Et oui, je vais être a la radio. Aujourd'hui, le 29 Mai 2011 sur les onde de ACXIT.
2 ami et moi avons notre nouvelle emission humoristique, "Les Bob" Une continuité de l'émission que l'on fesait en 2005-2006 alors que nous avions notre petite radio amateur sur le web.
Pour nous capter, C'est simple, allez sur Shoutcast et chercher ACXIT ou utiliser l'URL suivant dans Winamp ou Windows Media http://178.159.0.11:7342
De 15:00 à 17:00 Heure de l'est (-5:00)

For those who don't read French I was saying that I'll be on the radio for a new show on ACXIT.
You can use the adress above to tune in or go on Shoutcast and search for ACXIT.
From 3pm to 5pm Eastern Time (-5:00)

• × • ALL | ABOUT | ME • × •
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- Name: Beekin
- Single or taken: Taken
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: 1981
- Sign: Scorpio
- Hair color: Chatin (donT' know in english)
- Eye color: usualy Blue but color shifting to green, grey, and other color
- Height: 6'
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Bi but prefer female
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• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Garnier Fructis
- What are you listening to right now?: ACXIT Web Radio http://178.159.0.11:7342
- Who is the last person that called you?: My dad to ask me some help.
- How many buddies are online right now?: 28
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• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •
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- Animals: Dragons and Raptor, and Raven/Crow
- Color: Dark Red and Silver Grey
- Drink: PEPSI FTW!
- Element: Fire
- Food: General Tao
- Game: Hitman 2
- Movie: Dragon Heart
- Song: Right now : the Royal We By the Silversun Pickups
- Subjects in school: Music and Art
- T.V. Series: Knight Rider
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• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Given anyone a bath?: Yes
- Smoked?: No
- Bungee jumped?: No
- Made yourself throw up?: No
- Skinny dipped?: No
- Ever been in love?: Yes
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Don't remember, maybe when I was a kid
- Pictured your crush naked?: nop
- Actually seen your crush naked?:
- Cried when someone died?: No when he died, but few day after.
- Lied: like everyone else
- Fallen for your best friend?: No yet
- Used someone?: No
- Done something you regret?: like everyone else
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• × • C U R R E N T • × •
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- Clothes: No, I mean yes
- Desktop picture: None, I,m cleaning it at the moment, will put one later.
- CD in player: No
- DVD in player: No
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• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •
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- You touched: don't remember
- Hugged: Don't remember
- You kissed: *sigh*
- You IMed: A friend
- Talk to online: Nakourou
- You sexed it up with: Been too long...
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• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
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- Understanding?: under what? Yeah mostly
- Open-minded?: Yeah
- Arrogant?: it happen
- Insecure?: Sometimes
- Random?: Random!
- Hungry?: yeah, will have to go get lunch
- Smart?: it happen XD
- Moody?: if I knew what it mean.
- Organized?: Usualy when in a bidgger appartment
- Shy?: when meeting people for the first time or people that speak only english
- Difficult?: You mean?
- Bored easily?: when tired or sleepy
- Entertained easily? take a bit more that that
- Obsessed?: na not realy
- Lazy? it happen
- Angry?: sometimes
- Happy?: Usualy even if it doesn't look like
- Hyper?: I'm hyperactive, tell me.
- Trusting?: Easy to get, Easy to lose, Hard to get it back.
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• × • R A N D O M • × •
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- In the morning I: want to sleep
- Love is: like oxigene. You get to much you get to high, not enough and you gonna die. Love get you high
*The sweet - Love is like Oxygene*
- I dream about: Dragons and Raptor
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: eyes.
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• × • W H O • × •
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- Makes you laugh the most: Oli, a friend of mine
- Makes you smile: Funny stuff
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her:
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• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Some time, when I got noting better to go and not sleepy
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Sometimes
- Wish you were younger?: You Bet!
- Cry because someone said something to you?: not that I remember
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• × • N U M B E R • × •
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: to many
- Of guys I've kissed: didn't count
- Of girls I've kissed: didn't count
- Of Cd's I own: A Lot
- Of scars on my body: don't see it so not counting
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Now you do this!

Last night I was chatting with Pyx about going to Furnale Equinox and guess what, at 5am we were at Toronto XD. So I hope I'll meet a few people I know there. For now I going to sleep a bit.

Last night I was chatting with Pyx about going to Furnale Equinox and guess what, at 5am we were at Toronto XD. So I hope I'll meet a few people I know there. For now I going to sleep a bit.

Is that time of the year again. Yes, once again, spring is getting there in few weeks and I'm still single in a small appartment. I hate this fucking life.

Maybe I should go to sleep and wait 'till morning to see if I still fell as shitty as I feel now. Apparently lack of sleep do that. But it won't change that I'm single and lonely and even if I do everything to change that, it FAIL.

Sometimes I wish I could read minds. Not like in the movie and know each and every thought the people have but, being able to have some hint, to ears some whisper from targeted people thought.
I would like to understand body language with a small extra mind reading.

I'm sure it would help me to understand the people that are around me and I'm interested in. I would understand quickly if I pissed off people around me, if the next joke I will do will be too much, I would know where and when to go or stay, would know if someone is interested in me or not and would not stuck around thinking I still have a chance (worst case that happen in high school ages ago)


This morning I saw that Garfield cartoon in the journal about John meeting his... I'll say "new girlfriend" for the first time and he was able to chat with her only on the phone. Too shy i guess.
I found that funny because I was asking my self, why is it easier to write (chat) than speak when meeting someone?

I been fired... Again...

I'm getting sick of this.
I was suppose to go see a friend, that live far from here, for her birthday and won't be able du to lack of money and stupid boss kicking me out.

*Sigh*

Youu know, there is some time that you feel like something will go wrong about a situation or something you'll do. You donT' know why, but deep inside you, you know that whatever you do to get ready on time, something will come up and ruin everything.

Well it happen to me friday night. I was doing everything possible to get my Red Car fixe but I felt like something would go wrong this weekend. Didn't know why, but it was like a feeling that was telling me, "STAY HOME" As usual, I just thought I was freaking out and ignore it. So I went to see my friend  blackraptor and when I get there I knew the badluck was starting. She wasn't at the meeting point. One of her tire blew out on the highway. Then when she finaly get to the meeting point, she was still a little sick. If it was only that, but no it didn't stop because I was feeling a little numb all weekend and my Red Car got tricky. Transmission was missing Oil so when it was getting hot, the speed was skipping or jumping or just not working at all. Because we took my car we had to spend Sunday morning to fins a mechanic that could help me to get that fix but on the one open a Sunday, no one had the part. "Dealership Problem" they say... So I end up using all the knowledge I accumulate with all the wreck I had in the past to buy some Transmission Oil and fill it up. Because I didn't want to get stuck on an American highway a Sunday just before Memorial Day (that mean everything close and loosing my job for not being able to be there before Tuesday) I had to left earlier than planed...

Now, I need to wait a month before seeing her again. *sigh*

I just came back from a dinner with my father and my bro and apparently I'm not free to dislike Quebecoise music. Well I FUCKING HATE FRENCH CANADIAN MUSIC OF THE LAST 20 YEARS.

But why, you'll ask me. It simple. In the last 20 years everything is the same. Same lyrics, Same music, same shit all over the place. In the 80's they were trying to do something new, something close to the american music some will say, but it was a change of those soft boring rock (it's not even rock) music. and now, to be origianl, and show that they are not "Americanized" they do those boring stuff again. Worst, in the last 10 years, there is those suppose to be artist that are more star than artist that came out from this stupid TV show "American Idol" like they called "Star Académie". They are Star alright, but not artist for most of them. They are popular because they Won or been on TV, not because they are good.

So just because I don't like what happening to the music, I'm just a sucker that betray his little homeland. Well I'm Sorry, but if you like cheap lazy stuff, it's not my case.

I'm simply sick of this place where people think they are "the best of the world" when they are so mediocre, they don't even see that they will be soon extinguish.

Here Rest A Nation Died By Stupidity
From: Olivar Asselin

Ok, not exactly life. I went to register for a Trainmaster class. Same place as  bryagh went but in Montreal. To be accepted you have test to do and pay 6000$ when the class is starting.

When I went to the info session they say they have 3 session, on starting last week, one in May and one in November. Because I knoe the I won't have the money right away I ask to be in the class of november, but they cancelled it and the on in may. So they put everyone in the session starting last week. But once again they had to delay that class because they haven't enough people to be in. So the class will start next week. From now it's no big deal, BUT, I still don'T have the 6000$ to get in that class. and the only session avilable will be the one starting next monday. THAT's pissed me off. How do they expect that people get that much money in a so short time?

VALENTINES MEME

1.Are you single or taken?
Singel

2. Chocolate or flowers?
Dark chocolate. The Darker the better.

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Not realy. Brunch with my mother then go back home. I have to meet people for a Filming Contact too. So it give me a good reason to not see my brother and his girlfriend happy in thier love.

4.Do you like anyone?
Yes but... *sigh*

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
No. as every Valentine... Thant's why I'm getting pissed about that day.

6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
I'll keep it secret. Just in case I would find someone to be on my side in the future. But I can say that even if I'm hiding it very well, I'm an incredible romantic guy.

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
Not anymore

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Never heard about them if I do

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
If only I could have some one to do it

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
Not anymore

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
Lot of candy as usual. Thanks Mom

12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
No anymore

13. Do you like candy hearts?
What taste are they? There is some good one and many bad one

14. Ice cream or angel food cake?
Why not both?

15. Is Valentines day depressing?
Meh... It,s juste remind me that I'm still single and lonely. No big deal, I,ll get over it soon. Give me some eat and sun and I'll be good.

16. How do you feel about PDA?
I,m ok as long as it respect people around

17. How is your love life?
You realy wanna know?

18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Nop but I had been right afther Christmass

19. How many roses would you want?
???

20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next year?
LOL XD yeah right, like it could be. I just gave up on that.



I might look depress at the moment but I mainly need to sleep. Yes I feel lonely and would like to fins someone, but seems like I can't. So I just gave up and I deal with it. If you try to cheer me up by saying that I should no give up and that I will find some one one day you clearly don't know "murphy laws" and at the same time, me, that is bind to those law for whatever reason.

I'm mostly pissed by V-day for a few simple reason, not that for the X times I'll be single and alone, but mostly because you can see adds, commercial on TV and radio, Spammed on the web, etc. how it's important to be with someone that particular day and how it's important to show you're loved one how you care for him/her. Yes, of course I would like to do it too, but love is not only one day a year. It's all years long. So why pissing single people with that when mated people can do it all year long?

What a kiss means:
Kiss on the stomach = "I'm ready"
Kiss on the Forehead = "I hope we're together forever"
Kiss on the Ear = "You're my everything"
Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends"
Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you"
Kiss on the Neck = "we belong together"
Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"
Kiss on the Lips = "I love you"
What the gesture means...
Holding Hands = "we definitely love each other"
Slap on the Butt = "That's mine"
Holding on tight = "I don't want to let go"
Looking into each other's Eyes = "I just plain love you"
Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love me"
Arms around the Waist = "I love you too much to let go"
Laughing while Kissing = "I am completely comfortable with you"
picking someone up off their feet = "that they love them fully and would do anything for them"

Dont ask for a kiss, take one
If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love.



I found that on the net. It's just so adorable.
Of course it was follow by the "if you don't post it you'll have bad luck... Never wish bad luck to anyone or it will get back to you. That's why I never read those chain letters or reply to it. So I cut that part.

What is an hackintosh, is actualy a pc with Mac OS X on it. why you'll tell me. The answer is simple, FinalCut Pro.

On the beguining of the week I start looking for a rom boot or something that could make my pc to boot like a mac. I acatualy find a few good website about how to change your pc into a Mac. I've been lucky because only a few hardware work properly and don't hack and my mother board was one of them. So now, I only need a good video card.

I didn't like Mac for several reason, one of them was the price of thier computer. For a few hundred $ less you can have the same thing.
I always told people that if Apple would make Mac OS X for PC I would buy it instead of windows. But close code + close hardware = Closed mind...

Yay for my First Hackintosh PC!!

I just hate christmas this years... it usualy the time when the famely come togetter and there is party with friend and blah... but this year, nothing. Nothing at all. My friend have some party on thier side and it already "over full", in my father family, it's a "No Childs" partiy... I'm 28 but yeah, my grand aunt that do the party always hated child of her sister and if you're not over 50years old, you not allowed to the party. I hate that bitch she alway put trouble in the family each and every years anyway. On my mother side, nothing. They usualy fight to get the family reunion for xmas, but this year, they all wait to see who will do the party and no one actualy did one, so there is noting. I thought to pass some time with my loved one but, 1 day befor Xmas is not the good timing to plan something. She have something planed anyway.

So I'm here, alone for xmas. Merry fucking xmas

but it's not all, today afther work a friend pass because he need help with his pocket bike he bought, so I went help him, and drive his car because i know the place we're going and when we came back to his home, some one crash in his car... The guy was totaly stoned, no wonder why HE DIDN'T SAW the BIG RED FLASHING train light were we where stop. At least he didn't broke anything on the car but he damage the bike in the trunk. I hurt my back last friday and I feel the pain coming back again.

Positive point now :
-I'll have all the day to spend on AIM with my little dragonelle before she go for the night with some friend.
-I had the dinner payed today. Thanks Kimen
-On the 26 and 27 some friend are suppose to come over.
-Monday the 28 I'm off!!! more time to sleep. Maybe to spend with a friend, we'll see

Thanks to Yan Malcolm for this so true quote that lead my life to many times "God, I hate being right all of the time."

Not that I'm alwais right, juste that on some subject, I can easily guess what's gonna happen and when it's gonna happen. I could give exeample, but let say that for love and mateship, I'm right most of the time. Lately, I've been right on some of my friends and and it scared me because right now, I start feeling something that don't want to feel and I just hope that I'll be wrong this time.

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "My life according to (band name)"


• Pick your Artist: Pink Floyd

• Are you a male or female? Hey You

• Describe yourself: Keep Talking

• How do you feel: What Do You Want From Me

• Describe where you currently live: Another Brick in the Wall

• If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Outside the Wall

• Your favorite form of transportation: Learning to Fly

• What did you get on your last birthday? A New Machine

• Your best friend is: Us and Them

• You and your best friends are: The Great Gig in the Sky

• What's the weather like: Goodbey Bleu Sky

• Favorite moment: Echoes

• If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Breathe

• What is life to you: See-Saw

• Your last relationship: Eclipse

• Your fear: The Dogs Of Wars

• What is the best advice you have to give: Shine On you Crazy Diamond

• Thought for the Day: The Show Must Go On

• How I would like to die: On the Turning Away

• My soul's condition: Comfortably Numb

• Most Faithful Companion: Seamus

• My motto: Welcome to the Machine

Today was the last day that Ardar could stay. He was here for 3 week and he had to go back home, in France. I'm sad...

I'm sad because it didn't worked out as I expected and few of my fear were truth after all. I won't explain any further.
Just saying, lying to himself is never a good thing.

Not that didn't try to fix the thing up. It's simply comming from me.


On the good new, I'm Living again!!

I got my 1984 Nissan 300ZX back from repair!! This car is all my life. I know is a little to much but it's the meaning of my freedom. With this car I can go every where anytime. Just ask me and I'll go see you if you want ;)

By the end of June, My sweet little raptor Ardar will know when he will be able to take the first plane and come here in montreal" I'm so hurry to see him IRL for the first time, (note: webcam, voice chat and chat don't count for me) and at the same time, I'm scared... What about if it's not working togetter? Ok he will stay for 2 or 3 weeks, but... What if...

I should not think about that, but, more about the good time we will have togetter. It's been what? A year an half, two years now that we know each others. And it been almost that long that we want to do some stuff togetter IRL.

I'm so happy!!! Hope that every thing will be ok.

I'm the new manager of The Wreck Reation. They play hard rock music. The sound is sometime close to metalica.

2 Weeks ago I went to a contest of new rock and metal music band. In all the people I saw on stage, The Wreck Reation was the best. Actualy all the others were simply laaaame. Ok, My band is not awsome but they gonna go far.

For now we are looking to win the contest at the Metropolis, then Once we win then next step is GERMANY!!! I just can wait to win this and take the plane to germany... wait... plane? geez I gonna die. I'm scared of plane. Time to face my fear. Anyway Germany gonna put the "Wreck" on the map!

If you wanna know more look on myspace or facebook, but it only in french for now.
http://www.myspace.com/thewreckreation

If you are in Montreal and wanna see the show on the june 28, ticket are 20$each.

Since I don't have any real talent in drawing, writing, music, or whatever, I decided to do some cooking. In a kitchen, it's the only place I can do some good thing.
I'm doing chocolate and I'm open for special order. Soon I'll do giant cookies, Raptor shaped cookies and more chocolate too ^^

Price will vary depending of number of peice you are taking, the chocolate quality (50%, 70%, 85%) and option : mutli chocolate (white, milk, dark all together ), nuts, etc.

Chocolate :
Parrto http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2227853
Gator http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2227858
Gecko http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2227875

First : I know I shouln't write that here... but it gonna help me

Second : you don't need to read this, this is how I realy am and... I don't like to show that part of my self

Third : if you go further, don't blame me... it's not drama, it's a "brain cleaning" I,m doing so you might find thing you don't like or i never told anyone before.

Four : No I won't delete this post afther, or what ever. If you feel like you gonna be offended please close right now.




ok, so what should I say first...

Like every years, I feel down in winter. the lack of light and cold get me that way. but when february come then march and every thing unfreez, I should get back on my feet and be happy again.. but it's not what it's happening... I'm going more down and depress because I feel lonely and loveless... Oh yeah I have many friend around me and some close friend, but it's not what I'm looking for... I,m getting depress because I need someone, that special one... I let one go... twice... because i wasn't ready and young... now she's with an other and I can't do anything. I can't be angry again anyone that me, I'm the guy that been dumb... so now I'm looking back to find someone, but it's not easy.

I should trade my cold comfort for change, but I'm not an outgoing person when I'm alone. I usualy keep my distance, been hurt to many time in my life. ( I have my food right beside me and I can't eat at the moment). Then aproching a woman somewhere ask me too much. I never know what to say, what to speak about... Beside those macho-man "clicher" I know, (something I'm not even if sometime I sound or look like) I don't know what to say...

Next, I,m not the kind of person that make friend easily. you got to like me on first sight or hangout with me a little before to get to know and like me. I'm not an easy person and, that don't make relasion ship easy. One of the thing is that I don't lie to people. I can't bull shit people I like and tend to tell the truth the hard way.
More, I look alway like if nothing can't hit me... but it's not true. you can esaily kill me with just one word. I look cold on the outside and some time says stuff that could hurt people if missunderstood. And it's always too late I see I hurt some one. It's squish me on the inside each time.

I'm scared to see outside the furry communauty. only my close friend know realy about me and it's better that way, for now. I'm not sure meeting someone of the outside world will be good, because many people here are not open mided as they say they are. In the furry phandom there is other problem... and woman hide to not get disturb, and i understand that. I wish a dating agency would exixst for furry.

An other problem, language barrier. Beside speaking bad english I usualy speak french and that not helping me. I'm already shy when meeting new people (even if I don't look like it) so when it's english people I just stumble and can bearly speak right. So I tend to not speak at all.

Ok this is the waekess point : I somekind of belive in Horoscope. Not the daily one. I talking about the meaning of the sing. traditional reading I'm Scorpio, that explain many thing about my dark side and on the Chinese reading, Rooster, my show off side. Those two together don't help. but does it realy matter? How far is it true? No clue, just funny to read some of those stuff some time.

Anyway I'll stop there for the moment.

I don't feel better but at least it's a little more clear in my head.


I have to thank's

 spikeheila for being there last night, even if i don't speak much with her she was there to listened to me. I realy apreciated it.
and
 blackraptor for her reply, that was a little kick in the behind i needed. Thank's


Now the olny thing missing is going out and get the attention of some ladies. Not sure I,ll be able to tho.

Spring is coming and I'm sad again... not because winter ending or it mean that an other year is begining. I'm sad because I'm lonely and single, again...

My problem, I'm bi and I can get easyly a male, but it's not what I'm looking for... I need a female in my life.
The other problem, I don't know how to meet woman. For male it's easy, being nice, purr a little, cuddle and that it, but woman... I realy don't know. I think I'm scared to be rejected by them so I stay away. It's less painfull when when they tell me they want to stay "friend".

Beside, where are the single woman in the furry communauty?

It's been a long time since I touche a 3D software. I start with Brice, then poser, and Vue d'esprit. But it wasn't what I was looking. I wanted to desing my own creature, so I tryed to learn Maya. It so complicated than I stop for few years. Now afther 5 years I didn't touch those software, I have to learn back how to work with it. Yup, that's the easyest way to do sculpt prim for Second Life.

yup, I'm lazy. It's been a week I'm back from vacation and i still didn't post any picture of the Giant mega Raven of Doom I saw at the Grand Canyon or even post a journal.

Well I'll post my Grand Canyon Pic this week end and a commisison that I received from Spikeheila! She's doing great stuff and I order an other one, I hope it will be as ood as the first one, but I'm not worry about it, I'm sur she will do a great job once again ^^

Oh yeah, by the way, I HATE MY JOB SO DAMN MUCH!

I did the last part of Route66 yesterday, in about 3hours. It's so beautiful, so amazing, so... there is no word to say it. The pictures I took are not reflecting how nice it is to be there. if you turn off your engine, it the compleat silence. Absolutly, no sound.

Anyway, Today Pyx should meet me at Flagstaff, but he didn't call yet to know where we gonna meet. There is a nice train station that is the tourist Info center too. I'll wait for him there. It's right on the Route66