https://picarto.tv/BelikrsBondageCave
working on an image I started yesterday and will answer any questions about Shade, his domain or the lore of the world he inhabits.

If I were to stream for a bit. would anyone attend?

Heed not the call of Gold,
Lest Greed Consume thy heart.
For if thy does Dragons shall come.
and thou shalt not survive the fury of a dragon.

is there anyone out there that wants a commission from me for 15$?

memories are weird things. they technically don't exist yet they persist through time. and even lives. science can't explain it. but yet... It still happens. some earlier in age can remember their past lives how they died. others start to piece things together as they get older. and me...I get flashes and one reoccurring nightmare i can never remember. but then there are things that trigger memories you don't want to remember, or memories that remind you how alone you are. and it doesn't matter if it is from your current life or not you still feel the emotions from that time as clear as today.

Loss, heart ache, Love, comfort. it doesn't matter what emotion it is. you feel it and it can either make you happy or...in my case make you yearn for something lost so long ago.

Memories are weird things. but...they are important. even if you wish they would stop surfacing.

Looking to make a game on RPG maker VX ace but need help learning how to use this tool and how to create artwork and how to code things for it. I can't pay for it but any help would be extremely appreciated.

I got no time,
I got no time to live,
I got no time to live, and I can't say good bye,
And I'm regretting having memories
Of my friends who they used to be
Beside me before they left me to die.

And I know this is,
I know this is the truth,
Cause I've been staring at my death so many times,
These scary monsters roaming in the halls,
I wish I could just block the doors
and stay in bed until the clock will chime

So my flashlight's on, and stay up 'till dawn,
I got this headache and my life's on the line
I felt like I won, but I wasn't done,
The nightmare repeats itself every time

Got to keep my calm, and carry on
stay awake until the sun will shine
But I'm not so strong, and they're not gone
They're still out there to take what's left of mine

I have come to a point where I am looking for opinions from those who actually take the time to read my journals. I have decided that I wanted to make a new icon for 2017 but out of the two ideas i have ((both similar both different)) I am not sure which route i want to take. the theme is basically ponyplay ((as mot people who watch know i love ponyplay)) but the question is. should I redraw an older ponyplay image ((link)) or should I do a whole new image that is to say bel all bound up as a seahorse where he magic would be completely neutralized making him completely helpless? I do plan on doing both images regardless but depending on the most popular vote, I may write a short story for the winning picture. so I ask

Royal Stallion?
or
Royal Seahorse?

Mildly frustrated?
or
Completely Helpless?

is it me or is this new pokemon villan team really dumb? e.=.e they seem to be trying so hard to be ghetto white trash. (aka those who think they are tough when really they are just fools who don't know the true meaning of strangth) I'm pretty disappointed with the team at this point. guess I'll wait and see what their overall plan is before I judge them to hardly.

ok enough is enough!

About the 2016 election.

STOP COMPLAINING!

it's gottent ot he point that I can't even log onto a minecraft server without people bitching about trump. if you don't like what he stands for then put a stop to it. I know I am an outsider and all but even I have more sense then to complain about what trump is trying to do because 1. it doesn't effect me, and 2 he HAS to gain approval for acts to go through. and guess what? there are more of you then there is of those in power. if you don't like sign a petition. take it to court. that don't work? read the fucking constitution you literally have the right to bare arms so you can OVER THROW A CORRUPT GOVERNMENT. read the fucking thing for gods sake.

my biggest problem with you people that omplain is that is all you do is complain. instead of taking action you complain. and when told to take action you complain more. saying things like "the people don't have a voice" is BULLSHIT. if people didn't have a voice then gay marriage would still be illegal, along with those few states that legalize marijuana wouldn't have legalized it. you don't realize it but the people are powerful. the voice of the people is the true power you have. because if you rise up you can stop injustice. that is why they have tried to dumb you all down so much. and by claiming "The people don't have a voice" your letting them win.

I'm sick and tired of the complaining. or even worse "I'm moving to canada." WE don't want you here. because your to fucking dumb to understand what went wrong with your own country. smarten up and use you two hands to make the country you have worth living and fighting for //Land of confusion reference// Don't flee to another country because you can't handle the fucking government or your a sore loser. fight. and I swear if I fucking catch any of you complaining assholes crossing the border I will sick a whole army of dragons on you.

so I'm just gonna say this now for anyone who follows the demon king story line. the story is headed in a different direction then you might think. it is going to move away from just being master and pet towards something else. I will not be removing any thing I write or altering what i write for anyone. if you don't like how the story is going to head. don't read it. because I never planned for it to be for others in the first place. the story I'm writiti9ng has alot to do with me. and while I won't say how. or what had lead to this story I will be blocking any who give me a hard time over the switch in direction in the up coming chapters. while there will still be moments of extreme kink there will also be a shift in focus from the kink to something deeper.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

I've been really absorbed into the game starbound lately. and while I know I'm not exactly the best person for mods. I do find that some ideas i have have never been done. and currently the idea I have is making a more mystical look for the crafting tables. not to replace them but to make them look more magical then scientific. i know the game is supposed to be sci-fi but I like to combine both sci-fi and fantasy elements into games like this. games where you can make worlds of your own. if there are any pixel artists out there willing to lend their talents please contact me.

I am really starting to have a love hate relationship with FA. while I love the site and it's tool that allow me to share my art with the community. the community itself can't seem to get a hint when I post certain things. somethings aren't about being hot or pornographic. I get it this site has porn on it. but when i post something dark it's usually because I'm hurting and having people favorite it because it is "snuff" art or danger art makes me hurt even more. I post the art because I'm trying to find help. but instead I'm finding more pain. While I do still want to stick around I am one step from removing all of my dark art from the site entirely. because it's not something you should get off to.

Thing I love about starbound. endless worlds to explore and build on, open ended modding capabilities. thing I hate. uninstall a mod reset the universe. x.=.x because if you add mods then if you remove said mod then you have to start from scratch again. I lost days of work because I uninstalled a mod I didn't want to play anymore.

so, once more I feel the need to vent my "feelings" as stupid and unnecessary as they seem to be to others. and what i have to say is gonna piss people off I know this. it's why I have no delusions when i call myself an asshole. because I am. so here I go.

When you ask to see someones art whether or not it's out of curiosity. the worst possible thing you can say is. "It's not the best" because no matter in what way you mean it. it hurts. yes there are some really talented artists out there that have beautiful art and are more then qualified to be called "The best" but telling a artist who works hard on everything they do and puts their heart and soul into their art that their art isn't the best is soul crushingly painful for them. It hurts when someone says that to me. it makes me not look at my favorite pieces with pride at the improvements I've made but with hatred because it doesn't match up to "The Best"

Further more. telling someone that your upset only for another big artist to say something like "How else are they going to get attention on them." makes it worse. it is legit hurtful to have someone compare your art to "the best" without reguards to your feelings. especially if they are only trying to explain that they felt hurt by the comment. but I guess I'm just an attention whore. so what is the point in talking about my feelings.

I get hurt when I'm told things like that. and right now I can't view my art with anything but disgust. all I want to do is do a massive purge of every piece I've ever done. the one thing holding me back is because I know there are some people out there who legitly like my art. even if they don't like me as a person. it's the only reason this gallery has lasted as long as it has. but as of right now I have decided I'm never going to watch another livestream or if i do I will never link anything of mine to anyone. I'm gonna sit quietly in the corner and let everyone else have fun and chat.

Because I'm just an attention whore.
I don't matter in the scheme of things.
let me suffer.

1. he was not in anyway connected to luna or mlp/
2. he is a HORSE not a PONY
3. his hair glows when he is happy
4. the stars shift just like the real night sky.
5. his eyes reflect the night sky as seen from his homeworld.
6. he is made of rubber
7. he is but isn't belikr
8. he is male.
9. HE DOESN'T HAVE A CUTIE MARK BECAUSE HE ISN'T A MLP CHARACTER/OC
10 fuck you I'm a dragon.

considering streaming but would like to know if anyone would show up if I did set it up. setting up to stream for me takes time and I don't like setting up and streaming for an hour or so if there aren't any interested parties to watch. so just leave a comment if you are interested in seeing me stream.

just want to apologize for the time it is taking me to do your images, due to unforeseen time consuming activities It will take a while longer then expected but the images will be done. please bare with me. but I will announce the winner of the story slot. the winner is~

*Drum Roll*

 Ronuk who won best two out of three coin tosses. congrats if you have anything specific in mind for your cameo please note me.

I have been spending time thinking lately. something that honestly isn't healthy for me. and my thoughts turned to regrets. if I was to die in the next 24 hours what would be my biggest regret? well I think I've found the answer.


my biggest regret is that I never got to meet the one person in this world that would be there for me. the one person who would make me laugh when I am angry. to make me smile when I sad. to comfort me when i have to cry. or to ever do the same for them.

I will never know the feel of them laying beside me holding me tight against the unknown things in the dark. to hear their voice as they speak to me.

I will never know their favorite song, or artist. I will never know the greatest moments of our life together.

I wouldn't get the chance to hear someone speak the words that could save me from my despair and see the truth of it in their eyes and hear it in their voice. I will never hear the words. "I love you."

That would be my biggest regret.

The remains slots will be closing on Monday. so if your interested better grab one while you can! I can even hold a slot for you until you have the money to pay I just won't do the image until I receive the funds.

Slots

1:  Sargotha // Paid

2:  Ronuk // Paid

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10 dollars for one person 20 for two being the maximum
all images will be fully shaded. and all participants will be entered for a cameo slot in the story for no extra charge.

Well I'm in need of money so I'm gonna open for commissions, however these commissions are a onetime only kind of thing. and that is that I am opening up for people who want an image of themselves enslaved by Shade. and maybe a chance to win a slot in the story itself. I am only taking five commissions and only one person will win the slot. each person who gets a commission will receive a number and once everyone has payed I will draw a number and the winner will have the opportunity to cameo in the story. please keep in mind that I will reserve the right to decline a commission if I feel that it goes against what Shade stands for. and any female characters will be gender bent as Shade only enslaves males. also under no circumstances will you be "Shade's Personal Toy" as that is Bel's position alone. you maybe a lesser toy but bel is his favorite toy. payments must be made up front or else I will not start the image.

Slots:

1  Sargotha

2  Ronuk

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5

Slots cost 10$ for a single person 20 for two maximum. Please have a clear Picture reference available and clearly specify what you want the image to look like. all images will be fully shaded backgrounds will most likely be black or very blurred.