How y'all doin

I disabled my account for a while because like.
With the world catching damn'ass fire I was just wanting to budget my spoons.
And I really just wanted to ghost a lot of my social media to conserve mental energy, y'know?
Too much thoughts and junk in my head and I just had to go
*poof*
For a while.

But yeah.
I re-activated my account so a friend could see my work, and that felt like a convenient reason to return.
I dunno' if anybody was really missing me or not, but you gotta admit, unexplained long absences are pretty on brand for me at this point.

I think I'm still gonna avoid Twitter though, I feel like I just had one too many bad experiences with it, and I just really don't want to use it if I don't really have to.

Anyways, hope all y'all are safe and healthy out there
Take care of yourselves!
-DD

No particular reason, just the previous one is kinda outdated and taking up a lot of profile page real-estate.

So... where the hot fuck am I with my life right now?
Let's see if we can make it quick, so this doesn't turn into a novel.

1. Mental health is still janky and difficult, but it's getting better.
2. not currently working a job-job right now, but trying to be the best house-spouse I can be as well as create/do art regularly.
3. I'm really into Melodic Death Metal and poppy Vaporwave/Future Funk music lately (because both of those things DON'T get stuck in my head on loop like a lot of music does for me.)
4. I've been uploading some stuff to my Youtube channel, that's mostly just me experimenting with audio software to make some spooky ASMR type stuff and an animatic I farted out for fun. Y'all can check that out if you want.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCw.....gCtk8o5dKBdC1A

5. and uh.... shit I dunno, I'm kind of a metronome lately going back and forth between good days and bad days, but I'm still getting up in the morning. Things will get better, it's just gonna take some time.

and that's pretty much it, so yeah.
peace out homies
-DD

If you're going through my recent uploads, it should be relatively obvious that I've been kinda re-branding a little bit.

I wanted to step away from FA for a while because I started feeling like I was restricting myself over here a smidge. Like I felt like I had to do bugs all the time because I'm a bug guy and I do bugs and stuff, but I was getting burnt out on that theming.
And this started earlier than that, but I don't quite like to do NSFW material quite as much anymore, because I felt like that was the only thing most people here cared about y'know?
and on top of that, I really didn't like some of the creepy or lowbrow comments I would get sometimes. That just really bothered me, but I also told myself "Well it's FA, you're gonna get those sometimes."

But I don't know, that kinda thing just made me feel cheap, like I get comments that are just "hurhur, porn when?" Though i guess I brought that on myself with how much NSFW I'd done previously.
If I'm being honest, I may still draw up some softcore/cheesecakey kinda stuff in the future, but I think PORN-porn is probably gonna be done around here for a while, or at least really rare.

anyways,
The other interesting thing going on lately is that I've been doing some experiments with drag stuff, and I'm really enjoying it actually. It's kinda invaded my artwork lately, so there's probably gonna be a lot of that. Its been an odd thing, because I just tried it on a whim and now my head is going into some janky gender experimenting nonsense that I never really thought I'd have? It's super weird.
All that being said, I'm a little more active over on my Twitter/tumblr, where I toss up doodles and random thoughts and junk
https://twitter.com/DoodlesDunwich
https://aphonic-bees.tumblr.com/

I'll still post here too though, at least with some more polished stuff.

and that's basically it, I just wanted to throw down some thoughts on the journal here.
catch y'all around
~DD

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AvC.....xKVc&t=12s

This is kinda just a first attempt, but I'm gonna try and make this a weekly project to just like.
Talk about shit. Movies, games, shenanigans, crippling mental issues, whatever.

I'll try to make myself more listenable as the weeks go on, but this will work for now just to get my feet wet.

Just a brief reminder that I can also be found on my deviantart
https://www.deviantart.com/dunwichdoodles

and my Tumblr
https://bumblekingdunwich.tumblr.com/

I post different art in these two places, DA for kinda my "Professional" art, the kind I'm willing to show to friends/family/strangers,
and then my Tumblr which is sorta like my experimenting ground. So you'll see some different stuff depending on where you go.
And then I just like to think of FA as my private place, stuff that's mostly just for me and the friends I've made here.

So yeah!
Drop by if you feel like it.
and that's all I got, so y'all have a good night/day/morning whenever you happen to be at the moment.

Everybody back in the pool.
I let my lizard brain control my head for too long and I reeeeeeaaallly missed being here.
I'd say more, but part of keeping my OCD under control is knowing when it's not worth over thinking or over analyzing.
so THAT'S IT.
EVERYONE BACK TO WHAT YOU WE'RE DOING.
UNLESS IT WAS SUPER FUCKED UP, THEN MAYBE CONSIDER YOUR POSITION IN LIFE BUT ALSO SHARE IT.

I upped my meds recently, and it's... kinda having some uncomfortable effects.
mostly just feeling really sedated/depressed and it's hard to be motivated.
This happened when I first started on the stuff, so it's not a real major surprise, but with that said? I might take a little bit of a break.

I don't have a whole lot to do recently, since my group therapy is over and I'm not currently working. So I tried to make my art sorta my main focus, like THAT was gonna be my job for a while. But the more I try to force myself to draw every day, the less fun or cathartic it is for me.

I don't plan to disappear or anything, I just realize that I need to find other ways to occupy my time. I don't want to turn a hobby I do for fun into something I have to MAKE myself do every day, y'know?
I'm also thinking about cutting down on the amount of explicit NSFW art I do, but that's a separate issue I'm pondering on.

who knows, I might pull a total 180 overnight and flip my whole standpoint, but for now? yeah.
might just go easy.

peace out.
-DD

I already made an actual art post about this, but I might as well keep advertising it.

I made a Kofi account! So if you like my stuff and maybe you want to buy me a coffee sometime? It'd be much appreciated.
https://ko-fi.com/dunwichsamwich

and if you happen to stop by there, keep an eye on the gallery.
because I plan on posting some stuff there that I won't post here.
Mostly just some more experimental art, safe for work stuff, human characters, potentially videos, or just pieces I feel really good about. Stuff I usually put on Deviantart to show friends and family.

....oh and by the way I have a Deviantart page I've been updating on with art I don't post here. I like to keep it separate because I show that gallery to friends and family in reality that wouldn't take very well to the whole "Furry" culture, so visit if you like but behave yourselves
https://dunwichdoodles.deviantart.com/

So YEAH.
if you want to kick a couple bucks my way sometimes as a little tip for me posting my nonsense all the time, it'd be really appreciated. Have a fine day everybody.

Work hard
life be frustrating
want draw more lewd nonsense
bark bark bark

we've also apparently hitting the point where I'm incredibly unapologetic about how little I update.
Like I'm willing to waste everybody's time by making them read my incoherent rambling with their eyeballs.

Ya'll may have noticed that I probably posted more stuff tonight than I have like, in the past fucking year or two

I've been kinda stressed lately, and I like to draw as a way to de-stress.
So I doodle more and I occasionally spiff up a shiny art, but it's kinda lame when you have nobody to show.
and FA has always been my home for my art, so I want to try and get back into posting here again.
Whether it be just a doodle or something really polished.

I've made promises before to get more active again, but they've always fallen kinda flat. So who knows, maybe I'll bork this up too and totally disappear again.
But I genuinely want to come back to posting art and chatting with other artists again.
Life gets kinda uninteresting when all you really do is work, eat, sleep and kill time with videogames.

So hopefully I'll be around again.
For now, I should go to bed because speak of the devil, [b]I have work in the morning.[/i]
I still work in a grocery store, but I moved from a bagger to a janitor for nearly a year and now to cashier.
which is ironically, a lot less stressful than being the janitor.

nice seeing some old fans still watching me, by the way.
catch ya'll around

So riddle me this, Batman

I do still draw, if albeit a little less frequently. But I'm usually just doodling in sketchbooks/notebooks.
That's mostly because I work a good chunk of the time, so sitting down with my tablet and really planting myself in to draw doesn't quite happen all that often.

BUT
I have considered posting some of the doodles I do at least. Or maybe even making a whole separate account just dedicated to whatever traditional art I do.
AND HERE'S THE RIDDLE ME THIS BATMAN
if there's anybody out there who's still interested in my art in general, would you want to see that?
like it wouldn't be much, but I'm just curious.

I haven't been active on FA in quite some time, and considering the empty gaping void that I feel in my life maybe I should just slip back into the furry community. Since (most of the time) everybody's fairly positive and supporting and all that.

So, it occurs to me that I haven't really been keeping my followers updated here on the current situation in my life.

In a nutshell, I was sick for a month or so with stomach/digestive problems
After several doctor's visits, they deduced it was being caused by my anxiety
I saw a psychiatrist and just started some anti-depressants
and
they
are
kicking
my
ass
I was fine for the first day or so, but now the side effects are kicking in.

So it's a little hard to anything other than sit/lie still and try not to move too fast.
or look at anything that's moving too fast...
eesh...

but, the hope is that after a few days I'll adjust to the meds and I'll start feeling better. I've been dealing with these awful anxiety issues for way too long, so I can put up with this if it means I'll get better later.

I just wanted to mention that it's been about a week since i've submitted anything, and I HAVEN'T dropped off the planet again, it's just been so goddamned hot down here that it's really hard to comfortable for it...

also i've been sick.

protip: Don't eat a bunch of greasy eggrolls one day, eat greasy tacos the next day, eat greasy BURGERS the next day, and then try to play DDR with your niece/nephew when you're already in pain from spending the day in and out of bathrooms.

because you're going to hurt like a bitch for a few days TT~TT

but anyway. regular arts and commissions will resume as soon as
A: I don't feel like I've eaten a cinderblock
or
B: the sun stops brutally assaulting my house

GO WISH A HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU FUCKING NERDS

WHY WAS I NOT INFORMED THIS WAS HAPPENING UNTIL NOW
http://store.steampowered.com/app/306670

A DIABLO-ESQUE OVERLORD GAME WITH COUCH CO-OP THAT'S STILL WRITTEN BY RHIANNA PRATCHETT

http://steamcommunity.com/games/306.....90214913038132

SERIOUSLY, WHY WAS THERE NOT A GOBLIN UNDER MY SINK TO HAND ME A VELVET ENVELOPE WITH THIS NEWS INSIDE

But my life expectancy is probably more around the 60's or 70's, maybe 80's if I'm lucky.
So it's more like a third of my life gone by now.

that's a spooky thought.

happy birthday to me. *finger waggle*

I'M PLAYING:

-TOMB RAIDER: DEFINITIVE EDITION
-KIRBY TRIPLE DELUXE
-ANIMAL CROSSING: NEW LEAF
-POKEMON X
-ASSCREED: BLACK FLAG
-PERSONA Q
-OLD SCHOOL DOOM

WAITING FOR THE RARE: REPLAY TO COME OUT BECAUSE I WANT TO PLAY FUCKING CONKER'S BAD FUR DAY

MIGHT PRE-ORDER SENRAN KAGURA 2 FOR THE 3DS DEPENDING ON HOW MUCH SHAME I WANT TO FEEL

Okay, here's a thing.

Y'know how I draw bug characters and junk?
Two creatures I will never adapt:
1. Ants.
Because they're goddamned pests. I've been running around my house all day because fucking fire ants have been invading my home through every nook and cranny they can squeeze through.

2. Centipedes. Because Centipedes are like wasps. They exist with the soul intention of ruining your day. A spider is just trying to get by. A spider is just hanging out and junk. A fucking centipede though? it's WRITTEN in their genetic code TO TRY AND FUCK YOU UP.

...I just killed a centipede in my bathroom and it's got us kinda fucked up over here. That's the like the universal sign of "Yo, your house isn't safe from this shit."
And I have a lot of laundry on my bedroom floor...
so
fire
yes
fire
let's just use that to wash my laundry, that'll work

YOU KNOW WHAT I NEED MORE OF?
NACHO CHEESE BUGLES.

...I just wanted to override the last journal I had up, it was waking up too much profile real-estate.

Or over 52,000 words of pussy and ass anyway.

SO LOOK AT THIS ACCOUNT I NEVER UPDATE OR DO ANYTHING WITH, LET'S PUT UP A NEW JOURNAL FOR WHATEVER FUCKING PURPOSE.

Well, there's sort of a purpose.
First of all, I finally broke over 100 pages and 52 thousand words on my "DD's Pornstar Life" story I've been working on! I still prefer to keep it on SoFurry, so pay a visit if you feel like it

Second of all, I guess to just be straight?
I don't know if I'm really ever going to come back to updating that much. I mean, I'm not saying I give up drawing or anything, that's just ridiculous.

But the thing is, work makes my hands hurt. Like a lot. They're kinda always in a state of unpleasantness, and that makes it really uncomfortable to draw sometimes. I still doodle and such in my sketchbooks and who knows? Maybe we'll return to the dark ages where I just scanned/took pictures and posted the raw sketches
(oddly enough, working with a tablet causes me IMMEDIATE pain, I'm not sure why...)

So.
Whatever.
Maybe I'll draw, maybe I won't. Maybe I'll start posting things, maybe I won't, I don't know.
But regardless of whether I put up content or not, I'll still be lurking around near every day. So I'm not dead, but I am just kinda shambling aimlessly.

and I guess that's all I have to say.
peace out, fuckers

~DD

edit: And oh yeah, I changed my icon for no particular reason.

I've actually been pretty hard at work writing a series over on SoFurry
https://moth-of-fuzzy-grey.sofurry.com/
(obviously, much like FA you'll have to make an account if you want to see the naughty bits)

working on Chapter 5 currently. It follows the pornstar bat character I made up a long while back.

I also have a tumblr that I...well. I really just post fucking nonsense there and reblog shit, but occasionally I draw something there that I don't post here.
http://mothfuzzy.tumblr.com/

so there you go.
and I still Lurk FA all the damned time, so yeah. I'm around.
sorry that I only ever post when the planets align in an equinox over my head.

You guys been keeping up with the Five Nights at Freddy's hype?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?featu.....;v=RP4UTOek0-Y
basically, you're a security guard at a chuckie-cheese type pizza joint with animatronic singing animals

anomatronic singing animals that come alive at night to try and break into your office and get your sweetmeats. The gameplay revolves around checking your cameras, keeping tabs on where they are, and then turning on lights/closing your doors to keep them out. BUT, you only have so much power to do all three of these things. Checking the camera, lights and doors.

It's a really neat/pretty legit scary concept. AND what makes things worse, is that as the nights progress, things get more difficult and they become harder to track, until FREDDY HIMSELF shows up, who has an adaptive AI that learns how you played the last few levels? And uses it to fuck with you.

though, Foxy tends to be the one to get people most.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?featu.....;v=E9Lq-f9jlXU
He's gets unhappy if you don't check his hiding place often enough...
the game is like, 2 dollars off the guy's website, so if you feel like paranoia and jumpscares, give it a look.

also totally separate note, I DID move ahead with my plan to purge my gallery a little bit, but all the commissions are still there in scraps, and I didn't delete ALL the sketchy work. Just everything up till the past 2 years or so. Seemed like a good idea at the time.

Anyway.
GET REDDY 4 FREDDY

Okay, not entirely. But, I'm trying to focus a little more on writing than art right now, and for that? I like SoFurry's system a lot better for submitting written work.

So here's my profile,
https://moth-of-fuzzy-grey.sofurry.com/

I've got two chapters of an ongoing story up, so feel free to give those a look. I'm still going to lurk FA and maybe post an art now and then, but I'm gonna be focusing on my writing for a bit. So I'll be more active over there.

Tootles for now~
DD.

Or if you catch me on SoFurry,
MoFG

Just today. One more day of finals, then I work clinic tomorrow, then
a week of sweet sweet freedom.... before I have to start the summer semester

goddamn fuckass dick

But I've really been letting my creative muscles atrophy lately, so hopefully I can do another every-other-monthly art dump soon. And the summer hopefully won't be too bad, it's just been difficult this semester because saturday has been literally my only day off during the week. At least in the summer I'll have my weekends back. And then I graduate in July, and once we hit that point I outta have WAY more free time to waste drawing penises on things.

Anyways, I suppose this is more a reminder to myself to do shit at some point. It's just been that kinda thing where you're so focused on work and bummed out about it that you kinda forget about the hobbies that make you feel better.

drawin monster genitals, yeeeeaaaaahhhhh

catch y'all after I de-stress
-DD

I love how I post two pieces of art, claim I'll draw more, and then not draw anything.

HOWEVER, I am still podcasting movie reviews and some original stuff.

https://soundcloud.com/spidersynthpop

so far, I've got

Hitman: The movie
The Cape
The adventures of Dr Muzzletome and Mr Desmodus (original)
The 86 Transformers movie
2012 Red Dawn
and DOOM: The movie

give em a listen if you got time to spare. I'm looking for critique and what I can do to do a little better.