Ugh so I've been super interested in ghosts for the last month or so and was watching some weird youtube channel about a guy in alabama talking to dolls n doing ouija board stuff. Seemed fake but ANYWAYS, was dreaming, heard two LOUD AS FUCK knocks at my door that woke me up. Did not open the door.

Nope.

nope.... fuck ghosts...nvm

I've slowly devolved to having no friends for the past few years now :[

Nobody to go shopping with. Or go to a concert with. Or just drink beer/smoke and watch TV with. Maybe I've been too clingy to casual acquaintances that really only want to hang out every few months or so. I have treated badly one person who drifted apart/became rather rude and used me for money. I guess that reflected poorly on me to other people. My anxiety doesn't help I'm sure. I used to drop heavy shit on people a few years ago which was awkward and unnecessary, and learned afterwards not to do that... I may have been narcissistic and never took a genuine interest in the other person, just talked about myself.

Welp. Going to a furry meet this Saturday. And volunteering at the ranch. And going to the horse festival. Hopefully I come off well and hit it off with someone.