SORRY FOR BEING GONE FOREVER.
I lacked a laptop!
BUT IM HERE LOVELIES <3
Expect art and maybe streams.
BAI <3

I have art block.
I. have art block.

I've had it for months, which you've probably noticed. I can't produce anything other than face doodles, or images of characters just standing there.

At least of my characters.

It's so freaking frustrating because I try for hours to draw something of my own, and I end up with nothing.
Or the exact some pose I've done before.
I hate everything of my own.
My characters aren't developed enough.
I'm not used to this tiny tablet and it gives me hand cramps.
Im frustrated.

So I'm sorry, from the bottom of my heart, that I've not thrown anything nice at you's. I'm trying. I really really am.
I've completed commissions, but I don't end up putting them here.
So I end up having nothing for yous and I'm sorry.

I hope it will get better soon.

Hey! So I decided to make a tumblr! I doodle all the time, sketches are incredibly frequent, I just have a hard time finishing my own stuff, haha. So I'll upload all my scraps and doodles and stuff there! If anyone wants to follow!

Warning, it's mega terrible right now, haha.

http://distantdoodles.tumblr.com/

Hey guys!
I just wanted to say thanks for stickin' with me through this inactivity, as well as hi! And thanks! Welcome! To those who have recently started watchin'! xx

I recently had my tablet die on me
Again.
For the same reason of I-have-no-flippin-clue
Thanks, Wacom. I heart you too.
However, my friend has lent me one for the next little bit.
So I'm throwing art at you again! I promise!

Commissions are open, incase you are interested, I will draw up a price sheet again within the next couple of days!

You're all lovely xx

Hey!
To be honest, I have been trying to draw forever and can't seem to do anything to my liking.
It's incredibly incredibly frustrating.
I owe two people art, and I'm really trying! I've not forgotten or anything, I'm trying really hard to do them they just aren't turning out how Id like and it's SUPER frustrating. I hope you understand ;;

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EDIT- Thanks super!! I appreciate the help <33

To all who've watched me in the past month or so- thank you!! Sorry I've not posted anything.

My fiancé was here this month and we really don't know the next time we will be seeing each other so we spent as much time together as possible.

so oops I neglected technology

I'm back though. Prepare for a couple commissions and some departure vent art

love xx

Hey guys! I'm sorry for being dead! I'll start posting more near the end of the month, just been real busy! Much love!! Hey

I can't honestly keep from doodling Charlie so.
Hi.

Lol ok thanks guys.
I'm going to retire from here until further notice.

I haven't posted in a month apparently, so I don't know how well this is going to go and I really hate asking but I'm kinda at a standstill and I just don't know what to do.

My family is going through a mega hard time right now, and I don't want to post specifics because it's just not me to post my life story, but if you want to know you can note me about it or whatever.

Anyway, if anyone is interested in helping at all, I'd be forever grateful. A full colour commission is only $25 until this gets sorted, or just telling people I'm open for them is super appreciated. Thank you and I'm sorry I haven't been around to post much.Also that this is so vague. I'm trying my best to help everyone and it's hard aha.

Ex of full commission-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11264401/ -multiple characters for right now are included in the $25 CAD

So nervous for my poor furbaby ;; The vet gave her all the wrong shots, distemper and rabies, so now I just sit here panicking and freaking out that she's going to develop one.

That's all really.

That and my tablet broke. I got a new one. So its ok.

I'm home from Englandland!

And I miss it.
Mostly just my boy though. I kinda prefer Canada because the roads are bigger and less horrifying. Sorry hahahaha.

REGARDLESS I can get back to arting for ya :)

Sorry for being dead! I've been in England tending to my boy <3 ill be back early July! And may post traditional stuff beforehand <3

Hey there loves!

So I was wondering what you guys would like to see from me. I've been at a block with my own personal art, and wonder what you guys would like to see!! <3

Also my poor boy has to get eye surgery soon,So! I really want to be there for him to help him out after it happens, and to comfort him. So if anyone is interested in commissions, I would super appreciate it! Commission prices are as follows:
$5 CAD
QUICK SKETCH, NO COLOUR
Example- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8380625/

$10 CAD FLATS
Example- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8500760/

$15 CAD
CLEAN LINES AND COLOURING BASIC, BASIC BG
Example- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9034113/ (obviously BG is not THAT Basic)

$25 CAD +
CLEAN, FULL ILLUSTRATION
Example- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8909759/

Thanks guys! If curious about anything just ask!

FREE FAAALLENN

-throws confetti-

AAAAAAAAAAAHHH
one thing about my mac that i dislike is that I can't just hold down a letter and make loads of them. BOO

Ahem.
I'M DONE. FREEDOM. FREEEEEEDOM TO DO WHAT I WANT. NO MORE STRESS GUYS. Well a significantly lower amount anyway...
AAHHHH <3
This is about school ps xP

TIME TO DRAW CUTE THINGS AND PLAY MY DS FOREVER <3

Hey guys~!

I planned on telling the world via a cute little drawing, but right this second, I gotta homework..because I've been gone the week I had off to do my homework ahah.

Where? London. Oh yes. I went on an exciting adventure to England for my reading break :) To visit my love and his family, as well as go to London.

My anniversary was last week too! Where he ended up asking me to marry him :3 <3 I~ said yes. I really want to be with him in Canada. Like now. But there's so many different things I have to do i'm incredibly confused. If anyone has any experience with visas and stuff from either Canada or the UK regarding this kinda thing, I would love you if you helped explain going through that type of thing ;-; anyway, I'll draw cute wonderful happy sad things once I finish this homework nonsense...I don't want to be here aha.

Hey loves! I'm sorry I've been dead.
To be completely honest with you, I can't draw anymore. I've been trying over and over and over again for about three months, but I'm just in so much of a slump with my life I can never bring myself to enjoy what I draw, to finish anything, to be ok with the result of how it's going.

I have a little bit more success with traditional art over digital, but I love digital art. I can't bring myself to draw my characters. I can't bring myself to even attempt backgrounds. I can't do anything. But I want to so badly. It just feels as if it's all the same and I'm not progressing.

School is affecting it, home life is affecting it, trying to carry out a social life is affecting it, but to be honest with you, the biggest thing that's affecting it is that I just can't. All I can do is lay in bed when nothing else needs to be done. Or even when other stuff needs to be done. I'm too stressed anymore. Is this what growing up is? It's driving me crazy and I don't know what to do about it. It's not a burden I need to put on the rest of the world. But I need to vent.

I'm the same person I've been since I was about 15-16, only with a little more maturity. Everyone else is changing on me, and I guess i've probably changed too, but my brain is still stuck there. I still feel my friends are the same people, and that they think about me just as much as I do them, but in reality, those people have almost all disappeared to pursue different and more exciting things. The same with my art really. I still feel my art is the same, and I know I need to improve, and need to change with it as I grow, but I can't seem to let go of what I thought was good back then. I can't bring myself to learn or change it, and the things I have changed, sometimes I feel they used to be better when I was that age. I don't know if anything I'm saying is really making sense. Or tying together at all. Maybe it just seems like a load of stupid venty points that are in no way related to art at all.

Art, drawing, painting has always been a huge passion in my life. And I know growing up changes you. I know it can be for the good, so that you can discover new factors in your life, and maybe something you enjoy more. But I seriously don't want that. I just want to put everything out into a big venty drawing. But I can't seem to do it.

Stress is attacking me too much to do the things I love and it sucks. I hope this changes soon. And then I can spew wonderful art at you again. And maybe it could even happen soon. Maybe a vent is all I need or needed. But until further notice, bare with me. I'm trying. Thank you so much <3

Oi. So fail with getting things done. I'm really really sorry for being inactive. Artblock and no time are dicks. I'm really trying to get things done, I promise, it just seems that nothing i do is good enough for myself. I've been trying for weeks to get things done but I just can't..stand what I'm doing lately. I'm going to obviously keep at it, just bare with me loves :c <3

IM DONE
IM DOOONE
For a month.
I CAN SLEEP.
I CAN DRAW.
OH GOD IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW. I'm SO sorry for the wait. I'm going to doodle a little to get back in the groove and then back to work on your stuff I go!

I got good marks in at least 5 classes. decent in 1, and..livable in the other 2 :)
I'm so incredibly sleep deprived. Ugh. doodles, nap, work! Loves <333

I am /never/ this bad at finishing stuff and I am /so/ sorry. Just kinda fell off the side of the earth for a little bit. Everything will continue and be fine and dandy once school is over next week.

School's shit, but almost over, meaning I'll finally have time to finish my commissions and stuff for the world. And I'll be happy <3 I've never been so excited to be leaving a place in my life. I miss highschool. and my forever. and my boyfriend. And my family. and my cat. And...friends. I'm really depressed here- Once upon a time I took a year off school. And I thought I was miserable then. Coming here was a whole other level of miserable. And it kinda sucks. Because I really wanted to do something with my life right now. And I really just can't go on with this for much longer. Bleh. Anyway. end depressing thoughts. a whole month of freedom and happiness until I have to be cooped up in hell again <3 and then only 4 more months until I'm free again <3

Art will occur again once all the last projects are in next week. Loves <3 Thank you for your patience

I should get a few things done this weekend for those waiting. I'm sorry ;-; it's the last couple weeks of school so im just getting overloaded. But i won't have internet this weekend so no distractions! x3

I'm thinking of lowering the price of full coloured commissions to just 20-25 CAD. I usually end up keeping them around there anyway so..yeah. I prefer nooot to do mature things though, at least if you want it here heh, I do have another account for that but I'd probably still only go for more tame things ^^; sorreh <3

I'm saving for animation mentor haha, which is suuuuper expensive. I have help, I just need to gain my part haha. as well as bills that obviously need paying. The school I'm in currently is apparently an incredibly sorry excuse, and honestly, when I go to apply to jobs I don't want to be denied just because of the school I went to, when the program I'm in doesn't even really need a degree. Unless I want to move to america, but even then, I'm Canadian, and I've heard of some visas obtainable for that. Idunno. I'm frustrated over the entire situation heh.

The installation of this game on my ps3 is taking AGES. AAAGES. But anyway. Caused me to wander here.

I did say I'd livestream last week more, but realistically that was kinda silly of me seeing as it was thanksgiving here in Canadaland xD My dad has no internet (I die a little) and my mom's internet is unbearably slow. causing it to fail. SO if you watch out during the week most times it will happen. So look out for that.

I'm a little behind in art due to school, thanksgiving and my birthday, but I should be back on track later tonight...after I try my new game. Which is almost done SO TOODLES LOVES <3

Hey! Alright so~ I recently switched over to a Mac, as my original laptop is kinda deceased, and it was recommended I had a mac for school, (I'm in animation, and literally everything we do is on a mac.) So Mac just seemed like the better choice for future reasons. I was wondering if there's any software that gives the same sort of drawing experience as SAI, since that was my normal drawing software, and I can't use it anymore, at least not on my own laptop. I've tried GIMP but it confuses me, and the pressure sensitivity kinda makes me rage a little. I don't really like Photoshop, but if that's all there is then i guess that's what I will have to deal with xD

Sketchbook Pro 6? Anyone know if that program is any good? I don't want to spend $60 on a program if it isn't going to work out for me, but right now that's all that I can find that's really similar-ish to SAI.

SO SUGGESTIONS would be lovely. Thank ya <3