I hate depression. Feel alone anymore.

I hate this week. All week I have not been in a good place in my mind. Been really depressed and trying not to think of certain things that's happened in the past few years but it's been really hard not to when reminds pop up. Also, I dont understand why people like to hurt others or turn their backs on the they swear they wouldn't. Well I managed to get the day off to try and clear my mind. All was going good till I went home after having a meal with a friend I ran into unexpectedly. Went past my friends house where he lived at with his family. ( One I just had dinner with) Going home and there was several cops , ambulance and fire trucks at his home. Also seen them taking a gurney out the house. After message him asking what was going on his reply back was "I am waiting to see if my twin brother is alive. The cops shot him". My stomach started turning. The person I seen them moving on the gurney was completely covered in the white cover. I feel so bad for him and his family. He confirmed what I thought a few minutes later. His brother was dead. And I have meet the guy a few times but man that sucks. I am really hating the world right now.

Happy New Years to you all out there. I hope you all out there had a better year than I did for 2023 and I pray for 2024 to be a better for ever one. Also, I am still trying to find a place for the New Year Bash Party. I am trying not to give up on that.

Merry Christmas to you all and hope you all have a safe one. Will be doing an update soon on what going on with the New Years bash.

Merry Christmas to you all and hope your day going great for ya. As the title says I am soon going to be doing an update on the New Years Bash. As for this year most can guess I am sadly not having it this year on 2 reasons. 1. With covid-19 still going on and state restrictions I figured not a good idea plus covid made it really hard to find a place to have it for the 2 reason. But like I said I will be giving more of an update on that soon. Figured let you all know still alive and while fighting being depression most the time. Any way. Take care and be safe.

Jeremy C

I am sorry to say I feel there is not going to be a New Years Fur bash. Reason being is issues with the hotel (mold, over charging on the main room as well as a few other things) and I have not been able to find another place to have the party with in the Dayton area. I have been looking and place since the beginning of the years and ones that I have found that sounded very promising did not let me know till July that they did not want the party there and I have been on over time with my job since August. If any one has any ideas please message me on Telegram or here. I will keep you all updated to what’s going on with the New Years Bash. This is NOT A COMPLETE CANCELING OF IT just it may not happen this year. So with that being said if any of you have had problems and issues with the Sidney Days Inn please go ahead and leave those bad reviews and if you have any pictures pleases let me know. I may need them when I talk to the Days Inn corporate office.

I have a request for those that are staying and leaving reviews. If you staying the night at the Days Inn in Sidney Ohio for the New Years Fur Bash, PLEASE don’t leave a negative review for the hotel. Let them know what is going on. They may not know it. Understand the hotel has some problems and is old, things are not fancy and up to date, but this is the only place I can have this party at in the area. I have been for the past 5 years looking to relocate the party, but I have not had much luck finding a place besides Lime. I have looked from Lima to the south side of Dayton. Only 2 places I have found was the two places and Lima would be about 6 time higher than what I and paying now. I know some of you all out there gave recommendation and I have looked into some of them but honestly what I have found talking to some of you, if I move the location of this party out side of the Dayton area, half of who attends may not come any more. Right now I am afraid that if there is to much negative on the hotel the new owner will not allow the party there any more. If that happens the New Years Fur Bash my not happen for a while or ever. So again I ask you. Please don’t leave a negative review if there is a problem or issue. Talk to the hotel staff or manager at check out.

Thank you
Dexter

The New Years Fur Bash VII is happing. I know the notice is a little late and I am sorry about that.

Where:
Sidney Days Inn
400 Folkerth Avenue
Sidney, OH 45365
937-492-1131

When:
12-31-18
New Years eve

Times for the party:
4pm to 2am (maybe a little later)

Cost:
$10
With the rise on the Hotel room rental this is something I am going to have to do the cover the cost. I am very sorry for this, but to keep it going it is a needed. There is ways to get in for free or for $5

Room rate for staying the night:
$79
I believe that’s the price give or take $10. If any thing changes on this I will post something about it.


Food and drinks:
Whatever you want/like to bring please. I will bring what I have always brought. Sauerkraut and sausage. The one thing I ask if that if any drink have alcohol in it please keep it behind the bar where some one can watch it.

With that be said any one looking under age will be ID at the door and give a proper wristband for the party. I do give out 2 wristbands. One for those under 21 or those not wanting to drink and one for over 21 wanting to drink.

Starting time is going to be around 4pm. I myself will be getting there early to get the rooms ready. As for a group picture of the fursuits like I have done in the past I will do that around 10pm. Most likely outside where it will be cool for the suiters or in the bar room if there is room. I will be needing help this year for the party and I will give a list and also there will be a cut off time for it around 2am and the room will have cleaned. Reason being there is another event happening in the room Sunday morning around 8am.

Here is a list of help that I will be needing for the party

2 people for security (free admission to the party and no drinking)
2 to 4 people to watch the bar (if 2 people its Free admission but 4 its $5 for the party no drinking while watching the bar)
3 people to help thru out the night cleaning up as the party goes on and more for after the party to get the rooms ready for the event the hotel has at 8am Sunday. (Full help with the party till it ends will be free admission)

I also will be doing my raffle this year like always so if there is anything you like to donate for it let me know at the party

If any one wish to help pleas let me know and I will put you down for the help you wish to do. You can email me at

Hellsing_454arms[at]yahoo.com

Or any other way you can think of.

Hope to see you all there and thank you for any help for the party. With out you all help and support it couldn’t happen

Dexter

Hello to all including the new watchers. I hope you all have been having a good summer. I know mine has been an interesting one. Some good and bad but over all not bad. Some some good news now. The New Years Fur Bash VII is happening. Same place and times. Sidney Days Inn. I will be doing another post soon on it with more info on it as for cost and room cost. Until then let everyone know its going to happen and have a good summer

Dexter

Time is getting closer and just a reminder of whats to come

New Years Fur Bash VI

Where:
Sidney Days Inn
400 Folkerth Avenue
Sidney, OH 45365
937-492-1131

When:
12-31-17
New Years eve

Times for the party:
4pm to 2am (maybe a little later)

Cost:
$10
Sadly I am going to have to charge again this year. There is ways to get in for free or for $5

Room rate for staying the night:
$79
I believe that's the price give or take $10 If anything changes on this I will post something about it.


Food and drinks:
Whatever you want/like to bring please. I will bring what I have always brought. Sauerkraut and sausage. The one thing I ask if that if any drink have alcohol in it please keep it behind the bar where some one can watch it.

With that be said any one looking under age will be ID at the door and give a proper wristband for the party. I do give out 2 wristbands. One for those under 21 or those not wanting to drink and one for over 21 wanting to drink.

Starting time is going to be around 4pm. I myself will be getting there early to get the rooms ready. As for a group picture of the fursuits like I have done in the past I will do that around 10pm. Most likely outside where it will be cool for the suiters or in the bar room if there is room.

I will be needing some help with the party if any one would like to help Here is the list.

2 people for security (free admission to the party and no drinking)
2 to 4 people to watch the bar (if 2 people its Free admission but, 4hrs of help its $5 for the party no drinking while watching the bar)
3 people to help thru out the night cleaning up as the party goes on and more for after the party. (Full help with the party till it ends will be free admission)

I also will be doing my raffle this year like always so if there is anything you like to donate for it let me know at the party

If any one wish to help pleas let me know and I will put you down for the help you wish to do. You can email me at

Hellsing_454arms[at]yahoo.com

Or any other way you can think of.

Hope to see you all there and thank you for any help for the party. With out you all help and support it couldn’t happen

Dexter

Just like the subject says I am going to post something thus weekend when I can.

Hello to all out there. I hope a lot of you out there are having a great summer so far. Mines been kind of intrusting so far. It’s had it up and downs, but it has been good for the most part I would say. Other than that here is a reminder as to what is around the corner.

The New Years Fur Bash VI.

Yes it is going to happen again. As it stands for right now it is at the same hotel in Sidney Ohio. I went a head and booked it the day after the party so I can have it some where incase I can not find a different place which some of you know I have been looking for the past 2 years. If any one has any ideas please let me know. I will look into it. Other than that the hotel info I will be post as soon as they get back with me on the prices but from the way the hotel owner was talking its most likely going to be the same as year. I know he was very happy with us last year and from the way it looked on the out side they may have done some up keep there and fixing up. So I will keep you all updated with what is going on and will be doing another up date here soon.


Dexter

Managed to be able to go to Anthrocon this year so I hope to see some of you there. Also where I am staying at has some spots open if any one need a place to stay for anthrocon. Its at the Westin the main hotel and will run around $250 give or take and the stay will be from Thursday to Mondaay being the departure day. Message me in you like a place.

Dexter

PS
Here soon I will be doing an update for the New Years Fur Bash VI. It will be Happening this year.

Time is getting closer so here is the reminder. The New Years Fur Bash V is happing.

Where:
Sidney Days Inn
400 Folkerth Avenue
Sidney, OH 45365
937-492-1131

When:
12-31-16
New Years eve

Times for the party:
4pm to 2am (maybe a little later)

Cost:
$10
Sadly this year I am going to have to charge. Reason being the Hotel has raised the price on me this year. Something that was bound to happen as well as the price on hotel rooms for those needing one. There is ways to get in for free or for $5

Room rate for staying the night:
$69
The price can go down depending on the number of rooms that are booked for the party from what I understand.


Food and drinks:
Whatever you want/like to bring please. I will bring what I have always brought. Sauerkraut and sausage. The one thing I ask if that if any drink have alcohol in it please keep it behind the bar where some one can watch it.

With that be said any one looking under age will be ID at the door and give a proper wristband for the party. I do give out 2 wristbands. One for those under 21 or those not wanting to drink and one for over 21 wanting to drink.

Starting time is going to be around 4pm. I myself will be getting there early to get the rooms ready. As for a group picture of the fursuits like I have done in the past I will do that around 10pm. Most likely outside where it will be cool for the suiters or in the bar room if there is room. I will be needing help this year for the party and I will give a list and also there will be a cut off time for it around 2am and the room will have cleaned. Reason being there is another event happening in the room Sunday morning around 8am.

Here is a list of help that I will be needing for the party

2 people for security (free admission to the party and no drinking)
2 to 4 people to watch the bar (if 2 people its Free admission but 4 its $5 for the party no drinking while watching the bar)
3 people to help thru out the night cleaning up as the party goes on and more for after the party to get the rooms ready for the event the hotel has at 8am Sunday. (Full help with the party till it ends will be free admission)

I also will be doing my raffle this year like always so if there is anything you like to donate for it let me know at the party

If any one wish to help pleas let me know and I will put you down for the help you wish to do. You can email me at

Hellsing_454arms[at]yahoo.com

Or any other way you can think of.

Hope to see you all there and thank you for any help for the party. With out you all help and support it couldn’t happen

Dexter

Well for the last couple of weeks I have been trying to talk to the new hotel manager about the New Years Fur Bash and have not had any luck. For those going to call in and reserve a room tell them its for Jeremy Cox New Years party. The room rate should be around $69 for the night. Again I am trying to work out the finale details on it now. Right now I am working on a list for what I will be needing help with. If any one wanting to help please let me know. So I know I will need help with clean up, security, and watching the bar area. There might be more that will come up. Also I am sadly going to have to charge this year. Still working out the rate as to what is going to be charge at the door but its is looking like around $15 per person. Reason for the charge is that the hotel had raised the prices for the room. Past years to rent a room for the night it was $39+ Tax. Now its around $69 for the night. The room I have been renting for the main party has went up 4 times the rate that I have been paying for it. I am hoping that this will not detour any one from coming. I will keep you all as time goes on and hope to see you all there again.

Location:

Sidney Days Inn
400 Folkerth Avenue
Sidney, OH 45356

Phone Number is
937-492-1131


Thank you
Dexter

Yup. Its Happening again this year. Talking to a hotel for it this year and there will be some changes for it as well. Will be posting about it very soon. :)


Dexter

Yup thats right. I am going to be going to Anthrocon this year. Saved some money from tax return and me and 4 others will be there. 2 of them are new to the fandom. Hope some of you say Hi.


Dexter

Well this is long over due and I mean LONG OVER DO. Thank you all that came to the New Years Fur Bash IV. This party was great like the last previous years. If I remember right over 78 people there and around 30 fursuits. Thank you all again for come to it. Now I am in the works for New Years Fur Bash V, But I have been have some things come up that is making it very hard to plan it out that is happing in my life along with the hotel.

The hotel that I have been having it at is not letting reserve the room like they have been for the pass years but they said I can wait till it gets close to the end of the year to book the room. Reason for that this year New Years day falls on Sunday and they have a church group there holding services in the room that the New Years Fur Bash is in. I did talk to them about the ballroom again but the other party that was there already booked the room. So now it looks like I will have to move to another hotel. Where at? I am working on that now but with a major change that has happened in my life it’s hard to say where at in Ohio it will be. Many of you know I was living with my Grandfather. I have lived with him since 2002 helping him out. Well this year he passed away. March 23. So the family with out really talking to me decided to sell his house I am living in giving me 3 to 6 months to decided on one of two options. Buy the house at market value or move out. I checked on a loan thru my bank and its not looking to good. But there is a few other people I was told to talk to that might know how I can get help to keep it. If I move out, I will be moving to the Chillicothe area, which mean the New Years Fur Bash will be in that area. Either way I am going to try my best at having a New Years Fur Bash V this year. I am thinking of doing a few meets as well in this area again before I move but time will tell. I will keep you all posted on the New Years Fur Bash and if anyone wants to help find a Hotel for it let me know.

Thank you
Dexter

Just a little up date for the New Years party. I am going to do a group fursuit picture at 9pm in the Headless lounge. Yes that means there is going to be a Headless lounge. I am given a 3rd room that I can work with and with some fursuiter over heating last year I feel this should be a big help. I am also going to try and have a cooler in it with water bottles and keep the temperature down in the room as well. Any other ideas for the rooms to help out please let me know.

Thank you
Dexter

Well it is getting close the end of the year. New Years Fur Bash that is happeningg again in Sidney Ohio again this year (12-31-15). Its the 4th year for it. Location is

Sidney Days Inn & Conference Center
400 Folkerth Avenue
Sidney, OH 45356

Phone Number is
937-492-1131

Rooms for the night for those that need one are $39+ tax. Tell them its for the New Years Fur Bash for the room price.
The hotel is right behind Bob Evens and Taco Bell.

Just a reminder you will need to bring an valid ID for this part. There will be 2 different color wristbands handed out this year. One for those over 21 and wanting to drink, and another one for those under 21 or those wishing not to drink. If you don not have an ID then you will get the wristband for those that are not going to drink.

For food and drinks (including alcohol drinks). I am bringing Sauerkraut and pork free sausage and hot dogs. Any thing else is up to those that want to help out by bringing something to eat or drink. Alcohol drink I am going to ask to be kept behind the bar. I will have some one there to watch them and checking the color of wristband.

Starting time for the party is going to be around 4pm. I am going to try and get there around 1pm to set up.

The morning after breakfast if anyone is interested in it please let me know by 12-24-15 so I can give Bob Evens a heads up as to how many are going to show up if anyone is interested on go or doing it. This is so they can better serve us. Time for that will be around 11am the next morning.

So with all that being said I hope to see a lot of you there and will keep you all updated as what comes up and need for the party and let every one know

Dexter

Update (12/14/15)
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7241928/

The meeting for the New Years Fur Bash will be on 11-14-15 the following Saturday for those that want to help.

For those that want to help out with the New Years Fur Bash but cant make it to the meet just message me on here or Skype or even text.

For those that want to help I will be having a meeting/get together for the New Years Fur bash this year at the bowling ally in Piqua this coming up Saturday night around 7PM (11-7-15). Things I will be needing help on are listed

1. Clean up as the night goes on.
2. Some one to watch the bar so minors dont get alcohol drinks.
3. People to help with the door for checking in such as IDing people and handing out wrist bands
4. Clean up after the party and the next day.
5. Audio equipment for music

This is all I can think of at the moment and I sure things may come up and I will list them as time goes on if I need help I let ya all know.
Also if I have to work the back up date for the meet will be 11-14-15 same location and same time.
Thank you all for any help any one gives and with out it this party would not be successful.

Dexter

Well its getting closer to the end of the year and you all know what the means….. New Years Fur Bash IV.

Location
Sidney Days Inn & Conference Center
400 Folkerth Avenue
Sidney, OH 45356

Date and Time
Dec 31 2015 around 4pm.

I will be doing the wristbands again this year. And like before there will be 2 colors. One those over 21 and wanting to drink and those under and those not wishing to drink.

Now again this year I am looking for help with the party for those that wish to help so message me and let me know as soon as possible and I really do thank you for the help
Here is some of what I am looking for help on

Music/ sound equipment
Clean up as the party goes on and after wards
Help with security since there is another party in the next room like last year and ID people as they come in.

There is a few people I am talking to right now for help and this list could change in the next month or so and I will keep you all up dated as well. As for the farewell breakfast. That might change some after what happened last year. I have talked to the manager at Bob Evens and she gave me the idea of doing a catering thing like a buffet style so every one well get food at the same time unlike what happen the last time so I will be talking to them soon to get price idea as to how much that will cost and try to figure something out for that.
So that’s all I have for right now and if you all can spread the word about it since I not in any group chats anymore

I am at a point right now in my life where I just want to give up. Nothing I do seems to go right and every thing I do goes wrong. Friends are leaving me and/or moving on or just leaving me in general cause they don’t like how things are going for me I guess. I just know this year again is not going well again. Several things have gotten worse for me to the point I am wanting to give in. First part of the year this year I have had a large part of the furry fandom hating me for reason I do not know. From what I can tell a lot of people where upset cause Jewlz and Rayless decided that they don’t want to help with my New Years Fur Bash. I am sorry so many are upset for what they decided to but that is their wishes and I respect that. With their decision I was getting cut down, called names and everything else under the sun but I kept my mouth shut and never said anything because that was their chose and I respect that. I was at one point not wanting to have the New Years Fur Bash anymore cause of the problem I was having with the fur community and how I was feeling about but I am going to try and have it still. I just feel its not going to be as big as it was in the past now.
The other thing I have been think of is anymore I think I am going to stop trying to make plans and doing anything with people. I have noticed that a lot of people anymore that will make plans with me only not to keep them. I do understand some work on the weekend and things come up but anymore it seems like its all the time. I am getting to where I do not want to make plans any more cause I don’t want to get my hopes up and have them crushed. Not many people are talking to more as well. On Skype I am not in anymore group chats cause it seems like when ever I say something in on I kill the chat and no one IM me on it as well in a month. Same as in texting as well unless some one needing something. Oh for those that group text me it doesn’t work right on my cell and pics don’t work that well for me as well. I try to text or even message on Skype but besides a couple all go unanswered anymore.
Another Very bad thing that has happened this year is have a large amount of money taken from me. There was a friend that I was helping out as well as my grandfather and he was with out a home and no job. He was staying with us till he got on his feet and well within the last week we found out he was stealing from us. He stole my grandfather credit card and stole coins that I was saving since I was 14 (over $800 worth just to use at face value). I am working with the police trying to get evidence on him on the coins but we do have him on the card. I am hurting bad from this. I help this guy out every way I could. I even lend him money I have had saved up for AC 2015 to the point I couldn’t go and yet he just steals from me with out a care. Well I don’t feel sorry for him being homeless and jobless now for I see it is his own doing and fault.
Sorry about this long drama speech but I just needed a vent. I know that there is a very few I can trust up north but that’s about it and I do thank you for being there for me and I am sorry to the rest for this page of a vent.