#14: sometimes i snore, and even rarer, sleep talk . as in full conversation.

#13: i have a horrid fear of bees/wasps. I had the unfortunate experience in highschool of getting stung by two bees in the very back of my neck.

#12: My favorite color is sky blue.

#11: Its in my personality to lighten the mood through attempts of humor, i dont like seeing others down and thats my way to cope with it.

#10 : i crossdressed once in long skinny jeans, a pink and black tight hoodie, with my hair over one eye. and did a pretty good girl voice in public, It even fooled my college housing RA, and shes a girl.

#9 : When i was in third grade , i was taken from my mom by CPS. I consider this the worst year of my life, and my mom did everything in her power to get me back. Everything is fine now.

#8 : i sometimes find myself having a conversation with nobody in the shower.
its like i get a scenario in my head i think is cool while im showering, and start acting and voicing it out.
my high school roommate noticed this and kept telling me its weird.

#7 : i once went to Standford to a tech camp where i made my own small computer games on disk.

#6 : i like having a car, using the car, but absolutely dont care ABOUT cars.
what kind of guy am i ?

#5 : I work at a movie theater. Cleaning, working ticket booth and concessions.

please clean up after yourself or i will find you....

>:3

#4: If i worked out and took a shower, brushed my teeth as much as i masturbated id be a buff and shiney motha fucka.


(come to think of it we all would....)

3: it really annoys me when anyone underestimates my ability in something.

2: i was once expelled from high school my sophomore year for being lit on fire in class the same day.

im going to post one thing about me a day in an effort to let people know me more.


#1 i am a heavy believer in the duct tape.


yeah im doing this every day,....

ok it worked... thanks.

NOW LISTEN TO MY VENT DAMMIT!!!

today at work i finally think i got pushed to the edge of going sane, i actually questioned what the fuck i was doing.

not at work, but in life.
i mean sure i wanna go back to college and get my EXP.
but what the fuck am i doing now,
oh yeah thats right, drawing art that im damn proud of and many dont give two shits about, well fuck off you!
my family sucks, except one aunt, she understands me at least to a point. but FUCK my family, they all do this "you have so much more potential." crap..... I LIKE DRAWING , GO FUCK YOURSELF!
if i get paid for something i draw ill go to them and throw it in their face,
saying (and i will say this) "fuck you, and your fucking expectations, ill do what i like and what works for my life. "
i was always an ADHD child, and craved attention, that tiny inkling of being recognized as a living thing.
i got in trouble a lot if it meant that someone would give a shit about me or what i did.
and customers dont even realize im there, like 12 people, (no fucking lie) just walked right into me,
AND KEPT GOING LIKE NOTHING!
i tell them "have a nice night sir" when they leave a theater, they look at me and keep walking like im unimportant.
i draw because i like it
i draw because i want to get better
i draw because i want someone to see a accomplishment of mine. that im very happy for,
i draw porn because the above doesnt happen.
i mean ive played Second life for going on 4 years, and i was/am SL whore in game.
if someone in game happens to give me attention for something else i happen to be DAMN good at even for 3-15 minutes i feel so much better.

one of the reasons quantum theroy says we are alive is because we are recognized and acknowledged as being there by another. thus we are.


and i swear to God if i see any of this TL;DR shit imma rip a throat and block you.

I am alive and i dont wanna have to pull a Sinistar "Beware I Live" shit to get you to see me.

You took our fire extinguishers



i took my time putting you out.

a watcher on FA means a lot to me,
it means you like MY ART and are interested in what i have yet to make.
It means you are a friend and want to stay in touch if ive met you somewhere.
It means you give a damn what i do.

it took you 2 seconds to click the button to watch me, it will take you 2 seconds to click one of my art pieces or this journal.

those seconds of your attention mean very much to someone like me who aspires to great art.

those who watch me for my icon, or commissions ive obtained disappoint me.
if a short laugh at a icon, or loving swoon over some art that has my character but not my art , interests you more than what i try to do for myself and others.

kindly UN WATCH ME. dont give me that false sense of thinking "i have people that like my art."
i hate it.

if i dont know you and you dont like my art. DONT WATCH ME..

stream cancled because shit sucks
internet,
computer
fried duck mayonaise
KHAAAN!
SPARTA
9000 something
its a trap
balls

go check out this guy hes got some good free art contest going on where he will pick 25 winners. lets try to get about 150 participants ya?!

check this out
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http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2467845/

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Check this out

so a few people asked me why i became a furry or how i came into it, and it wasnt until i thought hard about it that i realized exactly why.

I was 16 , in high school and into a bunch of drawing/doodles.
i happened to draw a few things as assignments like a few birds, mosaics of a animal, etc.
and when i got home i saw my box of frosted flakes and decided to draw tony, except he was a bit more buff and with a Katana.

corny right?

well later on as the thought "what would it be like to be a walking animal," sat in my head for a few years till i was about 19, i started drawing more animals (or trying to) and went on google to search for dragons. since they are bad ass in a movie i watched.. and sure enough dragons porn came up with art with the character Savage skyler. or something like that, a black and white wyvern. anywho i got hooked on his art style (yeah the porn was good too)

anyways i looked deeper into it and found furries. it was odd at first but grew in my mind as the thing ive been wanting for a few years.

and later on in my life it snapped, i joined and became a furry because my life was going to such shit in high school not having ANYBODY not even my family to rely on,

and all of the sudden i had all these people going oh hai you're a furry too? *hugs* welcome' kind of thing.

never felt alone, had a ton of people with the same thought patterns as i often did. it made me not wanna kill myself as i did when i was going through a high school that lets kids light me on fire in class and blame it on me.

seriously i would have ended it all, furries saved my life. and sanity (or whats left of it)
i enjoy drawing furries, meeting new furs. hell i even confurted my roomie.
so yeah i found something to fill as a family in my life that was lacking.

if this all even makes sense... oh well

AND I DONT WANNA FUCKING SEE ANY OF THIS TL;DR SHIT OR IM BLOCKING YOU DAMMIT!


its been a bad week for me ,

for you all to get it.

what does it take?

because i wanna know.

what does it take?

to get the feeling people care.

what does it take?

to rid myself of the need to appease you.

what does it take?

to not feel small.

what does it take?

to get to that point of popularity among the populace.

ill tell you what it takes.

A single life.

ever changing.

persistent beyond all else.

passionate about work.

What does it take?

Brian Hart.

i do it

that is all

ok so imma make one of these.

heres the parameters. i will make a list of things i hate,
and if any were to match with anbody who reads.
you comment the numbers and say the words "i hate that"
then you must make your own journal of the things you hate with the same rules.

lets try this.

1. i hate when you step on gum and don't know for hours.
2. i hate when farts linger
3. i hate when you get a zip in your ear
4. i hate when young teens think they are above your authority at work.
5. i hate when you clean something and someone messes it all to hell in a second.
6. i hate when you break a nail.
7. i hate when epic looking games are postponed for more than a year
8. i hate when you feel you have to do stupid shit to get attention.
9. i hate when asshats on the freeway pass you, get in front and slam the brakes.
10. i hate when you buy food in a drive through and by the time you get home its cold.
11. i hate when people give you that, "i don't care what you are saying" face.
12. i hate when you catch people in your house trying to fling boogers
13. I do hate when some belligerent people are so up tight about proper English in RP
14. I hate bush
15. I hate when you type so fast you don't realize you have some typos till its too late.
16. I hate when people talk about you behind your back when you can still hear them
17. I hate abnormally stupid people (not retarded, just people who don't deserve air)
18. I hate it when you are about to say something and completely forget till waaay later.
19. I hate windows vista (pardon my language)
20. I hate it when you feel you accomplish something great and you look at everyone else's work, and it just makes you wanna cry.

it cost me nothing
that is all

so i just got my check today in the mail and when i was doing my txes for lie life of me all my calculations came up to like 4 dollare, or something like -300+ i owed, but seeig this check boggles me the irs said in a note that i made a miscalculation and they adjusted the refund amount to 326 $
woo me
im rich