Needed a fresh start after certain RL events, and to help with my mood and motivation. ^^

That moment in life where you re-kindle a sister after you tell them you are a transgender. ^^
Now I just need to deal with work, which has been the cause of my major depression..then rest of my family.
Aaand..possibly thinking of moving..but I would have no idea where to go. :I

Blerp, just moving along in life one clubbed foot at a time.

Yups..

..Tonight was the first time I sang Karoke..at a bar..and fully dressed up...:I.... :D
It was awesome!
And to this song!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sRYNYb30nxU

Looking for peoples if you or anyone you knows who is open for commisions/trades and is not tooo horribly expensive (Tis , Birthday on March 18th).
As usual I wait a little too long, butt I am gonna go for its! (Doesn't matta if its a week later or what not)
I also only posting a journal here too cause she doesn't check FA too often.

Kinda alive. ^^;
Working through some rough patches in life..
Maaaaay post some progress pictures of my transgender thingy. (I'm looking gooooooourd)
40 hour work weeks and going to the gym doesn't help with drawing times..and Warframe..yup..its crack all over again.
Moar to come!

Qoute! (By the BulletProofMoon)
"Soo...A cat man sought good Macho Man to learn a magical fart to beat evil Macho Man, but had to use a scroll shaped TARDIS to travel back in time to learn the secret of the human made fart spell.

Best. LP. Ever. "

Best. Youtube comment. Eva!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NN3fcW3pox8

So yeahs..a week ago was Transgender awareness week. Which this will just turn to rant awareness..

I will admit myself I don't know all the laws or politics, I do know that there is still plenty of hate and discrimination in this sour world.
I myself live in a state where Transgenders, gays and lesbians is frowned upon and there are not really any pro active laws about it that I am aware of.
I hafta drive out of state to see my doctor just to get check ups, blood work, and more prescriptions, and that can be a little pricey especially without insurance.
With my body slowly filling out it will get to the point sooner or later where I must tell my workplace, and living in a free to work state, they don't even have to put down that I am transgender to get rid of me.
At that point I can only think of it being a nightmare to just find another job, telling them all that I am a trans and is on hormone therapy while having to simultaneously keep bills in check and be able to make my trips.
I will admit I am worrying about a future that is not set in stone, and I can't do too much about it..but I can't help it sometimes and the days get closer and closer to it, with the bad thoughts and stress seeming to car pile up.

This right here is the sad world we live in.
http://helphaleyrose.tumblr.com/pos.....ime-homophobia
I shudder to think that this stuff can happen, and I wish I could do more then just donate what little I can..

Pokemans..
Hoping to get some inspiration and stuffs to draw with da new pokemans (Which is by far the best outa all of thems. :3 )

-edit- Also I would love to do a Nuzlock challange at some point in the future, it would be a great way to force myself to practice..course the next question to be..should it be a more Adult theme? (Like genitalia showing etc) Or just regular comic goodness with a mature theme?

*Taps the computer, loud grinding and chittering noises screech out of it as sparks flare out the back of it*
This thing finally on?
Great, a week later :I
Anyways one of Keblins friends is doing a run in a Gorilla suite to help raise funds to save what is now basically a small handful of silver back gorillas. (Just think if there was about 400 left of humans on earth or somewhere, including you :I )

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5043021/

A few bucks or plastic money of what is called Euro is all they are asking, or at least spread the word, which is what I am trying to do after my trip splurging and now car troubles.


Also, I will see about getting a pinup or something done here shortly..knowing me welll..ohkaybye!

Read dis for things to make sense :I http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5024740/
So my future spooge child is secured :D

Which we will get to that after these brief messages of almost wrecking to drive or die doctor visit.
It seems I am..muuuch farther along in my transformation then the doctor has seen in most Transgender patients.
She was only expecting slight tenderness in the breast areas, my body saids nopes! Have triple size nips with hard glands right behind them, also high amounts of pain when anything stronger than a gentle breeze in the springtime that brushes up against your bosoms, also fuck it and lets go ahead and start confusing people with your face when you get your hair and hat combo going just right.
All and all, I am very happy that it is happening much faster than anticipated. ^.=.^
Eeeeven though I didn't know I was already taking testosterone suppressor for the past 3 months.. (Looking shit up on the internet..who knew?!) (Even though I will admit, the doctor said she was going to hold off on testosterone suppressor till I got the having kid situation sorted out, but apparently went ahead and subscribes it :I )
Whiich...prolly could'a ended up badly..but my spooge was apparently still goods at the Sperm bank :D...above average in a lot of aspects actually :I (They check a lot of things suprisingly...average numbers, how much movement is going on, thickness, good direction, etc etc..)
So I have at least sigh of relief in the back of my head that my future child is more secured, ^^ aaaand which was one of the things that help me get off anyways cause of their terrible vanilla porn selection :I (And now that just sounds really weird..) Basically all were your average big tits, no ass, skinny girl.
I already have the love of my life, I don't care for these ladies, and even if not it is very bland taste for me either way. Just took a lot of imagination, and help from my lovely Kietress. :3

Other than that, got to spend the night at a friends up in a cabin in the mountains, with naked hot tub times :D, and spent waaaay too fucking much on material possession as per usual... (even though a good chunk was female clothing which I do really needs..)

Just a three months checkup after starting the therapyness, leaving this wensday. Gonna have a wonderful 4 hour drive while having absolutely no food in my system right after I wake up and all the way down to drive or die Denver :D (Doctors orders to fast so they can have a much more accurate blood test etc.)
Other than that just a nice long 3 day trip to get away from where we live, and Oh! Right..Cryogenic freezing..one of the big worries for me and (Or probably mainly me..) As we want to have a child together in a year time or so..but with the therapy it will make everything sterile.. (But then again no condoms anymore, Hahaaa! :D )
We want a child and we want it to be our actual flesh and blood..course we wants a little girl (The horror stories of me growing up from my mother..I don't want another me running around :I (course now I prolly just jinxed it..)
We coulds have it now (And the thought of ravaging my lovely kietress to make it happen, ^.=.^ <3) buttt..trying to be smurt about it. As there is no guarantee that I will have a job within 6 months, especially when I have to let work know that I am on hormone therapy..All I can do is hope for the best, and hopefully align the three moons and win the lottery while down in Denver :P

Other than that, been procrastinating soo much with drawing (Especially on the 9 Franklins of a Box of soggy socks of a laptop) that even batman would be disappointment. :I
Butt! Have a 3ds now with Colors! on its, and in the works for something, hopefully be able to post it by the time I get back..maybe.

Finallys..my desktop is dying slowly. Depending if the 5 lizards we have shift around in their cages to throw of the polarity vortex alignment in the house, my computer will randomly completely lock up and freeze then restart, (or it will have its HUrrrrwuuurblarlblabarlblurrwarr blarr Timmeh! moment and continue what its doing after freezing)
It died on me while just writing this nonsense of a journal...

Yaaaaaaaaay.
Another year, but with a little more glimmer of happiness with my MTF transition, and my wonderful Which she unfortunately came down with a severe migraine last night :I
Stayed up most of the night watching hers as she sleeps and throws up in the bathtub...not in its!
But yeaaaaah, not good times..
Sleeps now, and a surprised themed party later in the day.

The one where after 21, nothing looks even freser. :I
B day in one week!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?annotation_id=annotation_609399&feature=iv&src_vid=Gbra-rKXzk4&v=LcmBALxDkRY

Oh yeaaaah!

After a quick painless call to sony support, got my laptop reformatted again..
And have ArtRage installed again...Need to invest into a extended hard drive sometime so I don't cry and commit suicide with a cheese grater when this happens again. :I

I have not played with ArtRage too much, but I do know it is goods for touch screens. I would like to have SAI working with it..but it despises touch screens..

Bleh...stupid thousand doller laptop...
It is a sony Vaio and just like last time (this has happened before)....it HAS to do a major update and restart..and once it is done I can't even bring up the VAIO emblem and nothing..will have to reformat the damn thing to actually get my lazy procrastinating ass to work on more art in it.
Till then have some more sketches.
Moar to come!

Something to take up empty internet pixel space.
Will have proper icon /fur affinity ethic pics of smexings standards that seem to be FA's community policy coming soon.