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So its been a bit
General | Posted 3 months agodid you notice me?
Brian Hart has leveled to 35!
General | Posted 10 months agoits my birthday Feb 9th.
woof.
that is all
woof.
that is all
Realization
General | Posted a year agoSo its been a while, and ive had plenty of time to see my life in the mirror. It's led me to have a sort of epiphany, not a pleasant one at that.
I suppose some precursor should give context.
Im a pleaser.
I was raised and shown to put everyone else above yourself, even if its detrimental to yourself. I've been doing this my whole life thinking that it was how to make friends.
Almost like i had to pay for peoples attention and friendship. I've been doing this for a long time and i thought i had stopped. But it just took a different form.
In grade school i was never likable, always bullied and picked on because i was weird. Struggling with control over ADHD before i was even diagnosed with a brain SPECT imaging scan.
It makes sense if i think about it, i probably wouldnt want to be friends with me either, i was **weird** . But that isolation and seclusion from groups and social interaction left me wanting the very thing i was shown i couldnt have. When i look at myself now i can say i have about 5 friends who i could trust with my life (excluding my husband who is 100% there for me).
And i mean friends that would drop everything to help me if i was in a tight spot and rush over.
Im grateful to have those people in my life because it would have been impossible for me find any reason to be around on this planet anymore otherwise.
Life was dark for me growing up, and between getting beaten consistently at school and getting beaten at home, it left the impression in my mind that nobody wanted me around unless it was to take advantage of my naivety. Child protective service didnt help me at all when i got taken from my mother at a young age. I got put in a place i dont even wish upon my worst enemy. The experiences i had in that place are among the few that occasionally still haunt my nightmares. Suffice to say i had another chain of emotions feeling not wanted, i began to question what was wrong with me. Was bullied more for being there, had food stolen, jumped while sleeping, and many other things i cant forget. But also crying myself to sleep to the question " why me?" Why was all this happening to me? I've been nothing but a nice person i was raised to be, but it seemed i was just the punching bag for the world.
However, it did toughen me.
Taught me that nobody was going to be there for me except myself.
Got this new mentality, that i have to do it all myself. Cant take help because i couldnt trust anyone not to stab me in the back. I worked hard, got through highschool and a year of college, still hesitant to trust anyone. But it was at this time i was tired of always being on guard so i decided to try opening up to a single person, who is now married to me <3. This helped my mentality improve greatly and gave me motivation to keep going.
Now at 19 years old i finally had someone who could reciprocate my feelings and wanted me around, which was a first. It was a new intoxicating feeling i felt i would give anything for more of.
I worked hard from here on, got job after job to climb the financial ladder to be able to support myself. Finally having the self confidence to say that im worth it and i deserve to be happy, to be loved.
Fast forward to now, i have a job that supports living in our area, living with my husband, doing decent enough in life.
Except, i realized ive fallen back into old habits in lack of social interaction.
Most friends i did have either moved soo far away its not plausible to see them on a regular basis.
One moved to Arkansas, another moved 2 1/2 hours away, one went into the Navy and wont be out for 6~8 years, one is working all the time and our schedules rarely allow time together, and the last is an hour and a half drive away, but now has a girlfriend thats been occupying his time now.
Add this to working from home alone for years including the 2020 lockdown. I went a little crazy starved for interaction.
So ive been trying the same thing i was shown to do at a young age, provide for other people. Dont care about yourself, just make others happy. Buying peoples affection and friendship.
I just want to feel appreciated, thought about, remembered. I've been trying to make new friends for quite a while, people i get along with at various jobs ive had, schoolmates, etc.
I had to tell myself that what i was doing wasnt working, i was throwing the label of "Friend" around too loosely at people i thought cared. When in fact... NOBODY CARES.
Is it soo hard in these times to make a friend? Everyone either introverted as hell, doesnt have time, or doesnt want to be friends.
Im a simple, honest and kind person. I just want a friend i can go and hang out with, talk about my day, go do things and have fun. Some form of regular interaction.
I go through the internet daily (as one does in the fandom) and frequently find pictures or videos that trigger my mind to go " hey XXXXX would love this" or " XXXXX would find this funny".
Still thinking about other people all the time, and it comes to my point, that hardly anyone in my social circles thinks about me.
Am i just putting too much effort in? Am i just forgettable? Is something wrong with me? Am i doing it wrong? Did i say the wrong thing?
These questions attack me again for the first time in many years and i am not happy.
Is it soo much to ask to be thought about on occasion? Or appreciated for what i DO.
I dont even feel appreciated at my job despite breaking my ass to get a lot done.
Feeling that nobody cares has kind of broken me, so now im in the mindset to not care. And i can feel a part of me that i love fading back into that darkness that swallowed me as a kid.
IDK if this all even makes sense i just needed to get it out.
Whatever. TL:DR fuck you
(yes husband i know you see this, none of this applies to you)
I suppose some precursor should give context.
Im a pleaser.
I was raised and shown to put everyone else above yourself, even if its detrimental to yourself. I've been doing this my whole life thinking that it was how to make friends.
Almost like i had to pay for peoples attention and friendship. I've been doing this for a long time and i thought i had stopped. But it just took a different form.
In grade school i was never likable, always bullied and picked on because i was weird. Struggling with control over ADHD before i was even diagnosed with a brain SPECT imaging scan.
It makes sense if i think about it, i probably wouldnt want to be friends with me either, i was **weird** . But that isolation and seclusion from groups and social interaction left me wanting the very thing i was shown i couldnt have. When i look at myself now i can say i have about 5 friends who i could trust with my life (excluding my husband who is 100% there for me).
And i mean friends that would drop everything to help me if i was in a tight spot and rush over.
Im grateful to have those people in my life because it would have been impossible for me find any reason to be around on this planet anymore otherwise.
Life was dark for me growing up, and between getting beaten consistently at school and getting beaten at home, it left the impression in my mind that nobody wanted me around unless it was to take advantage of my naivety. Child protective service didnt help me at all when i got taken from my mother at a young age. I got put in a place i dont even wish upon my worst enemy. The experiences i had in that place are among the few that occasionally still haunt my nightmares. Suffice to say i had another chain of emotions feeling not wanted, i began to question what was wrong with me. Was bullied more for being there, had food stolen, jumped while sleeping, and many other things i cant forget. But also crying myself to sleep to the question " why me?" Why was all this happening to me? I've been nothing but a nice person i was raised to be, but it seemed i was just the punching bag for the world.
However, it did toughen me.
Taught me that nobody was going to be there for me except myself.
Got this new mentality, that i have to do it all myself. Cant take help because i couldnt trust anyone not to stab me in the back. I worked hard, got through highschool and a year of college, still hesitant to trust anyone. But it was at this time i was tired of always being on guard so i decided to try opening up to a single person, who is now married to me <3. This helped my mentality improve greatly and gave me motivation to keep going.
Now at 19 years old i finally had someone who could reciprocate my feelings and wanted me around, which was a first. It was a new intoxicating feeling i felt i would give anything for more of.
I worked hard from here on, got job after job to climb the financial ladder to be able to support myself. Finally having the self confidence to say that im worth it and i deserve to be happy, to be loved.
Fast forward to now, i have a job that supports living in our area, living with my husband, doing decent enough in life.
Except, i realized ive fallen back into old habits in lack of social interaction.
Most friends i did have either moved soo far away its not plausible to see them on a regular basis.
One moved to Arkansas, another moved 2 1/2 hours away, one went into the Navy and wont be out for 6~8 years, one is working all the time and our schedules rarely allow time together, and the last is an hour and a half drive away, but now has a girlfriend thats been occupying his time now.
Add this to working from home alone for years including the 2020 lockdown. I went a little crazy starved for interaction.
So ive been trying the same thing i was shown to do at a young age, provide for other people. Dont care about yourself, just make others happy. Buying peoples affection and friendship.
I just want to feel appreciated, thought about, remembered. I've been trying to make new friends for quite a while, people i get along with at various jobs ive had, schoolmates, etc.
I had to tell myself that what i was doing wasnt working, i was throwing the label of "Friend" around too loosely at people i thought cared. When in fact... NOBODY CARES.
Is it soo hard in these times to make a friend? Everyone either introverted as hell, doesnt have time, or doesnt want to be friends.
Im a simple, honest and kind person. I just want a friend i can go and hang out with, talk about my day, go do things and have fun. Some form of regular interaction.
I go through the internet daily (as one does in the fandom) and frequently find pictures or videos that trigger my mind to go " hey XXXXX would love this" or " XXXXX would find this funny".
Still thinking about other people all the time, and it comes to my point, that hardly anyone in my social circles thinks about me.
Am i just putting too much effort in? Am i just forgettable? Is something wrong with me? Am i doing it wrong? Did i say the wrong thing?
These questions attack me again for the first time in many years and i am not happy.
Is it soo much to ask to be thought about on occasion? Or appreciated for what i DO.
I dont even feel appreciated at my job despite breaking my ass to get a lot done.
Feeling that nobody cares has kind of broken me, so now im in the mindset to not care. And i can feel a part of me that i love fading back into that darkness that swallowed me as a kid.
IDK if this all even makes sense i just needed to get it out.
Whatever. TL:DR fuck you
(yes husband i know you see this, none of this applies to you)
My Current Frustrations
General | Posted 2 years agoSo, its been a long time since ive done a journal. Let alone had the drive or incentive to make one i thought was worth posting.
But this has been rattling around in my head for a while and its about time i put it down.
I'm tired of feeling alone. I have never felt so worthless in my life, but its just a collective series of events happening that has led me to feel so unimportant that it hurts.
This isnt Post con depression talking but going to FURther CONfusion opened my eyes to a few things that just felt like a punch in the gut.
Nobody cares.
I have all these contacts and people i enjoy being around, who ask me to text and talk anytime, yet when i do the response time varies between a few days to a few months, to never again UNTIL the next con comes up a year later.
Even then, when we run into one another its like "hey omg i miss you, yeah text me anytime we can hang out" and that will be the last time i hear from them until the next year.
You lie, you never cared, you created false promises and made me feel like im just an occasional bump in but nothing more.
All my actual friends have moved out to other states or further cities away. My closest friend is 90 minute drive away and he is one of the few in my life that actually gives a damn about me, texts, calls, invites , and cares. He is one of few people holding me back from just exploding.
I have always been a social person, usually im the one that initiates conversations. I dont pretend to be anything other than myself.
Is it too much to ask to feel wanted? To have someone think, "hey maybe i should text that guy "
i can count on ONE hand the amount of people that i know that do this. Not counting my husband (hi babe i know you are reading this i love you)
but its like just my very presence is ignored, my time is valuable and im not gonna play to this bullshit anymore.
Im planning to go through a purge of contacts, because im not going to keep holding hope. If someone wants to find me they will.
Im tired of having to be the one that initiates every interaction or text/conversation.
I even went through my old gallery and found a picture from 12 years ago, that had my emotions at the time.
Suffice to say while it HAS changed, (and some stuff on there was scary, i was in a darker place) other things, havent changed at all.
Said image : https://www.furaffinity.net/view/5614687/
sure it was cringe 12 years ago, but you can see the pain simple as it was.
whatever im done now... i'll see who cares.
But this has been rattling around in my head for a while and its about time i put it down.
I'm tired of feeling alone. I have never felt so worthless in my life, but its just a collective series of events happening that has led me to feel so unimportant that it hurts.
This isnt Post con depression talking but going to FURther CONfusion opened my eyes to a few things that just felt like a punch in the gut.
Nobody cares.
I have all these contacts and people i enjoy being around, who ask me to text and talk anytime, yet when i do the response time varies between a few days to a few months, to never again UNTIL the next con comes up a year later.
Even then, when we run into one another its like "hey omg i miss you, yeah text me anytime we can hang out" and that will be the last time i hear from them until the next year.
You lie, you never cared, you created false promises and made me feel like im just an occasional bump in but nothing more.
All my actual friends have moved out to other states or further cities away. My closest friend is 90 minute drive away and he is one of the few in my life that actually gives a damn about me, texts, calls, invites , and cares. He is one of few people holding me back from just exploding.
I have always been a social person, usually im the one that initiates conversations. I dont pretend to be anything other than myself.
Is it too much to ask to feel wanted? To have someone think, "hey maybe i should text that guy "
i can count on ONE hand the amount of people that i know that do this. Not counting my husband (hi babe i know you are reading this i love you)
but its like just my very presence is ignored, my time is valuable and im not gonna play to this bullshit anymore.
Im planning to go through a purge of contacts, because im not going to keep holding hope. If someone wants to find me they will.
Im tired of having to be the one that initiates every interaction or text/conversation.
I even went through my old gallery and found a picture from 12 years ago, that had my emotions at the time.
Suffice to say while it HAS changed, (and some stuff on there was scary, i was in a darker place) other things, havent changed at all.
Said image : https://www.furaffinity.net/view/5614687/
sure it was cringe 12 years ago, but you can see the pain simple as it was.
whatever im done now... i'll see who cares.
Questions that I come up with
General | Posted 5 years agoRandom questions that drop into my head.
Those kind that if you give serious thought, can be kinda fun.
Feel free to reply your answers.
Examples:
1. You can now urinate ANY liquid in existance (except liquid gold... Too cliche). You are entirely immune to any effect this liquid would have on your body.
What liquid would you choose and why?
2. You are locked in a room and can only leave when the other creatures in the room are dead.
Would you rather, be in a 10 foot cubed room with 1,000 random moth species
Or a 100 foot cubed room with 100 random spider species?
3. You can resurrect 3 people who are dead.
They will be brought back in their prime condition, no ailments or afflictions.
They will continue to exist for another 30 years without being able to die by any other means.
They will know you are the one that brought them back
Which three would you choose and why?
4. A man will offer you $1,000/day on a few conditions.
A. You MUST live in his house. (2 bedroom 1 bath. You will have your own room, all amenities, door locks etc) there is a 2am curfew.
B. Everytime you interact with the man in conversation (minimum once per day required) you must call him "daddy"
C. You may end this arrangement at any time but will no longer be able to return to the deal.
Would you accept the offer and if so how long?
I don't know why these come to me but I'm plagued with randomness.
Those kind that if you give serious thought, can be kinda fun.
Feel free to reply your answers.
Examples:
1. You can now urinate ANY liquid in existance (except liquid gold... Too cliche). You are entirely immune to any effect this liquid would have on your body.
What liquid would you choose and why?
2. You are locked in a room and can only leave when the other creatures in the room are dead.
Would you rather, be in a 10 foot cubed room with 1,000 random moth species
Or a 100 foot cubed room with 100 random spider species?
3. You can resurrect 3 people who are dead.
They will be brought back in their prime condition, no ailments or afflictions.
They will continue to exist for another 30 years without being able to die by any other means.
They will know you are the one that brought them back
Which three would you choose and why?
4. A man will offer you $1,000/day on a few conditions.
A. You MUST live in his house. (2 bedroom 1 bath. You will have your own room, all amenities, door locks etc) there is a 2am curfew.
B. Everytime you interact with the man in conversation (minimum once per day required) you must call him "daddy"
C. You may end this arrangement at any time but will no longer be able to return to the deal.
Would you accept the offer and if so how long?
I don't know why these come to me but I'm plagued with randomness.
GAMING STREAM HERE!~
General | Posted 8 years agoWatch me if youd like, i appreciate the help getting into this wondrous world of stream
https://www.twitch.tv/brianhartthewolf
as per usual ill be going over games like
Dungeon Fighter Online
Phantasy Star Online 2
Binding Of Isaac
(possibly) starcraft 2 ......i suck at it.
join the chat and help me get into the rhythm !~
https://www.twitch.tv/brianhartthewolf
as per usual ill be going over games like
Dungeon Fighter Online
Phantasy Star Online 2
Binding Of Isaac
(possibly) starcraft 2 ......i suck at it.
join the chat and help me get into the rhythm !~
I STARTED STREAMING!~`
General | Posted 8 years agoCome and watch me if you want, imma be playing a lot of lesser known games such as:
Phantasy Star Online 2
Dungeon Fighter Online
Binding of Isaac
as well as League of Legends if the stream works for me while playing.
https://www.twitch.tv/brianhartthewolf
I'm 26 today
General | Posted 10 years agoWoo....
Kinda just wanna scream
General | Posted 10 years agoFuck everybody
I'm pissed if it isn't obvious
I'm pissed if it isn't obvious
So It Begins.....
General | Posted 11 years agoThe hellstorm that is No fap November has begun.
kill me now.
>w<
kill me now.
>w<
5TH ANNIVERSARY POEM
General | Posted 11 years agooh look how long its been
since ive fell so deep in love
all our quirks and differences
yet we fit together like hand and glove
its been some time and ive had some thoughts
on how to express that i love you lots
Six years is a milestone even for me
hope many more to come indefinitely
Its not easy living with me that i can assure
but through all my dorkiness my heart remains pure
to you it is bound with all of my being
dating you opened my eyes and now its love that im seeing
youve worked so hard to stay in shape
and keep yourself looking good
yet whine and growl when i give you cake
you know you love it, (and you should)
a few things i can reveal and that i can assure
as long as you can hold my heart,
we will be together until the end
plus we're off to a good start.
credit given where it is due
im glad you love me as much as i love you
we are two silly canines im glad were alive
so happy anniversary number five
this is all for you
gogowolf
since ive fell so deep in love
all our quirks and differences
yet we fit together like hand and glove
its been some time and ive had some thoughts
on how to express that i love you lots
Six years is a milestone even for me
hope many more to come indefinitely
Its not easy living with me that i can assure
but through all my dorkiness my heart remains pure
to you it is bound with all of my being
dating you opened my eyes and now its love that im seeing
youve worked so hard to stay in shape
and keep yourself looking good
yet whine and growl when i give you cake
you know you love it, (and you should)
a few things i can reveal and that i can assure
as long as you can hold my heart,
we will be together until the end
plus we're off to a good start.
credit given where it is due
im glad you love me as much as i love you
we are two silly canines im glad were alive
so happy anniversary number five
this is all for you
gogowolfLIFE RAP #2
General | Posted 11 years agothis is just more shit i come up with. my life influences some things i say and do and it kinda just turned together like this i get little spurts of creative lyrics now and then and slowly piece it together.
just fucking read it and let me know what you think
i had it with lies
wearing black suits and ties
but then i realized,
that most of our lives
are just a big guise,
for who we are inside
a being full of rage.
When dressing nice is a pain
always trying not to get stained
but isnt that how life goes on?
you fall down and get up
dont look down but keep your head up
progress in yourself
never count on your wealth
because it will never last
just some things ive got to get past
because
im the beast in the night
with the red eyes
looking for a fight
and you dont realize
you can run but you cant hide
and i will take your life
the hunt is extacy for me
chasing you down gleefully
you gotta have a stronger will to make it
better have a strong one so i can break it
when i rend the body from your head
big surprise im pissed n your dead.
i was a good guy
then you pushed me too far
now your acting like
you dumb life is too hard.
death is the winner in any war.
learn that life is shit
no matter who you are.
we all start the same
little helpless infants
we should grow knowing
life can end in an instant.
what a coincidence today is your day...
you pushed me past my boiling point
now in the ground your body stays.
LINK TO THE FIRST PART :
http://www.furaffinity.net/journals.....n/#jid:3358774
so yeah... i have violent insides long suppressed as i obviously told everyone in this picture but nobody listened anyway. http://www.furaffinity.net/full/7603941/
LOOK AT WHAT I FUCKING MADE a song remix!~
General | Posted 12 years agoYES i remixed the words of Lord's -Royals song to fit a more legend of zelda theme. and i think it went well. try playing the song to it as you read. itll catch on a swear.
anyway here are the lyrics.
I've never seen a Rupee in the flesh
I cut my grass out in the yard, for the money
Got a green tunic not a dress
In a great big town, of Hyrule city
But every games like Hookshot, triforce, shooting bow and arrow
Heart piece, boss fights, falling into lava,
Link don't care, He's riding Epona in his dreams.
But ever games like, gorons,zoras, save the princess zelda
rupees,ganon, fairies in a bottle.
We don't care, we love links golden yellow hair.
Princess Zelda is Royal (royal).
Magic runs in her blood,
That kind of game is just for us.
We crave a mental kind of buzz.
Ganon wants to be ruler (ruler),
Hes evil as can be
And he wants Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule~
Link please come rescue me.
[Verse 2]
My friends and I—we've beat hard mode.
We count our fairies on the way to the boss room.
And everyone who played it knows that Navi's a bitch.
Links the triforce of courage.
But every games like Hookshot, triforce, shooting bow and arrow
Heart piece, boss fights, falling into lava,
Link don't care, He's riding Epona in his dreams.
But everybody's like, hey link, come on, save the princess zelda
Got to, find the, Master sword yet again.
We don't care, we love links golden yellow hair.
Princess Zelda is Royal (royal).
Magic runs in her blood,
That kind of game is just for us.
We crave a mental kind of buzz.
Ganon wants to be ruler (ruler),
Hes evil as can be
And he wants Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule~
Link please come rescue me.
Ooh ooh oh
Bosses bigger than we ever dreamed,
And im in love with being green.
Ooh ooh oh
Link goes in without a care
Zelda's not caught up in a love affair.
Princess Zelda is Royal (royal).
Magic runs in her blood,
That kind of game is just for us.
We crave a mental kind of buzz.
Ganon wants to be ruler (ruler),
Hes evil as can be
And he wants Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule~
Link please come rescue me.
some parts i admit dont match up but i was trying my hardest to come up with extra syllables to this.
damn you weird al you have my respect.
anyway here are the lyrics.
I've never seen a Rupee in the flesh
I cut my grass out in the yard, for the money
Got a green tunic not a dress
In a great big town, of Hyrule city
But every games like Hookshot, triforce, shooting bow and arrow
Heart piece, boss fights, falling into lava,
Link don't care, He's riding Epona in his dreams.
But ever games like, gorons,zoras, save the princess zelda
rupees,ganon, fairies in a bottle.
We don't care, we love links golden yellow hair.
Princess Zelda is Royal (royal).
Magic runs in her blood,
That kind of game is just for us.
We crave a mental kind of buzz.
Ganon wants to be ruler (ruler),
Hes evil as can be
And he wants Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule~
Link please come rescue me.
[Verse 2]
My friends and I—we've beat hard mode.
We count our fairies on the way to the boss room.
And everyone who played it knows that Navi's a bitch.
Links the triforce of courage.
But every games like Hookshot, triforce, shooting bow and arrow
Heart piece, boss fights, falling into lava,
Link don't care, He's riding Epona in his dreams.
But everybody's like, hey link, come on, save the princess zelda
Got to, find the, Master sword yet again.
We don't care, we love links golden yellow hair.
Princess Zelda is Royal (royal).
Magic runs in her blood,
That kind of game is just for us.
We crave a mental kind of buzz.
Ganon wants to be ruler (ruler),
Hes evil as can be
And he wants Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule~
Link please come rescue me.
Ooh ooh oh
Bosses bigger than we ever dreamed,
And im in love with being green.
Ooh ooh oh
Link goes in without a care
Zelda's not caught up in a love affair.
Princess Zelda is Royal (royal).
Magic runs in her blood,
That kind of game is just for us.
We crave a mental kind of buzz.
Ganon wants to be ruler (ruler),
Hes evil as can be
And he wants Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule, Hyrule~
Link please come rescue me.
some parts i admit dont match up but i was trying my hardest to come up with extra syllables to this.
damn you weird al you have my respect.
IMPORTANT LIFE UPDATE
General | Posted 12 years agofebruary ninth ill be Level 24
also i am now under employ of safeway!
go me...
that is all
im tired of making my journals in caps so the chances of people reading it increase...
http://antilia-game.com/
General | Posted 12 years agothis game actually looks pretty damn good
anywho if i had money id put something twords it,, but for now all i can do is promote it and you all should too!
http://antilia-game.com/
i mean i think its worth.
SO I MADE THE BEST YO MOMMA JOKE EVER
General | Posted 12 years agobear with me here it is I MADE IT but you can use it.
Yo Mommas SOOO fat.....
When she uses a vibrator it sounds like DUBSTEP!~
WUB WUB WUB WUB ~OHHHHH WUB WUB WUB
sick dog is sick
General | Posted 12 years agowaaaah canker sores, sniffy nose, coughing, sluggish motor skills. hurting kneecap. i think im falling apart TwT
sick dog is sick
General | Posted 12 years agowaaaah canker sores, sniffy nose, coughing, sluggish motor skills. hurting kneecap. i think im falling apart TwT
SWEET RELEASE!~~<3
General | Posted 12 years agoI WIN MOTHER FUCKER!~
at first i LITERALLY had to wide the lint and dust off my dick
enjoyed every fluid gallon of victory
er.. more like my mate did...
but hey...the days not over yet ..
those who know me. know that 4 times is simply not enough for me ^///^
TRYING A GAME STREAM THINGIE.
General | Posted 12 years ago bear with me it may be laggy or whatever, may not be for long but eh ill try it anyway now that i have a a better laptop and internet.
streaming the games DFO and MONSTER later if things go well
http://www.livestream.com/brianhart
streaming the games DFO and MONSTER later if things go well
http://www.livestream.com/brianhart
IM GIVING AWAY FREE ART!~
General | Posted 12 years agoshame on all of you that watch me and click on this just cuz the title.
if thats what i takes to get attention bugger off!~
all im saying is im almost done with no fap November, and im hurting
go me....
SO CLOSE TO WINNING
General | Posted 12 years agoDAY 22 of no fap november, im so close to beating this... but...ive been ever so tempted by friends YOU FUCKERS KNOW WHO YOU ARE
ive been leaking pre copiously over the past week and i cant wait for the 1st of december,
i...can....do this..
ive been leaking pre copiously over the past week and i cant wait for the 1st of december,
i...can....do this..
ITS THAT TIME OF THE YEAR AGAIN NO FAP NOVEMBER!!!
General | Posted 12 years agoday 1 starts now, no pawing, or getting off under any circumstance.
challenge accepted
So something amazing happened at 11:30 this morning
General | Posted 12 years agogot a call from Perfume Mania in the Great Mall and i has a job
work 1-7 for training BOOYAH!
in your face family
ok so i was messing around with POKEMON FUSION
General | Posted 12 years agohttp://pokemon.alexonsager.net/122/64
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/130/150
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/73/150
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/15/49
thses just look bad ass
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/67/133
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/115/144
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/100/135
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/120/81
VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVv
THE LULZ
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/80/15
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/7/74
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/110/33
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/108/20
ok im done...
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/130/150
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/73/150
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/15/49
thses just look bad ass
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/67/133
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/115/144
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/100/135
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/120/81
VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVv
THE LULZ
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/80/15
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/7/74
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/110/33
http://pokemon.alexonsager.net/108/20
ok im done...
