Many have probably already heard the news that  cetas passed away by complications after a very important treatment he needed...

I'm not good at these. I've spent the whole day deleting and rewriting this text multiple times in multiple ways here again and again before posting, so I do hope this will come out right...

Cetas was one of the very first few that discovered me and reached out to me when I was new to the web, but also the one who was one of the biggest influences to my life. From the interests that I have to this day, to even my scalesona.
He was a really swell guy and not only a really great person, but also a great friend I ever had the chance to talk to. He always encouraged me to try keep drawing whenever I felt like just giving up, and I regret I never got to chat with him more often instead of been repeatedly so caught up by my own issues.

I want to give my condolences for his family and everyone that'll miss him, and I hope both his family and all his friends will recover from this, including me, as this is a very rough thing to deal with.
He was one of my oldest friends, and I will remember him dearly for the times we shared together.
I really miss him...

The Pokémon Direct has come out today and revealed some information about the new Pokémon Sword & Shield.
Not only did they show some cool new pokémon, but there will especially be this interesting new mechanic where Pokémon will now be able to grow into gargantuan sizes.
So, this is pretty much going to be Pokémon's answer to the mega mushrooms from the Mario games. And I love it~

I can really imagine some of the inspiration this will give to macro lovers~

Is there a way to draw up a creature to make them look similiar to machines/electronics without making them cybernetic/mechanical in biology?
Or at least simulate certain material and properties. Hmm... Maybe it would be like a mimic then now when I think about it.
Been kinda wondering about this for a couple of years and not gotten any wiser, and I would like to hear any thoughts or advices around the matter.

2018 is behind us and a new year has begun anew. *Raises bottle* Here's for the new year.
I hope everyone will be able to do the things they love and that this year will become a good one for everybody, especially for my friends here.

Hi, still remember me? ^^;

As I'll be away for today celebrating Christmas with my family I just wanna wish a:
- Merry Christmas to everybody!
- Hearth's Warming Eve to everypony!
- Growy Holidays to everyone!
And a Squeaky Creakmas / Swell Puffmas to you all~

 Carlossaiyan has gotten into a serious problematic situation, being accused for a crime he haven't commit but might end up in jail anyway.

Here's his journal that explains this further. -> https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8985312/

And now it is my Birthday. Has nothing special to do today, besides work.
*Has secretly hidden a personal hoard of mega mushrooms and p-balloons*

...I'll become 28. On October 15, to be exact.

I hope everyone is having a growy time out there.

Question:
Have you ever wished for playing or dreamt of making a Pen & Paper RPG based on and/or around something you love?
Be it based on a game series, cartoon or something of your own imagination.

I, for example, know there's a few Mario Pen & Paper RPG's. Yet, I have often wanted to make my own. Don't know for how many years I've experimented around with various types of own concepts in try to make a fun Mario RPG, but I mostly played around with what stats there could be and feel unique with.
Plus, there was also other ideas for another RPG of mine that was gonna be something more own.

As something just came up and opened up rather depressive thoughts again, I thought I could try have some fun with a TMI Thursday here instead of just shutting myself in like I unintentionally tend to do.

If you have any fun question or just a curious wondering, then please go ahead.
I won't bite. ...Okay, maybe just a nibble. But, that depends.

To those that might or might not noticed I've removed them from my Discord (friend) list:
Please just don't get mad, angry or annoyed at me. It's just that I have so many contacts that I barely talk to and even some that didn't much talk to me. I did however like the company of a few that I did ironically remove, even though one-two or more was mostly interested in RP.
I'm still a bit confused to what I did was right or wrong.

Also, onto another note. I'm sorry I've been really inactive lately. Sometimes I've been too anxious to draw or too depressed to do anything, including chatting. Bunch of personal issues I don't want to drag up here, really.
And this past week I've been quite worried over my father after a thing that happened back on Thursday. He has recovered quite quick afterwards, though. But, it was really a terrifying experience.

High up on my list is to still doing a friend's request that I still really want to do as best as I can with. Hope anyone likes a huge inflated BBW Pokémon.
Afterwards I'm not so sure on drawing as much of the usual growy stuff. Don't get me wrong, I still like it! But, I've always wanted to focus onto other things, and my mind has been more and more thinking onto some of the other things I've wanted to try doodling up. I'm still going to draw growy stuff when feeling for it, don't worry. That's still a part of me. I've just gotten kinda a bit... Bored of it? I don't know. I do still like it. It just feels like my life has been circulating about it so much it has kinda lost a part of its charm. Though, not sure if anyone knows I've said this before, but I tend to draw random stuff, and that is kinda what I've sometimes wanted more of.
Again, growy stuff is only one of those things, and I will still draw it, though.

Anyways, I hope everyone is having things swell.
And how has everyone been?

Happy New Year.
Growy New Year.
Happy Grew Year.
Hope everyone will have a good end to 2017 and a good beginning on 2018.

- Try keeping the contact with friends, even though I'm not feeling so well for it.
- Try learn to love myself, even though I do not how to do it.
- Try motivating myself.
- Manage to be drawing more.
- Sometimes wishes I could have a RP tutor, due to my lack of vocabulary.
- Not be afraid to share more of my thoughts on things. The positive, dreamy ones. That includes the growy ones too!
- Show even more appreciation to friends and those I love, instead of isolating myself because of not feeling well.
- Doubts on if I really wanna draw characters of friends and people I admire as planned.*
- Stop becoming sometimes depressed over the silence I have to deal with quite often.
- Manage to update a few of my character's designs, especially my own 'persona.'

And very Swell Holidays!

Hope you all will have your growy wishes come true~

(Here in Sweden, we celebrate Christmas the 24th. Ssssshhh!)

Happy Growy/Swelling Halloween, everyone!

Hope there will be more "trick" than treat, if you get what I mean~ >;3

Super...

Mario...

ODYSSEY!

...And Bowser (+Peach) in a wedding outfit. Is it just me or is it getting hot in here...? XP

Today's my birthday, and I am now 27 years old.

So, how is everyone?

Mwawr.

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