It's been a bit since I mentioned here that I have a Discord server for chatting and art sharing and stuff! I also post there about my ongoing current project too so yeah any support there would be fantastic!

Just remember to read the rules if you join, it'll explain the lack of chatrooms when you first join!

https://discord.gg/AgyxyDyUnR

So... it's been a few months, hasn't it?

Back in January, you'll probably remember that I announced I was going to be sort of stepping away from the fetish community for a while to pursue another project. Welp, I stuck to my word and it's now June. But... I barely have any artwork or community to show for my efforts toward bringing this so-called "other project" to life. So what exactly is going on?

Well... in all honesty, this is the main reason why I wanted to start focusing on this new project in the first place. I'm too slow at art, and if I'm being honest, I barely feel any passion toward it at all anymore. Over the years, art has become more of an obligation that I feel I need to commit to regularly to maintain relevance rather than seeing it as a hobby, and it's resulted in me experiencing severe burnout that's lasted several years. When I draw, I doubt every pen stroke I make. I'm so used to people demanding absolute perfection that I can't settle for anything less, and it's brought my productivity to a screeching halt. My main goal with pursuing this new project was not only to reignite that spark; to rediscover that passion for art that I once had, but to also give myself the opportunity to work on something that didn't need to be perfect to make people happy. But it's come at a cost. It's difficult trying to reach any kind of audience now, and the very few from this community who seem even remotely invested haven't provided much input for me to work with. Basically... I'm starting over from nothing, and I'm completely on my own in the art scene for the first time in just about ten years.

My primary reasoning for stepping away from the fetish scene to begin with was because, to put it simply... I just can't keep up anymore. There are tons of fatfur artists out there who are able to put out art pieces miles better than mine at quadruple the speed, and it's caused me so much stress over the last few years that I couldn't think of any other option to help myself than to just turn away from it all for a while. My output is one of the slowest out of anyone in this community, and the quality of my work is not at all reflective of the time it took to get it completed. I'm just... tired of disappointing people.

This new project I'm working on... I have faith in it. I really do believe that it can succeed, much more than any other work I've put out in the past. But my art struggles of course followed me here, making this whole idea a lot riskier to execute than I originally had in mind. Starting over from nothing is one thing, but starting over from nothing with constant self-doubt around every turn... it makes me question whether or not this is really the right decision.

It's my dream to have this webcomic idea become a reality. But so far, its development has been nothing but complication after complication. Concept art taking months to get out, work taking up all my free time to the point where I can't even finish a full script for one episode, an almost complete lack of input from what little of a community I have surrounding it... is it really all worth leaving behind everything I've already spent so much time building up here? And on top of it all... will this really help me conquer the personal problems that have held my art and output back for years?

The answer is... I don't know. In less than a month, I will have been part of the fatfur community for an entire decade. And to be honest, I just don't see my condition changing if I continue to regularly participate in what I perceive to be a never-ending rat race. Maybe it's better if I just do my own thing. All of this really is just one giant risk I've decided to undertake... and is it really worth it?

I... I suppose only time will tell.

So I'm using this opportunity to promote one of my pages elsewhere lmao

I've been REALLY lagging behind on BlueSky so I'd really appreciate it if yall could give me a follow there!!

https://bsky.app/profile/dullpointd.....ws.bsky.social

And completely forgot to mention that it was my birthday. That's uh, never happened here before

But anyway yeah, happy late birthday to me 🥳

So in my previous journal, you'll probably remember that I discussed wanting to put more focus toward my SFW projects in the coming future. It's been over a month now, but I've finally gotten around to creating an SFW page (on multiple platforms) that I plan on using as a repository for all my SFW "general furry" art and ideas.

I've also created a Linktree to help folks find my new accounts on all these different platforms as well. Please, if you have any interest at all in my future not-so-fetishy art endeavors, give me a follow on my new pages if you can!

https://linktr.ee/plasmawolf.studios

I think it goes without saying that this last year was not a very active one on my part. For the last several months I've been struggling to grasp who exactly I want to be both in the online space and the furry community as a whole, and I am beyond burnt out with the type of content I've consistently been creating these last (almost) ten years as Dullpoint. I think I may have mentioned it earlier last year but I feel I'm slowly throwing myself and my potential out the window chasing something that I feel will not matter in the long run. My art brings people joy... but does it bring *me* joy?

I see other creators bringing their characters and stories to life every day, and it just makes me feel more and more guilty for simply "wasting" all my artistic ability on fetish art. That isn't to say fetish art is a bad thing in any sense, of course, but to me I feel that drawing solely that for almost a decade has effectively killed off my ability to offer the world anything else, at least creatively. There was a time ten years ago where I would draw comics, cartoons, and other things just to express the stories I came up with. They may not have been very well-drawn, but my friends IRL all enjoyed them and I enjoyed their enthusiasm about them. It was a cycle of motivation and comradery that pretty much perpetuated itself infinitely, and regardless of how much I drew, I never burnt myself out. But suddenly, out of nowhere, I just decided to put it all aside to chase this fetish art stuff online, and now... it's been so long that I've practically forgotten how to put anything to paper but that. And even then, I'm barely confident with any of it. To put it rather bluntly... I'm tired of it all.

I think it's time I make a change.

This year my resolution is to start putting much more focus on my more SFW passion projects and ideas that I would love people to see someday. I want to take all this fetish stuff and just kinda... put it on the backburner for a while, I guess. I want my characters to shine in a way that EVERYONE can enjoy, not just this niche part of the internet. That's not to say I don't love each and every one of you guys, and I am HUGELY appreciative of the support you all have given me these last ten years. But I just... can't fight this feeling that I'd like to put my efforts toward what I REALLY aspire to be as a creator. I'm not entirely sure if this is me getting older and maturing, or if this is me just desperate to return to a time in my life where I was happier, but either way, I have ideas and I just want to act on them already.

I won't be stopping fetish art altogether. That's not at all what I'm saying. But if I find myself chasing these dreams of mine, fetish art will undoubtedly become much less of a priority for me. I do have a couple smaller pieces I've had lying around that I'd like to finish up first if possible, but once I do that I plan to just go all in on my SFW personal projects. This will likely come as a disappointment to most of the people following me, and I acknowledge that. I'm doing this simply to help myself as a creator. I'm tired of feeling burnt out and pouring what little motivation I have left into things I find myself not genuinely proud of. I want to enjoy art again; the way I did when I was younger. And in order to do that I feel I need to demonstrate what I know I'm ACTUALLY capable of as a creator... or at least what I once was capable of.

Thank you all for hearing me out, and I heavily appreciate any and all support you out there may have for my decision here and what I plan to put my focus toward going forward. It wasn't an easy decision. I may not be giving up entirely on what I have here, but I suppose it was inevitable that there would come a day where I'd look back at what I created and ask myself "is this really all I want to do forever?"

And the answer to that question, of course, is... no. I have much bigger ideas. And I think it's time I at least *try* to do something with them.

Just wanted to remind everyone again that I have a BlueSky page:

https://bsky.app/profile/dullpointd.....ws.bsky.social

I'm not going to be leaving this site or Twitter anytime soon, but I just want more people to be able to find my page over there as well!

Seeing as how everyone is suddenly migrating to BlueSky, I'm just gonna remind yall that I have a page there too:

https://bsky.app/profile/dullpointd.....ws.bsky.social

Please give me a follow there if you can!

BUT just in case this site actually dies permanently at some point, you can also follow me here:

Twitter: https://twitter.com/DullpointDraws

BlueSky: https://bsky.app/profile/dullpointd.....ws.bsky.social

DA: https://www.deviantart.com/dullpoint

Itaku: https://itaku.ee/profile/dullpoint

Tumblr (if you're really that desperate at this point): http://dullpointdraws.tumblr.com/

Ko-Fi (tip jar): https://ko-fi.com/dullpoint

When you've drawn fetish art for as long as I have, you occasionally find yourself asking questions like
"is this really what I want to be remembered for?" and "is this really what I want to keep doing as a creator
forever?"

I've dismissed these questions for a long time because I figured at some point I'd just stop altogether and
fade into obscurity. Once I found something to actually do with my life, I'd move on. My creations would
live on as a few peoples' entertainment and nothing more. But recently, my thoughts on that have changed.
A lot.

I found myself crushing on Loona recently and as a result it got me into finding out more about the show
she's from, and subsequently its creator. The creator of Helluva Boss is a furry herself, and she has not only
been able to express her character designs and personalities through something actually meaningful, but has
built a massive community around them as well. She chased a dream and achieved exactly what she wanted,
in just seven years. It caused me to look at myself for weeks on end and it ultimately resulted in me asking
myself a solitary question:

What have I, as a creator, as a furry, meaningfully accomplished for this community?

And the answer to that is... nothing.

Sure, I make lots of fetish art that people like. Sure, I've created multiple characters of my own. But what
have I done with them beyond just using them as vessels to fuel my own degeneracy? Absolutely nothing. I've
never done anything meaningful with them, or made any stories about them, or hell, even just drawn them without
massive fucking bellies even once. As a member of the furry community, I've provided absolutely nothing of meaning
for anyone. Can I even call myself a member of the community at all at that point?

Lately I've been brainstorming ways I can bring my OCs together in a scenario that doesn't involve anything fetishy.
I've tried sharing my ideas around but it's nearly impossible to get any engagement from people about it because my
whole community just wants more bellies. I know the only way I'm going to ever get anyone's attention is by actually
drawing these characters in non-fetishy scenarios, like in a comic maybe, but with how busy my life is outside the internet
I'd barely be able to get a single page done in a month. I'm frustrated. I want people to know that I can create things
beyond fetish art, but everyone seems to overlook my work when it isn't something they can pleasure themselves to.

I honestly don't know why I felt the need to post about this in the first place. I just needed some way to vent my
frustration I guess. Maybe this is only a temporary feeling. Either way, it's been eating me alive from the inside out
for nearly two months now, and is partially responsible for my inactivity as of late. After drawing nothing but fat animals
for almost a decade you begin to question your path as a creator. I want to do more. I can do more. I just want people
to join me on that journey.

Just a reminder that I have a public Discord server for chatting, art sharing, and all else miscellaneous! For folks 18+ ONLY, please read the rules when you join (it'll explain the lack of chatrooms when you first join)! Please check it out if you're interested, we're always happy to welcome new members!

discord.gg/ZPAHdwv2AE

Hey, everyone! I uh, hope you're all doing well. It's been a real long while since I really posted anything here about how I'm doing outside of art, so... it's time to sort of update you all on what's been going on in my world. A lot has happened since the start of the year.

These last few months have been really... strange for me. I'm sure by now you've all noticed the uptick in Roxy art around here, and that's mostly because I've formed sort of an... emotional attachment to her. Back at the beginning of November I had sort of a moment of clarity about my art, that all started when I was exposed to some... Twitter statistics surrounding a piece of Roxy art someone else drew. It made me realize how much my art had stagnated, and for a brief moment I sank into a sort of feeling of hopelessness. But I quickly pulled myself back out and decided to start focusing on REALLY improving my art, using Roxy as my means of doing so. And in doing this, I got really attached to her. And I mean REALLY attached. It's not often I'm motivated to actually ANIMATE a character that isn't my own. As for whether or not I think I've actually improved since November? I mean... maybe?

But this sudden drive to improve didn't stop at just my art. Around the end of December I started to look at myself as a person as well, and tried to pinpoint the things in my life that were causing me the most stress and keeping me depressed overall. The biggest thing I pinpointed was my job, a shitty retail grocery store position I'd been working for nearly seven years. Nothing about the environment I worked in there helped my mental state at all. The area in which I was forced to work was THREATENINGLY close to being an actual health hazard and management was becoming increasingly strict on workers like myself due to low staffing, forcing us to take on tasks far too large for us to reasonably fit within a single shift (and then writing us up indiscriminately when we inevitably failed to work at the superhuman pace they demanded). For years I'd been unable to quit, however, as it was my only source of income. But this time I had an ace up my sleeve.

Back in October, I landed a TA position with the school I'm currently attending for my master's degree. I knew I was going to be paid to do this but I was not told how much I was being paid exactly. However, toward the start of January I received confirmation that I would actually be earning JUST as much from the TA as I made at my other job, while working less hours! This allowed me to FINALLY quit my grocery store job after the better part of a decade, finally removing myself from the increasingly hostile environment there. The TA job started up in mid-January, and so far it's been a HELL of a lot easier than the grocery store.

Over the last month since I took this crucial first step, I've been focusing on both myself and my art with whatever free time I can find outside of class. On top of working out my terrible sleep schedule, I've also started going to therapy. I've been put on antidepressants which will hopefully kick in over the next couple weeks, and I hope therapy in general will help finally remove me from the headspace I've been stuck in regarding my art for the last eight or so years. I really just want to be a happy person again, and I'm tired of accidentally hurting others with my negativity. Someday, I hope those people will forgive me, but... I need to fix myself first. And that's exactly what I plan to do.

I think... I think things are finally starting to look up for me.

Not sure I ever posted about it here before, but I've got a PRIVATE Discord server exclusively for friends and mutuals! We chat and share art and stuff, and there isn't a huge amount of people there so it's nice and comfy!

Just leave a reply if you'd like an invite, and I'll message one to ya!

*Please note I'll only be inviting people I either follow here or have chatted with before!*

The last couple weeks or so since I first shared my Roxy animation, I've had my mind set on a specific milestone that I really want it to reach. That milestone is closer than ever now, but I can't just keep retweeting the post on Twitter and have it continue to work the way I expect it to (at least not without constantly showing it over and over again to the people who follow me there lol). If any of you guys are on Twitter and haven't followed me/checked my stuff out there yet, please help me reach my goal and give this post a like or retweet if you can!!

https://twitter.com/DullpointDraws/.....88964854542617

I'm very proud of this animation and I would love to see my dream for it become a reality!

Also check out the full-res version on e621: https://e621.net/posts/4486354

Just a reminder that I have a Discord server for art sharing and chatting! For folks 18+ ONLY, please read the rules when you join (it'll explain the lack of chatrooms when you first join)! Please check it out if you're interested!!

discord.gg/ZPAHdwv2AE

I've officially made a version of my Roxy glass animation with audio! As far as I'm aware you can't upload video files here, so here's a link if anyone wants to check it out!

https://twitter.com/DullpointDraws/.....88964854542617

I'll upload it here too if I can find a way to!

Reminder that I have a Bluesky page, please give me a follow there if you can!

https://bsky.app/profile/dullpointd.....ws.bsky.social

I finally made it to Bluesky, come check out my page!

https://bsky.app/profile/dullpointd.....ws.bsky.social

Not sure if I ever posted about it here, but I made a public Discord server! For people 18+ ONLY, please read the rules when you join (it'll explain the lack of chatrooms when you first join)! I'm hoping to form a decently tight community there, so come check it out!

discord.gg/ZPAHdwv2AE

I recently created an Itaku account in light of Twitter's recent comically large fuck-up. I plan to hopefully have my entire gallery uploaded there soon (from 2015 to now, including a few really old drawings I never posted anywhere at all) so please check it out!

https://itaku.ee/profile/dullpoint

Seeing as how my only means of communication with the rest of the internet has been unjustly taken from me by Twitter, I'm once again going to drop my Discord tag here if anyone wants to talk:

Dullpoint #5305

Please note that I'm not online at all times so I might take some time to reply. I also tend not to engage in conversations that are just started with the word "hi" and nothing else.

I have no clue what I did wrong but Twitter suspended my account out of the blue today, meaning that this site is my last hope. Judging by the rules that are about to be enforced here though this place might bite the dust too. I submitted an appeal to Twitter but I don't have confidence that they'll unlock my account. If I'm somehow permanently suspended there then I have no desire to try and rebuild my follower base for the third time with a new account.

If all goes well, then there's nothing to worry about. But if my appeal doesn't go through, then... eight years was a pretty good run, I guess.

It's my birthday today :3

Yeah that's pretty much it

Thank you everyone for helping me reach 2,000 watches here! I've honestly found that this platform is the most difficult to thrive on as an artist, so seeing that so many of you were able to find me here really makes me happy! Thank you all so much for the support, I'll hopefully have something new to post soon!

Here's my Discord tag if anyone here is interested!

Dullpoint#5305

I DO NOT RP AND I DO NOT TAKE REQUESTS. Please don't message me if you're just looking for one of those two things, because I will not provide them.

I also may take some time to reply sometimes, so I apologize for that in advance.


I also have a Discord server (mostly just for mutuals), so if we've chatted before or just know each other from somewhere, feel free to ask me about it!