Good evening.

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After talking to someone on a dating website (About things other than sex haha) i came to the realization that it has been nearly 3 freaking years since I have made a fur video. Luckily I already had a lot of artists on board for past failed projects, so I am hoping I can get back into doing this full swing. Anyway, with the new laptop I have FINALLY figured out how to work the dang thing to find the Movie Maker.....now just to figure our the movie maker 100% like I did the older version

So with a lot of recent events happening in my life, I'm am beginning a somewhat hiatus from several sites. It is just to basically going to give me time to get away and think. FA is going to be one of the few sites I will still be active on since I am still looking for art to use in my current project. Things like Facebook, (several dating sites), and such I am backing up from entirely. Sites like Instagram and FA I am still going to use (because no offence to anyone, our personal lives or emotions don't run as deep on some sites).

If anyone wants to follow me on Instagram, name is DismayWolf. mostly post selfies as well as various nerdy things like games I am playing or collectables. so um.....yeah...

Operation: Ghost has already begun!

Start actually reading peoples journals.....especially about Anthrocon.......I NEED TO MEET SOME OF THESE PEOPLE!!!!!



that is all......

So again I have been slacking on the video

*Bangs head against wall* BAD WOLF!!

Buuuuut started working on it last night and realized.....I had to ask some of the people who have let me use their art a few questions..........

Hopefully I do not piss anyone off by this, just not wanting to make any mistakes with this video or misuse the art they allowed me to use.


HOPEFULLY I will get to working on it full swing during this coming weekend since my mate has to work all weekends until June :(

Anyway, slacking is due too trying to revive two sites, on being my Furry Revolution Zetaboard, the other being a Star Fox zetaboard (Been roleplaying on the StarFox one......there is no yiff, just fun creating and hell throwing ^^; )

That and I started playing my friend and his girlfriend in Yu-Gi-Oh..........yeah, I went there XD

So I am gonna be sending out notes in order to use art for videos again. Just to pre warn y'all. I do know that I sent some out a few years ago, however I am going to resend them for confirmation and make sure it is still ok to use artists pics as well as those of fur suiters

Hello all. A few year ago I made a Zetaboard forum that I am currently trying to revive. It is for furs of all ages. The only things however is that it is a non sexual site, keeping in mind we will probably have furs under the age of 18 on the board. It is a place to meet and have fun, making friendships and memories. just copy and paste the link below and feel free to sign up :D

http://s4.zetaboards.com/Furry_Revolution/index/

so I've recently seen the new Kia commercial where the Hamsters work out and all that (look it up if it hasn't come up as an advertisement on youtube). Anyway, I seriously wanna try that lol. have two friends and I with the hamster suits (fur and all) have Lady Gaga's Applause playing, and strut out of the new Kia straight into the doors of next years AnthroCon....who's with me!

(please note this entry is from lack of sleep)

here is the dealio (yeah I just said that, lol). this year at AC I am making bracelets for furs. those who've let me use their art in videos will be able to get one free, so please message me if you are going to AC this year so I can make one for you and give it to you. if I haven't used your art, bracelets are gonna be expensive.........a whole whooping $2 lol. see ya at the con and stay fuzzy

Welp, requests for a music video are being sent out. actually they started back in December, but work got kind of hecktic, so I am gonna focus on this in my spare time.

I have this urge to apollogize. If anyone does not wishes to read anything on the verge of a "depression rant" please stop reading and delete this journal from your list.....but...i just need to post this somewhere.....and here is pretty much the only place where like....one reader will take notice.....*takes a deep breath* ok...here goes...

i want to apologize to a lot of people...but cannot choose specific people. A lot of you know, I put together videos with music and furry art in hopes that the right person who needs to see it does and is able to find strength to pull themselves from haunting thoughts. Lately, I have found that I myself have fallen into a cyclone of self doubt and fears. So many things have gone on lately in my life that....have begun to weigh me down greatly. My mother recently has gotten out of the hospital after being very i. She refused to even go until my sister stepped in and forced her. I tried my best over the phone to convince her (please note, my mother lives in Texas....I live in Pennsylvania) but she didnt go until forced. She had pnemonia, and at times through the week she was there, she sounded so weak, i began to fear she was about to pass, luckily she pulled through it (also i must add....she is 62 going on 63....and is a smoker....bad combination). But my fear still lingers, i am not ready to lose my only other parent, real, biological parent at the age of 25.....if i do....which i fear is sti soon....i am gonna lose it for a while.

The other thing that has been getting to me....are my emotions of Love and Hate. I found i am having both of these for a single person. I hate that I feel not only have i lost someone as a friend and did my best to help them, but someone I use to call my mate. I am beginning to wonder....if the problem has been me the entire time, like....what if i should just stfu and live alone. When i try to be with someone, i end up hurt of damaged from it. Am i destined for this?......I believe strongly in the Chaos Theory, of Light and Darkness and how the two must live in order for both to survive. Should i just live with, and choose to remain in darkness while trying to help others be happy? I mean...there are a few that would seem wonderful, but i am scared. What if what they see, is not what they expected, or a flaw of mine scares them off forever. What if we never get the chance to be together...and my hopes crash into doubt and fear once more....
I am sorry once again....for ranting like this....I just.....do not know what to do anymore.....and do not want to live in confusion forever.....or much longer

the artist  Larka1 is holding a raffle, Larka is only taking a few people into the raffle, hurry up and sign up!

Alright, got a new song in mind for a video project, and have already sent out several requests.....4 out of 6 asked are already in the works, sending out more requests over the next few days, giving me hopefully Tuesday or sometime this week to play around with it.

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hope you like Country xD

PS: ONLY CLUE I AM GIVING! bwahahahahahaha

 Gwyn is holding out a raffle for free art. her art is pretty amazing, so click the link to check it out :D


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4020900/

Well, as the title says, I am gonna try to be a better artist.....maybe get good enough for commissions......*can't keep a straight face at that last part and laughs manically*.....well, I at least wanna draw my three forms a lot better then I am now....wish me luck

alright, currently looking to make another fur vid, as to try to make them more frequent then just two a year. artists that are watching me, be prepared for the requests to be sent once again :D.
hoping to find a song soon enough however

looking to get a commission done. something to put inside my videos from now on. if anyone knows of any artists accepting requests, can ya lead me to them?

hey guys, well, spoken tl the artist of the comic recently, things are hopefully gonna get back on track with it lol.
hope everyone is doing good <3

so i keep seeing there is a national "whatever the frik" day constantly on fb, like even pirates have their own day.
but what about a national "hug day" or a national "help someone day" those i think would go over more then a bagel day....us would be more helpful for our society......plus i know the furry community would be all over those days :)

This link will take any of my watchers to my latest fur vid.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rUN9lWJVAhs

I hope you guys like it

got a new phone the other day, honestly found a fur affinity app, it is cool and all, but honestly i made a journal about it a few days ago and ot didnt pop up.....using the app that is......


anyway....vid is nearly complete, should be up sometieme this weekend or shortly after

Alright, got some really good art pieces thanks to some great artists. So now getting everything put together correctly to convy the message :D

Alright gang, gonna start working on the next fur vid. So if any of you started watching me due to the last vid, then expect some more requests to use art from you guys. Once I finalize which Song I am gonna use (have a few more that I have yet to download lol) I will let the artists know if asked, until then.TOTAL SECRET!!!!!!!!!!!

Also on a note, just sent the illustrator of Lost Angel page's two and three, so hopefully all the kinks are worked out between us and the ball gets rolling. LMAO

Alright guys and gals, trying to figure the next song for a fur vid.........there are many to go through...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRHat-CF5SQ (Crazy Dreams by Carrie Underwood)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bV10.....eature=related (Unstoppable by Rascal Flatts)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0HZu0-GQ45k (Lullaby by Nickleback)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OT10h5vqmZs (Stand by Rascal Flatts)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jHvwSO_0k_M (David's Song by Declan Galbraith)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JlFt3iZCKME (Even Angels fall by Jessica Riddle)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TL9Q89pWmgw (Bells of Freedom by Bon Jovi (now I know I have done a Bon Jovi song before, but this one is just as powerful)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LA2CpQWg2pA (This is your life by Switchfoot)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-d07ZUqvjz4 (Move Along by All American Rejects)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGJuMBdaqIw (Firework by Katty Perry)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jmR5Aat11P8 (Born this way (country version) by Lady Gaga)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EVri.....eature=related (If we hold on together by Diana Ross)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xz32I_GbpeU (My Wish by Rascal Flatts)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IqYv.....eature=related (Somewhere, Someday by N*SYNC)




as you can see........this is probably my most frustrating part of making a video xD

I have actually had a lot of questions asked about why I draw three different wolves with the same markings. See, all three of them are my fusona, one in the same. I personally am somewhat of a over thinker when it comes to the topic of Light, Darkness, and the Balance between them. so here is each one explained (using photobucket links to make it to where you do not have to hunt for which one I am speaking about.)

First off, the Theory:
As I see it, Light and Darkness are one i the same, two entities that control our world, as well as our hearts. We cannot escape them, no matter how hard we try. The emotions we have portray these two. Love, Joy, etc., easily has a counterpart such as Hate, Sorrow and so forth. There is also, that is if one of them is completely lost forever, the words, the feelings, etc, the other side will vanish as well. Try to define the word "Good" without using anything like the words "Bad" or "Evil" it begins to get difficult. Try to think of how our world would be if for example Darkness was no more. That there was no more hate, no more sorrow, no more evil. Them the people who once considered themselves "good" would no longer have anything to define them, as everyone would act in the same kindhearted manner. Same goes if "love", "joy" and "good" were taken out, Darkness would in itself become a common thing with nothing to say it is "bad". That is where the Balance comes in. Even though Light and Darkness fight for dominance, they cannot really destroy the other, as when Darkness seems to be all around, Hope will be the one shinning light to keep us going, and when Light is shinning down upon us, somewhere, there is a glimmer of hatred waiting to lash out.

There is however, a slight problem with how people react to the two. "In the Darkness you can see the Light, but in the Light, you are too blind to see the Darkness." This is something I randomly said one day, and to this day, it turns out to be very true. Here are two examples of what I mean.

You walk into a dark room, what do you do? You search for the light switch or a lamp, using what little light is given to you, say from a phone or TV screen. But once those lights come on, what happens? You are now comfortable with the fact you can see where you are going, yet pay no mind to the shadows created by the objects once the lights come on.

Another example is how people themselves are. Someone who is riddled with hatred, despair, lonliness. Someone who to the rest of the world hasn't a chance of doing anything positive. However, within them, they themselves as well as a few others, can see hope for them that they will either change or that things will get better. Maybe someone who is presumed to be hurtful and mean, actually does a lot of good things when the entire world is not looking. Then there are those who make their good deeds known, letting everyone know within a short time, that they can trust this individual. Though what can really go on within their minds. That very same person who is doing all this good stuff, could in fact be using it for personal gain, doing it to be the center of attention, doing it in hopes of getting "favors" back later. The sad part is, no one is willing to see these possibilities happen because they can only see the good deeds they have done.

Ok, if you are still reading, Congrats, you have gotten a little ahead of some in my thinking, and by reading all that, may now see how my fursona's work.

Please note, my name is DismayWolf for a reason, though each form has his own name. These names actually do not reflect anything but personal matters.

First we shall start with The White Wolf, or as I prefer to call him, Ushima
http://s32.photobucket.com/albums/d.....ent=Ushima.png

The reason that his Fur is White is pretty obvious, he is the side of Light. He wears mostly white clothing, and when fighting the darker half, wears a white trench coat as armor. The blade he uses (Click here to see the blade is named "Ilu" which is short for "Illuminate". It can pierce through any darkness and open of the heart to receive and give off light. Now for the marking. As the markings over most of his body have no actual meaning, there is one that does, (Click here to see image for better understanding (image originally done by  Ataraxis though he allowed anyone to use it as long as we linked back to him and I just added my markings) The heart shape on the chest, sides, and lower abdomen. The Lines are no connected for a reason, meaning the heart is open to anyone and everyone. The reason these marking are Blue, is because when you are in a dark room and play with a blue light, it shines brightly, though does not do so well in lighted areas.

Now for the eyes. At first, you look upon red eyes and think something bad is about to happen. The actual reason as to why the eyes are red is because it shows the warmth of the heart and soul. As the eyes are the windows into the soul. The pupils are jet black, not because it is the normal pupil color, but because it shows there is still Darkness residing withing the heart, and means he has gone through dark times.


Now for The Black Wolf, Radigal.
http://s32.photobucket.com/albums/d.....nt=Radigal.png

His Fur is jet black to show is resides in the darkness. His markings are almost the exact same to Ushima's, however they are Red, as Red is more noticeable in Lighted areas. The hearts symbol however (sorry, haven't had time to make his sheet) is all connected as one line, meaning that the heart is closed, surrounded by darkness and having darkness within. His eyes are blue, to represent the bitter coldness of the heart and soul. His pupils are white, meaning he still has some good in him, also The pupils connect the two. For when the form is in Radigal's favor, Umshima can still see through the eyes, and vis versa. I have found myself, honestly, in spiteful rages before, though had found it was to protect myself, or someone dear to me, though enjoyed causing some pain. His blade is in the same zigzag formation as Ilu. The blade is known as "Dim" as in to "Dim the lights" His blade can choke the light and back it down, closing the heart of to any form of light. Best seen here.


Now for the final form, this form has had two names, yet both strongly fit. It is Chaos/Balance.
http://s32.photobucket.com/albums/d.....an_Pic0003.jpg (note: picture is subjected to change, yet not drawn, please bear with me)

He is the "true form" of the three, he exists, yet doesn't exist. The way he exists is by keeping the balance alive, as the reason he doesn't exist is because people do not understand how there can be a balance.
His blade is "Omni" which is Latin for "All" or "Every" in this case "Both" or "One". The blade consists of both "Ilu" and "Dim". His fur is gray, and his marking (change part one) are purple, as Purple has trouble shining in both lighted and darkened areas, but is still very noticeable. His eyes (to become) are gray as stone, showing he is the mixture of light and darkness. His wings are the main focus for some. The wings strongly represent that he has Light and Darkness within his heart and soul. His attire is either half black and half white, or full gray.

One more little fun fact for all. Each of them can control an element, no, it is not just to make them cooler or any other bullshit like that. Ushima can control Fire, Radigal can control Electricity, and Balance controls Water. All three of these can easily give life, as well as easily take life away. We as humans use Fire to warm out homes and building, cook our meals and keep us safe when camping. But when left unattended, can cause major burns and can destroy to nearly no end. The other fact is our body temperature is on average 98.6 degrees, meaning we are pretty hot on the inside. Electricity is constantly running through our bodies, every move we make is caused by an electric our brain sends to any given part of our body. When someone is near death, Rescuers will use a defibrillator to send small amounts of Electricity to our hearts in hope to getting them started again. Though is the jolt is too strong, it can overload our bodies and put us to rest. Water makes up a great deal of our bodies. We also need to drink it in order to survive. It hydrates us and is the one thing that can keep us going even without food. Though with enough water, a strong force will be created that not you or anyone can stop.

I hope you enjoyed reading my little back story to my character(s). As I do use the white wolf as my MAIN fursona, keep in mind, that there may be times when the other two shall appear, and sometimes, without warning.