Wow, I pulled in a ton of new watchers with those last couple of posts, heh.

So yeah, welcome to my page in 2018! Here you will obviously find vore, a love of everything non-fatal, and all sort of hyper!

I'm going to try my best to get some posts rolling, maybe twice a week? I'll try for a Sunday/Monday upload schedule!

I have been doing some thinking, thanks to a few very close people.

Would people be upset with me, or angry if I transitioned to a little more 'traditional' things in vore. Like, gurgling and digesting prey, with the cartoon style of death where the prey will obviously pop back later?

I feel like I'm bombarding people with this shit, but I am wanting to work to improve.

So a few people know that this past weekend for me has been very....challenging, to say the least. I've been at the lowest I've ever been in a long time, and it has left me with a need to do some introspection.

I've been in the fandom for 14 years now, which stemmed from an introductory course on vore, Over this time I've known a LOT of people, ranging from relationships that didn't pan out, to the very few long/current relationships like the one with . I've met a lot of people through various means, and a few people through hir, one of which I was afraid I had destroyed my friendship with. Thankfully that was not the case, but the whole situation made me realize I once again stuck my nose way too deep into the online world. This has resulted in being unable to detach myself from what others were doing.

Obviously I've never been one to really enjoy fatal and/or unwilling vore. Digestion/absorption were a bit of a grey area, but as long as reformation was always a thing, I would not mind. Permavore has caused issues with this, the whole concept of profile play and pushing the results of an RP on other people whether they like it or not is never a cool thing. I've since seen the results of people getting to vote on whether something was permavore or not, and that is what broke me.

I realize that I've let this affect my mental health way too much, and so I'm going to try and remove myself from things a bit. If I see instances of profile play or things like temp/permavore, I most likely will doing some blocking so I don't have to see it. I mean, that's what block and mute functions are for after all.

I guess I'm just rambling at this point, but I feel as though my brain has just been put in a blender and left a pulpy mess. I may be taking a break from f-list, and am definitely going to either avoid twitter, or unfollow a large number of accounts that may contain stuff that could re-trigger me.

So yeah, if you read all of this, congrats. I fucked myself up in the head, saw things that upset me, and blew them out of proportion, and got so bent out of shape that I scared myself into believing I was going to lose a friend because of a misunderstanding.

Anyway, Happy New Year and such, hopefully 2018 will finally be the year that I can fucking figure myself out!

Just wanna wish everyone a happy holiday season!

Don't worry, this isn't a self-hate journal. Just something I feel the need to post and get off my chest. No one in particular is at fault, either.

I am not easy to talk to. I grew up with mild/moderate ADD, enough to affect my schooling, and it still lingers. I randomly will stop responding to messages on Telegram or other chat platforms, partially because I get sidetracked, but also sometimes I just have no clue how to respond in a way that isn't *nods* 20 times over.

I also have problems keeping up with all of the people I know. This sometimes equates to me just staring silently at my screen, thinking about conversation with various friends, but never messaging them. It also leads to me feeling aloof, alienating those I care about because I have no idea how to make conversation about something other than dicks, vore, games or computers. At the same time, I don't enjoy being approached by new people, because it's another person on the list of 'people I want to talk to but don't have the time or mental capacity'. I appreciate the fact that people enjoy the art I commission, and find my characters likeable, but like any popular person, I'm only one guy and can't be friends with everyone.

I'm not asking for sympathy, or help, or anything like that. I suppose I just want to have my thoughts out in the open so people understand why I seem distant sometimes.

Oh dear, this page could certainly do with a good, thorough cleaning!

Yup, I'm going to be attempting to do some cleaning of my userpage here. I've got so much art that I have yet to post, and some stuff on here I feel doesn't really... 'represent' me anymore.

Sorry to anyone who liked it, but it'll be gone in a few days. I guess consider this a heads-up in case you want to save anything.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24738657/

I just want to spread the word for

Ok, so now that I'm well rested after my last journal, I've done a little bit of thinking in regards to the gaming stuff, for streaming and youtube.

Currently, one of the things I've wanted to do most of all is a 'do everything' run in Minecraft, specifically vanilla 1.12. That means traversing the nether, fighting the Wither, exploring the End, defeating the Dragon, and attempting to get all achievements. I'd likely only record this, and possibly have people join me occasionally to help while I record. This could potentially be a "Hey, anyone who'd like to join me for recording, put your names into a pool and I'll select a name at random each time I sit down to record. When I choose a name, if that person is available to record with me for a few hours, we'll sit and record. Otherwise if they aren't available, I'll pick another name, etc."

I also could do modded Minecraft through FTB instead, but I've kind of wanted to do vanilla MC lately.

I also have a bunch of singleplayer games in my Steam library that I've had for ages that I have not played. This list includes:
- Bioshock (Entire series. Bioshock 1 and 2 are both Remastered versions.)
- Dark Souls III
- Dying Light
- Metro Last Light
- Saints
- Sniper Elite V2
- Yooka Laylee

Those games would likely be recorded in a let's play style, with little to no cuts during episodes.

On the other side of things, I do have PlayerUnknown's Battleground, and several people that do play it with. I'm not sure how well my internet would handle streaming (25mbps down, 1mbps up), but I could always attempt it. If not, I simply record and edit for uploading to youtube. This as well is something I'd be happy to have people join me for sessions.

I don't recall if I mentioned this or not, but I'm not making any plans right now for this to be an income sort of pathway. I simply enjoy the idea of recording games and putting them up for people to enjoy. If I somehow got popular enough to make some sort of income off of it, maybe, but I don't feel I'm good enough to do that sort of stuff.

Anyway, comments are welcome. Suggestions, criticism, etc. I look forward to hearing about it!

Work is slowly destroying me. I'm forgetting things about myself that made me enjoy the fandom. Ive also wanted to get into game stuff for youtube.

ART
What kinds of art do people want to see from me moving forward? Adult, time, a mix? More hyper and vore, or less fetishy stuff?

GAMES
Would people watch videos I upload to Youtube? If I streamed certain games would people watch?


Financially I'm doing ok, but I feel like I have no reason for earning the money I earn at my job. I want to give SOMEthing back to the people following me here on FA. If I can, I may share my steam library as a list so there can be input on what people would want to watch.

I just found out a few hours ago that one of my aunts passed away.

No one knows what happened. I'm not really sure what to feel. I already miss her, because she and her sister took my brother and I on lots of trips when we were younger.

I don't know. Guess I just needed to put this out so people know what's up.

Hey all, I just went live with the stream for building my new PC. Come check it out!

https://www.twitch.tv/fuzzy_drake89

Please keep chatter tasteful.

I have to close at work so I won't be able to stream tonight.

Hey all, decided I am going to stream building my new PC, so if you'd like to join in to watch me be boring, feel free to watch!

I'll be streaming from Youtube through my gaming channel, hopefully it'll work smoothly for everyone.

Stream will be starting up right around 8:45PM central US time (Chicago time), which should give me enough time to get things all set up after work.

So as the title implies, I'm just curious if anyone would be interested in watching me put together the parts for my new computer build?

I'm tentatively looking at Thursday (May 18), around 8:30PM Central US time (so Chicago time).

I dunno, just would feel like a waste to not stream it or something. Probably through Youtube, and put it on my channel or something.

If you've been looking for a good hyper artist to commission, limitedvision is open right now for thigh-up commissions!

They did this sketch for me, and while they don't really do vore, they do great hyper art. Even if you aren't looking to get art, I'd like to at least let more people know about them!

Hey all, just another computer journal from me, nothing major. I'm still alive, still kicking.

So my situation is this: I want to get into game capturing/video editing, but am running into some hardware-related constraints. Specifically, with certain game titles (newer AAA titles), trying to record while gaming sees significant performance drop-offs, with lots of low FPS to almost-unplayable levels. From what I've seen, this is primarily do to my CPU maxing out under the strain. It doesn't happen all the time, but it's enough to be "Well damn." The other problem I run into is difficulty editing the videos period. Navigating the timeline gets slow and tedious, and later on in a project things start to take longer to process. it's far from a smooth work environment.

My current specs:
CPU: i5-4690
RAM: Corsair Vengeance 1866Mhz 4x4GB
GPU: Sapphire Radeon R9-280
SSD: Samsung Evo 840

My current upgrade plan is as follows:
CPU: Ryzen 5 1600 (Plus compatible Mobo/Memory) https://www.newegg.com/Product/Prod.....-435-_-Product
GPU: EVGA GTX 1070 FTW https://www.newegg.com/Product/Prod.....82E16814487321

It's a rough estimate, but the performance increase I'd see is as follows:
http://www.userbenchmark.com/PCBuil......89244?tab=GPU
(Ram and GPU used are just throw-in options, that site doesn't have brand-specific GPUS)

I've done a lot of research into the selections above, and feel that they will serve me well for what I need.
BEFORE ANYONE SAYS IT: I know the new Ryzen CPUs perform slightly worse when it comes to gaming, especially when facing off against KabyLake from Intel. I am not looking for raw gaming performance. I'm looking for BALANCED performance, focused on gaming AND workstation.


In total, my upgrade will run around the $800-900 range when it's all said and done, broken down as follows based on current market pricing:
CPU: $220
Mobo: $100
RAM: $100-140 (Admittedly been eyeing up some of G.Skill's RGB memory if money isn't an issue)
GPU: $430

OPINION TIME
Which should I upgrade first, the GPU, or the CPU/Mobo/RAM?
At the end of the day, both options will cost ABOUT the same, regardless of which I do first.


EDIT: Just as an addendum, a lot of this plan has stemmed from doing a LOT of research into computers and how they work. I've also learned a lot from several channels on Youtube that deal specifically with computer building. Actual youtube channels, not "Joe Average reviewing GPUs from his bedroom between college courses".
https://www.youtube.com/jayztwocents
https://www.youtube.com/user/AwesomeSauceNews
https://www.youtube.com/user/paulshardware

Hey guys, so I've had a few ideas for Draggy over the past couple of months, with them gradually coming to a head.

Long story short, I'm looking for suggestions for artists who are good at doing elephant hybrids. :o

Only really looking for sketch level stuff right now. Leave your suggestions below!

HOOOOOO!!!!!!

Yeah, just a random chibi sergal now. No longer am I Ceilingsrgl.jpg XD

I'm going to be streaming The Last Guardian!. Want to watch? Feel free to stop on by!

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_.....r2wtAZ2sqdR5wQ

Stream goes live in 10 minutes!

Who wants to come watch me build some stupid stuff in Minecraft? \o/

https://www.twitch.tv/draggy89

This is partially a test to see how Twitch works with my PS4, and a way to calm down from a frustrating morning.

I'm sure I've said this before, but I've been trying to be more active over on my Twitter Account, despite how poorly of a job I'm doing in that regard.

Life's just been kicking me in the balls over and over and I'm having trouble juggling to keep from having things fall apart. I'd really like to do things to entertain people, even if it's just posting random blobs of text or pictures of stupid stuff I do/see, so if you want to keep up with that, and maybe eventually get streaming notifications for gaming or such, go ahead and follow me!

Hey all, so as the holidays loom and I work to claw my way out of the pit of garbage life has thrown at me, I've begun to think of ways to get back into a swing of gaming for an audience.

I've had a couple ideas. One idea that I'm particularly liking would be that I'd stream, and then I could edit out funny clips from the recording to splice together for a video to upload to youtube later.

I've put together a small list of games that I'd be interested in starting with, I'm thinking streaming two times a week for a few hours at a time.

If you want to vote about a game you'd like to watch me play, you can select one of these!

- Portal 2
- Assassin's Creed II
- Metro 2033/Last Light Ranger Difficulty
- Dark Souls III
- Killer is Dead
- Sir You are Being Hunted

EDIT: i ALSO have a list of Wii/WiiU games that I have never played before!:
Yoshi's Wooly World
Starfox Zero
Okami

All I need to work on is making sure my recordings will be editable, as I've discovered that Overwolf's recordings are not compatible with my editing software. If I can have that figured out then there's a good chance I may be able to stream on Friday!

I'm sure you're sick of me posting about _______ needing help.

I'm sharing it anyway.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7933891/

This is honestly the most I can do without completely ruining myself financially.

So a close friend of mine is currently having some financial troubles, and has opened up for commissions.

He does some great work, so consider helping him out? https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21612149/

Hey all, a friend of mine is taking commissions. He's got some good stuff, go check it out! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21612149/