I call it the PerVerse. A universe where a corrupting influence is spreading. Warping people places and things to match their deepest sexual fetishes, in the case of places and things, they are twisted my the energies and fluids from the populace on a prison place and testing planet by a devious, heartless, amoral and almost godlike alien race who dump their expiremental failures and prisoners onto this twisted world to better develope weapons.

Fapp is a tabletop rpg of the extremely perverse variety. Give it a looksie, here is the journal link http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7175485/

In homage to the disciple I played, Yithteiriad, I will be making him my own. I just drew a ref of sorts for him today, over the next week or so wuill be designing his new outfit and weps. I put a part of my soul into him when playing Vanguard. I will not lose it.

I pull a Vegeta from TFS's Dragonball Z abridged... crash down in a spaceship, make a huge cloud and yell out 'I'M BACK BITCHES!'

Silly name for a journal like this.
August 1st 2012. My husky died. For a good bit, I randomly broke down and cried, sometimes even howled while crying, which i strange to experience btw. He's been with me 8 years, there are some out there that might say' dude, stop being such a girl, it was just a dog.' They don't get it, never will. My and my husky were close. I'm okay now.. still wanna tear up, but mostly okay.

i'm drawing again!

I got introspective again, blast! *picks up his daggers of optimism and energy and goes to slay the darkness*

What does yours look like?

Mine?
A savage bloodthirsty creature, heartless and ruthless, the kind of creature that doesn't care if it's actions doom an entire race to death or curse it with darkness and corruption. A creature that mouth waters every time it sees or imagine bodies torn apart, a creature that gets joy from hurting or corrupting innocents into dark wild creatures, a creature whose rage is constant but never debilitating, a creature that prefers to rend their victims with it's claws and teeth, to humiliate and debase their victims as well. A creature that is arrogant, viscous and heartless.

What type of creature does that? What is the shape of my internal darkness?

All humans have darkness inside them, all struggle to hide the dark beast in them, this is mine.

Have you ever been so frustrated you just wanna lash out at something, anything. We're furries, of course we've all felt that way..

Humanities stupidities are what's frustrating me today... I just want to lash out against all of them.

I fee better now..

Yes, another one mwuhahahahaha! dream last night, got visited by csome sheriff after getting mixed up with some people who use use hypnotism act like werewolves, i left them because they 'pretended' to be werewolves. the sheriff came out of no where, she didn't seem like part of the dream, she said i was like a container, part of the container was filled with this dream(yes she told me that i was dreaming) most of the container was filled with my identity, and the last part was a wolf. weird, i know...

on to other things, me and scalygenerlmorvik have something goin on, so i'll be drawing lots of those mecha looking soulroids...

tired of the old one...lol. I've been more prolific lately... i credit it to waking up early, and boredom, and awesome muzics! I did a few adultish pics, they be in mah scraps...mwuhahahaha. I may do more, depends on how I feel... I'm rambling again..

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3463454/

nice guy, awesome game, prompt as hell. he does this for a living. check it!

sandy pic for scalygeneralmorvik 0%
threesome pic for scalygeneralmorvik 23%
another exvellioth pic 40%
figure out true orientation 50%
naughty exvellioth pic 0%
finish exvellioth story document 30%
finish 'the book of thaath' 2 chapters down...many many many more to go
finish building an eberron campaign for d and d 10%
vehicle hunting 0%
pay off med bills 80% (kidney stones suck)
get up motivation to finish pics 97%

that is all that i can remember for now.

I am aren't I? i cross analyze my dreams, I look too closely at my 'odd' behaviors, I delve too deeply within myself in search of answers and explanations, I behave much like a Therian in terms of what I often experience from myself and observe of my behavior, it has considerable died down since i switched my sona's species, but werewolf movies bring out the sensations and aggravate the 'odd' behavior I have. there I go delving again...lol

This is my forum for venting and sharing, it may annoy my watchers, I apologize. I am who and what I am..*shrugs* :)

For the record, I'd rather avoid werewolf movies...they mess with me for days on end...my control tends to go to hell,more prone to violence, less control of my desires, more doglike behavior. intense phantom limb sensations and poorer concentration aside.

I hope i don't snap at a customer today..... :) might be interesting though.

I'll be DMing for the next 5 0r so hours, athas campaign 4e, wish my characters luck.

dreamt I was a werewolf, not too unusual for me..., but this time, I wasn't turned into one and running from others, this time I was already one, infiltrating businesses and organizations and converting those there and using my status of the one converting them to be come their alpha, then using the pack's loyalty to get what I wanted, then moving on and infiltrating another place and repeating, when resistance arose, I converted it and then commanded them to my cause.

scary.. to see everyone at a board meeting transform at the same time, chant 'for the pack' and howl.

I'm playing Mass effect 2! that's why, completing the game before 3 hits.

Harmonized and ready to roll! Harmonized the opposing factions inside myself and feel like I can get things done. Though more prone to growling :). another update about my inner sanity... you guys are like yeah yeah...put out some drawings dammit! on a side note..for you guys who may be annoyed by my adultish artwork it goes into scraps as soon as I upload it. so XP

I will start posting drawings where I will have used my off hand to draw.
I will do this:

1. Cause I can
2. It's cool.
3. Get more practice using my off hand to draw.
4. My drawings from that hand so far have surpassed my drawings with my main hand, more detail, kinda more real looking.
5. again practice.
6. I want to.

These drawings will have the keyword 'offhand' or 'lefthand' in the box. I look forward to doing this.

Got transferred to a store near were I live. My job is saved...now for my next trick, gotta do something with my truck....

My truck died AGAIN! I seriously hate it right now, as me being without a vehicle is probably gonna cost me my job.


Basically I'm just 'blah' right now.....

Got back into Morrowind, gonna beat it this time!
Modded NV a bit, Gonna actually explore the wasteland this time.
Played and beat Rocket Knight, great game, main character is an anthro opposum. fun game.

Learning how to use blender and nifscope, so I can make my own meshes and textures to mod games one day. Trying for an anthro mod on NV, that is the end goal, and the ability to play an anthro dog or wolf on any game.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7070942
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7111975/

You know, these things. well I'm putting together a story for em. up to.......almost 300 words already

I'm also in the middle of writing another story for my D&D 4th edition Dragonborn rogue. Will take be about a year and a half, writing it as I play the character in game sessions.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAnnnnnd another one for a werewolf. Might get done one day, don't count on it though.

Also gotta color the pic in the first link and scan in his preferred form, which is gonna be marked adult, cuz it's an adult reference. I know, adult material on my page, what am I wacko, yes, but I don't ever draw much adult, so :P

that is all...........

that is all.......