I know I've only posted one pic. Yes I did do it myself, just could never get the motivation to make more. Been having a rough day with depression and thinking on being attracted to Anthro, and general populace views. Tried messaging someone on Twitter, dunno think I was just either looking to vent, or get help, maybe advice. Something that could help, just can't stop dwelling. Of course the message didn't send. Dunno what I expected, guess I'll post it here (slightly edited)

Hi, I'm messaging you because (edit). I'm glad it's easy for you tell be you, I however am terrified of anyone finding out. I'm constantly told by people I know horrible things about furries. Someone I knew (not a friend just in the same circles) was completely ostracized when people found out he was into the culture. People would come to me to talk about it and how awful, gross, etc... it was meanwhile I was scared to say anything and just played along. Later I got a job I was in for well over a decade as a theme park performer including the character suits in the park. Again constantly hearing insults, and comments from coworkers. Especially in that profession, were extra against furries from my experience. Any time a guest would act inappropriately, they were called a furry backstage as an insult. For well over 20 years I've hid it. Smiled and played along to all the insults even though they were hitting me too. I've just felt alone. I'm married and my Wife found pictures on my computer and told me I'm weird. I feel trapped. Like I can't express myself. I found your video because I was looking for any advice to help, but all I kept finding was that it's not a big deal basically. Well I'm glad it's not for others, for me My family would not be cool, former coworkers who're still friends would gossip and it would turn bad (The entertainment industry is like a highschool loving their dramas), and current friends. It's terrifying. I was so scared I made a new account to message you because I don't want to be linked directly. I'm disabled now. Got a spinal injury from performing. I'm so afraid of being alone. Or my Wife leaving me with our kids. Or both. It's not easy for everyone. The fear is crippling I'm in tears right now. Wanting to go out and be myself for so long but myself is hated so I keep it secret. Like I'm hated, and I can't find help anywhere. I used to vent using internet RP chat rooms, but it got old. I dunno, maybe I shouldn't have sent this. I'm just feeling vulnerable. Sorry for bothering. Thank you for your time.

1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?

Well I just got back From spinal surgery. The doctor expects it'll take me about three months before I fully heal. In the mean time I'm in incredible amounts of pain. Luckily, I had Pain killers already From before the surgery because of course workers comp is screwing me around again, they knew I was getting painkillers for after surgery and didn't approve anything before they left for the holiday weekend. I've got to walk around my apartment with a walker. The surgery involved removal of bone spur, and then they fused my vertibrae together with metal rods and screws. FUN TIMES huh. But i'll be home for a while recouping. Maybe I'll update, not sure yet, depends on the pain, and motivation. I'll probably be world of Warcrafting alot, if anybody wants to meet up.

I just copy and pasted this...

IF YOU WATCH ME, I WANNA KNOW YOU...I'd like to know 33 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine...

1. Can you cook?

2. What was your dream growing up?

3. What talent do you wish you had?

4. Favorite place?

5. Favorite vegetable?

6. What was the last book you read?

7. What zodiac sign are you ?

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?

9. Worst Habit?

10. Do we know each other outside of lj?

11. What is your favorite sport?

12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?

13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15. Tell me one weird fact about you:

16. Do you have any pets?

17. Do you know how to do the macerana?

18. What time is it where you are now?

19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22. What color eyes do you have?

23. Ever been arrested?

24. Bottle or Draft?

25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?

26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?

27. What 's your favorite bar to hang at?

28. Do you believe in ghosts?

29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

30. Do you swear a lot?

31. Biggest pet peeve?

32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?

33. (this one's a maybe) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

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