Happy Early Halloween!

So at the end of this month/start of next month I will be leaving for West Virginia to be with a friend for a week. But for right now I'm getting ready for EC hockey and Wizarding Weekend in Ithaca. I'm also getting ready for Halloween. I love this month because I don't get wierd looks for wearing a tail around town. I seen a tail at my local mall I'm really thinking about getting. But for now I have a very nice grey wolf tail. My mates birthday was good and she loved her gifts.

I hope you all have a good day

So I seen my doctor yesterday and now it's my meniscus in my left knee. So I have an X-ray scheduled and an MRI afterwords. She's worried about the amount of liquid on my knee and that I can't bend it much. She's great and has been working with me for years. She's worried about me each time I see her, so I hope to get this all fixed before the snow Flys and it hurts me more.


Besides that after the 14th of this month I will be leaving for West Virginia for a week as a bit of a vacation away from New York and to see a friend. I'm also going for support due to his mom not doing good with cancer.

So today means a lot to me and that is why I posting this journal now and not during the day.
The girl I am with now is someone who has been helping me recently a lot. When we got together people told us that we wouldn't last and we would split after a month or two. here we are after six months still together. Rose means a lot to me and I mean a lot to her. We may come from very different families but that means nothing to us. we have had our hard spots where we thought it was going to end, but we have gotten through it and are strong. Today I will be with her in town doing Pokémon go and being with our friends. They are throwing us a little party tonight and I'm not sure when I'll be getting home. But I will say this. I'm happy and she is a lot happier than she was this time last year.

So October is going to be great for me. On the 2nd my mate and I hit a mile stone of six months we have been together. On the 14th is her birthday and the start of a new season of RWBY. The 6th is opening night of hockey and the 27th-29th is wizarding weekend in Ithaca. Not to mention in the middle of all of this it's my favorite time of year. I'm looking forward to Halloween.

So most people who know me know one thing. I have a lot of kittens that we've been trying to adopt out to good homes sadly we just lost one of the named Ink Splat. She was jet back like her twin brother. Sadly my mom and I found her last night just coated with fleas. We tried to help her and we couldn't. I held her this morning and she passed away in my arms after pawing at my face. We have one more that has gotten very sick and is trying to keep on fighting and that is Brownie. He's a long haired tiger cat with a brown square on his forehead. He was found by me just like Ink Splat was and he is doing better some what. He was eating from a bottle just a little bit ago. We hope he makes it through the night.

Sorry for the sadness. My heart just hurts a lot today.

HOCKEY SEASON IS HERE!!!
But the sad part is he on Elmira jackals aren't around anymore. But there's the local College hockey couple areas for off I plan on getting parts to do a somewhat partial suit for hockey games. What I dress up as for hockey games is a panda and I will be getting a panda head from Walmart for like twenty bucks and that will be what I used to do my suiting until I can get the proper material or money to get a partial suit for Devin. So be expecting pictures during hockey season of me in my suit in the way you know it's me as I always have a jackals Jersey on. Long live the jackals.






On another note since anyone's scroll down as far to see it. Not only was hockey season being here but the Haunted House season has started, and sadly this year I am not a part of a haunted house that I worked for last year. I was part of a haunted house called Kingsbury Cemetery haunted house, we have been running since 2000 and we ended in 2016. I worked in Odell's coffin Works, black Iron Forge and the doll factory and I also helped out in the hearts of Darkness part 1. Sadly there won't be any part 2 for the hearts of Darkness. There's a nice little haunted house in the Elmira area called The House of Fear. Please go to them give them some support if you're in the upstate New York area, for me the upstate New York area is Elmira/Corning/ Ithaca/ Binghamton areas. I'm just a little ways outside of Corning so it's my main hub. So if you see me around this hockey season or this winter in a Elmira Jackals Jersey would name DJ howler on the back don't be afraid to come up and say hello, I'd like to meet a couple people in my area that have similar to me

As most people know, I'm a Big fan of Halloween and stuff like that. So I've been doing stuff to get ready for it. Plus today my father who is an ice dragon gave me a git and I freaked out a bit over it. I've loved photography and scenery since I was a kid. When I was in high school I took digital media arts as a vocational tech class and I got to use a 35mm camera. Well today my dad gave me a 35mm camera with unused film. I am happy because everything's just been going downhill since July and I really haven't had that much of a good body image or self-esteem from myself at all. With everything that has been going on I just hadn't felt like doing a lot of art and all I've felt like doing is laying on my bed in my room letting my body heal. To try and pick me back up and give me a spark again my father gave me the camera and told me it was mine to keep. It has made me feel good and I do hope to get back into it much more. Thank you for taking the time to read this.

so about a month ago I had given you all an update. here is yet another one with a bit of sadness. as most of you know, I was working on transitioning to be male. sadly I had major problems with it and it nearly landed me in the hospital for a month. My knee is still not doing good. my last appointment I was informed that I will be in a brace indefinite. As of late I've been messing around with photoshop and coloring a few bases that are free to use here on FA. I've also been getting back into World of Warcraft and grinding out frost wolf rep. I've also gotten a mate that goes by the name MidnightRose and she is great. but there is my update for you all. I hope all is well for you all and you have a good time

So going through my old iPhone notes I found a note titled "my thoughts on life. Age 12". I opened it and well, I'll just leave it in here since I'm on my phone and I'm about to fall back to sleep

"
We go though life waiting for our own death, some take their hourglass of life and smash it ending their life early. Most people live life as if they'll die tomorrow. "Get drunk, brake a few laws, get high, get laid!, be a party animal...because I'll die tomorrow!" is what they may think.


Some of us sleep at night and see things in our dreams that we think is our past, some of us see things that turn out to be later on in our life, we do things we wish we could change, some are good some are bad.


We go though school wishing to get back at the people who tormented us and hurt us the most. At times we can but go to far and regret what we have done. We wish to say "I'm sorry" but can't from behind a closed jail cell on death row."

Thank you 12 year old me. I'll post the rest I find when I can

So three weeks ago I went to a clinic to have my leg looked at and I've had appointments since. Well I'm sad to say the damage to my knee is permanent. So I'm getting back into my art work more and my father is teaching me leather working to help me get out of this rut I'm in now. I'm forced to walk with a cane from now on to take some of the pressure off from my left leg and I'm going to tharapy now to help me walk some what normal again. But sadly I can no longer play sports and the one sport I can no longer play is hockey and it saddens me that I can't. But I will be sidelines cheering on my friends.

If anyone knows me well, they know I like to browse FA when I can't sleep. Well tonight I came across a troll account that was made around 12:39am. It kinda shocked me that the mods had yet to hit it with a ban hammer. So I started to read comments for the heck of it and quite a few people thought the same as me. "Where are the mods? Are they asleep?" Well about 2:33am the page went down at last. So that makes me think the guy was about three hours behind my time. But wow the people telling this person to keep going and going after people begging them to stop. Some people even found this troll account with sfw on and yelled about children seeing the stuff. But the mods woke up and ban hammered the account at last.

So yet again I was forced to go to a medical clinic....and this time it's my left knee giving out. What got me with this, is normally it's my right side that takes the most damage, but for once it was my left side and has rendered me a hobbling mess and slower than shit. For anyone who knows me well, this time of the year I tend to be quicker on my feet due to not wearing steel toe boots, but with my leg in a brace I'm stuck limping everywhere. I'm stuck like this for the next two and a half weeks. So you all might see a flood of art work show up on here. But for now I'm going to pass out and hope to wake up from this bad dream that is constant medical trips and pain.

So a bit of an update for you all.
I've been working none stop for a while now and I'm burning my self out sadly. A friend noticed and told me to take the next few days off. So I'm off for a few days, soon I'll be going to a get together with a few of my local overwatch players and having a Lan party. But for now I'm going to rest and relax

I'm sorry I haven't posted any art in a long time.
I just haven't been feeling it. I was informed that my insurance company won't cover my meds besides my ADHD ones and my stuff for my asthma and allergies. So I'm stuck with out meds for my depression and anxiety. So I'm trying everything to get my self feeling better. The hard part is the fact that my cat Sabre that's been helping me with everything can't come with me to my apartment when I go to live with a Co-worker on weekends. My mother already tried to get rid of him once and my father got mad at her for doing so. Anymore I'm just feeling beaten and empty inside. Even seeing my girlfriend isn't making me happy, it's only making me feel like a burden to her and everyone around me. I keep getting messages from home while I'm at the apartment saying "you never do anything when you are home, your rarely home as it is anymore. If you truly care about this cat like you say you do, you would have someone bring you home at least once or twice to see him and to help around the house." Each time I get a message like that I feel like crap and wish I had never taken this damn job. I've been at the apartment since Friday and will be here till Monday due to the fact that we have an event in the area called Glass Fest for Corning Inc. that starts on the 25th and goes to the 28th on Market Street in Corning NY. I'm helping out at a small dinner because it gives me something to do, but since I took the job my mother has made me feel like shit for taking it. I really truly don't know what to do anymore and I'm tired of putting a mask on when my coworker gets back to the apartment.
....I'm sorry for ranting, I'll just leave

If the title doesn't tell you what has pulled away so far 10 hours of my life than this will. A friend suggested I start playing Overwatch on the XboxOne and I've gotten addicted. I'm leveling every chance I get just to earn a loot box! We have figured out that I'm a Junkrat, Lúcio, Zarya main when it comes to me playing. I'm putting money off to the side to get a drawing done of a friend and I as our mains. I can't wait to get back to my apartment Friday and to play with them again.

So a bit of a heads up to everyone.
My art is going to bit few and far a while. After YEARS of dealing with it on my own and than dealing with how my body is afterwards I'm finally going to sit down and talk with my doctor about my anxiety. I had a terribly bad one hit me tonight where a dear good friend told me that I basically checked out of reality completely and started to cry and shake uncontrollably in the back seat of the car. She tried to have me eat solid foods and calm down and my body fully rejected the food and the drink I had, had before it hit. She told me I had her worried due to the fact that I started to dig my nails into both my forearms and would suddenly twitch my head to the side. I can't barely remember what I had happen to me at all and I really don't like when this happens, it is starting to happen to much these days and it has me scared.

Hello everyone!

So went to the doctor today thanks to a friend.
Doctor looked over my arm this morning and I can do some art, but for only 30 minutes. I have to take brakes every 30 minutes and do stretches for my wrist so it gets better.
Yay! I'm cleared to do some art work and that's good. Since my wrist being wrapped up my friends have done nothing but add to the crazy and silly art ideas I've already got going.

Be looking for a PotatoWolf drawing in a few days. This is one thing I can't get out of my head and feel a need to draw.

Hey guys.

So got I bit of bad news. After an amazing week with family and feeling the best I have in a long time, it all came crashing down Saturday night. I had sat down to draw in my sketch book and I had noticed my right hand hurting quicker than normal. Well my cousin and her wife showed up and we started dinner and Sara noticed that my right hand was giving me problems, so we went to a clinic and over the week of doing a lot of work outs and getting out more I tore the tendon in my wrist and pulled the muscle in my forearm. We figured that would be it, sadly it is not. I'm not allowed to use my right hand for a long period of time for 6 weeks or longer until I go back for a check up. So all drawings I had planned to do and post are on hold.


Why must my health hate my life style?
Edit: typing this all out on my phone with my left hand ducks because I keep hitting the weong keys on my screen

Hey guys, I know I'm not posting a lot and I'm very sorry for that. I've just been busy with stuff going on around me. I've been working to better my self and get to drawing more and Burr and others have been helping me with drawing more. And it feels good to be drawing sketches more. Well I won't waste your time and I will be on my way now. Thanks for stopping by

For most people that know me, my birthday is a good day for me. This year I hope it is better than the year before. On the 27th I'll be turning 22 and I'll be spending it with friends. I'm doing this post now because I know that Friday is going to be busy for me. I just hope it all goes well

So I've posted all the commissions I've had done so far. does just about all the work for me. They are amazing when it comes to their style. Burr has been my friend for over a year now and has helped me a lot and I try to do the same for them. When ever I get another commission or do more of my own work I will try to post it within 24 hours of it getting done

I'm sorry I still haven't posted anything. It's been crazy and I've been sucked back into Mine craft after being away for so long. I should be posting commissions that I had people do for me in a few days and that even means gifts. I'll try posting from my phone a few. Maybe even post a hybrid animal I did in high school.

I know I have it stated on here that I will post my art soon, my problem right now is getting the hard drive out of my old laptop and getting it so I can get all the artwork and images off that drive, my other problem as of right now is most of my art is on Deviantart still from my days on that page, I will try and take a weekend and just dump a shit ton of my work onto here. It is chewing at the back of my head so it might be a weekend here soon, that and I think my girlfriend might remind me to at least post some of my more recent drawings I have done onto here. For the time being I'm going to try to upload on Sunday the beginning of the history on my Warcraft main named Mitch Beceau who is a Horde Pandarian Beast Master Hunter. Thanks for giving this a read and sorry I'm not uploading yet, still getting used to this place.