After 5 years of not having updated my FA page, I figured it was time I put some effort into re-working this page, since I've over hualed a lot of my other profiles, and digital home-bases within and without the fandom.

NOW if only I can get the website to NOT crash when I try to nuke all 500k submission messages.

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The greatest excuse ever.

Also, I think I screwed up somehow ... While carrying on in my ridiculous quest to watch over two thousand decent artists, musicians, and writers, I didn't take into consideration the sheer amount of submissions that would invade my inbox.

You have 7514 new messages ( 7512S, 2J ) ... O.=.O

No matter how many times I go through the sub's and Fav and delete them, there's a whole new wall of stuff to go through ...

Well, I may have to nuke en masse despite how much I LOVE to fav and look at all the pretty things in that folder ;=;

Fuck con reports, I have a Knob Creek Machine Gun Shoot report.

What do you get when you mix ten thousand people, jammed into seven thousand vehicles, in a setting of four acres, and among enough weaponry to satisfy a mechanized division? one hell of a show!

My friend from Mass and myself went to KC on Friday and Saturday, stayed till after the night shoot. Although, sitting in your car and waiting an hour to get out of the field parking lot was a bit boring.

I went to Knob Creek with $320 bucks, and counting the money I have now, I spent $151 bucks, bought my friend a K-BAR, BDU jungle; pants, jacket, hat, and combat boots. I got myself ACU Digicam; Jacket, and pants. Also, bought a BDU Field jacket.

Lets make something clear; I am a full fur and a fag, but I make my cammies look good, and I got along great with the other people around there, I acted like I do around campus, I didn't fag out or go stereotype.

If the entire Furry fandom was to grow some damn balls, gay/bi/trans, male/female/herm doesn't matter, and make a presence at gun shows, I guarantee all of you, that NO ONE would even think about messing with us. If the LGBT community as a whole would stop be stereotypical fags and make an effort to show that we aren't push overs, at least owned a firearm of some sort, then... THEN we would have everything that the str8fags have. Seriously, who is going to tell a community of gay gun owners that they can or cannot do this or that?

Come on guys, fucking man up and stop being pussies, and this is coming from a slutty dragon cum dumpster fag.

I've had Communications and Speech class since Jan. I purely hate it with a passion, you get up in front of 50 people, and you talk about say your speech. You have to get into groups, and its usually groups of three, which leaves me the odd one out and I can't find a group to hang with. I am glad it ends on the 28th as part of a half semester class, but hopefully I can survive it without having anymore panic attacks or being able to ignore the laughter from those morons. lol.

IM ON MAH WAY TO WATCHING OVER 9000 PEOPLE! lawl

but the question remains ... do you see what I did thar?
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yay for october! best month of the year, cooler days, pretty scenery, gateway to the winter

New style coming out from me, I'll be uploading pictures of random things, and pictures of the scenery. I'm getting into photography even moar.

Had my 20th birthday last month, I'm gonna try and make my next twenty years as happy and fun as I can... too bad this start isn't going as planned >.=.<

ooo lookitthatitsdancingpuppetslol. ADDragon has ADD?

Just for pure lulz, lets make a new journal.

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Here I am, Sitting on my "bed" which is also the room couch, in my dorm, at MSU.

I hate not being able to connect to IRC except for when I get home.

Yesterday, I put in an Order for parts to build an Elite Gaming Rig that'll keep me up to pace with all the latest games for the next three years, at the very least.

I'm gonna ship my XPS out to Keb, if he can figure out whats wrong with it, then he can have it. Plus, it has all the programs already installed on its HDD that is useful, That is, if Keb keeps XP on there. I hope he does, I wanna play some games with him.

The PC itself is only two years old, and still preyy good, dual vid cards, dual core procs, etc.

yay.

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KTHXBAI.

It's Been a month or two since I wrote a journal, no excuses, just too damn lazy, lol.

I'm still on my break from my last semester, and ive been too lazy to get my college schedule, Gotta go and make myself get a hold of my college, get my stuff, and get ready for the next semester.

Last semester, I failed my Business Math I class, Got a C on my ISE 101 class, and got an A on my world religion class. Next semester, I'm going to decide my electives this time, I want Network security, and a couple crit. thinking classes. Network security is hard, but I got a couple friends going to take it.

Also, Had a spur of the moment road trip, I drove plum up to the Penn/WVA state line, went to a rest area on the Penn side, and had some fun. I contaminated Pennsylvania with ... DRAGON PISS!

ZE END!

Commish'd a Good artists and friend for a Avatar, and a sketch.

www.furaffinity.net/user/keb

He's Kewl, funny, lovable, and a great artist, I look forward to the Avatar and comic from him.

He'll be working on SC4, his way without straying too far from the lulz of the comic.

Go check him out, and grab a Commish from him.

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In other news, I'll be commish'ing furends from #sanjisforest on Furnet once a week for the my Spoogecomic, Since I'm too crappy of a drawer, It'd be good for the comic, Random furs get paid to make a comic on their theme with much lulz.

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And, My grades for Bus. Math, World Relig., and ISE is slipping, RL Family probs and such is taking from my study time.

My uncles Wife has Leukemia(sp?), the stem cells she received didnt work, and their giving her about 3 months to live. her and my uncle has two kids. My mother is out there for a week, and I may skip a week of class this month to go out there and help them.

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Remember ... Remember the ... LULZ!

-DrakeZ

Yay, I haz new hair stylez :3

Went out on friday to my hair stylelist and got a sweet haircut and had some golden-honey color highlights put in ... Now I can't stop looking at my hair in the mirror ... I love it, I look and feel allot better with this new look ^.^

And, I have new classes in this March Semester.

Currently taking ISE101 - Internal Security Engineering 101 class, This Class will prepare me for the college A+ Certification exams later this year.

Also taking, Business Math. I - The Foundamentals of advanced math in the work place ... Yes its uber hard, and I SUCK at math, so I aptly named it the 'Hell Class'.

And last but not so least ... REL330 - World Religion. Just like it says, I'll be learning about world religion, and expected to write papers about the many religions in the world ... which sucks for me, as it's a Required General Ed. class, and I'm an Atheist who could care less about religion.
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All in all, I haz a good feeling about this year, yay me.

Ugh, this week is post mid-term tests week, as if the campus didn't get enough laughs at giving us Mid-terms, they sack us with 'post Mid-Term' tests, they have nothing to do with mid-terms, but carry a 25% grade weight towards our final exams.

Next week we have Final exams, I'm pretty sure I'll get another D in my english class, like I did for mid-terms. But I'm confident that I'll get a B for Human Relations and at least an A for my Psychology class.

In other news; I switched my major/degree program from Computer Applications to the better and higher paying field of Internet Security, Assoc. Degree. At least 3 of the 6 classes I've taken and taking now will count for the new major, so it's not a complete loss.

BTW, I managed to piss off my teacher by replacing the 'O' in things like for, with a 'U', lol, he and my English class knows im a Furry, and though my classmates gets a kick out of my spelling and pronunciation of the re-worded words, my teacher is such an ass about it that he goes off into a lecture about how humor in the classroom distracts people from their studies and that its not funny to act like an idiot, "Your a college student, you shouldn't be trying to act 'cute'".

so ... yeah ... enjoy yourselfs :3

-Drake.

Thoughts of a very tired furson.

Ya know, its a really rude awakening when your tired, and in front of a computer screen. You just seem to melt away from your current agenda, and drift into the past, or think about the here and now.

Traversing through the internet, you stumble upon a comic strip, reading it, you come across a scene that reminds you of yourself in many more ways then you would want it to.

The way you push yourself away from other people becuase you feel that they wouldn't care about your true self, The way you live a lie, not being your self, and not being honest with those around you.

The way you put on a show, to try and make yourself look like someone or something that your not, in order to please those around you.

You sit in your chair, or on your stool, wishing that you had the courage, and the strength to make things right, to give up your little mascarade and just be yourself.

But deep down inside, you feel a tingling in your chest, a little pain, and discomfort.

You have had this little feeling many, many times, though you never stopped to realize what is, who it is, or why your having it.

Instead, you just let it go, despite your better judgement. You let it pass, and quickly, it fades away, to hide itself from the light of the day, to go back into its shelter deep in the confines of your inner core.

And yet, you still just sit there, wondering if the choices you made, the things you said, and the life you lead was worth the pain and the hurt that you live with now.

You sit there, Dwelling on things that you normally wouldn't think of, or give a moments time of thought within your brain.

You know who you are, what you are, who you really are, and what your feelings truly are. But you hide it all, You are afraid that these things isn't your true self. Your afraid that whats going on isn't what you really want out of life.

You think back to your past, the lies you told, the things you did, and you wonder if it was ever worth it, and what does the future hold for you and your past actions.

So you start to write down whats being played out within your mind, and you let your fingers and hands act on their own accord. Yet, you're still afraid that they will reveal a hidden secret that you don't want to know, or remember, Your afraid that your hand will betray your trust.

Yet you fail to see it, Don't you? its not your fingers or your hands that have betrayed your trust, No, it is You who have betrayed your self. It's not your fingers or your hands thats cuasing you to experiance these deep emotions, it's not your fingers that are typing what your feeling. It's your inner core trying to break through the walls of fear, anger, and mistrust that you have worked so hard to build, becuase you was afraid of what is on the inside.

You are afraid of what you might do, of what you might act like, of what you really are.

So why not just go with what you really want? Why are you so reluctant as to not comply with your inner self? Why must you always be the loner and keep away from people who may want to be your friends?

You sit in the back of class, you avoid eye contact with your classmates, you avoid saying anything to them, You smoke alone, your always alone.

I don't want to be alone, Harley, I want to be with friends, I want to have a good life, and your keeping me from it.

Why must you live like this? we both know its not good for you, and its hurting you in the long run.

Well, I guess we had our little talk for now, I best be off, I'm always here, I'm in your mind, alone, and waiting for the chance to talk. Look me up, we'll be having more chats soon.
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A odd conversation I had with myself this morning, call me crazy, call me what you want, but god damn this opens doors for me.

Great news fur me ... I decided that I would take whatmy teacher always say, and I registered for the Memphit Furmeet on Labor day weekend of this year!

My teacher always said "Unless you jump in, head first into the cold deep water of life, then you will never amount to anything, nor will you do anything exciting"

I'm Nervous, and Have no fucking clue what to do or how to prepare for it, but all I know is I *want* to go, and that I'm registered for it.

I don't know any furs IRL thats near me, and the only fur I know personally lives in fuckin' England.

Memphis is about 500 or so miles away from me, and When I drove out to Texas with my mom when I was 17, We left home around 2am, and got to Texarkana around 2pm, So I suppose Traveling around 65-68MPH, for ~500 miles ... will take 6-7 hours of driving? I dunno, I suck at math.

I haven't made any hotel/motel reservations yet, but when I get down there, If I cant find a motel, then I can always sleep in my car ... I keep some blankets and a couple pillows in teh trunk ... mostly because im too damn lazy to clean it out ... but still, I'll do what I can when the time comes.

At least I'll have my car, so I can be able to get out and drive around, I'm sure my fear of being around a large amount of people will kick in, and a lil driving around a city always helps to calm me down.

So ... thats it fer now ... Enjoy yer pawsome week :)

Well, another boring weekend spent playing games and chatting online.

I *was* gonna do some study time, but, only thing I did regarding studying was read two paragraphs in my College Grammar book. God I hate these classes and this entire semester, Think I'll pick more productive and easier classes for the next semester.

I may want to grab a Tutor, but, the Learning experience on IRC the other day was far better, and it was free ^_^

In other areas of my life.

I went ahead and decided that now is a good time to get my fursona drawn, Went with Sanjirasha cuz his art looks good, and he's cheap, hehehe.

I've gotten over the chase ordeal, gotta move on from and away from those people that piss you off. Do I regret what I said and done to him? No. The only way people learn from things like that, is to force them to learn from their mistakes, I have't lost any sleep, had any thoughts, or felt bad about it.

Actually, Feeling good overall, and though I face another crappy week based on classes that I don't give a damn about, I have a strange feeling it'll go well in the long run.

Well, think thats it for me, Enjoy the weekend to anyone who reads this or looks at my page.

Oh, and since I don't know how to link anyone on FA to this, I'll just give a Shout out to Sanji. You can find him in my watch list, go pay him a visit and check out his page :)

Certain people are Scum of the earth.

Here I was, I was gonna write about the hardships I am facing in my crappy classes, and how I wished I would have finished High School, but NO, I found the one person in this world that tips the charts in what I see as being Scum.

Chasefowl.

I am calling you out.

You, sir, are low in the lowest form.

You brag about how you put on a show of being depressed and sad, JUST to get attention from those around you.

"Yog says: i'm mainly exagerating feelings of utter depression in order to milk sympathy from my 'friends'"

"Yog says: so far, its going well. people are much nicer to me when they think i'm depressed"

"Yog says: god, i really am i sick, evil bastard"

"Yog says: what, just because i never get any empathy otherwiae, you can't blame me for exagerating the situation a little in order to make people treat me nicer"

Dude, thats so fucking lame it ain't funny.

You rank high in the charts of Asshole, and Emo-Fur.

I used to like you, now, I hate you for what you have become.

oh noes my college schedule has been changed!

apparently, National College saw fit to change my schedule, and replace Basic Keyboarding with Composition English ... oh boy, English, this will go well -.-

They told me at student services today that, even though I went beyond the average expectations of the College for my Computer skills when I took the Placement exams to get in (placement exam is the exact same thing as the ACT...) I did fail the English part of the exam ... I'm not surprised, I never actually done English, because I was Home Schooled, I usually stole the answer book and put it on my tests (yeah...)

So ... I now have Psych. 127 Human Psychology, Psych. 153 Human Relations, and ENG162 Comp. English.

At least my vacation will end well, go into class on the 8th tired, and hung over, rofl.

Peace out y'all.

-Dz

lol, well, I wasn't actually expecting to be mentioned on the Clawcast podcast, but hell, I love clawcast, their the best podcast ive ever listened to, their awesome <3 hehe.

thanks Clawcast :)

lol ... anyoen who reads this ... do me a favor ... i found a new web browser game and it'd really help me out if you'd visit this link so my little city can grow!

http://furasia.myminicity.com/

in return, just PM me your city name, and i'll visit it.

-DF

ZOMG I'm so fuckin' happy right now!

I passed my Comp. MS Office final Exams!!!!

Plus, I passed my Pol. Sci, and Eng. Final Exams!!!!!!

I AM DONE WITH COLLEGE UNTIL JAN. 8TH!!!!!!!! FUCK YEAH BITCH!

I'm gonna be partying hard this weekend, and sleeping for hours on end, and then repeating it till the last day when class starts back up again.

WOOHOO!

*does a lil dance*

-DF

So, I finally got my speech for Com. Class done, and ready to give on Tuesday Night.

Three days of hard work, Asking for permission to use text from people who relate to my views, and using resources and quotes to enhance the speech.

Now, to work on my Pol. Sci. paper, and Comp. Paper.

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Also wanna say to a couple peeps, sorry for my hostility, but, i ain't been in the best of moods this past couple weeks, and I really need some alone time for studying.

-D

I wonder if its true what certain people say about Kitsunes, if its correct or not...

lol, first off ... dunno why, but im obsessed with saying Oi!, even got my class mates saying it, lol.
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That said, on we go for teh leet journalz.

Seen transformers for the first time yesterday, and, I have this to say about it...

OMFG THAT SHITS TIGHT DUDE, BAD ASS.

lol, loved that movie, its now number one in my favorite movie lists.

in case you haven't noticed, of if your in another country, most of the Autobots was General Motors Vehicles (GM), Bumble bee went from a '77 Chevrolet Camaro, to the '09 Chevy Camaro Concept car.

Which, suffice to say, the Camaro is pure car porn.

I doubt if I was the only one who got an instant hard-on for the pure power displayed in the New Camaro. :D

To GM: BEST DAMNED AD EVER!

To Ford/Dodge: HAHA YOUR THE BAD GUYS, DECEPTICONS FTL!

Although I will say, Barricade, which was the Mustang, was pretty good, got to hand it to us Americans man, we know how to make bad ass muscle cars ;)

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Other then my new favorite movie, I am pretty happy in other areas.

Next week is my last week of Class for this semester! YAY :D

I officially get done with this Semester on the 15th, and start on the next on on the 2nd of January.

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Trying to get with my classmates, see if we can go out together for a nice dinner after our last class, wanna savor the moment, cuz we wont have a couple class mates in next terms classes.

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That said ... Peace out dawgs.

what can I say ... Wow pretty much sums it up.

Been a tough week on my end, College Classes and events at College has been pushing me to my limits.

Thank the Gods I have today and Thursday off, I'll be sleeping for most of today and maybe thru Thanksgiving itself. Yeah, I'm that tired.

Got my Schedule for the next term, which starts Jan. 2nd...

I have Basic Keyboarding class, and two Psychology Classes ... BOTH are taught by my current English Teacher, who makes it his objective to try and turn me into a Christian, He gives the class Papers and Speachs to read in front of every one, and their all Bible verses -.-.

So I', pretty sure Psy. Classes will be pretty much the same.

Although I did pass a un-expected closed book test last night in English, scored a 98 on a test that had 50 questions ...

I regret not having the time to chat with Chase, but, As soon as I see him, I will explain it all to him, I hope he understands that this being the last three weeks of my term, it's pretty hectic right now.

But, Chase if you read this, I'll get with you today, but if not, then Thursday for sure, I miss chatting with ya :)

Well, thats all for now I guess, I'm tired and gonna go to bed soon and get some much needed sleep.

Later y'all.

Well, gotta say that I didnt have plans for this weekend ... until Friday came along, now im very happy, and feelin' good!

I was worried that this weekend would be a drag for me, having to study for Political Science, English, and Comp. Mid-Terms for monday, tuesday, and thursday.

But, now I can study with happiness and have a new, better, and happier outlook for the rest of this program and the rest of my time in college.

when I get down in class, and think stuff like, why am I here, or, I won't pass this class, all I have to do, is remember why I'm doing it, and Why I'm going for a better and higher education in the first place.

1. For chase.

2. For a good job with good pay, so I won't be breaking my back in a ditch somewhere just to make a few bucks.

3. for my future, and for a good retirement.

4. because I want to be the first Male in my family to have a College Degree!

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Thats all for now, Y'all.

I'll make another Journal entry on like Sunday or monday before class.

-DF

Soo tired, meh, I just woke up at 2:30pm.

I've gotta get some smokes before Class tonight.

I don't know why, but I have been very tired after class the past week, I hope I ain't catching the cold or something, I feel good, I just feel like sleeping for a few weeks.

Class tonight, Leave home between 4 and 4:30pm, and get to college around 5:15-5:30, depending on traffic and if my car dies on my en route to the campus.


Have fun y'all ...
...I know I will
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