You can see it the clearest on one of my most recent upload here : https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61972954/

But yeah! Turns out they did a full maintenance for a reason! (likely more than just this but still XD) I saw a post on it on Bluesky and was like 'they did WHAT?!?' and immediately jumped over here to see. No longer are us story writers locked to picture comment sections or plain TxT's if we want our stories to actually be read, you can actually read full PDF's (no idea on other formats but I assume those two based on how they look!) on the site itself!

No longer will we be (as) ignored because clicking the download button is dubious and difficult, people can see our writings even with proper formatting and spacing and fonts! Woopyyyy!

(though, tbh I'll probably continue to post txt's or in the comments of my images because change is hard and I know posting like a couple pages of writing up next to an image will get about the same traction it does under the image anyway, but for properly written works this is hugggge! Wooow!)

Just felt like I should 'flail' about that given I saw it was updated XD this will likely continue to be the one site I post things on due to my 'medium' basically only being supported here =v=; and now even more so, so yippy! Doing fine otherwise, though been flailing with sleep issues but I'm trying to deal with/manage it XD. Getting older sucks don't do it ovo (and I'm not even that friggen old...) But yeah! that is all ; v ; b can go about your days once more!

Hello!

This Journal is mainly meant to be a place to put all of the renders and animations I get with my models, or rather, links to where they can be viewed and enjoyed. I'm one that doesn't tend to go about posting such things, not because I don't value them, but because 'I'm already so heavily forever behind on just posting stories for my drawn art pieces, let alone things that can be rendered and thrown to me in a days time or less'. But as I don't personally add anything to the post, posting them in general feels...off, to me, I guess. Like I know I totally can and most would probably like it (I mean I post 2D gif animations easily enough), but I tend to grab a lot of things that are just 'spur of the moment', and I don't necessary want to 'fit it in' to my world more than just see the action play out. Basically, 3D has become my little 'non-canon' happy place, where I don't have to 'fit in the puzzle piece' and just let a scene be what it is, as such I don't post them as they don't fit into my cannon/deliberately don't or don't even need a story in the case of an animation. The animations also don't really 'fit' on FA either...

But I've been amassing a lot of these, and it feels like a massive shame not to show them off SOMEwhere...so, here's a journal linking to all of them XD that I'll try and keep up to date. Hope you all enjoy! (and for anyone wondering about my models, got a folder for them to look over).

Lovely squishy Silth n Em I adore so very much >//> by  Kasdaq : https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61186187/

Further squishy but of Kiyro this time! (with it being up in my gallery due to being smoll!) by  iiioridasiii : https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61165874/

Many lovely tickly ones by  TKLsfm (some of these are paired with animations I did NOT ask for, in case their contents are confusing for some people. Also some weren't even advertised, so there are even more one can find depending):
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59981799/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56142215/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53942108/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50016536/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48723319/

(Some can be found on his twitter if you can find them https://x.com/tklsfm )

Some very good hypno ones by  ASSCASTER (waiting for the other to be posted) :
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60012825/

Soo so so very many great renders by  Alienshade that linking them all here would fill up to much space ; v ; but if you like what I even went about posting to my gallery below, then you'll like what he's made and all the fun interactions Em and him have had through 3D! (one can search 'alienshade emanuela' in search and get a pretty comprehensive list):
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/47747175/

A few fun renders by  zennilad :
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53859776/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52620402/

One by Shadedance (unfortunately only has an up to date twitter presence) :
https://x.com/shadedance1/status/1668083437876420608

A lovely coiling by  Mercfox438 :
https://bsky.app/profile/mercfox438.bsky.social/post/3lgrv7bltfc2i

A further coiling animation done by  Azelia of 'poor' Igrya getting spinny eye'd and squeezed :3c : https://bsky.app/profile/xylerfox.ca/post/3lxvag4xa522t

Got a few from  ShimmyChanga that are up in my gallery as they where 'one of the first' so I was still figuring things out, on top of them not posting things in their own gallery for some reason...but I'll put them here anyway cause they turned out good ; v; b :
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45812127/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50042063/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50042112/

Got a few from Woofer3D, can't find them now though. Thought for sure he posted them, if anyone finds them can feel free to say though, but otherwise:
'insert Em and Dusk in a mimic chest here'.

A fantastic animation by BabyMoon that got some lovely voice work from ShibaShibs (was with  dragonofdarkness1992 and Em), a nice good pounding! : https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61275662/ (and a nice render one can see here! )

A lovely latexy animation done by  tzug-12345 which hasn't been posted yet, but once it is I'll put it here!

Some further latex/tap renders by  tavvy_Tav who hasn't put them up yet...but they are really nice/are part of his open YCH's!

An impeccable immaculate perfect yessSSSSS super long animation done by  JohnWulffe which you can even see/get a link to in my gallery here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62838234/

An ALSO very vERy good animation done by  cho0c0 who did a mighty fine job pinning Igrya in a back ally >//>; fehehe : https://bsky.app/profile/cho0c0.bsky.social/post/3m5aimqqfqk2h

That should be all of it for now! As stated though, this will be updated as I receive/get more! ; v ; Hope it's fun to see what's been happening with all these models I been getting though! xD (and if I forgot/missed any you've seen, feel free to say so in the comments and I'll add it XD).

Hello! It's been...a year! Since I made one of these. Literally the last one I made was when I finished my Spring cleaning last year...something I'm now planning on doing this week, should I be granted the strength to do so.

Main reason I'm making this journal is to me doing a LOT of housekeeping today. Instead of doing direct backlog cleaning (though I might still try and get something out 'real quick', we'll see), I figured I'd start this spring cleaning week off by 'doting all my i's and crossing my T's'. By which I did a MASSSSSIVe overhaul to my starter guide which you should go check out! :3. I moved it all over to Toyhouse (thanks again to  KisuComposer for a key, I very much appreciate it ; v ; ) so there isn't just massive paragraphs of text just sitting there, and so it all actually fits in one journal now! XD Also updated a lot of the summaries with recent events as well (though there's still likely a big gap in a lot of them...I need to go through each one and make sure they are all 'caught up', but that's a problem for another day I think XD), so at least a decent chunk of them should be accurate now!

I also re-arranged all my folders and re-named them/added new ones for upcoming characters. Now they are more organized based on character relationships verses 'just how much I like them I guess?'. So it feels a lot more 'organized' to me :3. Hope it helps people navigate my stuff and the eclectic world I've created XD.

Beyond that...well, I've continued on keeping on. My part of the company got sold to another one, that merger is still happening, but I still have a job knock on wood so while the benies are worse, the pay isn't, so I'm sticking with it cause HAHAHAHAHA America right now. Been trying to ignore that as much as possible/hope my state just does everything it can to ignore it (apparently there's a decent number within my states gov that are pushing to basically put policies in place that ignore the orange man, hoping the best for that cause boy do we rely on Canada a lot and boy do I not want to just pay more for things for no good reason. That or we just succeed into Canada....I know they aren't the best thing ever but they aren't currently actively imploding so I'd take it over this crap XD). BUT, yeah, just doing the 'personal stuff' and trying to keep on keeping on, I feel fortunate I'm at least in a state with a brain, feel bad for the many that are stuck in areas that aren't...

But just gotta keep trucking forward, and thankfully at least in my personal life it's been going as good as it's ever been the past half decade or so. Parents moved back up here to be closer to me/in a better place, as stated I still have a job that pays me well (at least so long as the dollar stays an actual currency hahahHAHAHh weeps), my living situation is infinitely more stable and a lot of things have been worked through, as well as my ability of locomotion (car stuff) improving drastically.

So I'm living ovob Playing a lottt of Darktide cause it's super fun (quit Destiny 2, guess that's noteworthy. Just isn't a game I like anymore/is going in a 'brain dead' direction I don't jive with despite the decade I put into it), trying to write as can be seen, and now walking now that spring is doing it's best to exist where I live XD. A true 'this is fine' meme moment, everything's on fire but I'm sipping water and existing. Got my B day coming up, not exactly anything planned besides this week off work and a lot of writing, but should be nice. Just keeping the temperament as 'stable' as I can, and doing what I can to push things to improve ovob.

I wish all that have gotten this far the ability to weather the coming future, and to be able to get their own pockets of joy and happiness. If this all has proven anything, it's that what's around you is truly what's important. Keep those you care about close, get to them or pull them to you if you must, as it's all about 'keeping afloat' with those that matter to you. A shields only as good as those behind it, gotta make sure one can take all the punishment, and protect the bits of joy they can continue to appreciate ; v ; b . May we all get through and be able to laugh about it much, much later!

Hello ovo update Journal time, cause it's been a friggen WHILE since I did one of these.

I'm sure it's been rather noticeable (at least, perhaps) that I haven't really been nearly as active as I normally am the past year. This isn't because I haven't wanted to be...this is entirely due to life circumstance.

I was on a year long contract last year for my Software Dev position (yes that's where all my money for all this comes from xD), that ended in January. In December last year, a mass amount of tech companies laid off a bunch of their workers. This created what I can only be described as 'pure hell' for the job tech space, as positions closed left and right as companies prepared for a projected recession, and more companies looked at their respective jobs and went about making sure that now that we are in the process of 'exiting covid times' that their massive gains that they received because everyone was coped up in doors don't drop so much that they have to go about laying off people too.

Needless to say, that hasn't gone well, and tech companies left and right are laying off more and more staff as the year has gone on with more and more people filling up a market that can't house them. There's at least 2-3 people that need a job per job opening (per linkedin statistics among others) and considering at least 60-80% of those job openings are fake jobs looking to simply scalp your email and personal information, or worse, it's created the absolute worst experience that I no doubt think has given me a good nice bit of trauma that I get to keep with me the rest of my days.

Now, this isn't to say I haven't had an income, if the fact I still have kept up DinoGoat patreon busts isn't any indication. My state has a pretty good unemployment package, and I was able to utilize the full 6 months of it that was allowed.

But I've been unemployed for 9 months in total, paying for Feb from my savings, March-August unemployment, and then having to start a night custodial job for a month in September through start of October to keep the lights on. It hasn't been, terrible all things considered, but what's absolutely royally FUCKED me is the stress. The stress of not knowing what the future holds, not knowing if I'll get back to making the money that made me feel so comfortable. The stress of wondering if I'd have to just live with 'barely making it by' the rest of my life as the tech industry imploded in on itself and I was left 'out to dry'. I'm already a massively anxious person by trade, but this just, completely killed my ability to write. It almost killed my ability to function on numerous occasions...I wouldn't be surprised if I gained heart problems from all this, if not many other fun things I get to work my way through. I got past it a time or two and wrote a few things in this time, but, it hasn't been good. Video games my eternal coping mechanism, but even that was starting to only barely keep me from 'generally breaking down'.

But, I now am thankfully 5 weeks in to a software development gig that I can only describe as 'idealistic'. A great work environment (so far), incredibly smart people working around me, and I'm hired on as a direct hire employee and not a contractor. This coming from my previous tech positions which have been nothing short of useless and garbage in equal measure (as hell as my last year has been I would not have stayed at my previous position even if they did want to hire me off contract cause holy hell that manager was so bad that I was the 'oldest member' by the time I let my contract run dry as everyone else got the fu%$ out of there before me) has been nothing short of 'rejuvenating', and I can only hope to stay here as long as the people here last because this culture is insanely unlikely to find in the corporate world and I don't want to go back into that hell anytime soon.

So yeah, I did a posting spree before, but did another one now, and probably plan to use November as an attempt to 'catch up' with the various things that have come my way through out the year. Perhaps start that 'image a day' thing again I've done before since I got 11 out and feel I could probably get two more out tomorrow depending XD but we'll see. Either way, absolutely keeping up with doing a posting spree on Sundays until I'm 'caught up', or at least posting a big image every Sunday I can manage it, if not any other day of the week.

But yeah, I figured now that I'm letting myself 'feel ok' now that I haven't randomly been let go/I have actually started doing Software work for this fine company and been making BANK again/received a few paychecks, I'd let people know in Journal form what's been up and were I've been =v= .

But yeah! Expect 'regularly scheduled program' from me going forward baring any future unexpected pain points. Hope you all have been doing better than me and here's to things improving!

Hello! Has been a hot minute.

I am here simply to lay out some things into the public, cause I've been here a while and I feel I'd rather have a Journal to point people at to keep things straight verses...not having that, and letting things be up in the air.

First off, I am currently located at:

-Here (FA) Primarily
- Twitter , here I reblog what I see get thrown up there and do literally nothing else (until the site inevitably crashes and burns). If you actively use this site I hope you die ^^.
- BlueSky , because for the moment it's actually a decent place where you actually have a timeline so you can actually keep up with what people post, and it's not scrapped for AI and the killing of artists. So I use/comment on this a lot more (but still mostly just do that and repost things because I'm a writer so my craft is worthless on there).
- Pillowfort , basically strictly a back up media page, for if everything else falls.
- Deviantart , where I have deleted everything cause the site is a pile of AI driven shit, but I keep the account around for sta.sh links and that's it.
- Toyhouse , finally got an invite for one of these! So I have one now to, will probably see it more as I get the time to expand on it x3, and will probably be the place I migrate to if FA ever truly dies as it's the only place that actually gives an F about writing/has the ability for me to add writing to images, verses the bs brain rot 'can't have more than two sentences' worthlessness that is the rest of the social media landscape.
- Discord , You will know if you are in contact with me, if I didn't give you my contact information, and I am the one approaching you in a random discord, it's not me, I literally don't have the social energy capacity to do that unless an extraneous reason makes it so. I apologies in advance if/when you ask for my Discord handle and I say no because I already fail to respond to people on there let alone adding yet another person not to respond to.
- Telegram , A relic that I have pretty much entirely as a back up, and for the like three people that still message me over there instead of Discord. You will also never get this information from me/never see anything from me from here.

And that is it.

I say all this to state that if you see 'me', my characters, or my art, in any location other than here or the places linked above, it's not me. It is not up with my permission. And especially if it is an edited piece for a character of mine, I did not condone it's use in whatever use it is currently being used for.

Now, granted, this is the internet. I know people will steal what I put up here, I know people will use what I post in ways I'd rather them not, but that is why this is here. Just to say that I did not condone it, I do not approve of it, and if you do it, I hate you, pure and simple ^^.

If you are RPing with characters of mine in a location that isn't above (or on Discord, as you probably are not unless you are in the know), you are not, and anything you do with them will not effect them in any way. I do not for any reason have any obligation to entertain your fantasies with my characters, regardless of where you might have entertained them yourself.

I have very little desire myself to do things with characters that aren't my own or I have no personal connection with the person behind them, this isn't to say I don't understand having 'needs' for them or having interests in them, I of course still have interests in other peoples designs for there characters, but I have no real need to 'pretend to be them' or 'pretend like I'm interacting with them'. As such, I don't condone the use of my characters in this sense, and would rather people not pretend like they are my characters. My characters are my characters, I put a lot of time, effort, and care into their crafting, and only people whom I know have put as much effort into understanding them will ever get the 'privilege' of acting as them in writing. I can count those people on one hand, otherwise, if you want to interact with them, interact with me. I know I'm elusive and hard to pin down, I apologies for that. But if you're here what you want of them probably will be seen, otherwise, just know that anything 'you do' I do not support/have any stake in, and neither do any of my characters.

ALL that being said, I do support my characters being 'inspiration' for you, I do hope you find my ideas entertaining and hell, I do hope you use them (being the ideas) yourself if you like them a lot. I won't scoff at seeing more hip winged dragons, I won't scoff at seeing more drolfs. I would just rather anyone that sees my work and gets enough of an interest in it make or get something made that enhances it with your own interests and desires. Copy paste is a fun tool I know, but your life is not enriched when you use it. Use you're brain, I know you can, it's in your head. I believe in you! ovo.

Also this isn't a stance against anyone drawing my characters as like a 'gift' or something either, not that I'd expect that all that much but one can get enough of an idea of my characters to depict them appropriately more than likely in that sense xD. As stated below, this is largely pointed at 'straight theft' and pretending to be them in most often an RP sense.

(also if you ask and I give you my 3D models to use, obviously there's a bit of leeway there compared to what is stated above. If you make something with them, haza, the act of doing so is enough of a creative venture that I support it, even if I won't necessarily support what comes of it [I might! but I'm not obligated to xD]. This is more pointed at image/character likeness theft and straight ripping of them in and in of itself.)

(also, as of this writing at least, this isn't in response to anything in particular. I've had one instance that I know of of egregious character plagiarism to date, and it's been dealt with. This is just to put this statement here so that it's somewhere, I been meaning to do so for a while, and now I have. ovob Don't gotta read into it! Also I know a lot of my stuff is on e621, everyone's stuff is over there, it's a haven for that sort of thing. The fact I can at least search most of it [I hope] with my tag makes me not care to much, I know trying to police it is a lost cause. I just again, want to make the statement so people know my stance XD not in some mentally deranged move to think 'this will make it stop foreverrrr!' x3)

(final clarification, because I saw someone else word it rather well and 'Imma use it here', I do not condone use of my characters without my consent. Concepts within stories/images I make/get made are 'fair use', but all my characters are my own, I do not condone their existence outside of the locations above, and I do not condone their use publicly without my consent. Ask if you want to use them or create an idea with them. Or, get to know me well enough that gifts seem appropriate. No exceptions)

I haven't put like anything on it yet, but I figured it would be worth sharing around! Pillowfort is officially open to anyone who wants to join (you gotta pop into a waitlist, but you'll get on eventually!) so anyone can freely join it should they wish to! Figure I'll slap up an 'ad' here for it should people be looking for a place to go XD will be getting stuff up over there once I finish finally getting it up here first x3 fheheh.

But yeah! here it be, have fun with it:

https://www.pillowfort.social/DragonMaster2653

(and as for a general update, as stated in my post spree works been butts and has been draining me hard core, but I'm gonna be off that contract hopefully to a better one come mid January, so just gotta make it there! Got two weeks off going to visit family at the end of December, so just looking to make it to that! Ohh, and Terraria is very fun, very good updates to it recently, good stuff. )

This Journal used to be 'Starter Guide Part 2' due to hitting the character count on that journal, but thanks to a friend gifting me a toyhouse key, it's now all collected over on that journal! As such, this one serves no purpose, but I'm keeping it around for posterity/the comments (along with it just being nice having a 'backlog journal' I can turn into anything later if I want).

Hello! Had a bit of time, and while I COULD have worked through my backlog (especially with how long this took ^^;), I had a different thought in mind. I tend to get 'mildly miffed' whenever I get people super interested in a character/s, but then they don't seem to really know even a third of the stuff that that character has gone through within my gallery. But I had the thought that I've effectively made my own 'Marvel Universe' here with all my characters, and expecting anyone outside of my own head to know every in and out of what my characters have done is rattthher not great.
So, what if, I made a little guide to help people along, that I could shoot toward people whenever they show interest, or that people themselves can go to if they want to know 'what important events among the many' within my gallery are the ones that changed my characters and made them who they are! (and also actually get myself a bit organized on what even IS important for each character and what should be effecting them verses the 'fun one off stuff' XD).

So, I decided that would be what I'd do here ovo feel free to ctrl + F if you are here looking for a particular character, this document is a long one XD. But! I hope it helps some at least get a handle on my world/s and my characters ; v ; I'll try to keep this updated as events transpire so that 'more casual viewers' can stay up to date on what's all been happening and shaping the existence of those under my particular sway xD (this is also going to be 'off the cuff' writing so may contain spelling mistakes and errors, do point out any issues you might find if you wish to and I'll fix them x3). Ohh, and as this is my 'Featured Journel' and will stay as such, I'm also going to link Where I am Located and Stances on Use of My Characters, for people to reference if they want to find me on other platforms.

First off though:

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-Location Lists- (this is largely for my own records, but seems like something that might help others too! also containing links of 'first mentions'..ish):

Main Verse:
-Greenscale Mansion (containing many rooms within)
-Greenscale Mines
-Greenscale Beach/Lake
-Greenscale Graveyard
-Greenscael Greenhouse
-Ankhata's Tomb
-Ruff and Fluff (Clarisa's Restaurant)
-'Gym Fitness' (Were Bulda and Igrya work)
-Various Beaches
-Various Experimentation Labs
-Demon's Temptation's (Silth's BDSM Club)
-Latex Tendril Cave
-Eria's Diagnostic Facility
-Haunted Theater
-Frigid Tundra
-True Escape Room
-Storming Sea Estate (Ryqua's Home)
-Serpent's Feet (Tyllara's Dance Studio)

Super Verse:
-'General Super City' (Name yet to be given)
-Warehouse District
-LecFi Incorporated (Vivian's Company)
-Rhyza's Assassin Clasp
-Vivian's Lab
-Scarlet's Training Lab

RPG Verse:
-Guild Hall (depicted in pretty much all RPGverse origins)
-Guild Hall Hot Springs
-Moss Hill Springs (in the woods behind the GuildHall)
-Guild's Tavern
-Dusk's Potion Shop
-Celestial Monastery
-Lunar Moth Village
-Crystal Blossom Grove
-'Gift Wrapped Dungeons'
-Mystic Forest (Many vaguely defined 'forests' within a variety of stories now pertain to this, a massive swath of green located 'behind' the Guild Hall)
-Ven Taroth's Ruby Volcano (located deep in the Mystic Forest)
-Ven Volkanis' Volcano Cavern Hoard (could I make it any more like the location above but different? I don't think soooo)
-Renald's Blacksmith
-'Spark Touched' Plains (new Name for Blixtin's Tribe location)
-Blizzarding Peaks Mountain Range (located just past the Mystic Forest)
-Mount Fugak
-Fugak Village
-Crack Death Desert (new name for the location in 'Unwilling Offerings')
-Exhaurie, town free of Magic
-Yilna's Cave
-Flaming Kingdom
-Mystic Sea Rose Archipelago (Cidari's Tribe location)


Friend Locations (Locations owned by friend that have made appearances/may do so again):
-Pemby
-Vera's Mansion
-Jamal's Bar
-Maypop's Mansion
-Cindy's Home
-Puzzle Queen's Sanctuary

There are other vaguely defined locations in various stories here and there, but these are the main ones that are important/aren't just 'one off' locations ovo .

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But anyway, now without further a due, lets get to the real meat and potato's of all this, the true character summaries. As stated above, if you are looking for a specific character, control F is your friend. But otherwise, awayyy! Also, all links I include here are 'important images/reads' links, just stuff that I think inform the character the most, thus I will refer to them vaguly to keep the summaries somewhat readable. Worth giving them a look I'd say.

(Through the kind invite from a bud, I now have a toyhouse! which I have moved all the summaries to, as Journals have a set character count limit and I'd rather have this all in one featured journal than have to link to a second one. I was already pushing letters off the end of this journal and there's still more of all these characters stories to tell! As such, click on the links to learn more about them! Also tell me if links don't work, they should be public but idk how toyhouse works ; v ; ) .

ALL CHARACTER HEIGHTS ARE LOCATED ON THE CHARACTER HEIGHT CHART, read the description to learn how to properly get it in a readable form XD.

-Friend Verse Characters- (Characters made to exist within a world made by friends, currently consisting of Ven Geo within the Starfrog Universe made by  FriskyLittleDevil , and Renald made to exist within Pemby made by  GloriousCorgi ):

Veneca Geo: https://toyhou.se/32490453.veneca-geo

Renald: https://toyhou.se/32490568.renald

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-Modern Verse Characters- (what is essentially just 'a vague interpretation of the real world but with furries, a lack of bs like wars and people not listening to one another, and little bits of magic/organic powers like dragonic flame breath etc etc):

Shade: https://toyhou.se/32378618.shade-townsend

Emanuela: https://toyhou.se/32378981.emanuela-greenscale

Veneca: https://toyhou.se/32490409.veneca-burnstone

Tyllara: https://toyhou.se/34607430.tyllara-ballum

Silth: https://toyhou.se/32490046.silth-vendriks

Zakasya: https://toyhou.se/32560650.zakasya-seamoon

Margret: https://toyhou.se/32490259.margret-archeoptera

Ankhata: https://toyhou.se/32490332.ankhata

Eria/3-R14: https://toyhou.se/32490126.eria3-r14

Igrya: https://toyhou.se/32490198.igrya

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-Pokemon Inspired Characters- (Characters made with pokemon likenesses and mechanics/abilities, they exist within the modern verse but felt they deserved their own category):

Azy: https://toyhou.se/32560665.azy-asryale

Bulda: https://toyhou.se/32490696.bulda

Chimura:

Clarisa: https://toyhou.se/32490748.clarisa-ignimbus

Glais: https://toyhou.se/32490852.glais-articuno

Nova: https://toyhou.se/17360866.nova

Siofra: https://toyhou.se/17084272.siofra

Ryqua: https://toyhou.se/34551109.ryqua

Reina:

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-RPG Verse Characters- (A verse created to function 'like a game', built primarily as a vague amalgam of all the various things I like in RPG's and games. A little souls, a little monster hunter, a little DnD, all mixed together with a 'shifting mist' that lets other peoples characters more cleanly shift into the realm and out again by connecting 'far off worlds' but only for brief glimpses of time. Basically my playground world really XD. ):

Since this was a fun question I got asked, felt it worth putting in here as well, RPGverses 'Roles'/what each character provides: Shade; Debuffer/CC/Spam Mage, Ulvi; Damage Buffer/High Damage Mage/Cleric, Kachina; Smith/spiritualist/shaman, Dusk; Potion Maker/low level mage, Cryselia; Ranger/Monk/Rogue, Kiyro; Spirit Caller/Samurai/Sword/Spearswoman, Lunea; High Powered Healer/Resistance Buffer/Cleric, Karman; Mechanist/Soul Stone Tinkerer, Cidari; Fighter/Bruiser, and Freya; Fighter/Tank.

Ven Volkanis: https://toyhou.se/32491077.veneca-volkanis

Elynora: https://toyhou.se/32594555.elynora-crestfall

Yilna: https://toyhou.se/32492306.yilna

Ven Taroth: https://toyhou.se/32490984.veneca-taroth

Kachina: https://toyhou.se/32492381.kachina-angara

Blixtin: https://toyhou.se/32491349.blixtin-fulgere

Cryselia: https://toyhou.se/32491471.cryselia-snagtooth

Dusk: https://toyhou.se/32491794.dusk

Emm Kobold: https://toyhou.se/32491929.emm-kobold

Kiyro: https://toyhou.se/32492007.kiyro-seishkai

Ulvi: https://toyhou.se/32492129.ulvi-sema

Lunea: https://toyhou.se/32492207.lunea-sericatus

Karman: https://toyhou.se/32492171.karman-chameleon

Cidari: https://toyhou.se/32492576.cidari-marae

Freya: https://toyhou.se/22937672.freya

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-Super Verse Characters- (A verse made because I REALLY like super hero/heroine peril, and enjoy the many scenarios that result from the battles between super beings. As such I made a verse for it, though it's also vaguely defined, mainly just being a large city that the supers tend to live and work in. Think 'Gothem' or 'Metropolis', just an area that exists to have cool fights and even cooler underground shady dealings that results in lots of captures and struggles! ):

Rhyza: https://toyhou.se/32493314.rhyza-vesper

Vivian/Vechno: https://toyhou.se/32493386.vivian-primrose

Jazel/Scarlet Blades: https://toyhou.se/32493075.jazel-crystion

Shaid/Night Shade: https://toyhou.se/32493171.shaid-tombson

Vengy: https://toyhou.se/32492979.vengy-vengeance

Helcye:

Cause it's been more than Six Months since the last one apparently (that will soon be deleted cause it was a raffle that's long since passed XD) and I feel it's about time I throw out an update!

Main thing I'm going to put here though is basically just all is well! My work has been having me do actual work, which is nice to a degree. It means I'm actually getting knowladge in my field which is very much appreciated, and it isn't to strenuous outside the days I have to get up early, so that's all very nice! This all might change rather soon though, with one of the contractors on my team leaving and me having a presumed knowladge over the stuff he did from my previous work, I might suddenly find myself having to do a LOT of catch up (especially if they go through with the idea of having 'a few weeks' of working in office coming up soon actually happen, which will make everything so much fun for a good while...)

BUT! outside of that, it's been fine. What's mainly been keeping me away has been my crippling addiction to Elden Ring. Spent a good few months co-oping it with a friend and am still playing it to this day, but have been able to break myself away from it as I'm on NG+4 now and still working my way up, but am able to focus on other activities. The new season of D2 has kept me relatively busy as well, but that's been tapering off to so I've been trying to get back to posting my back log and actually getting work out xD.

I know I'm going to try and see if I can start doing various 'single image' posts to try and get more of a flow going again. I know I tend not to cause my lack of completely proper sleep leaves me feeling a bit tired and fatigued most days during the week, but I want to try and get the feeling that I don't have to do these massive sprees but can just spend 30 minutes to an hour to write up a story then post it. We'll see if anything comes of that, but if you see any single posts, then that will be why! xD.

but yea, all has been going well with me besides, various sleep deprived days here and fun hang out with physical friends there, with online smatterings of enjoyment to boot as time goes on! But I've been keeping on keeping on in the background, enjoying my life in the ways I know how ^^ so hopefully with my 'fixations' pushed into a more managable state for the moment, I'll be able to get some more writing out as time moves into the future XD (I know for some they've been waiting for me to get back to this for a while... much sweeping apologies).

But yes, here's hoping for the best! ; v ; And hoping for the best for all of you as welll!

Hay! In the midst of a move atm, so making this quick ; v ; will be posting this later, but couldn’t help but show it some love on the day at least in some fashion cause  DemalyxDragon did just way to good a job on thisss aaa!

But here be Em https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44400541/ wishing you a very happy Halloween, that she would love to help you allll through the night with, to stay nice and safe and away from the spooks, wrapped in her embrace :3c pfhehehe.

But yeah! Happy Halloween everyone! Hope you have a great one in whatever way you celebrate it! (Or if not, have a good day regardless!)

Ay! this is largely here just to push the other journal off my front page xD BUT! Also wanted to share what me and a group of friends did over the past three days.

https://ldjam.com/events/ludum-dare/49/magic-miner

We participated in the Ludum Dare 49 game jam! created a game in the span of roughly 72 hours (from 5pm CST on Friday to 5pm CST on Monday, though most of us only had until Sunday at midnight, but that didn't stop last minute fixes and changes to be made right up until the bell XD). But yea! obviously the game is short, it's not robust, it's rather simple. But considering the time frame of it's creation, I'm rather proud of it. Think we did a really good job, especially considering a lot of use coughmecough haven't touched game development in a decent chunk of time. Was nice to get back in the swing of things, so yeah. By all means give it a look, give it a play if your willing to download it. As I said, it's short, like, maybe five minutes, but it's solid, to me at least. Hope those that try it get a little bit of fun out if it, cause I know I actually do when I load it up XD fphehe.

But yeah, that be all, outside of the fact that I'm looking to move in a month. aaaaaa, but that's coming together decently well. So yea! Hope all keep on keeping on!

Alllrright, story time. Some things I wanted to say first, this story is in no way meant to garner sympathy beyond what you feel you want to provide based on your relation to me x3 I am simply putting this out there as this is the widest spot I got to give the news, so I'm giving it here. An 'explanation' as to why I've been gone for the past half week pretty much in general. Any sympathy and more importantly well wishes and prayers are better served to the people still affected, along with people currently in New York by the sounds of it (haza more things exploding). Focus your thoughts on them, I'm out from the thick of it (So far) so just read my tale for understanding x3.

Another Note to preface this, I did not have access to a car for 99% of this, because as of 2 weeks ago Monday, I noticed it was leaking transmission fluid (I had some transmission issues before related to the fluid as well that I needed checked), and last Monday, I took it in so they could give it a look again (learned later all this it just deeded it's transmission drain torqued and then a top off of the missing fluid, which they did for free thankfully as they where supposed to do that before, BUT anyway, just wanted that to be known as a general thing before I get into it all).

SO,

I currently live down in Louisiana (have been working on trying to change that for half a year now but hasn't really been working out x3), and for those that know, we got hit by a pretty massive hurricane. Lower half of the state lost power at various points on Sunday, and a good third of it still needs it (obviously not me anymore at this point, but we'll get to that). I, was not free of this event this time, and lost power at around 8-9pm that night. Being the FANTASTIC individual that I am, I thought nothing of it at the time, figuring I'd just be uncomfortable for the evening, and keeping up conversations on my phone until about midnight.

Where in I truly knew I fucked up, as at about midnight exactly, cell service died completely. Like, period, not even emergency calls. At that point, I was a bit freaked, being in a pitch black home with the wind still whistling outside, but at that point, there wasn't much else I could do, so I went to bed.

In the morning, Monday, I took a look at the devastation. The apartment complex that I live at itself didn't get hit that bad, only one big tree in the back wooded area feel over (and it feel nice and cleanly into the waiting lawn and nowhere else) with a few other trees getting uprooted and fallen over, only one of which seeming to have anything to do with power. At that point, I wasn't worried to much still. Food can last up to a day or two in a fridge so long as you don't open it, and I hadn't, so at that point, I pretty much just went about 'dopamine detoxing' xD. I was dead board the entire day, I slept through half the afternoon in the sun like a cat, and I lived off what I could (mostly crackers and tap water, which thankfully still ran/was being heated by gas power for the time being). My mind was still upset about how I wouldn't get the pinnacle drops on my Hunter for Destiny 2 for Vog/wouldn't finish any of my weeklies for my warlock, but by days end I'd pretty much just paced around/slept the day away, so with no real light outside my work laptop screen, I just went back to bed.

Come the following Tuesday, I still had no power, and I was starting to get worried. My parents told me at this point my food was 'dead', so I pulled out what I could from the fridge (breads, some filtered water I still had in there, some apples that miraculously survived, along with some lunch meat that did the same), and set about living through the Tuesday. My brain had sufficiently dealt with the lack of stimulation from Monday, and now I set about keeping myself occupied as I could. Worth noting, by this point my apartment was a sweat box. Over the evening on Sunday and all through Monday, it had been steadily climbing from 72 F and relatively not humid, to a 'cozy' 79-80 degrees with INSANELY high humidity. Part of the reason I didn't do hardly anything on Monday was from the heat, but on this day I was determined to do something. I took out the garbage (that had still been there from the week or so before), I cleaned the bathroom (mostly the tub, sink and toilet), I read some of my childhood books that I still keep around (Bone series of graphic novels are still pretty dam good don't @'t me), and I eat what I feasibly could. By this point, my northerner (MN) body was not taking to this heat one bit, that combined with my face that has a near chronic (if not in fact chronic) oil issue that the humidity was happily helping me NOT work through. At this point I would spend pretty much all my afternoon with no cloths on (minus underwear) and still be sweating heavily, with the sweat doing absolutely nothing to help me as it was to humid to evaporate it. At this point, I was beginning to worry for my life, my mind an over active one, and not having any form of distraction really didn't help said worries that entered into my skull. At this point breathing by the end of the day was labored and difficult, and I had to take cold (there was no other option at this point as the oil had run dry most likely) showers to cool myself off for even 10 minutes of general relief. I tell you what, I will never take for granted the feeling of being cold when you step out of a shower again, I will welcome that feeling for the rest of my life. But yeah, at this point the sun was going down after I used my laptop to recharge my phone (using it sparingly now/turning it off/keeping it on power saver mode) and after keeping up with a few people here and there for my own sanity, I shut down everything and worked on trying to sleep. Which, did not come easy, considering I was sweating in bed by this point, with no fan or any form of anything to assist me, and the worry I wouldn't notice myself overheating if I did fall asleep. (thankfully, I woke up a few hours later with that exact problem, and just showered myself off and went back to bed until the morning, but still).

Now, we come to Wednesday, and what a Wednesday it was. By this point, my worries where in full swing. as stated above, I had no care. I was a sitting duck in a literal oven hoping for the best, and I couldn't take it anymore. Something one should know about me, I'm, MASSIVely controlling. Part of the reason I have Em and Shade the way I do as my sona's is because I (Shade) literally can not stand losing an ounce of control or understanding over a situation. I feel I need to be able to have at least a grasp on the things around me to feel comfortable, and well, by this point what little grasp I had was rapidly slipping away. Didn't help that when I went over to ask my apartment complex about the power, they said they didn't have any direct line to DEMCO (our provider), but one of them had a rummer that we wouldn't have power until Wednesday as a conservative estimate. (next Wednesday, not the one we are currently sitting on in the timeline). By this point, I went from 'barely managing' to 'absolute wreck' in a matter of walking back to my apartment. At this point I was running out of water, and I had food for days but I was starting to have trouble stomaching it (the stress along with the heat making any form of sustenance hard to keep down, over the last 3 days I've eaten a half bag of pretzels [big bag], 6 apples [just to eat them before they went bad/for the juice within them], and two meat filled sandwiches, and that's it. For anyone that knows me personally, you know that is hardly an afternoon for me normally, and yet I was only able to stomach all over the course three and a half days). My parents where getting worried to, and where pinging me repeatedly trying to offer assistance. They got me a hotel scheduled for Friday at the earliest (the closest one open was 4 hours away from me) and said they could get me a plane ticket by Saturday, but that still left me living in this state for two more days. I also (as stated above) did not have a car, and didn't have the heart to worry them further and tell them that I didn't. So I kept nodding along to all this, but was starting to panic more and more, especially as a friend of mine told me they where already stretched to thin and couldn't offer me anything. (worth noting as of the next day they offered me at least a place to stay for the weekend if I needed it after the fact, but as of currently present me in the tale does not know this). I was told by this friend to call the place that has my car to see if it had been fixed, but my hopes weren't high as I still figured they didn't have power, and it was why they hadn't contacted me yet. I sent a text over to the lady I had previously but got no response, and tried to call them but didn't get anyone to pick up as it was 4:50 by that point and they closed at 5, so at this point, I was carless, comfortless, probably malnourished in some capacity, and desperately unsure of my current future. The only saving grace was my apartment people where kind enough to let me charge my phone off their generator (but I didn't tell you that nor did it ever actually happen gives you a look) so I had at least a day's worth of searching and things ahead of me. But one final tidbit of info I got while trying to get any ETA on power was that DEMCO was actually hit really hard by the storm (the center of there power plant at least along with a lot of their power lines), so all the information I found pointed to it being weeks if not more before I'd see power, and that just sent me into a tail spin even more, combined with the fact that 'uber was down in my area' for obvious reasons. At this point I couldn't get any food down my throat, my mouth did it's best attempt at being dry it could in the humidity, and I couldn't even distract myself with reading, as I'd get a few pages in before my mind would flood with all the uncertainties and all the things I had no control over and all the avenues I had already tried but lead to nothing. At this point I was pretty sure I was going to die down here, and come late into the evening, my mind fully broke.

I openly wept despite the lose of water, I sobbed like a child, and I did not give a heck. It was probably 10-11 at night, laying on my pillow made my head so hot I couldn't sleep, and laying on the floor made it hard to breath/I couldn't get comfortable. I paced around the room for a good half hour before said sobbing, and I got on my hands and knees and I begged a higher being for assistance. It was not my proudest moment, I know there were and still are many more out there that need more assistance than me, but at this point, I was tired, I was fatigued, and I needed literally anything to make it so I could quite my mind for even a fraction of a moment so I could get some rest.

After said spell above and taking another cold shower, I was able to get a small amount of sleep. I woke up when the sun rose, and at that point just accepted everything. I took out the food from my refrigerator (I should have earlier but my mind needed some sort of hope to keep hold of) and dumped it into a double layered bag. I prepared myself mentally for the job of going to toss it, mostly because of the yet another cold shower combined with putting on clothing. After psyching myself up, I went and did that, carrying it all the way and then walking back, figuring the sun was high enough now that said car place was open.

I turned on my phone, and dam near feel to my knee's in thanks.
At this point, I received the message that I should have gotten last night (but I turned my phone off before I got it) from said friend saying they could house me for the weekend at least if need be depending on how the car worked out, as well as a text from the lady I texted the night previously saying that they had tried to contact me earlier, and that my car was ready to be picked up. At this point, I was elated, I thanked the lords for giving me more than what I dared to hope for, and even more so as I noticed that uber was back online in my area. I ordered one, got a guy willing to drive a good 30 minutes to get to me (I tipped him don't you worry), and then the gods said 'we'll do you one better champ' and literally 2 minutes before he got to my location the power came on in my apartment at about 9:50am. I dam near cried, got into the uber, had a nice chat with him about the whole situation (the first free spirited human contact I had in 3 and a half-four days) and got to getting my car back. Turned out it was a rather simple fix (that I detailed above) and I was able to get on my way easily, with 3/4th's a tank of gas still in my vehicle ready to take me where ever I needed to go from here on in.

I came back to an apartment still full of life (as it still is up until this point), and after a quick grocery run to grab a few things to keep me for a week or two more, I can finally breath easy, in more ways than one.

I am back to 'the land of the living', and I could not be more happy and thankful. At this point, I am just spending the day mentally recovering as best I can, and will do my best to be alive fully in the coming days.

Again, I know this isn't the worst experience ever compared to some I'm sure, but it's the worst thing I've ever had to live through. Living in an apartment with no heating in winter during collage for a month was one thing, but one can always put on more layers. I can't take off my skin, and these last three days fully cemented my vehement hatred for the heat compared to the cold.

But it,

Is finally over.

Long live a good rest of the day, a good Friday, and a good weekend. And may the rest still effected by this get the help they need, and may they not have to wait to much longer.

A brief bit of brevity to end this sower note on that I just was reminded of.

Top Text: I'll have you know I had my power out for four-ish Days

HELloo once again x3 first off, again, Not going to freely throw around my discord yet. If you know it, you know it, cool, if you don't, likely won't, cause I got SO many people on there now/so many things I'm keeping up with xD. Not your fault, purely mine, but maybe someday.

BUT besides that, I had the thought today...about how I'm basically never using the green light on discord...and I'm like 'why though...' I know its usually the 'I am totally open' button, but honestly, I can define it to mean whatever I want for myself! xD so, I am! and editing the rest of them accordingly.

So for those that jab me on discord, here is yet another update to how I'm going to try to use my lights.

GREEN: Is now going to mean I'm likely busy, but am willing to text chat/open to be poked for talking. It's for when I'm doing something that isn't incredibly demanding (like solo Destiny 2 grinding xD) and willing to pause said thing every so often to chat. Responses likely won't be instantaneous, but if your used to getting responses from me, then this light means you likely will get one within a short time frame. Will also entertain conversations in general under this light.

ORANGE/YELLOW: This now means I'm willing to still chat, but what I'm doing requires a bit more focus, OR I'm currently entertaining a few other chat's already so you won't be of primary priority if you do poke me. Still feel free to do so, but know that I am already focusing on something else, so replies may be sporadic/take a long time at random as I focus on other people that 'got here first' so to speak xD, or focus on the game that is currently occupying my time. Still willing to chat here though! just know that if your starting to poke me under this light, I'm not going to be the fastest responder alive xD.

RED: This remains largely unchanged. I am currently in a voice call that is mentally demanding, or I have a demanding conversation/my 'maximum number' of conversations currently going, or I am just playing a game with friends and wanting to display myself as 'online' but am currently occupied. If you poke me when I'm red, and weren't already poking me, response might take some time, or might not happen at all, if it seems like your looking for a conversation and by the time I look at it it's multiple hours later xD, so yea. Poke here if you like, but don't expect anything immediately/anything at all if it takes a while. I am busy.

GRAY/INVIS: Remains the enigma. Either I'm working and bored and you get a response instantly, or I'm asleep/not wanting to talk with people right now and you get nothing. It's a shot into the void, fire it with measured expectations. (though at this point most of the people that do fire in know my availability during my 'work day' at this point XD but yea, should you ever not get a response, I am not there to receive it, check back later).

And yea! that should be about it x3 tried to condense my explanations to like, the actual main points in this too now xD but yea! Here be the lights from here on forward, until such point I make yet another one of these xD appreciate you reading!

Sooooo x3 be me, have a few weekends free where you think you can put a good bit of work into your story writing to finally get your ever expanding que of images out the door.

On the day you designated to write, have a constant, throbbing headache, to the degree that after you barely get through one backstory your like 'ok, I'll just do it next weekend even more'

then that next weekend comes, and your car doesn't start X 3 and you flail for what amounts to most of the weekend and into the first few days of the week, trying to understand why, realizing (luckily) it's just the battery having run low, and then paying a bit more than should be legal to have someone come jump your vehicle, before taking it in and getting said battery replaced.

And now realize you've gone two weekends now without getting out a single story fully, and just silently scream while rocking back and forth for a moment

BUT! it's fine x3 just, weh, all of my weh. (also I'm fine financially, anything I've said I can get or am in the process of getting is still happening, just got more of a thigh stab when it comes to funds xD BUT, I'll be fine, just flailing cause I had such high aspersions but weeeehh )

Partly doing this to get my long form essay off my front page xD BUT! I wanted to ask peoples opinions on this.

Normally when I tend to post, I usually just do a batch writing session through out the course of what tends to be a Sunday, and then just post it all at the end of the day however much or little that tends to be.

But this time around, unlike the last many times, I only got through a few of my backlog do to various hang up's and my own procrastination, but I wanted to ask, would that be preferred? o3o I know many (or, at least the few writers that I watch and actively pay attention to) writers that often post a image with a story attached every so often, and I wonder if that's better for you guy's when it comes to actually reading the content? would you prefer I try to focus on just getting one image with a story out at a time, or do you prefer the batch uploads that give you a bunch of things to sift through at your leisure?

Or do you have no preference at all?

I'm down for whatever answer, just curious really, since I had a talk with a friend about it and it seemed like something I should just ask those that look at my stuff what they think on the matter >3< but yea! Thanks for reading and your impute if you give it, and hope you do welllll in this coming year! ^3^

Just wanted to start this off by saying my own thoughts on the matter will be more clearly defined toward the end of this long essay x3 and that the middle is largely just intended to outline my thought process as well as try and get you all that read this to think about it along these perspectives as well, not necessarily agree, but at least see these perspectives as existing.

SO hello to all! 'Happy' New year! definitely started this all off with a bang haven't we? xD I come onto this platform today to just air out some thought's I had after a relatively recent discussion with a fellow commissioner on one of their more recent journals, about art theft/unauthorized use of art and how it had really taken the wind out of their sails when it came to creating and trying to create.

Now, going to get into this more at the end but wanted to say here to, I am in no way condoning this sort of behavior, or trying to encourage it in anyway. If one's brain is so unbelievably tiny that one can't do anything on this earth but directly rip other peoples stuff and use it like they made it themselves, then I weep for their hollow and meaningless existence.

BUT, that being said, the discussion in the comments of the journal, did bring up an ultra rare instance of meaningful discussion, and I wanted to bring up the thoughts that where discussed here, as well as my own further thoughts on the matter.

What is the reason, that drives an individual toward creation? And should that reason soly be, the complete and utter control, of a 'unique' idea? I mean, that can be a good start, and can lead one to embark on creative process that the world has never seen, but should one then afterword hold that idea like a prize above others, and systematically bash any and all 'imitations' that others might try do? Should one require that all uses of the idea they publicize go through them inherently, and only them, without letting anyone have even a single bit of creative freedom of their own if they want to engage with said idea?

I pose these questions mostly to get one to think, as we, or at least I, did in the comment section of that journal. Creativity is an interesting thing to me, while copyrights do exist for creative works, it is much more difficult for an individual, especially with the age of the internet, to hold on to a strict sort of control of one's own creative ideas in a public sphere, compared to say, that of a patent. The internet itself has made the sharing and resharing of idea's infinitely easier than it ever has before, but also made the tracking and sourcing of that information infinitely more difficult. In my experience, the copyrighting of created works often leads to just being the 'originator' of that idea, which in my opinion, should be what those that wish to create original ideas should strive for. Becoming the sole monarch of an idea and saying 'though shalt not ever create anything like my own unless I strictly decree it' I feel has priorities misplaced, at least when it comes to creative ventures. I feel creativity has a rare showing in the world at the moment at least, where people that create get to learn from and utilize others own sparks at such a rate, that there's always something new and interesting to find thanks to it, be it based on something you love, or be it entirely new to fall in love with.

Now, again, this isn't to say one shouldn't bash on those that just take and don't innovate, copy paste is just as prevalent in this day and age and stomping out the morons that think that's an ok way to operate is important, but, should the fact that they exist utterly destroy ones creative drive? Is the fact that people out there like your stuff enough to want to interact with it outside of you directly that much of a turn off? I mean, it can be, sure, but that is why I pose the questions. I personally love the process of creation, I enjoy delving into my own worlds and letting them flow in my head, along with jumping into different 'skins' in the way of my characters to view different angles and view points. The act of creation, and collaboration with artists on that front, is what brings the enjoyment for me, and while I hate the idea of someone just taking an image I have without proper sourcing and using it to their own ends, I'd rather tell them that they can with proper sourcing, and encourage their own journey of creation, than bash them over the head and say that 'no only MY creativity is correct! you can't have none!'.

Now, again, I want to stress the importance of proper sourcing, even just a link to the artist that created it important. Give back to the creator that inspired you enough to want to do something, this should be a circle, not just a line. Taking and using without sourcing is just the same as stealing, plan and simple. But if people do want to engage with your creative ventures, if you've inspired them to want to craft something of their own and use it their way, why not let them?

Now, I know in this particular community that can be a rather hard topic or point of view to push. Many have 'their' sona's, the characters they have that represent them, and having a bunch of copy cats pop up can feel like a big slap in the face when it comes to 'originality', while also just feeling a lot more like a personal attack since its 'them' they are imitating. Everyone likes to feel special, but if being special is all that is important to you, I then would pose the possibly harsh sounding question, of why did you share it? Well, I mean likely the reason is 'to feel special amongst a crowd!' but then again, I question where your priorities lie. In the event of sharing one's ideas, its sparks others that see it and like it to want to enjoy those ideas too. Some, want to enjoy what you have further created, but some, have just found their own spark, and want to craft their own identity off of what you have just shown them. Sure, some just want to do it for the notoriety, but those ones are almost always fleeting and never usually amount to much. But the ones that want to fully create something of their own, I feel shouldn't be silenced just because they happen to REALLy enjoy what one made to the point of wanting to emulate it.

What came into my mind recently, and what spurred me to the point of creating this journal, was the thought of 'fan created' things for popular ip's, and viewing all this through that lens. If you really think about it, anyone that directly crafts a narrative, or an image. that fully 'rips' the ideas of a popular franchise such as MLP or Star Fox, is in effect, doing in some parts, what has been detailed above. They are taking a property that isn't theirs, without the creators consent, and especially on this platform, without their intended purpose in mind, and making something based off of it anyway. This can be as 'harmless' as a fan drawing, or as 'egregious' as making their own character or even world based off of it. And to those that want to hold single dominion over their respective idea's, I ask you, your feelings on what I just said here? If you view this as also being something terrible and disheartening, then I REALLLy question your priorities in the creative sphere, cause it sounds like engineering or architecture or something with a proper patent system is MUCh more your type of thing.

But to those that think the above things alright, I ask, what makes it different then when it's happening to your stuff? Well, that's easy, its your stuff right? well then why is it ok for other peoples stuff? Why is the fact that a bit of your world is patterned off of X inspiration ok, but the fact someone wants to make a character based off of yours not? What about it being more 'personal' suddenly makes the process a negative thing?

I pose these questions to you, for I personally, have no answers, outside of a sense of 'ownership' that one feels like they are losing if people start emulating them. But, to that I say, the characters are still yours right? same with the world, and the ideas? What you want to do with them haven't been effected in the slightest by someone else's world popping up right? YOUR characters are still your own, and what you do with them is still unique to what you desire, even if someone else happens to enjoy and desire the same thing. If anything, that should spark more of a kinship, someone out there enjoys what you are doing enough to want to 'do it just like you!'. Now, is it annoying and frustrating that they didn't just come to you to interact with you directly? Yes, it can be, but it's a lot harder to talk with someone you admire about how much you enjoy them when, especially in this day and age, people are pulled thin enough as it is, let alone having a meaningful enough interaction with a stranger to impart interaction with an idea to them. And especially if the aura you give off is 'NO ONE BUT ME CAN HAVE THIS' then people even more so won't want to interact with you, and instead do everything they can to enjoy your idea elsewhere in a more open environment. Creativity is bread through openness and a desire to create for the sake of it, and if one doesn't enjoy the process of creating but only the process of lording that creation over others, then once again, I ask that one re-evaluates their priorities.

Now, to say yet one more thing tacked onto the end of that, I know when it comes to ones own characters, the personal attachment can also bring one to arms against those that would dare use them in a way that isn't intended, and to that, I understand. To circle allll the way back to points I made toward the beginning, the fact that people are so uncreative/unoriginal, or heck even entitled enough, to just take other peoples hard payed for/worked on art and characters, and just use them to their own ends, often because 'hah they hawt I wanna f%$& em but og creator wont like that but imma do it anyway,' absolutely sucks, and feels like shit. But, again, I gesture to the point I just made on fan made stuff, and point out the HEAVY amount of sexual content being crafted in that exact same way, heck even dedicated accounts with just screen capped icons of various characters entirely dedicated to that sort of thing. Entire enterprises can't keep a lid on horny, unoriginal dickweebs when it comes to their own ip's, and when it comes to fan creations with that sole purpose in mind there isn't really a way to stop them either. So while unless one crafts the next big block buster show one will never have to worry about THAT level of insanity, I feel it's an important perspective to have that literally everyone has to deal with this. If you want to have a public presence in this creative medium, the unfortunate reality is that while many people are awesome, a select few suck peen, and some a lotttt harder than others. Hell animators and creators at Disney are literally told straight up that the stuff they make is going to get misused, and that they have to be ok with that otherwise they aren't going to make it.

And as harsh as it is, it's not really that different, anywhere else. Solo creator or one of many in a studio, some people suck, and if the knowledge of that kills your creative drive, then I will admit that it is probably time to find a different hobby. One can police it all they like but the fact is that shitty copy pasters exist, and so long as free accounts on sites are a thing, they will continue to exist. So one I feel has to make a choice:

Create for fun and creations sake, and let the world be as it may <--- my current outlook, though by all means not the 'right' one.
Create for fun and creations sake, but also focus on stamping out the copycats you can, to the degree that still lets you enjoy the medium.
Create for the sake of originality of your creations, and become a bitter frustrated individual over the span of many years of stamping out any and all those that try to emulate, until eventually giving up in a heep.
Create for originality of your creations, and hoard all of them to yourself, so no one can ever create anything like them and you can feel special until your final days.

Those are the main four options I see before any aspiring creator, and to me, the first two are the ones I hope many decide/desire to be. For the fun and act of creating is often such a cathartic and enjoyable experience, and sharing it, even with the slight pains of doing so, I feel is more than worth it do to the enjoyment that comes from sharing one's passions.

I hope this long winded essay got the likely very few that read it to think, and if you have any further thoughts to add bellow, either in agreement or in disagreement, feel free to place them bellow.

And I'd once again like to firmly reiterate, this does not condone the strict copying and taking of others works without direct sourcing for use as if it where your own, nor will I ever be ok with that. Heck, I find the act of utilizing characters in 'unintended ways' from there initial creation often times off putting and gross, but, ya. If you steal works just because they are hot and use them without consent for your own fantasies, I despise you, and hope you figure out something useful with your life to pursue.

First things first, when was the last time you backed up your data? Including all your tasteful images and smutt you might have on that one special drive that you don't want anyone else to see? Cause if it's been longer than a month, or like, in my case, ever. Go do that, now, go. Ignore this, go do that, gooooooooooooo!

You'd think someone that works with computer's for a living would have learned this lesson by now, and I mostly did. But when it came to all my various saved images of the glorious things I have on this site, and that I've taken off of it, it all was put into one place. One singular flashdrive, with the intent of 'well I'll put it on more places when I'm living alone and can do so.'

Well, guess who didn't do that?

Thisss guyyyyy.

Now, before I get to mellow dramatic, no the device didn't get smashed, lost, or otherwise destroyed. But what DID happen to it, is a bit of a 'fun' story.

So a few that might be reading might remember how I said I was going to try and get a bunch of my backlog out before beyond light dropped for D2 (which happened on Nov. 10th), as I knew that DLC would likely suck every ounce of my free time out of me for the next while (and so far, it very very much has and will likely continue to do so for a good bit >3<;), and so, that was the plan. I got a good few stories done, and planned on getting a good batch finished, and then would post it all before jumping in to the DLC...

Well, before working on the second half of the batch that I wanted to get to, some guys came into my apartment to finally finish up the inner wall that they had torn out to fix some mold damage. No worries, I'll just pull the drive out, take a separate laptop I had from college into the other room, plug it in, and continue working right? Well, see, I would, if I didn't accidentally force the drive into the wrong port...and completely remove all the prongs in one fell swoop.

What followed was a bit of confusion, attempts at plugging it into different ports, feeling how incredibly loose it was once plugged in, looking inside the drive, and becoming absolutely mortified as I realized what I had done and what I had just lost. 6+ years of saved images, gifs, video's, and commissions, along with various other payed for works, all locked away, on a device now completely stripped of it's ability to communicate with the outside world.

Needless to say, writing became the last thing on my mind very rapidly, as I frantically tried to search for a way to fix the issue. That day I went over to Best Buy's Geek Squad, and was told they where unable to assist, before looking up online various Data recovery options, and learning that the procedure was rather 'simple', but the process would either require soldering or me being extremely lucky.

And so...I sent it off to a place online, just hopping and praying I wouldn't get screwed over....and got lucky, so so so f-ing lucky. They could repair the drive and grab all the files off of it, and they did so, before sending back a harddrive with all of it on it. Just got it back, and it's all there, every bit of it. Many tears of joy where shed this day, as I quickly grabbed all the files off of the drive, then compressed it, and shoved it onto google drive, and many many other places. The cost of such recovery hit me like a tone of bricks, but, thankfully I am in a position where affording it just means I'll be sitting on my backlog for a month or so with only the stuff I jumped on prior to this whole event coming in >//> but with my massive backlog still in effect, I don't think that much of a problem, considering the amount of things I got recovered ; 3 ;.

My plan now is to try and work through enough D2 content to likely spend thanksgiving break eating food and writing, to get out the backlog that has done nothing but grow since all this started xD So hopefully yet another flood from me will be coming in the coming week, so stay tuned for that!

And if it hasn't been hammered home yet, back up your data, ALL, of your data. Learn frommmm my stupidityyyyyyyyyyy ; 3 ;

Helllllooo! Just dropping a journal here quick to show what I've been plinking through lately. Edited a few bio's that I needed to go through based on various relationships and thingggggss >3< So hope yea find them entertaining to go through!

Vengy: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30857035/

Karman: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27858789/ (did this one based on a conversation with a friend a good bit back, wanted to make her have where her beauty was more apart of her personality/backstory. Ended up editing it a good bit too, so hope it helps! >3>)

Blixtin/New Beginning: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34569579/

(explanations for the other two stories in there descriptions) Hope you likkkke! >3<

https://www.anthrobrand.com/post/the-anthro-community-and-parasocial-relationships



Got shared this in a discord group a few minutes ago, gave it a good read through, and it hit a lot of points I wish I had internalized a good many months ago.

As someone who did this, and had to learn the hard way, I strongly recommend taking heed to what is stated above, and analyze the relationships you hold.

Finding out you have one of these before the fact and dealing with it in a healthy manor before it becomes a problem, is good.

Don't idolize something fictitious, respect and admire it, and admire and respect the person, or people, behind it. Make friends with people, use and create and work with people, so that the character is simply a layer, not the whole onion.

(though this isn't to say you can't love designs and shows in artistry in affection, just make sure you understand where your emotions and desires lie.)

Ayyyy x3 been a while again, sense I done one of these. Haven't really had much in the way of events happen to me tell very recently, sooo figured I should do an update journal just to go through some 'exciting' events to occur (outside of that last post spree last weekend, which I hope you all enjoyed! >3<).

BUT yeah, basically my mother has a proverb she's told me that states 'bad things always come in three's', and outside of the general world events setting the world on fire I happened to have that proverb ring true for me these past two-three weeks.

First, had some lovely water damage/mold in my apartment. Nothing ultra major, but annoying none the less, had to get sent to the guest house for a few days while they worked on it, the air conditioning in their didn't work, so had to then get sent to a hotel a bit down the way instead xD was a 'delightful' time.

During that whole process the bonded retainer I had on my lower set of teeth popped off. Ended up kinda being a good thing just because I went there today and asked about it and turns out I could easily just get a removable one and not have to worry about it for the rest of my existence, so that's nice. Still a pain in the wallet but luckily thanks to were I work 'I have an account for that' so will just be an upgrade for me. Just a pain to have to wake up at 7am 2 days in a row after being used to waking up at 9-10 Xd.

Andddddd if to hit that fabled 'three' my phone of 6 years has finally fully died on me during this whole endeavor as well. Kept that thing going with only a battery replacement for the last 6 years, so it served me HECKEN well when it comes to how phones go. Was planning on upgrading but then this whole mess of a virus happened so figured I should wait, but, the universe said 'no, your charging port is going to fail on you so you HAVE to get a new phone', as getting that thing replaced would be just replacing the phone in it's entirety anyway. It needed to happen, just a massive bill I wasn't entirely ready for, but after some figuring within my buggetting I luckily will just be able to squeak out this month even with that massive hiccup. (If any of the people I've commissioned/already threw money at happen to be reading this don't worry, that includes all of that budgetted in xD so I'll be good, just will need to be a LOT more tight walleted for the next month or so >//>; ) .

But yeah, just to update in a general sense for the time inbetween, before the last two-three weeks happened and as of right now, things are going fine! got a new project at work so I'm officially kinda doing things ish, though still obviously able to be on here and other places decently frequently xD (working from home wow twirls finger). I've been keeping myself fed and and doing fine all things considered, in a rather, privileged spot compared to most in these times so just been throwing money where I can (if the massive amount of art that I've gotten/am sitting on/have coming in doesn't make that apparent xD). Just a couple bumps in the road as of late but have dealt with it, and hope to get back on even footing for a good while so I can get back to helping others as best I can.

But yeah...that be my life the last few weeks/months x3 well that, and playing Destiny 2...a LOTTTTT of Destiny 2...like a lot...its a problem....I'm not gonna fix it >3<;

coughs but yea! ^^ hope you all been doing well, and hope we all continue to weather the storm as best we can. Stay safe everyone!

I know not many tend to likely look at journals before the images themselves, but figured id pop one up anyway saying that I got a largggge backlog of stuff that I'm going to be working through today. Had the last week off from work, spent it writting up a storm, and the ever wonderful  djselena went through all my bits of writing helping me catch my little mistakes. SSSoooo ganna be posting a lot of images, stories and various other stuff to keep many tied over for a good long while, probably >//> heheeh.

Hope you like what comes out, Had a good bit of fun writing it all (though as always any critique is heavily appreciated x3) but anyway, onward!

Edit: AAAnnnnd done xD finally. These images have been sitting in my 'to do box' spanning back months. Believe it or not I still got a few that even still need stories, but I gotta keep a few around for when the mood strikes again right? >//> heheh but yeah, Still might see a few more of these trickle out over the next week/weekend, but I'm happy with what I was able to get through this week ^^ and happy to officially be back on track with my picture to do list, instead of having so...so many needing longer length stories....so many...rocks back and forth sucking thumb and whining from partial burn out

Figure I should make one of these, one cause the previous raffle journal ended xD but also just to say that I'm doing perfectly fine. My work has me working from home through the end of April in accordance to our state law, still making the mons and doing alright with myself. Though not super stocked about basically being put on a low end project to be phone service for people for the next month or two, buttttt at least I'll be doing something...hopefully...

But yeah, Have yet to get sick, under the same pretenses as many that apparently I have been 'Self Quarantining' for years and just never knew the name XD so my life hasn't changed much outside of the one reason I had to leave my home no longer happening. It's been an adjustment but not nearly as much of one as I'm sure it has been for some.

Been basically just trying to throw what mon I can around though, many artists falling on tough times thanks to there supplemental income sources poofing on them, so things will be coming from me quite a bit as time goes on >3< though, still gotta find time to write amidst my gaming addiction but whatevver xD I'll get to ittt! Things will be coming from meee!

But yeah, I'm doing good, if you where worried. May those that are struggling get the help they need, and may we all get through these times of insanity together.

A list of images that still need proper stories (that are likely in my head but I'm to lazy to get them down on paper).


https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23939615/ - Freebie Raffle Win (likely can make it a sudo small blurb squeal to Dragon Taming)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25665090/ - You are Mine my Dear
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28536540/ - Veneca's 'Play Date' with Em
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25921606/ - Igrya Under the Sea! (can likely continue such a story into https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25381878/ - Igrya Meets a New Friend)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25381486/ - Margrets Newst 'Concert'
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24983364/ - Veneca's Sacrifice
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54152977/ - Origins Illustrated: Kachina's Cell (embellish it more than just a single line)

Here be the list of what im still waiting for for myself >3< (the ones before the break I've been waiting multiple years for, unfortunately x3):

 Zylo_Garoh Story Com, maybe someday o3o

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 DranixParemoon New Comic! (in parts as always!)!

 renthedragon Solo commission!

 Zeveth Further Commissions and 'Sketches'!

 freelapse Complex Com!

 Fleet-Foot Collage Page!

 Aliscik YCH...again!

 DinoGoat BEEEG Banner commission! + Chibis!

 GahoWolf Two YCH slots! (Yet to be asked for payment)

 Sinnabelle Dancing Com!

 27DayFreak Another sketch page! (Yet to be asked for payment)

 TKLsfm Tickle animation! (yet to be asked for payment)

 neracoda SpeedPaint Com! (yet to be asked for payment)

 GoldMikun New Com! (Yet to be asked for payment)

 drawpanther Cyber Com! (Half paid!)

 darkzoul 4 panel sketch wing it!

 Sophs Concept Commission!

 Brolaren Large animation slot! (yet to be asked for payment)

 AmethystDust Commish! (yet to be asked for payment)

 cho0c0 another animation!

And some Co-Commissioned ones:

Ulvi Venere image by  m-preg

Stuff that's done but I haven't posted a pic from them yet so I place it down here so I can get to them later:  DreycoTheWyrm ,  graphicdistress ,  GIROK