Turning 27 on the 20th :3

Ahhh - for the first time in many, many years I have bought a product from a quarter machine at my local grocery store. I then went back and dropped $7.50 on it.

The toy in question is a Lego-like brick building animal miniatures that can connect vertically horizontally. They are called Pix Brix, and they have their own website where you can buy your own figures for just one dollar each: https://pix-brix.com/

Just thought I'd share this adorable product. They currently have farm animals and wilderness animals (the set the store machine featured), and they are coming out with safari and arctic animals too. I really like the deer and wolf I got, they are just too cute ;_;

Theme of 2017 will be unusual tribals that lack good tribal leaders - spoilers show off a a tribal leader GW cat and a WUBRG DRAGON!!! Woooo \o/

I attended pre-release yesterday!

It was fun! I got a bunch of junk in my sealed pool, but then I pulled a Liliana and she carried me to 3 and 1 haha.

Set is really neat, looking forward to getting a bundle :D

Words cannot express my anger right now.

Trump has declared the US will be withdrawing from the Paris agreement, making the USA one of three countries in the nay camp along with Nicaragua and Syria. It is a clear message that the administration values the dollar more than environmental and human suffering brought about by climate change - or that they straight up ignore science.

The environment and science are my number one issue in politics, and for me this is rock bottom. There must and will be consequences for this action.

If you live in the US, I urge you to make calls to your local government and tell them that you will not tolerate throwing the planet under the bus for a few bucks for the fossil fuel industry.

If you live outside the US, I urge you to make calls to your local government and tell them that your country needs to consider sanctioning the US.

We cannot be complacent as fossil fuel companies and their pocket political cronies trample over what is very clearly an important issue for people around the world - we will not tolerate them trashing the future of our environment for a few bucks now and will not tolerate them strangling the clean energy sector.


*Edit: this is not meant to be a Trump bashing journal, so please try to avoid that.

First off, I want to thank all the support I got in my last journal. People have been very understanding and I am so grateful for that.


Okay, so I'm thinking of making another fat themed character - but while Jennifer will be general fatness + big butt, I'm thinking of making a new girl who is all about uber-thighs and slobbiness (may also give her a goth-punk theme). I'm debating on species still - I'm mostly considering red panda, raccoon, dragon, and some kind of dinosaur. I'd like to know what kind of species people think might be good for a slobby monstrously-thighed lazy gal.

So there's something I've been wanting to get off my chest. It has to do friendships - specifically friends you just know online. I've been around in the fandom for a good few years know, and I've had the awesome privilege of meeting some wonderful people that I've come to consider friend. But there has been a trend I've noticed among online folks that is starting to bother me.

What does it mean to be friends with somebody? What are the qualifications of being a friend? Obviously the answers to these is going to be different for everybody, but I've come to feel like that for people that meet online the criteria for friendship becomes how often you talk to them. We live in a digital age where it is extremely easy to get in contact with somebody. Gone are the days where you have to write to somebody, where it could take weeks or more to hear back from somebody over long distances. In this, we can get instant contact, almost making it as though everybody we know might as well be next to you.

So I feel as though people take this concept and push it to an almost paranoid extreme - that if somebody isn't frequently talking to them (because there is no barrier to such), then they don't care about them. But is this true? Do you need to talk to somebody frequently to be friends with them?

Personally, this has been frustrating to me. I'm a very introverted person who deals with depression, so most days I'm pretty preoccupied with myself. I am also not one for small talk, and unfortunately not a lot is going on in my life at the moment so my conversation topics are pretty sparse. I also feel as though that many others are in a similar boat. I personally don't feel like this should come between friendship, as friendship is something deeper - it is an emotional kinship, an understanding and a level of trust and caring beyond a typical person, and not necessarily just somebody you talk to a bunch.

I guess what I'm getting at is that I'm both frustrated with this whole ordeal of online friendships and sorry towards all the wonderful people I know who may have drifted some away from me over the past half a year or so. Since I graduated from my associates program a year ago I've kind of gone into depression mode as I've been figuring out what the next step of my life is (plus some other stuff has gone on). I'm frustrated because I don't feel like I should have to say 'hi - how are you?' every other day or anything just to be friends.

But I'm also very sorry. I understand that people like partners they can talk with. I understand that conversation and such is a part of friendship. And I understand that I have been very, very quiet. I am a very introverted person, and I promise that it's not that I don't care. If anyone ever has anything they want to talk to me about, I promise I will listen and that I will care. I may not be one for small talk, but I will be there if there is anything you need somebody to talk with to. I also straight up have a lot of people in my contacts now, and it's quite difficult for me to keep up at times. Plus I just... kind of lose track of the days at times.

So I'm sorry everyone. Please forgive my quietness. I still love you all.

Hi everyone!

I just wanted to update and let folks know that my plans for the near future have changed. I graduated last year with an associates degree in computer science and was planning to find a job, but after taking a break I am taking up an offer from my father to continue my education and go for a bachelors degree (I am currently in the process of signing up with a college I really want to go to).

Either way, it is highly likely I will be getting very little art for the next four years or so since I will almost assuredly get student loans. I will make more journals when I have more updates.

My apologies to all my friends and acquaintances who were hoping to get collab commissions with me soon :c

The nuclear option has officially been invoked. Gorsuch will assuredly be nominated tomorrow, ensuring the conservative judge will enforce his 'words as written' interpretation of law for the land in America for many decades to come. It remains to be seen if he will be as extreme as Scalia, but this is all but guaranteed a blow against the frontier of civil rights such as LGBT rights and tighter gun control. While the judge may disappoint me, what really disappoints me is that the precedent set by the Republicans (and Democrats) have shown how far they are willing to go to oppose the other party. Our two ruling political parties can now pretty much be renamed to the 'Anti-Democrat' and 'Anti-Republican' parties. Bipartisanship is dying, and America is going to be all the worse for it.

I feel as though both parties no longer care what the people want, and only care that they and their constituents want (although I'm inclined to lay that blame more heavily on the feet of the Republicans). And by constituents, I really mean their biggest donors.



*Edit - I welcome discussion, so if you want to post a differing view I am completely okay with that. The purpose of this post is really just me venting some of my frustrations with my country's recent lack of bipartisanship.

I'm considering maybe picking up Guild Wars 2 again - but if I do I will need an active guild to play with. Anyone play and in a good one? Doesn't have to be an all furry guild or anything. I'd like to do PvE content like dungeons/raids and whatnot. I'm looking to play a support druid.

If not GW2 then maybe I will pick up FF14 again but what I experienced when I played I was not particularly thrilled about.

Hi guys!

So I have been fairly quiet these past few months aside from uploading commissions. For some quick background reference I graduated college with an applied associate's degree a little over half a year ago now. But sadly I quickly went back into depression mode, and it got really bad in the summer. At its worst I eventually decided to see a psychiatrist while I was on the last stretch of being on my father's health insurance, and I was put back on antidepressants. I am doing much better, but my depression and anxiety is still making it uncomfortable for me to fully transition to apply and get a job. I'm great once I apply myself to something, but the transition and starting phases are ones of intense anxiety for me.

To that end, I apologize to everyone for being so quiet. I've let a lot of art comments go unanswered, which is unlike me. I've also been fairly quiet on messengers - granted, part of the other reason for that is the fact that I have so many contacts that keeping up to date with everyone is a daunting task. Either way, I promise I'm not deliberately trying to ignore anyone. While I would prefer if folks avoid poking me daily (especially asking me how I am on a daily basis - pet peeve of mine), I still want to stress that I welcome folks I know inquire about me and say hello.

I am sorry to new peeps if I can't devote a lot of time getting to know everyone. I am somewhat antisocial and there's no way I can maintain even acquaintance level relationships with dozens and dozens of folks. There just gets to be a point where it's too much.

But I super appreciate and am thankful to the wonderful people that have complimented me on the ideas I've commissioned other artists to help bring to life. Thank you - I am glad others enjoy some of the silly stuff I get.


ANYWAY!

Hopefully I will be getting a job soon and that should mean some more spare funds, which have been low lately. I am going to be rolling out an inflatable feral dragoness soonish here, so I will finally have a proper character for inflation stuff (I am a huge large-scale inflatable/balloonie fan, so I'm excited to finally get into that stuff). I will also want to make a side-kick for my dragoness - I am currently toying with the idea of inflatable femboy gazelle.

I may also be making a multi-taur character sometime, but that idea is a ways off.

I am really curious what sort of content other folks would like to see from me. If you'd like to suggest something, please feel free to do so in the comments!

Also, I'd like to encourage folks to ask me anything in this journal to help make up for how quiet I've been c:

I know 2016 has been a crap year for a lot of people, but my friend  Arale is currently trying to escape his abusive home. He needs somewhere where he can live (chipping in with rent of course) and right now is aiming for the Seattle area. Beyond that, donations so he can afford bus fare would help tremendously - even small amounts.

Please consider helping him if you can.

Link to His Journal for More Info
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8025838/

Well, as happy as you can make it ~


I'm excited to find my first job this year. Hopefully I can find something decent with my applied associates degree!


For me it's not a great New Year simply because of the incoming cabinet to my government. I am disgusted with Trump and his proposals and I am especially disgusted with his cabinet picks. More than anything I consider myself a progressive as I subscribe to progressivism - I vote largely based on pro scientific and environmental issues, with social issues following after. But this cabinet that's coming to the White House pretty much falls into one of three categories: army men, business moguls, or crusty right-wingers. The only pro-science agenda that has been mentioned so far as I know is support for NASA, but this overshadowed by the PEOTUS's shocking scientific illiteracy and just about everyone in his cabinet being a climate change denier (except for, ironically enough, the Exxon Mobil CEO - not that he cares about climate change, but he at least admits that it exists).


*sigh* Sorry for the rant, but I am deeply disturbed by the agenda of my incoming government, which includes a fat tax cut for the rich and unleashing regulations on fossil fuels. I might play a more active role in politics over the next four years. I really want the democratic party to focus more on economic growth through a revitalized education system that is failing much of America, especially in non-coastal states that aren't catching the wave of exploding computer sciences, and stop pretending that catering to social justice issues will make them unbeatable. I'd also love to see a candidate that admits that the war on drugs is a complete failure and that we need to change our course of action, but unfortunately neither party seems interested in doing that (while I don't oppose taxes I do oppose frivolous spending - and our spending on the war against drugs is perhaps the biggest money sink of all).



Perhaps I'll a journal explaining my thoughts in more detail sometime (despite the fact, yes I know, politics tends to be frowned upon around here).




Anyway, here's to 2017.

It's presents-under-tree day, yay! And I have sooo many people I want to wish a merry Christmas and happy holidays there no way I can get to everyone individually today, so here's a journal instead!

Hope everyone has a nice end of the year (because I think most of us can agree most of 2016 sucked haha).

Seattle is bringing home the MLS cup!! Congratulations to the Sounders!

(Yes I'm a Seattleite~)

Yep - I've really gotten into these two. Expect more rule 34 of them to come ~

Yep, I'm 26 now! Thank you so much to everyone that has already given me happy birthdays!

<3

Hey guys!

So I've been getting a lot of commissions. Like, a lot. The ones I have planned aside, I will be taking a break from coms for a little while - when I am ready again it will likely be early 2017 and I will be trying to get joint stuff with folks.

I'd also like to know what kind of stuff people would like to see me commission. I'd like to use some kind of poll system but not sure what to use (Strawpoll is publicly searchable so I'd rather not use that). Could also just make a list and people could either respond in a journal response or a note. I will still be getting what I want to get, but I am curious what others would like to see. I do know I personally want to make an inflatable character (got ideas for an inflatable femboy gazelle) and get some inflation stuff. And more fatty Catty x herm Bratty stuff - I've gotten really into that recently for some reason.

Recently I announced I would be moving down near San Francisco, but it's looking like I probably won't be doing that after all. Lots of personal reasons I won't get into, but I think I should try to make a go of it where I am right now.

Love you all - thank you all so much for helping make my furry involvement awesome! And thanks of course to the talented artists around the fandom~

Hey guys,

So many of you who have been watching me know that I get a lot of hyper stuff. But usually this has been hyper endowments - but recently I've been starting to upload other extreme stuff. I have always liked a wide, wide variety of over-the-top kinks, but for a good long while I really only had Drakkece and she's a character I generally only like to get hyper endowments with. But recently I've expanded my cast to include a heavy fat themed doe, a muscular cougar MILF, and my unexpected chubby/vore demon giraffe. And I also plan to make a balloonie inflation themed character sometime soon(ish) and I might revive my equinubus with hardcore anthro and feral forms. And then there' my rule 34 stuff I've indulged in~

I'd just like to ask how folks feel about some of the stuff I've been uploading. Like, I very recently uploaded two extreme blob pieces of Jennifer, and I know that can be seen as disgusting for some. Unfortunately FA does not have a blacklist feature or a [functioning] thumbnail feature (thumbnails are also a point of contention for some people as they don't like it blocking a full preview). So short of creating a new account I don't really have a good way of censoring my more hardcore stuff. But this is something I have considered. Would folks prefer if I made two accounts - one for more tame things and one for more extreme stuff? Or maybe just focus on hyper bits with Drakkece's account?

Please do let me know if my uploads have been causing discomfort for any of you. I don't want people watching me fearing that something eye-bleaching to them will pop up in their inbox.

Congratulations America.

You have handed the presidency to an egomaniacal narcissist con-man who repeatedly lies, insults, disputes established science, and believes that tax cuts to the wealthy and increased government spending on things like the military is going to somehow fix the middle class. He vows to throw out our climate change agreements because 'climate change is a hoax', lift restrictions on oil and coal because said 'climate change is a hoax', isolate us from Mexico, ban foreign Muslims and spy on American Muslims, go to war in the middle east with Isis (because the war with Al-Qaeda turned out well didn't it?), undo the ruling on gay marriage, ban abortion (essentially), demand money from our allies, ignore NATO and let Russia basically do whatever it wants, balloon our national debt - did I forget anything?

And with Republicans controlling the house and senate it is unlikely anyone will oppose him because the GOP is so eager to undo 8 years of Obama - I can only hope that the Republicans in office are smart enough to prevent Trump from ruining America.

The stock market is already crashing. Market is stable for now, but we shall see what Trump economics will do in a couple years.

For the first time I am embarrassed to be an American. For the first time I am afraid what our government is going to do.

I am going to be sick.

I'm turning 26 on November 20th! Going to a deck or two of the new Magic the Gathering Commander 2016. The blue-white-black-green one looks really neat. I will also be spending time with my mother as it will be the last week with her before I move to California. Going to really busy this month because of the move.

It looks like the storm veered north and narrowly missed where I live. No power outage, yay!

Western Washington has a big windstorm coming our way. Still up in the air as to how big, depending on whether this storm hits us directly or if we just get the edge of it. But chances are good we will lose power, but don't know yet for how long. May be a day. May be a week. May be more than a week if it's worst case scenario 'historic winds' level that some are saying may happen.

I should be safe though - going to bunker up in the house.

Hi everyone,

Aside from the uploads I have been pretty quiet lately. I had a bad depression + anxiety episode a few weeks ago that resulted in me getting back on antidepressants. I am feeling much better now. I have also decided to move in with my father down in San Francisco bay area. As much as I love Washington, I am currently stuck in the suburbs and the public transportation is absolutely awful here and I feel trapped. Plus I think a change of scenery would be beneficial for me.

I've been continuing to commission art because some money that I thought I would lose turned out to continue for a while - but not for much longer. Although the amount of art I've been getting is probably irresponsible of me as I likely should have been saving, I'm still happy with what I have but will need to put the brakes on very soon here. Hopefully it won't be for long. As I've mentioned I don't really buy other things, so commissioned art is my pleasure expenditure.

As a side note, I hope to open up for joint commission stuff with other folks sometime early 2017! I know there's a bunch of people who want to get art with me, and I've been hesitant to do it while my monthly budget has been spotty and limited.

As of the time of me writing this, yesterday was the finals for my last quarter and today I am attending my graduation ceremony. I will be receiving my diploma for an AAS in Information Systems (computer science basically). At 25 though I do not have the time, money, or interest to continue my education further at this point - maybe in the future, but for now I will be looking for my first job. I won't go into details, but I've got some dreams to follow so wish me luck!

As I've mentioned in previous journals, because of this I will be losing my spare cash as I'm 'graduating to the adult world'. When I find a job I will be saving up so I can move out and become independent. Once everything settles I will (hopefully) be able to afford commissions again. But for the time being my uploads are going become very sparse - I have a few commissions left in the works, but it is unlikely I will pick up new ones for a while.

Again, this doesn't mean I'm leaving - I'm just going to be effectively poor(er) for a while.



I also want to announce that I'm closing my Skype contact to the public, meaning that I will only accept add/friend requests in special cases. Right now my Skype has me listed for 160 contacts. The fact is I'm an introverted person - I'm not really interested in talking all day with people (in fact I hate small talk) and large social situations makes my anxiety go crazy. I'm really flattered people want to approach me, but I just can't handle it. I've already had a few people get very upset over the way I've treated them due to my social anxiety, and while I feel bad over it it is probably for the best. I just can't commit to people that want to 'be internet friends' by chatting all the time. I can't do that, I'm really sorry.

Now I won't be removing people from my contact list (maybe later), but I hope people understand why I don't talk to them on a frequent basis. It's not that I don't like people, it's that I'm just somebody that needs a lot of alone time and prefers having only a small number of close friends. Getting bombarded with messages just makes me feel anxious, and when new people add me they find I almost never talk to them anyway, so I've probably disappointed a lot of people trying to be friends with me.

I hope people understand. If you want to learn more about who I am as a person and why I'm the way I am, I suggest looking up the INTP personality type. It describes me perfectly.



Finally, I just want to thank everyone so much for the support I've been given over the past year and a half since I began commissioning artwork! It makes me very happy that so many people enjoy my character and the kind of work I commission of her. I plan to get a lot more in the future, funds allowing, along with branching out with new stuff as well. I will likely make a presence on other furry websites later, but I don't plan on leaving FA anytime soon. I might, however, juggle two accounts - one for tame stuff and one for extreme stuff. I do know some of the things I have uploaded are pretty extreme and niche, even by adult furry standards.

I hope everyone has an awesome summer! <3