I do not come to FA often. It just doesn't have the same appeal (to me) as it once did, and even then, I was forcing it to become a place for me to show my art. Yes, if I have art, I'll show it. I've been on DeviantArt much more lately; I just find managing more than one art site at a time to be a bit ...draining...

But it's been almost 10 years since I really did anything on here worth noting. I've broken off ties with a couple of people on here in those 10 years. Nothing to talk about on this site; not that important really. I blocked them and moved on.

My art as of late has really been "contrived" on my part. Making those cute girlie pics doesn't come easy anymore. You have to keep practicing. I stopped practicing when me and my art no longer became relevant. I'm not complaining, it does happen and is part of life. I must have done it for the accolades. But I also lost interest in doing those pics. I'll still do art, but my subject matter differs, and I like to use my iPad to draw. Pen and paper are just too heavy and cumbersome to lug around anymore. I know in the past I used to tout the benefits of old school drawing and painting over digital media, but I get it now, it's very convenient. Of course now I need to get a new iPad, my old one is slowing down and won't update anymore. And don't talk to me about drawing tablets like Wacom, etc. .. perhaps down the line, but these things cost money (like a new iPad) and I want to get my house remodeled very soon. So I have to make choices. (but a new iPad isn't that much considering..hmm)

But that's the state of my art as it stands.

On Wednesday, October 18, 2017..our corgi Angus passed away. Back in June-July, he under went chemo to treat lymphoma. After 6 spread out treatments, each a little less after the other, the cancer went into remission, so much so, it practically disappeared. However, it took a heavy toll on his heart and kidneys. He lost almost half his weight, ate very little or not at all, and drank copious amounts of water, and in some instances, vomiting that up.

..And his heart developed a severe murmur.

He was wasting away before our eyes..and his vet said we had choices, but with the severe condition of his heart, there was a very good chance he’d never survive anymore procedures.

My wife and I made the painful final decision to end his suffering.

With tears in our eyes and heavy hearts..we helped to send him across the Rainbow Bridge.

We still wonder if we did the right thing. Helping him end his pain. Sometimes beating ourselves up, crying, crying some more. Maybe time will tell. If we hadn’t however, we would be witnessing his slow and painful decline within days. And with his lack of appetite, death by anorexia, even for a dog is very painful to watch.

It’s been 3 days and I still have bouts of tears. I’ve never in my life felt this way for a pet. The hell of it is, Angus never made it to his 10th birthday. Every other pet we had lived the very long lives that a cat or dog could have. Angus’s life was cut short by the treatment of a dreaded disease, which we knew ahead of time that such treatment can have side effects, but somehow held out hope that this would buy him another year or two or possibly three.
You put so much love into a small being like Angus, and they give back ten fold. It’s love you take with you for the rest of your life.

We will miss him dearly, and hopefully in the days, weeks, months and years to come, we can look back on our times with him, remembering his goofy antics and the cute things he did, and call up that love and remember fondly the time we shared our lives with this remarkable, four legged furry being who shared his life with us.

Your path is open my little pup..fly free..❤️💕