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Posted 17 years ago5 finger discounted from 
XanderXannon while that person was being distracted by cute bunny does undressing before their eyes.
Worldly Meme.
British
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[X] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] Its football...not soccer.
Total: 3
Australian
[ ] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.
[X] You love a backyard barbie.
[X] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[X] You love the beach.
[X] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned. (Moot since I am a bit dark complexion-wise)
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[x] You have an Australian something
Total: 5
Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[X] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[X] You have dark hair and dark eye color. (Again a bit moot due to my race)
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''
[ ] You know what a Italian horn is
[X] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!!!
[X] You talk with your hands.
Total: 5
Spanish
[X] You say member instead of Remember. (occasionally)
[x] You speak Spanish or some.
[X] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[x] You are dark skinned.
[ ] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[ ] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[x] You know what platanos are.
Total: 6
Russian
[ ] You say villain as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[ ] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[x] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 4
Irish
[x] You think beer is the best.
[x] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[x] You have been to a st. pattys day party. (is parades count as parties, then yes. x3)
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 4
African American
[x] You say nigga/nukka casually (Note: I do say it out of habit around family but outside of family and friends, I don't and I'm actually Black!)
[x] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[X] You know how to shoot a gun (You can thank the US Military for teaching me.)
[x] You think President George Walker Bush is racist. (Well, not quite racist, but sometimes I do wonder.)
[X] You like chicken. (its delicious)
[x] You like watermelon.
[x] You can dance. (yes I can, but not to save my life.)
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 7
Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[ ] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from Asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're Chinese.
[x] You call hurricanes typhoons. (Being stationed in Japan in the military can cause that.)
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 3
German
[X] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good. (on the right days, yes)
[x] You Speak some German.
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[X] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi. (Different reasons, such as grammar Nazi, Soup Nazi, etc.)
[X] You went to Pre-school.
[X] You're over 5'2. (6 feet)
Total: 7 (Helps being stationed in Germany when in the military.)
Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[x] You love beer.
[X] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[ ] You speak some French.
[X] You love Tim Horton's.
[x] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[x] You watch/watched degrassi (Only for reference material, I did not inhale.)
Total: 5
American
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians.
[ ] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[ ] You hate abortion.
[ ] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[X] You shop at walmart. (not many people don't...)
[X] You think this survey is rather biased. (It could be, but I do have an open mind)
Total: 2
Ain't I'm a mess?
XanderXannon while that person was being distracted by cute bunny does undressing before their eyes. Worldly Meme.
British
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[X] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] Its football...not soccer.
Total: 3
Australian
[ ] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.
[X] You love a backyard barbie.
[X] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[X] You love the beach.
[X] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned. (Moot since I am a bit dark complexion-wise)
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[x] You have an Australian something
Total: 5
Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[X] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[X] You have dark hair and dark eye color. (Again a bit moot due to my race)
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''
[ ] You know what a Italian horn is
[X] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!!!
[X] You talk with your hands.
Total: 5
Spanish
[X] You say member instead of Remember. (occasionally)
[x] You speak Spanish or some.
[X] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[x] You are dark skinned.
[ ] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[ ] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[x] You know what platanos are.
Total: 6
Russian
[ ] You say villain as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[ ] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[x] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 4
Irish
[x] You think beer is the best.
[x] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[x] You have been to a st. pattys day party. (is parades count as parties, then yes. x3)
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 4
African American
[x] You say nigga/nukka casually (Note: I do say it out of habit around family but outside of family and friends, I don't and I'm actually Black!)
[x] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[X] You know how to shoot a gun (You can thank the US Military for teaching me.)
[x] You think President George Walker Bush is racist. (Well, not quite racist, but sometimes I do wonder.)
[X] You like chicken. (its delicious)
[x] You like watermelon.
[x] You can dance. (yes I can, but not to save my life.)
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 7
Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[ ] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from Asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're Chinese.
[x] You call hurricanes typhoons. (Being stationed in Japan in the military can cause that.)
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 3
German
[X] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good. (on the right days, yes)
[x] You Speak some German.
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[X] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi. (Different reasons, such as grammar Nazi, Soup Nazi, etc.)
[X] You went to Pre-school.
[X] You're over 5'2. (6 feet)
Total: 7 (Helps being stationed in Germany when in the military.)
Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[x] You love beer.
[X] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[ ] You speak some French.
[X] You love Tim Horton's.
[x] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[x] You watch/watched degrassi (Only for reference material, I did not inhale.)
Total: 5
American
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians.
[ ] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[ ] You hate abortion.
[ ] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[X] You shop at walmart. (not many people don't...)
[X] You think this survey is rather biased. (It could be, but I do have an open mind)
Total: 2
Ain't I'm a mess?
It's a Meme folks, run for the hills!
Posted 17 years agoNicked from 
inflamed-iron while he was looking away.
Please note: The context of the meme seems aged based, due to my own advance age, I had to make a few changes here and there, in parentheses, other than that, it seems like a cool meme to do, let's give it a go, shall we?
Count your numbers and multiply by three.
Then title this journal "My life is ___% happy."
[X] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[X] You have your own room.(Actually it is a one bedroom apartment)
[X] You own a cell phone.
[X] You have an iPod/mp3 player.(it's old but it is still a mp3 player)
[ ] Your parents are still married. (one parent is dead, the other has one foot in the grave)
[ ] You have more than 2 best friends.(It's hard to tell if I have friends now)
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 4
[X] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[X] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[X] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[X] Your room is big enough for you.
[ ] People don't use you for something you have.
[X] You have been to a concert.(well it's a concert my GF wanted to go to)
T 0 T A L: 5
[ ] You have over 50 friends on Myspace.
[X] Your parents let you have a Myspace. (Moot, I'm an adult, I can do what I please.)
[ ] You get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal
[ ] You look forward to going to school.(No more school for me, unless it is college)
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[X] You do something after school.(ha, moot again.)
T 0 T A L: 2
[X] You own a car.
[ ] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[ ] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[X] You have friends. (Depends on what is classified as friends)
T 0 T A L: 2
[X] You know what is going on in the world.
[X] You care about so many people. (sad cause it does not work the other way around)
[ ] You are happy with your life.
[ ] You know more than one language.
[X] You have a screen name.
[ ] You own a pet.
[X] You know the words to 5 songs.
[ ] You don't have any enemies.
[X] You are a generally nice person.(Which is most times why I am taken advantaged of)
T O T A L: 5
GRAND TOTAL = 18
54% happy... Happy??? WTF! No this can't be right, I'm a miserable bastard right now. This crap has been fixed!!! Blasted Meme!
inflamed-iron while he was looking away.Please note: The context of the meme seems aged based, due to my own advance age, I had to make a few changes here and there, in parentheses, other than that, it seems like a cool meme to do, let's give it a go, shall we?
Count your numbers and multiply by three.
Then title this journal "My life is ___% happy."
[X] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[X] You have your own room.(Actually it is a one bedroom apartment)
[X] You own a cell phone.
[X] You have an iPod/mp3 player.(it's old but it is still a mp3 player)
[ ] Your parents are still married. (one parent is dead, the other has one foot in the grave)
[ ] You have more than 2 best friends.(It's hard to tell if I have friends now)
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 4
[X] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[X] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[X] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[X] Your room is big enough for you.
[ ] People don't use you for something you have.
[X] You have been to a concert.(well it's a concert my GF wanted to go to)
T 0 T A L: 5
[ ] You have over 50 friends on Myspace.
[X] Your parents let you have a Myspace. (Moot, I'm an adult, I can do what I please.)
[ ] You get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal
[ ] You look forward to going to school.(No more school for me, unless it is college)
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[X] You do something after school.(ha, moot again.)
T 0 T A L: 2
[X] You own a car.
[ ] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[ ] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[X] You have friends. (Depends on what is classified as friends)
T 0 T A L: 2
[X] You know what is going on in the world.
[X] You care about so many people. (sad cause it does not work the other way around)
[ ] You are happy with your life.
[ ] You know more than one language.
[X] You have a screen name.
[ ] You own a pet.
[X] You know the words to 5 songs.
[ ] You don't have any enemies.
[X] You are a generally nice person.(Which is most times why I am taken advantaged of)
T O T A L: 5
GRAND TOTAL = 18
54% happy... Happy??? WTF! No this can't be right, I'm a miserable bastard right now. This crap has been fixed!!! Blasted Meme!
Feed an artist to Christmas:Extra Helpings.
Posted 17 years agoDecember is here!!! Time to get the Christmas bush out of the closet, set up the festive welcome mat, and hide all the sharp objects. I really had no art plans aside from doing one general Christmas greeting, planning a surprise for 
RoseTheSexKitten (some surprise, I let the secret out hehehe) and maybe the Happy Nude Deer picture for newyears.
Oddly enough I think I might be able to finish 2008 just about even, both artwise and sanity-wise. Still, the 25th is still a ways off, as well as Hanukkah and Kwanzaa. (not that I am totally devoted to those holidays, but I do a little something as a tribute and acknowledgment of those holidays.)
Tradition dictates that I now, or when I get a chance to, go out and purchase the following items:
Mixed fruit, apples and oranges.
Mixed Nuts, to use with nutcracker.
Holiday hard candy, the medium which to induce a sugar coma if Holiday music, and general holiday mood gets too out of control.
Eggnog, hey, what's the holiday without it?
Fruitcake! Yea baby, take it to the hilt! Nothing says holiday depression like chowing down on fruitcake!
Yep, weird tradition, eh? I have those handy so when I get back from my mistress's house, (She promoted herself from GF to Mistress due to the fact that she firmly believes that she have to take it upon herself to run my life totally.) Then Christmas day with my family, or at least my dad.
So put on that CD of "Grandma got run-over by a reindeer" pour a little scotch into the eggnog and get ready for a holiday ride that is sure to leave you begging for more, (If you are a sadist of course) I'll keep the mixed nuts handy and the nutcracker oiled and ready folks. Cheers and Happy Holidays!
RoseTheSexKitten (some surprise, I let the secret out hehehe) and maybe the Happy Nude Deer picture for newyears.Oddly enough I think I might be able to finish 2008 just about even, both artwise and sanity-wise. Still, the 25th is still a ways off, as well as Hanukkah and Kwanzaa. (not that I am totally devoted to those holidays, but I do a little something as a tribute and acknowledgment of those holidays.)
Tradition dictates that I now, or when I get a chance to, go out and purchase the following items:
Mixed fruit, apples and oranges.
Mixed Nuts, to use with nutcracker.
Holiday hard candy, the medium which to induce a sugar coma if Holiday music, and general holiday mood gets too out of control.
Eggnog, hey, what's the holiday without it?
Fruitcake! Yea baby, take it to the hilt! Nothing says holiday depression like chowing down on fruitcake!
Yep, weird tradition, eh? I have those handy so when I get back from my mistress's house, (She promoted herself from GF to Mistress due to the fact that she firmly believes that she have to take it upon herself to run my life totally.) Then Christmas day with my family, or at least my dad.
So put on that CD of "Grandma got run-over by a reindeer" pour a little scotch into the eggnog and get ready for a holiday ride that is sure to leave you begging for more, (If you are a sadist of course) I'll keep the mixed nuts handy and the nutcracker oiled and ready folks. Cheers and Happy Holidays!
Another day of faving, another day of slow art work...
Posted 17 years agoWhat a bummer. Here I am, going through a routine which now seems like a rut. I log onto FA, take a moment to view what was new while I was either sleep, working my second job, or working my first job, faving art that I like, love, adore, yadda yadda yadda, making comments both serious and some off the wall, and then I plug in the tablet, load the art from my flash drive, call up photoshop, and just sit there and stare at the screen!!! Now don't get me wrong, I've been productive, I've gotten the next page of the comic done, at least the piece art done. I took a moment to sketch out my next avatar, and now I sit here and ponder what to do like some lost soul.
It's not like don't have plenty to do or draw, the ideas are there, just that the soul seems weak and the flesh seems more weaker. Maybe I am somewhat part ursine and the need to hibernate has hit me, who knows. New memes pops up, or perhaps the FA id badge beckons me to do it, whatever the case, I hardly have the time to do it. (le sigh)
I don't think it is time for a break for me so I will have to tough it out and see what happens. Don't worry folks, I won't vanish into the background, not just yet. Cheers.
It's not like don't have plenty to do or draw, the ideas are there, just that the soul seems weak and the flesh seems more weaker. Maybe I am somewhat part ursine and the need to hibernate has hit me, who knows. New memes pops up, or perhaps the FA id badge beckons me to do it, whatever the case, I hardly have the time to do it. (le sigh)
I don't think it is time for a break for me so I will have to tough it out and see what happens. Don't worry folks, I won't vanish into the background, not just yet. Cheers.
I go explodie now...
Posted 17 years agoHave you ever had one of those moments where you have so many ideas oozing out of you that you might just slip from the slime trail? Well, it happened, I'm brimming over with ideas, I've already started drawing the next page of time rescue, my pencil hand is itching to draw more naughty stuff, yet something is holding me back.
I had almost the whole weekend to draw, aside from running here and there for folks, yet at the computer or the drawing desk, I could not even open the sketchbook, or put a piece of paper on the desk, it's maddening!!! I don't know if browsing FA helped any or made it worse.
God Damn it!!! I want to draw!!! I've resisted the urge to get drunk, been on the wagon for over 7 years now. I have no clue where to find illicit drugs and even if I found some, why would I take them just for a momentary buzz. I've tried meditation but all I am getting from the ether is static and old commercials.
One thought that crossed my mind is that perhaps I am so stifled is because I'm doing it alone. Nobody to collaborate with either in Oc, or even chatting and why??? I am so afraid! And why is a person such as my self, at my age be so afraid of Oc or chatting? Perhaps it's the feeling that I'm more of an outsider than I choose to believe, that I would not fit in, that same old stupid fear. I had thought I've broken out of my shell so many years ago, just to crawl back in, Bah!
Oh well, no need to worry about me, I'll get through this, I usually do and when I do, I find my creativity gained a few inches. Perhaps this is just another phase I'm going through, a male Menopause you might call it, I don't know. I'll just keep banging away at the art and hope for the best.
Cheers.
I had almost the whole weekend to draw, aside from running here and there for folks, yet at the computer or the drawing desk, I could not even open the sketchbook, or put a piece of paper on the desk, it's maddening!!! I don't know if browsing FA helped any or made it worse.
God Damn it!!! I want to draw!!! I've resisted the urge to get drunk, been on the wagon for over 7 years now. I have no clue where to find illicit drugs and even if I found some, why would I take them just for a momentary buzz. I've tried meditation but all I am getting from the ether is static and old commercials.
One thought that crossed my mind is that perhaps I am so stifled is because I'm doing it alone. Nobody to collaborate with either in Oc, or even chatting and why??? I am so afraid! And why is a person such as my self, at my age be so afraid of Oc or chatting? Perhaps it's the feeling that I'm more of an outsider than I choose to believe, that I would not fit in, that same old stupid fear. I had thought I've broken out of my shell so many years ago, just to crawl back in, Bah!
Oh well, no need to worry about me, I'll get through this, I usually do and when I do, I find my creativity gained a few inches. Perhaps this is just another phase I'm going through, a male Menopause you might call it, I don't know. I'll just keep banging away at the art and hope for the best.
Cheers.
...and the music makes the magic.
Posted 17 years agoJust a little bumper about what I have been listening lately in music. Oddly enough, I've rediscovered a band called, "Yes" oh man, I know a lot of folks out there know about this band, almost eternal are they. I found myself torn between listening to loops of "Hearts" and "Final Eyes". Among that is (Let's see if I can do this right.) ABWH (Anderson-Bruford-Wakeman-Howe) "Order of the Universe" which I have dubbed Chrona's theme song. Now and then I drift between that and Peter Gabriel, Genesis, and a few other heady music stuff. Oddly enough I've sorta drifted away from Techno and Vocal Trance stuff for awhile, but I suspect I will get back to that as winter progresses.
I am quite a confusing creature cause my musical tastes varies like the wind. Now and then I get a taste for a bit of Gwar, and I've discovered Nightwish, fancy that. Oh well, enough of that, gotta get back to work, and back to doing some art, it's not going to draw itself, oh wait, I had a picture that drew itself, this cute bunny gal, and she was......... But that's another story. Cheers.
I am quite a confusing creature cause my musical tastes varies like the wind. Now and then I get a taste for a bit of Gwar, and I've discovered Nightwish, fancy that. Oh well, enough of that, gotta get back to work, and back to doing some art, it's not going to draw itself, oh wait, I had a picture that drew itself, this cute bunny gal, and she was......... But that's another story. Cheers.
It's 5K Ya'll!!!
Posted 17 years agoJust a little something to announce that I made it to 5K on my pageviews. I posted a little something to celebrate it and I have to thank 
nivek88 who made it all possible, props and such.
Now that I made it to 5K, what's next? I still have that comic idea I promised
sip to work on. There has not been a day that goes by that an idea pops into my head to add to it, sad to say, when such things happen, old doubts creep into my mind about my abilities as an artist, but nothing is gained by not doing it, after all, I'm not shooting for number one anymore, just any number will do.
innocenttazlet gave me an idea worth trying but as usual, I'm afraid I may go a bit too far, more on this in future installations. I suspect that I am not all that well known for my stories but I do feel compeled to post them, old as they may be, some may have not even have seen the light of the internet, but as usual, old fears, I want to draw excerpt art for some of the stories. These days, as I explained to another only recently, this be a visual medium, not much room for written word unless there is a good picture to back it up. I want to at least get a few of my old stories posted and out of the way before I continue to write new stuff. Artist's Light fans (If there are any left, most may have regain their sanity and moved on to better things.) would be interested to know that I've started up the Artist's Plight storyline again. I shelved it due to conflicts with the main character in this storyline, a vixen named Weesta. I've analyzed and over-analyzed her actions in the story and found that often times it did not make any sense. I was going to explain that Vixens don't really make sense anyway, but that would enrage those vixen lovers out there. As well as restarting the Aesop's Crown series again which stalled due to the idea well running dry. Sad to think that I could get a lot done if I collabrated with others, but again, those fears of not having anyone interested in helping me write. (Jim Lane, where are you when I need you.)
Anyway, this has gotten way too long and by now I'm putting folks to sleep. I do not know what 2009 has to offer in the way of art and stories, and if I will forever remain a tortured artist in a sea of broken pencils and eraser boogies. Only time will tell. Cheers.
End note: If you do notice spelling errors, I'm still trying to find a blasted spelling checker for Seamonkey that works, it seems my copy of Seamonkey at home can spellcheck with no problems, the copy at work is an updated version and seems to have a brain fart when it comes to using Spellbound. Again, Cheers and I hope I did not bore you all to death.
nivek88 who made it all possible, props and such.Now that I made it to 5K, what's next? I still have that comic idea I promised
sip to work on. There has not been a day that goes by that an idea pops into my head to add to it, sad to say, when such things happen, old doubts creep into my mind about my abilities as an artist, but nothing is gained by not doing it, after all, I'm not shooting for number one anymore, just any number will do.
innocenttazlet gave me an idea worth trying but as usual, I'm afraid I may go a bit too far, more on this in future installations. I suspect that I am not all that well known for my stories but I do feel compeled to post them, old as they may be, some may have not even have seen the light of the internet, but as usual, old fears, I want to draw excerpt art for some of the stories. These days, as I explained to another only recently, this be a visual medium, not much room for written word unless there is a good picture to back it up. I want to at least get a few of my old stories posted and out of the way before I continue to write new stuff. Artist's Light fans (If there are any left, most may have regain their sanity and moved on to better things.) would be interested to know that I've started up the Artist's Plight storyline again. I shelved it due to conflicts with the main character in this storyline, a vixen named Weesta. I've analyzed and over-analyzed her actions in the story and found that often times it did not make any sense. I was going to explain that Vixens don't really make sense anyway, but that would enrage those vixen lovers out there. As well as restarting the Aesop's Crown series again which stalled due to the idea well running dry. Sad to think that I could get a lot done if I collabrated with others, but again, those fears of not having anyone interested in helping me write. (Jim Lane, where are you when I need you.)Anyway, this has gotten way too long and by now I'm putting folks to sleep. I do not know what 2009 has to offer in the way of art and stories, and if I will forever remain a tortured artist in a sea of broken pencils and eraser boogies. Only time will tell. Cheers.
End note: If you do notice spelling errors, I'm still trying to find a blasted spelling checker for Seamonkey that works, it seems my copy of Seamonkey at home can spellcheck with no problems, the copy at work is an updated version and seems to have a brain fart when it comes to using Spellbound. Again, Cheers and I hope I did not bore you all to death.
Between the tick and the tock...
Posted 17 years agoWell, it happened again, I came down with PPD syndrone, oh what is PPD? Post Picture Depression. It happens when you finish a picture and find yourself stalled in doing the next one. In this case, when I finished the Pinky Pony Cheerleading squad picture, I wanted to jump to the next installation of Time Rescue but the progression has been slow, changes here, minor tweaks there. Anyway, I might reopen Roughdraft Theater to pass the time. also I see that I've almost reach the goal of 5K page views, just a bit more and I can surprise you all with the picture celebrating that milestone. Until then, keep watching the skies.
Also please forgive me if you notice any spelling errors, it seems the spelling checker in Seamonkey has crapped out on me, working on the fix. Cheers.
Also please forgive me if you notice any spelling errors, it seems the spelling checker in Seamonkey has crapped out on me, working on the fix. Cheers.
Praise the lord and pass the Geritol!
Posted 17 years ago*** Please note, the following journal contains the rantings and ravings of an old person and should not be taken seriously. ***
You have been warned!
In a few days, a few bloody days, a day after elections, I turn 50! Yea, some will say, hey, no big deal, perhaps. I have told myself last week that I would not make a big deal about it, no sobbing, no screaming, no nothing about getting old. Some folks around me even warned me about sinking into a pit of despair for thinking about it. Sure, I'm fine with that, yea, right! It is bad enough I have to work on that night, even worse that I fear my GF is planing a small party for me the following night before I go to work, imagine walking into work with cake on my breath. But to look back, and see what I have done over the half century I have existed on this mud ball of a planet, makes me want to scream to the high heavens sometimes. Don't get me wrong, life have been good, I have my health, or somewhat. I have a GF, yea, she is just as old as I am, not a girl, sometimes she don't feel like a friend. I have my art, what? ok, who is giggling, oh wait, that's me. I have my friends... (echo echo echo!!!) This whole thing would have not bothered me except for one journal that showed up about a half an hour ago, I won't name names here. Really! Because I'm old, I get the impression that I'm some pervert in sheep's clothing eyeing the little lambs, just because I'm old, I'm at a place where the average age is between 13 to 22 and I feel like some youth freak, trying to reclaim some lost childhood. Because I'm ancient, I am not expected to know what is hip, what is cool, what's going down and such.... Blah Blah Blah!
Ok, I've tired myself out ranting so I'm going to take a break here. yea, my birthday is on the 5th, so please, no messages wishing me a happy one, no gift art, no nothing. I'm sorry folks, but I have ruined it for myself this year and I gotta live with it. So cheers, and happy birthday to those out there having theirs.
You have been warned!
In a few days, a few bloody days, a day after elections, I turn 50! Yea, some will say, hey, no big deal, perhaps. I have told myself last week that I would not make a big deal about it, no sobbing, no screaming, no nothing about getting old. Some folks around me even warned me about sinking into a pit of despair for thinking about it. Sure, I'm fine with that, yea, right! It is bad enough I have to work on that night, even worse that I fear my GF is planing a small party for me the following night before I go to work, imagine walking into work with cake on my breath. But to look back, and see what I have done over the half century I have existed on this mud ball of a planet, makes me want to scream to the high heavens sometimes. Don't get me wrong, life have been good, I have my health, or somewhat. I have a GF, yea, she is just as old as I am, not a girl, sometimes she don't feel like a friend. I have my art, what? ok, who is giggling, oh wait, that's me. I have my friends... (echo echo echo!!!) This whole thing would have not bothered me except for one journal that showed up about a half an hour ago, I won't name names here. Really! Because I'm old, I get the impression that I'm some pervert in sheep's clothing eyeing the little lambs, just because I'm old, I'm at a place where the average age is between 13 to 22 and I feel like some youth freak, trying to reclaim some lost childhood. Because I'm ancient, I am not expected to know what is hip, what is cool, what's going down and such.... Blah Blah Blah!
Ok, I've tired myself out ranting so I'm going to take a break here. yea, my birthday is on the 5th, so please, no messages wishing me a happy one, no gift art, no nothing. I'm sorry folks, but I have ruined it for myself this year and I gotta live with it. So cheers, and happy birthday to those out there having theirs.
Can this day get any worse???
Posted 17 years agoSo, here I am, I took a break from drawing a comic I promised to produce, wracking my brain to do it at least decent. But still little thoughts creep into my head to distract me from my task.
What is this feeling that has overcome me, to cause me so much distress?? feelings of doubt, of hopelessness, of fear. Odd, the music I am playing now seems right, I don't feel overly ill, the ideas are there. Damn, what is it??? From the early morning call from my GF, chewing me out about my budget, to going to Rants and Raves on the FA forum to give my worthless two cents about a Racism thread, to browsing FA and seeing folks with more happier lives.
I'm trying to figure out if I should care anymore, just to become numb and lifeless. I feel inspired to work on the comic, to finish up on a few projects I started and I don't think I need a break because I have not gone balls to the wall to get things done.
My GF mentioned about chatting with her male friends which reminded me about how I gave up my female friends so she won't feel and competition. I've given up on trying to realize dreams and hopes I have just to try and live day by day.
Oh well, just as well get back to the grindstone, art won't make itself and at the moment, it is the only thing that is fending off other feelings. Hell, I gotta work with what I have and if it keeps going for another day, so be it. I know there is more, but still, is it worth battling for it? Cheers, I guess.
What is this feeling that has overcome me, to cause me so much distress?? feelings of doubt, of hopelessness, of fear. Odd, the music I am playing now seems right, I don't feel overly ill, the ideas are there. Damn, what is it??? From the early morning call from my GF, chewing me out about my budget, to going to Rants and Raves on the FA forum to give my worthless two cents about a Racism thread, to browsing FA and seeing folks with more happier lives.
I'm trying to figure out if I should care anymore, just to become numb and lifeless. I feel inspired to work on the comic, to finish up on a few projects I started and I don't think I need a break because I have not gone balls to the wall to get things done.
My GF mentioned about chatting with her male friends which reminded me about how I gave up my female friends so she won't feel and competition. I've given up on trying to realize dreams and hopes I have just to try and live day by day.
Oh well, just as well get back to the grindstone, art won't make itself and at the moment, it is the only thing that is fending off other feelings. Hell, I gotta work with what I have and if it keeps going for another day, so be it. I know there is more, but still, is it worth battling for it? Cheers, I guess.
Run for your lives! He finally snapped!!!
Posted 17 years agoThat's how I feel right now, or how I think FA is feeling right now towards my latest batch of submissions. In the past I was real careful at what I pick and choose for a Rule 34 piece, sure I've soiled many of sheets of paper with my mad doodles, to the point where I suspect I may have become some sort of bad drawing porn artist, but I never put Rule 34 before my work... Until now. The lure was too great, the temptation was so profound that it dug at me, whispered sweet nonsense in my brain, and handed my reason five bucks to go see a movie while Rule 34 had it's way with me.
Do I feel guilty for ruining somebody's childhood??? Nope, not really, it could be worse folks. It seems so easy, find something that appealed to you in your youth, apply the moral decline and decay of today, and volia! There are some that really deserve Rule 34, but I will leave that to the experts.
Strike what I said before, I do feel a bit guilty, just a bit, but what is an artist to do. The muse compels me so. At the moment I can count up to about 6 items of art I 34-ed, at least two are posted now, three are in the works. Maybe this is a phase, one that will die down and before you know it, I'm back pimping bunnies again. In either case, I seem to be having fun and in the end, is that what really counts?
More evil to follow folks, advance apologies if I took some of your childhood heroes and give them a kinky twist, but you see, I did not have much of a childhood so I'm overcompensating like mad. Cheers.
Do I feel guilty for ruining somebody's childhood??? Nope, not really, it could be worse folks. It seems so easy, find something that appealed to you in your youth, apply the moral decline and decay of today, and volia! There are some that really deserve Rule 34, but I will leave that to the experts.
Strike what I said before, I do feel a bit guilty, just a bit, but what is an artist to do. The muse compels me so. At the moment I can count up to about 6 items of art I 34-ed, at least two are posted now, three are in the works. Maybe this is a phase, one that will die down and before you know it, I'm back pimping bunnies again. In either case, I seem to be having fun and in the end, is that what really counts?
More evil to follow folks, advance apologies if I took some of your childhood heroes and give them a kinky twist, but you see, I did not have much of a childhood so I'm overcompensating like mad. Cheers.
Dreams, part deux...
Posted 17 years ago*** Warning!!! Rant Ahead which may not be Worksafe or safe for minors!!!
I'm trying to break myself of the habit of revealing my dreams, heck, who wants to look into the mind of a very disturbed person? But I feel I must vent a bit cause this has been eating at me for most of the morning.
Throughout the night, my dreams have been for the most part rather harmless, as they are supposed to be. My somewhat normal routine for getting up in the morning is to let the clock-radio play until the last snooze alarm goes off, then I get up. Well, just before the last snooze alarm chimes I go into a short mini-dream. I suspect it was cued by the music that was playing at the time but I can't remember what was playing. anyway, it starts with me in some sort of dorm room, don't know if it is college or military. It seems to be night and I was invited over for a sleep-over by a woman with get this, Pink Hair!!! We settle down for the night and in the course of the night, our positions change. I was barely aware of other women sleeping in the room. I felt something touch me and I begin to feel aroused, I assumed it was her hand which gently grabbed mine and began to move it towards... Well, use your imagination here. So the rubbing action began to get intense and then suddenly, right out of nowhere she shouts at the top of her lungs, "Are you trying to have sex with me??? Ewwww!" At that point everyone in the room wakes up and looks at me as if I committed some major evil. I felt embarrassed at first, then angry as I pulled on my pants, my shirt, one shoe and began to storm out of the room, but not before I spoke my mind. I can't remember what I said but somewhere in that was "You came on to me, you knew what would happen, and this is the last straw!" The scene fades to a common area where I'm confronted by the pink haired woman and several of her friends who had blue hair. She apologized and asked me to come over again. I turn my back and walked away. At that point I woke up.
Normally dreams like this do not phase me, but this was the first dream ever I had of this and frankly it scares me!!! I usually don't follow my dreams because my rational mind tells me that all those are were random thoughts jumbled together to empty out the mind for the next day's thinking. However with the way my lovelife have been going, I am feeling that this could be an omen, of what I have no idea.
The feeling of anger and frustration is gone now but the feeling of embarrassment still remains. I'm so close now to calling my girlfriend, and telling her it is over, deciding if what few female friends I have should be kept at a distance, all sorts of bad thoughts, yet would that be fair? I don't expect any answers from those out there reading this so don't worry about it. This could be the beginning of my midlife crisis but either way, any closer and I would officially declare myself celibate, contemplate having the old chubby chopped off and falling off the grid. Chances are I will feel better in a few more hours, like I said, don't worry about me, I'll cope as usual. Cheers.
I'm trying to break myself of the habit of revealing my dreams, heck, who wants to look into the mind of a very disturbed person? But I feel I must vent a bit cause this has been eating at me for most of the morning.
Throughout the night, my dreams have been for the most part rather harmless, as they are supposed to be. My somewhat normal routine for getting up in the morning is to let the clock-radio play until the last snooze alarm goes off, then I get up. Well, just before the last snooze alarm chimes I go into a short mini-dream. I suspect it was cued by the music that was playing at the time but I can't remember what was playing. anyway, it starts with me in some sort of dorm room, don't know if it is college or military. It seems to be night and I was invited over for a sleep-over by a woman with get this, Pink Hair!!! We settle down for the night and in the course of the night, our positions change. I was barely aware of other women sleeping in the room. I felt something touch me and I begin to feel aroused, I assumed it was her hand which gently grabbed mine and began to move it towards... Well, use your imagination here. So the rubbing action began to get intense and then suddenly, right out of nowhere she shouts at the top of her lungs, "Are you trying to have sex with me??? Ewwww!" At that point everyone in the room wakes up and looks at me as if I committed some major evil. I felt embarrassed at first, then angry as I pulled on my pants, my shirt, one shoe and began to storm out of the room, but not before I spoke my mind. I can't remember what I said but somewhere in that was "You came on to me, you knew what would happen, and this is the last straw!" The scene fades to a common area where I'm confronted by the pink haired woman and several of her friends who had blue hair. She apologized and asked me to come over again. I turn my back and walked away. At that point I woke up.
Normally dreams like this do not phase me, but this was the first dream ever I had of this and frankly it scares me!!! I usually don't follow my dreams because my rational mind tells me that all those are were random thoughts jumbled together to empty out the mind for the next day's thinking. However with the way my lovelife have been going, I am feeling that this could be an omen, of what I have no idea.
The feeling of anger and frustration is gone now but the feeling of embarrassment still remains. I'm so close now to calling my girlfriend, and telling her it is over, deciding if what few female friends I have should be kept at a distance, all sorts of bad thoughts, yet would that be fair? I don't expect any answers from those out there reading this so don't worry about it. This could be the beginning of my midlife crisis but either way, any closer and I would officially declare myself celibate, contemplate having the old chubby chopped off and falling off the grid. Chances are I will feel better in a few more hours, like I said, don't worry about me, I'll cope as usual. Cheers.
And then the dreams starts...
Posted 17 years agoThis is almost becoming predictable folks. Finish one project, struggle to start another and then get hammered by a series of furry-like dreams. I think my mind is trying to tell me something.
Dream #1: I dream that I'm part of a military task force trying to suppress some sort of invasion. Full military gear, weapons, the whole nine yards. My fellow troopers are young kids, surprising near teenagers. We run through sections of an underground complex attacking some sort of monstrous foe. Then comes the part of the dream where we all put on disguises and infiltrate the enemy ranks who strangely enough look human. So far, so good. My dream cuts to a scene that seems out of a video game, (I suspect that watching that Youtube "Hyper Parsnip Bitches" had something to do with it) One person fires into a stack of machines and starts a chain reaction. The next thing I know, I'm leveling my weapon, setting it on stun and firing at a figure that I could swear was Carbunkle from Biker Mice from Mars. (That series started up I think last Saturday.) As I strip him of his gear, surprise!!! A bunny girl comes up, presses her head against the head of Carbunkle, and begins to rattle off secrets as if she was reading his mind. She looks at me and says, "There you go, everything you need to end this. Now go out there and make me proud!" At that point she passes out and I wake up, in a cold sweat and something else I won't mention at the moment. hehehe.
Dream #2: I'm driving in the mountains and approach a turnoff to a dark forest where I have to stop and get out of the car since there was no road going any further. For some reason for which I have no idea, I begin walking. Along the way I start seeing something that looks like a trail, first I find a stack of ten dollar bills, of course I pick it up. Further down the trail I find a package of MREs (Meals ready to eat, military style) I pick it up and begin to munch down as I walk. I go further and it gets darker as I progress. The next item I find is a photo album, as I thumb through it I notice that the faces I see do not look familiar at all to me, but somehow I now them. I walk further and for some unknown reason I start taking off my clothes. As I dump each item, I pick up another item of clothing and begin to wear it. Oddly enough, these clothes look quite strange, like they were from another time and place. Even odder is that there were no underwear. I stop for a moment and wonder what is going on, was I making some sort of transition into another world. About that time I hear voices, some saying that the world I have entered is the same world that I left, it is just that it is a secret world. I move to a grove of trees and to my surprise I see a herd of deer, no bucks, no fawns, just does. They look at me and began to run towards me as if to trample me to death. I hold my head and crouch down. Expecting pain, I am greeting with nuzzling and licks. One doe, elderly by her look says, "Welcome home lost one. Relax and follow us." I don't know, maybe it was my rational part of my mind which looked up and asked, "Oh great! is this another transformation dream?" The elderly doe looks at me and say, "Not a transformation dream, you are not ready yet." At that point I wake up, heart racing, my god I thought I was going to have a heart attack.
These were vivid dreams, for the life of me I can't find out what influenced them to come into being, maybe the product of a tired mind. It is not often I dream furry, but it seems when I do, they go all out. Sadly enough I don't recall having any erotic furry dreams, perhaps some sort of protection circuit prevents me from crossing that line, for now.
Dream #1: I dream that I'm part of a military task force trying to suppress some sort of invasion. Full military gear, weapons, the whole nine yards. My fellow troopers are young kids, surprising near teenagers. We run through sections of an underground complex attacking some sort of monstrous foe. Then comes the part of the dream where we all put on disguises and infiltrate the enemy ranks who strangely enough look human. So far, so good. My dream cuts to a scene that seems out of a video game, (I suspect that watching that Youtube "Hyper Parsnip Bitches" had something to do with it) One person fires into a stack of machines and starts a chain reaction. The next thing I know, I'm leveling my weapon, setting it on stun and firing at a figure that I could swear was Carbunkle from Biker Mice from Mars. (That series started up I think last Saturday.) As I strip him of his gear, surprise!!! A bunny girl comes up, presses her head against the head of Carbunkle, and begins to rattle off secrets as if she was reading his mind. She looks at me and says, "There you go, everything you need to end this. Now go out there and make me proud!" At that point she passes out and I wake up, in a cold sweat and something else I won't mention at the moment. hehehe.
Dream #2: I'm driving in the mountains and approach a turnoff to a dark forest where I have to stop and get out of the car since there was no road going any further. For some reason for which I have no idea, I begin walking. Along the way I start seeing something that looks like a trail, first I find a stack of ten dollar bills, of course I pick it up. Further down the trail I find a package of MREs (Meals ready to eat, military style) I pick it up and begin to munch down as I walk. I go further and it gets darker as I progress. The next item I find is a photo album, as I thumb through it I notice that the faces I see do not look familiar at all to me, but somehow I now them. I walk further and for some unknown reason I start taking off my clothes. As I dump each item, I pick up another item of clothing and begin to wear it. Oddly enough, these clothes look quite strange, like they were from another time and place. Even odder is that there were no underwear. I stop for a moment and wonder what is going on, was I making some sort of transition into another world. About that time I hear voices, some saying that the world I have entered is the same world that I left, it is just that it is a secret world. I move to a grove of trees and to my surprise I see a herd of deer, no bucks, no fawns, just does. They look at me and began to run towards me as if to trample me to death. I hold my head and crouch down. Expecting pain, I am greeting with nuzzling and licks. One doe, elderly by her look says, "Welcome home lost one. Relax and follow us." I don't know, maybe it was my rational part of my mind which looked up and asked, "Oh great! is this another transformation dream?" The elderly doe looks at me and say, "Not a transformation dream, you are not ready yet." At that point I wake up, heart racing, my god I thought I was going to have a heart attack.
These were vivid dreams, for the life of me I can't find out what influenced them to come into being, maybe the product of a tired mind. It is not often I dream furry, but it seems when I do, they go all out. Sadly enough I don't recall having any erotic furry dreams, perhaps some sort of protection circuit prevents me from crossing that line, for now.
Slow going...
Posted 17 years agoSo many ideas, Hardly enough time to do them all. Yep folks, it is about that time again, that time that comes around when I finish a coloring job and get something else ready to work on, I grind to a halt. I don't understand it, but there it is. I'm late for my birthday gift for 
dmfalk, I'm late doing the second installation of Time Rescue because I can't decide if I want to do it as a comic format or as a series of full pictures. (sorry sip) The Pikachu/Ling-ling crossover has been sketched and scanned, but nothing yet on inking and such. My surprise for 
ninjahusky is in the rough draft stages. Not to mention the thankyou gift for InnocentTazlet.
Phew, it does not seem like a lot on my plate, but there it is. My only hope is to knuckle down and get er done.
Keep watching the skies folks.
Cheers.
dmfalk, I'm late doing the second installation of Time Rescue because I can't decide if I want to do it as a comic format or as a series of full pictures. (sorry sip) The Pikachu/Ling-ling crossover has been sketched and scanned, but nothing yet on inking and such. My surprise for 
ninjahusky is in the rough draft stages. Not to mention the thankyou gift for InnocentTazlet.Phew, it does not seem like a lot on my plate, but there it is. My only hope is to knuckle down and get er done.
Keep watching the skies folks.
Cheers.
Hurray for Near Sex!!!
Posted 17 years agoAnd what is "Near Sex" you ask? Well, it's going through the motions but going nowhere with your mate.
My whole weekend have been nothing more but a trip through an emotional grinder. Little arguments between me and my GF starting on Monday, and lasting through Friday when I finally had enough and shut off all my phones. I laid there on the couch, angry, sad, hurt and such, too depressed to even take what little free time I've won to do any art.
Saturday morning I got up, feeling like hell and made the first mistake of turning on the phones. She called, began to chew me out for turning off my phones, and then the waterworks started, on my end. They said that men are not supposed to express their emotions in such a way that seems female, yet there I was, broken voice and all, announcing my trip to fail-ville. She knew I wanted to call it quits and break up, yet she used every trick in the book to keep me. At this point in our relationship, I do the grunt work, while she supervises. Hell, I'm am a male, I have needs, or at least my needs until they begin to wane, which I suspect is happening. She allowed me to keep my distance Saturday, a moment apart to allow me to compose myself, in which time I managed to finish some art.
Sunday arrives and as usual, my ritual begins, later on that day, I arrive to her place to clean her animals, do my laundry, and run errands. I try to keep up a public face, hiding my pain yet she saw right through it. After cleaning her animals, allowing her cuddle time with them and such, as well as change a lightbulb and walk the dog several times, she motioned me to have a seat, sitting in my lap, she allowed me a moment to cuddle and near sex. (sigh)
I know, some of you out there ask, why am I putting myself through this, well, I guess it is just par of the course for damaged good such as myself, to feel needed, to do without looking for something in return. I would think this may be the beginnings of a submissive/dominate relationship which some might not find too healthy. At this point I don't know what to think of it. In times of desperation some folks feel the need to move towards someone or something that could prove dangerous to their well being. That may be the case with me but until I can either muster the courage to finally cut the ties, without threats of her giving up her animals, which I love dearly, facing the fact that if I do leave, I will be alone again without any chance of meeting anyone new, (male or female) because I've become too jaded, get that notion out of my head that I'm too old to have a meaningful relationship, thus it would be better for me to just drop dead...
Strike that last part, I'm not ready to cash in my chips just yet. I got nothing left to lose by being with her, and maybe pain is the best thing for me. In the end when I'm laid to rest they will, or might say that he died with a sensitive heart and a kind soul and where he is going, he will finally be rewarded.
Yea, a bit emo for sure and I'm learning that you are never too old to be emo. Please, don't take these words too seriously, I'm just venting in hopes of helping me cope. There are folks out there with good intentions to try and comfort me, I will try not to turn them away but please understand that sometimes I must suffer alone to find myself. Cheers.
My whole weekend have been nothing more but a trip through an emotional grinder. Little arguments between me and my GF starting on Monday, and lasting through Friday when I finally had enough and shut off all my phones. I laid there on the couch, angry, sad, hurt and such, too depressed to even take what little free time I've won to do any art.
Saturday morning I got up, feeling like hell and made the first mistake of turning on the phones. She called, began to chew me out for turning off my phones, and then the waterworks started, on my end. They said that men are not supposed to express their emotions in such a way that seems female, yet there I was, broken voice and all, announcing my trip to fail-ville. She knew I wanted to call it quits and break up, yet she used every trick in the book to keep me. At this point in our relationship, I do the grunt work, while she supervises. Hell, I'm am a male, I have needs, or at least my needs until they begin to wane, which I suspect is happening. She allowed me to keep my distance Saturday, a moment apart to allow me to compose myself, in which time I managed to finish some art.
Sunday arrives and as usual, my ritual begins, later on that day, I arrive to her place to clean her animals, do my laundry, and run errands. I try to keep up a public face, hiding my pain yet she saw right through it. After cleaning her animals, allowing her cuddle time with them and such, as well as change a lightbulb and walk the dog several times, she motioned me to have a seat, sitting in my lap, she allowed me a moment to cuddle and near sex. (sigh)
I know, some of you out there ask, why am I putting myself through this, well, I guess it is just par of the course for damaged good such as myself, to feel needed, to do without looking for something in return. I would think this may be the beginnings of a submissive/dominate relationship which some might not find too healthy. At this point I don't know what to think of it. In times of desperation some folks feel the need to move towards someone or something that could prove dangerous to their well being. That may be the case with me but until I can either muster the courage to finally cut the ties, without threats of her giving up her animals, which I love dearly, facing the fact that if I do leave, I will be alone again without any chance of meeting anyone new, (male or female) because I've become too jaded, get that notion out of my head that I'm too old to have a meaningful relationship, thus it would be better for me to just drop dead...
Strike that last part, I'm not ready to cash in my chips just yet. I got nothing left to lose by being with her, and maybe pain is the best thing for me. In the end when I'm laid to rest they will, or might say that he died with a sensitive heart and a kind soul and where he is going, he will finally be rewarded.
Yea, a bit emo for sure and I'm learning that you are never too old to be emo. Please, don't take these words too seriously, I'm just venting in hopes of helping me cope. There are folks out there with good intentions to try and comfort me, I will try not to turn them away but please understand that sometimes I must suffer alone to find myself. Cheers.
Returning to Old School Ways.
Posted 17 years agoLately I have not had the time to sit behind a computer, with my wacom pad and come up with something with it. Instead, I've gone back to the sketchbook, as some of you might notice in my scraps. I felt it was time to go back to the roots. Sure sometimes it is messy, and putting my thoughts and images on a paper medium does not allow for too many mistakes, but at the moment it is all I can do.
You see, since I am now working two jobs, it's hard to have the free time to go full tilt on the computer. One plus is that things are slow at my first job, so I can pull out the sketchbook and have at it. It is a different case at home. As I make my progression to traditional medium I will soon dust off the art desk, go though my prismacolor pencils, and my pastels, and contemplate doing traditional coloring and inking. This does leave me with some apprehension since some of my past works look like crap colored. Heaven forbid if I try colored markers. Anyway, just a heads up for all who are watching to keep the eye bleach and the ice pick handy in case I release some more art horrors. Cheers.
You see, since I am now working two jobs, it's hard to have the free time to go full tilt on the computer. One plus is that things are slow at my first job, so I can pull out the sketchbook and have at it. It is a different case at home. As I make my progression to traditional medium I will soon dust off the art desk, go though my prismacolor pencils, and my pastels, and contemplate doing traditional coloring and inking. This does leave me with some apprehension since some of my past works look like crap colored. Heaven forbid if I try colored markers. Anyway, just a heads up for all who are watching to keep the eye bleach and the ice pick handy in case I release some more art horrors. Cheers.
499 more needed.
Posted 17 years agoYep, 499 more views of my page and I will roll out the 5K pic I've been hoarding. Two characters you would not expect to show up in such a pic, a random bunny as well even though Baggie Bunny protested that she was not in it. (She threatened to remove her bag in my presence but I resisted.)
Anyway, once that milestone is reached, there won't be another until the 10K mark, which I suspect will not happen for quite a long time. So keep watching the skies true bunny believers. Cheers.
Anyway, once that milestone is reached, there won't be another until the 10K mark, which I suspect will not happen for quite a long time. So keep watching the skies true bunny believers. Cheers.
Controversial Survey, or "Time to vent my spleen."
Posted 17 years agoStolen from 
LabrnMystic With a sad and heavy heart.
1. Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?
It should not take guts to answer these, within everyone is a voice be it good or ill, that wants to supply the answers, it is up to the person to have the courage to do so. Yes I will answer because I do have the courage to.
2. Would you do meth if it was legal?
No, not really. There are enough chemicals in my body right now (Legal) that plays havoc. I'd only do meth if I have nothing left to live for, knowing that if I have to go, I just as well be in a different state of mind.
3. Abortion: for or against it?
I'm for it providing it is for a good reason, like life threating situations. I do believe every child should have a chance to live but if living that life means living with excessive pain, suffering and such, God should understand the meaning of take backs. It is sad to cut off a soul before it begins, but a soul should not suffer.
4. Do you think the world would fail with a female president?
Nope, there are plenty of female presidents in the world today and aside from minor problems, which is usually caused by over-reacting males, they seem to be doing a good job.
5. Do you believe in the death penalty?
Yes, but only as a final option. Sad to say, there are people in the world who once they do something heinous, they will never change. There has been far too many mistakes in the death penalty system that caused a lot of innocent people to die.
6. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
Yes, if it is useful for something, which it has been proven.
7. Are you for or against premarital sex?
I'm for it, to an extent. I mean, young is young, and too young means, no sex until the right age of mental maturity. I mean, besides reason and intelligence, humans also have that drive, the need, why stifle it. Frankly If I was told that I could not have sex with my partner until I am married and at the age I am currently I would say they are crazy! After all, it won't be long before I won't be able to have it anyway.
8. Do you believe in God?
Yes, but not by real choice. Growing up with a somewhat pious family, it is hard not to believe, yet even harder to beleive that if there is a God, why all the suffering?
9. Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
Yep. Why deny the happiness of others?
10. Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
Yes, it is wrong, yet again, the suffering angle should be seen. There are so many jobs out there that nobody is willing to work, although I for one would, and have worked them, and have felt the sting of poverty. Sad to say the suggestion of letting those who need a job and who are in dire need to support their families has fallen on deaf ears, for society, it is all or nothing and these days, who wants to go against society?
11. A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
Yes, providing she is helped by family and agencies until she reaches the proper age to go it alone, or with her partner. Education is a big key here.
12. Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
No. There has been too many tragic incidents due to underage drinking. Some learn their lessons way too late at the lost of love ones and such. A few years, at least enough to learn enough maturity to know when to go full tilt and when to moderate.
13. Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Too much has been done, the country is in ruins, their people shattered. The fighting should stop, but the support to rebuild, educate, and improve should continue.
14. Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
No. At a point in life, a person should have the choice to continue living it if they are suffering way too much for human endurance. The problem with why assisted suicide is illegal is that it has drawn way too much attention. If you need help taking yourself out, you should do it with dignity and solitude. I know that when I go, I do not want my passing to be a bad memory to anyone.
15. Do you believe in spanking your children?
Yes, but not that often, and not with force. A child should know that with actions, they should expect reaction. It should be done, but there should be an understand between parent and child that it is being done for their own good.
16. Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
No. 14 years of military service have taught me the proper way to retire a flag. I would not burn one out of anger of the symbol it represent, that includes flags of any nation, no matter how heinous they are.
17. Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?
I am undecided by this. Being Black, folks would expect me to go with Obama just because it would be a symbol of advancement for my race, yet having seen the world through these old eyes, I find myself disenfranchised at the thought. In past elections I voted with my conscience and found myself on the losing side. I will vote, but the reasons seem to have lost their meaning.
18. Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
Yes, it is human nature to do so. I don't really expect to be hailed a hero, or booed as a villain for my answers. I've grown too old to really care and I feel that controversy will never vanish, at least in my lifetime. Cynical as it sounds but I do thank this controversial survey for allowing me to speak my mind even though I feel it is just a lone voice in the fast wilderness.
There, it is done. At least this will push down that Emotional Overload journal I posted.
LabrnMystic With a sad and heavy heart.1. Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?
It should not take guts to answer these, within everyone is a voice be it good or ill, that wants to supply the answers, it is up to the person to have the courage to do so. Yes I will answer because I do have the courage to.
2. Would you do meth if it was legal?
No, not really. There are enough chemicals in my body right now (Legal) that plays havoc. I'd only do meth if I have nothing left to live for, knowing that if I have to go, I just as well be in a different state of mind.
3. Abortion: for or against it?
I'm for it providing it is for a good reason, like life threating situations. I do believe every child should have a chance to live but if living that life means living with excessive pain, suffering and such, God should understand the meaning of take backs. It is sad to cut off a soul before it begins, but a soul should not suffer.
4. Do you think the world would fail with a female president?
Nope, there are plenty of female presidents in the world today and aside from minor problems, which is usually caused by over-reacting males, they seem to be doing a good job.
5. Do you believe in the death penalty?
Yes, but only as a final option. Sad to say, there are people in the world who once they do something heinous, they will never change. There has been far too many mistakes in the death penalty system that caused a lot of innocent people to die.
6. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
Yes, if it is useful for something, which it has been proven.
7. Are you for or against premarital sex?
I'm for it, to an extent. I mean, young is young, and too young means, no sex until the right age of mental maturity. I mean, besides reason and intelligence, humans also have that drive, the need, why stifle it. Frankly If I was told that I could not have sex with my partner until I am married and at the age I am currently I would say they are crazy! After all, it won't be long before I won't be able to have it anyway.
8. Do you believe in God?
Yes, but not by real choice. Growing up with a somewhat pious family, it is hard not to believe, yet even harder to beleive that if there is a God, why all the suffering?
9. Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
Yep. Why deny the happiness of others?
10. Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
Yes, it is wrong, yet again, the suffering angle should be seen. There are so many jobs out there that nobody is willing to work, although I for one would, and have worked them, and have felt the sting of poverty. Sad to say the suggestion of letting those who need a job and who are in dire need to support their families has fallen on deaf ears, for society, it is all or nothing and these days, who wants to go against society?
11. A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
Yes, providing she is helped by family and agencies until she reaches the proper age to go it alone, or with her partner. Education is a big key here.
12. Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
No. There has been too many tragic incidents due to underage drinking. Some learn their lessons way too late at the lost of love ones and such. A few years, at least enough to learn enough maturity to know when to go full tilt and when to moderate.
13. Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Too much has been done, the country is in ruins, their people shattered. The fighting should stop, but the support to rebuild, educate, and improve should continue.
14. Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
No. At a point in life, a person should have the choice to continue living it if they are suffering way too much for human endurance. The problem with why assisted suicide is illegal is that it has drawn way too much attention. If you need help taking yourself out, you should do it with dignity and solitude. I know that when I go, I do not want my passing to be a bad memory to anyone.
15. Do you believe in spanking your children?
Yes, but not that often, and not with force. A child should know that with actions, they should expect reaction. It should be done, but there should be an understand between parent and child that it is being done for their own good.
16. Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
No. 14 years of military service have taught me the proper way to retire a flag. I would not burn one out of anger of the symbol it represent, that includes flags of any nation, no matter how heinous they are.
17. Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?
I am undecided by this. Being Black, folks would expect me to go with Obama just because it would be a symbol of advancement for my race, yet having seen the world through these old eyes, I find myself disenfranchised at the thought. In past elections I voted with my conscience and found myself on the losing side. I will vote, but the reasons seem to have lost their meaning.
18. Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
Yes, it is human nature to do so. I don't really expect to be hailed a hero, or booed as a villain for my answers. I've grown too old to really care and I feel that controversy will never vanish, at least in my lifetime. Cynical as it sounds but I do thank this controversial survey for allowing me to speak my mind even though I feel it is just a lone voice in the fast wilderness.
There, it is done. At least this will push down that Emotional Overload journal I posted.
Emotional Overload!!!
Posted 17 years agoThe mind is a complex thing, which makes mine more than complicated, it's down right confusing at times. lately I've been plagued by a range of emotions, some cued by music, others just spontaneous.
For example, is it normal to miss someone you hardly know? Such is the case with
aminebunny I have not heard from her in quite awhile and I would think that is just a passing thing, this person could be way too busy to be online or other things. Yet still I miss her and I hope she returns.
Lately, music have been a motivator either good or ill, depends on what I am doing. I would listen to a song over and over again until I'm either on the verge of tears, or worse. It's only music, just sounds, notes, mathematical equations. Yet, there I go, feeling sad and wishing for an outlet to express it.
Even reading something brings it on. Running across a blog or two, I read, and depending on the subject, I feel rage at what I read, or sadness if it is an event that was not good to the original poster. Sure, I'm behind a screen, typing on a keyboard, far removed from what is happening, but is it normal to feel so deeply?
Now the emotion of fear creeps in, fear that I may have gotten too sensitive for my own good. Having another who do not really feel the way I do, or for that matter care if sometimes I'm hurting inside does not help, yet because of my sensitive nature, I can't turn her away in the hopes that maybe, just maybe she understands. Because of this, I chose not to forge any new relationships, even close friendships for fear I might hurt someone or get hurt and allow it to continue for the sake of fighting off the loneliness.
Oh well, perhaps it may be an reluctant tool to use to further my expression, after all, it is said that an artist must suffer for their art, nobody said how that suffering should be carried out. I should regard it as a possible strength or if anything a weakness that is needed to retain that tiny thread of humanity I sometimes wish to forsake. At any case, I've bored you folks enough for now, time for me to get back to art and suffering. Cheers.
For example, is it normal to miss someone you hardly know? Such is the case with
aminebunny I have not heard from her in quite awhile and I would think that is just a passing thing, this person could be way too busy to be online or other things. Yet still I miss her and I hope she returns.Lately, music have been a motivator either good or ill, depends on what I am doing. I would listen to a song over and over again until I'm either on the verge of tears, or worse. It's only music, just sounds, notes, mathematical equations. Yet, there I go, feeling sad and wishing for an outlet to express it.
Even reading something brings it on. Running across a blog or two, I read, and depending on the subject, I feel rage at what I read, or sadness if it is an event that was not good to the original poster. Sure, I'm behind a screen, typing on a keyboard, far removed from what is happening, but is it normal to feel so deeply?
Now the emotion of fear creeps in, fear that I may have gotten too sensitive for my own good. Having another who do not really feel the way I do, or for that matter care if sometimes I'm hurting inside does not help, yet because of my sensitive nature, I can't turn her away in the hopes that maybe, just maybe she understands. Because of this, I chose not to forge any new relationships, even close friendships for fear I might hurt someone or get hurt and allow it to continue for the sake of fighting off the loneliness.
Oh well, perhaps it may be an reluctant tool to use to further my expression, after all, it is said that an artist must suffer for their art, nobody said how that suffering should be carried out. I should regard it as a possible strength or if anything a weakness that is needed to retain that tiny thread of humanity I sometimes wish to forsake. At any case, I've bored you folks enough for now, time for me to get back to art and suffering. Cheers.
Why post the old stuff Don???
Posted 17 years agoI bet that is the question on everyone's mind, why am I posting old stuff instead of new stuff??? An artist's block is a fickle thing. I moved from starting new stuff from the wacom pad to the sketchbook again because there are some places I work where I can't have computer access. I got three pages with some lines on them but nothing that looks like a viable image to work with. distractions, and other things are preventing me from maintaining enough focus to flesh out a good image. I tell you it is frustrating but then again, we are all artists you know what I mean.
Anyway, so for now I will be posting what I call roughdraft theater, works that not quite made it to ink and color form. Some of them are just plain crap, while others will someday be finished. Working from the past to provide a better art future for all, oh who am I kidding. Oh well, I would like to thank those who have commented and faved on what I have posted so far. Thank you, you are way too kind. I will accept negative remarks as well, it is a free word, and everyone is entitled to give their say, I won't get moody or emo, I've done enough in my past to make up for any future stuff. Cheers and bear with me folks, i'll get over it, I can only hope.
Anyway, so for now I will be posting what I call roughdraft theater, works that not quite made it to ink and color form. Some of them are just plain crap, while others will someday be finished. Working from the past to provide a better art future for all, oh who am I kidding. Oh well, I would like to thank those who have commented and faved on what I have posted so far. Thank you, you are way too kind. I will accept negative remarks as well, it is a free word, and everyone is entitled to give their say, I won't get moody or emo, I've done enough in my past to make up for any future stuff. Cheers and bear with me folks, i'll get over it, I can only hope.
Which direction to take.
Posted 17 years agoIt's a matter of time now before I reach 5000 page views, the artwork celebrating it is already done, I finished it early since I'd thought I would not be on FA long enough to see it. It's been a road, maybe long and hard, but still a road and now and then, one finds them self broken down on it, flat tire, engine trouble, or just those darn hitch hikers. Ok, enough of the metaphors time to be straight and direct. I've looked at maybe the past 5 pieces of art and one thing keeps coming up, it's porn!!! Now don't get me wrong, I like doing porn like the next person but what was a pleasure for me is slowly becoming a chore. Perhaps it's my old age catching up with me, I can't continue to try and relive my lost and shattered childhood through my art, time for me to face up to reality, such as it is.
Still, I can't help myself sometimes, or perhaps I'm looking way too deep into this. I still have a few things I want to finish, like my stories, and doing a least some art for them. I want to do some work on my sorry excuse for animation skills to at least produce something worth posting. I want to get over that dread fear I have of asking for Oc sessions and drawing other people's characters, I guess that is the biggie cause I can't really see why I have to keep myself insulated from the rest of the community. Having a girlfriend in RL is nice, but to do that, I had to give up my friends online, or what friends I had left. It would be nice to be able to be on more friendly ground with folks but I guess that is too much to ask, if I was 20 years younger I guess.
I still have not changed the mood on my page, it is hard to tell how feel these days and sometimes I wish there was a way to keep it blank. Anywho, enough ranting for now, I gotta decide if I should plot some art evil, or kill myself trying to produce something clean for a change. Cheers.
Still, I can't help myself sometimes, or perhaps I'm looking way too deep into this. I still have a few things I want to finish, like my stories, and doing a least some art for them. I want to do some work on my sorry excuse for animation skills to at least produce something worth posting. I want to get over that dread fear I have of asking for Oc sessions and drawing other people's characters, I guess that is the biggie cause I can't really see why I have to keep myself insulated from the rest of the community. Having a girlfriend in RL is nice, but to do that, I had to give up my friends online, or what friends I had left. It would be nice to be able to be on more friendly ground with folks but I guess that is too much to ask, if I was 20 years younger I guess.
I still have not changed the mood on my page, it is hard to tell how feel these days and sometimes I wish there was a way to keep it blank. Anywho, enough ranting for now, I gotta decide if I should plot some art evil, or kill myself trying to produce something clean for a change. Cheers.
Roll the bones!
Posted 17 years agoNah, nothing about the subject, just some filler here since I've been listening to Rush for the past several days.
Anyway, some of you may have noticed some artwork trickling out from me, from roughdrafts in scraps to at least two finished items. It seems I can't just walk away from the art stuff, I gotta keep trying despite the difficulties I'm having digital inking. I figured as long as my art don't make eyes bleed too much, I could use the practice.
I can see by my gallery page that I'm slowly approaching the 5K mark. I do have some artwork planned, but I'm torn on if I should show off a sample just to tease. I'm also playing around with flash, just roughdraft stills for now but I won't post them until I am sure they are right. At this rate I suspect the piece I am working on may be too big to post on FA because the musical soundtrack is about 4 minutes long.
Some things are happening to folks here on FA that does not seem well and good. Some folks are having problems and all I can do is just sit here and read. It kills me sometimes that I just can't just wave a hand and make problems vanish, oh well, I guess that is the way of the world, you can only sit on the sidelines, offer as much comfort as you can and hope things work out right. For those out there how are having such trials, I'm waving the banner, swishing the pom-poms, and cheering you on. As for myself, my own problems, I'm hanging tough but thanks for all the thoughts and kind words.
Time to finish this up, got two pictures to color, and more evil to plan. Cheers for now.
Anyway, some of you may have noticed some artwork trickling out from me, from roughdrafts in scraps to at least two finished items. It seems I can't just walk away from the art stuff, I gotta keep trying despite the difficulties I'm having digital inking. I figured as long as my art don't make eyes bleed too much, I could use the practice.
I can see by my gallery page that I'm slowly approaching the 5K mark. I do have some artwork planned, but I'm torn on if I should show off a sample just to tease. I'm also playing around with flash, just roughdraft stills for now but I won't post them until I am sure they are right. At this rate I suspect the piece I am working on may be too big to post on FA because the musical soundtrack is about 4 minutes long.
Some things are happening to folks here on FA that does not seem well and good. Some folks are having problems and all I can do is just sit here and read. It kills me sometimes that I just can't just wave a hand and make problems vanish, oh well, I guess that is the way of the world, you can only sit on the sidelines, offer as much comfort as you can and hope things work out right. For those out there how are having such trials, I'm waving the banner, swishing the pom-poms, and cheering you on. As for myself, my own problems, I'm hanging tough but thanks for all the thoughts and kind words.
Time to finish this up, got two pictures to color, and more evil to plan. Cheers for now.
Just some random thoughts...
Posted 17 years ago"Would you think of the wind and rain as I lie on the mat outside the door? Would a thought of something is wrong pass by your mind if the scratching at the door dies down with every passing moment? Could you remember the innocent one you took into your home those many years ago, wobbly on his oversized paws, curious nose and bright eager eyes? Can those fond memories of stern scoldings and delightful rewards remain vivid in the mind, or have they slowly began to fade with the passage of time? What if his first words were hello with a slight slur and the last words you remember were an old yet heartfelt thank you, only sound like distant echoes. Should the smell of burn salve applied to bumbling paws as they tried to help, just be a whiff of some ancient aroma lost in the air? If the argument over some silly words said wrong end in saying something hurtful?
The burrow is such a lonely place now, that warm body by the fire, the slow and rhythmic breathing. It is not fair for the gods to grant me such a long life while yours is short and finite. Sadness is my state that I have not gotten to know you better. From pet to soulmate as seen by those unseen was our path together. I stand upon that path and wish for that soft breeze from a happy wagging tail. No other shall take your place for you were the last. Your memory may fade, yet my heart will remember you, my faithful friend.
This was from a perspective of a rabbit doe lamenting about the puppy she found years ago, not knowing he was the last of his kind in a world far removed from ours.
Thanks to sip and 
tic-tac for jogging my old memories.
The burrow is such a lonely place now, that warm body by the fire, the slow and rhythmic breathing. It is not fair for the gods to grant me such a long life while yours is short and finite. Sadness is my state that I have not gotten to know you better. From pet to soulmate as seen by those unseen was our path together. I stand upon that path and wish for that soft breeze from a happy wagging tail. No other shall take your place for you were the last. Your memory may fade, yet my heart will remember you, my faithful friend.
This was from a perspective of a rabbit doe lamenting about the puppy she found years ago, not knowing he was the last of his kind in a world far removed from ours.
Thanks to
sip and 
tic-tac for jogging my old memories.It's gonna be awhile before...
Posted 17 years agoI'm able to produce viewable art. The old body decided to take a unannounced break and my muscle control in my hands took a little vacation. The tremors are not as bad as before but it is getting quite hard to hold the stylus for my wacom pad to do good inking lines.
If anything what I might post will be linework but not as good as I would want to. I called the doctor the other day and he in turn told me that with the medication I am on, it is the best that can be done so I will have to weather out the storm. I am fortunate enough that the tremors are not affecting my job so I can at least earn a living.
Having nerve damage sucks, trust me folks and pray it does not get any worse. Cheers.
If anything what I might post will be linework but not as good as I would want to. I called the doctor the other day and he in turn told me that with the medication I am on, it is the best that can be done so I will have to weather out the storm. I am fortunate enough that the tremors are not affecting my job so I can at least earn a living.
Having nerve damage sucks, trust me folks and pray it does not get any worse. Cheers.
Summer is over, time for the fall blues to set in.
Posted 17 years agoI've noticed that on my gallery page I have not touch my mood, it still remains depressed despite what little good things have happened. I'm slowly beginning to wonder what amount of medication, if any would lift my spirits, or if such a thing is possible anymore. It's not like me to dwell upon such things, only to look towards the positive and hope for the best.
Still, I have the support of my friends to get me through so I am not asking for much these days, just a sprinkle of inspiration to further my art, a touch of insight in writing stories, and just a touch of acknowledgment that I'm still a living breathing person and not just ones and zeros converted on a display screen.
As fall moves forward I'm not looking forward towards November and my birthday. A half a century looms around the corner and thoughts that in that half century passed, I did not do anything worth while in my life to merit happiness, but still one must accept what is placed in the bowl or go hungry wishing for better. (My god am I thinking like some poor old dog again?)
Still enough about me, for all those who watch, maybe read, I can only offer the best to you for the fall season coming up and best wishes for the winter. In the cold of the storm, this dog still have a shelter to lie under, food and water to sustain one's self and an pat on the head now and then from the owner.
Cheers.
Still, I have the support of my friends to get me through so I am not asking for much these days, just a sprinkle of inspiration to further my art, a touch of insight in writing stories, and just a touch of acknowledgment that I'm still a living breathing person and not just ones and zeros converted on a display screen.
As fall moves forward I'm not looking forward towards November and my birthday. A half a century looms around the corner and thoughts that in that half century passed, I did not do anything worth while in my life to merit happiness, but still one must accept what is placed in the bowl or go hungry wishing for better. (My god am I thinking like some poor old dog again?)
Still enough about me, for all those who watch, maybe read, I can only offer the best to you for the fall season coming up and best wishes for the winter. In the cold of the storm, this dog still have a shelter to lie under, food and water to sustain one's self and an pat on the head now and then from the owner.
Cheers.
