Date: July 19, 2025
Tags: animation, procrastination, motivation, journal

Hey everyone,

Lately, you’ve probably noticed that my animation projects have either slowed down dramatically or vanished into the void. Truth is… yeah, they’re pretty much indefinitely delayed. I keep saying I’m working on stuff, and technically I am… in between long gaps of distraction, procrastination, and losing focus entirely. My motivation has tanked. I used to be excited to sit down and bring my characters to life—frame by frame, shot by shot—but now even opening the program feels like a chore. I can’t even pretend to be in that same creative mindset anymore.

What makes it harder to admit is that I’ve gotten a lot lazier. Like, not even in the “I’m tired” kind of way—just in the “I don’t feel like pushing myself right now” way. I start, I stop, I get sidetracked by everything else. I get into other hobbies, then abandon those halfway through too. It’s not even just burnout at this point—it’s more like I’m slowly realizing I don’t know if I even want to do animation anymore.

I’ve been sitting at my desk for years now, staring at an empty timeline and feeling more stuck than ever. Every time I try to open my animation software, my mind immediately drifts to other things—a new drawing project, a video game I haven’t touched in months, or even just goofing off online. What’s worse is that I can’t even remember the last time I felt genuinely excited about animating. Ideas come to me in bursts, but whenever I sit down to turn those ideas into motion, I suddenly feel… lazy. It’s like a thick fog settles over my brain, and I can’t push past it.

I always thought of myself as someone who would never give up. But these days, “indefinitely delayed” might as well be my middle name. Chapters of my main project have stretched from “just a few more tweaks” to “maybe tomorrow” to “when inspiration strikes again,” whatever that even means anymore. I keep telling myself I’ll finish this shot, this scene, this entire film—but the truth is, I’m not sure I want to. There’s this nagging voice inside that asks whether animation is still worth the effort, or if I’m just clinging to an old dream because it feels… safe.

On top of that, every hobby I have now seems to siphon off my focus. An idea for a new Drawing pops up. Before I know it, I’m two hours deep into Drawing a new OC, and I haven’t even moved one frame forward. Other times, I fall into research rabbit holes—pouncing on new software tools, tutorials, and “better” workflows—only to realize I’ve spent more time learning about animation than actually animating.

Part of me Hopes this is just burnout, and that if I push through, I’ll rediscover that old spark. But another, louder part of me wonders if it’s time to let go—if maybe I’m meant to pour my creativity into something else entirely.

So here I am: stuck, unmotivated, and questioning everything I used to love. I don’t have any grand epiphanies or solutions yet. All I know is that I need to be honest about where I’m at. If you’ve ever been here too, know that you’re not alone. And if you have any tips for snapping out of this haze or rekindling that spark, I’d really appreciate hearing them

And yeah… if you’ve been paying attention, there’s been a shift in the kind of stuff I post or talk about. I’m getting more into fetish art—especially stuff that centers around my looner side, like beachballs, inflatables, that whole vibe. That part of me has definitely gotten more… active. I’ve always had those interests, but I’ve started leaning into them more creatively, and it’s kind of taken over my focus in a way I didn’t expect. I find myself wanting to draw or write stuff about that, instead of animating scenes from a story I no longer feel connected to.

It’s weird, but also kind of freeing to just admit it. I’m still the same person, still passionate about creating—but what I want to create and why has definitely shifted. I don’t know where that’ll lead, or if I’ll ever circle back to animation the way I used to. Right now, I’m just floating with whatever feels right in the moment.

Thanks to those who’ve stuck around or even just quietly noticed the change without judging. I’m figuring things out—maybe slowly, maybe messily—but I’d rather be honest about where I’m at than pretend I’m still grinding away at something that no longer excites me.

Hey everyone,

After everything that’s happened over the past few weeks, I’ve decided to give DeviantArt one more shot. I know this probably sounds a little crazy—especially since my last experience ended with threats and toxic drama over two harmless movie sequels. But here’s why I’m willing to try again:

I Still Love Creating and Sharing Art
I left DeviantArt feeling hurt and frustrated, but that didn’t change how much I care about art, animation, and being part of an online community. Art is important to me—not just as a hobby, but as a way to connect with other people who share similar passions. I want to remind myself that there are still friendly, respectful people here, even if it sometimes feels like the loudest voices are the negative ones.

I’ve Set Clear Boundaries
Last time, I got sucked into a heated argument because I commented on a “ragebait” post—someone trashing my favorite movies. I spoke up respectfully, and I was met with hostility and even a vague threat to “not do it again.” Now, I’m reactivating with the understanding that:

I will not engage with anyone who resorts to threats or intimidation.

If a comment or person starts feeling toxic, I’ll block and report immediately.

I’ll focus on the art and the positive conversations, rather than getting dragged into drama.

Patience and Perspective
Art communities—especially fandom spaces—can be unpredictable. I know my work might not get tons of attention right away, and my journals might not spark huge discussions every time. That’s okay. I’ve learned that sometimes it takes patience to find the right friends or collaborators. I still have my FurAffinity page, but I want to see if there’s a way to coexist on both platforms without feeling dragged down by negativity.

What I’m Looking For

Constructive Feedback: Critique is welcome when it’s honest and kind. If something in my art or storytelling can be improved, I want to hear about it—just not in a mean-spirited way.

Friendly Conversation: Let’s talk about creative processes, favorite animation techniques, or the latest Blender experiments. I’d love to learn from anyone here.

Mutual Respect: Even if we disagree on what makes a movie “good” or “bad,” I hope we can keep it civil. If you don’t share my tastes, you’re still welcome to say hi—no need to make hate posts.

A Fresh Start
I’m not returning because I miss the drama; I’m returning because I miss the possibility of connecting. My goals right now are simple:

Share new sketches, 3D tests, and character designs for Lucy and Jack.

Check in on others’ work regularly, leave positive comments when something genuinely moves me.

If you happen to see my reactivated account popping up in your notifications, please feel free to say hello or drop a comment. I know there are still plenty of kind, creative people here despite some bad experiences. And if things start turning toxic again, I’m prepared to step away—once more, on my own terms.

Thank you for reading this. Here’s to hoping this “last chance” becomes a genuinely good experience. See you in the comments

Why I Left DeviantArt

Hey everyone,

I just wanted to take a moment to explain why I’ve decided to permanently leave DeviantArt.

Recently, I had an unpleasant experience over there that honestly pushed me over the edge. I commented on Jeszdesgroups,s artwork—just expressing my honest opinion about a movie sequel I personally love. I wasn’t rude or insulting, just emotional and passionate about something I care about.

But instead of a respectful disagreement, I got a thinly veiled threat in return. The person said they “tolerated” my opinion, but then went straight to warning me not to post anything like that again—or else. And they made this threat on my own page.
I just now realized He was tryhing to cover up his frustration with the comen i wrote
That was the final straw for me. Unfortunately he bloked me first!

I was respectfull, and he pressured me to delete my coments!
I never had to deal with psicopaths like that before!
And i can not state this enough!
I’m tired of sites where people act like it’s okay to bully or intimidate others just because they don’t agree. I’m done with platforms where you have to walk on eggshells just to avoid being harassed for liking the “wrong” thing. DeviantArt has felt toxic to me for a while now, and this experience just confirmed that it’s not a space I want to be in anymore.Unfortunately, the comments have been deleted and I don’t have any screenshots. I was so short-sighted—I just wanted to delete everything and leave that idiot behind in the moment.
So thanks to my stupidity, the evidence is gone!

FurAffinity has always felt more friendly, chill, and creative to me—and that’s the kind of energy I want to be around. I'm here to share art, connect with others, and talk about the things I love without fear of being attacked for it.

If you followed me from DeviantArt or you're just discovering me here—thank you. Your support and kindness mean a lot.


The guys name on DA is: Jeszdesgroups
please report him emediately! Cancle him!

The story is Ready now(Might need to shorten it though).
I have to cut a lot of Corners on the project!
Things turned out Absolutely overdone,I finaly realized i ll never be able to make a Pixar like 3D animation.
So i took a step back!
the projeckt might be realizable now, although it is realy sad that most of it´s plot and even a song number got cut from the projeckt, With many more to follow.

I have a lot of other projeckts on my list that come later.

list of projeckts:
1) Lucy short film: Expanded to Become a fully Independent feature film (In progress).

2) Hand drawn Lucy Youtube show: (test) Pilot episode in planning (brought back after cancellation).

3) Lucy plush toy: In progress

4) DIY Animatronic Lucy: Very expensive and likely not Posible!

5) Short Lucy comics for FA: Not started yet!

I have my own very unique characters,But no idea what to do with them (acept my short film project).
I thought about a mini comic series,But not till i finish my first project!
I allso have no ideas for the plot of thad comics yet!
I got so much to do and it gets realy hard to me to catch up to everything i have missed to do!

Hi? Is there anyone out there? I kind of feel lonely here because most of the people I watch are not online or don't upload much!
OK! OK! This could be related to Covid-19.
It just feels kind a awkward being allmost the only one here still online.

Allthough i acualy still have struggles with getting my projeckts done and my computer seemes to be in the worst condition ever.
My projeckt becomes a race against time!

Yes! it is wierd that i changed my mind that fast since jesterday i just posted that i might have to give the projeckt up,But...

...It makes me so saad thad Covid 19 might could destroy the Movie industry.
I know were is basicaly so much more to wory about like the Lives of my famili members and me,But i could not live without cinematic entertainment.

So the Lucy show will go on (might as the last animated projeckt ever,Something like a tribute to the old days).
I am working very save on my project in terms of corona infections cause i am working alone (That is usually a problem,But not in case of Corona),Though it makes the process very slow and Tricky.
That is why i still need to take a Longer break here on FA!
Though it dont means i will never come back,It is just a break!

Meanwile, non of my caracters will be sold (Different to wat i stated jesterday!).

the thing i loved the most, became my worst nightmare.
Now my worst nightmare becomes my destiny again,Cause i cant see the most beautifull Artwork of live go extinkt,Wich for me is Animation!

It still can take a lot of time till it will be finisched Though!

wish me luck!!!

I Realy need to take a break here on furaffinity,But not cause of depressions or cause i have no time for myself or any kind of tippical reasons.
The Distraction here is to big, I sill work on my movie projeckt but since i am Uploading here i am to busy wrighting stupid comments or favoriting to much- art here.

I need to focus on my projeckt now, Or else the show simply hase to be cancled.
I Don,t now if i evan finnish it.
It sounded manageable at first,But now it seems like i almost lost my interest again.
And this hapened to a lot of my projeckts.
I dont want to decrease the quality to save time, That is a stupid concept.

Iam not a profesional animator,I have to go to work well working on my projeckt at home.
Wouldn,t you too be Lazzy if jou kame back from work?

I am thinking about a time menagement terapy.
I am a just a jung fool ho thought he could be an Animator,It look so easy,But now after 7 years of developing the lucy show concept,I realized that my cartoon is never going to be finished.

So wat does thad mean?
Two things could happen.

Possability one: I will find a way to finnisch the projeckt anniway by investing mor time and finaly a bit of monney.

Possability two: I will have to sell my projeckts and Caracters to someone ho can finnisch the show,Someone how does oderstand what i had in mind and Aprechiates the roots of this caracters(Wich is a verry hard and saad desision) But maybe the only good desision!

But dont worry !!! I will give this show a very last try.
I will try to find my confidence again,And give everithing to make it a Gorgeous show!
If i fail again,Than giving up is the better desision.

I just spend to much time thinking of stupid fantasy figures, Sorry! But the only purpouse of my caracters allways was to be animated.
Animation would make these character come to live,So pretty with a Matching young voice acting for lucy, that could be Gorgeous!

Thaks for your time!

This Journal is specially for   lulu

It is might a bit to long, So you could just read the part above,But i would appreciate if you could read the other part too, Sorry! It just became too long.

I just want to say that i am your biggest fan! And as you might have guessed, I just like to chat a little with you sometimes, If that annoys you i will stop- immediately!
This Journal is kind of an excuse for the previous one, Don't know what i was thinking back then.

How much i like jour art.

So i just want to tell you that i am almost possessed from your art and that your the best artist i know.
Your art could really be from out of a Disney movie, specially your Sassy.
I like that you are Different than the others,You Stayed a child like Me i assume!
I allso found you on deviant art and YouTube(as you know),But to be honest,I dont realy like transformas (Just my Opinnion).
But what you made here (I figured out you Designed Sassy just for FA) that is realy Unique.
I actually wanted to do similar stuff, but i kind a failed(need to buy a digital drawing tablet, might could improve things).
So i really love what you do and hope you keep doing that for long! But i natualy cant tell you what to do,So just do what you want to!
I would onderstand if jou still would think about leaving. Just wish you luck, On what way ever jou go!


How much you inspired me! (But mainly as a little back story about my character).

Also to finaly explane my prevous Jealousness,There was a time wen i just loved my caracters and the most gorgeous one was Lucy and yes,She existed long before i evan had a page on Furrafinity. Why would a Man draw a female Cartoon dog? Cause i can, and i like it!
You have to know, i have a strange Conection to female Cartoon dogs,I realy love them (Since i saw Lady and the tramp as a child).
But only the Cutest Caracter can winn my hart, That was the case with Lady (from Lady and the tramp) beaten from Georgette (fom Oliver and Company) wich was beaten from Dixie (from the fox and the hound 2).

But my lucy was better than all of them and she was my creation(also in mind thad she would fit perfecktly into my Animated cartoon idea,First only as- Timos girlfrend but lucy,s caracter evolved to the main caracter of the show, wich i still work on). I already thought thad she was Unbeatable in terms of cuteness, But i was horibly rong.Cause When i saw your Sassy all my Feelings for Lucy were actualy long Gone before, Thad feelings never stay for long till she became boring to me. Sassy was two things at once, Cute and sexy. I only saw that from Dixie before.
But if i would let Lucy down i would also give up my Projeckt and my best caracter. So i tried to Hold up to Lucy, But always in mind that there are other People who could draw my Lucy in Disney style(Wich i allways was aiming for) with that cute Eyes. It was the Imagination of what would become out of it,That keeped her alive.

But hey! i found inspiration now, I will Give Lucy a second chance.
The Projeckt finaly moves somewere and I have half of the Script Finisched! 3D Animaton will make the Movie fit more into the Todays Age.
And 3D Animation is not allways ugly, Although it makes things complicaded on a Tecnical level.

I hope you liked this Journal better than the other!

Welcome all here on my FA Page!

Some of jou might actualy notice that i am a little clumsy and Kind a dumb sometimes,I have to Find my way heare on FA and find out how everything works.

  BrunoMax895 just asked me how the Progress on my Short Film Project goes.
First of all i want to say that this is a Hobby Projeckt, I am working on Alone and I am not a profesional animator.
I can say it's actually going down a hill, I am alwais so Lazy unmotivated and i got to work on my Time Management a lot.
I Still got to write the story,The story is actualy already planed, I got confidence to finnisch it (I am at 4 pages now).

The 3D test model of my main caracter was re designed several times from scratch,So that i kind a had no time to build all the Houses,All the streets,All the assets and the Other Caracters.I simply have to cut Corners from now on Cause I wasted tenn jears on Lerning to deal with the 3D programm.
The story expanded to much so i think i will seperate it into 3 to 5 Episodes.

I Changed my mind!
I will release tiny bits of my story till I finished the Film.

Thanks for jour time!!!