck
~Bartan
Current Projects
Posted 7 years agoThis journal might end up being updated from time to time, so feel free to check back if you're interested.
Current update: October 17th, 2020
To be announced...
Current update: October 17th, 2020
To be announced...
Ask Me Anything (Winter Meta)
Posted 8 years agoEvening all,
It's been a while since the last Journal, and well... It's time for a bit of an update. Seriously, wow. The last time I did so, I was only thinking about SOT season 2. Now it's freaking finished. But speaking of SOT; season 3 is still being worked on. I've just been... 'Distracted'. Progress has been made every day so far, as well as working on another in the same time.
That 'Other' one is this years Winter Meta. If you don't know what I'm talking about, every year since I've been writing, I release a short story that comes out early December. These are the little ones labeled in my gallery: Where The Frost Rose Withers, Winter's Fall, and Holiday. This year is the fourth, and will be trying out a little something different. Feel free to ask me anything, and the questions will show up/be answered in this year's Winter Meta. Can be complex, personal, silly, I don't care. Anything goes.
Regardless, I'll likely not do another Journal until the end of the year. So Happy Holidays everyone, and thank you for taking an interest in my works. You really have no idea how much it means to me
~Bartan
It's been a while since the last Journal, and well... It's time for a bit of an update. Seriously, wow. The last time I did so, I was only thinking about SOT season 2. Now it's freaking finished. But speaking of SOT; season 3 is still being worked on. I've just been... 'Distracted'. Progress has been made every day so far, as well as working on another in the same time.
That 'Other' one is this years Winter Meta. If you don't know what I'm talking about, every year since I've been writing, I release a short story that comes out early December. These are the little ones labeled in my gallery: Where The Frost Rose Withers, Winter's Fall, and Holiday. This year is the fourth, and will be trying out a little something different. Feel free to ask me anything, and the questions will show up/be answered in this year's Winter Meta. Can be complex, personal, silly, I don't care. Anything goes.
Regardless, I'll likely not do another Journal until the end of the year. So Happy Holidays everyone, and thank you for taking an interest in my works. You really have no idea how much it means to me
~Bartan
Future Content (SOT Returning?)
Posted 8 years agoNot much to report so far, but I've been doing some thinking. Pondering about doing some more Somewhere Out There acts with some of the other characters, while I'm writing my next story (Memory's Fragment) in which I honestly don't have a lot of the details ironed out yet. But since it was getting a lot of interest, I'm highly considering bringing SOT back, if anything for a 'Second Season'. But be sure to send me some suggestions of characters you might like to see, or if you're still interested in the series. Be it if they've been done before or not.
Lately, production has been a little slower, but I have been writing everyday. However, plans are not to put out 30 pages per week anylonger. Considering my usual "Workload" I was aiming for was 60 pages per month, I think that said a lot about these past 7 or so weeks x3 Still, what I'm thinking of doing is putting out a SOT bi-weekly. Better than no content at all, but I still want to see what I can pull off in the meantime with Memory's Fragment. Still, let me know what you think
Lately, production has been a little slower, but I have been writing everyday. However, plans are not to put out 30 pages per week anylonger. Considering my usual "Workload" I was aiming for was 60 pages per month, I think that said a lot about these past 7 or so weeks x3 Still, what I'm thinking of doing is putting out a SOT bi-weekly. Better than no content at all, but I still want to see what I can pull off in the meantime with Memory's Fragment. Still, let me know what you think
Story update!
Posted 8 years agoI recently added nearly an extra half to my Remy story (Short Story Of A Lonely Guy). If you've read it already, I've made a note about it on the submission page, as well as how to find where the story changed. Enjoy!
~Bartan
~Bartan
Back in action!
Posted 8 years agoComputer is finally repaired and working again. Though it still has Windows 8 on it for some odd reason, and had several struggles with it so far, it seems to be working. Let's hope it last more than three years.
Regardless, I'm still working on the stories, namely Somewhere Out There. Next one up is Maverick's, which is nearly complete it's first draft. It might not be as long as Bryce's, but there will still be a lot to it. Granted, production might be a bit slower due to needing to set up everything here (maybe about two days, unless I run into problems again).
I've at least prepared for this, it's just a matter of getting everything installed and organized once again. Wish me luck, I'll freaking need it.
Regardless, I'm still working on the stories, namely Somewhere Out There. Next one up is Maverick's, which is nearly complete it's first draft. It might not be as long as Bryce's, but there will still be a lot to it. Granted, production might be a bit slower due to needing to set up everything here (maybe about two days, unless I run into problems again).
I've at least prepared for this, it's just a matter of getting everything installed and organized once again. Wish me luck, I'll freaking need it.
Computer Died
Posted 8 years agoYeahhh... Most people go through this, and I guess it was my turn. Shame the damn thing didn't even last two years, considering it's price (Not really going to trust Dell very much anymore). But nothing I can do now. In the meantime, I'm back to using one with a failing hard drive which could give out in any moment. But regardless, I still have a few others that could be used for writing.
Speaking of writing, it's summer and that means Heat. I'm almost done the last act to Anthem, and will probably end up posting that soon-ish. Then I'm taking a bit of a vacation, which is more just enduring the damn heat, tropical storms (they're expecting 3 to hit us this summer) and overall blahness of the season.
But I did do some work on my main page here to make better introductions to my series. Check them out if you have time, and if something appeals, you'll probably like it.
Ugh, I need to move to Alaska or something.
Speaking of writing, it's summer and that means Heat. I'm almost done the last act to Anthem, and will probably end up posting that soon-ish. Then I'm taking a bit of a vacation, which is more just enduring the damn heat, tropical storms (they're expecting 3 to hit us this summer) and overall blahness of the season.
But I did do some work on my main page here to make better introductions to my series. Check them out if you have time, and if something appeals, you'll probably like it.
Ugh, I need to move to Alaska or something.
1989
Posted 9 years agohttp://nanowrimo.org/participants/bartan-tirix
And it's done! 55,165 words total for 1989, and the full thing will be posted shortly. Longest story I've written in such a short amount of time. Considering I started exhausted, endured two colds, and had a few days where I just could not write, it's a miracle it got done this quickly.
Though, I did technically have it complete on the 18th, I went through it once again and fixed a few minor things. This should be the last version of it, and I really don't want to think about continuing this story right now.
Oi, never again...
And it's done! 55,165 words total for 1989, and the full thing will be posted shortly. Longest story I've written in such a short amount of time. Considering I started exhausted, endured two colds, and had a few days where I just could not write, it's a miracle it got done this quickly.
Though, I did technically have it complete on the 18th, I went through it once again and fixed a few minor things. This should be the last version of it, and I really don't want to think about continuing this story right now.
Oi, never again...
