A few days ago a technician came to see what was the problem with my PC and why it didn't start. His diagnosis was age. My PC is more than 5 years old and sadly it's age is showing.

He did some stuff so that it works better, but the fact is that I'll need to get a new one in the not too far future.

Straight to the point. My PC is as of right now dead.

Just how dead I won't know until I send it with a technician. But regardless of that I won't be here much for at least a few days and at most... I have no idea

Let's hope it's nothing serious or at the very least, that I can recover all my information.

You guys take care and thank you for reading

It's been like a month and now and somethings are better and others not

Lately it's been hard for me to keep many thoughts at the same time. It's like my mind can't process things like it used too and whenever I have to change from something to another it takes me hours to get the energy back.

I've been forgeting things more and more the past few days and in all honesty, it's kinda scary

I feel divided. Like I have things to do, people to please and mi mind can't cope with it all

It's been a hard couple of weeks, a hard few months and depending how you look at it, even more.

A little more than a week ago, my old nanny passed away, after like a year of fighting against lung cancer. I didn't want to say anything at the time cause it's not something I wanted to talk and it was so close to april fools I didn't want people thinking it was a bad joke.

But it's been a week now and I'm not doing well, I don't know how I'm doing. I'm feeling sad. With a lot of anxiety and regret. Regret of not being more, not being better and above all else, not being there for her as much as I could have. She really was a second mother to me, took care of us since I was born, whenever my mom and dad were too busy or not there, she was. She was always there to help, to talk and I don't believe I was.

And please don't say I was, you don't know me, what I did and didn't do

I've feel really bad this past week, choking on a ball of emotions that doesn't want to go day in and day out. Felt like I'm being pulled in all directions, with what I want, what others want what others need, wanting to be there, wanting to be better and failing.

And the worst part is, it's far from over. Without going into details, I have other family members that don't have the best life expectancies and I don't want to feel like I wasn't with them when I could but even now it's so hard, it's hard to me to be with people in person, even when I love them, even when I want to.

Everytime I end up feeling angry and sad and just wanting to be alone and that's the best case. I don't have the best relationship with all of them and I really don't know how to do anything more and I hate myself for not being more, for being incapable of at least give them tranquilitie.

I'm so tired of feeling everything like an obligation and falling short to others expectations. I'm tired of everything, doing art for others, having to answer comments, having all this anxiety and pressure to do everything and the fact that if I don't do that, I have nothing else to do. There's no plase to go, no shoulder to cry, no words to confort

Long story short. I remove my paypal information from my psn account and then I received a mail from paypal saying that "Your Billing Agreement with Sony Interactive Entertainment Network has been cancelled"

I checked my paypal and there was a transaction for I think a game I bought a week ago that was fully paid

I don't know what any of this means, can someone help me please?

After some long absence to take care of my grandma, that was extended even further due to a freaking car crash!

I'm finally back at my house, back at my room and back at work

I'll get back at uploading stuff soon ^^

As the title say, I was in a car crash today. Good news, I'm mostly unharmed. Bad news, they had to take my grandma to the hospital, but all in all, she does looks fine and has no signs of any serious injury.

Still, she'll stay the night to be in observation.

Overall I'm fine, with a big headache, but fine none the less ^^

Letting you all know that I'm leaving tomorrow to take care of my grandma for a few weeks.

Apologies for any absent or delay that that might cause

And let's hope that it will be better
It's safe to say that this wasn't the best year for most, certainly wasn't for me

Been debating whether make a list of all the stuff that has happened to me or not, so... in short:

Got sick a few times, get depressed a lot, had to deal with dead, start with a new therapist and new medication, fail some job interviews, got new friends, lost old friends, actually did inktober and lost one of my cats

(That last one was rather recent and really broke my heart)

Every year I do a list of promises for the new year, not always succeed at them, but it's important to not give up!

So, here I go:

1.-get better habits: waking up earlier, organice more my time, all that stuff
2.-clean up my room, to organize my life I need to organise my place
3.-Go back to job searching
4.-get more organized and more efficient in my drawings

I really did anything this year and I need to get better at it

And to all, I hope you have a great 2018 and never give up on your life's, no matter how hard things get *hugs*

And I mean computer stuff (darn abbreviations)

I just had some PC stuff happen and I think it's time for me to get an upgrade. Problem is... I know jack about technobabble

Does anyone have any recommendations? I just want something where I can play some games and do art

For all your gifts and birthday wishes.

Really cuddles my heart seeing so many people throwing nice wishes at me every year <3

So again, from the bottom of my heart

THANK YOU!

First, don't worry. I'm not going anywhere. Though I haven't really been here all that much either.

I know this year. But more precisely since last year till today, I haven't been here that much. I mean, I've been here, but not as active.

I've written more than a few journals about me and feeling down and I wanted to thank you all again for always cheering me up. But I... I don't think I'm getting better

I want to get better, I want to do more, I want to come back and talk with all of you again. But I never seem to be able to and it's not for lack of time.

Ever since finishing my final tests (worst experience of my life) I've been very emotionally fragile

There are days where I can work on a half finished piece for hours on end. And there are days like now, where I have an almost finished piece and I can't even move the mouse. And there are days where I can't even get out of bed.

My anxiety is the worst. I feel my stomach clenching and a lack of air. I'm so afraid of losing everyone I end up paralyzed. Both IRL and here

... I guy I followed for many years erased his account this year. he was one of the first people I followed here. When I realised it, I went back and watch all his journals and status... there was nothing saying that he was thinking of leaving, but...

Another friend of mine has had a really horrible year so far. And just like with the last one, I lost contact with him for many months until I decided to see how he had been. Losing his house, trying to survive. Went throw some really desperate moments and I wasn't there for him, when he needed it the most. He is better now, but I can't forgive myself

And IRL, people I know are sick and... there's nothing I can do. There's nothing is can be done. and I don't know what to do. Again, I just end up paralyzed and... just can't do anything

I'm back on therapy and medication as of right now. So far:

-therapy really not good. The first one I went kinda ended up quitting on me and the second one I just started, but it really wasn't a good start (one of the reasons I'm feeling like this today)

-medication... yes and no. I was on some pills for my depression. They kinda work, but they also gave me nightmares, plus I run out. Now I'm with something to sleep and I think it works, but I also think it has a cumulative effect. So who knows how I'll be in a week or so

Sorry for the huge rant. I think some of the stuff here I've said before. I just needed to let some stuff out... again

But, more than that, I wanted to say:

Thanks to all my friend that have always been there for me. Sorry to all my friends for not being there for you

Not saying it just because I want presents (I do) But I know I have friends that hate getting notifications when it's like in a week and don't have time to do anything

So, here you go! 10 weeks, I hope that's more than enough ^^

Also, don't feel obliged to do something for me if you can't or won't. A simple "happy birthday is enough" ^^

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Just for the weekend, all commissions are 20% off!!!

I'm in really need for money, please help me and don't miss your chance ;w;

http://drakes-world.tumblr.com/post.....mmissions-open

Because I've done many and all have been unpopular

Would anyone be interested? ñ~ñ

I just want to say that. I know this year has been pretty bad in general. It's been a year with a lot of bad news and bad stuff that seemed to never end, and I wasn't the exception

It's been a year full of stress, anxiety, depression and that's the short version.

So, I just wanted to say... thanks

I just wanted to thank you all. All my good old friends or the random watcher that just come to my page, saw I wasn't doing well and threw a few caring words.

After all, that what this time of the year is supposed to be about. Caring for the ones close to you and not so close to you

I know that in the big scheme of things, I'm one of the lucky ones. The world is so loud, we forget that there are a lot of people in way worst situations and, it's important not to forget about that

If you're one of the ones that had it the worst this year, I just want to say. I'm so happy that you're here and if I can do something for you, please don't doubt to ask

Please be safe, I love you all and I hope this time next year, thing be alot better to all of us

It's been awhile since I did something with my characters so I copy this idea from my friend fatelogic

Here's the deal: Choose two from the roster, I'll choose the ones that seem more interesting and make a poll and the duo that gets mentioned the most wins! (Any combination is acceptable)

And for those of you lacking in the long-term memory department, here's a refresher!

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Any doubt, just ask ^^

This... hasn't been very good days for me... not good months for that matter.

I left the past local I was working on (the roach infested one) And began working in a lot better one, a cleaner one, and... I got fired a few days back. Couldn't even get my first paycheck

And then, I got notification that my last test would be today, with little less than 2 days to prepare.

I really didn't thought things would get worse, but then... I, did... good.

Like, better than what I was hoping. Not great, but... I finished and... I felt good.

That's like, a first for me after a test... It was hard and I panicked, but... I did it, I still find it hard to believe ^^

And, I really want to thank you people

Thanks to my friend Pixie Talking to her everyday has kept me sane

Thanks to all of you, that have read and left comments in my journals, giving me support

And special thanks to... Kaleido star opening, Corrector Yui opening and Here comes a thought from steven universe. For helping me keep calm during the test ;w;

Let's hope this is the beginning of better times ^^

I... I honestly don't know what to do...

I've been burning out the past few months, but when I want to take a break and do what I want, I end up with nothing

Been working at a very bad restaurant, full of bugs and cockroaches, for less than the minimum, because I'm lacking options. And I end up too tired to do anything.

Been having negative thoughts that don't let me sleep at night.

Been stressing trying to study for a test I don't even want to

Like I said, I don't know what to do... I really have no idea... this is a heads up more than anything. So that you know I'll most likely won't upload anything for a couple months

That's all

Thank you all, see you next month ^w^

1.- Jackkuro (Finished)

2.- Jackkuro (on the work)

3.- dragonofbrainstorms (pending approval)

4.- Fusiondragon180 (pending)

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7611583/

1.- Jackkuro (pending)

2.- Jackkuro (pending)

3.- dragonofbrainstorms (pending)

4.- *open*

Single character 10$ to 15$ (Depending on the amount of detail)

Simple 10: http://sta.sh/02fql3hi7asn

Elaborated 12/13: http://sta.sh/01evxwgk189k

Complex 15: http://sta.sh/01pa6mujdafa

Half bodied half the price: http://sta.sh/01fct9bn8x4h



Backgrounds: from 5$ to 20$ depending on the detail

Gradient 5: http://sta.sh/0jsi0m7u5zc

Simple 10: http://sta.sh/01nlkyztdyyc

Elaborated (forgrownd and backgrownd details)15: http://sta.sh/026t1nujz1g9

Complex (multiple background layers) 20: http://sta.sh/02e56j7ypiz6

Multiple characters: Former rules apply. Each character get 25% discount

Ex: 2 elaborated 24$ minus 25% = 18$ http://sta.sh/02at8rfdarvj


nsfw/private commissions:

-Things I won't do: Gore, bore, rape, scat, etc

-Things I would do: Loli, shota, bdsm, etc

lewd/ecchi, no extra: http://sta.sh/053byxoggs5 http://sta.sh/01xa69j711u2

Porn/hentai 5$

Lolicon/shotacon 10$

private 10$


SLOTS OPEN

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Paypal only


Commissions close at the 10 of the month or when all slots fill

Do to too much labor in the past few month, I decided to establish some new rules when it comes to asking for commissions

So, from now on, there will be 4 commissions slots at the beginning of every month

Commissions will close when all slots are filled or after 10 days have passed

That's all. Questions are welcome ^^