And I find myself reminiscing on stuff.

Kind of avoiding the depressive side to it, but well, i wound up checking an old friends page. We used to be an item, i guess, and then she started dating a local guy, can't blame her since I'm not a valid choice for a lover. XD Anyway, I noticed they still had their twitters, so I checked to make sure they were still going... Yeah. I'm glad they are having fun now, just obviously peeved that I'm still where I am. What sucks is all our old art is still on their old DA, and she really should just remove it.

Otherwise remembering old cartoons, old friends, old games... Just those good old simple days. I'm looking at getting a new job here soon too, once my dad leaves for 9 months, shit will hit the fan, so yeah. x.x I still have my old job but... it's not looking good, not because of me ,but because of the owners. XD

Anyway, sitting here, sipping coffee, wishing I had something better to do or whatever... I'd love t oget some art right now, just pay someone to doodle on a LS or something but well, eh, funding is low and no one is on for it. XD

No I am not drunk, that's just a common drunk joke. 8D

BUT today is my 21st birthday guys, August 21st! :3 I'm not sure what I'll be doing today, maybe hanging with friends and checking out Scott Pilgrim or something. Will be on the PC and Xbox a lot too, I'm guessing. XD But yes, I ca now legally drink the substance I didn't want anyway. I will be grabbing a few things at the shop, then drinking at home MUCH later tonight, don't plan on getting drunk. *Nods* Buzzed maybe, though. I'm a lightweight, I figure, so yeah.

Anyway, happy birthday to me and such, and though I refuse to beg or insist on gift art, it's ALWAYS appreciated. <3 XD

OKay, so I'm not very good at these games but like ,i played MvC2 and Street Fighters and such, so i try.

One good thing in MvC3 for me is Amaterasu! :3

The bad is I didn't see Amingo... I really wanted Amingo to make another appearance, but I guess popularity wins. :i

Otherwise, the game looks exactly like Tatsunoko Vs. Capcom as opposed to the traditional MvC games, so I worry a little, since I hated playing Tastunoko every now and then x.x

Anyway, I may still get it, bu if I am ever fighting online, expect me to bitch about how there is no Amingo. D: I mean yeah, not all characters were revealed ,but there is no signs of him appearing... Sadface.

OKay so like, today inthe 18th, my birthday arrives on the 21st, and I just DO NOT want to drink at this point. Fuck Alcohol, it has only one benefit, maybe two. A medical one and one way to avoid arguments, though start others.

Anyway, yeah, still worrying about Saturday, hopefully we're just too busy or something.

Speaking of being busy, yeah, we still need to paint up the main room and de-carpet it so those carpet guys can do their job, and are apparently showing up on Sunday, so I gotta get all my stuff out of my room again... not sure how to get the bed frame out... Ugh.

The french girl arrived, woohoo, thankfully no thick accent or anything, seems pretty normal, life is good. *nods*

And my truck is still undetermined if it is dead or not. I just need to take time to get under it and fix it or something. :I

Not stressed, yet, but uhm, wow...

My truck is dead, the gearshift just completely came off, basically. XD We're gonna tow it with a friend later x.x

So now I'm presented with a vehicle lacking problem, on top of this god damn French girl thing, who arrive tomorrow, by the way! That and her room isn't finished being painted, we still have to paint the MAIN room, and de-carpet that as well... I dunno if I can get a loan for a new car or not, and if I do, well guys, no more commissions... I'll keep to what I have left, and pay you guys but it look like all my fantasies will now be looked away thanks to engineering on this truck. D: So prepare to hear me go "Requests?!" or just mooch off others for a bit XD Sadly I know I have two or so ideas in discussion, and hope to get them, otherwise just, hat's all for now x.x

So yeah, need a new car, this French girl thing is a pain in my ass, and commissioning is closed from me, aside from what's outstanding or in the works.

I hate stress, and it isn't even mine!

It's rare. RARE. that I ever get stressed out, and when I do I just go hide in my room and cool off.

My family however... well let's see...

Mom, oh mom... she stresses about EVERY LITTLE THING! If it wasn't done perfectly, it wasn't done right in her eyes. FOr instance, I had that room I needed to paint before getting all my stuff down to it, and I did a pretty bad job, so I had to do a second coat, not even 30 minutes into painting she comes down, bitches about how terrible it looks, and starts doing it herself. THEN I hear her ranting about how she'll need to buy MORE paint. It's not a big fucking deal! It's a useless room in the basement! On top of this she has her work stress, people at this company are pretty stupid, I swear. I notice she tends to cause a lot of this stress for herself though. The room is just because she wants it to look absolutely perfect, the job she could just quit, already has a second income, and just, ugh, she needs to not care so much about everything.

My father, now again, this is like, a my dad side of the family thing, we don't stress out often. It takes a LOT of build up to get his nerve to hit. It hit this morning as he yelled at my mother and sister while I was heading out for work. He's leaving on a 9 month deployment to Afghanistan, and I can understand the pressure is building on him.

My sister, eh... she's a brat, a spoiled brat, I notice half the things my parents complain about usually wind up going back to the start from her.They'll never blame her, but hey. This whole room swapping thing and house cleaning and blah blah all started because she wanted a foreign exchange student!

My brother is in Navy Basic Training right now, so yeah, he's doing good I'm guessing.

But yeah, this is mainly about my mom, she needs to just quit this job, I can find a new one, or so I hope, and like, ugh, just needs to not care so much!

Sorry for the tl;dr crap and ranting, but I only stress out when my mother starts to nag me about it, I don't filter her stress well. x.x

So while preparing for a litigant picture capture, I failed to realize my caps lock was on when trying to sign into ImageShack. So I remembered DumpYourPhoto and yeah... it tossed a virus at me and I cannot open any programs without it stopping them and trying to run its fake virus scanner. So my PC is currently dead until I get some assistance. FUCK!

Hey guys, thanks to everyone who faved and commented on all the stuff I uploaded. I still have more but, my mood is just all "No, no want to upload." XD

But PLEASE, PLEASE! Stop thanking me for drawing it, because I never do! I leave the original artist in the submission description so you can visit their page! Stop asking me for doodles too, I don't really draw and the stuff you see obviously isn't mine. XD

Anyway, just because I like to see what results I get from this, MY BIRTHDAY! It arrives on August 21st! Sadly, this is going to be my 21st birthday, I say sadly because I've seen what alcohol does to people, I've seen fun things, but I've seen even more terrible things. Not to mention, being where I live, I've had chances to get tastes of beers and wines and such, and honestly, there's only this cheap crap wine I drink, and I HATE the taste of any beer. So uh, I think I'll either hide or just tell everyone to fuck off, even my own father who, I'll feel bad for not fulfilling any desires here, but even with him leaving for a 9 month deployment like, right after it, I refuse to get shit-faced, just so he can see his first born get wasted for once.

That and, what the fuck is the point of not remembering what you did last night? I'd be scared shitless! Yes, forgetting things and basically everything about alcohol scares me. A few drinks, sure, getting wasted until you lose control of my bodily functions, yeah go fuck yourself. D:

So any recommendations would be appreciated, and yeah, let's just hope for a safe birthday! :3

I actually noticed a lot of stuff I got was kinda sketchy or not related to Duez himself, so I kinda skipped it for now. I do have a LOT more, but I think I've uploaded the majority of what I wanted to get out there so you guys know more about me/Duez. XD

Enjoy the mostly Porn!

It's Sunday, I'm home alone, and though doing alright on MW2, feel it is time to stop being lazy with my FA account ,and upload like crazy.

SO, WARNING, Prepare to have your inboxes flooded if you're watching me. I have like ,50 or so pieces, I think, backed up form commissions. XD

LET THE FLOOD BEGIN!

Uuuugh I was too tempted. D:

Also Journal space clearing. 8D

[ ] you meow/bark to get attention
[ ] you find pets toys amusing
[ ] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[ ] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[ ] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[ ] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection
[ ] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and brings it back
Total: 0

[ ] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[ ] you love fish/meat
[ ] you like to stick your head out trough the window of a moving car
[ ] you like when people pet your head
[ ] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[ ] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 0

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime
[ ] you enjoy scaring birds
[ ] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[ ] you bite people if they annoy you
[ ] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[ ] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 1

[ ] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit
[ ] you enjoy long walks in the park
[ ] you meow/bark when you see something you want
Total: 0

[ ] you call your hands and feet "paws"
[ ] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[ ] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[ ] you really enjoy cuddling
[ ] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 1

[ ] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[ ] you meow or bark very often
[ ] you hide when you get scared
[x] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[ ] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[x] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[ ] you like to do tricks to get a treat
Total: 2

[ ] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it
[ ] you refer to your self as an animal
[ ] your username has something to do with animals
[ ] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[ ] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[ ] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 0

[ ] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[x] you like to say hi to strangers
[ ] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[ ] people think you act like a pet
[ ] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[ ] you like to eat grass
[ ] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Final Total: 5

Now, take your score and multiply it with by two to get your final score.
10%

And for boredom reasons, I will explain the 5 I marked.
1. A LOT of people sleep during the day. Children take naps, older people just are old and tired, and teenagers are programmed to operate during the night. I only nap in the day on weekends now, though. *Nods*
2. Yeah, I can wake up, look around, and pass right back out. Not all the time, but I can do it, it just depends if I'm lazy, or if I looked at my clock and realized "Crap, 2am, need more sleep for WORK!"
3. OF COURSE I CHECK WHO IS AT MY DOOR! Holy christ are people DUMB? Are they Anti-social and just peek through and go "Yeah, just leave it on the step... and baaaaack away."? And I run because people in this world are impatient, so you gotta get there fast.
4. I have a TERRIBLE grinding habit with my jaw. I grind in my sleep, I grind during the day, ugh my teeth have suffered so much. So yeah, I chew on stuff to try and not grind.
5. It's called being fucking POLITE, It will not kill you, unless in a ghetto or something, to wave and go "Hi" and let that be that, no one said you had to SPARK a conversation, just say hello.

I answered these to prove the FLAWED LOGIC in this questionare, everyone who did this is dumb. :I It looks like a 4channer made it for heavens sakes, picking out certain features only the unstable would act out with. CHRIST! D:<

I wear a bandanna... Okay not really, this is just from a chime I used to hear on the radio.

ANYWAY! Yes! Iam now back home in good old not humid Montana! Chicago was honestly awful. I hated it there, I was forced to always hang with family, and I never got to visit any furs. ;_; Peopl are insane in Chicago too. D:

On a plus notice, though, my paypal was restored. I just called them, got an American with a brain, and they fixed it for me. I let them know that button doesn't work, too. So YAY! I can waste money again!

Chicago is over. I leave in the morning and go straight through back to Montana. I'm actually pissed that I found no furs, but Chicago just makes NO SENSE. Finding people is impossible, man. D: But hey, my family made the trip cool at least. I bought things and blah blah. The trip was pretty casual, so no super detail.

Also, I have created a Facebook, yes, world is over. I won't use it often, but if anyone is interested, here's the profile. I'll toss my Duez name on there eventually.

http://www.facebook.com/#!/profile.php?id=100001348945110

DAMN THAT NUMBER IS HUGE. O:

Made it in! I am now in Chicago and starting tomorrow I'd like to try and hang around some furs if I can. XD Call 1 406 788 8517 to reach me of you have ideas!

I cannot give out the address for safety reasons, but we can totally meet at like, resturauntsor malls or whatever!

Okay, my last journal was supposed to say a few things but this phone kinda lost it all. XD So anyway I'm currently in a hotel for the night and the trip has been surprisingly smooth. I will be in Chicago on Monday, it actually seems, so yay. I have no idea how I'll get to all the furs, but I guess it's individual notes when I get to a PC.

OKAY SO! Yes, I FINALLY saw Toy Story 3, and no I have yet to see HTTYD, need to still see Despicable Me, and Salt... and uh, The Expendables, was it?

Anyway, I fucking LOVED Toy Story 3, I was worried it would be bad, another milking of a series but.. wow, Pixar has once again blown my mind. I loved every bit of it and actually didn't see some things coming!

But more importantly, I LOVED, there are no words for this, just ADORED Day & Night. This is like ,talking up to near Cheshy or Jose levels! The animated short just... HOLY SHIT. <3 It was well animated, it was cute, it was gay, and I loved every fucking second. <3 This could make for some bad results later for other fans though... XD I could be terrible.

Anyway, lastly here, I'm going on Vacation! For anyone who did not know, I have a family vacation planned in Chicago. I'll be in Chicago probably around Tuesday, we leave Sunday. I'll be there for about two weeks, and I REALLY need some furs to hang out with. I love my family bu it's gonna be TWO WEEKS. XD So yeah, help a housecat out! :3 Also, I'd prefer to be in groups, one on one is okay, but you never know when you may meet that guy who may tie you up in his basement. XD

Anyway, I'm gonna go drool over Day & Night s'more while shooting peeps on MW2, peace!

Okay, so I'm looking to get this speeding ticket paid off here (Need to just get the money order or whatever and mail it) and yeah, it's gonna suck up what I have for my paycheck until at least Friday or Monday. So just an update so that if anyone I owe money to manages to finish their work for me BEFORE than, you WILL get the money by Monday, otherwise yeah, hope all is well. :3

Also, in related news, I'm actually looking for someone who can do good Macro Porn. Now I am not normally into any of that stuff, but after messing with some Rampage: Total Destruction and Rampage: World Tour, I've been tempted to get something. I also need an artist good for Micro-porn, I'm sure there are like, 5 I'm watching just because they are great artists and I'm not noticing they draw micro. XD

So yeah, spread the word that I'm seeking a good macro, and a good micro artist for two separate ideas! :3

Kind of out of things to do. I forgot I meant to go shooting on Friday, so no wasting more 22 rounds, fail. D:

Anyway, I know my folks are all like "Clean house, weed the yard, blah blah" and Weeding just sucks, man. D: Ffff

Anyway, just seeing what I can do, I'm sorta watching that Magic Ring movie for Tom and Jerry, I found Jim Cummings in it. Droopy's rival guy has his voice which reminded me of Mayor Manx form Swat Kats and I was like "Fuck, I'm right again!"

Jim is so amazing though!

Also, Trainer Duez challenges you to a battle!

is a friend indeed! Doi!

Anyway, my good artist buddy here,  isil is in a slight money crisis. If you be so kind as to even just gander at this journal of theirs: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1512124/ and just check their gallery, I'm sure you could find something you'd LOVE to get from 'em. I will say now that they offer INKED COMICS. Comics are a rare offer people! Get 'em while they be hot! Or even his/her, I can never say which anymore XD, colored works are astounding as well. <3 So go give Isil some loving, guys and gals!

Also, holy shit artist pimping!

Right, so let me kinda fill this in here. I hate drinking, I hate drugs, I hate when both are applied where I live with underaged teens.

So, this happened a while back, my Dad is gone for some military thing, and my brother takes this as his chance to throw a party. Normally I'm okay with this unless the above subject is involved, and it was. THANKFULLY I never called the cops that day, and saved us some grief, I had no idea my parents could be arrested for having underage drinkers in their house and whatnot, so DAMN good I woke my mom up instead that day and bailed the party.

SO, I bring this up because it just happened AGAIN. My little brother is TWO WEEKS from joining the Navy, and my father and the airman usually here are both gone on a military war-game thing, and he tries to throw a drinking party. Thankfully I caught onto it within 5 minutes and waited for him to come get a pizza he was making to talk it out with him. Luckily we avoided a fight, and I managed to get everyone out of the house, but HOLY SHIT the excuses. "I've avoided the cops before" "It won't get out of hand" "I haven't seen these people in months". I hate to be a dick, but I'm thinking for his future, so no, that's horseshit. Playing games all night, sure, chatting and hanging out, fine. DRINKING? The fuck is wrong with you? And when my mother and I have to WORK in the morning? How fucking stupid do you get?

Anyway, I've played the right cards tonight, I think. Luckily I was awake for this ,was napping all day and managed to wake up just in time.

Fuck, I try to remain happy in my day, but it takes one of a handful of things just to piss me right off. For no good reason too.

Anyway, aside from my currently aggressive and naggy behavior, I also have some light bad news.

I will not be going to Furfright, and am not sure if I will ever be able to make it to a convention with the way I spend money. XD I just love commissions too much, so for not I'm still a net junky, yay.

Anyway, still have the speeding ticket I need to pay off, going to probly do it on Monday, and then my Insurance is tomorrow, so I'll be pretty much out of money for the next week, so HOPEFULLY no good offers for art come up during this time. XD

I'd love to go. I have people I wanna meet and stuff I wanna do in silly old CT, buuuut one problem. My funding is low right now.

I can get a ticket at a minimum of 500 dollars right now, and that's what I'd need help with. XD It's just one of those "Need the money NOW" situations, and I'd be willing to pay any donations back over time, but I'm not sure how well that will work just by using Paypal, I have to do a little more research. x.x

But like yeah, I'm trying to get 500 right now so I can afford that plane ticket, and then I should be able to pay back anyone who helps before the convention arrives. Though honestly there is no reason to assist unless you're one of the con-goers and really, really, really want me to visit. XD

But yeah, not setting this up officially yet, but it's an idea. I REALLY want to go to this con this year. XD

OKay, journal kinda deleted here, and uh, yeah, my check was not put in the bank. It has been fixed now. MONEY YAY!

I'm doing Inkbunny first because it takes less time!

I am now on there, I did it just in case I may need it in the future, I may not be as active on it yet, but if you see DUEZ, that should more than likely be ME, now. XD

NOW.... RENO!

Okay, so I spent 2 weeks in Reno, here's the overview:

The trip was long, about 15 hours to get there. I survived though with the two people I went with, the one guy was pretty useless though except for gas money. Didn't even drive, had no license.

Upon arrival I got to see where I was staying and whatnot, and we went out ,got food, I met an FA user here, AJ Vulpine or something like that, he's alright. :3

And I don't remember a lot of details ,I really don't feel like tlaking too much about the trip, but I metseveral other artists down there.  cth  yashendwirh and uh,  baseprogression

Everyone was pretty cool, tjhey made my trip basically the entire vacation part of it. The place I was staying at has this CRAZY mother fucking mom there, the dad was cool though, retired Master Sergeant. But yeah, had barely ANY net time and fucking... she's a hypocritical mother.

Anywho, met some of the guys' friends (The friend of mine who invited me down there to go with him, that is) and they were alright. Not a lot to do in Reno, I learned that the local Smith's in Sparks (Where I stayed) is like, where you go to hang out or do ANYTHING x.x It's almost like being home, just with no computer. It sucked for me.

I bought a few things while there, they had a Diisney store so I was all "FUCK YEAH". I only was able to get a Stitch and Timon doll though. No Lion King lions or Jose Carioca for me. D:

Also got an Angry Beavers bag at the Hot Topic up there. :P

Uhm, Yasha was awesome! It was hilarious for me. I walk in, am at the age of 20 (21 in 2 months), and without even checking, offers me a drink. XD Only had the one, something tiny and fruity, was all good. Base showed up as well and we watched some Father of the Pride. <3 Also,I bought everyone some Denny's, Yasha is oing a little doodle to pay it back for me.Which totally ROCKS, XD

While hanging with Cth it was mostly talk about furry stuff, plan parties that didn't happen for me, and met some other guys while hanging with him. He let me stay over for a night too, which was good because I hated staying at the one house x.x

There are a lot of things I wanna rant about, few that I want to praise, and so on and so forth, but honesty, it was a dull trip. Only so many things happened, it was pretty useless, but I met some neat people. I missed the chance at bothering  aartie and  shiuk though, sadness. D: