So I am trying to get my f-list stuff sorted out at the moment and I have no idea what I am doing.

https://www.f-list.net/c/cloud%20weavers/ <This is my current profile

https://www.f-list.net/c/Cloud%20Weaver/ <This is copy cat

So a while back I changed my name so I could change it back later but got lazy and stopped messing with it. It seems someone has taken the name while I was being lazy.

At the moment I am working with ticket #170233 and here is the art I could find that is being used.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/20219862/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/19670199/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24143993/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24249413/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25485377/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25884744/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25940569/

These are the only ones I could find from the artist post. They said I couldn't use the ones I post as a commissioner.

Let me start off by saying that things have not been great since the last year. A lot of goals had been wasted and plans have fallen through since then. With everything that has been going on since the start of 2019 it's just been hard to feel motivated to get art and post stuff. The loss of a friend I had talked to a month prier, learning one of my depressed friends I had known well dropping off the face of the earth. My step father who i was not the best with live with passing away a month ago and The end of Bronycon. It was amazing to see all my friends but it was hard to part from that without feeling down.


In the end to just having so many friends and people to know has made me stretched thin and has made me consider getting my own Discord server just so I can keep up with everyone. So in the end it hasn't been the best and I just haven't had the motivation to be as interactive. To post up anything or get art that I want.

But...

Since I got back from Bronycon I have been doing a new diet which has been working. It has me thinking about where I am and what i need to do with myself and telling myself I can do better and I am making this journal in the hopes of getting back into it.

So yeah I am still alive and trying to get back into it after a lot a crappy moments.

This is a little FAQ that I wanted to get on that I hope answers some questions some of you want to know.


Why do you mostly get pony stuff and will we see Cloud Sepp more?
So I have had an interest in furry stuff long before being a brony (15 years ago) however I was very quite about it. It wasn't until I got into MLP, which even with that it took 2 years to admit I was into it I started to be more open. Then in 2015 I caved and started to get all this porn and back then there were things I was willing to do to my fursona that I wasn't my pony. Slowly that started to change but the biggest change came from Discord. With most of the chat groups and the new friends I made leaning more on on the pony side I found myself getting more pony related stuff. I do have a new ref I plan on using for Cloud Sepp but with the long list of collabs it might be a while before I get more art.


Why don't you reply to my messages?
The biggest reasons is work, given I do 8-10 hours I can reply while I have supervisors overlooking me. Sometimes I can use my phone when they are not around but even then that is not enough time to check stuff. By the time I get home I tend to forget after a long day. Other times I become withdrawn for peace of mind or I am just too tired to. Or I am overwhelmed by way too many and just withdraw.
Please understand it is not because I don't like you


Will you and  whiteheart make up and be friends again?
Please understand and let me state this first I do not truly dislike White nor am I doing this because I am jealous or spiteful of him and trying to undermine him. I would not stop being someones friend like this unless it was something bad. What happened between me and him made me question his humanity along with his feeling to his friends. If he wants to live in his little distributional bubble then I am going to let him. Until he has a change of attitude I am not going to take him back. If any of you really want to know what happened you can ask me on discord.


Kinks?
Hyper and growth of anything on any character. Some things are mah to me like vore and my no no
list is anything with scat, gore, death, watersports, pain and rape of certain characters.


When do you like to RP?
It depends on my mood and time, I like to lean on certain kinks at time so it's really dependent on that but I also might lose interest if things are not very descriptive.

Hey everyone, sorry for being not being active for a long while. It use to be a fair bit more active but as of the start of this year I have been in a slump. winter was not kind to me along with the longer hours at my job with the winter season. The major thing that has been bringing me down is the car accident beginning the year for me. Since then I have not doing as well I as I hoped I would be. I don't know if it was mental or physical but either way I haven't been active in a way I had hoped I would be. It has effected my mood, my weight, my finances and sleep. I wasn't even going to be able to make it to Bronycon due to it, at least until the insane work hours. 4 month ago we had gotten a new company added with 12 new brands, this lead to 10-12 hour days for 3 months straight. The money was great but i had no time for anything. Finally I saw the end to it in July and was able to attend both Trotcon and Bronycon (sorry I didn't announce it, did spend the time to do so.) I will be posting up the photos I took later on that along with addressing some feeling on Bronycon 2019 (being the fact it is going to be the last.). Now that it has come and pass I have been making an effort to improve my well being along with some other things. Getting back into healthy habits along with working out more often. Even getting back into sewing to keep my promise I made.

TL:DR version , not a good year, no time to myself and my mood is not good but now I am working to making things betters


Now then for the part I am kind of regretting and this is in regards to  Whiteheart someone I considered a good friend up until the start of the year.
First thing I would like to state, while I would like to bring up the actions that lead to this along with the whole track record, due to FA guidelines (at least what has been told to me) I can not bring up any negative action he has done even if it is in my defense and personally I don't wish to create a rift between some or have the ire of those loyal to him. So those actions won't be stated here at the moment but some of you have been made aware of these already.

At this moment I would have to state that me and White Heart have had a falling out. Over time his actions and how he was going about getting art was starting to step on toes a bit and at the start of the year he had a bad reaction to something I did. In truth he had no right to be mad at me and art that I got over that time was for my sake and not to spite him. In turn it showed an attitude that is very unappreciated in this fandom along with the fact he seemed to care more for the art then his friends. Since then he has ignored anything I post for his sanity and interest and as much as I want to confront him on these actions, the last time I did so almost lead him to getting banned from a server. So at the moment it is an uneasy peace as I try to go about things, if things ever get to a point I won't keep these actions to myself.

So I do hope things work out in the end on both fronts, we will see how it goes.

So I have been needing to come out with this journal for a while (3 months) given what has been going it has been hard to get this out for a while.

So first of all like always I have been busy, more over so now that we have got new product into the warehouse along with a new company and this has lead to more work and more hours including weekends for the past 2 months now. with this it is kind of hard for me to contact anyone while in the middle of work so I put it off to the side till I tend to forget about the message at the end of the day and they also tend to pile up. Like always it's hard to keep up with every and I trying but there are so many of you and little time to do things.

Now on to conventions, as with last year I am going to both Trotcon and Bronycon this year. going to Trotcon for the first weekend and then Bronycon the next so if anyone going to ether then feel free to say hi. I also have a room for Trotcon if anyone is still looking for it.

The last part I want to cover has to do with a friend who I have been having issues with since the start of the year. I will cover more on them later but in short I have come to realize they care more for their obsession then my well being along with acting childish on a subject they have no control over. After I showed them they truth of what people feel he has gone dark. Again I will cover this along with the list of things in a later date, hopefully tomorrow.

So as i put out in my last journal about 3 weeks ago I was involved in my first car accident and that whole thing has been going good and bad. I do currently have the settlement from my insurance but the other drivers insurance is now giving me the run around. All this has just had me in a stress loop to the point of not wanting to do much after work.
On top of all this I've been having to deal with my taxes, working out everything with my new car and the new loan, work crack downs due in part to people being idiots, people not knowing how to drive making me avoid many roads, making convention plans, trying to keep in contact but unable too all the time, fixing the pipes in the house.

the list goes on and on and I am trying to get back into better habits with what i eat and do but even that gets put off to the side to fix other things.

So guys, I am not going to be able to respond like I want to and I need you to understand I am going to need some space here and there. I will try my best but right now I will only be able to show up every so often in certain chats.

So I just want to state this right now to put away any worries you might have. I am fine after everything is said and done the worst I got was a scraped on the dash.

What had happen was I was driving to a light that had started to turn yellow and was still yellow while I was under it. Someone was making the left turn at the same time while I was making my way and with the snow and ice I had no chance of turning or stopping. I scraped off the front of their while they took out a chunk of mine.

Currently I have everything covered to pay for the damage but as of this point though I am having to cancel commissions that were yet to be started. Some have already been paid for and are partly worked on so I won't be backing out of those. Along with a stream from Mr.pink which I had many set aside for it.

it's going to be rough rest of the month but it will recover after everything.

Merry Christmas one and all, I want to thank each and everyone of you for making this a great year even given what has been going on. Also if someone could do be a favor and keep alcohol away from me for a good month that would be great.

I have been needing to get this journal out since the begin of the week but like most things I am doing a bit late. So as many of you all know around this time of year is when things start pick up for the holiday season and for me that means 10 to 12 hour work days and weekend work for the next 2 months, yay me. just thought I would give you all a heads up.

Now something else I would like to address because I feel like it is really starting to become a problem. The simple fact is, Well, there are too many of you guys and it is hard to keep up. At any one time I am in 10 to 15 different chats or more, moving between them each. Other times I am at work or away and I can't set the time away from the to reply so all I can do is pop in and say hi then leave. With this I tend to pass by people and not leave replies on massages. And I know some of you want to do RPs but I am having a difficulty setting the time to do so for the 30 plus who ask and at times I have to admit I most in the mood for something.

So I just want you to know I am in no way making an effort to ignore any of you, just know that I can't keep up with everyone is all and please understand I am trying.

So short and sweet time, I love to get art and to that end there are some of you I know would love to get something so I am setting up this little request journal again for anyone who wants to see something from me or character or anything, almost anything.

Keep in mind though I will be picking ideas of my own free will so the more I like an idea the more likely I would get the art done. Feel free to fill out any idea you want to see in the comments below.

And before you ask I havn't forgotten the last one but I felt I would start a new one as like a repost of sorts. If you like you can copy and paste your idea to here to better keep track of things.

(will try to update this when I can.)

So on to the reason for this journal if you don't know already I love to get art with others. So to that end I am making this to track and talk out things as well.

I will also be keeping track of those who can use my character as they please.

Total wip at the moment


As for the list of those who my use my Characters freely
staryknow
I may add more to that list but if anyone wants to use my character feel free to ask

So it have a few month since I last posted anything with a giant donut and since then I have slowly been getting watches which has kind of made me a bit more cautious on posting that kind of content. So at this point I have been thinking about it and I wanted to get feedback from you guys. I know people still like that stuff and I don't want to get rid of it but instead move it to a new page. What do you guys think, would that be a good idea or are you fine with it being posted and staying in my scraps.

This years bronycon for me was the best one yet for me. I want back in 2014 but back then I didn't have much to or the fact I didn't know anyone. However for this years bronycon they had asked something of everyone, to try a new experience. And to that end I did, I went and meet up with people I talk to and get art with on here. It's something I never saw myself doing, wanting to stay an unknown face online but I broke that bubble and met up with these fine people and many more. it was a wonderful weekend to say least filled with running around, panels and laughs, a giant gummy worm.

In any case I do have a collection of pictures, many on the mature side so go through them at you own risk.
https://www.dropbox.com/sh/fpwopt23.....gLvjEp95a?dl=0

This one sort of came out of the blue but only because I wasn't paying attention. Again guys I want to think you from the bottom of my heart, also WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE, why do you like the art I get. It's weird and very kinky stuff. :P

Anyways coming back from Bronycon I was having a chat in one of  marauder6272 streams and had asked if anyone was looking into sharing art with me. One had responded and we talked idea, showed them my page and characters and they watched me. When I got a look I realized that I had made it 750.

Congrats to  nuttynut93 for you a grand prize of free art and such.

who knows how long till 1000?

I have been needing to get these update out since the convention. For now I am giving out a small update to let you all know that I am still around and plan on getting out some other bits of info here soon. This includes a life style change, my bronycon trip, a little thing on herms and a possible character addition, A 750 watcher update, and maybe more.

So nothing new here I am tired to say the least once more and I have been since the convention, I am wanting to get back into the swing of things plus more but I haven't had the energy yet to do so. Hopefully this weekend will change all that.

Had a bit of a hiccup when we drove 3 hours down there and had to go back because my friend forgot his wallet. But that is in the past now and we are here all weekend. Hopefully things will go smoothly from here on out. I will be taking plenty of pictures this year as well and will be posting up a folder of them all when I get back.

Once again the earth has made a trip around the sun since the day of my birth. And I really want to think you all from the bottom of my big heart for all the birthday wishes so far.

So I meant to come out with this one a while ago. as I have said before I plan on going to two conventions this year, both of these coming up within the next few months.

the first is trotcon: http://trotcon.net/ I will be there from the 13th to the 16th doing things here and there. Most likely drinking later in the day.
we are still looking for roommates if you need a room.

the other one is Bronycon: http://www.bronycon.org/ From the 8th to the 14th {tuesday to monday} Doing much of the same and We are in need of roommates there as well https://drive.google.com/open?id=1b.....nj7KIF-h1rLSz8 rules are here.

if you know of someone in need of a room for both cons let me know, I really don't want to pay for a room all to myself

So no surprise here I am busy, more busy then I have ever been before due to the end of my work places fiscal year. With that I've signed on to doing 12 hour days all week. It was a while ago since I swore I would never do another 84 hour work week (I am pretty much spending most of my week in there) I do want to also get mote art as well but in very small amounts, this is do to convention I want to got to. I will cover more of that soon since I am still in need of room mates.

now if you need me I am going to go pass out on my bed again

So with all this work I've been doing I've been i was think about something, I love to get art that involves other characters or trying out new idea. And there have been times I have wanted to see others get art but they don't have the funds. So was thinking about how back to the art give away and how much fun that was I thought I'd set this little thing up.

so here's how it works I want to do this, I want you post up something you would like to see of my characters, something you want to see your character do to mine or the other way around, some with cannon characters, something with just your characters doing something, or just something you want see some characters from a show do. The sky's the limits...... well not really. Or we can even work out an idea, in privet even if you like.

Now before we get wild with the ideas keep in mind I will be picking the ideas that I like the most. Ideas that involve my characters or from closer friends will tend to get picked over most. No offense to a lot of you but like I said this is sort of free art and I don't want to feel like I am just giving it away to just anybody who wants to wonder by for some free stuff when I don't know them all that well, this is mostly for all the friends I have made who can't really get art on there own or for those that have been wanting to get something with my characters. now that doesn't mean you want have a chance. If i really like the idea then I will jump on it.

If you have an idea or just something in general you want to see (hyper something on a character or macro, inflation ect.) then fill it out in the comments below. I will contact you when I want to work something out.

I know some of you will ask this, wondering the point of having this plus a journal with sharing art. Mind you this is for request which may not get picked, the art share is something that is worked out and fair.

So feel free to start firing off ideas and we will see what happens

I am alive, for the most part. So as some of you may or may not know I had transferred to a new department at my work place since it had more hours. Since the transfer I have yet to have a normal work week (normal 40 hours). the other thing is I got my car paid off as well so that's money in my pocket each month as well. now while the pay is nice it's been hard to find time to stay in touch. Working 10 hours a day, getting my car fixed, fixing house problems, taking care of my family, not to mention it's hard to get motivated to do much since the long weeks make me tired and at that point all I want to do is just play games.

The other thing that I am having a hard time with is chatting with you all. On top of being more busy then ever, it's just the fact that there are so many of you guys. Seriously I love you all and I thank you for being here, I really wish I can talk to you all whenever but I tend to have something going on or I just need some peace after a long day.

I really hope to get out more info in general in the future along with art that I have sitting around, till then I have something that you all might like.

As you may have notice I have not been active as of late and not responding to some one certain networks. I have to be honest with you guys, I am going to talk about politics in a sorts so just a warning there.

I really didn't think it would effect me all that much but as soon as things started I had friends on both sides start arguing with each. Soon enough I was trying to be the voice of reason to get them to stop but then that meant I was picking, and in many rights I had picked a side. Try as I might I got an ear full anytime I tried to talk it out from the people I knew. In the end though come what may of the future I only wish the best for them. As for me I know whatever happens is far beyond my control so I will leave it at that.

In any case I am hoping to get some art out today along with journal on herms that I need to get off my chest so stay tuned.

So its about time I got out another journal like this. For a while now I have talked to others about sharing art with them and keeping track of who wants to do it.

Here's how I will do this for now on though, if you wish to get something just ask and from there we will talk ideas along with getting a list of artist we would like to do it. Once we have and idea and an artist in mind we wait till the artist is open and I have the funds for such. All the while I will be keeping track in this journal the progress and who I am sharing it with.

I will also be keeping track of those who can use my character as they please.

(working out an Idea and artist)
(looking for an artist)
(there might be more I am missing but these are the only 2 I know I have talked about it)

As for the list of those who my use my Characters freely

I may add more to that list but if anyone wants to use my character feel free to ask

So if you haven't notice yet I moved much of the content I have into scraps. Pretty much anything that has to do with hyper tailholes/anus/ponuts whatever you want to call them has been move there. This is mostly because I wanted to make things a bit more friendly for those that watch me. If you all remember or not I did a straw poll a month ago and I kind of screwed up on it. After asking around I found out that while many were ok with the hyper vagina stuff they didn't really like the hyper anus. So for now on anything that had hyper anuses in them will be put in scraps and have an icon over them.

So here we are we made to a another people. Over the course of this year I have been slowly settling in into all of this and you all have made this a grand year. I got to know new people, made some new friends and even gotten the kind of art I've always wanted. As I walk into 2017 I know there may be a lot of hard ships but I plan to make the best of it. So here's to more for the future.