If I don't reply on Skype, or here, I'm just busy irl. The aforementioned has just left me with a slight lack of drive in spending time online.

Don't expect me on Skype.

Don't expect me to reply to notes.
Don't expect much from me actually.


I've fucking had it.

I myself have a short temper and what the machine-filled concept known as "civilized" mankind calls Autism.

The temper during my years at Eastern York School District in Southern Pennsylvania in the US because just about every male student there verbally bullied me, trying to do things that would make me snap, and the teachers, nor the principal, never did shit about it...and they all knew it was happening. I never got physical cause of the high chances I would be punished.

A few years ago we moved to a better district in which I finished high school and just last fall started college. Problem is...I've incidentally traded in, (or rather "fate" or "God" has traded in), a few dozens students who try to make me break and go berserk just about every day of school with no punishment on them...for a MOTHER, who doesn't listen, understand it seem to fucking care.

Have I ever done harm to her or anyone recently? Fuck no, BUT apparently, (even when I try to do good things or explain more recent or current reasons as to why I get so flustered), she treats me as the simple-minded, savage animal or bad child...even though my brother has tried to barely harm himself for attention, not attended school for at least, as of now, maybe half a schoolyear total, constantly asks for useless shit, (that she claims she doesn't have the money for but then soon after goes right into buying ot), and...oh yeah, at least Once actually tried to fight and harm her over not going to school.

Yeah, cause I sure as hell am the fucking animal. Frankly I'd say I'm just being human...cause clearly or apparently civilization doesn't like humans being human, but rather emotionless, ignorant, senseless, undisciplined machines.

Hell, I was thinking of auditioning for a play coming up, "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest", but all this BS with my supposed mother has just...dropped my motivation or...concern/drive/whatever, (in regards to doing nearly anything), almost to absolute zero. In fact, for Christmas, I bought, with purely my own money, two tickets to see an off-Broadway performance of Mary Poppins, my mom's favorite Disney film...but considering how she's "repaying" me for that, (and my efforts in trying to be good and successful), I'm thinking two things.

1, tear up or destroy one or both tickets, (or just toss them in the trash)
2, Since I bought them, I can get someone else to see it with me...long as they can drive the two of us to the theater.

Chances are it'd more likely be the second option cause the first would be a waste of money. Either way though, she'd yell at me...or lecture, claiming she's never in the wrong nor ever lecturing me...oh and whenever she gives her thoughts on why I did something, she claims its because I'm autistic. -.- NO, I'm just fucking human.

That is to say a father in a furry family. (I hope the two don't mind me announcing this.)

I'm sure some of you know how members of furaffinity tend to have these...furry families where certain other members are considered virtual family members to them.

Well, last night I was pretty much inducted into my first furry family, as a father, and husband.

My new wife is:  Tenderfoxys
And my new, kind little son, (or rather daughter I should say), is  Zillabrony13

{insert HISHE bit where Vader...or Anakin, is telling everyone he's a father}

In case you don't know what I mean
Anakin: https://youtu.be/K2ScVx4mRDE?t=8s
Darth Vader: https://youtu.be/6L8b1zPE0-Y?t=32s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWM0ct-OLsM

First trailer was interesting but didn't give much of a story, this one actually does and frankly I'm interested in it, BUT I'm gonna say this...there is a section of the trailer, (and in the turn the film), I'm sure plenty will find...attractive.



Seriously, why the heck do I find that bare giraffe butt so attractive?

Edit: Maybe it comes from the fact I kinda like anthropomorphic animals, sometimes when NOT oversexualized.

In short, while I've already played HOURS of Dying Light, (the parkour being perhaps the best part), I'm willing to perhaps start a new file if anyone would like to do co-op from the start. Might be rather fun. And don't worry, I'll keep it private so we can avoid the invasion detail from random players. Up to four players total.

The only catch is...you need to have it on Xbox one...and also know how to cooperate or not be a troll, and maybe a headset would help as well but those two are more optional. Just have it on Xbox One and note me your Gamertag.

P.S. The title is a reference to the one-hit wonder song, "(I'm Gonna Be) 500 Miles" but we'll be parkouring for hours...maybe even 500 miles and parkouring 500 more.

My brother is playing Fibbage and streaming it from his Xbox one. You do NOT need the console to join but merely have an ipod/smartphone, tablet, laptop, or PC to join the stream, twitch.tv/tidalsan and the game, (jackbox.tv with the roomcode as PERZ).

A friend of mine, (  Aricub ) is doing a Black Friday sale, 20% off everything, plus a free raffle.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7205866/

Two words, one number.


FALLØUT 4, BABY! :D

I was watching a stream a friend of mine.  Amotose invited me to and he suggested I commission the guy but...I told him, (the guy or artist's name was Eli), I don't really have money on a PayPal account far as I know so...he simply suggested sharing this with you guys.

http://flameeliwoodart.tumblr.com/p.....here-this-is-a

No matter who you are, how much you love or are curious about a show, DO NOT.....I repeat.

DO NOT Binge Watch.

For the past two days, I did a few sessions of binge watching Steven Universe, (a show I had previously not been interested in since it's 'distributed' by Cartoon Network and I thought it bore design or appearance of say Adventure Time or Regular Show). Overall, in the past two-three days I binge watched episodes from I believe 7-67 overall, (I did take breaks sometimes but in terms of last night's binge session, {about 21 to 40}, and today's, {41 to 67}....I think it was maybe too much for my mind.

Your mind just....focuses so much on the characters of the show, especially the ones you like, (in my case, the focus seems to be on Pearl namely, possibly due to feeling maybe most identical or similar to her to some degree), or perhaps scenarios and details in the show, (like a song or two or maybe a dramatic event), and it's just a little distracting or overwhelming.

Just a word of advice is all to those who plan on binge watching.

To be honest, I was planning on submitting a poem I made, and originally submitted on deviantart.com, (under Kovu96), to here but seeing as how even the poem itself needs to be a file in order to submit it here, (and I can't download the poem as a file on deviant art since it's my own and I'd rather not deal with making a whole file for a single poem, as good as it is imo), I'm just gonna give a link to it; the poem being of course named "Apollo's Affection", in short based on the Roman mythological story of "Apollo and Daphne", which tells of two lessons, don't be cocky and true love is blind.

Here's the link to the page. http://kovu96.deviantart.com/art/Ap.....tion-528291382

(Just something I thought of in the shower moments ago while singing "Don't Stop Me Now" from Queen. Take a song you like, start typing/singing the lyrics to yourself and try to break off from it onto a new song whose lyrics you know. Example below.)

"It's the, Eye of the Tiger it's thrill of the fight/ Rising up, to the challenge of our rivals/ And the last, known survivor stalks his prey in the night/ And he's watching us all with the EYEEEE of the-"
"Tiger, defying the laws of gravity/ I'm a racing car, passing by, like Lady Godiva/ I'm go, go go, there's no stopping MEEE! /Burning through the sky yeah!/ 200 Degrees, that's why they call me Mr. Fahrenheit, travelling at the speed of light wanna make a supersonic man out of YOOU!/ Don't stop me now/ I'm having such a good time, i'm having a ball/ Don't-"
"Stop us now/ and if this, world runs out of lovers/ we'll still have each other/ Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us Now, oh-Oh-oh/ I'm so glad I found you./ I'm not gonna lose you/ Whatever it takes, I will stay here with you/ take it to the good times/ see it through the bad times/ whatever it takes, is what I'm gonna do./ Let'em say we're-"
"CRAZY....but that's how it rolls/ MILLIONS of people, livin' as fo-o-oes./ MAYBE, it's not to la-ate/ To Learn how love/ And forget how to-"
"HATE ME to-DAAAY/ Hate me tomorrow/ Hate me for all the things, I didn't do, for you./ Hate me in ways/ Yeah, ways that are hard, to swallow/ Hate me so you can finally, see what's good, for you."

If you don't know the songs in order they are:

"Eye of the Tiger" by Survivor
"Don't Stop Me Now" by Queen.
"Nothing's Gonna Stop Us" by Jefferson Airplane, (or just Jefferson)
"Crazy Train" by Ozzie Osbourne
and "Hate Me" by Blue October.

I was thinking of adding in "We Can't Stop", but I don't the lyrics enough to that one. If you can think of some mixes yourself, go ahead and type them as comments or in your own journal.

Got this from  shadowice

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape.

He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as:
- Knowing when to come in out of the rain;
- Why the early bird gets the worm;
- Life isn't always fair; and
- Maybe it was my fault..

Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge). His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.
Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children.

It declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer sun lotion or an aspirin to a student; but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.

Common Sense lost the will to live as the churches became businesses; and criminals received better treatment than their victims.

Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue you for assault.

Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement.
Common Sense was preceded in death, by his parents, Truth and Trust, by his wife, Discretion, by his daughter, Responsibility, and by his son, Reason.

He is survived by his 4 stepbrothers:
I Know My Rights
I Want It Now
Someone Else Is To Blame
I'm A Victim

Not many attended his funeral because
so few realized he was gone..

If you still remember him, pass this on.
If not, join the majority and do nothing.

I know it would've been more proper to mention this last year, but as of Spring, (can't recall the specific month), of 2014, I was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome, (or in general, Autism), which would explain why, to those of you I talk to, I usually focus on RPs or artwork rather than casual chatter. ^^; I guess the reason I wasn't sure about posting a journal about this is well…..I'm usually unsure of posting a journal about anything on here.

For those of you who don't know, the Aspergers portion of the Autism Spectrum Disorder is a condition in which the individual is rather intelligent……but has difficulty expressing themselves or socializing, (this is definitely true with me offline). Autism in general tends to have a consistent negative effect on social skills, (one portion of the spectrum even affecting one's ability to learn).