Hey guys. So, to update, I have been released from the Behavioral Mental Health Clinic as of 2 PM March 21st. Ive been diagnosed with severe anxiety, mild depression, and tireless leg sydrome which has effected my sleep. So I'll be on meds for a while to make sure my thoughts stay clear which have been working after previous meds I took while there didnt work too well. So yeah, heres to me getting to where I was before this happened, which will hopefully be soon.

Thanks for taking the time to read this.

So, to let everyone whats been going on. Ive been suffering from Panic and Axniety attacks for the past few days, as well as some suicidal thoughts, dreams, trouble breathing, and other things. I am currently in a Behavioural Health Clinic and will be for a few days to find out whats going on in my head. Im sorry to have worried anyone with my absence and not talking much. All i can say is that all my friends and family should be strong for me. I will get through this and I will get better.

Thank you for your time to read this.

So.... just wanted to do a quick update on what has happened the past few days.

So, on Feb 1st while i was on my way home from picking up one of my roommates from his physical therapy, we stop at a McDonalds so I could get him something to eat. Then as we're heading home, we get into a car accident, about a block away from home. We were rear ended from behind, but we were hit twice. There was another car that we hit that was in front of us, but didnt take much damage.

After a few moments of dizzyness and making sure myself and my roommate were okay, i went to check what had happened. I didn't get out right away because i could barely move my right arm and was having some neck pain.

After a while the fire department, police and ambulance arrived. My roommate got taken in the first ambulance due to him being more banged up than I was, someone from the car that hit is was taken into a 2nd ambulance and I was taken in a 3rd one that shortly arrived later.

After getting some CT Scans and X-rays, they found nothing broken or seriously damaged on me which is semi good, however they gave me muscle relaxers and a high dosage of ibuprofen to help with the pain, which is putting me out of work for a few days. My roommate also has neck and back pain along with some arm pain and a possible hairline fracture in his lower leg (he already had leg problems going on, but didnt have the hairline fracture before the accident)

However with the car, its pretty much done. The car WAS repairable, until our insurance saw that the mud flap is rubbing against the tire. They looked farther and saw that the car frame its attached to, was bend downwards, which means that the repairs would cost more than the value of the car, so insurance declared the car a total loss. So now just waiting on whats gonna happen next.

But yeah, due to this, all commissions that i was working on are on hold, along with art trades that i owe, until further notice.

So yeah, that was my day. I hope yours was much better than mine.

So yeah, my laptop is dying. Has been for a while know. Constant freezes, many of the keys on the laptop itself no longer work, headphone and microphone jacks are failing, and more and more often the wifi card is acting up meaning that it too will soon fail. So art and commissions have slowed because of these persistant problems. Even with a seperate keyboard and having it hardwired to the router for internet, it still acts up with occasional freezes and failing ports.

So, any funds i get from commissions from now on will be going towards funding for a new computer. However, so not to overload myself again (as i have done now with too many i currently owe) I will only have one slot open at a time. No more than that. I have too many i owe, and too slow of an artist.

So yeah. Laptop is dying, any money I make will go towards a new computer, and only 1 commission at a time when the current ones I owe are finished.

Pretty much all of the updates I have this time.

So, officially  panscolipede and I have gotten together in a relationship.~

We talked about it and decided to give it a try and so far things have been going great!!~

So expext some stuff from us in the future~~

That's right. 3 movie studios (Warner Brothers, Sony, and Legendary Picture), are in talks with Nintendo to make a live-action Pokemon film and it has been an all out bidding war to see who gets it.

However, due to the success of Pokemon GO (Which is awesome I gotta say), the bidding war is just gonna get more intense, and its rumoured that even more movie companies may want a piece of it with how Pokemon GO topped the app charts on Android AND iOS in less than 24 hours of release and is STILL there today.

So who knows what will happen in the coming weeks.

I've actually had it awhile, but never posted much until recently. I've been posting Let's Plays and Speed Draw videos.

Give it a look and tell me what you think! I'm trying to post at least 1 video every 2 to 3 days.

https://www.youtube.com/user/DragonMaster61693

So yeah. I've decided to reopen commissions after calming down and thinking things through. I rushed the decision to close commissions to quickly and harshly, not only punishing me, but potential commissioners, which wasn't right or fair to do. So I'm reopening them and adding another slot to the list.

If interested in a commission, just send me a note.

Thanks.

Okay, I may have jumped the gun too soon to close commissions. Just things that got to me and I'm punishing myself and others which isnt right. So I may reopen commissions, but keep them to friends for the time being. Idk yet. Currently out to distract myself which i need right now. I'll post another journal when I get back home.

And i dont know when I'll open them again.....if ever.......

So yeah. I set up one too.

https://beta.furrynetwork.com/draderico_m/

I dont often (or rarely) ask for money. But this time I do,

So, I checked my bank account today and found it almost $210 in the negative. And I get my first check at my new job on Wednesday and I'm afraid that if I put it in, it will disappear. So I'm asking or help.

Either a donation, or a commission would really help me out. Cause I also wanna close out that bank account and go to a new one cause this one has given me too many money problems.

So yeah, that's pretty much the sum of it.

I know people say the would if they could, but just spreading this is just as much help as donating or getting a commission.

So, care to help a blue dwaggy out? *gives a cute, big eyed look*

So yeah, today I went to scottgames.com and came to an unwelcomed surprise.

Scott Cawthon has confirmed a new FNaF game.

Don't believe me? Check the website yourself.

Yep. Today i turn 23.

Bring all the gifts! >=3

Just like I said the lat journal, I'm opening commissions. So if you would like a slot, either comment below, or send me a note. Prices are listed on my main page.

So, even though I'm working again, I wont be getting my first pay til like the 29th. So until then, I'm gonna reopen commissions Tomorrow. Right now, I have 2 that are still due. I WILL be working on those while doing these new commissions.

First come, first serve on the slots.

In 8 days. I'll be 23 =3

So far a week has gone by since I've been here and things have been going very well. After another day of training on Thursday, I should be ready to start work. So I look forward to that.

Next is my birthday. I turn 23 on April 16th. I feel old even though it's not XD

But yeah, my birthday is soon. I don't really expect anything. As long As I got my master, bro's and friends, every birthday is great.

As I'm typing this I am working on commission.

I got my laptop fully working a few hours after posting the journal about the problems, but I suffered an art block and/or unmotivated to do any drawing. I slowly started to get into again, but now I'm back on track to get the commissions and raffle pics done.

Once they are finished I will open commissions again. I will posta journal when they are open again, so keep an eye out for that.

Thanks to all i owe pics from for you're patients. It hasn't been easy cause of laptop problems AND work. Thanks again.

So, yesterday (January 1st), my laptop was running fine. Was watching some YouTube video when suddenly pop ups start appearing everywhere. Not just in my Web browser, but on the main desktop itself. And me panicing, I tried to close them out and delete things before the damage got bad.

In the end, the damage was done. I couldn't open some Applications, many would open, but I couldn't use them, and it was being very laggy.

So now I need to do a full factory reset of my laptop. But I don't have any money to get a portable hard drive to put my files and art into.

So until I can do this, I can't use my laptop, and I'm not allowed to use any of the other computers we have here at the house (I'm typing this from my phone)

Hopefully I can get this done soon.

It brings me a heavy and less lively heart to tell you all that  dragon99 has sadly passed away yesterday morning....

I'm just at a loss for words. Him and I were just happily rping the night before.

He was my best friend and likely the first friend I made when joining dA back in 2009.

I'm gonna miss him so much.....

Farewell dear friend. May we meet again soon *sniffs as tears run down my cheek*

So yeah, I've arrived back safely to Florida.

and I had a blast and lots of fun on the trip.

But...

The whole trip wasn't all fun and giggles. On Wednesday (October 7th), TheDeafDriver and I broke up.

Now, don't everybody be freaking out. Him and I spent a lot of time talking about it, and we've decided not to dread on this. But to see this as an opportunity to see what we've missed and learned from each other. For a few days it is gonna be rough for the both of us, but we are looking forward to the future. Cause who knows. Maybe him and I will get back together again.

Also, PLEASE do not ask what happened about the break up. We're looking past that and will refuse to answer any question related to the break up. You comment will be deleted or flagged as spam if you do.

Now, on to the fun things.

The ship we went on was the Carnival Glory. A very nice ship, launched in 2003, so it's 12 years old now. The ship had 12 main decks, with deck 9 being the Lido deck which also had the pool, and deck 10, which had a water-slide. Deck 11 and 12 was a Adults Only section, while also having a Spa and Gym. Deck 9 also had a separate Adults Only Pool hehe.

We played Mini-Golf on Deck 11 by the signature Carnival smokestack, went to the 3 level theater to see a game-show of life-size Hasbro games like Operation and Connect 4. Tried to win some money at BINGO hehe. Even tried a little bit at the Casino.

All-in-all, the cruise was amazing and we had a great time. I might post pictures, but in scraps, of the trip.

That's all I gotta say this time. See you all in the next journal.

As the title says. I'm going on a cruise to see my mate for the first time~

The cruise starts tomorrow until the following Saturday.

While I'm away I will be working on commissions and stuff to get the done while I'm relaxing. Cause I have had nothing but stress which has caused my art to slow to almost nothing. So this cruise will really do me a lot of good.

So yeah. I hope to have fun and a blast and I'll see you all again on the 10th.

Okay, I just wanna say this now cause I'm seeing too much of it.

The scene we see at the end of Night 5 is....

NOT THE BITE OF 1987!!!!!

Why?

BECAUSE THE CHILD DIES!!! As proof in the night 6 scene where the toys of the animatronic's disappear and then we hear a sound that is a flat-line when someone dies.

If it was the Bite of 87, the child would have lived, as proof from the first game when phone guy says "It's amazing that the human body can live without the frontal lobe right?"

My 2nd piece of proof is when the "bite" happens in the night 6 scene. The child's head is fully inserted into Fredbear/Golden Freddy's mouth and is crushed. When the human skull is crushed, you have a minimal chance of survival cause the brain is mushed in the process and is pierced with fragments of the skull.

So again, how can this be the bite of 87 when 1. The child's head is crushed, not bitten and 2. The child dies.....

So yeah, that's my take on the matter.

The reason why is because of a new image that's up on scottgames.com
Go check it out. I've even checked, and there is nothing hidden in the image, so don't even look for a secret.