I have a friend who is in jail and he has sent me pics of him with his shirt off looking all buff and tough and tatted up. I wanted to Photoshop a suit on him to send it to him and be like "see, your a business man!" I'm sure he'd love it and find it funny. He don't have much to make him happy in a jail cell :/ anyway. If anyone can help. Let me know. Thank you.

Dudeimabear

Somebody come over and fuck me in my butt hole!!!

I haven't bin posting any drawing cus all I have is an iPad and no pc. I just have bin making some youtube videos if anyone would be interested in watching :3 just go to my page. Youtube.com/dudeimabear tell me what ya think. Like, comment, and subscribe if you guys would like to see more ^_^ hugs

I was bored and feeling a bit down so I made this to keep me busy. Took me like 40 min maybe. *hugs* hope ya like



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ieg0.....e_gdata_player

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mrpt.....e_gdata_player


Yay

Here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QTaD.....e_gdata_player

I did it all on an ipad the new one. So kinda limited -.-* the mic on the iPad is good but like its not that good for like vocals it's hard to find the sweet spot. Tell me what you think and yes in respons after you seen it " I know I'm retarded! " I'm off to the DMV now I have to renew my drivers license befor I get pulled over and end up fucked by a cop and not in the good way.

Tell me what you think ^_^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LLnBSpAjLqk

I'm using the voice command so I don't have to type anything I'm just talking into my iPad and it writes what I want to say. It's not 100% accurate but all you need to do is speak clearly into the mic and it works just fine. this is going to make it a lot easier and funner to make my journals from now on. Call together with my OtterBox case the iPad and the case cost me around $590. I'm not rich I just got my final paycheck from my last job and it was in the amount of $550, I use that money towards the iPad since my laptop crapped out. Now I'm saving up for a desktop iMac I'm waiting to see what the new iMac will be like that's if they are bringing out a new iMac, I will be start being more productive soon, it's just when you're lonely and depressed its not easy doing anything you like to do. I will be practicing making music and drawing a lot more often now that I have lots of time off and nothing to do. The iPad is great I give it a 9/10 only for minor reasons I don't give it a 10. No flash support and I can't upload drawings directly from my iPad to furaffinity. It's not perfect but it's the best tablet out there. I don't know what else to say if anyone is reading this and you have a question you would like to ask just go ahead and ask me and I will respond to you thank you hugs

I moved out of Sacramento from the apartment I lived in with ex room mates and now ex friends. I don't think you can consider someone a friend after they threaten to call the cops on you, I did not do anything violent just got pissed that they do not care what so ever about my problems or what I want. So I said I was moveing out out of anger then I knew I couldent so I just went to my room and stoped takeing to them. I was super calm and minding my own busyness and my ass whole room mate text me saying to leave or he's calling the cops. He said they won't arest you, they will just tell you to leave, I'm thinking I bearly have any money no where to go and this bitch dos not care at all. What kind of friend would want to call the cops on you. Ass hole even told me to sue him. I'm like are you fucking kidding me?! So confident cus I have 0 proof of any money spent or anything. To him I was just a busyness. Or that's how he treats otheres that don't suck his taint. Anyways I was about to move and was looking for another job in Modesto to move back with my family. I got an interview and was driveing back and forth trying to get my things and work and juggling everything, they keep texting me, "so when are you getting your stuff, we need your stuff gone" like what the fuck? I deside to move out and they ackt like they are kicking me out, they are just made becus they will finoly have to have some responsibility. They had no jobs by the way and just went to school wile I bust my ass at work drive 35 min to work and back spend gas and go to school and they dare bitch that I used up alot of electricity. They where just horable insane people that only cared about themselves. So I told them you ackt like I have nothing els to do?! And I told them what day I would be out. They did not care I asked can I have just 1 day to sleep there do I can get the rest of my stuff work my day and quit. I called them and asked that. My ex friend said" umm your stuff should have bin out of here yesterday. You don't live here anymore" I was like are you fucking serious? Yeah Rick like always its all about you. Hung up and just drove all the way from Modesto 1 hour and a half hours away after my new job at night to go get my shit. I get there and the lock of the door was changed. I knock they open the door and ackt like I don't even egsist. I just grabed my shit and left. Sigh. It dosent matter, I know that bitch isent going amount to shit anyway. I'm just going to start my own life. I just waisted 1 year of my life helping those ass holes advance there career wile I worked my ass of to keep a roof over there heads. They almost lost the apartment and I paid 700 bucks. Never got any of that back, they said I that I already paid that with like eating and the electricity I used. Fucken leaches. They where boy friend and girl friend. So if I had a problem with 1 of them I had a problem with both of them, fucking stupid. But when they had a problem between eachother I had to be the one in the middle saying who is right or wrong, but when I was wright about something they one if them jest said I'm not getting in to your guyses argument. Fucking pathetic. Ugh they will end up in the shit, I know it, now that they have no one to blame. And if your reading this Rick, stop being a stalker and get in with your life.

yay! I got pulled over for looking like i was up to know good. So... The cop said he stopped me for driving to fast past a stop sign, not threw a stop sign. As in the stops on the left and right side of my lane. It was fucking ridiculous, he stopped me, cus my car looks like shit, i had the seat back a little and i had my hoody on wile i was driving. I just got off working 8 hours and i wanted to block the lights from hitting my fucking eyes. Anyways the cop had an attitude, he was white and blond hair. He gave me a citation for not having my home address on my drivers silences even tho i just moved. So I ask him after he gave it to me "So.... why was I piled over?" He answered "What? You want me to wright you up a ticked for that too?" I was like "No, thanks anyway" What an ass. Now I have to go to DMV and all this other bull shit.

Here is the links. thumbs up and comment and all that stuff.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zbB6.....CIALL_bkm00tsc

http://youtu.be/zbB6wvKXQKw

yeah, I know its stupid

So what happened is this black dude co worker of mine named Marcus is a Nigger >:C no I'm not racist. I just call em like i see em! So anyway.... This is how it started. I worked the night shift and close down the kitchen. I washed every plate and ran it threw the machine "I'm a dish washer by the way." i emptied out the basket that catches all the food and crap and hosed down the where the plates and everything is put before washing. I did have to put this crap away, but i was just feeling lazy that day and if everything is washed then its ok.

Next day I come to work and see on the white bored a written message for me by Marcus. I was like this mother fucking nigger man. Then the executive chef comes and said " I got complaints about last night, I'm gonna go over them with you" and I'm like ok. So he goes on and said that there was allot of dirty dishes, everything was piled up and dirty and that i didn't empty out the garbage disposal. After hearing that shit I was fucken pissed!! I did not show it. Inside I said REVENGE! I told the chef that he was highly exaggerating. So whatever i went on my busyness and took a pic with my phone of the white bored. I for the rest of the day plotted of what I can wright on the white bored for his stupid a thinking hes my fucken manager and also showing to the rest of the kitchen what I supposedly did wrong. He made it public and i wasn't about to take that shit from no fucken nigger Jamal!!

I thought of all the portability's of what he dos wrong at work, besides act like a nigger all the time. I took a chance to calm down and gather my thoughts. I said what would piss him off. I said to myself I know, I'll talk smart and nicely in the message, cus I know niggers don't like being talked to in the original American way of talking. All they know is ebonics there black English bull shit. Anyways this is how it went.

January 2, 2012

Marcus wrote:

JESUS,
Please do a MUCH better job completing you nightly tasks, if the night is not busy there’s no excuse! Everything must be finished before leaving, Thanks.

Jesus replied:

Marcus
I am deeply sorry that I did not live up to company standards. I will take the complaint and correct my mistakes. I would like to give you some friendly advice as well. You could better your work ethics by not talking about are female co-workers in a sexual manner. I am not the least bit interested about if a female workers butt is big enough to balance and or hold your drink beverage. Also please try to be on time and check your work schedule regularly to avoid missing any days or work hours. Tardiness affects the work place negatively and makes us look unprofessional. "No excuses." I may mess up at work at times, but at least I'm on time to work, fix, and correct my mistakes. Have a good workday fellow dishwasher.

After this I knew that the "black rage" the thing that all blacks have inside them would come out after this. Black people just do not know how to keep there fucken cool and that's a fact. Ever want to fuck a black person over at work? just piss them off and let them do the wrest :3 so the morning after I get a phone call 2 times wile i was asleep from an unknown number. I wasn't going to answer that shit. I'm sleeping. *ding* voice mail. Guess who :3?

Marcus Phone Voicemail: January 3, 2012 8:27 AM

“what’s up fuck boy? Yeah this the truth man, one day somebody you want to be like. Strait up. I got your little note man and I see you got to start a little fight about it, you know I’m a man, man. You can holler at me about any thing, but at the same time I’m gonna remain checking these asses or sucking these titty’s you feel me? Get on my height bra . I appreciate that that you finally got the hint of what to do you feel me? You finally learned how to be a man and really work your job. Strait up, but I ain’t going to change me, but at the end of the day you still ain’t going to be shit, you still going to be weak bra and all this shit you feel me. So when you see me at work bra you can tell me exactly how you feel. Strait up I’m gonna be here till 3:30 and it don’t change.

Definition: “**** boy” is a male who is weak, someone you don’t like, a hatter, a weak young male that is in jail and is being used as a sex item.

After this shit I was like wtf? Fuck that! I never gave this nigger my number, he went out of his way to find it and call me with a blocked number saying Im not a fucken man? Nigger please....

So i was done.. I reported his ass that day! I gave them all the info showed the pics and let them listen to the voice mail. This guy would be pretty much fucked and i would fight till this nigger was fired or i would sew the place! He pretty much admitted he was sexually harassing chicks at work and said in the voice male that h would keep doing it. On top of that he threatened me and wanted confrontation and took matters out of the work place!! Fire him fire him fire him!

Well I went to the meting and thought they where going to try and make us kiss and make up. Head chef and the guy from human resources called me to the office. They tell me... "Marcus resigned this morning before we could tell him anything about what happened." I was like wow. He probably just said I'm to good for this shit and quit! good thing to, because I would have fucked that peace of shit over soooooooooo fucken bad.

Not so big and black and manly now bitch!! Now I sit back and enjoy what I have done >:3 hay I hate people who have jobs that don't deserve them. He was one of those niggers. Good bye and good riddance.

Victory IS MINE!!

I bought 2 ps3 games, prince of pershia the forgotten sands i think and Duke nukem for evers. Also bought a juicer, for xmas I got my mate a pillow pet moos and a gyroscope. Oh yeah I haves a mate now, hes fat cute and deaf :3

Its dudeimabear.com

yay awesome!!!

i still have a throat problem and finding help is still a bitch. oh well, i am seeing someone tho, hes a big cute chub, he dos not talk because hes deaf. I don't care about that :3 I hope it works out with him, im tired of being alone :C i started school and its hard for me, even to have just 1 class and job on the side. I have really bad concentration, but i try, I am taking a class on recording audio. want to take a drawing class next semester and the next class of recording if i pass this one. its just a bitch to take classes and work. like this week sunday 9pm to 5am work, monday same, Tuesday 8am class, Wednesday 8am work, and thursday class at 8am. hurrrr. thats all for today *hugs*

Well my throte is still fucked up after like a year and a half, yay no one gives a shit. Anyway it just makes me sick alot. All i can do is gargle salt water. might just get helth inshurance thats like 120 a month
then they make you pay 25 for a visit. then if ytheres medicin you need to pay for it and bla bla bla. Jeez is it a bitch to get help. Expensive as well. Cant make songs cant practice singing. At times i just feel like giveing up everything. I'm just gonna have a shit job and work work work till im dead and thats it, woopty doo.

well i made a music video with that last song i did. just lazy one. here it is if you want to see it or share it with others. Its nothing special really.

link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T_8j.....el_video_title

The thing is, most gay guys are shit, the nice ones are taken or to old, or I'm just not atracted to. Then when it feels like mr wright may be commen along. I feel afraid to fall in love with him, cus im afraid of getting hurt, I'm afraid I'll have chozen the wrong mate to live hte rest of my life with, I'm afraid ill hurt him some how, feel like I'm not good enuff, to fat, to skinny. Then it comes to just how i am, i dont like clubbing and im antisocial, I prety much am fucked. So i'm prety much just given up. Theres no solution to this problem i guess. just have to wait.

It like I would go, but all I see is gay dudes that use it as a reason to be half naked on the street. Oh well just me I guess. I'm just not that gay or just not that good-looking to be half naked. Others times I've gone to some sort of gay gathering or club, everyone turns out to be fucken idiots or ass holes, or most of all fake. Alot of gay dudes tend to acktion like there glamorous and need some goochy or some other gay expensive bull shit to be in the in crowd. I personally hate the gay community or so that's what they call it, like of we are united. Witch is total bull shit. I realy think I would hqve bin better off if I were strait. I'm just tired of all this bull shit. Ugh

I got q job as a dishwasher in the kitchen place of a fancy hotel ^^ all I realy wanted was my foot in the door, I always wanted to work in a hotel :3 I get discounts and everything. And they said I have to pay 3 bucks to get fancy food, but i found out that it was a lie, the chefs cook make me whatever I want for free!!! They have left over cookies and cakes and sometimes sodas from like conventions and such and it's already paid for so they will just throw it away. I can take it home :3. All I do is wash dishes an put them in a machine and it cleans em and I put it away and that's it, and I love it cus unlike people "costumers" plates know when to shut the fuck up!! >:C
1. Free food, desserts, soda, OJ, apple juce, tea, lemonade.
2. Hotel discounts
3. Vacation time as a "part time" that shit is rare
4. Best of all I don't have to deel with alot of people and 0 costumers and no one gives me shit!!

5. Air-conditioning mrrrr

To me it's a dream part time job, I get paid 8.80 an hour, 80 cents more than my other job, also I think tips are distributed threw out evry one so I might get q little extra :3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WNfv.....feature=relmfu

This makes me want to have a mate like "wright now." so I can love him for as long as I can.

I moved out of my moms hous and live with friends. It's not 100% better but way better than liveing with people that talk shit about what I do, like draw and play guitar. I do want to draw some more but with my classes that last from 8 to 5 and the work on weekends I just kind of feel like not doing shit. 2 days ago I grabed my guitar and kicked procrastination in the fucken face! Just working on my hands and fingers to get used to the guitar again by learning songs off YouTube. As for drawing I will make time for that to. Still have some super late commissions that people asked, I don't forget I just am a lazy ass bear. Also being depressed dosent help much eather. I see day by day that the time is ticking and if I want to make music and draw my manga I need to do it NOW!! I'm 22 and decided to make a dead line. If I don't get so grate at what I want to do I'll just quit when I turn 25 so that's like 2 and a half years. Im waiting for next semester to get my singing, drawing, music making classes. Im new so i get last pic for the first semester :/ Life blows inuff as it is, I need to reach for my dreams because that's what I feel is all I have left to hold on to. I think lifes pointless unless you do what you love to do. Just have to try. But yea, that's whats bin going on I guess.

So I decided to go to the comic book store. Looked around, boght 1 and when I'm walking to the car I find that I left my lights on. I was like shit my car isn't gonna turn on. It didn't -.- out of frustration I locked the door and when to the goodwill to look at some stuff. I called my friend and told him what happend. Then he asked if o waned him to come get me I said no. I walk back to the car and dig in my pockets for my keys. o.o WTF where r my keys. Looked inside they where on the ignition >.< so now I had a dead battery and keys locked in car and stuck outsside is like 40 degree weather at night -.- I called my friend and a cors he laght his ass off :/ came over called AAA and they Kame and unlocked the door and gave me a jump. That sucked so bad. Oh and also there was some peope in there car sitting there watching the hole thing happen as I try to brake in to my brothers truck -.-* yea

I have bin busy with school and am working on moving out. Moving out hopefully with in 2 weeks. Also was tide up with school, but not nO more. Work has me stessed all the time. Not having a mate or someone to Saport what I do dosent help rather. Depressed most of the time because I'm lonely. The place I'm living at at the moment is full of drama and yelling and screaming. I'm not involved but herring it day after day makes me depressed and agitated. Bin chain smoking like crazy. My room is so vary small and clutterd it makes me not want to do anything on top of everything els. I'm just waiting till my friends get there lones and stuff threw so I can leave this place. Till then I still have to work at my supper stressful shitty job as a waiter. Or els we will Loos the apartment and I'll be stuck her for ever. Everything wouldn't be so bad if I had someone to love and that would love me back. Sigh. Day by day life feels like lifes not worth liveing anymore. I wish I could just fast forward to the day I die

im looking for a tail to ware on my but :D3 but i look threw the internet and all i find are real fox tails and stuff. they look nice and all, but I feel bad for the pore foxies and other animals. I dont want to where a pore little guys tail that got shot in the face or atacked by hound dogs, thats realy mean D: I have used leather stuff but thats a bit different to me. Dos anyone know of any sights i can get a tail thats not real but looks real or at least nice and cute?

http://videogamevoters.com/

I'm sending my old DREAMCAST controller!! Wait *looking* shit cant find it T.T just NES controller. uuurrrr Its for a good cos tho.