Let's talk about ART THEFT! I'm really really getting tired of all these furs thinking I own that pose or that is MY character you are drawing. Just writing Spooge Wolf, C in a circle me DOES NOT mean you have copy writed the picture. You have to have it legally documented and you have to have the copy write approved. Meaning there can't be anything in the picture that has been copy writed by someone else. As long as I'm DRAWING the picture myself I can part the hair on the other side and call him Wacker Wolf and low and behold I have a new character.

When I first started posting pictures on the web I drew a vixen named Nina, unbelievablely another artist had a vixen character named Nina who was going trough some of the same things my Nina was. I was accused of character theft by friends of the artist. I contacted him and we had quite a laugh over the fact that we had indeed created the same character at roughly the same time. I stopped drawing my Nina because he did so much better at his, my choice and he never asked me to quit. But it goes to show that it IS possible for two people to design very similar character with out stealing the idea from each other.

Some one drawing your character is NOT art theft, it you would be like me doing a painting of the Mona Lisa, unless I'm claiming I'm Da Vinic then it's my painting and I can bloody well sell it if I want. Get it straight art theft is claiming you did art you didn't draw or you are breaking into someone's house to carry it off. I draw a picture of Zig Zag in my style then that picture is mine and belongs to me. If I want to sell that one picture I can. If I mass producing them for public sale or repetitively drawing Zig Zag for sale then Max can come and take me to court. And even then Max would have to PROVE that my picture sales where hurting his sales because a judge would look at the pictures and say well it is a naked tiger stripped skunk but they really don't look anything alike.

I asked a copy write lawyer about this stuff and you know what he told me about taking this stuff to court. ONLY the lawyers win. It will spend years in court till one side or the other runs out of money then the judge will flip a coin and point to one side or the other.

Every one needs to take David Sim's advice in his book on the comic biz, sign no legal papers, draw your character the best that you can, and if someone else can do it better than you BULLY for them.

I'm really cheesed off this time, I was told I need to get a firmer grip on reality. I'll tell you this if I had any firmer a grip on reality I'd choke the living snot out of it!

Let's compare this reality thing for a moment.

In reality I slave at a dead end job for barely enough money to pay my bills, get food, and gas for the car.

In FANTASY, I can fly and teleport, no need for a POS car. There are pizza and cheese cake trees. I can wave my tail and anything I desire magically appears.

In reality I have to take 4 pills a day to keep my body from poisoning itself, 2 pills to keep from killing myself, and one pill to keep the other pills from poisoning me. All the while I have the slow degeneration into the realm of Geritol and Depends.

In FANTASY I'm immortal and healthy all the time. I get killed and fwoomph the body bursts into flames and there is a new me there.

In reality I'm surrounded by ugly skinny skank hoes that I'd need a hazmat suit and 10 foot penis extension to even begin to want to have sex with.

In FANTASY, well I think LARGE BREASTED VIXENS sums it up.

I have a firm grasp and understanding of reality and I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH IT!

Now excuse me but I have to wrap my head in tinfoil to protect my brain from the evil reality rays being beamed down from Mars.

Just feeling a bit depressed this morning and was wondering how one tells if it was really worth it?

What is the measure of the productiveness of your life?

I find that the great accomplishments of my life are fairly meager and unimpressive. I don't think I've done any great harms in the world but on the other paw I haven't done much good either. I suppose that it pretty much evens out to a zero on that count in goods vs evils. I've wrote some stories, done some art work, all in all I've done more than I ever expected I would.

Still I find that when I scrape together all I have ever done it is a small pile that doesn't seem to amount to much.

I feel that while I have wasted most of my life at least I have not wasted it as badly as most. I'm fairly sure that I have not made the world a worse place and I have managed to bring a few laughs and smiles to people.

I guess that if you can make just one person happy for a while when they are sad you have not truly wasted your life.

You know what I'm really really tired of. . .people bitching at angsty depressed people. You say you're feeling depressed and holy crap they are on you like flies on a pile of poo.

Wanna know what this feels like? You're a furry so you should have some imagination skills. Lets start with dressing you in a snow suit, you can picture how that feels right. Now we stick you in the snow suit in the middle of the desert and we have you running through the sand in 110 degree heat. But wait that's not all you have a back back on and in that backpack is that crazed drill instructor from full metal jacket yelling at the top of his lungs what a worthless pile of crap you are Private Pile. No after fifty miles you collapse and whine about how hot it is.

That is when a bunch of people sitting at a table drinking lemonade under an umbrella tell you to quit whining and suck it up like a man and if you just wanted to you wouldn't feel hot.

Knowing most of you there'd be a table of dead tards at that point right?

That is what it's like for a person with chronic depression.

But you say every one gets depressed.

Yeah but that isn't chronic depression.

Let's use that imagination of yours again.

You just came outside and there in front of your house is your kitten, he's been spread to about a half inch thick and about three feet long by what looks a steam roller. How do you feel, pretty sad, pretty depressed, okay now THAT IS HOW YOU FEEL EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY!

For some reason God the Happiness Nazi said to you, �No Happiness for you!�

That is your base line emotion, yes there are better days when you can fake happy for the rest of the world but you never really get to feel it. That black cloud of sadness is NEVER and I mean NEVER out of sight. Then there are the days you are really depressed.

That is when the edges of knives or a bottle of pills hold a terrible fascination for you.

And for every one that says �Oh that's the cowards way out.� I want you to factor this into your thinking. People are Hard Wired to not harm themselves! Test this out, take a sharp knife and give yourself a good slash or stand on the edge of a high building and try to take a step off. Every fiber in your being pulls at you to make a wimpy cut or back away from the edge. Well guess what suicidal people have the same hard wired instinct as everyone else.

To kill yourself takes a massive act of pure will to over come all your survival instincts. Think about how much pain it would take for you to want to die right now. That is how much pain a suicidal person is in, probably for quite some time.

Yes it is annoying to hear that someone is going to kill themselves maybe for the tenth time, but think of this. What they are saying is, �I'm in pain someone help me.� if a person was laying on the sidewalk in front of you house saying that would you be the rat bastard that would yell out the window, �Suck it up and be a man!� or would you at least call someone to come and help them even if you couldn't help yourself.

I figured I need to do more of these journal thingies. So I'll post my rants, ponderings, and what evers.


Okay I need this explained to me. I can't have kids so there is a lot of this parenting crap I don't understand but I try to see this from everyone's view point. Still I can't quite wrap my brain around this.

Your kid screws up his or her courage to finally come to you and tell you they are gay, not Christian, or they want to be the opposite sex. Me I'd be upset, I'd be upset as hell. I'd be upset that my child, the one person on earth that should never be afraid to come to with their problems would have to work up the courage to tell me.
I guess I'm just a sick twisted %$#@, but I can't understand these people that throw away the greatest gift you can be given just because they don't live up to your image of them.
My son has a boyfriend, he's still my child. My son wants to be a girl, yay I now have a daughter. My son wants to shave his head and study Zen, good for him.
Gypsies buy children because the believe that parents that are willing to sell their children don't deserve them. Those of you that have tossed your kids out on the street or worse beat them in attempt to make them conform to your ideals, well you don't deserve your kids, you never did.
All you were supposed to do was love your children more than you love yourself and try to understand them. The first is easy, the second you only have to try at, how could you fail at something so simple.

I was in a chat room this week being perverted and molesting the idle when this anti-furry freak showed up and began putting down furries and the fandom. I'm quite ashamed that everyone jumped on this guy like a box of jelly donuts at weight watchers convention. You people need to learn that everyone has a right to express their views even is you don't agree with them.

And besides you should take pity on this guy, one day he's going to be picking his nose and jerking off to some of the furry porn he keeps hidden under his bed, he's going to get over exited and is going to jerk that tumor he uses for a brain out of his skull and die. As responsible furries it is our duty to make these poor repressed individual as comfortable as possible for their last days on this planet. And if they seem exceptionally miserable send them some links to furry porn to help them closer to the moment they can be reborn as a happy furry.

I just found that VCL_Horrors is being tracked and OMFG I'm in the top 10! This is so cool. I'm so glad that I've been able to make the trolls twitch.

http://vcl-horrors-scoreboard.issarlk.net/

Dorian