Happy Thanksgiving to all the American furs on here. Hops you have a good one!

Happy Birthday Toni.

I hope you are happy where you are.

I miss you.

*offers a big hug*

My little speed demon Jack. Passed away away sometime early this morning. Laying in his position to guard the property. I adopted him back with his brother, Tucker. One of Trixie's last puppies.

He loved pressing his head under my chin and into my chest. Could stay like that for a long time as I petted him. Always was protecting me. Even when I laid in he grass he would never lay next to me. Was always on guard, protecting me.

Safe journey Jack. Trixie, Bo, Buzz, Lady, Duke, Bandit and Scamp are waiting to play with you.

Well. It's been over 3 years since my health scare. Had my 58th Birthday back in January. Didn't do alot. Wasn't a great day weather wise. Did chores and be with the pups and the horses.

On Tuesday my Dr put me on Ozempic. My numbers were slowly creeping up. Had my first dose then and this Tuesday coming up I take my 2nd. No side effects aside from a grumbling stomach and my appetite being up and down. Guess I'm still adjusting.

I know, I haven't been writing. Mostly cause I can't get my inspiration. I sit and stare and my stories just won't come. Plus I can't sit for hours like I used to in front of my computer, My dogs love having me outside and our rides on the SXS are their favorite thing. Plus lots of snuggles.

So that's about it. Just taking things as they come. No real excitement. SO you all take care and be safe.

Yeah, I got the news last night.

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/dragoneer passed away. I knew him when he was Preyfar. We chatted years ago before he got so busy. I didn't want to bother him. Rest well and may your next journey be full of wonder.

I just saw the trailer for Red One with Dwayne Johnson. He and Chris Evens have to rescue Santa Claus. One of their team is a anthro polar bear in body armor...............

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FLfmMreDee8

I'll just leave this here.

Well, had my second echogram yesterday. My heart is at the 40-45% function range which is good according to the Dr. No changes and everything seems stable. I go back in 2 years. I'm just relieved it's over and I'm doing best I can.

My Momma dog Trixie. Passed away last night.

I'm feeling a bit lost. She was my Momma Dog. Gave me 3 litters of the most beautiful little furballs I ever saw.

Goodbye Baby Girl. I hope you find sweet fields to roam.

It's been one year to the day since my fluid build up and subsequent hospital stay. I'm doing better, just taking it day by day.

I have my good and bad days with the meds they have me on. It's a 50/50 thing. I just try and ride it out. My dogs help and the horses here also help. Plus my friends online and local. The local don't know about furry and seems there aren't any local furries anymore.

I haven't been able to write still. Makes it hard plus I have extra work with the horses. One pregnant mare and hopefully she should be foaling in the next few weeks. Plus a nearly 4 year old stud who is a handful but a lovable goof. He's a Brabandt cross.


https://horse-canada.com/breeds/brabant-horse/

He's going to fill out so he is going to weigh over 2000 lbs. Loves his attention and needs a long brushing to get his remaining winter coat off him. He has such an animated face when you are giving him attention. Does mid air nibbling. Just watch she he walks, his hooves are about 10 inches across. It's kind of amazing how an animal that big can walk that quietly.

Thank you to everyone who helped me through this and for just being who you are. And No, I can't post bail if you get in trouble,

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PLhu-T8OBEA

Right I forgot to post.

I had my echogram last week. My heart is doing better. Me, I could use a 5-10 year vacation but who couldn't. I got back next year and then I have to wear a heart monitor for 24 hours to make sure thinks still working right.

Then yesterday I was helping a friend string up an electric fence for his horses. I was pretty active for 3 hours and that was my limit. I was bagged after but now I know what my limit is and can work around it.

Getting there, just maddening how long it is taking. So be safe and take care everyone

Huh boy having fun.

Thought I'd post an update. Slowly getting my stamina back. Some swelling in my shin and feet when I walk too much but everything was so swollen it's going to take time to heal. Thinking tensor bandages will help my shins not sure.

So far had 5 nose bleeds from the blood thinners I'm on and really want them to stop. The vaseline in my nose (YECK) helps but then ones comes out of nowhere no matter how gentle I am. Even using a Qtip. Hoping I can be weaned off them.

Other than that trying to keep busy, love my dogs, take care of the horses here and keep what little sanity I have close.

SO that;s about it. You all have a good day and take care.

Who boy where to even start?

Two weeks ago today I had a Dr appointment. I was having a hard time breathing, I could barely move like 10 feet without feeling exhausted and had gained a lot of weight. So went in, my blood pressure was just registering and he called me an ambulance to go to the local hospital.

From there I was prepper for not one, not two. But THREE IVs which is wonderful plus a catheter. Then fun ride by ambulance driven by a guy who could compete on the rally car circuit with ease to a hospital in the city all the while wearing a high flow oxygen mask.

Once in city I was admitted to intensive care, masked swapped for a more comfortable (Heh) High flow mask and IVs running into me for what felt like the longest night of my life. I was literally drowning in fluid from the inside out.

But, as the fluid came off I started to feel better and my weight dropped, significantly. It was strange. I has echograms done on my chest daily which was fun and did nothing more than literally lay in bed or the one chair in the room. Walking I was pretty unsteady and even now I feel better using a cane to help my balance until I'm fully recovered. Then on the 20th I had a angiogram which is loads of fun. Creepiest sensation in the world as they fed this through my wrist and took several Xrays of my heart.

No stent was needed and they said I had congestive heart failure which the excess fluid also triggered a congenital heart failure from a defect I didn't know I had. Gotta love genetics.

So I was moved to a different room, During that time I was off all extra oxygen and out on 8 new meds with some lovely side effects. Then on the 20th they started the process of getting me released. Which was good as trying to dig an escape tunnel with a plastic spoon was a lesson in frustration. So by the 23rd I was finally released. My cousin Alice who loved in the city came to visit me almost every day if she was able to and I stayed at her place as I adjusted to my new meds and mostly slept as hospital beds are just one step up from sleeping on the floor on two bath towels.

So once I was way more stable she ran me home yesterday. My puppies missed me so freaking much as I missed them it wasn't funny. I gave and got cuddles and kisses. Finally got yo sleep last night in my own bed which felt wonderful and now I have to go in to home care and get this catheter dealt with. I still can't pee normally when they went to remove it and trust me. The pain of your bladder to near bursting in a pain like no other.

So, that been my life the the last two weeks. Nearly died, lost so much weight I don't look like me in the mirror. All my clothes are loose and even my shoes feel big.

So if you start to experience sudden weight gain or bloating please get to a Dr or hospital fast. I'm still here and plan to be around for a long time. Deal with it.

If the Hulk was bitten by a werewolf. Would he then say "HULK AWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/seth-iova/

He needs help for dental work.


https://www.gofundme.com/f/seth-needs-dental-work?utm_source=customer&utm_medium=copy_link-tip&utm_campaign=p_cp+share-sheet

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H10f2w7T5CU


Found this and to my weird extended furry family,

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Figured I should post one of these. Been a while.

Things for me haven't got much better. Still dealing with stress, anxiety and depression. Have the dogs here helps a lot. I'm only eating twice a day to stretch my food budget out and trying to save up some cash. That isn't going as well as I had hoped. Stretching a saran wrap thin budget to more like Mylar thickness.

I haven't written anything in so long I doubt I ever will again. I can't get that spark back. I sit and try and all the stories have as WIP stare back at me. Plus this laptop ad its keyboard get to me. It will sometimes skip letters even though I hit them or double up a letter. Almost feels like a piece of styrofoam is under the key and I have cleaned it several times.

Finally got an appointment with a rehab center to see how bad my Aspergers is. They "lost" me in the system. So Feb 4th, 2019 I go in for 2 hours after a 2 hour drive in to see if I get put on a program to teach me up for a job or switched to a better financial program. My luck weather will go to hell.

Not much else. My woodturning is the same, zip. I can't get it going. Right now I'm just trying to get through each day.

I hope everyone h a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EmE6SXnBpnI

Pretty freaking good!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Mk0F6mLKik

This song really gets to me. I miss her so much.

YAY FOR CANADA!

https://interestingengineering.com/canadians-create-first-ever-beer-brewed-from-cannabis-plant?_source=newsletter&_campaign=RgNZ0gjogl2N2&_uid=4oeERvkKa0&_h=2a112ceb562ad7eb548ede85bd3cebb9fa59ad8f&utm_source=newsletter&utm_medium=mailing&utm_campaign=Newsletter-25-07-2018

The Vale needs help. Please read and pass on or help if you can.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8807923/

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....llness-anxiety

I'm going through this and trust me it is not fun. No simple pill can fix it, only mask. Please spread the word. Someone you know might be suffering with this in silence,

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=--8nr2kt4uk&feature=youtu.be

He feels, oddly familiar.

*sighs* I can't fucking win.

I had to sell my home property 3 years back due to bills and debt. Was sold out from under me literally and I was living here afraid the huttarite colony that bought it would toss me off.

I was "generously" given a 12 acre section but was told I could get more. I trusted my real estate agent to not fuck me over and the bastard works exclusively with the huttarites.

Now I have to move all my scrap metal/project metal and more the sewer which is next to impossible with the new regs as it will cost me a fortune.

The land would have been in the family for 100 years before that agent fucked me over. All because I have a kind heart and a trusting nature.

So right now I'm so stressed I got sick while having supper with a major cramp that felt like my right lung has a cramp and hiccups plus sweating.

I don't know if I can do anything. The huttarites had cattle on my property in 2014 and 2015 which I water and and tended and was never paid for.

The leader I spoke to tonight said he didn't have to pay anything because we had no contract so he owes e zip.

Sorry I don't deal with stress well and with it, my depression and anxiety I'm pretty much a mess right now. If anyone has any suggestions please help if you can.

Hey,
Another life update AKA situation normal fucked over..

Nothing new to report same old crap and it keeps getting heaped on me.

Despite being careful with shopping short this month with cash by about $50. Was hoping to take a small vacation later this year and go camping for 2-3 days at a local lake but that won't happen.

Waiting to hear back from a clinic about getting on medial marijuana and see if that helps but wont have the cash fr the drive into the city for fuel so likely will cancel the appointment.

Still not sleeping great. All the dogs are worried about me and people I know are worried for me. I'm so tired of every time things look like they are looking up I get knocked down.

I can't keep doing this. Been so depressed it isn't funny. All I want to do is sleep anymore Want to go for a drive but gotta budget every drop of fuel anymore

Hope everyone else is OK.

Well, I was able to scratch the money together for a battery. Thanks to a cousin.

Guess I'm not wanted or needed around anymore. So you might not see much of me.

Was fun while it lasted.

Bye.

P.S. If anyone is hearing stories or rumors about me and think I am lying you are so wrong.